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[4me2knowandyou2wonder]

Teeth Headcanons for Modern Warfare characters

As the winner of our first pole, we will be starting with everyone's not so, maybe sometimes favorite baby man...

Graves!

Yep. Graves was the braces kid. He just was.

At 13 his American ass was told by the dentist to go to the orthodontist. His mother dragged him there despite his protests and he was put in big metal brackets. (He had some normal crowding and a healthy underbite) Graves was awful at wearing his rubber bands, just awful and had braces for 3 years. Almost all his teen pictures have that metal smile on display.

Graves also was the type to not know what color brackets look good and constantly switched them around so half his photos not only have a metal smile but also have a candy-colored metal smile - Blue, green, yellow, and red all clashing on his teeth. (You know he did red white and blue at least twice)

His wisdom teeth were removed at 18 because his mouth is too small for them. His mother made a video of him on the anesthetic drugs as he says all sorts of things. He definitely cried a few times. Graves swears the video has never seen the light of day - he’s wrong and his shadows can prove it. Mercenaries can always find a way.

After getting his braces off, Graves never truly wore his retainer. He lost it within the first year he was prescribed it and never let his family replace it.

Today, It shows in his teeth. Their crookedness and original setup has all but fully returned. Graves has genetically yellow teeth (fig 1) and they're going to be that color even though he brushes them 13/14 times he’s supposed to. (this success is mainly because his shadows will comment if his breath stinks.) lastly, Graves does not floss and refuses to with the conviction of a man with toxic masculinity. 

NOT LASTLY I just rewatched some graves scenes on confirm his underbite and not only is it *really there* its there because he is shoving his jaw up and out like he’s chewing tobacco (fig 2 & 3). Which made me realize… this bitch probably chews tobacco! So put dozens of cavities, worn away enamel, and early tooth loss on your Graves bingo cards!  Figures under the cut

Please excuse the quality I took this with my phone camera off my computer screen while binging the cod games. It was snapped in moments of excitement over teeth and not meticulously clipped from the videos for posting purposes o7

(Fig 1)

(Fig 2) these next two were screen shots from a not 1080p video and you can tell. But they do their job. Also, hi ghost!

You can’t tell me this man hasn’t chewed tobacco before … look at the way he hold his face !

(Fig 3)

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✦ ˚ : · MEDIA DAYS ⋆ CARLOS SAINZ 🦢

pairing ☆ carlos sainz x f1 influencer! reader

summary ☆ where after an interview together, carlos is fascinated by you and doesn't miss the chance of hitting on you

warnings ☆ lando hate bc i hate him sm i can't stand him i swear to god i can't with that guy. i used lissie mackintosh as a fc bc she has good material, but i don't support her at all

masterlist | letterboxd

❛ if they call me a slut, it might be worth it for once❜

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user1 she's living every girl's dream

carlossainz55 Loved to work with you, I had so much fun! 🤞 liked by author

user2 OK I'M JEALOUS user3 oh hi carlos

user4 Leave this work for someone who knows how to do it

user5 go back to your 9 to 5 dickhead user6 🤏

user7 i want to be like her when i grow up (i'm 26)

user8 HAHSHAHA me too girl me too

landonorris now interview me, having dinner with you

yourusername no thanks x user9 LMAOO i just love how much y/n hates lando

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user10 she's soft launching??

lilymhe so many queens on this dump (including cleo, obviously)

yourusername cleo is the queenest of all of us

user11 my goal is soft launching in a yatch out of nowhere

alexandrasaintmleux cleo is the cutest omg!!

yourusername i wish leo and her fall in love, but i think she's a lesbian user12 IJBOL user13 honestly i think too that cleo is a lesbian

user14 that flowers omg

landonorris cool pics

yourusername thanks now leave.

user15 i can't believe she's soft launching

user16 THAT SHOULD BE ME

user17 face card never declines

carlossainz55 cleo has a bit of y/n in her face

user18 ariana what are you doing here user19 this friendship out of nowhere??? user20 wait i knew that hand on the second pic was familiar user21 IS CARLOS?? user22 oh that's not... user23 OF COURSE she's dating a f1 driver

user24 now it makes sense why you got into f1 so easily

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user25 so it's official?

user26 carlos wtf

user27 that's cleo lol

user28 you could do so much better

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user29 please tell me that's NOT y/n

user30 nah carlos leave y/n alone

user31 i really thought she was trying to make motorsports more visible to girls and she was just trying to be a wag

user32 she's just a gold digger like the others

user33 we lost him guys 😔

user34 we lost her*

user35 wait who's the girl? and why is everybody hating?

user36 everyone thinks is y/n, a journalist and f1 influencer that has been working for introducing more women and girl to the sport. and everyone is hating bc she represented all the women who wanted to have a future in f1, and now we found out that it was only for dating one of the drivers user37 i mean ig it sucks but dating a man doesn't take the fact that she can still do her job user38 but all the message for the girls is gone

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yourusername Been reading so many opinions about my own private life and I thought that the best thing I can do is address this because I'd never imagine I could dissapoint so many people just for loving someone.

I've been working really hard making a name in this industry because I love motorsports, not for any other reasons. And I wasn't aware of being a role model until now, which is something I'm still getting used to it. But overall, who I choose to date has nothing to do with my job.

Dating the amazing man that Carlos is was just a perk of working in F1, and even though I'm technically a wag now (it's really weird to worded 😨) I will keep working hard in F1 and other categories for the love I have for this industry.

I'll see you on the next race 💕💕

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Could you do a smau w Carlos falling for an f1 influencer?

a/n: this was so hard somehow?? idk why i had zero inspiration this past week, but here it is. it's a bit short but i like it <3

[ratcash-wasgud]

hi! i just came by your work last night, loved it! stayed up reading it! 11/10 *cheff kiss* Are you up for a petition? maybe another mizuxreader, perhaps villainxhero kinda situation. the reader could be one of the money/sex hungry affiliated with the white man (not a white men herself but like a lap dog of someone with higher power than Abijah Fowle). instead of mizu taking Fowler she takes the *reader*, keeps her alive and makes her speak 7u7 maybe scream. they end up helping each other in the end after much fighting. ofc adding some nsfw there pfff if that wasnt obvious.

hope you see this! lmfao

Omg, yes!! Genius. This set something ablaze inside me (especially since I love witty villain characters). I was thinking about making this a one shot tho, but if yall want a second part tell me, and i'll try. Try. Anyways, this'll be more lighthearted than my other works. Oh, and I'm sorry if this isn't how you imagined the story to go. I interpreted some of the originaly show's story, but mostly I just wen't along with what's the easiest to get my own story going, and I probably got some cannon info wrong too, but please don't yell at me lmao.

Btw!! I'm really glad i got a request!! So thank you! If anyone has any other ideas, I'd be glad to try and working with it!!

Okay, enjoy!!

ℕ𝕖𝕜𝕠 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕖𝕤𝕥.

When Mizu pulled up to tea with Heji Shindou, instead of the half-blad old guy, she was faced with you. Some woman in strange clothing. It seemed like it was a mix of western clothing, and some japanese casual wear. You even had your hair down, letting it flow freely. How unusual.

"Ah, the infamous samurai who is tearing through anyone in his way!" You say with a smirk on your face, opening up your arms. "Come, come. Oh, and I see you've bought a dog too." You add, looking smugly at Taigen.

"How dare-" He starts, but gets shut down by Mizu quickly, and the two follow you to sit down.

"So, I've heard you're after the white men, huh?" You say, not sitting on your knees, but sitting down criss-cross style. "Why? What is it that you're after? Money?" You ask, starting to pour some tea.

"I don't need things like that. I have a vow. I swore revenge." Mizu says simply. "And what is it that you need from me?"

"Oh, nada." You shrug. "I'm just willing to offer a deal." You shoot the both of them a smirk. "I'd love to have that fat bastard dead too! My loyalty isn't with him at all!" You say it like it's the most exciting thing ever. "You see, that sack of shit has everything in the world! Money, power, connections...and he's still complaining! Ha! Meaning, he doesn't deserve it." You say as you lift your tea and take a sip. "I, on the other hand, would take much better care of his privilages."

"So you want me to kill him so you can take his place?" Mizu asks, highly suspicious. She glances at Taigen, who is still giving you a dirty look for your comment from earlier.

"Yap." You nod, tossing down your cup. "Fowler wouldn't be an easy target, so without my help, you could already start planning your funeral." You say, but now a small dangerous glint appears in your eyes.

"And why should I trust you?" Mizu asks, her eyes narrowing at you, but your smirk doesn't falter.

"You shouldn't. Didn't you mother tell you not to trust strangers?" You say with a chuckle and Mizu rewards it with a small glare. A small, but cold one. "Still, it's up to you. Do you wanna kill that bastard so much you're willing to take the risk?"

"And how do we know this is not an ambush? That you won't just kill us if we say no?" Taigen cuts in, putting his hands on the table which you reward with your smile getting smugger.

"Oh, please." You put your hands up in defense. "You really think I'd waste weapons and men on you?" You say, looking him straight in the eye. "And besides, you won't say no." You look back at Mizu. "My deal has only benefits for you. You'll just have to gulp down some self respect."

Mizu raises an eyebrow. "What do you mean?" She can't deny, having someone close to Fowler himself helping her would be a huge positive, but...you just seem so sly. Like a cat.

"Ah, you see, I can get you inside Fowler's little residence." You stand up to pull of a blanket off a big barrel. "You'd fit inside quite well. You're a scrawny thing anyways." You say with a taunting smirk.

"It's a trap!" Taigen says to Mizu right away, but Mizu seems unfazed and steps closer. "How exactly would you get me inside?"

"Aw, I wanted that one to be a surprise." You say with a mock pout. "Fowler thinks I'm out getting a good deal on sake, and I kinda am." You take the barrel's to of, revealing that it's half full of sake. "I'd have you delivered right to his nose."

"You'd die." Taigen cuts in again, and Mizu can see your eye twitch at that.

"Could you shut your lil' pet up? The adults are talking." You say, your smirk disappearing.

"She's obviously untrustworthy!" Taigen draws his sword on a whim, but he's met with a revolver to his head right away.

"Don't try that shit with me." You say, tilting your head at him, but you then seel Mizu's blade at your nape. "Touché." You mutter.

"So what now?" You ask with a smirk breaking out on your face again. "Kill me and lose your only chance at killing the man you swore to slay down? Ha! Go on then." You say, glancing over at your shoulder at her, and you see Mizu tense up.

Suddenly, you feel a sharp pain in your head and you fall to the ground. Mizu hit you with the hilt of her blade, stripping you of your conciousness.

The next thing you see is a capmfire and a siluette around you. As you blink a lot to clear your vision, you notice Mizu and as you look down, ropes around you. She tied you up.

"So you didn't kill me after all." You say out loud, getting Mizu's attention. "The other guy? The one with a bald spot and a funny glare. The dog." You look around.

"Away." Mizu shrugs simply. It's the truth though, Ringo is away in a nearby town, getting supplements for the road, and she left Taigen with a promise of a later duel.

"So...What is you plan now, big bad samurai? Try and torture me into telling you shit? Ha!" You say, wriggling in the ropes.

"I'm planning to exchange you for information." Mizu says simply, staring at the campfire. "I'm sure Heji Shindo would like to have you back."

You grit your teeth. "That old fucker doesn't give a shit about anything but his money and his dick. I'm sure that power hungry bastard is happy I'm gone." You say, scoffing. "But go on, try." Suddenly, you realize something. "What did you do with my gun?" You ask in a hurry, trying to feel around at your hilt.

Suddenly, Mizu lifts your gun, holding it between two fingers. "This?" She asks, looking at you from the corner of her eyes.

