#haven't done a vid post before so i hope this works

[bigpyrolizard]

Watch "Seto Kaiba - Stairs" on YouTube

Because stairs is trending and this abridged series was iconic...

[shmreduplication]

unsurprisingly, whatever hack hit Lydia's youtube channel also fucked the queued posts :(

fortunately i have v good friends who make delicious food for thanksgiving and are up-to-date on hacks that affect projects that I'm working on and send me a link to a dropbox account with all the vids saved to it, and that has a link to dailymotion which should work with tumblr's video embed code so the posts should be fine once I replace all the urls

here are the blogs if you want to follow now, nothing is going to be posted there at least until 2025 but you can go ahead and follow now. realtime lbd (just going to be the vids), realtime lbd socmed (will have the tweets and tumblr posts)

so here's the updated to-do list:

keep screenshotting tweets and hope they don't delete the accounts before I'm done

group the tweets by day

schedule like 400 posts that are just the tweets from each day. Probably less because I don't think there are tweets from literally every day but I haven't gotten to Lydia yet

Update all the Lydia vids with the dailymotion links

pick profile and header pics for both blogs

make and schedule some posts advertising that this is going to be a thing and put them in the LBD and P&P tags

maybe some countdown posts too? idk

message Hank Green to see if he'll post about it because obviously there's audience overlap

add image descriptions to all the tweets

think about the fact that everyone is making a self portrait of all times with everything they do so that these two blogs are going to be a self portrait of me even tho i'm literally reposting other people's work and if someone else posted the same vids and tweets then they'd pick different ones and it would come out differently

(optional) watch the Colin Firth version and the very pink 2003 modern AU version because I just got those on dvd

(optional) rewatch the Keira Knightly version

(optional) watch Nothing Much To Do, a vlog version of Much Ado About Nothing, which I only found out about recently

???

profit

sit back and enjoy march 2025-2027 as the queues for both blogs run and I don't have to do anything else because they're fully set up

[posttexasstressdisorder]

Monterey Bay Aquarium 07-09-24 Master Post (all ten parts)

[twistedshipper]

While I haven't vidded as much this year compared to the previous few (lack of inspiration, poor mental health), the several vids I have made just about all deal with dark themes (which may just say something about where I've been mentally as of late), and that includes the one I have scheduled to be released on the 1st of October.

This is something I've felt like talking about on here for a while though but something has always held me back when I would open a new draft to write a more personal post, but, generally, I feel as if the creative spark that has burned so strong and vibrant within me these few years (really since the lockdowns of 2020) has just gone out.

Aside from writing SL (and also working on my prompt for the Merlin Rare Pair Fest, which to be honest I haven't done much for either), I just feel like I have nothing left to say when it comes to Merlin. When I felt my desire to vid fading over the summer, I was excited to feel it replaced by learning how to gif, but even that new energy has waned. I want to create so badly; I know I need to for my own wellbeing, as it brings me so much joy, but nothing is speaking to me at the moment.

I'm not looking for any advice to solve this, as it should be only natural, that inspiration comes and goes (and I've been pretty active in this fandom space for years at this point, so this is only normal, and I feel it must come back at some point), but this brings me to the loneliness I've been feeling on tumblr lately, and that's mostly my own fault for failing to join in the conversations in our small community; again, something holds me back, and that is mainly that I feel unable to hold the conversations I wish to have on here for fear of reproach or an overall lack of interest in the parts of this story that intrigue me.

Anyway, I'm writing this here just to say how I've been feeling and to explain why there's been little new from me lately. I hope that changes in the coming months. But if anything, there will be a new Merlin vid come October (one fitting for the Halloween season) and then there's a few older gifsets I had made on my old blog before I deactivated it that I've been waiting to post again here since I think the content more fitting for the autumnal season. 🍁💀🕯🍂

[majaloveschris]

I think we can say they haven't really had her involved in things that are too public. // i feel like they’ll completely contradict themselves bc they tried building this relationship w her & co (and his family) and w the all the scare vids & the v-day “love bomb” i feel like they might need to wait a bit before they pull the “jenny card” yk 🐟

Yeah, but I think this whole thing has been going on on social media. Outside the pap walk and Disney, basically nothing has happened in public; everything was done on Instagram. I think that shows they don't really want to do anything more abiding. Those videos will still exist, but I hope you know what I mean. 

