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oh take me back to 2019 when i was devouring stevenat fics like it was my job and feeling everything, god I miss it
#tina talks#i miss feeling stuff whenever i read#haven't felt anything recently#i miss it#i miss being heartbroken or angry or sad or over the moon#or crying over fictional characters#give me that feeling back
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pwyw com from last month ! these are closed now but i will open again at the end of feb maybe
#my art#furry#anthro#illustration#oc#cat#dog#i'm working extra shifts in feb and also i wanna clear my q completely and work on fully opening options before i open again#speaking of working shifts i'm so tirreedd today i had a big nap earlier. i love having naps idc....we need to bring them back#unironically we need to live like primary school kids again man i wanna go outside and wrestle in nature then have an afternoon nap#i was out for a walk recently and i realised i haven't felt the stickiness of pinecones or tree sap in ages. or anything#i need to start touching the world more like idc if people look at me weird i want grass stains and nettle stings again.....#maybe this is just a me thing idk. i used to be way more physically involved in nature when i was a kid#and i was way more in tune with the seasons. everything felt different in autumn compared to summer etc - the dew on the grass#also been watching this guy on youtube who just walks in a vague direction through the countryside and i was like on god i must do that NOW#as i explored in hourly comic thing. or daily comic as i insisted on calling it#every hour is a day when you're. stutid#anyway. much love and peace
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fic writers are insane (compliment) bc that shit's hard
#^person who hasn't finished any sort of narrative fiction writing of any sort since uhhh *checks folders* 2017#and who hasn't written anything specifically fanficy siiinnnncccceeee uhhhhhh 2012 or 2013#(technically also 2017ish but I don't feel like a one paragraph prose poem that I Also Never Shared counts)#(for context I was recently Wildly Possessed to write a short TriStrat fic bc of thinking about the game a lot lately and uhhhh...yeah!)#(for the moment it will not be shared)#(I just legit forgot how writing felt bc I haven't written a lot aside from a personal project that I also haven't touched in a few months)#(and no outlining the fancomic doesn't count bc that's an outline not Actual Writing which is an entirely different art)#(considering how long it took me to start drawing fanart bc I didn't think I was any good at it#it's a small miracle fanfic is happening at all bc I still don't think I'm as good at it as I am my own original stuff)#(no idea if I'll share it at any point but We'll See)#oracle of lore
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Oh, your love is sunlight
Happy (late) Valentine's Day (version without text ↓ +description in tags)
#east blue asylum wing au#zosan#zoro x sanji#zs#first off if its bad quality - it's a huge canvas and it's more pixelated if i try to export the picture than if I screenshot so... :/#I sometimes like assigning songs to different dynamics and or characters I play around with and I've been recently listening to#a lot of Hozier again and I'd like to think that Sunlight is how Zoro sees Sanji - he is Icarus flying to the sun and he is willing to get#burned if only to reach the sunlight - it's a deathtrap... because of course it is... all attachments are but Sanji's love is the death tra#that he welcomes like a moth to a flame because even Icarus felt the bliss and freedom before his wax melted#I haven't depicted it here but Sanji's Hozier song for Zoro would probably be NFWMB because in his eyes Zoro is this untouchable force#that would watch the world go up in flames and when the time Sanji wouldn't mind being a tree just to fuel his fire (im well aware how#cheesy that sounds just bare with me... or better yet listen to the song its really good trust me ok?)#the world starts and ends with him and where they lay#and their shared Hozier song is Francesca because if anything in this au zosan are two lovers stuck in Dante's inferno and sprinting back i#only for the chance to get back to their lover and if that meant going back into hell to look for each other then so be it#there's a part of the song that goes “My life was a storm / Since I was born / How could I fear any hurricane?” which is pretty fitting imo#op#fan art#my art
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Happy Specter Knight day :3
#kitty scribbles#shovel knight#specter knight#specter of torment#sk specter Knight#sk specter of torment#sot#sorry i haven't posted much ive been working on something with my broski and i haven't felt like drawing anything recently lol
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soo .. the new sketchbook !