"Don't you dare lose it! I want it back when you're done with me!" You stomp your foot as much as you can.

"You know, for someone talking so big earlier, you're quite pissy now." Mizu says, rolling her eyes and you huff in response.

Then...as you glanced back at the fire, you noticed a small pot, boiling. You tried to lift yourself to see what's in it, but the ropes didn't allowed you to.

"...if I starve to death, I'm just gonna be a waste, you know." You mumble under your nose, and Mizu snorts. She then reaches for the pot, and pours out some what seems like soup into a small bowl and she puts it beside you.

You stare at the bowl, your eye twitching. "I can't reach it." You say, your eyebrows creasing together and she just looks at you with a small, amused grin.

"Huh." She says, leaning back on her hands. "Really?" She taunts you. Oh, this woman is horrible. Fine, you think. In one swift motion, you move your leg as much as you're able, and kick the bowl, spilling it all on Mizu.

Mizu's eyes widen and she looks down on her clothes. "...oh, you little bitch." She hisses at you.

"Come, kill me then!" You stick out your tongue childishly.

"You know damn well I could!" Mizu huffs back, throwing the bowl at you.

"Ha-ha, your whole little quest depends on me!" You laugh right into her face and wriggle your legs. Mizu almost growls at you and suddenly she picks up your gun again, and holds it above the fire, threathening to drop it.

"No!" You yell out, and fall forward, and bite into her ankle. Mizu yanks her leg away with a hiss and reaches down to pull you up by your collar.

"Okay, what's your fucking deal?" She says from behind greitted teeth.

"What's yours?" You ask right back, snarling right back at her. "If you'd wanted to kill me, you'd have done it by now. So, want me to talk? Earn it!" You say, getting closer to her face, trying to stand your ground.

"The fuck you want?" Mizu tosses you away, and sits at a reasonable distance from you. "To have Fowler dead? Then just tell me how to get in, and where he is!"

"I want you to untie me, and hand me back my gun!" You demand, and lift your nose, refusing to look at her.

"What's so great about this gun anyways?" Mizu picks up the gun again and looks at it more closely. It's obviously a western gun with a leather grip and engravings along it's barrel in the form of some kind of bird.

You scoff in response. "That was my first gun. It's special." You say like it's the most obvious thing ever. "I will bring it with me when I finally travel aboard, away from this stuck-in-the-past land."

"Huh?" Mizu raises her eyebrows. "You wanna leave Japan? For what?" She asks mockingly.

"Because! This place isn't wide enough for my potential! After Fowler is out of the picture, I will visit take his money and go to London. Start a new life and all. I will really bloom there." You say, rolling onto your back. "People will understand me there."

Mizu narrows her eyes. "I don't think people in Japan are the problem, you're just a common lunatic." That earns a chuckle from you.

"Says the guy who is set out to kill four men he doesn't know shit about." You says, glancing at her, and Mizu can't help herself, cracks a smirk.

"You have guts to talk back to your captor, you know." She says and lifts her eyebrows in amusement. She glances up at the sky too. The stars are very bright tonight.

"You won't kill me." You say, tilting your head so that you're looking straight at her. It's just now that she notcied how nicely the stars reflect in your eyes. Your eyes now look calm, and they don't have any slyness, or mischief in them at the moment. "It wouldn't benefit you." You shrug. "And torturing me would be useless. Pain passes."

"Say," Mizu starts, looking back at the fire. "You said that you're not loyal to Fowler. So who are you loyal to?"

"Me." You say withouth hesitation. "The one who I want the best for and I trust the most is myself. I'm not loyal to any old, egostical bastard with money, like most people in this country are." Say say it with disgust. "I never was and never will be loyal to anyone else, but me."

Mizu scoffs. "What are you, a stray cat?" She asks with a hint of amusement as she looks down at you. "That just makes you even more untrustworty."

You scoff back. "Who said that I want to be trustwhorty?" You ask, rolling your eyes. "Plus, I'm free. Well, not yet, but I will be. And it's not like you can say the same."

Mizu can't help but snicker. "Is that it? Freedom? I'm free enough, thank you."

"Naaaaah." You shake your head. "You're tied down by your own revenge. It tells you where to go, what to see, what to feel...if I told you where's Fowler, you'd get going by tomorrow. Even if I told you you'd die, you'd still go. Not because you want to die, but because that's the only thing you know. Revenge and rage. You'd jump in the well if I said Fowler's at the bottom of it." You say boldly, and look her straight in the eyes before you smirk slyly.

"You think you know everything, huh?" Mizu frowns and gets up to you, grabbing you by the hair. "You know nothing of me. I need this. I will throw my life away if I have to, to finish what I've started, so I won't think twice about taking yours too."

"You're all talk about killing me. Deep down, you know you need me." You taunt her. "You won't find that bastard withouth me. I work under his arm, I could get you there soooo easily, but you're throwing it away because you get too emotional." Your smirk gets even more smug. You kinda look like a cat, Mizu notices again. A cat that has just pushed off something expensive off a shelf, breaking it, and knowing it too.

Mizu noticed that sometimes you force that smugness into your little smirks. She sees it because the corners of your lips twitch. In reality, you are scared of her, but you'd rather die than let her see that. She never met a woman like you. She doesn't know how you got to the place you are, but she respects it. And still, you kow she could take your life. You're tied up, tripped of your weapons and vulnerable, yet you still taunt her. You're very annoying but somehow she can't help but admire your bravery. But the moment you're cornerned into a corner, you hiss and scratch.

After that, she lets you go and walks to be at a good six and a half feet away from you before she lays down, and decides to sleep withouth another word. Not much time passes when Mizu stays sleepless, but she hears you snore. And for some reason, she can't help but smile. You breathe through your mouth when you sleep. It's kind of cute.

The next couple of days are spent with Mizu travelling with Ringo and Taigen, and she drags you along too. Literally. She drags you while you're tied up. During those days, you managed to talk to Ringo a lot. Most of the time he's the one who's assigned to watch over you, and it doesn't seem like he has even as much as a mean bone in his body. You could even call some of your conversations pleasent. The other two on the other hand...you sometimes talk to Mizu and you two always end up in a neck to neck situation. Mizu wants to get you to talk, but she hasn't hurt you yet. She just always threathens you, yells and curses. You just flat out insult her at every chance you get though. It's not because you hate her, persay, but because you find it funny. You're being held captive after all, you need to use every chance you get to have fun.

Currently, you are left alone for the first time in weeks, as the others left your outside of town while they get something done. When you're sure they're out of seeing and hearing range, you start to rub the ropes on your wrist against a bigger rock you've found, trying to "saw" through it. When that irritating thing finally snaps, and you begind to get yourself free, you suddenly hear a very menacing sound from behind.

"The fuck are you doing?" You turn your head and see Mizu, glaring and gripping her sword. Fuck, you think and as she charges at you. You quickly throw away the rest of your ropes, and dogde out of the way. You didn't got to where you are now withouth knowing how to stand your ground, and defending yourself...and knowing how to cheat, of course.

You jump to your feet and get behind Mizu, and with one swift, forward kick to her side, you don't just get her to grunt and almost fall, you also send your gun flying from her side. By now, you've learned that that's where she keeps it. You're still just happy she didn't outright get rid of it. As the gun slides on the cold ground, you jump after it while Mizu regains her composure, and finally obtain it once again.

"Yes!" You silently cheer to yourself and point the gun at Mizu, who just looks at you, her blade covering half her face.

You gulp. Do you really wanna fire at Mizu? Kill her even? You did kinda want to kill her and betray her at first, but now you're...not sure. Sure, she's an asshole but...over those days as being her captive, you learned some things about her...she's not as heartless and cold. She fed you herself, she managed to keep you safe, even if she kept you in robes, and she just wants revenge...she even kept your gun safe.

But you can't show weakness. That's not what you stand for, so you shoot, but aim at her leg. She dodges of course, and manages to pin you down with her blade at your neck, but your gun at her stomach.

You just stare at her eachother, panting, not sure who's gonna kill who first. Mizu stares into your eyes, seeing her own reflection in them. Suddenly she notices that familiar glint in them, and how you swallow while panting, and how nose moves when you take a deep breath...and she feels her stomach fluttering. With adrenaling flowing through her veins and her skin haven't feeling contact with someone else's for so long, she makes a decision. A quick, and a little foolish one.

She pushes her lips against yours, her eyes closing and her breathing speeding up even more. And to her biggest surprise...you kiss back right away. It's all happening so fast. One minute you're nearly killing eachother, and in the other, you're passionately making out with her hands under your clothes, feeling your skin with your weapons thrown to the side.

"Asshole. You fired at me." Mizu mumbles into the kiss, her hands firmly feeling up the skin on your sides, while you rin your hands down her spine.

"Dickhead. You kept me tied up for weeks." You mumble back, gently biting into her lower lip, which Mizu rewards with a small gasp. Suddenly, she feels your hands under her clothes too.

"I knew it." You whisper. "A man could never have a soul like yours." You say and pull her back into a kiss. You feel her knees between your legs, pushing at your core, and in response you squeeze one of her breasts. Mizu starts to get rid of your clothes one by one, and as she does that, you quickly strip her of her own too.

Mizu's slander fingers slowly travel to your slit, but as she does, you grip her wrist and stop her. "No." You mumble. "Not like this." You flip her over (not easily though, she fights back even now), and look down at her naked form, quickly throwing away her chest bindings too.

"Fuck..." You mumble as you carefully align your core with hers, your clits touching, and moving together with every breath. And as you start to move gently, holding yourself up on your hands next to her head, you can hear her moan. She grinds back against yours, your juices mixing together. Even in this moment, it's as if you're both fighting for dominance. You don't know when will Mizu just reach up and choke you to death, but honestly? That's the best part.

You feel her hands around you, one clawing at your back, the other on your jaw...then cheeks, then lips, then the last thing you know is that she's forcing a finger inside of your mouth while you quietly moan and bite down on it. In response you push harder against her, almost squishing her clit with yours, which end in a louder moan from both of you.

"Can't...can't fucking take it..." Mizu moans, pushing her finger deeper inside your mouth before she retreats it, and uses her other hand to pull on your hair instead.

"What? Gonna cum? Ha." You manage to murmur out, not being able to stop your hips, feeling yourself getting closer to the edge too.

"You...fucking wish...ah!" Mizu's whole body twitches as you angle yourself a little differently, giving a whole new sensation to both of you, making you bite into her shoulder while she grips a handful of your hair thightly. And with that, a louder, choked back moan escpaed from both of you...being in perfect balance with eachother, and reaching your climax at the same time.

You stay there, just quietly panting and laying there, on top of eachother in silence for a while. You ahve your face burried into Mizu's neck, basking in her scent while Mizu still has her hand in your hair, feeling it's texture against her cheek.

"...you gotta go through a tunnel." You mumble.

"What?" Mizu perk up, lifting your head by your hair to look into your eyes.

"To get into Fowler's castle. You gotta go through a tunnel that is like...twenty steps away from the road's end and is filled to the brim with traps." You mumble, having your eyes open only halfway. "You gotta head East after you leave the last small village before the forest."

Mizu takes all that in. Now she knows how to get there...now she knows everything. "So that's what it took you to talk? For me to fuck you?"

"I fucked you." You say with a huff and get off of her, putting your clothes back on. "Well, I guess you got what you wanted, and I'm free too." You say, not really sure why. There are no ropes holding you back anymore, so...íthis is your cue to leave, isn't it?

"Wait, where are you going?" Mizu sits up, looking after you.

"Back to Fowler." You shrug. "I'm still his right hand. He probably sent men to find me." You sigh as you finish dressing up. "See you...at the castle." You say, look at her above your shoulder.

"..." Mizu narrows her eyes. "Fuck you." She spits.

