#haven’t seen any new noms in my fandoms in a minute so i’m coming to u all like this -> 🥺

[rebelpeas]

anybody else looking at au5k…

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 289: Looks Like the Gang’s All Here

Previously on BnHA: Horikoshi was all “you guys don’t really need to know what’s gonna happen to Deku and Shouto right now” and cut away to Toga and Ochako before anyone could get a word in. Skeptic utilized the power of Freak Shounen Coincidence to magically zero in on Ochako and Tsuyu amongst the fleeing crowd. Toga was all “IS THAT OCHAKO” and immediately leaped down to fight them, ignoring Spinner’s heartfelt speeches about Villain Found Family because fight now, hug later!! Down in the streets of some unidentified crumbling city, Ochako was approached by a sweet old lady and was all “I better help this sweet old lady who is definitely not leading me into a trap”, which unfortunately turned out to be poor decision-making on her part. Anyway so now she and Toga are going to throw down. AND ALSO, P.S., BEST JEANIST IS STILL ALIVE, and that doesn’t really have anything to do with anything right now, but BY GOLLY I JUST HAD TO SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS.

Today on BnHA: Iida and Hadou are all “is it our turn yet”, and Horikoshi is all “yes”, and so the two of them finally burst onto the scene and are all “hello Shouto, Gigantomachia is on his way, btw do you need help” and so they all get ready to fight Tomura together. Meanwhile in Unnamed Ochako And Toga Fight Town, Toga is all “what’s up Ochako, oh is this the All Might doll Deku gave you, I guess you must like Deku as well, just like me, we truly are the same, btw I can use other people’s quirks now” before she vanishes in a flurry of knives and ambiguity, as mysteriously as she came. So that’s a thing that happened. The chapter ends with Gigantomachia and the League STOMPIN’ ONTO THE SCENE, JUST IN TIME FOR ENDEAVOR TO WAKE UP AND BE ALL “OHHHHH SHIT.” YOU’RE DAMN RIGHT, “OH SHIT.” Finally the pieces are in place for Dabi to reveal his true identity to Hadou and Iida, JUST LIKE WE ALL EXPECTED.

before I start, thank you so much to everyone who sent birthday messages on Wednesday!! I had a good day; my quarantine impulse purchase guitar that I ordered months ago but had been backordered finally arrived, and so now I can do something productive with my time as I continue to while away these months in isolation! not to say that capslocking over fictional characters and their shounen escapades doesn’t also count as being productive lmao. anyways, my fingers hurt so typing is kind of a bitch right now, but I’m having fun still. IF KAMINARI CAN DO IT THEN SO CAN I

anyway so let’s see what mishaps my various catastrophe-prone children are getting up to this week

okay there are several things happening in this panel which I want to comment on

IIDA!!!

HADOU!!!

“some time after” jesus fucking christ though, how long have Deku and the rest actually been fighting?? like it’s absolutely absurd to imagine that they’ve been managing to hold off Tomura for more than a few minutes, and yet everything we’ve seen these last couple of chapters suggests that this is indeed the case. which is just pure insanity tbh. excuse me sir, but I have an emotionally maturing son, a homewrecking grandpa, and a sleep-deprived one-legged platonic husband who are all in DIRE NEED of medical attention just FYI

lastly, I direct your attention to these two cool cats in the background who are both riding on hover surfboards. living it up like it’s Back to the Future. why are there two of them. do they both just happen to have the exact same quirk. what are the odds. ARE THEY TWINS. I want to know everything about them dammit

anyway so Hadou is asking Iida why he’s tagging along, because unlike the others, he can’t fly and is thus vulnerable to Tomura’s attacks and such

well Hadou I’ll have you know that it his DUTY AS THE CLASS PRESIDENT to tag along and THAT’S WHY

oh shit you guys IIDA SAID “FUCK THE LAW”

“plus Bakugou-kun, whom I am not particularly close to, but nonetheless hold nothing personal against!” well uh, kind of a weird distinction to make there bro, but okay. listen everyone, it’s a tense situation; if Iida feels the need to clarify the ins and outs of his interpersonal relationships with each of the people he’s rescuing then please just respect that okay

anyways though have I mentioned how much I fucking love Iida Tenya though you guys. feels like I haven’t mentioned that enough. I LOVE HIM. there

FINALLY

AFTER THREE WHOLE WEEKS WE FINALLY CUT BACK. OH MY GOD. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW LONG OF A TIME THAT IS TO BE HOLDING YOUR BREATH. [EXHALES]

is it bad that my immediate reaction to this page was A LOT OF LAUGHING, though. fkldlksh this entire situation is SO ABJECTLY TERRIBLE that if I were Shouto I would almost be fighting the urge to look around for a hidden camera at this point. ASHTON KUTCHER WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU DOING HERE. OH THANK GOD, IT WAS ALL JUST A PRANK

anyway so uh. heh. how screwed are we at this point, exactly. oh and also, whose speech bubbles are these. who the fuck would look at this situation and these bleeding children and say “HA!” what kind of monster. just ignore that paragraph right before this one please

