#he did apologise but like. is he just pretending to be nice and doesn't actually like me. solas nooooo

[the-apocalypse-is-cancelled]

Romancing iron bull in dragon age inquisition AND NO ONE TOLD ME HE JUST SAYS THAT

[asarajaa]

OKAY. MEETING BACHIRAS MOM FOR THE FIRST TIME. 🤭🤭🤭

(no pressure if you don’t want to do it ofc bbg<3 )

Ofc bb but have patience, I’m a little bit down cause I didn’t like at all my last post so yk 😭✋🏽

Omg I’m so dumb, I answered it without the fic made HAHAJJAJAJA, when I got it I’ll put it here and I’ll tell ya, k love? Have some paciencia 😽💗

Update: k so I already did it so here you go my love, hope you like it <3!

Warnings: fem!reader Words: 656 Disclaimer: English isn't my first language so I apologise for any mistakes or misunderstandings! Taglist: @merlucide

Meeting Bachiras mom for the first time

₊˚ෆ To help me with this, I will pretend it is the second part of the Bachira falling in love hcs.

₊˚ෆ Indeed, his mom liked you.

₊˚ෆ First of all, when Bachira got home and told her mom about you, she was super enthusiastic to meet you!

₊˚ෆ After Bachira made a move and you guys become boyfriend and girlfriend, the next step was meeting each others parents, being Bachira the first.

₊˚ෆ When the time came, you were extremely nervous, Bachira tried everything to make you feel less nervous but obviously it didn't work.

₊˚ෆ You wanted to everything go great. Your friends always says that is like having a second family and that creating a bond with his mom is important bc she's gonna be like a second mom to you.

₊˚ෆ You made yourself a list of 5 rules to follow when you meet his mom (which made Bachira laugh at you because- babe, my mom is super chill you don't need to do those things.)

₊˚ෆ Rule number 1: Do not show empty handed. It doesn't matter if you give her flowers, some dessert or a gift, Bachiras mom will appreciate it and think that you're a very nice and sweet girl. She's the type of person who appreciates the small things so giving smth to her will be perfect.

₊˚ෆ Rule number 2: Dress modestly. Look, Bachiras mom wouldn't care if you go with some jeans and a cute top, in fact, she would compliment you. But if you go dressed like if you're going to some club she would not think bad of you but neither she'll think good of you. I believe that as an artist she's very into the fashion world and if you're meeting her with a cute outfit she'll like you.

₊˚ෆ Rule number 3: Don't try to be somebody that you're not. She want to meet the person her son fall in love with, no one else. She'll like you just the way that you are! As an artist, Bachiras mom know about being judge so don't worry about those things.

₊˚ෆ Rule number 4: Always offer to clean up. Of course, she wouldn't let you, but it would be nice seeing the effort of your actions that his son never stops talking about.

₊˚ෆ Rule number 5: Try having a one on one time with her. Women to women bounds are super special so you have to use the opportunity to grow a very strong relationships. Honestly, she always wanted a daughter so just talked with her about girl things and it would be awesome!

You and Bachiras mom were left alone, she told Bachira to go to the store to buy some dessert (you bought flowers) so now you girls were alone.

"So, how did you knew you wanted to be an artist Mrs.Bachira?" you asked her enthusiastic, the dinner went awesome and you guys were having a great time.

Bachiras mom loved your question, nobody usually ask her about her profession and you were actually interested.

As the night went by, you girls ended up having a girl talk about the latest in fashion, the new tea about celebrities, skincare and make-up.

When Bachira came with the dessert, he was confused. He left you guys silent and when he come back you were sitting next to each other talking passionately about some new viral linase mask that gives a botox effect. Although he wasn't complaining either.

"Word of mouth is that the mask also works to give definition on the curly haired girls." you said showing her the video of a girl trying it.

"Really?" she said leaning to you "Bachiras cousin has curly hair, i'll show it to her."

₊˚ෆ She loved you, like she would call you some days to exchange tips and your calls last hours.

₊˚ෆ Bachira was more than happy when he find out, It seemed perfect to him that the two women in his life got along so well.

nksdhfsbfv idk what I did.

I feel like It was too short, great rules tho

28/04/24

© asarajaa — Please, do not copy, translate or reuse my work without my permission.

[slashingdisneypasta]

Absolutely not at all related to the events of last night...

How do you think Baby Firefly would react to being called mommy? This is a very important question you see.

Mommy!Baby Firefly x Younger!Fem!Reader || Headcanons

Topic: Baby being a 'Mommy'.

Warnings: Mommy kink, mdlg, some nsfw themes, Baby pulling an Annie WIlkes and m a k i n g you rely on her, etc.

((After the ~ dot point is when it gets dark like that)).

Oh my goodness I think she would love it!! XDD The boys always get to be called Daddy, and she wanted a turn!!

And like I've said- she definitely takes the opportunity to treat her sweet S/O as her living doll XD Not necessarily in a kinky way (Though she is going to tease you if she knows you're into that~ ); she's just having fun pretending you rely on her~ You're Baby's lil baby girl, aren't you?

She feeds you and then gently dabs your face with a damp cloth to clean you up ('... there. All better! So pretty~ ^^'). She lays in bed beside you stroking your hair and telling you bedtimes stories- and no, you don't get a choice when bedtime is (Baby it 5.30- 'Shh! The wolf is about to blow down house made of goddamn sticks!'). She gets in the shower with you and washes your hair ('🎶Scrub scrub scrub🎶 Scrub-a-dub-dub 🎶'), and she loves it when your silly little head ends up in the gutter. She can always tell when her pretty little sweetheart is thinking dirty thoughts about Mommy~ And you know this woman plays it up XD

Mommy Baby is always the big spoon. She has to protect her sweet little lady and make her comfy!

Ehem, *cough*, pussy inspections. The more shy and nervous you are the more she likes it. She teases how red you get, and asks if you'll do mommy next?? 'We girls have to look out for eachother, huh? (; '

Baby l o v e s braiding your hair if its long enough!!! Like, she'll just be sitting behind you cross-legged, humming little songs and gently brushing out your hair before lovingly braiding it ^^

And- I wasn't sure whether to put this one in this section or the next (dark) section but- Baby gets SO PROTECTIVE of you. Like, if Otis so much as makes a joke about hurting you he might get cut.

~

I can absolutely see Baby pulling a Tiffany Valentine/Annie Wilkes!! and trying to make you actually rely completely on her. Whether that be by taking some limbs so you need her help wheeling you around or feeding you (Can you imagine her riding the back of your wheechair?? She'd have so much fun , going 'weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!' and you're just there traumatised and sick), or drugging you so you're all cute and loopy ('Awwww, Y/N sweetheart, you look so sleepy!!~~ Come to mama~').

She makes a mess of you, so you need her. And she tries to isolate you, too. 'Who else is gonna care for you sweetness?? Otis?? You better stay by me, so that big meanie doesn't hurt you, k?' 'Mama?? No hon, Mama doesn't like you! I'm sorry- you thought she did?? Nooo, cutiepie, she's only nice to you because I love you!!~ ' 'Oh Cutter?? Pfft- baby doll, come on- Cutter doesnt like anyone. Least of al little old you!'

Baby absolutely threatens you if you try to get away from her, or defy or, or just say 'no' in any context towards her. Woman does not like it. She has been so nice to you and you dare to be fucken rude like that?? 'I'll beat your ass, honey, do you want that?? No I didn't fucken think so! Be-fucking-have!'

If you apologise and beg her she will forgive ^^ She loves it when you beg mommy ^^

[theflyindutchwoman]

I thought torturing you would be more fun, and getting your mind off of whatever's been bothering you. But I should know better than trying to get into your personal business. Good night. Ashley and I, uh, broke up. Well, I guess technically, she broke up with me. I'm sorry. Thanks. Look, and just so you know, I-I did appreciate your whole radio gag… a little. It took my mind off things. Well, good.

| ANATOMY OF A SCENE - CHENFORD EDITION 5.06 - The Reckoning

In some ways, this scene is a nice follow-up from the previous scene in the parking lot, after their 'first' kiss. Things are still a bit awkward between them but they're trying to push forward. Only, this time, Tim admits what's on his mind - or at least, parts of it - instead of pretending. This feels like a step forward, especially after Lucy stayed at Tim's bedside.

For all their progress, it's clear from the beginning that they're not quite back to their usual dynamic and bantering. Yet. Lucy is hesitant at first, almost shy, as she apologises to Tim for getting into his personal business, worried that she may have overstepped… Something she never really did before. And yet… They still crave that proximity, long for the other. When she gives him back his radio, he goes to grab it but doesn't take it either. They both hold onto it, trying to maintain that contact with the other. It's not quite like their (unnecessary long) handshake, but it does have a similar vibe. They remain a bit off-balance, not quite knowing where their boundaries are now. Even her little comment about torturing him not being as fun hints at this.

But that doesn't mean he didn't enjoy her little scavenger hunt. In the end, it worked exactly the way she envisaged. It's only when she goes to leave, that he actually opens up. He may have been reluctant at first, but he doesn't want to sever their connection at all. Most importantly, he doesn't want her to think she did anything wrong or upset him… He doesn't want her to stop trying. Because it shows how much she cares. She was simply trying to reach out to him and cheer him up, and deep down, he was touched by her attention and intention… In light of his breakup with Ashley, it matters even more. So he promptly confesses to make her stay, before correcting himself and admitting that Ash was the one who ended their relationship. And there's a bit of irony here : all this time, he didn't want to talk about this, only for him to practically treat the breakup as an afterthought. He quickly changes the topic and is more focused on making sure Lucy knows how much he appreciated her gesture. And it was a genuinely sweet gesture. With some romantic connotations. But mostly, it was everything Tim needed. Ashley broke up with him after showing one last time that she never truly knew the real him whereas Lucy orchestrated this treasure hunt to let him know how well she knows him. This just highlighted the difference between them even more… and the contrast in their message : Ashley couldn't accept who he was in the end while Lucy celebrated what makes him him. It was her way of saying that she sees him. All of him. She looks so pleased with herself when he concedes that he enjoyed the whole game… Before turning a bit smug, pursing her lips, glad that she succeeded. Her little 'good' is so sweet.

