#he feels like he's grasping at the coattails of two relationships that have already outgrown him | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

tuppytuptup · 5 years ago

Quote

Five watches as Ben finds Vanya’s elbow easily, ushering her behind him with nary a glance in her direction. There’s no delay on Vanya’s part, she allows herself to be corralled by Ben’s guiding hand without resistance, tucking in close to his back and matching his stride. Ben slices through the throng of bodies like a knife through butter with Vanya following in his wake, going unhindered by the thickening crowd thanks to the width of her brother’s shoulders. It feels so well rehearsed. So easy. As if they’ve had a hundred chances to get it right. How many times has his brother reached for their sister that she no longer hesitates at his touch? How often has Vanya pressed herself close that Ben doesn’t blink at her proximity even after they’ve broken from the crowd? Each new question sits uneasily in Five’s stomach, slick as oil, and he has no idea why.

unfinished draft i just unearthed feat. jealous!five, benya and potential for ot3

#tua #fiveya #benya #i feel like in the absence of five #given perhaps their ineptitude in expressing their emotions in an act of self preservation #ben and vanya were more a physical presence in each others lives rather than a vocal one #sitting quietly together in the library as they read #hovering close while the other was berated #hands brushing in a show of comfort #things that showed each other they cared without ever having to say it aloud still too afraid of rejection #and they spent the remainder of their childhood like this #they grew into adults like this #completely at ease in the other's orbit #and five missed it #he missed all of it #he feels like he's grasping at the coattails of two relationships that have already outgrown him #tuppy natterings #re-post because i accidentally deleted

59 notes · View notes