OH SHIT, OH SHIT, OH SHIT

TOMURA I CANNOT BELIEVE I’M SAYING THIS, BUT PLEASE LISTEN TO AFO FOR ONCE AND JUST LEAVE

pretty please. we kind of have a situation here. not that I wouldn’t love to see what this icy flamey boi could do if push came to shove, but I also have had just about enough of watching children get maimed for today though

OH SHIT

THE TIMING OF THIS MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE AT ALL BUT I DO NOT CARE!! THE CAVALRY HAS ARRIVED THANK GOD

“WHAT UP GUYS, WE BROUGHT YOU SOME TERRIBLE NEWS” FKLSHLKHLK

WELL GEE IIDA THANKS SO FUCKING MUCH!!

lmaoooo a wild Lida has been spotted what the fuck is this translation though

I don’t know which is better, the “Lida” (DO YOU EVEN READ THE SERIES BRO), or the “CHRIST” gkfhkg. CLASSIC LIDA

OH SNAP HADOU

sobbing at Manual cradling the still-warm corpse of Gran Torino like a tiny baby khlk;h. BUT ANYWAYS HADOU SAW HER TEACHER ALL BLOODIED UP AND IS READY TO THROW DOWN, YESSSSS, THE MY LADIES ACADEMIA ARC CONTINUES

(ETA: listen you guys, there were many things at the end of this chapter that brought me joy, but perhaps none more than the inclusion of Hadou in the final two page spread looking all serious alongside the Todorokis, as if she has any fucking clue at all wtf is going on slfkhlkhgghsl. what I wouldn’t give to see her and Deku and Iida all making frantic bewildered eye contact at each other throughout the next chapter lmao.)

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT DEKU

ARE YOU PROPPING YOURSELF UP WITH YOUR ARM THAT’S IN SPLINTERS, I CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE YOU RIGHT NOW. SOMEONE PLEASE SLAP SOME SENSE INTO THIS CHILD. SIT YOUR ASS DOWN

LMAO TODO’S READY TO TAKE AFOMURA ON. THE SHARED HERO BRAINCELL HAS ALREADY EXPIRED. FUCK IT LET’S DO THIS

“true, I already watched him murder my dad, my boyfriend, my other boyfriend, my teacher, and dozens of other people, but gosh darn it, I just feel like the fifteenth time’s the charm you guys.” shit, I ain’t even mad. who’s up for yet another episode of Todoroki Shouto Attempts to Murder a Bitch

-- “TIME TO CUT AWAY!!” laughs Horikoshi as he gleefully dodges out of reach before I can punch him, that SON OF A --

goddammit. you’re just lucky that I’m invested in the girl power fight too

YESSSSS OCHAKO

DON’T BE SORRY FOR KICKING ASS! NEVER BE SORRY FOR KICKING ASS

damn, looks like she managed to touch Toga’s shirt but not Toga herself. both of them are so fast

now Toga is monologuing from the shadows

we’ve all been there, Toga. sometimes you see someone you really like and it’s just like, ahhhhhh gotta kill them am I right

lol I love Toga so much you guys, but I’m also kind of wincing in anticipation of whatever essays are gonna materialize out of the fandom this week explaining how hero society has failed her utterly and she is just a victim here. CAN YOU NOT SEE HOW SHE JUST WANTED FREEDOM TO BE HERSELF AND MURDER A BUNCH OF PEOPLE flhkklhl

OH SNAP SHE WENT AND TOLD HER THE THING!!

and it was fucking awesome and scary as shit, Ochako. like damn, still sends a chill up my spine just thinking about it

anyway so now Toga is continuing to explain that she can use the quirks of whoever she transforms into

and Ochako is kind of freaking out, which I don’t blame her for, since it’s probably really upsetting to hear that your stolen blood and quirk were used to murder a bunch of people. shit

so now she’s all “WTF WHY WOULD YOU EVEN TELL ME THAT”

??? was this somehow the wrong answer?

for fuck’s sake. Toga you literally came down here to ask her if she would be willing to kill you, and here she is telling you “I would never be happy about killing someone, that’s fucked up”, and you’re all “......”

like come on though, what else do you want her to say?? and why does Ochako look so shocked now

OOP

LMAO

THEIR FACES DKSLHFKG. TOGA NO THAT IS MEAN. and jesus christ Ochako it’s just a toy. I know it has Sentimental Value and shit but is this really the thing to be getting distracted about right now

FOR FUCK’S SAKE

JIN-KUN WHOM OCHAKO HAS NEVER FUCKING MET?? THAT JIN-KUN??!