The way the camera actually stresses how far apart they're standing from one another, as if to symbolise the gap they still need to bridge is on point. Still… even that distance can't prevent them from having a moment. They can't tear their eyes off each other. The longing… The lingering looks… Judging by their body language, it seems like they were both about to say something more, trying to prolong this moment a bit longer. That is, until Chris comes within sight, as a reminder that he's still in the picture (since he tends to be forgotten). And that shot of him coming in between them summarise everything. Their last real hurdle.

Lucy inviting Tim to join them for dinner is both hilarious and awkward. And the thing is, she wasn't just being polite, she truly wanted him to come grab a bite with them. She's nowhere near as uncomfortable as the last time they were all in the same place. In her mind, she may not be able to be with Tim, but she still wants to be friends. And friends invite each other for dinner. While Tim is having more and more difficulty with this. Still, inviting the man you have feelings for and almost slept with to come eat with you and your boyfriend is bold… So Tim instantly declining the invitation, a big fake smile in place, is not surprising. Neither is Chris ushering Lucy away. No words needed : this shot depicts the whole story. Especially with Tim turning back to watch Lucy leave. He looks so defeated. The pining… And it definitely shows that the breakup was not the sole thing bothering him. He's not the only one turning back though. So does Lucy… Things are about to come to a head.

[jamtoasties3316]

Can't lie, I'm very into the forced gentle sex with Nico and Toto and Toto being so manipulative about it. Nico hating every second of the sex and just laying there afterwards in tears, not wanting to be touched. He tells Toto that he didn't want it, that Toto forced him, and Toto turns the situation around, pretending to be so offended and upset by what Nico has accused him of, laying it on so thick that Nico actually ends up comforting him. Toto would always ask Nico if he ever hurt him, if he ever made Nico bleed or left bruises on him, or if he made Nico cum, if he kissed him, and say that that proves that Toto isn't in the wrong.

And the size difference oh my god! Toto likes to dress Nico up in his shirts and blazers, nothing on underneath of course, just to make nico seem so much more little. He can wrap his hands all the way around Nico's waist, which is terrifying to Nico, but not as terrifying as when Toto fucks him, and his cock is so big that Nico's tummy bulges from it. Toto always strokes his belly and whispers to him about how beautiful he would look pregnant with Toto's baby

Yess!

Nico feeling so disgusted after they have sex, pussy still leaking cum and gaping from how big Toto is and he feels so weak and vulnerable! He gasps out thst he can't believe Toto did this, thst he hurt him like this, and Toto just feigns being shocked!

Toto asking if Nico is hurting, if he didn't eat nico out to make him cum and kiss him while.fucking him so gently to make it good for him. He pretends to be so affected by Nico's accusation thst nico apologises, scooting over to hug the Alpha in comfort and saying he is sorry, Toto was nice to him...

Nico doesn't complain much after thst, even though he still doesn't want to be fucked by his boss. Toto likes seeing thr Omega wearing hid dress shirts, looking so tiny, so prey like, snd knowing thst Nico is not strong and big like him!

Nico being so scarwd but turned on when Toto wraps his hands around his little waist. He is terrified but a primal part of him just sees a perfect Alpha.

And yes Toto's cock being so big! It takes a lot of finger fucking and pussy eating to get Nico ready at first (but it's easier when Nico's pussy is still gaping a little from earlier) for Nico to be able to take him and Toto is quick to point out how Nico's tummy bulges when he pushes in. Nico panting as he sees it, confused and fussy as Toto rubs his clit and talks about knocking him up while continuing his slow strokes. Nico knows its inevitable before Toto will get him pregnant, filling him up with so much cum....

[wrens-garden]

Outsiders Smp, Krowfang POV, episode 28

I'm gonna be real, this is like a thing I'm doing in the background to something else, so I might not catch everything. I apologise for how... slow I am with these, but I genuinely have no interest in this series any more. That will change in like a month or two I'm sure, but this has dragged on for me, and I'm excited to start live blogging Fable Smp with less expectations for myself, maybe. Anyway, onto the episode, I guess.

Onward they go after a quick breakdown from Gracie.

That wasn't fun. Jesus Spidey you don't creep up on someone like that, especially someone who had been attacked less than what 48 hours ago? Why did everyone seem so upset by the idea of Krow getting startled or getting scared, then acting accordingly? Fear response, my man.

Another maze! Yay.

Why is everyone so shocked that Krow is an ass? It has always been a bit of a prick, name-calling isn't beyond it. Especially now. Something still feels wrong with Krow, I firmly believe this is Fang not Krow and that Krow is dead. Or at least not in control. Not in a DID way but in a demonic possession way.

Let Krow be angry and hurt, and let it act accordingly. It nearly died, was nearly killed by someone it deemed a friend actually, and also the person it's arguably closest too, if not the only one it's close to, just died. I think it should be allowed to lash out a little if all it's doing is name-calling and being a bit argumentative.

Oh, the good old, you think you made it.

Library maze time! Personally, a fan of this maze.

Magic has run ahead of the group and Krow is following her, don't think the group noticed that. Krow is such an ass to Magic but its so understandable

Gracie is pissed with Krow. Krow is insistent that Ayngel is right. She is but they don't know that.

I don't like the fact that no one seems to… I don't want to say they don't care about Krow, but that's what it seems like. And I get it, Krow is very snappish and aggressive, but I think maybe they could give a little thought as to why.

They've chased into a water pipe. Krow is pretending to not be affected by this or its resemblance to the sewer pipes.

Hello? Man! Who is this! Someone from the previous group? Either left behind or the last survivor of his group. Damn, there really was something in the water, man got eaten.

Bek is hurt. Krow needed help getting up the rope, the first sign of people caring about it! This won't last, but It's nice to see.

Bek cut the rope and has fallen to her death.

Soup has blown up

Krow and Gracie are on such bad terms. Krow seems to be on bad terms with everyone. This doesn't seem like Krow any more, more like Fang.

"What you wanna kiss" - Krow, you are a gem

"Think of is at the ground getting higher" Gracie when told Acho doesn't like heights.

Pressure plate! Yay! Krow is willing to step on the plate, Kyle doesn't want it to. It has stepped on the pressure plate. The doors have opened.

Yay, my favourite part (I'm being sarcastic)

It sounds so distressed. AH, I dislike this /pos. I love this, but it hurts.

Scott! Eryn! I like that Eryn survived, and I love Scott and the fact he sort of acts like everything is fake despite the fact I'm sure it's well known that it's all real.

Anyway, that was a time I had. It was good, very good, and it is an enjoyable series, just maybe shouldn't have rushed in like I did. Oh, well. Until next time

[truly-morgan]

[Adult Mob with a 9-to-5 job and his exorcist adventure]

Shigeo Kageyama | Mob Psycho 100 20-03-2023

Now @unashamedfully made me have brain worms

But Mob ends up having a normal and boring 9-to-5 job, even tho he still helps Reigen from time to time with spirits.

and every time coworkers ask him what he did on the weekend and he answers honestly with stuff like:

"I travelled to Fishing City to go to a house near the sea so I could exterminate some evils spirit that was haunting the place since my shisho needed help"

and everyone is either "😃" because wtf senpai or "🤨😒" because they believe that he's lying or crazy

And it is always like this, no one actually believes that he does any of this. Shigeo Kageyama, one of the most normal dudes in their department, playing exorcist for a shisho he keeps mentioning?

yeah, sure.

but they still listen because it's entertaining.

but then I had two routes here.

1-

Someone who is stuck with what they believe to be a spirit and although everyone says that Kageyama-senpai is lying about his story or has to be insane, they still ask him for help, and they are ready to take a gamble for that.

sweet old Mob who accepts because why would he ever reject someone in help? When they end work he follows them home and takes a look at their apartment.

Sure enough, a spirit had been bothering his kohai and taking care of it for them. The spirit has gotten stronger from feeding on them for so long, but it's obviously nothing Mob cannot deal with, he has seen a lot worse.

He does apologise for all the stuff that ended up knocked to the floor as he replace everything in their place.

Lill' Kohai who is dumbfounded by what just happened, barely managing to say that it's nothing at all really.

they aren't sure if what happened was all true, but sure enough, all the weird event and feeling weirdly exhausted even after sleeping properly is gone.

now Kageyama-senpai always has someone listening to him like "😲🤩" when he talks about what he does of work with Reigen-Shisho.

Maybe they also try to make the other stop slandering him like that, what he says is true!! But everyone thinks that poor Kohai is gullible.

but it's okay because they know, and if anyone seems to be having a similar problem they are ready to refer Kageyama-senpai for help.

or 2-

Someone who wanna "catch Kageyama-senpai being fake" and asks for help about evil spirits.

They take him to an abandoned building where they planted speakers and stuff like this to pretend there's a ghost. And when Kageyama-senpai will pretend to exorcise something they are gonna reveal everything.

Only, Kageyama-senpai doesn't react much, and makes his way around the place while they follow him. They try pushing him to say something, but Mob simply says that he doesn't feel any spirits, but he'll keep looking.

He does follow all the weird sounds and all the weird movements, but he doesn't pretend to be an exorcist.

The college loses sight of him for a moment, only to see him reappear and continue searching. then after so long of just searching around Kageyama-senpai turns to them as he checks the time on his phone. "There's nothing in here AA-san, Maybe what you saw was someone playing inside of some animal who got in"

and the college isn't sure what to say. After all this time looking around, he isn't going to show off his "exorcist talents"?!? But there was plenty that could have convinces so.