#i feel so shit right now ; no wonder i ended up drawing excluzively dobuno awa'z characterz#i did that michi drawing while being harrased n recorded by a bunch of guyz#my only comfort throughout what i thought would be my last hourz on earth </3#and madoguchi ; i don't have a specific attachment to her but i really love her dezign and ive felt more motivated to draw her recently#i promize that ill draw itoguchi soon again ; i just need some good colorz for her#and sayoko n tamako ; like i said . a dynamic duo#vocaloid songs#you will never forget me#you will mever forget me michi#you will never forget me madoguchi#i still haven't tagged sayoko n tamako cuz they don't have tumblr tagz ; i don't wanna make it seem az if theyre my ocz or anything#whatever#thoze two girlz#trow kotoha in there and theyre the people pleazerz support group#n stuff#i dunno ; ive just had such a long . shitty day and i wanna lie down#i don't even feel relieved that itz over or anything . just really dull#whatever ..#just . them#i guezz#://
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Watched the first 2 episodes and the only conclusion i got so far is that Sophie Okonedo is the real true QUEEN and i would gladly submit to her, she doesn't even have to ask ❤️🔥👑🧎
#wot#wot spoilers#i'm a little incoherent rn because i'm processing but the only sure thing is that i absolutely ADORE the way she acts and plays siuan#not a surprise ofc she was magnificent in the previous seasons as well but ugh gosh she's smashing it what an actress 🙌💘🤩👏#as for the rest i have to be honest i'm a little underwhelmed (even if ofc i know it's soon and i'm holding my judgement until the end)#especially about ep1 - idk i felt the vibe was a bit off after the battle in the Tower#too much smiles and “lightness” between the “kids” at the beginning of the episode#(idk how to put it ok a couple of conversations doesn't mean they are taking things lightly i can see they are all traumatised#and are trying to find a resemblance of normality and the life they used to have#maybe it was just too unsettling for me changing scene abruptly from the carnage at the beginning of the episode and the chitchat scenes#following right after 🤷) and ofc they had to rush things rushing or happening off screen like aviendha and elayne's relationship#i understand that the length of the seasons now forces the storytelling to hurry up and they can't deepen anything really#(how i hate this trend btw 8-10 episodes are often not enough to tell a story properly imo)#but i really hate to jump “in medias res” especially when they want to show me romance - and a queer one of all#while i still have to see rand and egwene interact romantically (or whatever that is)#or rand and lanfear (at least i had a little of nynaeve and lan) even if i know it is necessary for the plot#anyway i would have loved to see the relationship between elayne and aviendha start and blossom#i haven't read the books but as i understood it they will be involved with rand (ugh) in a romance#(i'm not even sure though if in the books the girls are involved romantically with each other as well#or they are just both into rand and he into them - ugh again if it's the latter - sorry i don't care about rand in general what can i say#what is it with me and not caring about white male protagonists recently - either be rand here or lestat in iwtv 😅)#but it's still better than nothing - at least it's one more queer relationship#anyway now i fear what they'll do with perrin and faile (btw the wedding ring conveniently breaking in the fight#sorry but i rolled a bit my eyes at that even if i know it's a sign that perrin will move on from layla-as he should be free to do i suppos#after his mourning but yeah i found it a bit cheap as expedient - ok today i'm quite quarrelsome 😅)#in any case ep2 was already better - finally more intrigues and politics#tbh i don't really care about romance plots i'm mainly here for the (women) scheming plotting and fighting#(and the intrigues and politics mentioned) 😁#there would be much more to say ofc but i'll ponder on it on my own without haste for now
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hello! i love your account so much! is there a way you can recommend me some dramas blogs? either kdramas o cdramas blogs or both?
hi! ahh thank you for liking my blog 💙
some drama blogs i recommend are: @rotblut @dingyuxi @yesdramas @mostlyfate @becomeundone @donqyeon @cuddlybitch @xiaolanhua @zhouszishu @seoinquk @baiferns @aellyne @junghaesin @haeyeongs @deokmis @baek1nho @bareums these are just a selected few i love all the blogs i follow and all the blogs i recommended also reblog from a lot of other talented creators so hope you find some other blogs you like from them! since you asked for specifically kdrama and cdrama blogs i also recommend you checking out the #kdramaedit and #cdramaedit tags as they are really helpful in finding other drama blogs!