"Check." You put on that so familiar smug smirk and hold up a thumbs up. "Spare me a seat in the audience when you cut his head off." You wave as you start walking away.

"...like a fucking stray cat." Mizu sighs, and before you dissappear, the last thing she sees is your wink.

[justagalwhowrites]

Hi Kit!

First off, I've really admired your writing, Lavender is one of my favorite things I've ever read. I even made a Lavender friendship bracelet so I can have Lavender Joel with me whenever I want.

Second, I've been getting into writing FF lately, starting with a Jackson Joel story. I'm about 12K words in and I've been struggling a lot with thinking my writing isn't suitable for posting and a lot of self doubt. I was wondering if you have any tips you wish you had known before you started writing FF, or even how the heck do I find someone to be a beta reader? Do you have an editor or beta reader, is that something I even need?

Thanks Kit!

OMG Hi Bestie!

I'm so sorry it took me a bit to respond to this. I wanted to make sure I thought about it before replying. You are so so kind to say such lovely things! And a LAVENDER FRIENDSHIP BRACELET?? That's AMAZING! I love that this story meant so much to you that you want to carry it with you out in the world!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE that you're writing! Jackson Joel is so special, he's such a gorgeous character and I'm sure your writing is doing him justice in exploring these sides of him.

Self doubt is a BEAR, I tell you what. I'm riddled with it, personally! Every day I'm on this site or on AO3 and reading things that are better than what I write and I spend a LOT of time comparing my work to other people's in my head. It's part of why I don't really reread my own work, I think. I know I won't be as happy with it as I am with other people's writing and it'll just get me down. But... I share it anyway! It's hard sometimes, especially if a chapter feels really good or really personal, and I always have this underlying fear that "this is it, this is the chapter where everyone who reads my work wakes up and realizes that I'm shit, actually, and they decide to let me know it." But that's never happened.

Part of fic, for me, has been pulling me out of that shell creatively. I've written stories for years - decades! - and I can count on one hand the number of people who have read them before I started writing and sharing fic. These stories just live in my computer or in notebooks in my basement and that may be all they ever are. Overall, people are remarkably kind and supportive and it feels really, really good to share something I made with other people.

I think some things I wish I knew is 1) that the sharing part of writing can be a really fun - if anxiety inducing - part of the process and 2) negativity isn't the end of the world. While almost everyone has been insanely lovely (probably kinder than I deserve tbh) I have gotten a few negative comments and whatnot and yeah, they definitely sting. But ultimately, it's just one person's opinion. It doesn't change the satisfaction I felt writing these stories or the fulfillment I found in telling other people about these characters and the lives they're living inside my head. People can dislike what I made - you can't please everyone! - but it doesn't take away from how it felt to create and share it. I think, as long as you're telling stories because you want to explore those characters or themes or what have you, you'll be satisfied in it and readers will, too.

As far as beta readers and editors go.... I don't really use either one! My process is write the chapter, read it to make sure there isn't anything too egregious, share it. If I sit on it too long, I go back and rework and rewrite and it'll never see the light of day. But that's me! Everyone is different, I don't think any two people have the same process. And if you're interested in connecting with other writers and are comfortable, feel free to DM me! I'm happy to help and there are some Discords I'm in that have other, fabulously lovely writers who do things like beta for each other and give feedback on plot points and all kinds of beautiful collaboration that I'm so lucky to be a part of.

I do have some tips for editing, as a former copy editor, though! I recommend reading the chapter twice, once for overall story and flow (basically, does this chunk of the story make sense?) and then once for the nitty gritty stuff. Highly recommend the second read be done out loud, as silly as it might feel. It will force you to slow down so if you left a word out, you're less likely to gloss over it, or if a sentence doesn't make sense, you stumble over it and have to think it through again. Stuff still definitely slips through - it's bound to when you edit what you write! - but it's helpful.

Anyway, I hope this answers your question!! I really really hope you share your story with us. It's always great to see the community grow and give more people outlets to share their stories with us!!

Good luck, Bestie! Love you!!!

[theidiotwhowritesthings]

Hi JJ! 💕 These are such great questions, I can’t wait to see your answers! Could I please ask these?

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd care to share?

Hello, my love! Omg thank you for the questions! I think 'F' is my favorite one to answer, but it also takes me the longest b/c I am bad at trying to pick just one out lolol

I'll do M first since it's shorter.

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd care to share?

So, I hinted at it with my poll, but for October I kind of want to do a Joel Miller x Reader x Din Djarin supernatural special! The basic outline is Reader is working for an agency, like the FBI, that specializes in supernatural creatures and keeping their existence hidden from the rest of the world. She's a desk agent dreaming of becoming a field agent. Initially, I was thinking Agent!Joel Miller who got started in the line of work when his daughter Sarah was killed by supernatural creatures and Greek God!Din Djarin (I don't want to go into details of what I planned to do with them just in case I go back to this idea). BUT THAT BEING SAID, your incredible story 'Bleed For Me' absolutely reminded me that I'm feral for vampires🥴 so then I started thinking, 'okay, what about Werewolf!Joel and Vampire!Din, and Agent!Reader gets caught in the crossfires of a war??'

My goal is to have the mini story be a 'choose your own end' where Reader can either end up with one or the other. But to everyone reading this right now, lemme know what you think!! I love opinions b/c I never trust my own lol (also if you haven't read @saradika 's story I need you to stop everything and go do that now k, thx)

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

This one might be more recognizable! It's from 'A Fresh Start'. It's from the chapter where Din finds out about Reader's past and the guilt she has over not being able to save her best friend. I love it b/c I accidentally wrote a banger of a line at the end there. But more so b/c I think one thing we as humans struggle with is letting go of guilt. Even if it's guilt that we shouldn't necessarily be carrying our brains will just cling to it and refuse to let it go, and no matter how many people tell us 'it's okay' we just can't shake it. Sometimes we just need a person we love to reframe the guilt in our minds to be something easier to process. Din does that for Reader in this scene, and I just loved writing it.

You couldn’t help but chuckle at the comment, but it was short lived. You gave a small shrug. “She crashed. Soran couldn’t breathe. There was no other reason for it so I knew it had to be a clot. I had hoped it was a blood clot. I could fix that.” You pressed your lips together. Eyes focusing on the edge of his helmet⏤ unable to meet the eyes you couldn’t even see. “Started a blood thinner to break apart the clot, but it didn’t help. That’s when I knew… the blockage wasn’t a blood clot. It was a fat globule.”

“What are you supposed to do for that?”

“There’s nothing you can do. Not at that point.” You answered. “We don’t have a medicine to break up a fat embolism quickly. The moment it got lodged in her lungs like that…”

Din nodded. “How do you prevent that from happening after a trauma? Is there a medicine for that?”

“Well, no, you⏤ Din, what are you doing?”

“I’m trying to understand.” He replied. “The court transcripts had a few different testimonies. They all had a common agreement. Every doctor interviewed said Soran was dead the moment that building landed on her.”

You shook your head and tried to pull your hand away, but Din’s grip tightened. He wouldn’t let you go. “She was my best friend. I knew her since we were kids. We grew up together⏤ we were neighbors. I shouldn’t have been her doctor.”

“You were the only one available at the time. You tried to find someone, but there was no one else.” Din replied. “If you hadn’t jumped in, then she would’ve died even sooner.” He leaned forward. “The starship collision caused the building she worked in to collapse. Soran got trapped in the rubble. A pillar fractured her femur and shattered her pelvis.” The way he spoke was as if he had memorized the transcript itself. “Soran was trapped for eight hours before she was un-buried and brought to your ED. A pulmonary fat embolism, something you said that can’t be prevented or treated, can form six hours after even a single fracture.”

Your bottom lip quivered and you bit down on it in a poor attempt to control your emotions. These were all facts you knew. Logically, you understood everything, but there was a part of you that could not shake the guilt that planted roots in your heart. The entire trial you had sat in a haze. You barely remembered the specifics of those days. In fact, only one memory stuck with you⏤ the hatred and rage in Kurt’s eyes as he stared at you from the court gallery. 

“There’s nothing you can say that I haven’t heard before, Din.” You mumbled.

“I know. I’m sure.” Din nodded once. “But that doesn’t mean I’m not going to say it.” He rested his forehead against yours. “Ner kar’ta, you did not kill your best friend.” The unshed tears collecting in your eyes spilled over. “Soran did not die by your hands. You were just the last hands to care for her⏤ the last hands to show her love.”

[tcookies777]

I was truly scared to ask this because it might come off as rude but I had wanted to ask this because it’s been bothering me for weeks. I was really contemplating whether to ask this and share my thoughts because I don’t want you to think that I am a hater or something. Omg I’m so scared don’t hate me please 🙏😭

Does Kakashi see Sakura as a replacement for Rin? Did he had any secret romantic feelings for Rin? I am asking because his thoughts of Rin in Chapter 27 is eerily similar to whenever he thinks about Sakura? 

For Example: 

“She’d been his reason to live; his own light in the darkness when Kakashi had felt hopeless and lost.” is so similar to: “I guess you could say... she’s my lifeline. I hold onto my thoughts of her whenever I feel like I’m drowning.” 

Without context, I would have thought he was thinking about the same person. In reality, he was talking about two people. In the former statement, he was talking about Rin at Chapter 27. In the latter statement, he was talking about Sakura at Chapter 31. There are many more examples in the fic but this ask would too long.

I hope I don’t sound rude. I am just asking here. But please be straight with me, does Kakashi view Sakura as a replacement for Rin? Personally, I just don’t want Sakura to be some kind of replacement for Rin as it would be unfair to her. It would only signify that Kakashi only has feelings for Sakura because he sees Rin so much in her and that’s really concerning for Sakura’s sake. 

Also the fact that you wrote “He blinked at the sight of Rin standing before him, but when he blinked again it was Sakura instead.” is concerning and can be seen as further proof that Kakashi only has feelings for Sakura because he sees Rin and not actually Sakura herself. 

My god my hands are shaking. Please don’t see this as hate. I am only asking. Btw I am excited for the next chapter! 

To be honest, I think the next chapter would be the perfect answer to your question. Of course it's been postponed now but I hope it gives you a clear picture of how Kakashi sees Sakura and Rin.

Also I know I sound very intimidating lately but this is just me putting my foot down after having to put up with so much crap from haters and trolls for exactly 10 months now.

I've just been deleting the worst of the hate and disrespect for the past 10 months to spare you guys, but it got tiring for me and the new spam attack was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. So that's why I'm putting my foot down and being serious now.

Also don't be afraid to ask. Simply asking is not rude. What I mean by "asking rudely" is when there's attitude involved or it's framed in a disparaging way.

I'm going to give you a few examples of real comments I got recently that I found rude:

"So Sakura's going to be r*ped for her first time? That's real shitty" (this reader was misconstruing)

"How can you say with a straight face that you're excited to write KakaSaku smut when you've written all this conflict between them?! I seriously have no idea how it's possible for Kakashi and Sakura to get together in your story at this point!"

"Can't you at least have the decency to put up trigger warnings for people who don't like to read non-KakaSaku scenes?"

Can't you just tell us if you're going to write more X?! I know you have a no-spoiler policy but I hate X

You say X happened but when in the world did X ever happen?! I see Y happening instead!

Why are you lying? How can you say X has or will happen when it looks like it's all about Y?!

So are you saying X is going to happen? Ugh, great (this reader was also misconstruing)

Here's a few examples of real comments I got that I found polite:

"Did the boys target Sakura or were they getting their revenge on her for punching the guy?"

"Do you take requests?"

"Can you explain if Mizuki was planning to drug Sakura in his office in X scene?

Is X character going to return? Just curious but if you can't answer for spoiler sake then it's ok!

