#having a weird epiphany rn don't mind me

[glittercorvid]

just suddenly became Deeply Aware of the fact that i'm fully human and my traits aren't any more or less meaningful than anyone else's and i don't actually need to figure out How To Be A Person because i fully am one and always have been. intellectually i knew this but emotionally i've been an alien super anxious that people would find me out my whole life

[losttranslator]

listening to a bunch of arguments against the gospel rn and I'm kinda astonished by the fact that one of the main taking points that keeps coming up could be lifted verbatim from Kaamelott.

It's this idea that 'condemning people on the basis of their unbelief in the cross is really unfair' (depending on who you ask, either because God could have simply not had Jesus die on the cross and/or because eternal condamnation is a really disproportionate punishment for something as neutral as mere unbelief or belief in something else). I'm bringing up Kaamelott because at his most depressed, Arthur says something I've always found fascinating but completely wrong:

"What do you call someone who suffers and spills his blood on the ground so that everybody be found guilty? All those who commit suicide are the Christ."

To me that quote and the argument against the fairness of the gospel come from the exact same place of profound misunderstanding. We are not condemned 'just' for not believing, and God didn't send Jesus into the world as a sort of twisted test for most people to fail. The very premise of the sacrifice for redemption (not suicide, not something Jesus could just not do and then we'd have all been fine) is that we are all condemned before the cross. If there was no cross to believe in, then guess what? The message would be that we are condemned, period.

The overarching story of the Bible is that we are already deserving of punishment for all that we do (all the hate and contempt we have for one another, all the good we should be doing and don't do, all the selfishness, all the hurt we cause...) and it's not lack of belief in what Jesus did on the cross that condemns us - lack of belief is what keeps us in our state of condemnation. We are not guilty because Jesus' blood was spilled (although that too is added to our sins if we remain in them), Jesus' blood is spilled because we are guilty. People asking 'so just because I don't believe in your God he's going to punish me?' as a gotcha to try and prove that God is malevolent are getting the most utterly basic cause and effect of the Gospel reversed.

This is how Jesus himself explains it in John 3! (which, btw, I saw some people quote as 'evidence' for this weird take)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 

Whoever does not believe stands condemned already. And of course, people who reject the light remain lost in the darkness because they 'have not believed in [the light],' but the darkness was already there before the light came (duh).

It's expected that a tragicomic take on King Arthur in a wacky show that very deliberately has myth as its essence above even internal consistancy would have some wonky theological takes (by the way, that line is not even something Arthur believes, it's something from a dream that he had in his near comatose state after a suicide attempt, and he's recounting the dream to someone - which I wouldn't take as indicative that the line was meant as a bold philosophical epiphany reached through full clarity of mind) but it's baffling that people who want to seriously deconstruct the New Testament, the cross, the gospels or the concept of a redemptive offering for sin would be satisfied with something so shallow. Criticism of a belief system should get its fundamentals right to be meaningful, not be virtually indistinguishable from the angsty musings of some French polymath's Arthurian self insert.

[tiredofthehumanlife]

Request guidelines

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I'll probably continue to add to this

Requests are: Open closed

I won't write:

CNC, noncon, dubcon, ect. - I have my own experiences that I will not be sharing on my request guidelines but these subjects are triggering to me and not writing it deal with it

Stepcest - same reason as the above^^

Active eating disorder, sh, things in that area - again it's a triggering subject for me and I really hope people struggling get the help they need but I'm not writing that no thank you I'll consider writing recovering though not extremely fresh recovery but you get it right

Piv - right yeah idk it makes me uncomfy and I've never written it before similarly writing blow jobs is kinda iffy for me so I might not end up writing them

Large age gaps, dad's best friend, things in that flavor - the only age gap I'll accept is like supernatural creature and adult not like freshly 18 think like adult yk you get it

Hate fucks, Extremely mean doms, sex with the tone that they actually hate each other - I don't like writing it. I cry if someone doesn't respond to me in a day. I'm crybaby suck my dick dude also I don't even really love degradation and you may be thinking "but elliot ive read your work before and you had degradation in there" and you'd be correct I didn't write that dialogue sometimes I'm writing and I go "yeah they'd degrade them rn" and then I go to my degradation support team (3 of my friends) and I start talking to them like theyre secret agents about to go on a mission and then their feedback is almost always "stab them, make him cry" "you know I have a friend who writes smut" and "cockslut would go great right there" so if you're reading my smut and you come across degradation now you know it's origin story good job dude proud of you

Honestly quite frankly I don't totally love writing Smut I usually try to avoid it bc it takes a lot of energy from me