The last thing that happened (not including the follows and likes) was the VT video. That was months ago, and people break up in a week sometimes. What I mean is that their breaking up wouldn't be that shocking. They aren't talking about each other non-stop or posting cute couple pics, and even if they were, who knows what's going on behind closed doors? So maybe a few people would be shocked, but I think most of the GP and fans weren't really, especially those who've known him for years and know a few things (tweets, behavior) about Alba and her friends. What I mean is that those who believed it was real wouldn't change their minds and say it was PR all along just because they broke up. And even if they were, who cares at that point? Like, the contract is over, and everybody can go on with their lives. 

I think "breaking up" now would be the perfect time. Comic Con worked out for him, and his new romantic movie comes out, so the heartbroken man thing would be even more beneficial for him and for the movie. A lot of people would be relieved and happy because he isn't associating with racists, and we all know that there would be a lot of people and fans who would be all over the place by the fact that he is single again.

But we don't know anything about the contract, so we will see. 

[ttvnadeeta]

couple of things.

1.change of plans. so will go live tomorrow with fiance instead. fiance is building something in minecraft as well as he didn't wanna wait 3 days(since we wouldn't game til Friday with original plan)for us to game again. so sticking to normal schedule and gaming tomorrow. the plan tonight should still be plan tomorrow which will be pc/ps. i know we're finishing the roblox games we didn't get to finish before,but not sure on what all else we are doing. we shall see.

2. idk when i will get the tiktok videos done. i wanna try and wait til i have room on my pc as i wanna save the vids on my pc so i can cross post them. so i either need to find my USB or get a new one,but i wanna save up money towards the trip which is why on both my main and my twitch tiktok i estimated it might be 1-3 months til i can get them uploaded. srry about the wait guys.

3. idk if i will backseat tonight. considering the time its very doubtful,but i might. who knows. guess it depends on what all i plan to do and if i get busy at all tonight. if no solo stream tonight,i should at least have a stream tomorrow

4. i finished editing my clips/highlights from last night. still can't edit my old highlights though as twitch still won't clip them right. even when a highlight has a category when u clip it,it acts like it doesn't have one and its blank. so if within the next week or 2 I'm gonna title my highlights(as i haven't been doing so,as i thought i could clip them by now) so that way u guys know what ur looking at. hopefully they fix this issue soon,cuz its a pain. i don't like having highlights that are like 10-30 seconds. 1. it bugs me and 2. highlights don't get pushed as much as clips do,so

5. still no update regarding my picture i recently posted. for those who don't know I'm referring to what my boss texted me. so still don't know how stream is going to work cuz idk if i'm doing anything with family the day of or the day before and idk how that would effect stream if we would do it the day before or the day of(the day of are non-streaming days) and what time i would be with family,and/or streaming. when i get more info from the family(when it gets closer to November and December)i should have more info and will be able to talk to fiance and work out a schedule and all that good stuff. right now its up in the air. we're probably doing it the day of as of now but idk on time and ifk if that will change,so we shall see.

i think that's it. well i hope u all have a good rest of ur evening and until next time <3 .

[bughugz]

E and J for ask game?