As everyone can hopefully see, it takes more effort to ask rudely than it does to ask nicely.

[aulwil]

hi!! i absolutely adore east of eden, since you posted the last chapter i've reread it so many times already, the way you write is just phenomenal and the love for the characters really shines through. i know it's a finished work i'm not trying to beg you to write more i promise, but i was wondering if you had any kind of like thoughts about what the future would be like within this au, like do you think lilith would be found by heaven, would charlie still start her hotel, if she did would there be another confrontation w adam similar to canon, will they stay in love forever and have gooey earth dates etc.

please feel free to ignore this if you didn't want to answer or if you'd prefer to not get questions like this, i just cant help but think about the little world you built within this au there's so much i'd love to know about it.

i'm also super excited for your nuclear fic the concept sounds absolutely incredible!

also, last thing i was wondering if you have a kofi or anything, i'd love to tip you for the joy you brought me with your fic.

omg omg!! no I LOVE getting questions like this, I love getting to talk about my stories and AUs <3 first of all thank you so much for the comments and kind words, that really means so much to me as an author ;-; I always love knowing I made someone's day better with my fics.

as for post-east of eden, yes they stay in love forever because it's my AU and I say so, lmao. Charlie drags him into optimism and a healthier attitude by his hair. they announce their relationship to Hell at large (that's actually epilogue material that I have planned 💖). they're mushy together. they go on dates to earth and pick out plants for the gardens and start working on trying to fix up the palace. it wasn't really "dilapidated" per se but it definitely had that air of abandonment, so they work on getting it back to something nice.

I do also definitely think she'd still build the hotel! though the setup and early days of it would be much different because Lucifer would be there from the beginning. however, I do think that Charlie would be a little more conflicted about the whole heavenly ideal just because of how Adam was still allowed to be an agent of heaven and do the things he did to Lucifer (which, for the record, Sera did NOT know about. though I don't have much faith in her stopping it even if she did know). but given that it's Charlie I also think that she'd still be optimistic about it. which would in turn give Lucifer many conflicted feelings lol. honestly, I wish I had a better grip on what I imagine the aftermath would be because I think it'd be fun to write! especially more of Charlie grappling with her ideals of heaven vs. the reality of heaven. idk, maybe Emily could have her badass moment and tell Adam to shove it where the sun don't shine if a similar meeting like the one in canon went down. I just think that we see so little of heaven and its dynamics that I have a shakier grasp of how to work in the bounds of it. which obviously doesn't stop me from just worldbuilding from the ground up but like....that sounds like a lot of work and I already have so many ideas I wanna do XD then again. the nuclear physics research I'm doing for the Nuclear AU is also a lot of fucking work. [crying laughter]

as for Lilith, I honestly dunno if heaven cares much about her at this point. I guess that depends on which direction I would want to go:

option 1: heaven considers Lilith just as responsible for the apple incident, freaks out about her being free and on the loose for 200ish years, and drags her back to hell, where a random sinner is promptly like "queen Lilith! you're back! your daughter has grown so much!" and Lilith is like "my what" ahahhaah god she'd be so confused. then maybe she can chill in hell and go back to being the concert queen or whatever and her and Lucifer can have weird "what are we" feelings because they were in love but now he's fucking his daughter that hell collectively thinks is THEIR daughter and Lilith is just drinking to try and deal with this. the answer, btw, to "what are we" is that he's basically a puppy who will kill for anyone that shows him affection but who will also put Charlie above all else because the paternal affection/wrath is real.

option 2: heaven didn't actually really care about punishing Lilith, they just threw her out to further punish/torture Lucifer because he thought that she was going to die, and so therefore they find out that she's out of hell and they're like "oh no!....anyways" and let her be. in which case maybe she'd find out somehow and send a magical letter to Lucifer that basically just says "...babe, u good????"

so, idk, honestly. either of those seems equally likely. I'm allergic to making decisions XD I definitely don't think that she'd raise too much of an issue about their relationship, mostly because the whole "queen of demons" thing and also because she literally never knew Charlie as a child and therefore doesn't see her as such. in this AU, the theoretical meeting they'd have would be when Charlie was already an adult, at which point Lilith is like "yeah she can make her own decisions wtf do I care if she fucks her dad, I'd fuck her dad too"

also! Alastor being involved with the hotel in this AU would be hilarious because he'd want to study Charlie and Lucifer like interesting bugs. he just wants to see what the hell is wrong with those two (daddy issues. it's daddy issues.)

also, yes! I do now have a ko-fi (ok well technically I think I made this ages ago and then psyched myself out of using it). here's a link, I really appreciate any donations, though please nobody feel like they have to. I write fic first and foremost for myself, but another big reason is just for the love of community. it sounds super cheesy but it's true. actually, the real reason I write is because I want to convert the entire morningcest side of the fandom to my niche interpretations of the ship so therefore everyone else will also start writing it and I'll have the pitiful woobie Lucifer/protective Charlie content that I crave <3

argh sorry this got long. but! I really loved talking about it and you can feel free to send in as many questions as you want!! about this verse or any other verses. well, maybe not the Nuclear AU one yet because I'm still working on that one. but like if someone did ask I wouldn't NOT talk about it because I have chronic "can't shut the fuck up" disease unfortch. (that AU and the demon hunter AU are the ones currently being worked on between other little things. kinda waiting on some assistance for the Nuclear AU cause god the research materials for that are dense)

thank you for asking and for your support!!!!! :D

[notebookmusical]

Hi! This will probably be quick but wanted to send you something cuz this week might be a lot. Please send good vibes for me haha. I'm glad you had a nice weekend at the hockey game! Oh cool.. I'm pretty near there..for some reason, I just assumed you were maybe in LA since that's where most people would visit. My favorites are also spring and summer and it is pretty much half and half! I always thought maybe it's cuz my bday is right between them too. I think summer gets too hot sometimes but I'm glad you enjoyed sunshine. I thought maybe you might be more into the fall vibes though. I hope your allergies are okay. Aww that's sweet that you would think of me! I hope you have fun at your Fall Out Boy show which I think is soon.

Thanks for reassuring me for still talking about Taylor. So you were right..she announced a new bonus track! I was kinda surprised since I thought this would be more like the way it was with Folklore and Evermore which only had 1 and 2. I wonder how many there will be and if they will feel like part of the album or not or more like the extra 3AM tracks on Midnights. Of course they still feel part of the album, and that might be cuz we actually were able to hear them all right after the album. That's probably my one complaint about it..and I know it will be online right away but I just like having the full picture of the album. I think this might be my favorite cover so far too. This time, the name didn't make me think of anything or give me any idea of the song. All I knew Is that it's the name of a bird. But i liked the lyric and it made me wonder more if it went with that song. I will keep your predictions of these other lyrics in mind but I haven't thought about it much yet. If these are the only lyrics we end up with, I will make predictions. I was just looking at the Midnights ones and I got half right. What did you think? I was also off with surprise songs as usual and she is doing more mashups than I thought which is cool to see.

The comment in the Time article was about her locking herself away for years and I was nervous how that connects to Fresh out of the Slammer and just hope it's more metaphorical than literally blaming anyone. That's number 7 which is why I brought it up. That would be fun for you to tell me your fav and least fav so I can guessI feel like mine would be very easy to guess since I already talked about some but okay!

Debut...Marys Song, Cold As You (very hard to pick..this is a song I always forget and never hear so I went with it lol)

Fearless the way I loved you, We Were Happy, Love Story

Speak Now Enchanted, Never Grow Up

Red.ATW10, State of Grace, We are Never, Babe lol

1989 all you had to do was stay, Clean

rep Don't Blame Me, Gorgeous

Lover You need to calm down, Daylight

Folklore The Lakes, Illicit Affairs

Evermore It's Time to Go, Evermore

Midnights Question? Mastermind,

Oh those shows seem fun to go see! At least you can see the tour if the Wicked movie ends up being a big disappointment. I'm glad you will be able to see or enjoy shows again and I hope I will too eventually. You'll have to tell me how they are. Also I did your emoji book poll and thought it was funny that I ended up picking the choice for this summer will be different which is definitely on my list already but you introduced me to some others. I will hopefully be able to read it by this summer since summer is in the title lol. Omg I just realized Every Summer After had it in its title too lol and I'm still planning to finish Meet Me at the Lake. I really enjoy summer stories it seems and stories about grief mostly. I'm interested in How to end a love story and this is me trying now..you'll have to tell me if you end up liking them. It reminds me a bit of Stepping Off Place which is also a summer story too lol I really hope to get back to reading soon. I hope you have a nice week! I always enjoy talking to you! 🩷

hi hi!! i hope you had a good week 🤍 i was thinking of you during the week!!

i feel like i go to california quite a bit although i'm very rarely in the LA area — i might take a trip down next year to the palm springs area to go catch a hockey game though! but yes, normally when i'm in california i'm over closer to san jose (like a 45 minute drive from there i think)!

i did have fun at fall out boy!! i still maintain that no concert should be that long (started at 6:30, got out around 11:15) though (just because i like being in my bed early haha). didn't get home till closer to 12:30 but that's ok! i was worried i wouldn't have fun because i didn't know as many songs as i wanted to but it was still a blast!!

did you see the new bonus track? the black dog? i'm really curious about what it'll be about! i saw something about black dog / mythology, and that would make a lot more sense over the literal black dog i was thinking of haha. i often think of midnights with 3am, but i think without the 3am midnights as an album goes down quite a bit in my rankings! i don't know how i feel about the mashups — i feel like sometimes they're clunky but i do like them in theory? i don't know though. i'm curious to see if she's going to just keep doing mashups for the rest of the tour or if she'll change it up a bit.

oh i really didn't like that comment! there were some things in general that have just made me 😵‍💫. oh well!

okay let's see — these are my guesses (and i feel like they're all wrong, but i bolded what i think are your favorites!)

debut: mary's song or cold as you

fearless: the way i loved you, we were happy, love story

speak now: enchanted, never grow up

red: atw10, state of grace, we are never ..., babe

1989: all you had to do was stay, clean

rep: don't blame me, gorgeous

lover: you need to calm down, daylight

folklore: the lakes, illicit affairs

evermore: it's time to go, evermore

midnights: question?, mastermind

alright my turn! i also think this will be easy, but we'll see —

debut: tied together with a smile, stay beautiful

fearless: bye bye baby, jump then fall

speak now: speak now, dear john

red: sad beautiful tragic, i knew you were trouble

1989: new romantics, bad blood

rep: this is why we can't have nice things, new year's day

lover: you need to calm down, afterglow

folklore: mirrorball, mad woman

evermore: right where you left me, dorothea

midnights: dear reader, karma

i still have not ended up reading the book that won the emoji poll!! it has been a busy week over here, but i'm hoping to read it soooon ! i also really love stories about grief and summer! have a good rest of your weekend my friend! 🤍 happy march!

[tolkien-feels]

Hi hi omg I saw you say in a comment that you are one of the 3 people who likes Daeron (thank you for revealing yourself), I am also one of those 3 people. And I know at least 4 others so that's 6! Double!

Since your takes and headcanons are amazing can you please talk about him?

Oh there are so many of us!!! 🥺 (Also thank you for your nice words omg this ask has so much serotonin!)

Okay, so I prefer Daeron as Luthien's brother not because I'm opposed to his being in love with her, but because I adore the idea of Daeron taking after Thingol in many ways, and being less beloved for the damning character flaw of not being Melian 2.0 like his sister. But I'll ignore that and focus on the published Silm, because that is also a very good story in a completely different way.