#asks#anon#i missed out a lot of blogs but didn't want too make this too long#hope that helped anon!#ive been so inactive on here recently since i haven't felt like giffing anything that has been airing in a long time rip#but hopefully soon i find a show i like enough to gif <3
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I've been on the oc art grind today 🔥
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...🥺🫶
#i'm so overwhelmed and emotional about all the sweet comments i've received on my latest fic 😭#(to which i'm gonna reply to asap <3)#it's just that i've been struggling with my writing recently and in general i haven't been having the greatest time this past winter/spring#and i was super insecure about this fic too#even though it's one of the few ones this year that i've 1) actually managed to finish and 2) felt good enough about to publish it#so to hear people say all those nice things about it makes me wanna cry a bit#especially in a time like this when most days i feel like i'm not good enough for anything at all it really means a lot ❤️#(maybe i'm good for something 😭)#and i really truly appreciate anyone who read it whether or not you chose to interact with it in any way. i love you all#and i'm so grateful to be able to share my stories with you 💖
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Told my mom about the shadows story and she said it was ominous and creepy(positive)(encouraging even) and now I have the vague shapes of characters rotating and vibrating in my brain
#moth ramble#I've never anything remotely horror adjacent before and only recently started consuming media that could be considered scary but this has me#in a weird sort of grip that I haven't felt since the first and only horror manga I ever bought in like. middle school#... I've never written** at the very beginning
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told two ppl about rereading the foxhole court which ofc no one knows what it is and i’m like LET ME TELL YOU
#man i just think about 2016 if i hadn't been following a group of ppl on here i wouldn't have ever heard of that or captive prince#or if i had by chance i probably wouldn't have been that interested based on the summaries#and nowadays like it's not like i don't find books i love but neither of those are super well known#and i'm just like there could be unknown series i could love like that and i no longer have those ppl on here to recommend them#like i don't wanna be pretentious but like i only see ppl talk about pretty mainstream series#and as i said i do end up liking them#but i haven't felt about any series anything like i did about those two in all these years lmao#most recently the closest has probably been shadow and bone and i haven't read them all yet but the shopaholic books are fun#but those are very different vibes wise#to all the boys and the raven cycle are def close too actually the way i felt reading tatbilb was like.#could not stop.#BUT i haven't reread and considering how much i hated the summer trilogy i'm wondering if i'll still love tatbilb as much#but yeah i just want to lose my mind over a romance series again that's all
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had the recent realization that I don't take time to do any of the things I love anymore. and that this could be why I've been so sad lately. this is ground breaking stuff guys (this has 100% happened before I just apparently don't know how to learn from my mistakes)
#got kinda drunk this past weekend with some of my new co-workers and they started asking me what I like to do for fun#and by reflex I said reading and writing amongst other things#and even though that has always been my usual reply to a question like that#it felt so weird saying that knowing full well I haven't engaged in either of those activities just for leisure in literal MONTHS#like I think the last time I wrote anything substantial was back in June last year#that breaks my heart#and I never read anymore either#it's either I'm doing schoolwork or I'm glued to my phone#I didn't realize how far I've drifted from myself until very recently#it's a scary feeling. especially knowing it's mostly because of some guy. bleh gross#it's too bad I literally have no time to do either even if i wanted to with the way my schedule's been looking 🫠 I can't win
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how can i suddenly be missing a huge chunk of a tooth. i feel like i would've noticed if i had swallowed it it's just gone
#it's a tooth all the way in the back that was in bad shape anyway#but like. how long has it been like this#i was just laying here and noticed it felt sharp and looked in the mirror#i haven't even eaten anything hard recently#can i stop developing random health problems every other day
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Wait a minute, ambigue / ambiguine / ambigugender fucking rules
#personal#gender questioning#i haven't posted much about my questioning journey but uh. yeah i'm still questioning#i've considered so many things and none of them ever felt quite right#i've come pretty close to identifying as nonbinary but even that didn't really feel right sometimes#i've been thinking recently that i kind of like the idea of my gender just being... unknown#and being seen as gender neutral not in the sense that my gender itself is neutral but in the sense that it could be anything#earlier i saw someone describe a character's gender as ambiguous and i was like wait a minute. that sounds really cool#so i searched to see if there are any identities that have to do with one's gender being ambiguous and lo and behold#i'm gonna look into it more and think about it for a while but it's cool to have a new possibility
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Arcane Characters Find Out You Haven't Had Your First Kiss Yet
Pairing: Jinx, Vi, Caitlyn Kiramman, Maddie Nolen, Ekko, Vander, Silco, Sevika, Viktor, Jayce Talis, Mel Medarda x Fem!Reader
Tags: fluff, kissing, first kiss, flirting, banter, shyness, gentle kissing, musundertsnadings, age-gap, experiance gap
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A/N: I have kissed people before and I know I wanna kiss all of them too. They deserve kisses, they need kisses.