E = Exhibitionism: Do you like being seen getting off? Ever done anything explicitly hoping to get caught? J = Jack Off: How often do you masturbate and what’s your favorite way to do so? mmmm okay okay okay i'm a little high very energetic and i have thoughts as this is a kink of mine that i have been able to explore a lot more than others soooo prepare for a very long rambly answer ...!!!

i think a lot about exhibitionism in like an i wanna show off and be put on display like let me be an object of lust and desire kinda way like i would love to be justa pretty play thing for somebody showing off for them and their friends but not necessarily thinking about playing in front of strangers much ! i like the thought of being dressed up made to pose all pretty for someone in the bedroom or behind a camera but maybe you take me out in public pull me into your lap and tease me for getting worked up maybe you let your hands be resting under my shirt a little and you whisper dirty things in my ear and watch me squirm ..... i do get that kinda fun nervous lil butterfly feeling thinking about people getting off on the things i post and fantasizing about me but i personally am getting off more on how embarrassing and objectifying it is than like playing with risk that feels a little more scary to push !

i really like the idea of being watched but i haven't gotten off in front of anybody irl ! i've been fantasizing about it more lately thoughh someone making me earn their touch and show off for them maybe denying me their touch because they're enjoying the show .. i have a hard time finishing from self stimulation and i think about like someone using that telling me i gotta cum for them that im not doing enough to earn their touch or im not doing it right so they gently swoop in (after watching me struggle of course) and help me mmm ...i do like to send nudes and vids and i've definitely gotten off on calls and video chatting with other people though ! its a lotta fun like yeah i'll be your pretty cam bunny all day and i'd love to do more of that it's been a long time //// i've definitely experimented in other ways though i have had past partners film me and keep videos to get off on which i think is really hot to be honest i never actually watched them which is a disappoint fr i've also had someone spank me and instruct me to pose for them after so they could take photos of how cute and red my ass was and send them to a group chat with some of their friends and i knew exactly who was in the chat already and it didn't get brought up much but they would all tease me when it did and it turned me on a lot when i was interacting with them and i'd remember that they'd seen me all marked up and on display (i'd really prefer to be knowing than people remaining completely anonymous and getting off on me i think it's hotter and that's why i encourage people to send asks if they do!!) i am also like loud and people always tease me about it telling me if i'm not quiet everyone will know what a whore i am and that i'd probably like that which is likeeee very fun i get so wet and even more whiny in response tbh i did have a partners sister tell me later that i was too loud and she heard me moaning and shit which was really embarrassing in a not hot way i only get off to consenting participants in my fantasies lmao and despite not liking to play with risk as much i definitely have! (from here on is where i finally answer the actual asks lmao) not with like the intent of people seeing or knowing but certainly getting off on the the threat of it had someone finger me while in public and trying to avoid any attention from noises i made or my body language and stay focused on the studying they were supposed to be helping me with was really hot i've also had somebody cover my chest in hickeys and suck on my nipples in public before and almost got caught and i have fucked in public restrooms twice and also taken quite a few nudes in restrooms all pretty hot situations but i feel most comfortable in a controlled environment for safety ! i also really like to dress slutty in public and enjoy the attention i get from it and i've probably accidentally flashed some people before because i own a lotta little crop tops jdjcjc

alsooo i masturbate most days at least a few times a week if i like have the energy and usually i gotta be home and cozy in my own space i've never been able to cum from just my hands alone and don't even really use them anymore whether that's like jerking my clit or penetration (someone else's hands however 🥴) i need toys to help me out i enjoy penetration and i've owned dildos in the past and i would reallyyyy like a new one i've been thinking about it and i do have a vibrator that does internal and external stimulation and i use it a lot not my fav toy i've used but i've come from it externally plenty of times anyways umm i usually watch porn prefer good audio but that's been really boring lately need some better jerk off material :( i also like to play with my nipples sometimes i'll use clamps and i'll choke myself also have spanked myself before and i ammm a big member of the pillow grinding and humping society it does nothing for me but i cannot escape from the dumb needy pet urge to wiggle my hips and grind against and hump things and spend too much time doing that when i scroll on hereeee jdksjd

okay i'm done ramblin i'm so so sorry this got so long ty for ask though<33333

[starlling-writes]

Steel My Heart fanfic WIP

So basically this fanfic is gonna be my take on the story Ginny Di's OC Temper "wrote" under the same title, Steel My Heart. After watching Ginny's vid with Edith & Augury, I got motivated to really work on this again (after my initial kick to after this tweet exchange (yes that's my main twitter, which I barely use))

—so I've decided to share what I have so far. If you haven't heard Ginny's ad with Temper (I cannot for the life of me find the vid with the world anvil ad she was in T^T), basically she's a blacksmith that moonlights as a writer; her current story is about an "adventurer who falls in love with [his] sword, but they can’t be together because the sword is so sharp, their love is dangerous."