There's something incredibly... pure? is maybe the right word,,,, about Daeron. I can name several cases in Tolkien where a man is in love with a woman who doesn't love him back, but I can think of no other where the woman actually thinks "Of every person I know, this is who I trust most when I need help." And Luthien isn't wrong to trust him? Other than denying her agency, which is admittedly a horrible thing to do, I have a hard time condemning Daeron? I don't know that I would want anyone I love marching straight to the Dark Lord for a person who is going to die anyway, be it in a few minutes or in a few years. Hell, Beren also doesn't Luthien to leave Doriath, he just underestimates her stubbornness and courage, which is not very surprising - between Daeron and Beren, the one who's known Luthien all her life is Daeron, after all.

The thing for me is that Daeron is out there being the best minstrel ever and a loremaster and a linguist and well-regarded in the fairest realm of Beleriand and Luthien's closest friend. This is definitely an uncommonly talented and socially powerful elf. If he had to """fall""", you'd expect it to be out of pride or something of that sort - we've read that story a thousand times in the Silm by the time Daeron becomes important. But his fall is actually a matter of either heartbreak or fearing for Luthien's fate.

I wouldn't even say Daeron falls as much as he... makes mistakes? I don't get the vibe of him having ruined any lives besides his own, and even that is debatable - after Beren comes into the picture, is there a possible happy ending Daeron can get? Maybe if he died for Luthien's sake he might have been happy-ish in Valinor, but that's pretty much it. (Here's a fun little au to ponder: Sauron vs Daeron)

The story very much identifies itself with Luthien, so Daeron comes across as a jealous, untrustworthy, controlling Nice Guy™️ but the couple of things he does in this one story shouldn't overshadow the centuries of him being, as far as we can tell, a genuinely great guy. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not an apologist, I don't take betrayal lightly, but for me that's what's interesting. A lot of Silm character tend to come in the flavors Basically Very Good and Basically Very Bad, with a few You're Doing Your Best But Things Aren't Looking Too Good. I literally don't know where Daeron fits into this. I try to find other characters who are remarkably good, mess up for ONE (01) story and then immediately regret everything and lament forever, and I just can't? Daeron speedruns Maglor's character arc, which is bizarre because Maglor's arc is all about living on and on and on.

I also think it's very telling that Tolkien says he wanders seeking Luthien "in despair." Is it just me who finds that a surprising word choice? He's not angry or bitter or even in pain, he's in despair. Even for an elf in unrequited love, that's pretty intense. It doesn't sound at all to me like we're meant to treat Daeron being in love as a mistake on his part, or as possessiveness. It sounds pretty legitimate, imho? Like I keep saying, for all that he's immortalized as the embodiment of betrayal, Daeron seems pretty damn sincere.

And finally, it isn't really connected to what I was saying but I find this pretty neat

Then she would become mortal, land subject to a second death, even as he; and ere long she would leave the world for ever, and her beauty become only a memory in song.

But seeking for Lúthien in despair he wandered upon strange paths, and passing over the mountains he came into the East of Middle-earth, where for many ages he made lament beside dark waters for Lúthien, daughter of Thingol, most beautiful of all living things.

I get so emotional thinking about how Daeron ultimately lives out the rest of his days offering Luthien one of the few things Beren can't give her, one of the few things that can make the loss of eternity less bitter. And!!! Daeron does that unseen by Luthien. Because she is with Beren. Which is exactly how this entire story began. Like, the parallels, I'm going to s c r e a m.

[jinhyun]

Omg I'm so behind on leaving you any comments about watercolor lately cus I have been so busy 😭 I think the last one I commented on was pre-make out?? Fair warning I cursed a lot while typing this one out 😅 it's a long one, so I hope you're ready lol. So here we go 😊😂

Dreamlike - are you fucking kidding me? 😭 Are you actually fucking kidding me right now? How dare you make me cry with how fucking adorably cute this was! Come here, lean in, you deserve a forehead smooch for this pure perfection! 😘 I loved sooo much about this that I had to go back and reread so I could make more specific comments and not be so vague 😅

the way he couldn't even focus and kept searching for y/n and like literally left Yerim to go get her a drink and instead ended up texting y/n because he had a mini freak out thinking she was making out with Binnie!!! Ahhhhhhhh!!!!! The fact that he debated staying and hooking up after he already told her he was coming and then still left for her!!! Are you freaking serious?? And you still haven't figured it the fuck out by now Hwang??? How thick is this fucking kid 🙄 But the way he fucking smiled thinking about what his friends must have thought of him leaving the party... Stop it 😭 my heart is going to burst!!! The way smiled at her sleeping 😭🥰🥰🥰 the paint on her face and him finding it cute?! 🥲 Btw... What was the painting she fell asleep on, huh??? Hmmmmm 🕵️‍♀️🤔😏 was it maybe one of said Hwang Hyunjin?

Not you finally title dropping on us 😭 Title drops are one of my favorite ways authors do their little nod to the readers 🥰 That perfect moment of clarity for why it got named that way is like 🤌

The paint swapping deal, I see you foreshadowing (I hope lol) 😍 this is such a fucking intimate artist thing to do tho and I am dying right now! Just absolutely dying. I can't wait to see when this comes back up later 😏

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 The paint fight into the kiss!!!! 😭😭😭😭 What did you just jump into my dreams of how I want to fall in love again and just rip this right out of my brain?? Like this is movie material! Are you hearing me?!! Or drama worthy! I would watch this k-drama in a heartbeat! 🥰 But the neck painting... It was this ❣️ right? Or was it something else? Or is it a secret??! But the way you wrote the kiss 😭 my single ass was over here flailing around my bed like an idiot, kicking all my sheets to the floor. I want someone to kiss me like that 😅 lmao. But the phone buzzing breaking it up 😠😤 gdi!!! Y/n was having her moment!! I swear if it was Yerim interrupting again I'm gonna throw things. Probably just my pillow onto my bed, but I will throw it!!

I 100% expected them to go wash the paint off after they left the art studio, but please for the love of all things Shin Ryujin, tell me that they both walked back to their dorms covered in paint and at least 1 person saw them 😭 I need someone to know what they got up to and have seen the physical evidence 🥲 if you say no, I'm still gonna headcanon that someone did lol 😅💀💀💀

Overall, I loved it. I love you. I get so happy whenever I see you updated 😁 If you update during the day I just keep from reading it and save it as a nice little treat at the end of the day when I'm all comfy and cozy before I go to bed 🤭🥰 I hope you write more of these long written out sections for watercolor! but also no pressure to do so if that's not what you want to do with the story 🥰 I trust you! I don't trust your version of Hwang Hyunjin (yet 😏) but I trust you! 🥰

Snitch - coffee date!!!!!! But fr if someone got oil paint on my favorite sweater I might kill them. Even if it was because of a steamy makeout lol. Reasons why I only paint in clothes I don't care about ruining 😅

Omg not the group chat dragging him, lol he deserves it. Seungmin with the tea about the paint 🤭 puppies always get into the things you don't want them to find lmao. Felix freaking out over them making out is literally me. This was my reaction as well 💀 Changbin and Hyunjin in the made out with y/n club 😏 but Binnie still the only one that's... Well you know, you wrote it 😉 lmao

"stop gatekeeping my cutie" omfg Yongbok 😁😂 I love him so much 😭🥰🥰🥰😭

Tbf that is one fucking adorable picture of Ryujin, her smile is just 😍🥰

So in your head, who had the matcha and who had the chocolate?? Also omg those look sooo fucking delicious 😭 why are there no good cafes around me *sigh* I'm never gonna go on a cute coffee date like this 🥺

Ngl I love the way Changbin just slid in and confirmed the makeout in like no time, while also pointing out Hyunjin is treating her kind of special 🥰 it makes me nervous and excited for her all at the same time lol I love the like flirtatious fwb relationship y/n and binnie have. I know she's gonna end up with Hyunjin, but I still can't help wanting to see more interactions between those two, they're chemistry is so cute!!

Not Hyunjin getting jealous 😅 cute. "don't make me reach over the table and kiss you" 👀👀👀Do it, I dare you! lmao 😂💀 so did they kiss??? Hmmm????

Kicked Out - I left you comments for this one on the post, but I will just reiterate, my pillows are so fucking lumpy now 😭💀 I still don't trust him, but it was so cute how he got all worried about her getting kicked out 🥰 but also God I want some calbee honey butter chips now 🤤 I have never had that flavor but I love their plain chips so much, they are so yummy!! Also he indirectly tweeted about her 👀 so does that mean he doesn't care if the potential hookups see??? Hmmmm???? But also "it's different tho, there are no feelings involved" alright everyone together, ready? 🤦‍♀️

Faithful - 😭😭😭 How is Ryujin soooooo fucking cute 😭😭😭 it's not fair!! My poor bi heart can't take this. I need some warnings next time, I might lose my breath completely and just simply pass away 🥰 and the Pikachu is cute too, but now I just have Changbin's (actual real life Changbin) "pika pika Pikachu!!" stuck him my head in a loop lol, so thanks for that 😅

Hyunjin only day? Bitch if you don't calm the fuck down you might fucking realize you're a simp lmao 😅 it's okay tho, I'm a simp for Ryujin too 🥰 Not the whole gc inviting themselves over for dinner 😂 NOT HAN MAKING IT SOUND LIKE THE FUCKED 😭💀💀💀💀💀 also do I sense a merged group chat in the future??? 😏🤔🤔 "damn y/n, how many guys do you have" 😂😭💀💀💀💀 omfg because two is sooooo many 🥲 still more than me tho lmao

Ooooh Minho being the mom friend and representing all of us readers 😅 I'm so here for it. I hope for everyone's sake he is wrong. I really really do. I don't want to cry because of this story. I will if you take it that way, I know I will, but I won't be happy about it lol. Y/n, babes, it's not delusional, he has started to feel something. Unfortunately he's just a dumbass and he's probably gonna fuck it up before he realizes it 🙃 Minho I love you, but I hate that you have to be so realistic about the situation right now 😭 I am not ready for heartbreak. But also don't hate the implication that she could still hook up with Binnie. All the team Changbin readers just sitting here quietly chanting, "Binnie! Binnie! Binnie!" 🤭💀 lmao

So yay! I finally caught up on comments 🥰💙 I think that took me like an hour or so to type all that up 😅 but you definitely deserved it 👏👏👏 with how much time you must put into every update and how often you update, and how invested I am and how much I love this story, you definitely deserve an hours worth of comments 🥰🥰🥰 I'm looking forward to the next updates. I hope you don't decided to break us 😅 and if you do, I hope you plan on updating the next chapter right away lol. I don't think I could handle the angst and a long cliffhanger 😭🤧

Anyway, I hope you are feeling better 💙💙💙 I hope you aren't suffering from any long term effects from covid! I know you said you were sick on your birthday, but Happy Belated Birthday!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🥳🥳🥳🥳🎁🎁🎁🎈🎈🎂, hopefully you were still able to enjoy it! I hope you are finding ways to entertain yourself now that you've graduated 😊 and I hope you have a good day/night 🥰🥰🥰💙💙💙

AHHHHHHHH i'm sorry it took me so long to answer this ask, i was just... appreciating it 🥲

dreamlike~

please i'm so happy that you enjoyed dreamlike and took the time to go back to it just so you could point certain things out, it means the world to me 😭💕

for real tho, it couldn't be any more clear given how he could not focus and would only think of y/n the entire party, like come on hyunjin you're smarter than that 😭😭😭

y/n's painting and what hyunjin drew on her neck are both secrets 🤭 but who knows, maybe we'll find out at some point later in the story 👀

drama worthy please 😭 that is like the ultimate compliment 😭😭😭 and i'm glad that you enjoyed the title dump, ngl i love doing that in my fics lmao so thanks for appreciating it 🤧

"for the love of all things shin ryujin" don't mind me if you ever see me using that on a daily basis. idk i mean it was pretty late but maybe someone did see them 👀 campus is a big place after all

THANK YOU SO MUCHHH, i'm sososo happy that you enjoyed it :( and i do have more written parts planned out! some shorter and some just as long or maybe longer (i won't know until i write them lol) but there are more of them coming, so i'm glad you like them 🥰

snitch~

lmao for real y/n shouldn't have worn her fav sweater to paint to begin with, but in her defense she was knew there would be pretty much no one at the studio and she doesn't tend to get stained all over when she paints... and she was most definitely not expecting to have a make out session with hyunjin or anyone else that night so 💀

ksñajdñajs jinnie and binnie part of the kissing y/n club but jinnie not part of the s*x with y/n club, rip 😔

ryujin's smile i knowwww 😭 can't get tired of looking at that picture, i love her so much istg. in my mind it was y/n the one to get the matcha one... idk if hyunjin is a fan of it irl 👀 waiting for him to tell us one day lol

changbin's fwb relationship with y/n is so fun to write 😭 and you're valid lmao i remember there was a time even i started shipping them 💀 but i am loyal to hyunjin, we in a hyunjin au rn.

jealous hyunjin is just >>>>>>>> and it was kind of an open ending so 👀 whether they ended up kissing or not it's up to you on this one 👀

kicked out~

yesss, i remember your comment 🥰 he does worry about her and he's a cutie for that :(

omg i've never had those chips at all, i don't think we have them here ksñajs but they do look so good i wish i could try them

he did indirectly tweet about her 👀 ig we'll find out whether he is ready or not to let go of his potential hookups soon... hopefully he is

faithful~

DUDE FR IDK MY HEART CAN'T TAKE IT EITHER 😭😭😭😭 i had not been this bi since kaya scodelario and hayley williams istg.