"But I am certain there was something here and people say there is a ghost here" they try to push.

Meanwhile, Mob is already making his way out.

"Sometimes ghost stories are just that, ghost stories," Mobs says.

And then, just before he exits the room, "Oh and AA-san, it's not very nice to fake a place being haunted just to trick people". Then Mob is out, leaving them alone in the very normal abandoned building.

I can imagine Mob eating ramen with Reigen a couple of days later and retelling that story and Reigen is just like "I can't believe people would fake it just to trick you and make you lose your time"

Original

[fallingforel]

Arabella pt 11-for the hope of it all

words: 1,638

gif cred: @thefrontofmymind

"Matty, hey, how are you?"

"fucking shite, bug, they've got me attached to all these wires, I don't want to be here, I want to be in my bed with you"

"Matty" I sigh knowing the next thing I'm about to say isn't what he wants to hear, but it has to be said before I give him a false sense that he's going home after he's been discharged.

"what? spit it out woman" he says making me chuckle, even when he was lying in a hospital bed he was an impatient 3 year old.

"hey, you may be lying in a hospital bed, but I'm not afraid to kick your arse still." I replied before perking up again "do you know what happened Matty?"

"yeah, took a bunch of shit and blacked out"

"yes but you also, suffered from Alcohol poisioning which resulted in you having your stomach pumped, You also hit your head pretty hard, they weren't sure you were going to wake up. You overdosed too"

"shit really? did I really have to get my stomach pumped?"

"yes. why is that the only thing you pick up from that?"

"SICK! Never had to have that done to me before"

"No! Matty, it's not sick, it's bad if you were left there any longer, you could've died."

"Adams been asking about been asking about you too, said you were okay as well."

"whats up with you, why are you calling Hann by his actual name, and not his last name or Ad's like you usually do? whats gone while I was half dead. You all haven't fallen apart without me have you?"

"HEY! you were not half dead, you were merely taking an extra long sleep."

"okay sure I was taking an extra long sleep, tell me whats gone on now then"

"adam said you were dead, when we weren't sure if you were going to wake up, basically blaming you for everything, wasn't your fault you deal with pain different to us, you get high and drunk when your in so much pain"

"yeah, can't say that, what Adam said didn't hurt. Because that would be a lie."

"he still hasn't apologised by the way, it's been two weeks. Been passing everything along to G and Ross. about your state, Your going to the bahamas or bermuda, haven't decided which one your going to yet."

"what for?"

"for rehab matty, You blacked out, the doctors have been strongly suggesting rehab, more of an order than a suggestion I guess"

"nice, It'll be nice to get away from this shitty weather for a good while" He says trying to lace his voice with meaningfulness, though I know he doesn't want to go, Just hoping it makes me shut up about it. I know him through and through and I knew that he was lying through his teeth.

he sits in silence with me for a while before he scares me blurting out a "shit" from his mouth.

"what?"

"what about the album? How am I going to record if I am going to be going to the bahamas"

"don't you worry your sweet little head about that Stink. I've sorted it" Giving him a grin like the chesire cat.

"why have you got that look on your face?" He asks from his hospital bed giving me a confused taken aback look.

"what look?" I ask dumbfounded pretending I don't understand.

"the cheshire cat look Y/n, The one that tells me that you've done something stupid."

"Matty. I haven't done anything stupid perse, just something you might not approve of."

"what?"

"I'm not telling you. You'll hate me for it."

"Tell me. Couldn't hate you more than I already do for sending me to fucking rehab"

"You know it's for the best Matty."

"spit it out"

"I asked, col to take your place on the album. He sounds just enough like you that nobody would notice, he's not touring for you though."

"ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOT. I AM NOT HAVING THAT SCUMBAG TAKE MY FUCKING PLACE THATS MY FIRST FUCKING ALBUM YOUR TALKING ABOUT. CALL OFF THE REHAB GET ME TO THE STUDIO, RIGHT FUCKING NOW" he says raising his voice.

Col and Matty never got on. Not when me and him were together, not when we all ran in the same friendship circle. and certainly not when we broke up and I found out he cheated on me, and I ran to matty's house in tears and cried on his shoulder and slept on his sofa for a month.

-7 MONTHS EARLIER-

"oh, you have got to be fucking joking me" I say as I walked into my shared apartment in London with my boyfriend of 6 years and my bestfriend and adams girlfriend of 5 years. with his head in between her legs.

"Y/n it's not what it looks like"

"yeah, course it fucking isn't. Get a life. I'm going."

"where?"

"away from you, have a nice life. We're DONE" I say.

and before I know it I'm walking out, away from my life and from him all I have ever known while living in london, the first love I have ever known. grabbing my coat and shutting the apartment door and running through the complex out the lobby door, hailing a taxi to the now only safe haven I knew Matty's house.

"Y/n? what are you doing here?" he asks opening the door to me tears filled my eyes. "he cheated on me, with beth." "that fucker. come in, don't want you getting a cold now do we?" I shake my head no and go to sit on his sofa where I would reside for the next month before getting my life together.

-BACK TO THE PRESENT/ DEC 2012-

"Matty calm down will you, your scaring all the other patients. Just sit down, let's talk it through before you go mental and take three steps back that's not what we're trying to achieve here"

"fine." He slumps back on the pillows turning his body to face the wall away from me.

"Matty, we've gone through all the options. All the people closest to you: Ross, Adam, G, your mum, your dad, my mum and dad, jamie too. And we've all agreed it wasn't a bad idea Adam and I are fine with it. But if you disagree to it here's whats going to happen. Your probably going to miss out on releasing your album, You're going to be put on drug watch with someone at your side all times even when you piss if you decide that you want to record, everyone is going to keep an eye out for you. So it's all up to you, but those are your options. What one do you think is best?"

"I ain't going to rehab."

"yes you are Matty, we've already established this. We've picked a nice place out for you to go. It's in bermuda, you get to do equine therapy play with horses, you get to watch the sea it's all very theraputic. It'll help you out Matty trust me. It's either this or a shitty rehab centre in a shitty town in the U.K where you get no 1 to 1 care either. I've got the card and my laptop here. You can have a look at it." I say pulling my laptop out of the cubby hole next to Mattys bed and the card out of my jacket pocket.

"I ain't going."

"matty, you are. You can either go the nice way, which is you go willingly or you can go the harder way where they pull you out of here themselves and I've seen it happen more than once when i've come to visit you. Matty you need to choose, the doctors aren't letting you out of here until you've chosen the route you want to go down, which is going to be close drug watch with one of us, or all of us and rehab at the end after you've recorded or rehab and let col record. and then hard or easiest way"

"fine."

"so whats it going to be?"

"I don't know yet, let me think it through can you go get me some proper food. I don't want none of this hospital shitty crap."

"yeah, okay what do you want?"

"maccies. Double cheeseburger and coke please"

"okay, I'll go get you some. be back soon" I say before leaving his hospital room with a chaste kiss on his forehead.

the drive thru was rather short getting myself chicken nugget meal and I thought on the way back I should probably tell George what was going on seeing as he was closest to Matty after me of course.

"so whats going on"

"I don't know G, I told him I was sending him to rehab he seemed okay at first, knew it was a lie though I could tell. Then I told him about Col recording the album and he started shouting and denying going to rehab, I gave him his options he ended up saying fine. Don't know whether he's chosen going to rehab first or recording. G I'm scared."

"there's no need to be. It's matty he'll come around eventually you know he will. No need to swea-"

and G is abruptly cut off by someone else ringing me, the hospital. that can't be good

"err G I'm gonna have to go, the hospitals phoning"

"okay okay, enjoy mattys madness" He says ending the call allowing me to pick up the hospitals phone call.

"hello?" I say

"hello. Is this Y/N L/N."

"It is how can I help."

"it's matty."

"what about him?"

"he's disappeared"

"okay. I'm coming I'll be there soon." I say ending the phone before screaming

"FOR FUCKS SAKE"

[daybreakrising]

5. What is a character you love, but don’t think you can write? 6. Name 3 things you love most about your muse/muses. 7. What is one overrated roleplay trend? 13. Is there one trope you can’t stand? 18. What is one thing you’d wish to see more in the rp community?

meme for roleplay muns | @wwriothesley

5. What is a character you love, but don’t think you can write?

k//azuha. i adore him, have done since the first time he appeared, but i don't think i'd be able to capture him to a degree i'd be satisfied with.

also, i'd love to write one of the g//enpact ladies but i have no idea who bc i don't think i'd do any of them justice dklfgnlfhgj

6. Name 3 things you love most about your muse/muses.

1) i love that there's quite a variety of personalities within my muse list. i might joke that i have a Type (and i do) but there's actually quite a wide array of characters. it gives me the chance to explore different attitudes and values & keeps things interesting.

2) i can't not mention wrio here, since he's clearly the current favourite. the thing i love most about him is that he's more than what he shows on the surface. i especially love that he turned out to be nothing like anyone expected based on his look. i really enjoy exploring the depths of his character and i can't wait to keep building on that both through my own headcanons and through writing/discussing with partners.

3) i also love my villains. i find villains / antagonists really fun to write, because they don't adhere to any rules. the more morally grey the muse, the more fun i can have with them. i'm not afraid to get dark & i won't apologise for their behaviour in the context of writing (but neither do i excuse them or pretend it's remotely Okay. i'm not a villain apologist and i never will be)

7. What is one overrated roleplay trend?

overformatting replies. i don't see this anymore, so i'm either following the right people, or it's died (or dying) out. but for a while, there was a lot of - frankly wild - formatting trends that i just couldn't understand. now i'm all for making things look nice, of course, but when i can't physically read something because it's so over the top, it kinda defeats the point. if i'm straining my eyes to read your tiny text, or struggling to understand a word because it's got a thousand spaces in it, i'm gonna get tired real quick and i'll lose interest entirely. just... keep it simple. simple can still be pretty.