I don't know how long it's going to take me to finish this fic, or if I'll actually write beyond the beginning/meet cute between the MC & the sword (in which case I'll release my brainstorming notes that have a lot of fun details). Once it IS done, I'll be posting it in a new post here, and on AO3. Links will be shared on Ginny's patreon discord too.

Anyway, enjoy the WIP as I update; or wait until I properly post the fic and enjoy the anticipation :)

—

UPDATES

March 5

[As this is a WIP, everything is subject to change. Also, it's not edited at all, so dont be surprised by mistakes/inconsistencies/etc.]

CH 1 - Woe to Weal

“How much can I get with—” Anneal paused as he dumped his coin purse on the bar and counted, meekly continuing, “three silver?” He was down to his last coins. He didn’t enjoy relying on the sympathy of others, but he had no choice but to bank on it.

The barkeep gave him a pitying look before going back into the kitchen. Hopefully that was good. There hadn’t been much in the way to scavenger or hunt on his way into this village, so any food would be good. On cue, his stomach growled like an owlbear. Not that it could be heard over the boisterous group that stumbled in, making everyone turn and look. A hallow pang turned Anneal’s head back to his measly fortune.

A fortune that was swiftly swiped up by the barkeep. In its place, a plate of food and a stein of mead were set. And the key for a room.  He was about to thank the barkeep but one of the new, rowdy patrons all but slammed into the bar beside him. “Good friend, some drinks and food, if you please!” the halfling lilted. “And later some rooms so we may rest at ease.”

They eyed the gold she offered, then the group of hers who were all lost in their own conversation. “You’re adventures.”

“That we are, indeed. And we’re open for hire, should you so need,” she honeyed on.

“Yeah, actually.” They reached under the bar and pulled out a small flier. “Go see the mayor. She’ll give you the details. If you can manage to handle this tonight, you can imbibe and stay for free.”

“Well well, what a deal—”

“Sorry,” Anneal cut in, “but is this request open to all adventurers?”

They both looked at him. The barkeep raised their brow as they looked him over again. “You’re an adventurer?”

“I am.” Anneal cleared his throat, then straightened up and adjusted himself. “I admit, I’m… a bit down on my luck at the moment, but I can hold my own.”

A strong hand clamped on his shoulder. It seemed that the halfing’s group had been listening in and were all now circled behind me. The orc woman leaned in close. “Trying to be competition, little man?”

She could easily snap him in half—he had mixed feelings about that. “No, no!” he quickly defended. “I—I’m clearly no competition for the four of you.”

“Correct,” she said.

“I merely meant more of a… partnership? If you will—if the job is even something that would benefit from more fighters?” He glanced to the barkeep, hoping his desperation wasn’t noticeable to everyone.

It was.

The barkeep shrugged. “Hell if I know. Mayor knows more,” they deflected, then promptly removed themself from the situation developing between all of the adventurers.

Anneal slowly turned and faced the group he callously interjected himself into for this job they knew nothing about. Their expressions ranged between friendly, curious, reluctant, and unimpressed.

The orc spoke up again. “So, how do you fight? You look like fragile magic wielder.”

“Uhh…” He didn’t enjoy being called fragile, but compared to her, it was fitting. Especially with how scruffed up he was at the moment. “Well, I guess it’s sorta like magic.” He flicked his hand and in it appeared a spectral dagger. “Right now, these are all I got. But I know how to fight with other weapons, too. I’m best at being sneaky and such. You know—rogue shit.”

She nodded acceptingly. “Not bad. Maybe we work on more fighting skills for you.”

“Wait, so… you’re all fine working together?”