"Ya've been starin' at me for an awful long time now. Not that I mind, your eyes are real pretty, sugar. But ya've got me all curious now." Jinx invaded your personal space like it was no big deal and leaned in so you had but inches between you.
You pressed your lips together and fidgeted in your seat. "You... I was wondering have you kissed anyone before?"
"Well here and there but not recently. I've got someone I really wanna kiss now." She pointed at you and tucked a hair behind your ear. "Wanna make out? I don't have any important things to do for a few hours?"
"Few hours? People make out for that long? Wait no, that's not what I want to do. I was curious cause I never kissed anyone and I was wondering if you... maybe wanted to kiss me?" With a slightly bashful tone you met her shiny purple eyes which only seemed to get brighter as she closed in.
"Do I wanna kiss ya? I wanted to since I saw ya! Been waitin' to get asked. Ya know, gentlewoman and all that shit." She wasn't one, not by a longshot but she also knew she could cross boundaries easily, this was one where she was more than willing to wait. "Pucker up quick!" You only had a second to react before harsh lips closed over yours, her thin but strong arms locking you in place on the chair. "Mwah!" Jinx cackled when she pulled back. "There. That's one thing to cross of your list. Can't wait for more." Winking she spun around in her chair and did a little happy dance.

Everyone knew Vi was a bold one, what she wanted she went for, often with little questions asked. She spent the whole date taking initiative, taking your hand, showing you the best places in Zaun, and a few at Piltover too, although she didn't know as many that were cooler than Zaun's. At the end of it she walked your home.
"I live in a safe neighborhood, Vi. There's no need for this." You argued as you fished for your keys to unlock the door. As you did you had full intention to invite her in.
"You never know when someone might try something. You're too cut to pass up on, sweet thing like you, bound to attract eyes. People might get ideas. Like this." Before you knew it, she pressed both hands against your hips and kissed your neck. You nearly dropped the keys when you felt the bolt of excitement run through your body. "See what I mean?"
Gulping you turned your head to hers. "Y-Yeah." She smirked and cupped your chin with the opposite hand, bringing you closer. "Vi, hold on." You turned your head back towards the door. "I never kissed anyone before." The whisper pierced through all the horny energy in Vi's body.
Her hands dropped from your hips. "Oh. Well now I feel like an ass. Since you let me walk you back and all, I thought... sorry I don't know what I thought. Do you want me to leave?" She waited for you to turn around and was surprised when you cupped her cheeks and leaned in. Her eyes widened for a moment before closing, right as your lips met in the middle. The grip on your hips returned, but it wasn't as strong as before. She wasn't the only one who could initiate.

You could look far and wide and you wouldn't find a bigger gentlewoman than Caitlyn. She asked if anything she did was wanted, if it was okay, if you liked it. Some of it came from her Academy days, some from her upbringing but she was never pushy with you.