13. Is there one trope you can’t stand?

oh, man, there are quite a few. i don't even want to mention some of them for fear of ending up in tags i don't wanna be in. i'll let your imagination run wild with that one. generally, though, they're all relating to types of relationships that i just do not vibe with at all.

i guess one i can discuss is a villain getting an undeserved redemption arc - and by that i mean a redemption arc where everyone just conveniently forgets all the terrible shit they did and the villain is never held accountable for their actions. no. that's not redemption, that's bullshit. give me a proper redemption arc with guilt and accountability and consequences.

18. What is one thing you’d wish to see more in the rp community?

it's gotten a lot better since i first started writing here, but it will always need more work - communication, tolerance & patience. i'm so happy that my little corner of the community doesn't seem to have any problems in that department, but i know it's far from true for other parts of the community. some people take this silly little hobby far too seriously and they need to just... chill. that feels like a bit of an obvious answer but i think it's an important one, so... /shrug

[mithliya]

Hi, I’m the “advice anon”, thank you for answering (oh my god that sounded like I am in a TV ad). Anyways, I explained the events here with another blog:

https://www.tumblr.com/letmywingsdown/732396002452078592/previous-anon-because-im-not-confident-enough

Again, thank you for, you know, letting me take your time haha <3

The thing is today I was arguing with my boyfriend. I’ll admit it was my fault because I initiated it for some very irrelevant dumb shit because I’ve been in a horrible mood lately. I knew I had to apologise once he began explaining to me how shitty it was, and I was about to but I couldn’t bring myself to actually say the words because I have a huge ego problem. So he smacked the left side of my face, my left cheek, because I just would remain stubborn and bitchy and not looking his way when he talked. It wasn’t harsh or violent and it didn’t hurt; just the wrist and upper side of the hand, quite quickly like when you have to tell off a kid. But it really caught me off guard and I stood there frozen. It feels like a boundary violation and when I brought up the subject to my mom (w/o saying it happened to me), she agreed. My bf started apologising right once I said how fucked up it was and I think it’s a genuine apology, but what am I supposed to do? I was getting on his nerves basically on purpose, and now I want to pretend I am the victim of the situation? But I was seriously just about to tell him I regretted making a fight up from thin air.. and stuff like that has happened twice before, once in my shoulder, the other one on my scalp. He continues apologising and I really want to forgive him because he is a lovely guy and the best thing that has ever happened to me, but how am I supposed to call myself a feminist and stuff when I am compliant once my boyfriend ��beats” me? My father told me only the other day that women who stay in abusive relationships while knowing about the red flags are stupid. I disagree with him, but am I stupid? Or am I just thinking about this too much? I have childhood trauma, physical too, and I am unsure if I am overreacting because of being triggered rather than because it was objectively wrong to hit me.He seriously is a very nice guy and I have never felt as loved and I know his love is genuine, but this has left me unsettled and, as I said, it is not the first time. Even those two aforementioned events aside, there have been very off putting things in our relationship, like him watching porn and being into cnc (we never acted on them, just dirty talk); though I think the latter might have been my fault because I was the one mainly in it (again, trauma). This was years ago and our sexual life is very healthy now, and I know for a fact he despises porn as much as I do. So what should I do? He is the only person I have left because I am a lonely loser and our connection is so sincere but at the same time I don’t feel ensured that he would never ever harm me. Is it my trauma induced paranoia, or my intuition?

anon, no this is not at all ok. leave. please just leave. you might feel loved and he might have some good sides but there is literally no excuse for hitting you and he's clearly slowly escalating it further and further. abusers often slowly start pushing the boundaries of their partners and i fear that is what he's doing here. and him being into cnc is absolutely a red flag! ur making a lot of excuses for him which is normal, i did the same with my ex and it allowed her to take advantage of me and abuse me until she had all that she wanted from me. its not worth it. abusers like this often have a 'nice' side and will lovebomb you and have phases where they treat you well.. it's ultimately not worth it, at all. i know it's easier said than done, but just bc you haven't had better yet doesn't mean you never will, don't settle for him just because you want to be loved and because you think you can't get better: you can and its not worth it! take it from someone who DIDN'T leave, it's not worth it. you just feel used up and like you betrayed yourself for nothing in the end.

[bylertruther]

If I am guessing your cryptic question right, stonathan or steddie? Which one do I prefer? See more chemistry in? Is that it?

I saw more chemistry between Steddie honestly. Maybe because Eddie was openly flirty and Steve was flustered most of the time around him.

Stonathan - I don't see the chemistry that much because Jon did beat him up for insulting his family and him. Even though Steve came to apologise, it was more like a formality rather than a stepping stone to friendship. They could have been friends, but they didn't. For Jon, Steve is an immature idiot that he fought one time.

I have read one Stonathan fic and I couldn't see the chemistry there. It was a nice fic, but the chemistry was missing, I felt. But the Steddie fics have chemistry.

Jon honestly has more chemistry with Argyle than Steve.

I would love to hear your thoughts, Denise.

mmmmmm my lawyer told me to tell you tht i can neither confirm nor deny these assumptions but tht i Can reply to u otherwise <3 so hiii, anon 👋

that's fair. s1 jonathan and steve are works in progress for sure and then they drift apart again as their connections to nancy change. i do think that jancy's talk at the end can be interpreted as a hint that they'll interact again though, allowing jonathan to see firsthand what nancy meant, so maaaaaybe smth of some sort will happen there? who knows lol.

but! i do think that the apology was more than a formality. steve was really intent on going over there and making things right, he really felt like he'd fucked up and he wasn't expecting nancy to be there. he went for jonathan and really wanted to make things right with him. there was a desperate kind of sincerity there i felt in joe's portrayal. and then he seemed really pleased when jonathan received his gift later on! so, like. yk. i think jonathan's the one holding more resentment / preconceived notions than steve rn, which is understandable considering he doesn't know him like that, and why i think they planted tht seed i mentioned at the end there. there could still be more to them and i think there likely is!

tbh though i feel like i'd need more scenes with them to be able to say anything abt their chemistry on-screen. i get more ✨⚡️ from steve for those reasons tht i mentioned than i do jonathan rn. jonathan has had his defenses up too high n been too cold thus far, n charlie really sells tht n jon's trust issues lol. maybe it'll change in s5, maybe it won't.

as for steddie... i feel like you can say some of the same things? they became kind of friends towards the end there because eddie went to go save him and they had that little bonding moment where eddie opened up to him and got in his good graces. also... i feel like eddie's actions can be taken that way, but he's also a touchy-feely invades-your-personal-space kind of dude with other characters too. and i didn't really feel any electricity or interest there from steve's side, kind of the opposite of the stonathan situation. like joe wasn't leaning into what people believe joseph was.

it felt like interactions between a heroic jock who aggravatingly really is more than what people say and a freak who's had to puff his chest up n act tougher than he really is to survive, and how they navigate that as young men. like actually tough vs pretends to be. and there's a a kind of sheepishness on eddie's side where the freak who talks abt how others are so quick to judge n be hostile is now being saved n helped n treated well by someone tht he did all of tht to, this kind of ... ingratiating n dare i say submissive mannerisms tht i think ppl read as just flirting.

and then steve's mostly just there, taking this in and occupying the same space as him, more focused on the others, but still wanting to be nice n give his thanks bc he's just that guy n does it with everyone. he's chuffed tht eddie's blowing smoke up his ass, but i don't view him as being bewitched. when did you find steve to be flustered? i'd like to go back and watch, maybe i'll see it this time :)

jargyle my beloved 💚 i think it helps tht argyle is jonathan's friend, so there's naturally going to be this easygoing flow between them tht wouldn't be present in his scenes with steve. i think they play off each other wonderfully, but.. hm. idk. there's chemistry yes bc they definitely sell that safe harbor you're my only friend ride or die kind of relationship, but it's not like ... tht Charged kind of chemistry, if tht makes sense?

thank u for answering :)

[worriedvision]

Pretending to be his lover - Alhaitham

Angst fic, gender neutral reader. When I say angst, I do mean angst.

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Your friend had recently started getting asked out more, seemingly attracting those who want to find a nice piece of muscly eye candy to settle down. When he got the idea of you pretending to be dating, he approaches you, requesting you do so. You nod along, agreeing as you were understanding that he wasn't looking for a relationship in this moment.

It was... slightly rough at first. You saw the judge looks people had, the fact that you must have had an amazing personality because why would a man as attractive and smart as Alhaitham date you? You don't show a reaction, and Alhaitham doesn't acknowledge the comments either. It did settle after a while, him no longer being asked out as much, but you had a problem.

The more you pretended to date him, you found yourself dreaming of actually being his. The idea of him wrapping his arms around you when it was just the two of you, how you thought he would probably kiss, even dreaming of the idea of him proposing to you.

You didn't need to talk to Alhaitham to know he didn't care, however. He remained stoic as always, not acting any different with you than before.

One day, you notice he looks at someone the way you catch yourself looking at him. Jealousy hits hard, especially when you were the pretend lover and he had his eyes starting to set on someone. It stings, it truly does, but you knew that eventually this would have had to stop regardless. It didn't matter what you did - dressing nicer, putting on nice perfume, treating him to dates. Nothing caught his eye.

"You should ask them out." You suggest, Alhaitham straightening up after getting lightly scared from the sudden voice.

"Hmm?" Alhaitham asks, looking at you. "I cannot do that, that would imply I am unfaithful." Alhaitham reasons.