OM NOM NOM

this entire confrontation makes absolutely zero sense to me you guys. just. Horikoshi was all, “this is the kind of stuff girls talk about when they’re battling to the death, right?” just, are you okay my dude

anyway so Toga has somehow deduced that Ochako got the doll from Deku, which means that she and Ochako are exactly alike in every way, and this is somehow an important plot point, and now they’re finally getting back to the fight lulz

OH SHIT

OCHAKO BOUT TO SLAP THE SHIT OUT TOGA WITH THIS BOOKCASE ON A STRING AND THIS LOUIS BAG OH FUCK

so now Toga’s all excited and she’s all “THERE’S SOMETHING I OUGHT TO TELL YOU, I’M NOT LEFT HANDED EITHER” oh snap

fuck, it almost feels like she’s trying to warn her. Ochako idk maybe you should run shit I do not like this ( ﾟдﾟ)

but of course she is not running, and she’s all “I’ll have you take responsibility for your actions”

HEY NOW

WHAT IS FUCKING HAPPENING, DID TOGA JUST FUCKING MURDER TSUYU, WHAT THE FUCK. I AM TERRIFIED, I DON’T WANT TO SCROLL DOWN, SHE THREW LIKE FOURTEEN KNIVES INTO THE DARKNESS, WHAT THE FUCK

OH

IT’S POSSIBLE THAT I MAY HAVE OVERREACTED

so did Toga just Swip a bunch of knives for no reason and then abscond, lol what. CAN ANYBODY PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT THE PURPOSE OF THAT ENTIRE SCENE WAS. ASIDE FROM GETTING TO SEE OCHAKO TRY AND YEET A BOOKCASE AT SOMEONE

fuck, she was crying??

DID MY GIRL TOGA JUST KILL AN OLD WOMAN, NAKEDLY LURE OCHAKO INTO A BUILDING, ANTAGONIZE HER INTO SAYING “I’LL MAKE YOU TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR KILLING A BUNCH OF PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE YOU FELT LIKE IT”, STEAL HER DOLL, GIVE HER DOLL BACK, TELL HER “OH SO YOU LIKE DEKU TOO HUH? BTW I CAN USE OTHER PEOPLE’S QUIRKS”, AND THEN RUN AWAY CRYING??? BRUH

-- OH SHIT, OH FUCK

[SIRENS BLARING WILDLY] [AUDIENCE LEAPING OUT OF THEIR SEATS] [T-SHIRT CANNONS BOOMING IN THE AIR] [VIKING WAR HORN SOUNDS IN THE DISTANCE] FUUUUUUUUUCK

well never the fuck mind about Ochako and Toga and WHATEVER THE FUCK THAT ALL WAS SUPPOSED TO BE, I guess, BECAUSE!! MACHIA MADNESS HAS ARRIVED. SPEARS SHALL BE SHAKEN!!! SHIELDS SHALL BE SPLINTERED!!

AND LOOK WHO WOKE UP FROM HIS NUMBER ONE HERO BEAUTY NAP RIGHT ON CUE, TOO!!! ATTENTION ALL PASSENGERS... IIIIIIIIIIT’S TOUYA TIMEEEEEEEE

[diaryofasithchick]

Forgive Me Vader for I Have Dimmed...

...my devotion to the Force. It’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything, but it’s because I’ve been feeling overwhelmed. Not with life but with all the Star Wars stuff happening. Some of it is the usual build up to the upcoming film but that is just compounding all the stuff that currently exists out there: news about films, tributes to Carrie Fisher, podcasts, blogs, FB groups, Scum and Villainy Cantina (here in MY part of the galaxy -- a part of town I hate going to, though), fan films merchandise, and each of those explores the films, the animated series, and the books of the expanded universe -- and this doesn’t include the information on the official Star Wars website or the biggest Star Wars event of them all going on right now -- Celebration, and all its features and announcements and ultra amazing happenings of which I am not a part! (Insert tantrum, here.). So I try to pretend (not very well) for one second it’s not big deal as seen in my comments (I’m Sithsheila) to the FB post below. Sometimes I see links, and I just move along. What the hell is that behavior? I just don’t want to know what else of which I am missing out!

I’ve always known that despite my friends and family declaring me the biggest Star Wars fan, I know that compared to many other Star Wars fans, I am an amateur; this is why I chose the nom de plume, “Squire Ren” because I feel that, despite my fanaticism, I am in training when it comes to my knowledge and level of dedication to the franchise. But I am disappointed in my exhaustion in trying to keep up with everything Star Wars. I cannot accept that there would be a problem with overflowing fodder to feed my Star Wars gluttony. I can do better. I know I can.