It was actually you that noticed she was glancing at your lips a little too often while you were helping her sort out through the many documents she apparently had to bring home to work on. "Today was supposed to be our date, seems to me like you're dating your work as much as you're dating me." You teased and watched her huff.
"That is not true. You are infinitely more attractive, darling. I wouldn't kiss the papers but I would kiss you any day." Caitlyn flirted back and set the mentioned papers down. "In fact... I could use a little break from this. And you're right, tonight is our date night. So, tell me," Caitlyn walked up to your side of the desk and leaned on her hands, her face above yours, "would you do me the honor of kissing me?"
A heavy blush bloomed on your face as you felt caught in her crosshairs. When she got serious about something she saw it though until the end. That's how she was looking at you now. "I'd love to kiss you, Cait."
She chuckled at your breathless tone. "I'll go slow. It's your first kiss, right? I figured from the way you'd blush and turn your head when I'd lean in." Her gloved hands slid over your hands, giving them a comforting squeeze. "Close your eyes for me, darling." The moment you did you felt her lips against yours, perfectly falling into place.
"You're joking, aren't you? You haven't kissed anyone? No one? Not even a little?" She tried to hide her amused smile behind her hand but it was futile. You rolled your eyes at Maddie and then threw a pillow in at her head.
"First, how do you kiss someone a little? And second, you know I've barely dated before this. You're the first girl I'm kinda serious about. Thought that waiting to have my first kiss would be... you know romantic?" You shrugged and hugged the other pillow close to your chest. Maddie let out a loud 'awww' and hugged you tight, kissing your cheek.
She laughed when you tried to push her away for making fun of you.
"Now hold on. I think that is really sweet of you, love. Not many people out there have your romatic mind and I love that about you. Also, real sweet that you want to kiss me out of everyone." Her hands pressed upon your shoulders and her smiling face approached yours. "Do I get to do that now or...?"
You could see how eager she seemed now that she learned all this new information. "I mean... if you want." Your hug around the pillow tightened as you tried to will yourself to calm down. On the outside you were calmer, ever pushing back into the kiss, sighing contently against Maddie's lips, but on the inside, you were a damn mess of anxiety. "Shhh, it's just me, remember?" She cooed against your lips and waited for you to relax, massaging your shoulders before leaning in for a second, longer kiss.

This was more of a dare than you wanting to kiss anyone tonight. It wasn't your fault that all your friends knew about your big crush on Ekko and roped you into a game of darts that you lost and therefore had to walk over to him and kiss him. Your friends watched you fumble over to him, all giggling.
Ekko looked at you a little bewildered. "Look, don't ask, this was all their idea." You pointed behind yourself at your friends. "They dared me to kiss you so, if you wanna kiss me... you know, cool
"I've got nothing against kissing you, firefly, but I'm a little confused. Thought you didn't mess 'round with friends like that." Ekko did, you knew but you always thought that if you crossed that line with him there would be no bottling your feelings back up. And standing here in front of him, asking for a kiss, you knew that was true.
"I don't mess around with friends. But they won't leave me alone about not kissing anyone yet and you were the safest bet. Plus..." You moved from foot to foot, like that would shake off your nerves. "I like you, Ekko. As more than a friend. I have for a while."
All the chatter from around the two of you seemed to fall into a void. Ekko opened his mouth to say something but you kissed him before he could, too scared of a rejection and too high strung to think about the fact that you might never get this chance again. But to your surprise he kissed back, his full lips pressing hard against yours. "Thought you'd never come out and say it. Damn, been waiting to hear those words since forever." Ekko hushed against you before he dragged his lips from the corner of your mouth to your ear. "I like you too." He confessed with a whisper.

"Don't you let what those assholes said get to you, darlin', their mouth is bigger than their brain." Vander cleaned the dirty glasses behind the bar as you handed them to him one after another.
You grimaced, remembering all the teasing, quite rude teasing might you add, that you endured before Vander stepped in. "I could have kicked them out myself. Besides what do they care if I'm dating you? Not like you gave me the job because of it." They said a lot more than that but you didn't even want to go through all of it.