“We all fall on hard times at least once. It’s always good to help others when you can.” The elf with pastel hair held out her hand. “I’m Cerromet.”

“Anneal. Nice to meet—ahh!” When he went to shake her hand, a small creature jumped over Cerromet’s shoulder and tried to bite his hand. Luckily, he withdrew in time.

Acting fast, Cerromet turned her hand and grabbed the little psudo-dragon by the belly. She held the fang-bearing creature to her chest and pet it sweetly below its chin. “Sorry about Bloom. She’s just hungry.”

“She’s not the only one!” piped up the gnome. She hopped up on the stool beside him and leaned over for a better look at the plate the barkeep left him. “It’ll be nice to have some actual food instead of goodberries.”

“I’m sorry the ones I make are so sour,” Cerromet pouted with a little attitude. “That’s just how my magic is, Pen.”

The halfling leaned on the bar and stole his stein of mead. She took a swig then said, “I’m Burr, by the way; and Bi’Kern is our burly friend. She’s tough, for sure, but kind in the end.”

“I don’t mean this as a criticism, but just an honest question. Do you always speak in rhyme?” Anneal asked.

“It’s more fun to speak in song. Try it sometime and tell me I’m wrong.”

“Do you ever not speak in rhyme?”

“You’ll sooner see ancient dragons fill the sky, than you’ll hear a lilt fail from I.”

“Okay, okay… what’s a rhyme for orange?”

Bi’kern smacked the back of his head. “Stop being ass. Just drink already.” Burr made a point to start chugging the drink she stole from him while conspicuously returning to the table they had claimed.

— — —

Fun Notes: Most main characters are blatantly based off Ginny’s other OCs, and renamed after smithing terms (in case it doesn't come up later in the story, Pen is short for Pennyweld). Also, going to be adding various quests Ginny has made too (can you guess what this first one is gonna be?)

[madfantasy]

I haven't seen you post in a while, I hope you've been doing okay? How is everything? Hope it's been a good year so far for you 💕💕

You're too kind, u & everyone who made inquiries, bless ur hearts.. im sorry for disappearing, but yeah, I don't have net— using my phone credit and hope this posts..

I tried to record my voice answering this, like I sometimes did on tik, suddenly ended up trying to muffle the floods of my burning tears, so now I have an awkward vid of me talking then weeping out of nowhere, which a good reason for me to keep up the no cry habit, heh.. but seriously, I suppose I'm fine till I be conscious of it.. its much easier for not to talk .. even tho I'm aching to be back in thy company, lonely in my foresight to catch on to the present that joins us, hand held out to reach like minded souls but shying from the fear of forgetfulness occurring..

I'm fine tho, did few new stuff, merely drowning in too muchness and nothingness as usual, this month I guess you could say I took an act of mad fury in search of any happy source because the echoing silence and the swarm of sadness nipping on my brain cells thickened, and the reasoning merged with the obscene. So instead of giving my guardians the usual of 3/4 of my earnings last month for net and groceries, I spent it all. Ya know, as it was told to me it mine to do as I please? As being prevented any chance of work if it was possible, 't was supposed to be spent on art supplies & measly delights craved for years ?

Before hand, I've been begging them to take me for months to get any clothing or whatever, be it the first time I ever see a shop, then just to drive around, then just me peaking to the outside when the front door is open, merely seeking change I suppose. They kept vaguely promising me until they refused point blank— getting tired of my nagging, then their car just stopped working till this day. Its in the workshop rn..

Anyway, befouled by despair, needing the mere basics of life and not granted, I was delighted when i found a site to buy from cheap & pretty, I pressed buy without any further considerations, or taking their permission and thrilled to be able get gifts for my siblings too. I say gifts but really they are deprived necessities too and not even much just one each cuz well, they are 5 of my babies and to start with the top of priorities; we all draw

I could already see it, they can't help themselves; heck seeped through the clenched gates of their mouths, trying desperately to poison me with undirect attempts this time, cuz I bought for my sibs they're out of the option of calling me selfish. I was upping the same trance like state of vague existence dealing with them, absorbing their insults and degrading just to make sure my shi arrives safe.