"This isn't real, Alhaitham." You painfully reply. "The way you look at them is the way I look at-" you clear your throat, realising you were a word away from blowing your cover. "Regardless, at least if you have a real relationship you don't need to worry about pretending." You finish, Alhaitham nodding as he begins the process.

He breaks up with you publicly during a 'date' explaining he fell out of love with you, solidifying the idea he was now single. He apologises like a gentleman, paying for the date before he walks you home. He doesn't expect you to start crying, but he assumed this was part of the act.

It wasn't.

You enter your flat after he walks you home, and you look out to check he's far away before you begin bawling your eyes out. You lost your friend, you realised. He would be able to go back to how things were with you before where you two were friends, but unlike him you truly loved him. You knew you wouldn't be able to be around him without breaking down, and you knew that he would be able to get with the person he was interested in.

When you're in public now, people whisper about how you blew the relationship of a lifetime, and how Alhaitham must have opened his eyes to realise he deserved better, and the comments really hurt you.

By some miracle, you don't see Alhaitham again, but you hear whispers of him dating someone else - someone he was noted to be publicly affectionate with, someone he smiled at.

You knew the reason you didn't see him was because he was courting someone, but you at least expected him to occasionally pop along to say hi and check on you.

That doesn't happen.

You must have freaked out Alhaitham somehow during the relationship you had. Or perhaps his lover was worried you were still close to him given your history. All of it doesn't just interact with your personal life, it leaks into your working life as well.

People seemed even more reluctant to work with you, and it was then you tell yourself you had to leave Port Ormos.

After all, you had no business being in Port Ormos.

[hyuniyz]

𓆩♡𓆪 wiping off their kisses !

ft. stray kids

contains. annoyed members. dramatic hyunjin. lots of kissing.

◟▪ bangchan [ 방찬 ]

probably on to you tbh. don't try it with him because when he sees you wiping your lips right after he placed a loving smooch on it he's just gonna be like "okay" with a really serious face. belive me when I say his lips are not going to be near yours for the whole day. when you mention it to him he'll just say it's punishment for rejecting his love the first time. he doesn't kiss you until you've accepted defeat. doesn't need convincing though. when you place a kiss on his lips as an apology he'll melt and pull you in for more until your lips are bruised.

◟▪lee know [ 리노 ]

you're just playing yourself if you do this. he literally had to put away his lunch to kiss you and this is how you treat him?? he'll giggle loudly when he sees you rubbing the spot on your lips where he kissed until his whole face just drops. yk that video where he poses for pictures with hyunjin but as soon as the camera turns off he's like 😐 exactly like that."do you wanna die?" he's not joking. "time for a new girlfriend I guess.." threatens to leave you unless you kiss him. he'll be stealing quick kisses for the rest of the day.

◟▪ changbin [ 창빈 ]

he was leaving to bring coffee for the members because he's nice like that. he's pulling on his shoes when you shout from the kitchen asking for a kiss. he's so blushy and smiley when he comes to peck you that you almost feel bad but seeing his reaction when you wipe his kiss off is worth it. stops malfunctioning. okay maybe he's not gonna surprise you with ice-cream. the audacity??? he is not amused. he's not gonna be leaving the house without a normal kiss. you lose count as he keeps planting kisses to your lips without breaks as to not give you time to wipe it. by the time he's done you're a giggling mess and he seems proud to be the cause of it. safe to say you lost.

◟▪ hyunjin [ 현진 ]

he's so dramatic pls. highkey judging you. are you fr rn? he'll kiss you again but this time he knocks your hand away as soon as you try to lift it. when you still manage to wipe it. he springs up from his place and announces that he's gonna find a replacement for you. he leaves and comes back just as quick with I.N now by his side. "now if you excuse me, I'm gonna be with my lovely boyfriend who actually appreciates my kisses." while I.N just watches on cluelessly with a face that suggests that he did not agree to this. he'll sit with I.N besides you on the couch and pretend that you're not there. he won't budge until you've kissed all his favourite spots and apologised.

◟▪ han [ 한 ]

dramatic 2.0. "yah! knock that out!" he's so?? are you in your right mind? is this how you treat your lovely boyfriend that fulfils all your requests. don't do this to him unless you want to get physical because he doesn't hesitate to spring up and start bouncing like he's actually preparing for a fight. "it was joke oml why does your aggressive ass never miss a chance to fight." he'll come to kiss you and when you melt into the kiss instead of pulling away he'll hum as if to say "that's what I thought."

"you can never resist these sexy lips."

◟▪ felix [ 필릭스 ]

this cutie omg. he abandons his brownies to kiss you when you pucker your lips expectantly. pauses halfway while walking to the oven when he sees you wipe your lips. he just brushes it off because maybe he got some syrup on your lips accidentally or something. he doesn't think too much of it until you ask for another one. he pecks you quickly again only for you to wipe it away. blinks at you for a minute straight. he doesn't get what you're playing at until he remembers the video he saw on tiktok yesterday and realisation sinks in. he'll giggle loudly as soon as he registers it while you just stare at him surprised by his sudden outburst. did you break him? he's so happy help "you're so cute" while you're just like??? it really isn't possible to prank him

◟▪ seungmin [ 승민 ]

he is confusion. he doesn't process what you're doing until the third try where you lift your hand and he just smacks it away. this mf would probably headbutt you ong. he keeps kissing you but you don't budge and wipe your lips everytime. he's fed up by the seventh try and just leaps away from you, pretending that he can't look at you anymore. "I'm sorry, I can't be seen with such embarrassing company" doesn't come near you the rest of the day. he screeches before running away whenever you move towards him with your lips puckered. at the end of the day when you apologise he's still gonna be like "deserved" like mf what do you mean 🙁

◟▪ jeongin [ 아이엔 ]

why would you do this to him. he'll be so lost when you wipe away the kiss you asked for but he'll kiss you again because there is no way you're winning this. his mouth is hard and unrelenting when it presses on to yours and you're humming into the kiss because if you're being honest this is kind of what you were hoping were. the challenge is long forgetten and you chase after his lips when he pulls away. he looks so proud of himself like he didn't just take your breath away. he's so fine.

[em-writes-posts]

Enoch O'connor X Fem!Reader

!GIF NOT MINE CREDITS TO OWNER!

Enoch headcanons..... How he would react to another boy flirting w/ you.

AN: HEY GORGEOUS!!! I am really excited about writing about Enoch because he is an underrated character and he deserves more love..... WELL and peeps it's serious time pls and mean PLS done steal my writing I work hard on these and it would just go to waste if someone took credit for something I did all by myself, you can ask if you want bit even then I might say no. Enjoy loves!!!😘

Warnings: Smut mentioned in detail (not the actual sex), swearing, angst, fluff and protective and sexy Enoch!

☆you and Enoch are over 18 in this so don't come at me for it and Ik he isn't 18 in the books or movie just pretend he is in this because we don't do that minor shipping shit here☆

Would think that Enoch would be a very.... well protective because yk my guy is sensitive, so try be gentle with him.....

ANYWAY!!!

♡ Enoch gets SUPER jealous when other guys flirt w/ you, like he would go over to you and drag you away from them

♡ JK JK JK calm your self..... WELL

♡ He would get pissed

♡ But he would keep to himself

♡ Miss Peregrine always notices because DUH sees and knows everything....

♡ Honestly Enoch would try to make you jealous by talking to Olive SHE TOOK HIM FROM ME!!!!

♡ And he would always make her laugh and you find this weird because Enoch isn't..... well..... he's not really..... a SOCIAL person

♡ Then you would leave the conversation with the person taking to you

♡ You would be walking over there and you would hear his beautiful accent that always brought a blush to your cheeks but..... this time..... it was anger that made that happen.

♡ You start a conversion with them (olive) and Enoch would stare you down in such a sexual way that you felt a fimillair heat between your thighs

♡ But Enoch just HAD to take it further

♡ He would say something like, 'You don't like it baby girl do you? See how this feels? It doesn't feel nice when the person you love makes you jealous and...... by the way you are standing I can tell I make you wet...."

♡ Even Olive starts to expect something is wrong..... because Enoch is the king for seggys talk but Jesus he is NOT and I repeat NOT good at hiding it and.... you can't complain.

♡ " You know what I'm talking about baby girl"

♡ Something in you just snapped you apologised to Olive for leaving the conversation because you still need to be polite.....

♡ You GRAB Enoch by the arm and drag him up to your room in front of everybody and Millard whistled and you gave him a great big light shock and he helped and fell to the ground

♡ You kick open your bedroom door threw Enoch inside and lock your door

♡ You kisses him with such for that you could swear you made his lip bleed along with him giving his signature smirk because this is what he wanted. You pulled away from the kiss just enough to pull his and yours shirts off

♡ You pushed your toung inside his mouth then explore it like you were just about to discover the whole ocean

♡ And I think Yk what happens next 🔞😏

This is what you can do with your peculiarity!

[mcufan72]

Loki is so adorable... how he tried to defend y/n against her family and the different 'allegations'. Not everything went swimmingly here but...he did his very best 🫣🥹... best scene was when Loki gave David "something " to smoke 🤣🤣🤣🤣...poor Loki 🤭🥲

"I just don't want to ruin this evening which I am sensing - is already a very stressful affair for you"..."You won't ruin it...I'd love to have a friend while we eat dinner...a friend who actually likes me..." 🥺🥺🥺💓

"I'm very fond of you my darling ", he mumbled softly. The words made the butterflies go crazy in you stomach 🦋☺️

Y/n bought clothes for him and Loki made the apartment presentable and set up the dining table... I love this part!

And who doesn't want him looking like this as his fake boyfriend 😉😏

Dripping wet after the shower 🥵...

During dinner 🫠🥵...

"You look very handsome Mister" And hot, and sexy, delicious 😋🤤

Yummy...🫠

And mother and the bitch sisters are like...