"bitch if you don't calm the fuck down you might fucking realize you're a simp" LMAOOOO the way i laughed omg jsñajdñs. he was bold af for that one tho, props to him 💀

merged group chat in the future... that does sound very interesting... we'll see if they all become that close at some point 👀

honestly at this point it would be better for everyone's sake and not just only y/n's for him to be wrong... let's hope he is so no one ends up hurt :/ and that hyunjin won't fuck up before he realises his fucking feelings. we'll see which turn i take with this story 😇 thanks for being open minded about it jsñaksña.

oof, hyunjin would not be happy if she still had the fwb thing going on with binnie... but yeah i can hear you all ynbin shippers cheering on it lmao

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING THE TIME TO COMMENT ON ALL PARTS OMG??? the dedication i'm just 😭😭😭😭 i lost count of how many times i've read this ask lmao, and i couldn't bring myself to answer it for some reason 🥲

like i said, we'll see what turn i decide to take with this story 👀 so i won't comment on that bc i'm afraid i could spoil you guys jdñajs

thanks for the belated birthday wish 🥺 it sucked to be quarantined during it but my friends and family have already made it up to me 🤧💖

once again thank you so muchhhh, i don't have enough words to thank you :( i hope you're havingg a great week, lovie 🥰

[janiedean]

I feel bad for all the nice J*nsa shippers who like their ship for whatever reasons (tropes, pretty art, aesthetic appeal, whatever) and know it's not canon but get associated with the misogynistic Dany hating crowd who act like Jon being attracted to Ygritte is J*nsa foreshadowing because red hair (I guess Jon should fuck Edmure Tully too? Omg give me Dark!Jon getting revenge on Catelyn by seducing her brother!) Tell me something. I'm new to the fandom but was J*nsa popular before the show? And I've heard something about the OG J*nsa shippers being alienated by the new shippers who insisted it had to be canon and acted like the series is called, "A song of J*nsa #danysux." I don't find that hard to believe because I know people who are now ashamed of calling themselves J*nsa shippers. Like, at this point, it's not only rival shippers who hate it. Even Gendrya/Braime/Jon stans/etc have started disliking that ship. You know your fandom is a problem when people who have nothing to do with Jnsa have a problem with it.

me: reads this ask

me: iwastheregandalf.gif which I can't find now but

okay anon buckle up because I am sadly well-equipped to answer this ask but before I do lemme tell you dark jon seducing edmure to take revenge on cat is LITERALLY THE BEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD but *clears throat* ALL RIGHT THEN.

disclaimer: as anon says I have no issue with like the shippers mentioned by anon in the beginning and ngl I agree, I have ABSOLUTELY ZERO FUCKING STAKES in the j*nsa vs j*nerys war and the only het jon ship I gaf about is jon/ygritte and we all know where that ended up I just... have been here since 2011/adwd was over and all the fic around was just for the books under secret lj communities and asoiaf qualified for yuletide and I have... seen... things.... and I actually have like uh had... beef... with some people in there and I know things bc ppl who hated those others told me stuff so anyway *sigh* buckle up anon I'mma tell you the story of jon shipwars through the years

in order, the old gods help me here, under the cut bc this is long as fuck

when I got into fandom also given what numbers were on ao3 one ship was popular and it was sansan. no like sansan was lit. the only asoiaf ship on ao3 with more than 200 fics. jb had twenty when i checked first. jc had like around 100-ish because of the show but sansan dwarfed anything. I posted the first jon/ygritte fic on the ao3 tag and the fourth throbb fic and like the others were all reposts from lj kinkmemes. nothing was popular before the show except for sansan when it comes to huge numbers bc grrm doesn't like fic and it was all hush hush until the show made it impossible to control and that ship was the one with a huge enough fanbase it actually had numbers, so like... j*nsa wasn't popular in the way nothing else was popular until it got screentime on the show

now, that stated, j*nsa had a... fair amount of fic for a rareship which was mostly book-based and from og shippers that were there from before the show and liked it for what it was but literally none of them thought it was gonna be canon, like it wasn't huge or anything but it had a small but dedicated fanbase who did their own thing and thought it was fun/liked the idea but that was it

that fandom had their own niche of hcs that they cultivated and shit except that like... at the end of S5/beginning of S6 there was a surge in shipping for... well obvious reasons bc it was obv sansa was getting to the wall and that would have been all nice and good but a) it was the time puritanical shipping was starting to take root and the 'shipping sansa with sandor or tyrion is hella problematic' rhetoric had started to circle coming from sans*ery shippers mostly but I'mma not open that fucking can of worms here, b) while the ending of S5 had more of a theon/sansa spike, the j*nsa stuff started getting big

now here we have to mention my villain origin story ie: j*nsa fandom had this one stan whose name I won't make because honestly it's been years and if she's still around I don't want her to remember I exist who was a bnf, wrote for... the website that created the whole larry/carol thing etc who was really fixed on this thing that j*nsa was actually canon and started writing extremely popular meta about it. now you're gonna ask how do you know, I know because this person once wrote a meta named 'why robb stark is a dick' and I told her that it was really fucking bad meta and she took it so badly she kept on trash talking me on her blog/her podcast (I was apparently the insane robb stark fangirl l m a o good lord) and like that was when some sane ppl who argued with her informed me in pvt that she was basically harping on the CANON thing when they'd have been okay with like... it being crackshipping and that she was basically cultivating a hoarde of followers who were harping on them/the ogs and basically ostracizing them;

I would like to add that this person - before her tumblr got 'accidentally deleted' and remade it therefore deleted most receipts for, er, her so-called meta which included stuff like ned and cat raised sansa as a sexual object and only wanted to sell her like cattle - had at some point started a round robin fic thing where... some of the characters mocked openly said stuff that some of the og fans had said specifically targeting them and people in that side basically went harassing anyone who didn't agree with that specific notion

now never mind that this person basically coined an entire term to describe ppl who liked white guys and excused all their wrongdoings out of my conversation re robb basically lying about everything I said as if I didn't have the receipts and tried to sell shirts with it and it didn't work and like then she got kicked out of her own website because she was telling her commenters disagreeing pretty shitty insults (considering I was called psychotic for disagreeing with her that time I don't doubt it) I think at some point she stepped back from fandom bc idk wtf she's up to these days and I don't want to, but basically at that point the dam was broken and there was a bunch of puritanical shippers harping on anyone who didn't agree with j*nsa is canon endgame stuff

this also includes an incident when those ppl were like... passing themselves as throbb shippers and ended up trying to tell t*hramsay shippers off the theon tag based on moral reasons and I ended up arguing with all of them (and they were all from that crowd) which in turn landed me in contact with other og j*nsa shippers who were like detached from that fandom bc those same people harassed them away as well ssooooo fun

anyway when S6 happened everyone was high on it and whatnot but I wasn't gonna begrudge them that I mean... you shipped it for years, canon is delivering you, good for you, but then j*nerys happened

god j*nerys happened

aaand basically...... I mean personally I was there like are y'all seriously arguing about the best incest jon ship out there but like basically the j*nsa endgame side was like AH JON IS PLAYING DANY SEE IF IT DOESN'T HAPPEN, the j*nerys obv got defensive af and both sides were sort of alternatively shitting on jon/ygritte anyway and depicting any other romantic rship jon could have as abusive™ and during S8 it just got worse and like I tried to stay out of it but basically from what I'm seeing now idk how the j*neryses are doing but on the j*nsa one it's ah jon's gonna play dany anyway and she's going to go insane like in the show so SHOW TRUTHING EVERY OTHER WAY and like again denying that sandor exists or that tyrion exists and like I barely touch my corner (sansan) but I ended up arguing with j*nsa/th*nsa people on twitter who were antis and is2g it was white-hair inducing and I know for sure the sansa/tyrion shippers were harassed to hell and back throughout so FUN

and even if the show didn't go there now since everyone there banked on the jnsa endgame thing and admitting you're wrong is like... not a thing, they still haven't let go of it and attach to that ship any shred of evidence which honestly is grasping at straws half of the time (like... the sansa/alysanne parallels like guys please no) and which is why every other ship is starting to get fed up, attaching canon proof of stuff from other ships onto theirs see that batb argument and jb is platonic but jonsa is not nvm taking all the sansan stuff and throwing it on j*nsa but then denying that sansan has canon evidence (like guys I had to read sansa touching his shoulder when saying gregor wasn't a true knight wasn't meaningful and we were seeing things please) and blah blah blah

this also goes hand in hand with the fixation on like... villanizing dany at all costs and like is2g I have zero investment in dany or her storyline I don't even remember it and I don't particularly care abt her either way and sure af I'm not for j*nerys endgame but like.... some stuff I read is completely excessive esp when fixing on how she's a completely mad tyrant who's gonna have to be put down and like... guys no

(also there's some srs stannis hate in that corner which I honestly don't get why they even care abt stannis but I had to read stuff like ppl don't recognize that dany and stannis are the real villains in this saga and like........ idek)

I think most of the og shippers are gone or don't ship it openly bc they don't want to be attached to the drama but like I also think they're pissing off everyone else bc like... I mean a bunch of them also were down with sansa being paired with other ppl as long as it meant a good ending for her except those ppl were... like everyone but the ppl she has actual contact with in canon which meant that at some point sansa/gendry was a thing and like.... you can imagine why arya/gendry shippers & arya stans were fed up, and there's also this tendency to behave like sansa is the center of the entire saga which like these books is named a song of jon snow basically can we pls make peace with it and personally I've had it with both j*nsa and j*nerys people since they started with that dumbass JON/YGRITTE WAS AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP rhetoric but I'm also fed up with the total ignoring that sandor exists/depicting us as delusional and honestly I also was by proxy fed up from the harassing of the sansa/tyrion shippers soooooooooooo

there were also instances of 'well theon is an acceptable choice other than jon bc he can't threaten her' which... i mean we all know what that meant and I'm not even commenting it bc it's one AM and I have no force to but I don't have to explain why it's not a progressive take now do I

there were also metas about how cousin incest being legal in half of the world means that jondany is a worse incest and j*nsa doesn't count as such and I was basically there like guys please just fucking own up to it but honestly I chose to forgot where I read that and I couldn't find the link if I tried

tldr: no one wants to admit that it's not gonna be endgame which considering the amount of fic they have on ao3 is imvho useless bc they have more content than like.. anything I ship that's not jb or that's actually like canon *cries in joncon/rhaegar but I mean renly/loras is canon and has less fic than them* so idk what's the problem with enjoying that instead of insisting it's gonna be canon when not even the show validated it while show truthing anyway when the only show truthing that can be truthed is the small council made of minorities and possibly jon eventually fucking off with the wildlings but not like that but like most people who thought it wasn't gonna be endgame had left/were made to leave by the time S7 rolled by and at this point since wow isn't out yet everyone is fandom-grasping at straws to find stuff to discourse on and we're here beating dead horses *shrug*

so that's... how it is but I would again like to point out that I don't judge ppl on their shipping, I don't particularly care about this entire feud bc I only ship jon with ppl he's not related to in whichever way and I try to stay out of this mess bc I don't really care to argue with ppl who have already decided to bend canon to whatever they want and will have to realize that it's not what grrm wrote at some point but like I have a very good memory and the above rant is as objective as possible also bc again I don't literally have a stake in that race I just think romantic/endgame j*nsa is not a thing and that ppl should stay in their lane and not harping on other ppl who ship whatever in general but especially when their ship is the most popular thing in fandom in the first place /two cents

[borathae]

Y'know everytime I think I can't love Yoongi more than I already do. A new chapter comes and I am falling even deeper. In an overall amazing story, he is the cherry on top.