"Hey, you do great work here. The kids love you; I love you. All that talk about tradin' favors, bunch of bullshit, that's what it is. Besides, I know you've kept to yourself more than others around here. Got nothin' against that. If anything, makes me a bit nervous. I mean, you really want this old man to be your first at everything?" He scratched the back of your head as he remembered the night when you cuddled and you confessed, he would really be your first everything, not just your first relationship. Since then, he'd been a bit jumpier.
"Vander, you're a bit more than a decade older than me. We're both old. And when you get to my age and you haven't done anything, people talk. So, I can't really blame them for thinking what they do about me getting a job here. It's shitty yeah, but like you said, they're just assholes. I want you to be my first kiss, first everything." You confessed and suddenly you noticed Vander wasn't cleaning glasses anymore. He still had the glass and the rag in his hand but he wasn't moving at all.
You seem to have stunned him with your words. There was an old story you remember, about a kiss breaking a sleeping woman from her slumber. With a cheeky grin you pushed yourself up on the bar to get high enough to kiss him. Vander let out a sound of surprise but quickly melted into the kiss. The sound of the glass shattering also shattered the quiet moment you shared and you parted, laughing. "Well, I'll be damned. Seems like there are still things that surprise me."
Silco didn't hear anything from you about the status of you kissing or not kissing anyone. He heard it from Jinx, who heard it from Sevika. And to think one of your best friends would rat you out to her boss' daughter like that. "I'll kill that mouthy bi-" Your threat stopped on your lips, silenced by thin lips. "Silco... what the fuck?"
"What? From how I heard it, you really wanted to kiss me, but were to scared of looking desperate. Best to get things like this over with fast, otherwise they clog up your brain with unnecessary worries." He spoke like a true businessman. And at his core he was one, a corrupted one, and really good at his job.
Still, you looked at him, blinking slowly, still feeling his lips against yours. Your fingertips touched the tingly flesh.
"Silco... that was my first kiss! You asshole!" You pushed him and he did take a few steps backwards. "This is why you can never tell anything to anyone around here!"
Like it was messy he fixed his tie and vest, tugging until they were to his standard again. Then he walked up to you again, his orange eye trained on you like a cat's eye on a little mouse. "Did you hate that I did it? I was never good at asking for permission when I wanted something, or forgiveness. However, if you need an apology from me, I might consider it."
Despite the imposing presence you weren't scared of him at all. "For god’s sake, Silco, I didn't hate it. You could have put more effort in it though. You know, make it more romantic for a lady, sweep her off her feet and take her out to dinner." It was like this man did every romantic thing backwards. He slept with you before he asked you out, he never even asked you out officially, just told you he liked spending time with you, and now this. "You're hopeless sometimes."
When she heard what you said she couldn't help but let out a full belly laugh at it. "Jerk! I'm being serious!" You smacked your fists against her shoulder, which only made the big brawler of a woman laugh more. Sevika never had the most tact or subtlety, or was the best at keeping her emotions in.
"I know you are! Which is why it's so damn funny. I mean shit, sweetheart, haven't kissed anyone? I see you tearing up that dance floor every night with me. You're telling me no one ever got lucky enough to kiss you on the lips? On the other lips maybe?" She wiggled her eyebrows at you.
"You're gross sometimes, you know that." You smacked her on the bicep again, and at the next attempt she grabbed your wrist and pulled you into her lap. Your whole body went hot when her thigh flexed between your legs. "Sevika, what are you up to?"
Sevika grinned wolfishly as her hand grabbed your ass. "I'm about to kiss you. Tell me if you want me to stop." She wasn't exactly asking but she also didn't want to force this on you. When you didn't put up and resistance and tugged her a bit closer by her shirt, she leaned in to capture your lips. Like with everything else she couldn't be gentle, she didn't do gentle. The kiss was rough, passionate, with too much tongue for you who never kissed anyone before. "I'm gonna teach you how to do that better."
"Will you?" You asked all breathless and with wide pupils. One simple kiss made your whole body feel like fireworks were going off. "Better make up for you making fun of me."