Song fics - I'll do inspired by songs like my footnote one but I'll never put the lyrics in there one time I was reading a fic I didn't know it was a song fic and out of nowhere one of the characters said "see that's my down bitch that's my soldier" I still laugh about that to this day also I'll never write with Taylor Swift in mind I hate her with a burning passion but you do you ig

I love writing:

Autistic reader - I'm autistic so it's more self serving than anything

Trans characters including reader - I love seeing a character and thinking "right I love them but what if, and get this, they're trans?" And also on that topic I'm trans so like you're safe here babe

Poly ships - Everytime I see a ship and I'm like "ugh god they're both hot who do I pick" I have an epiphany where I go "wait who said I had to chose?" And then I start writing a poly ship

Gay characters - why be straight when you can just not?

Weirdos - I love making characters just like a little bit weird I love it it's so much fun yk like walk in on Barty trying to hide himself in a kitchen cabinet I love it so much

Fandoms I write for:

I usually only write for the fandom that I'm currently hyper fixated on so the hyperfixation is in pink and all the other ones are in blue slightly more inclined to write about than blue is green just because I'm not fixated on it doesn't mean I can't write for you it's just the chance lowers a lil

Marauders

Slytherin boys

Lockwood & Co

Supernatural

Bottoms

Criminal minds

The umbrella academy

Kickass

The hunger games (including tbosas)

Actually really embarrassing but that's it?

Things to keep in mind:

I'm still in school so some days I might have more freetime and motivation than others

I'm not always comfortable writing smut sometimes I just want to sit in a dark room and not have skin I'm a person not an AI writing generator

My hyperfixations can end very quickly and return just as fast sometimes I'll be knee deep in a fixation getting and answering requests left and right but It can lose my attention very quickly and leave requests unanswered in my inbox for months I still have two mattheo riddle requests from like January in there

I'm a lil dumb and might misinterpret your request

I write what I know and I don't know everything (obviously) but if you send me a request and I don't know much about it I'll do my best to research it and fulfill your request as best I can

I like constructive criticism I'll probably cry but again I'm a crybaby I cried once because I dropped my spoon so don't take it as an offense constructive criticism does not include calling me a slur

I try to keep my fics as inclusive as possible I don't like having gendered fics on my blog bc it's leaving out someone but if you need to get specific for a plot device I understand

[whimsicallonewolf]

Hi, I know I don't usually post that much (mostly because I made my profile cause I wanted to see about the platform not post) but I just have to tell my dumb moment to someone.

So tonight, I was getting ready to get into the shower, right. And, let me just say i have a MAJOR sinus infection rn so with that being said let's continue. Anyways, so basically my head has been stuffed up all day, and I have my socks on. I know that sentence was weird but bare with me. I go to step up on the toilet lid to get a towel (I've got a pair of cabinets above the toilet) and I step up..... And I stepped in the toilet. The lid was clearly not over toilet and I don't know where my mind was in that moment but yeah, I stepped in a toilet, in socks. And that's not even the worst part, cause there was pee in the toilet. My ill, stupid self apparently had a epiphany as I was peeling off the wet sock (and throwing it away cause I'm never wearing that sock again) because I thought, "Well, a least it was my pee", like that makes it better.

So, have you ever done something really stupid when you when you were sick? Comment please, I want to read you guys' stories.

[aquagustd]

Yes, I started writing this year but the only reason I never come off-anon is a bit weird tbh. So, I used to write stories but nothing too serious and especially not for others to read. Even if I had vivid ideas and my mind would urge me to write something about it, I'd shrug it off because writing stories for people to read is a lot of commitment. Writing just for me, just because I want to, felt comfortable because I could discontinue anytime. Not to mention, I felt like I would not be able to make time out of my schedule to write. It was around this time I remember stumbling upon your blog and absolutely fell in love with your writing. A few days later, I had this very, very, very vivid idea in my mind but as usual I didn't give much thought to it and shrugged it off. But then when it wouldn't leave my mind, I went ahead and sent you a request which you then wrote about. Here's the thing, when I read the story that you had come up with, I realised it was different from what I had in mind. Don't get me wrong, I thoroughly enjoyed it, like legit loved it. No kidding I love all of your works. But I had this epiphany that my imagination will always be mine, it's unique and it's beautiful. And that's the beauty of art that it lets us express our uniqueness. Like, I just kind of realised how everyone's writing is so precious because it's unique. It was kind of spontaneous for me to write the first part of the story with the very same prompt, I wrote it in like fifteen to twenty minutes feeling super pumped up and I uploaded it. I don't know but since then I always felt that I should have asked you before writing about it and stuff. I always wanted to come clean but then I didn't thinking it was too late considering I has already uploaded it. So yeah, I never had the guts to confess.