And you sister bitch 🤬👿💀... take your foot off of our man 😤😤😡😡

Why do I have the feeling it was preggo Chelsea rubbing her toes on his leg... anyway I hate girls like them... pretending to be nice but being the biggest bitches 😝😝😝.

I get why y/n is mad at Loki after the dinner and Loki does feel guilty about what he said and did. I'm happy that they both talked about it and apologised. He just wanted to make everything right.

Loki getting his toenails painted by y/n is the cutest thing ever 🥰🥰🥰... and I love painted toenails ☺️

And again... lovely cuteness alert 🚨🚨🚨🚨

He embraced you as intimately as he could without it turning too sexual., this was the most intimate you had ever been with a man.

You hooked your legs around his waist in the usual position.

"I'm overjoyed that you came. I just figured out you needed your personal space tonight, perhaps I was mistaken "

So the last paragraph... it wouldn't be you if there weren't some angst and drama to come. It could be that there are already some hints of it.

"Oooh yess hook him in y/n before you lose this one too."

"...And lose this one, he's not the type of man who is going to marry you"... " ...Don't be such a fool, men like him don't settle for women like us, he's just having his fun..."

Possibly y/n's step-sisters and her mother try to manipulate things here or something is going on with the timeline? Or is there a (mean) variant? Or both? I had to think about these lines from the previous chapter again:

"Captain released a statement that he had an altercation with me after I escaped, he claimed that I had morphed into him" "...What is he talking about? I was here, I did not pretend to be him, as if I'd ever want to morph myself into him."

Or maybe I'm just completely wrong here 🤣🤷🏻‍♀️

Great chapter, Queen @lokisprettygirl as always. Can't wait for the next one. ILYSM ❤️

Under his influence (Post Avengers! Loki x female reader)

Read chapter 3 here // Series Masterlist

Chapter 4

Summary : Disastrous Dinner with your parents leads to a small quarrel between you two.

Warning: Smoking, mention of recreational drug use, insecurities, a bit of angst, not so great parenting , 4.5 k words

After your mom left you immediately took a shower to cool down a little bit, it was 10 am and you had plenty of time to prepare for the evening.

He went to the bathroom after you and when he came out you could feel him staring at you but he wasn't saying anything.

"What?" You looked at him so he averted his gaze and pretended to read his book. "Gotta call my boss, i don't think I can go to work today"

You mumbled as you dialed the manager's number and put it on speaker phone because you wanted to paint your toenails.

"Hiii Mark it's y/n" you said cheerfully and you heard him grumbling in response. Just great

"I just ..uhh wanted to tell you that I won't be able to make it today, sooo"

"Whyyyyy?"

"Uhhh it's a family emergency"

"You can't just take a leave out of nowhere, you have to inform way beforehand, " he said, clearly sounding upset. Did he understand the meaning of emergency? Doofus

"Yeah I would have but it's umm I don't think you heard me right. I said that my family's car was hit by a bulldozer and some of them were still in it. And now they're in an emergency ward so I have to go see them..see you tomorrow byee" you tapped on your head in frustration as you hung up "Argggghh I hate this day already"

Also, why did you have to keep the phone on the speaker?

"So your mother seem ..a bit ahhh –" you found him to struggling to form a complete sentence which wasn't like him at all.

"Overbearing?"

"That. Yes. That"

"She is like that, but she means well"

His brows furrowed as you said that. He was finding it a tad harder to believe.

"Okay, we need to make a man, asap" you said to him as you tightly closed the bottle of the nail paint after you were done using it. He laughed in response because he thought you were joking.

"Darling, I promise it can not be Asap. I mean it would take months for him to grow in your womb before he's birthed and–" he stopped talking as you gave him the look that he had learned to understand as a sign for Stop right now. You sighed as you stood up and went down on your knees in front of him, you placed your hands on his thighs and the position made him gulp.

"I want you to be my boyfriend" his eyes flickered as you said that.

"Ohhhhh?"

"Just for the evening" you clarified it immediately. God you hoped he didn't think of you as some midgardian desperate creep.

"Oh"

"Will you do it for me please?"

"I uhhh–"

"Pleaseee please do it .. please I'm begging you Loki please I'll do anything you'd ask please " you joined your palms together and begged him to just help you out. You didn't really have to beg he thought, you saved his arse, he would walk right into the sun if you'd ask him to.

"I just..never have been a boyfriend before "

"You said you had relationships "

"What is the correlation here?"

"Huh?" He sighed as you failed to understand him.

"I just don't want to ruin this evening which I am sensing- is already a very stressful affair for you" he mumbled as he placed his elbows down on his thighs to rest his chin in the palms of his hand.

"You won't ruin it, oh no please. I'd love to have a friend while we eat dinner..a friend who actually likes me..you know" your eyes teared up so he cupped your cheeks and leaned forward to press a soft kiss on your forehead. That gesture made you feel so warm but you wished you had more time to relish in this feeling.

"I am very fond of you my darling" he mumbled softly. The words made the butterflies go crazy in your stomach. Okay so you were attracted to him which you had already figured by the intense feeling you kept having where you wanted to fuck him all the time, there was the bubbling scorching heat between you two and you also wanted to cuddle him all the time now, all of these things combined together looked bad when you considered how he was literally unattainable. A fucking prince, he was a god that you couldn't even dream of having. He probably wouldn't even look twice at you if you were in a crowded room full of all the beautiful women in the world, women that he probably deserved to have.

Everyone kept telling you that you had higher standards for yourself but then he must have them too right? You weren't it unfortunately.

"Is that a yes?"

"Yess" you stood up and jumped around a little in excitement.

"Oh wait butt oh no.. they can't see you..my mom will recognise you, she's obsessed with you..but in a very bad way"

"She is?"

"Yeah she hates you "

"I figured that..umm do not worry about that. I'll take care of this" he pointed towards his face so you went down on your knees again. You had to stop doing this in front of him because one of these times he'd forget to enchant his cock to not get hard in a jiffy.

"But .. I don't want anyone else there, I want you, I mean. I like this face..it's such a loki looking face that I like" he chuckled as you said that. Sometimes your words hardly made any sense and that's exactly why he adored them so much.

"How about I change my hair and the color of my eyes, maybe get a bit of facial hair, the face stays" you tilted your head as he said that.

"That could work besides there's no way she'd think that you're him with all those modifications you know..oh that's a great idea. Well I'm going to cook now..by the way can I paint your toenails afterwards? You have such pretty toes" you got up from the floor again so he looked down at his feet.

"Noooo" he yelled, making you giggle but now another thing was starting to bother you.

"Wait a second!! You don't have clothes, I need to get you earth people clothes"

"Yes I was troubled by that thought" He did have a suit he had stolen from a midgardian shop when he visited Thor a few years prior after he was banished but for some reason the idea of putting it on again disgusted him. And he couldn't have worn his famous Terrorist from Asgard terrorising Stuttgart overcoat either for obvious reasons.

"Oh no I have to go get it for you then ..it's 11 already and I have to make dinner, and dessert also and oh my god it's so dirty around here, what I'm gonna doooo??" he walked towards as you started to freak out again.

"Now let us pause for a moment here. Take a deep breath for me, can you?" He told you as he grabbed your shoulders to calm you down.

"Okayy..okay..i'm just freaking out" you took a deep breath in order to not pass out right this moment.

"You go purchase the attire for me and I will tidy up the space until then. That is alright?" He asked you so you hugged him tightly, his arms instantly wrapped around your waist as if it was the most natural state in the world, breathing in the scent of your hair he sighed deeply.

He really needed to get a grip. A woman like you deserved a man so noble and not a hideous looking frost giant like him whose moral compass has broken a long time ago. You have waited so long for the man of your dreams and he could never be it for you.

"I'll be back soon"

It took you two hours to find something decent for him to wear, you even had to buy a pair of shoes for him, you saw a bunch of cute t-shirts so you bought that as well. You heard the shower running when you came back from the mall, you couldn't even recognise your apartment. It looked beautiful. First of all it was clean, ofcourse. But he had done something with the lighting as well, it seemed fancier, like a classy restaurant, and it smelled really good too. He had also filled the space with a much needed furniture you didn't have.

There was an elegant looking table right in front of the kitchenette. Bonus point? It also had chairs, you had chairs in your apartment.

The bed was covered in a beautiful satin sheet. Asgardian sheet. He also had that sofa all cleaned up, it looked brand new.

You put the shopping bags down on the sofa as your eyes circled around again. When he entered the room you immediately ran towards him to hug him, momentarily forgetting that he was naked from the waist up and dripping wet.

"This is.. gorgeous..you're like a sorcerer" you mumbled as you pulled away from him and took a few steps back, he was freezing cold. He smiled as he walked closer and wiped the droplets of water from your cheeks, the ones you had gotten by hugging onto his naked wet chest so tightly.

"I'm a sorcerer " he giggled and it made your heart grow ten times larger.

"Thank you Loki, you have no idea what you have done for me" your eyes teared up and so did his, but then again you didn't have time to enjoy this moment, they would be here in like three hours, you also had to get ready.

He tried to help you in the kitchen as much as he could but he wasn't really helping plus the heat bothered him a lot so you made him sit down on the sofa, he had done enough already and you were very grateful for that.

After cooking and assembling the cutleries on the table which again was the courtesy of your alien friend, you put on a dress and finished your makeup. You looked good for a change, the black dress complimented your dark soul. It always did.

You looked at him as he got himself dressed too, you didn't want to go overboard with his attire, there was a dark green jacket because you remembered that to be his favorite color, a plain black t shirt underneath with a tight fitted trouser. For some reason you knew he wasn't the denim jeans type of alien god.