Viktor was very perceptive of things that interested him. You were one of those things, even before you became his girlfriend he always listened when you talked about anything. It was his first clue that he liked was in love with you.
He noticed you always seemed to be looking down at his lips more than the things he was writing whenever he was explaining something. "You know, if you want to kiss me, it's as simple as asking." He teased as his fingers traced the pages; he was reading out to you.
"O-Oh. You noticed that did you?" You looked away at the big wall of notes behind him then back at his smiling, knowing face. "Who am I kidding, of course you did. Don't get me wrong, I want to kiss you, Viktor. But I'm also nervous because it'll be my first kiss." He closed the book, with a bit more of a thumping sound than it was warranted. As quickly as he could he crossed the distance between the two of you. His hand lifted yours to his lips.
As shy as he could be with his touches, sparing even, reserved, he found it very easy to touch you and it made your heart skip a few beats every time. Viktor was comfortable with you; he teased you like it was no big deal and would hold your hand when walking through the halls.
"I must confess, darling, I don't have much experience with kissing, or anything of a romantic or intimate nature. I've only been in a few precious relationships before. However, if you allow me, I would love to be your first kiss, today." He emetized the time with a kiss on your fingers, then your knuckles, then across your arm, your jaw. And finally... your lips.

"Do you want to be my first-" You couldn't ask anything more because you heard and saw Jayce drop the hammer he was holding on his foot and was now leaning against his desk, cursing under his breath. "Kiss. My first kiss, Jayce. Get your brilliant mind out of the gutter."
His cheeks got hot when your eyes met across the room. "Your first kiss. Uh... you never kissed anyone before now, babe? Sorry if it sounds like a dumb question but... how? I mean you're the most beautiful, amazing woman I know!"
When he finally put his foot down, confidant that it was okay to do so, he scratched the back of his neck, further adding to his confused look. You sighed. "Thank you for saying all of that. I suppose I wanted it to be special. You told me you've managed to find a breakthrough in your research, so I wanted to reward you, and myself." As you approached him, he got a big, dumb grin that stretched all over his face.
"I see. A reward. If I knew I'd be getting one I'd spend more sleepless nights here." He wrapped his arms around your body when you stepped close and pressed your bodies close.
"No, you wouldn't. I would drag you back to your bed if that's what I had to do to make you sleep properly." And you really would have done that. For right now though Jayce did a good job, and giving him your first kiss was a reward. Jayce approached you slowly, taking great care to be gentle when kissing you, to not get too carried away. He didn't, he kept it to a gentle, long kiss, but quickly got in a few more when you tried to pull away. "You giant dork."

Mel gave you a goodnight kiss but as soon as she felt you stiffen, she pulled back. She frowned when she noticed how nervous you looked. "What's the matter? Darling, are you cold? Your hands are shaking?" She ran her thumbs over the back of your hands.
"Nervous is more like it. That was my first kiss." You said with a shy smile and tried to go in for a second one. But this time Mel stopped you, her hand acting as a barrier between you two. "Hm? What?"
"Your first kiss. And you only tell me that after I've kissed you. Have I known I wouldn't have rushed into it." She sighed heavily and looked almost guilty. She kept replaying her interactions with you in her mind, you were very confident on your date, you flirted with her quite boldly too. And when you kissed her hand, she thought you wanted more.
"What? No, Mel, I'm happy my first kiss was with you! It was perfect!" You quickly spoke up to assure her. "If I didn't want it, I would have stopped you before. But holy crap, do you have any idea how much I wanted to kiss you?! I mean honestly, do you! I hardly worked up the nerve to ask you out tonight." You scratched your cheek nervously and avoided her eyes. This felt a little embarrassing to admit when you worked so hard to remain calm and project and air of confidence with her.
Chucking into her hand, Mel cupped your cheek with the other. "Is that so? If that's all then I'm glad. You don't have to pretend with me. I can assure you too, if I didn't like you, I wouldn't have said yes to our date. Much less kissed you. However, if you would allow it, I would like to re-do that kiss." Mel took your chin between her fingers and brushed her thumb against your lower lip, parting your lips just a bit before kissing you again.
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