At least the Sanguis are together.

Babe, please we know like him more than you let us know. This is just the denying your feelings part in your epic enemies to lovers story.

Yoongi is the definition of hard shell soft core.

And he is playing the piano, just let me listen to him play 24/7

I am proud of her for swallowing her pride, for apologizing wholeheartedly.

I am not completely happy tbh that she wants something in return.

Imagine the pain of almost losing her after opening your heart for her. And just imagining how this would've affected him. Imagine the grief, he would have experienced. It pains me so much.

It's the mature way he talks about how he felt. I love it.

Finally she is in his lap, I swear I would snatch it from her if she denied the offer.

I hope (but I am hopeful) she will learn from this.

He is making her so comfortable.

Ahh it's a shopping date at the garden center.

Sibi, I love the way you describe music in all your stories. It's so subtile and it just makes you feel. And it sets the atmosphere like nothing else. It always reminds me of my love for Sonata Cantabile where I first recognized it❤️❤️

Pick a reward. Ma'am you could have requested everything. Don't get me wrong I still like Tae a lot but right now I feel my tendencies slightly shifting. She really denied a night full of pleasure. Who are you? But if she doesn't want, I am always ready😌 Let's get it.

I get no satisfaction from it, can he please marry me already?

I love their affectionate 'play'

sparkling eyes, I am melting my friend melting

I really hope it's not an act. Please don't use him.

A kiss omg

He is showing so much tenderness after so many years of not receiving any affection.

And this softness

I am going to be honest when I first read this scene, I wanted her to stay. She should enjoy her time with him.

Please don't break his heart please.

This comment made him realize that he can't compete with Tae. He thinks she will never see him as a lover. Cries😭

Does she really not suspect what Yoongi feels? Please do it soon.

For a second I thought Tae escaped.

She is such a caring person.

I still love their moments together. There is something about them which just fits together perfectly.

I am so glad he has her. He would be lost without her.

They somehow make their talks so meaningful. An understanding for each other always.

No, this is so sweet.

Finally we are closer to finding Joon.

Someone needed to tell him that.

Despite everything she just stays. Their love is so strong.

I wish Jimin would have got his second chance😭

And love getting to know more about him.

Jin as Jack the Ripper?😲🤯 Your mind wow.

I am mourning him too.

Hopefully she frees him with Yoongi and not behind his back.

What a chapter. I love those emotional heavy chapters. I am so excited for Wednesday, I can't wait😍

🌟

Honestly though? I feel you? ahahhaha like I actually didn't plan on making Yoongi such a loveable character but here we are now gngngn

Babe, please we know like him more than you let us know. This is just the denying your feelings part in your epic enemies to lovers story.

FAFJDJAIEF BEST PART OF ENEMIES TO LOVERS AFDMFMADMF

Sibi, I love the way you describe music in all your stories. It's so subtile and it just makes you feel. And it sets the atmosphere like nothing else. It always reminds me of my love for Sonata Cantabile where I first recognized it❤️❤️

THANK YOU SO MUCH AAAAH!!

I am going to be honest when I first read this scene, I wanted her to stay. She should enjoy her time with him.

you and me both besties ofmmgmm I seriously was aching when I made her leave liKE PLEASE STAY WITH YOONGI LET HIM MAKE LOVE TO YOU ALL NIGHT OMGG

This comment made him realize that he can't compete with Tae. He thinks she will never see him as a lover. Cries😭

S T O P oMFG 😭😭😭

ALSO OFMMG I AM ALSO SO EXCITED FOR WEDNESDAY!! THE CHAPTER IS ONE OF MY FAVES!! LOTS OF PLOT AND CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT AND SO MUCH YOOONGIGIIGIG 😔💜

[tf2headcanonz]

Hi ! I read your father figure Engie headcanon and it really made my day. It was so adorable, I love father figure headcanons. And I don't know if you have a limit for how many characters we are allow to ask for one request but can I please ask for headcanons about young mercenary reader accidentally calling the mercenaries "dad" (separately) ? (If you can't do all 9 mercenaries then just Engie, Sniper and Heavy is fine)

Omg anon....im so glad i made u happy🥺 and there is no limit to the amount of characters!

Scout:

He is very confused at first, he considers himself pretty young, if not young at heart

"Wait, did you just call me dad?"

He thinks you're just kidding with him, but if you explain to him that you actually kinda see him that way, he's pretty flattered and gets real prideful about it

He will then try and act like a cool "dad" around you, but he feels almost like an older brother, rather

He'll call you "kid" all the time too

He'll also make sure nobody messes with you and asks you if you want him to beat up anyone who does

Soldier:

He is confused at first, and tells you that he's never fathered any children, so theres no way he could be your dad

"Son, I am not your father. You must be confused."

Before you get to explain, though, he's already taken on the role

"But if you want me to be your dad, I'll be the best damn dad America has seen!"

Expect him to call you "Son" a lot more, regardless of your gender

He will start to treat you like a soldier in training that day forth, making sure you know the best war and survival tactics known to man. Expect a lot of war stories, too.

Pyro

They are extremely happy about it, they think it is so adorable that you look up to them like that! They don't even question it once.

They mutter gleefully and give you a big hug and a pat on the head

They start acting even more kind towards you, giving you lots of gifts and affection like hugging you and giving you headpats

They also enjoy playing games with you a lot if you're up for it

Whenever you feel down they'll always be there to cheer you up, just expect it to be with candy or stuffed animals...or fire.

Despite their juvinile nature they do their best to make sure you feel happy and safe around them at all times

Demoman:

He doesn't notice at first, but then backpedals and asks you to confirm what you just said

"Aye, did ye just call me yer dad?"

Once you explain, he gets all emotional about it. He honestly can't believe you see him as a dad but he is seriously, really honored.

He'll call you lassie or laddie if you're okay with it

He will act pretty fatherly around you clapping you on your shoulder and such sometimes.

He'll try to cut down on his drinking a little so you can see him as a good role model, even if you say his habit doesn't effect you personally

Engineer

He doesn't question it, but he does comment on it, he finds it very nice of you to think that way about him!

"Well golly, ya really think that highly of me?"

He will act like a true dad around you, making sure you're okay, and happy. He'll also try and teach you a few things about engineering too.

He'll probably call you "Buckaroo" or something of the sorts

He likes to think he takes after his dad, who was always very patient and kind with him growing up.

He almost really does see you as his kid in some way, but he keeps this to himself.

Heavy

He is also confused at first, but not at all opposed to it, he is a very nuturing man, having taken good care of his family all those years back in Russia

"You think I am your dad?"

He will be pretty protective of you from then on, making sure you are safe. Even if you prove you are a strong person he will still protect you like you are his own

He feels like he's back at home again, its like taking care of his sisters and mother again. He really appreciates your relationship with him, and is glad he can experience that away from home too

He will call you "little bear" in his native language

He will probably treat you like you're much younger than you really are

Medic

He laughs about it at first. He is not trying to be rude, he just thinks it's pretty funny for someone to think of him as their dad

"You are kidding right? Oh, I would make a terrible father!"

Except he really doesn't! He may not be as outward about it like others, but he definately takes on the role to some degree

He will actually avoid doing any experimenting on you or any dangerous procedures. This is when he realises he cares about you in a sort of paternal manner

He is slow to show it and embrace it, and sadly will not likely call you any nicknames yet! He just finds it a bit awkward for him to do, maybe someday though

He loves to make dad jokes with you, his main way of bonding is through jokes and medical care, so expect more checkups and attention to your health as well

Sniper

Oh boy is he awkward about it. He pauses and stutters a lot when you called him "dad"

"......Now hold on, did you just-"

He won't really know how to deal with it, he is not a very emotionally available person and likely not very paternal either

He still tries though, although it likely won't be very obvious, at least at first. He'll try his best to stay kind and patient with you

Expect to have him tell you a lot of survival skills and animal facts. It's really what he knows best and has to offer.

I'd also not expect any nicknames from him, he's very reserved and awkward and would likely feel embarassed about doing it.

Spy

He is just...silent. He doesn't say anything because it honestly hits him in a really weird way.

He feels conflicted because of how absent he was with Jeremy, and believes it would be hypocritcal to act paternal to you instead of his real son, but at the same time it makes him feel nice. Because of his mistakes with Jeremy he feels awful and wishes there was a way to learn better

He tries to learn how to be a good father figure through you, and what he learns he hopes he can someday express to Jeremy

That is not to say he doesn't care about you! He really does but he won't admit it in a very outward manner, he cares a lot about your wellbeing and safety

Expect him to keep this all quiet. He's worried about judgement from other mercs about this, thinking they'd consider it hypocritical. In private he shows he cares by listening to you and giving advice that he can. He also tells you some things other people don't really get to hear either.

Don't expect a nickname from him, he also would feel very awkward about it

[justagalwhowrites]

OMG! Howly cow! I am speechless!😳 Due to different time zones, the alert has been on my email for more than 12 hours. Hours in which I debated if reading throughout the day in small parts was a good idea or if waiting until I could read it properly was better. Luckily, I chose the second option. Bestie, what a chapter! I'm warning you I am becoming a greedy monster for this story! (I do not mean to be pushy. It's just my excitement speaking🤣.)

What a chapter! First, you made me cry, and then… Time enough for what? What's going on? What or who Bambi is protecting? Have I told you this story is good? With each chapter, it gets better! Will this thing be in the present time?😱

Of all the things that can happen during the patrol, that Joel is the only one making Bambi nervous is a bit funny. I understand why, but it's still fun. He hasn't given her any reason to doubt him, but I think that until she lets herself trust him completely she'll be conflicted. The revealing of her scar, I think, will be a heavy emotional moment between them.

For a second, before the men appeared, it looked like a weird first date with some shooting practice. LOL. And then we got some FeralJoel! The whole scene was brutal. I'm happy she didn't kill him at the end. It wouldn't have felt right. I might be rambling, but despite all, she's still good, and she should be able to keep her humanity.

(“Not here to help you,” Joel said, his voice almost eerily calm, so calm it sent a chill down your spine. “I’m here to get information and there’s only one way I know how to do it. You’re gonna want me to give you back to her by the time I’m done. So let’s begin.”) I'm not one to put bits of the chapter in my comments, but that one was something else.