His tush looked extremely good in those pants but that's not what shocked you, it was the change in his appearance. He kept his face but his hair was no longer raven, it was light brown and shorter, you could finally see the back of his neck and it was as smooth as the rest of his skin, his eyes were hazel brown, light freckles adorned his nose and cheeks. The finishing touch was the golden tan on his skin and that I haven't shaved in a week stubble. Even though he had the same face he didn't look like himself. He actually reminded you of that guy from that one King Kong movie you couldn't remember the name of.

"This okay? Or do I resemble my oaf brother a little too much" He asked you so you smiled.

"You look very handsome mister" And hot, and sexy, delicious.

A nervous laughter escaped his throat at the compliment.

"And you my lady, you look–-" before he could finish his words you heard the buzzer going off so you hurriedly stepped towards the door and got them in. You felt anxious and awkward like always, having dinner with four people where you didn't really like the three of them was not your idea of fun. As you opened the door you saw your mom and her husband David first so you hugged her and your step father gave you a side hug.

"Welcome to my humble abode" you chuckled as they stepped in, then you met his daughters from hell, his perfect little princesses, the elder one was named Chelsea, she was a year younger than you and married. Ofcourse because she was just perfect like that. You weren't expecting her to bring her husband Shawn though.

"Wow i didn't know husbands were coming" you mumbled as you hugged her and your mom glared at you.

The younger sister Courtney gave you cheek kisses. Pretentious bitch. She was just 25 but obviously more accomplished and much more successful in her career according to your mother.

As they all stepped inside you noticed them looking around, they had never been here before.

"Wow, this is so tiny and adorable, you know when daddy said you were renting a studio apartment i thought it'd be bigger" Courtney said and you resisted the urge to poke her eyes out.

"It's actually bigger than most studio apartments, I'm actually not supposed to have that whole window area, default in their infrastructure, goodie goodie for me" you felt everyone's eyes on you so you stopped talking immediately, turned around and walked towards Loki, you grabbed his arm and decided to introduce him to everyone, most of them looked shocked but atleast your mother was smiling from ear to ear.

"This is uhh.." oh god you didn't think of a name. Ofcourse you didn't. You see Perfect Chelsea over there would have thought of a name.

"Mark, this is Mark Ronalds..he's an auditor for the ..uhhh Marks and Spencers" they smiled at him as you introduced him. No, that name didn't sound fake at all. Nope.

"Hello Mrs. Umm –" he looked at your mother. Wow you two really should have discussed this part a little more. Like for real.

"Used to be something else now she's Mrs Jackson" you told him so he gave your mom a hug. She looked at you as she hugged him and mumbled a wow behind his back which made you want to die from embarrassment.

You didn't want to waste much time so you all sat down for dinner. The problem was he only made six chairs, and there were 7 of you. Gee, No thanks husband Shawn.

"You sit down okay?" You made Loki sit down so he grabbed your arm and scooted a little to the side, one of his buttocks was hanging in the air but he didn't care, he didn't want you to feel left out at your own family dinner.

As you sat down next to him, well almost onto him, everyone cooed. It's not as if you weren't getting used to being squished against him.

"So i noticed the accent, are you a London boy Mr. Mark" you wanted to hurl at the way Courtney was looking at him.

"Uhh yes, England" You took a sip of the wine you had in front of you, for the god of lies, he wasn't really good at living up to that status.

"So you're here on business? How did you two meet?" Your mom asked you so this time you answered instead.

"Ohh he's a member at the gym I work for" you smiled.

"Why do I feel like I have seen you somewhere?" Your mom squinted her eyes and it made you nervous.

"Ohh he looks like that guy from that movie.. I don't remember..the one with the big burly ape" you agreed as Shawn said that. Well thanks Shawn

"Ohhhh yeah..yeah you're right"

"So auditing? You like that job, son?" David asked him. Oh!! he's not your son David. No no considering his age, David was the son, his father was the son, his grandfather was the son. Why couldn't you just stop having thoughts for once?

"No. I don't know what that is actually" he chuckled and then you heard them all laughing in unison. You did too before you glared at him,

"Wow, good looking and funny. By the way, raise your glasses everyone.. I have an announcement" Courtney grabbed her glass of wine and took a deep breath before she proceeded to speak.

"I got the job in London..ahhhh" she squealed as she celebrated herself and everyone then squealed for her, she worked for an embassy or something, you never cared to find out. Your mother did remind you now and again as how it could have been you if you'd have been a little sincere about your life.

"Ohh honey congratulations, that's amazing, I'm sooo proud of you" your mom said to her so you smiled in disbelief.

"Okay okay..i have a news too. We have a news" Chelsea said as she smiled from ear to ear and looked at her husband "So I'm not drinking wine because I'm abstaining, I lied sorry.. hint hint" She pointed towards her belly and the whole world gasped for her.

"Call Odin and ask him if he heard the gasps" you mumbled in his ear and he bit on his cheek to stop himself from smiling. She was pregnant ofcourse. They all hugged her and congratulated the lovely couple, so did you, you had no other choice.

"Both of our daughters make me so happy sweetie" David's eyes teared up as he held your mother's hand.

"I am so proud of them"

After the happiness died down a little, Courtney looked at you.

"So y/n you're a trainer at the gym right..don't they like pay very less?"

"It actually depends on my competence and how many clients I can get in a month," you said to her. No you didn't miss the snark, you just wanted to ignore it.

"Oh.. so less huh"

God you hated her.

"Shoot i am out" David said as he opened the box of his cigarettes.

"Oh honey" your mom comforted him and then she glared at you as Courtney made another comment.

"Y/n smokes, just ask her for one dad"

"It was just that one time.."

You tried to defend yourself but your mom cut you off as she shook her head in disappointment.

"Look if you have it, just be a good hostess and give one to him" she said to you so you were about to get up but Loki stopped you.

"I'll get it darling. I found it while cleaning" he said to you so you smiled, as he walked towards the closet you wondered what he meant, what did he find? As he returned he passed the lighter to David along with that fucking joint you couldn't find yesterday.

"Uhhh this is not..is this weed?"

You stood up and snatched it from his hand. Loki felt mortified now, maybe he should have asked first if your stepfather wanted to smoke weed or something else. He really should have thought a little harder about it.

"It's not mine, it's a friend's" you mumbled so your mom looked at you.

"Oh sweetie, are you in the wrong company again?" She questioned and you immediately denied. You felt overwhelmed now, you just wanted to go cry in your bathroom.

"I apologise darling, i had no clue what he wanted" he whispered in your ear so you sighed. He just wanted to help.

"It's fine..it's okay " you told him, you didn't want him to feel bad about this even though you felt completely mortified now.

"So what are your plans for marriage?" The wine came out of your nose as your mom questioned Loki.

"Mommm" you glared at her and gestured to cut it out but ofcourse she ignored the cue.

"I'm just asking, you two make a cute couple..what do you guys think?" She looked around the table for approval.

"Ohhh yess hook him in y/n before you lose this one too" Courtney cackled like a witch. Loki felt awful, these people reminded him of those bilgesnipes, all ready to pounce and attack you for no reason. He felt something grazing over his shin so he looked under the table and saw a bunch of toes rubbing against him. It belonged to one of your sisters.

"She's touching me" he whispered in your ear so you looked under the table and she stopped immediately.

"Marriage is such a beautiful thing, it just makes me sad that y/n is going to be in her thirties now and she's still..so lonely" Chelsea gave you a sad look making you scoff in response.

"But I'm happy.. and I don't really care alright?"

"Well you should care honey, when you're sixty and alone with no-one to take care of you you'll regret this attitude" your eyes teared up as your mother chimed in. You saw your step sisters smiling and passing glances to each other.

"Didn't you marry twice?" Loki asked your mother so you glared at him and asked him to cut it out.

"Excuse me?" Your mom had the typical look of disapproval now. You could just tell she didn't really like him any longer.

"You married her father and it must not have worked very well since you are married to this gentleman here now?" He asked her again so you facepalmed.

"But that's life, that happens, sometimes things don't work out between two people, there are several different reasons why people get divorced" she raised her voice a little and you could feel everything getting out of your hand now.

"Well pardon my interference but perhaps she doesn't want that to happen to her as well, maybe she wants to spend her life with someone who would be there for every reason and not only for a season" your mom gave him a death glare as he said that and so did you. The tension in the room kept on piling up.

He could tell you were upset with him for opening his big mouth today.

After the dinner and dessert ended, you were hoping for them to just leave, you had no energy to take more insults.

"Sooo we are going to be here for two days, let's go somewhere tomorrow" your mom hugged you as she spoke so you hummed in agreement "And lose this one, he's not the type of man who is going to marry you" she said to you as she pulled away.

"Yeah? Why do you think that?" You chuckled but it was because of the frustration you were feeling in the moment.

"Look at him honey. Don't be such a fool, men like him don't settle for women like us, he's just having his fun I can tell" you nodded as she said that. Once they all left you shut the main door with a force and then you turned around to glare at him.

"Y/n i –"

"You could have just kept your mouth shut you know"

"I didn't intend to disrespect her, she just--"

"What were you trying to do then huh? Do you know how hard that divorce was on her? On me?" Your eyes welled up as you questioned him. That comment your mom made was the last nail in the coffin and unfortunately she wasn't here to bear the brunt of it so you took it out on him.

"I am sorry, please don't be upset darling" he mumbled softly but you were too angry to care right now.

"I'm not your darling, giving him the roll of weed wasn't enough for you huh? God I wish you weren't here today, it's all my fault" his eyes filled with tears as you said that. A part of you knew you were misdirecting your anger and frustration on him but you still couldn't stop, you wished you would have though because the look on his face bothered you a lot, you never wanted to see him look so sad and that too because of you.