Unfortunate for me, the site chose the worst carrier in this country

I did everything in my power to make it into their convenience, by embarrassingly messaging the carrier daily, they took a week of promising to deliver and flanking so my guardians reached a heated level of threatening, waving their hands nd almost tossing shi at mE saying that they don't care if they came and if i dared to order something again they'll do this and that. Not allowing me to open the door for the delivery guy when he comes, blaming me for missing vaccination dates (they kept missing them even before)& missing going to important places(again, they just didn't go to for ages), made them loose sleep, etc etc— in turn, I seen red and regretfully blew up.

I screamed at them its literally the only time I ever did this, it BECAUSE it easier on them & I'll do what I want whatever anyway, & to stop interrupting me while I try to explain things , then they suddnly back done and be like I'm not mad at u I'm mad at the delivery ppl, that they are proud of me for being able to do all this, and such sort. I left them to cool in my room, Idk how I did it but must have slam-gripped something so hard it chipped most of my short nails & cracked one, was glad I didn't hurt my drawing hand but yeah, goofy mani

They robbed me of the joy of anticipation & the dissipation of apathy, I started to lose sleep again and my liberating dreams left me and I don't think I remember leaving bed.

But still, If not force myself to do things.. there'll be nothing for me if I don't.. at least I know im able of that

I got my guardians happy tho after another tiresome refusal, by trying out one of those Uber-eat like local apps here, since they have no car and being disabled & ill, I ordered McDonald's for the first time. Slythry behind their backs per habit, told them someone coming and they had that look again, but thankfully the guy came through and didn't steal my money, heh. For a big 1800 calories meal I suppose it was passable, the happy fam faces I got was the real treat..

Oh with that thing with the credit card stating I owe them money, waited weeks & nobody got back to us? They started taking from my guardian's account directly to pay it, saying oh we did send you warnings--- TO THE SHADOWY LINES OF THEIR POSTERIOR A.K.A NOWHERE. Thankfully the account is mostly empty nd just for random transactions, i alerted my guardians not to use it. And again, my god, another round of endless calls and promises started, and we wait again so they just don't act as if we owe them a frking 17k dollars that we don't have.. was panicking cuz I have nothing and but my guardians were weirdly comforting about it and told me not to worry

One thing good bout no net is it made me stop thinking about life in general, and stop the tiny unnoticeable prick of misery when I have no input to share, trying not to helplessly compare people just living, in inflated style or not, in media, to my isolated-most-of-my-life style and missing much of that organic "life experiences and chances", heh. At least, my situation would be favorable to me if it was ever possible for it to let me have peace, or have the simple knowledge I'm not virtually imprisoned and have never familiarised with nothing of this world but the surrounding walls.. its nice to have more time to be consumed by muse and day dreaming that flutters life through my dull being and sing chorus of inspiring means for art to flow and finds its way delicately onto my realised canvas.. but no, I continued drawing whilst sight blurred with salty droplets contradicting that happy tintin dance on tiktok I worked so long on just cuz I couldn't stop, not the tears or the mad scribbles of determined intention to visualise the mourned excitement I need, hating everything I make

Somehow the lilac dream still intrudes, visualising me friends, living, in a quaint home, maybe we roommate, arm in arm we go to make every fracture of fate's encounters a disgusting adventurous thrill, like building a maze of cardboard or chasing each other in the dark.. maybe getting that half bleached head and endless ear pericings ... then it dies and I totally forget it..

But what those awesome headphones helped me do, literally blocks all their voices listening to Sev losing it and I can Waltz around not feeling gutted to go and interfere or play the referee each time. But I can't wear them forever, gives me a bad headache, and honestly; I can't be too neglectful.. my sibs hates me for it already hehe

At least these clothing came true to their measurements, felt the new sensations on how everything I wore hugs me & learnt the baffling ways on how "gender" and region plays different tunes on the same measurements. Getting fitting things felt like suddenly there's hope to be, for myself to be me, and ease this severe disassociation between who I am, and what my body is .. from how little I see myself nd consider it worthy of anything because of how long it been living like a phantom among people.. to numb this dysphoria until it be gone one day

Saddened that the only site I can't order from again if they keep using that awful carrier

...