VAGUE AND UNCONVINCING EXCUSES

Time is a huge factor when trying to keep up with all this stuff, and I’ve made time for what’s convenient: feeds that pop up on my Facebook, Twitter, and Tumblr pages.  Work, raising a kid, volunteering, freelance projects, trying to stay fit at 45, my research, my Mary Sue fiction, eating, sleeping -- I allow things to eat up so much precious time, and I squander so much time that could be devoted to my devotion for a galaxy far, far away. That is why I fail.

I have asked and received recommendations for Star Wars books so I can

venture into that realm, but have not plunged between any covers, which is horrifying because I love to read, and I love Star Wars! I have found Star Wars podcasts that sound intriguing, but I don’t know why it doesn’t intrigue me enough to actually listen to them especially when they are talking about topics by which I am fascinated, but I haven’t brought myself to listening to one.  I think that because I love written language, I want to see the words in front of me, so I haven’t allowed myself the time to have an aural experience other than listening to music or listening to radio news or sports broadcasts in the car -- which exactly what podcasts are, right, broadcasts, but I haven’t overcome the barrier, provided myself the luxury of time needed to sit still and listen, and there really are no good reasons I have to explain it. There is no try.

Coming up in my part of the galaxy is the May the Fourth Be With You Geek Meet. It’s a chance for me to do some discount cosplay and maybe meet the Star Wars nerd of my dreams (Likely not, since I am socially inept). Here is another aspect of fandom that I wish I did better at, but all I have is my Darth Vader dress and cape and some lightsaber jewelry or my Boba Fett shirt, beanie and blaster to serve my cosplay needs, dare I even use the term “cosplay” for the lack of effort in my apparel. I enable my social anxiety and talk myself out of going to these events by diminishing the acceptable state of my costume and exaggerating the inconvenience and annoyance of going to a crowded venue in a crowded part of town.

Then I see people on social media who indulge in multiple fandoms, and I am convinced there is something magical allowing them this ability. How do people manage devotion to multiple fandoms? Many Star Wars fans are also huge comic book fans and fans of other Sci-Fi franchises, and they go full bore with with their detailed knowledge and acquisition of merchandise from those franchises as much as they do with Star Wars.  I love Star Trek and Lord of the Rings not quite as much as I love Star Wars, but close to it, perhaps because I have little time to just view these, perhaps it’s merely time that hasn’t allowed me to wade deeper into these fandoms. I also have favorite bands and a passion for certain literary periods and of course favorite authors that graduate school provided a structured forum for fandom, but above all I’ve prioritized Star Wars but still feel I’ve devoted to it such little effort to it.

I feel like...no...I know that I’m missing out on so much.

REPUBLIC CREDITS ARE NO GOOD OUT HERE

Money is a huge factor when it comes to fandom. I see people on social media talking about their new collectible purchases and not just for Star Wars but for other franchises over which they obsess. I have to keep my Star Wars purchases practical. When I am in need of something, I try to get a Star Wars version of it. I need work clothes, I bought Star Wars shirts, sweaters, socks, and Vans (I get to dress casual at work). I needed a new work bag, I got the Darth Vader briefcase. I needed a new waterproof jacket, I bought the Darth Vader windbreaker. My showerhead broke, so I bought the Darth Vader one (Luckily I had just received a bunch of new Star Wars bathroom merchandise for xmas from my bestie to complete the look of the room.). I needed lipstick and mascara and nail polish and CVS had the Star Wars makeup for me to buy. I’m not always so fortunate to find Star Wars merchandise when I am in need. Like why am I not in need of Tiki Cups?

It is rare that I have it in my budget to purchase a collectible for the sake of having a collectible. It’s not that I don’t want to, I just can’t afford it. And it makes me wonder what kind of jobs Star Wars fans have to be able to afford to grow their collections. I’m sure many have well paying jobs because Star Wars attracts a unique quality of person, but then that makes me then wonder why I can’t afford to be nothing but a low-grade fan.  

DO OR DO NOT

I have heard that sentiment that if I was truly passionate, truly a fan, that I would find the time and money for all of my passions. That everything I detailed above is merely an excuse. I don’t believe that, mostly because, if I did, I would have to acknowledge that my love for Star Wars is too pale to be a passion. That I cannot do... (despite those sentiments being often accurate). I will not admit to a lack of passion because that is a terrible state to be in for a devotee of the dark side.

So, I guess I write this to now make myself accountable for my devotion. I write this with some jest, but it is my way of handling the fear of adding up the wasted minutes and the “could haves” and “should haves” and “if only I hads” that will drill me when my body is no longer fully functional, when I look back to see today was the time to make room for my passions amongst the obligations, being a nurturing parent, and still have room for serving my fellow human beings with my volunteer work. The episode VIII trailer came out today, and I am feeling renewed, motivated to drink in more Star Wars, heated up about seeing my cupcake 🤤  this winter (look at how delicious he looks!). There is time for it all and to do it all well. All is possible with the Force. The Force is with me; I am one with the Force.