You scurried towards the bathroom and then the tears couldn't stop coming, your step sisters were younger and better than you and they were living their best lives while nothing turned your life around no matter how much you worked for it, they were accomplishing everything they had dreamt of while several of your dreams had already been shattered, you had successfully wasted half of your life so far and accomplished nothing. Your mother probably wished for a daughter like them and that's why she found love in David again.

When you came out, he looked at you with a worried look on his face, he still had the same clothes on but he was back to looking like himself. Did you really just tell him that you wished he wasn't here after everything he had done for you today? God, you felt like a selfish asshole. No wonder you didn't have anyone in life that you could actually count on.

"Do you want me to disappear?" He asked you and you suddenly felt so anxious.

"No. I'm sorry..I'm so sorry Loki" as you started to sob he walked towards you and hugged you as tightly as he could, that was it for you in that moment, you broke down and cried until you couldn't cry any more.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean it, please don't go, i ..you're the only true friend I have..the best one i have ever had, and you were so good to me today, so sweet and I'm so sorry lo" you pulled away to look at him so he cupped your cheeks and kissed your forehead.

"I'm sorry I ruined the feast with my callousness" you smiled as he said that. He wasn't being callous, he just wanted to defend you. What a sweet sweet man.

"Well it's not as if it was going any better before..so I'm not really sorry about it" he kissed your forehead again and you just wanted to kiss him, it took everything to not clash your lips against his in that moment.

"You don't deserve to be treated in such a manner, you went through such pain today to make this enjoyable for them and you don't deserve anyone hurting you like that, none of the things they said hold true whatsoever" he said to you softly.

"You don't either Loki, I'm sorry it was me who hurt you today but I never want to be such a jerk to you again" he smiled at the statement.

"I understand, I have had my fair share of outbursts to comprehend that it didn't come from a place of malice but mere frustration and it wasn't intended for me" he mumbled and it made you smile. God he really was a dreamboat.

"Thank you Loki for everything you did today. You have no idea how much I appreciate you being here for me right now, i really do"

You hugged him again and took a deep breath, his hugs and sweet words really made you feel better than before. He was your friend, you loved having him as your friend. You looked up at him and the look in his eyes made you aware of the close proximity so you stepped away a little, he placed his hands inside the pocket of his pants to avoid the awkwardness but he had something in there so he took it out.

"What is it?"

"Something one of your sisters shoved into the pocket when we greeted each other" he said as he passed the slip to you. It was her phone number. What a bitch.

"Burn it down"

"Yes madam" you smiled as he said that.

"Umm..I'll go sleep, I'm tired" you mumbled as turned around and stepped towards the closet to take your pyjamas out.

"Uhh..What can I do to make you feel better?" he asked you, so you sighed.

"Nothing i– " Well actually "There's something you can do" you gave him a mischievous smile and he sighed as he understood what you wanted from him.

That's how he ended up on the sofa with you sitting on the floor with his feet resting on your thighs while you painted his toenails the same colour as yours.

"So pretty" you giggled as you finished the one leg and it warmed his heart. It was unbearable for him to see that hurt look on your face throughout the evening, knowing that there were people in the world who hurt you like that made his heart clench, he just wanted you to not feel that way like ever. He wanted to keep you protected.

"Maybe tomorrow we can do your makeup" you said nonchalantly making him tilt his head in response.

"How about no?" He responded and you feigned a look of disappointment.

At night he slept in that bed of yours, his sad brows were faster than your resistance today. You couldn't sleep though. You kept wondering if he'd come cuddle you but it has been an hour and he seemed asleep now. Wow this really bothered you, him not cuddling you by force like he had done in the last two days really really bothered you.

You sat up and got off from his princely bed then you took a few steps towards yours, you thought about what you were going to do for a moment. When he cuddled you, it was circumstancial, he had a nightmare the first night and then his body ached the other, you had no choice in that matter, you could have always pretended that you didn't love his cuddles but getting in the bed now would affirm that you indeed enjoyed sleeping with him like that and wanted it as much as he did.

Fuck it your cursed in your head before crawling into the bed. He was asleep but he did feel your body next to him, maybe he'd think that he was dreaming. Goddss he smelled divine.

He was lying on his side facing towards you so you sneaked your hand in the space between his neck and the pillow, he felt the invasion and instead of opening his eyes and calling you out for it he scooted closer to you instead and pressed his head down on your chest like he had done before. One of his arms went under your waist to pull you even closer while the other wrapped around you.

He embraced you as intimately as he could without it turning too sexual, this was the most intimate you had ever been with a man. Sure you had sex but even then you had several inches of distance between your bodies somehow. You hooked your legs around his waist in the usual position.

"Thank you" you mumbled softly in his ears and he hummed in response. You were thankful for him, you had known him for mere few weeks but you had never felt so strongly understood by someone.

"I'm overjoyed that you came. I just figured you needed your personal space tonight, perhaps I was mistaken " you smiled as he mumbled against your chest.

"Perhaps"

You knew it won't take you long enough to fall asleep now, you wondered if this was appropriate or not but you no longer cared for it. You also knew that you were only digging a deeper hole for yourself. Getting addicted to the feeling of cuddling him like this will only hurt you later when he won't be here with you. Your mother wasn't wrong, men like him didn't choose women like you for life but then you knew that already, didn't you?

Nothing so good could ever last forever, nothing so sweet and gentle could ever be wholly yours. Maybe you can press the stop button on this tomorrow but tonight you just wanted to indulge a little. Tonight you just wanted to live a little. Something that you haven't done for as long as you could remember.

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what do you think of the Nazi apologia discourse going on right now? I've seen people talk about it but not actually call any nazi apologist out with screenshots or links to such things happening. One of the bloggers actually tried to point this out but received some hate over it and I'm not really wanting to get too caught up in it but what do you think about this?

I think I vaguely saw one post about it, but I try to keep out of discourses ....

Who was the blog? I am sorry they received hate for it - and honestly I will expect that the same happening, but please, dear followers, hear me out.

I too never saw anybody seriously apologising any Nazis and neither screenshots of those things happening, so I do wonder if people are just attacking people who like or roleplay the Millenium characters.

As somebody who often likes a lot of morally grey or even evil characters, I can differentiate between liking them - because they are interestingly written - and actually approving of their actions if they would happen in real life.

I mean, you can say that Millenium also had the most diverse cast, let women join the army (in case you didn’t know: Actual Nazis never would have allowed that to happen! Women were for birth and birth only!) and seemed to nourish respect and even idolised their opponents that were foreigners. 

They were founded by the actions of the National Socialism - we remember the teeth and the money - but don't seem to be too much into their ideology. I suppose the only one beings were the "old men" you see in the manga. At least from what I remember.

Doesn't make them good people by all means! If they were real... well you know.

Personally I find the Major interesting... I think, I like his manner of speaking and that he seems to enjoy the simple things in life (good food, theatre....) and he is very confident in himself, not minding his weight at all and even able to laugh about it. I mean he is not my favourite character or anything, but I found those interesting traits.

But as an actual German person, who actually came in touch with the German history (unless some in the Hellsing fandom, who pretend to be anti-nazi and then make "gas the Jew jokes" (yes... they exist.... stay away from their discord please....)), I would never, ever, in my whole life approve of anything that came out of the Third Reich. I saw what happened, I studied the history and you can still feel it here today.

I hate to say it but Americans - who often seem to dominate online spaces, or are at least the most vocal - are and were pretty distanced from the actions, don't truly understand what happened and how many people were hurt.... save to say that the allies could have intervene much earlier. For years they had the knowledge of what happened in the KZs and didn't act - yes, it was a lie that they only figured out when they freed the KZs.

Still they pretend like they know the most and have the right to tell people how to feel about fictional things.

Probably I’m too old for this but in my youth it was nothing terrible to say “well actually the villain is the most interesting character in this series” and today people will stone you alive if you do. When and why did that happen?

But for me it is one thing if I say: The Dok seems to be an interesting character and actually interested that is research intends to help all of mankind, or he is totally right, let's bring human experiments back, we should do that in real life, Josef Mengele style.

I dunno.... suppose I made it quite clear that I don't think that if you like something in fiction means that you condone it in real life. Some people seem to think so, but I never actually met anybody who was influenced by it.

(Damn, enough people I know love fictional killers and are the most chill, pacifistic and nice people that exist.)

I mean, Jesus, if we want to go there, we must stop all the Hellsing fans. Liking Alucard? Jesus, he likes the smell of burning babies. Liking the Hellsing organisation? Never! Van Helsing made terrible experiments on a sentient being. And don’t let me get started on everyone in the Vatican!

So as long as nobody actually sits there and tells me:

All the (real life) Nazis were right all along, Hitler should have won, KZs were a great idea, kill all Jews and PoC, the Holocaust was great and so on and so forth, I would not call them a "Nazi apologist". 

If I saw such a person, I would block them right away. I don't want to engage with any actual Nazi apologists.

If I see however blogs that just roleplay as the Major, Doc or Rip.... you do you. I never understood the Rip hype, I will admit and therefore wouldn't follow the blog, but the person running it does not have to be a Nazi apologist, just because they like Rip for some reason.

If truly see screenshots like I took once of a person defending Nazis, I do will call them Nazi apologist, like I did back then. Such people might exist. They do exist. I saw them.

But not everyone who likes Hellsing, Millenium, or even the Major is a Nazi apologist, in my opinion.

Maybe, maybe there are people who like the Major and actually are Nazi apologist. Such a person might exist. If they do: Screw them, really, I don't want you in this fandom.

But I need actually proof and not "oh they like Rip, so they must be a Nazi".

If you give me actual proof, showing me how one actually defends (historical) Nazis, yes... I will agree that they are a terrible person for doing that and that they should not engage with the fandom.

After all consider this: Everyone engaging in this discourse are in the fandom itself, so they consumed media with these characters and liked it: And they like the author too: Who also wrote and even created these characters, unlike the people simply roleplaying them.