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aquaticfreakshow-sys · 2 days ago

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Oh noo,, venting.

I wish my relationship would stop having to almost end just for one day of actually being thought about instead of neglected and forced to do everything for both of us on my own

#all of 2024 was the same cycle of me begging him to stop and him repeating it immediately. im so tired. im so tired #i keep telling myself that yknow. at least he isn't violent anymore. but. id take getting screamed at over getting ignored.#this is the one last chance to fix it before i walk away from everything. even though ive said that several times. i mean it #i mean it. i cant take this anymore #i haven't felt truly loved in so long. it feels like hes just attached to me instead of loving me.#ill never forget being told “i only yell at you because i feel comfortable with you” or being called th//nsp* when i asked for recovery help #ill never forget crying and begging him to Stop only for him to continue. and do it again the next day. and the next.#leaving me alone despite promises to stay. never considering me. never listening or trying anything at all #he fakeclaimed my autism once. that is something ill never forget.#i relapsed after four years because it made me feel tired and sleepy so that i could sleep when he breaks those promises to stay. i told him #and he only started caring about that when someone else brought it up to him.#im so fucking tired #i want to fix things but im the only one trying

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