I missed our country's 91 national day, too. They made sales everything 91 riyal so.. but knowing the sellers here, I don't think most of em went true with their offers.. Horrible news tho on the celebrations, sigh

I turned this into a dear diary, guess bothered you enough today, sorry

So thankful to yous, Idk if I can be back, but I'll remain creating, and will keep the thought alive of being tickled when sharing my creations with your viewing pleasure somehow

'till then my precious dears, take care 💛🙏

26.9.2021, 8 pm, sleeping

[dreamaze]

hi tis cacophony anon! :3 well wasn't it a long week or 4 or 5 :'3 my apologies for that lateness i did take care of myself, met with a friend for a week which was pretty fun and exciting but alas some things simply refuse to wait dhgjdfhks how are you doing? <3 so i did finally listen to xdinary heroes, a few times, and they gave me the same feeling as txt when they debuted: good first album, a sound not quite mature enough yet which is a good thing in my books bc it suits them at this stage and this is a first album not their 6th, and i'm expecting their next three comebacks too see if i like the direction they take and the sound they grow. it worked really well with txt hdghf i'm pretty much of a "wait and see" person when there's not much in their discography yet, and the artists are young. test me was really fun, especially with the "whoo-oo-oo-oo-ah" and the chorus. i really love the pre-chorus, and the last post-chorus. the pre-chorus is my favourite part shgbhd for knock down, if genius isn't lying to me, jungsu's and gaon's voices really got to me. gunil may have had only two lines but damn did they count as they are in the bridge which is my favourite part. also a big fan of multiple voices singing at the same time, even if it's only for na-na-na's. sunker punch!: the calm before the storm of the chorus, a few nearly silences well used before the real silence for the last chorus. love it when silences are effective and ironically what i remember the best of a song. i'm just asking to be hit with music right in the face. strawberry cake: this is a song i expect to grow on me bc it has a lot of the sounds i love, but for some reason the chorus and the bridge don't stick well with me, even if i really like what they did instrumentation-wise i really enjoy pirates with the brass instruments and the "down down down / make you upside down" i would really love for all their instrumentals to be released actually shdbgdgkhsg

my dearest cacophony anon!!! i am THE worst tumblr penpal and i apologize for that :( i was thinking about you literally the week before you sent this and was so happy to see you back in my inbox, and then life and the semester really got away from me. whether you are still around to read this or not, i hope you are doing well and i'm broadcasting good vibes out into the universe to you~~ <3

i'm glad you enjoyed getting into xh's first album, and now of course their second is out!! i haven't spent nearly as much time with it as i intended (the monsta x brain rot is still going… Very Strong sdkfjksdjf and kihyun's brilliant solo album dropped right before Overload, too), but my favorites right now are ghost, crack in the mirror, and (somewhat to my surprise) X-MAS. back to the first album though-- i actually really, REALLY love the mixes to their "live clip" versions. there's a video for every song on the album, in case you missed it! i was obsessed especially with the knock down live clip back when it aired. the audio clearly has some post editing done, but… idk the vocal production is a lot closer to what they truly sound like live, i imagine, and i really dig them. not sure if they plan to do them for the second album, but i hope they do!! if you haven't seen it, they also have an instrumental band practice vid for knock down here (jun han going wild at 3'39" is an especially beloved moment). i agree it would be fun to get instrumental tracks for all their songs :') they probably have some new fun things rattling around YT for latest album that i've missed, hopefully i can get more caught up now that i'm on school break.

before i forget!! i completely agree about the effectiveness of silences in music <33 they can really take your breath away when done well!

again i hope you are doing well my dear, and if/when you ever have time to drop by my inbox again, i'll try to be better about answering sooner! take care!! <3