So, yeah, I'm sorry! Like, I really am and you've no idea how nervous I'm to type all this out.

Also, yeah its bittersweet but hopefully you get to create much sweeter memories out there, and a peaceful city sound so nice. I could do with some peace rn 😥.

I guess my new year's resolution would be to listen to myself and not to that voice inside my head which just makes me doubt things over and over again. It's a boring new year but I want to stick to it. What's yours? -🦢

that’s the beauty of it all. why stories are so interesting to read in general, everyone’s mind is like this treasure chest with so many different gems kept away. some choose to share it with the world and some don’t. everyone interprets things differently. that’s why i like getting feedback from readers too. it’s so fun to hear their take on things.

ahh it’s okay. i’m just glad you enjoy my writing.

that’s a good one. this year, i didn’t really have a new years resolution i guess? probably to stop procrastinating so much haha.

[tartrazeen]

@auguris :)

yes :)

yes yes yes :)

Before I start with throwing on some papaprika, let just do a friendly little

Hey father-son shippers, lots of love to you folks, but this post under this point isn't for you so please don't venture on past this, okay? HankCon fans wanna vent rn

Okay - yay, I don't want anyone wandering into anything spicy when they don't have to.

So THIS FUCKING MEME RIGHT HERE:

Like - whaaaaaaat? Excuse me?!

I've seen this so many times and definitely pointed it out to one other person at least, but the context of this scene is,

"The only answer from you that I can trust is am empathetic and honest recognition of how devasting my son's death was to me, in that I actively try not to bring it up because it's so painful, so the only way you'd know my son's name - just his name! - is if you went out of your way to learn about him and care. I need you to confirm (because I'm already leaning towards you being the right Connor) that I'm seeing true emotion in your eyes as you tell me the meaning of my son's name instead of just rattling it out as a fact. Tell me you know why this is my final question."

... and this super popular meme is like,

"lol fuck that kid, i'm your new one now, you're totally healthy to raise me in a safe environment right? because having a new kid fixes everything and has insta-cured your depression!"

And that's such a common take!

Connor and Hank have an extremely unhealthy dynamic throughout the game. The context of that unhealthiness changes - first it's Hank's active racism against androids (the minority stand-in), then it's Connor's internalized racism against androids taking centre stage, then it's Hank's quasi-existential crisis and epiphany (which can go either way), and then it's just the sheer fact that Hank has been slowly killing himself (and haha it wasn't a joke when he says that on the bridge) and can only now begin the process to heal. And recovery isn't in a straight line! There are relapses!

Hank isn't just canonically suicidal - he's an alcoholic, which I stress because there's 'technically' (I guess) a case to be made in a fic that the suicidal thoughts and intentions were in-the-moment impulses spurred on by the depression and drinking. Take the drinking away, maybe he doesn't go to that dark place while he's sober. But breaking out of the effects of alcoholism is a physical change to your body that takes months of consistent, dedicated effort to escape, and includes all the wonders of withdrawal, pain, hygiene, smell, energy... And I'm just talking physical symptoms - slap on the mental symptoms and relapses and the fact that something led to that drinking and still needs to be dealt with: Cole's death.

So even if - even if - we get past the part where Hank is apparently taking his son to strip clubs, holding a gun to his son's face, threatening to throw his son into a dumpster and setting it on fire, or how you can go the entire game without bringing up Cole at all, and just try to believe that Hank sees a perfect match between his six-year-old child three years ago and this thirty-year-old looking adult now, and assume that this literal assassin who murdered his way into CyberLife for the revolution after changing his mind about assassinating the revolution leader and then volunteering for his own suicide mission is totally okay to be like, "Sure, I'll be your little child :3," instead of simply staying as adult friends and maintaining an adult mentor/mentee relationship (which is an actual option that father-son shippers never take)...

that's the environment they want this father-son relationship to happen in?!?!

WHAT

FOR REAL, WHAT

Why is there so much pressure to force Hank and Connor into this weird father-son interpretation when they ended the story as friends, as if for some reason the entire relationship is meaningless unless you slap a parent-child label on it?

Why are Hank and Connor not allowed to be a found family unless they're warped into being related somehow?

Why is THIS the dynamic?!?!

How is THAT the conclusion that got drawn?!

It's so messed up!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH

i fully believe 90% of the people shipping HankCon are just using it as an excuse to fetishize gay men