I wonder if Joel knows any of those raiders.🤔 If he does, I hope he tells Bambi about his past before that comes up. If not, it could cause serious trouble between them.

And the kiss at the end felt so right!😍 It felt so natural to happen there. I loved it! The whole moment was so meaningful. I loved how, despite seeing Joel's worst side, she still feels safe with him. It shows the trust Bambi has in him, and if that is not a big sign, I don't know what is.

Thanks for the update! Sorry for the ramble! ♥️♥️♥️

By the way, I found ''Homecoming'' and ''Long distance'' today. Those two-shots are a treasure. I was grinning the whole time I was reading. I love the forbiden thing of DBF, you aced it! I wouldn't mind at all to read more about them.

Ahhhh HI BESTIE!

Please be as greedy as you want with this story, I love sharing it so so much and it brings me so much joy when people love to read it.

When it comes to the opening of the chapter, let's just say I don't drop plot hooks without a reason. I promise, answers are coming (...eventually 😌)

Bambi is so interesting to me when it comes to intimacy! She's so gun shy of it now, especially physical intimacy. She'd kind of rather deal with infected than the warring feelings she's having, I think. Infected she feels more a sense of control over the situation, she knows how to get out of it and how to handle it. Not so with Joel! All her tools for this situation are from a very different time in her life. She can't just walk up to him like she did Justin in chapter one and say "Come see what else I'm good at riding on" and she's not quite sure what to do instead. She's so out of her depth!!

And it did kind of feel date-y right?? They were having their lil apocalypse picnic lol! But Joel got to be the protector and helped keep her safe and let her hold onto her humanity a little while longer, too.

I will say with Joel's raider history, that was a long time ago and a long ways off. HOWEVER... he still did some terrible, horrible things and worked with some terrible, horrible people. And while he may not have been the worst of them, there were things that those other men did that he just stood by and allowed. If Bambi had been taken in, say, Tennessee or something in 2004, Joel wouldn't have done a thing to stop it. He's grown and changed a lot since then, he's going to have some feelings about himself with that.

Yes, Bambi does, on a conscious level, really trust Joel more than anyone else (except maybe Ellie but that's more of a different kind of trust and relationship than anything else.) But her trauma addled brain has a hard time fully embracing that trust. It's a little like your friend getting a dog just after you were mauled by a dog. It's probably sweet and very kind to you and would never hurt a fly but... you're probably not going to want it licking your face right away. But she's DEFINITELY getting there!!

And yayayayayayayaya! Homecoming and Long Distance! Those are fun ones. You can expect the occasional one shot of that couple from time to time. I just don't have a full arc for them, they just fit a fun prompt or ask now and then!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING HERE! I love your notes, they make me so happy. Thanks for reading! Love you!!

[dreamerandcrazy]

Ok, so I haven't been able to comment much on my Riverdale rewatch mostly bc i'm watching it with my boyfriend and we have an agreement of no cell phones when we're watching, otherwise we can't pay proper attention to it. But I wrote down some notes about the episodes I did watch (I watched up until ep 6, which is very ironic bc apparently today is its anniversary, so yay for my perfect timing). I actually remember most of the stuff that happened in s1, so here's mostly a few things I paid more attention to or noticed about the characters and the ships, or things i'm able to look at through a different view now that i've watched all the seasons. Strap in if you want to see my notes, if not just scroll please, no ship or character hate here please. Also, feel free to ignore, this is really just a personal look in some stuff I didn't notice in my first watch.

- Betty's character used to be much happier and lighter in season 1. I know we're introduced to "Dark Betty" right in episode 3, but still, I feel like the way Lili played Betty in season 1 did not hold the same "darkness" as it does in the following seasons. The scene where she is dancing happily in her bedroom because she's going to homecoming with the boy she likes? The scene where she introduces Jughead to the Blue & Gold and gets him to work with her? Her genuine innocent happiness at seeing her sister again after so much time? The way she interacted with Kevin and Veronica? Those were all chef's kiss because she actually feels like a teenager in them. In all her girly glory, she radiates youth energy and it's a thing that was sadly lacking after s1. Btw this is not a critique at Lili's acting at all, I blame it entirely on Ras and his obsession with dark Betty.

- There's actually so many indications of Cheryl being a lgbt character in the first episodes that I have no idea how I missed it the first time. But then again, there were many indications with Veronica as well, and sadly that's not the path Ras chose for her.

- Jughead in s1 is truly so superior in so many ways that it's not hard to see why he quickly became such a fan favorite. I think even if he wasn't played by Cole Sprouse, he still would have conquered many fans' hearts. Sadly, the things that made Jughead such a loving and interesting character for me also fizzled out in s2 when the writing team decided to make him a woke serpent leader instead of allowing him to sticking to his true personality as a passionate mystery lover, a dedicated friend and very nerdy, which was very cute. I feel that we got some of that back for him in s4, which was good, but sadly s1 is where my love for him really stayed to stay. But I still care for him, and s5 has a promising storyline for him which i'm excited about, so let's see if s5 Jughead can become better than s1 Jughead.

- Going back again to Cheryl for a sec, I just noticed that the red lipstick actually wasn't that common for her in s1? At least not in the first five. I wonder when did it start becoming her trademark? Anyways, it's actually a really good look her and allows you to appreciate Madelaine's natural beauty even more.

- Also, did anybody notice how Alice lowkey figured out who killed Jason in ep 2 lmao, like... in episode two she legit says she wouldn't be surprised if the Blossoms themselves had killed Jason, which... is what happened LMAO, considering we know it was his father. And even more hilarious and tragically ironic note, in ep 6 she's laughing at Betty suggesting that Hal killed Jason because "do you think your father has the stomach for it?!"... Ma'am... i'm-.... 😂😂😂😂.

- This rewatch has reminded me of how much I adored and how I much I miss Josie and the Pussycats. The girls were such a nice addition to the cast, and their songs were so beautiful. I truly wish we get to see them again someday, but at the same time I also think the actresses deserve to be at a work place where they're given the treatment they deserve and not completely ignored and treated like extras.

- Archie/Valerie was super cute and is very underrated in the fandom, but i'm glad Valerie stood up for herself and didn't take any of Archie's or Cheryl's sh*t. Still sucks because they were really good together, though.

- Why was Jason not allowed to talk, lmao? Like, i'm sure it's become a running joke in the show at this point, but back when season one was airing what was the excuse for it? He appeared in so many flashbacks and scenes and we still never heard a single word ☠️☠️☠️☠️. I just want to know what was the reason lol.

- I liked s1 Reggie, but I feel like Charles Melton's Reggie is better because he actually feels like a douche with good intentions lol, and he has more of a personality. Most of the time I even forgot about Reggie in s1, but after s2 he definitely made me more aware of him. So for that, I like Charles Melton's Reggie more. But the actor from s1 still did a good job with what he was given.

From now on I will be talking about the ships, so bear with me, and know that I am a multishipper. Yes, I have my preferences. No, my word is not law, it's just an opinion, so please respect it.

- Bughead is still super cute in s1. I feel like from s1 they will always be my otp, even if I no longer feel as strongly about them now and have a different insight as to where I would like their story to go, and now I definitely see the problem others had mentioned before of how they kind of took over the show, which is something I kind of closed my eyes to before... But I really loved them in s1. It felt like a very juvenile teenage relationship, they didn't give much thought on why and if they should be together, they just went for it like teenagers usually do, and they were very very cute together.

- I feel like if you don't count Beronica (because they really were the best no matter what you say or ship), if there's a ship that deserves "best chemistry" award for s1 is probably Varchie. I lost my interest in them years ago, but this rewatch reminded me of why I actually loved them once. They never really became an otp for me, but Kj and Camila's chemistry in s1 was VERY GOOD, and I really liked them. Their kiss in the pilot was electric and the s&xual tension was OOF, and that chemistry carries on through the season. You can easily tell something will happen between them eventually. It makes me sad bc I don't know what happened after s1, but their chemistry from s2 onwards was just... not there for me. Which is ironic bc it's the season they truly started dating and they got a lot of smexy scenes, but I just... didn't feel it. But I'll leave that comment to my s2 rewatch. For now just let me enjoy Varchie's chemistry in s1 while it lasts because it was really good.

- Now we get to Barchie, who I made clear was the reason for my rewatch, so let's get to it. I LOVED the way Barchie was written in s1. I remember when I first watched Riverdale, I was curious about their dynamic but didn't put much thought into it because I loved Bughead too much and wanted them to be together, and I thought Barchie would be the traditional "first og ship" thing and wouldn't have a big follow up, but boy was I WRONG and am I GLAD for it. I'll talk more about their development in the next seasons when I get there, so for now let's focus a bit on s1. Just in like the first two episodes, there is so much Barchie foreshadowing, like, it's legit insane how it was right there in my face and I missed it the first time! "I have never felt what i'm supposed to feel with betty", "it's not my fault he doesn't like you", "I can't give you the answer you want"... Omg, those are obvious eyebrow raising "this will come back to bite you in the a$$" moments and it's incredible how they actually DO! I would call it clever writing, but like... it's Riverdale lol. So I really am just glad that the ship was done this way, i'm glad Barchie has the back story that they do, they've really come a LONG way and i'm happy I get to experience their whole growing storyline. It's also especially good because s1 actually provides you with scenes that show you their friendship and how they're so close, you see them hanging out, talking, their pictures together, everything was just really done well with them. Still have a bit of critique with the way Archie contradicted himself sometimes regardinf his feelings for Betty, but let's be honest, we've watched enough Riverdale to know that's just a problem with the writing.

- Kevin/Joaquin is still my favorite Kevin ship, i'm sad it's completely impossible to go back to them someday so for now i'll just be really glad it existed and that I got to see them even if it was short-lived. They had great chemistry and their kiss scenes always outsold.

- Beronica... sigh. Beronica. The most wasted chemistry i've ever seen on CW and I've watched a LOT of CW shows. There was so much potential there, s1 was practically overflowing with them and it's one of the reasons it became some popular. I remember when the Beronica fandom was the biggest one, ah, good times. Veronica and Betty were easily the best part of season 1, their friendship, their lowkey romantic moments, they were just superior in every way. This ship deserved better, not even just as a ship, but as a friendship.

- Veronica's s1 hair >>> Veronica's hair in seasons 2-4. I loved the side part and I am glad it's back in season 5, it looks so much better like that.

- Cheryl, as always, deserves better. Can't wait for her to meet Toni so I can watch again Cheryl finally get to love someone and be loved back, which is exactly what she deserves.

For now, that is all! I will probably make another post soon when i'm done with season one and from season two on I will be live-blogging the episodes since I will be watching it alone. Once again, pls, no hate, my thoughts are my thoughts. Peace.

[blackfemmecharacterdependency]

BFCD Reviews by Nesha: Summertime on Netflix

This is what I’m gonna do... I’ll be doing more structured reviews later and most likely liveblogging suggested stuff and tagging with “Nesha Watches (Insert Title) for all liveblog posts. For this first review, I won’t be as structured, because I didn’t really plan on reviewing, so this is basically all of my comments to friends @chenoahchantel and @daintyurbanprincess that were made whilst I was watching this show suggested to me by @rbaifzau 

It didn’t take me long to be annoyed with the white boy in this show. It doesn’t take much anyways, but one episode in and I’m over him already. This dude saw her at a party, she got pushed into the pool accidentally, he gave her a dry shirt, and two minutes later tried to kiss her… TF..  

Girl, this bout to be IGNANT...

Chile... She was like, "What are you doing?" And he looked surprised. Like whet. And in episode 2 after having seen her thrice and spoken to her once, he telling his best friend, "I'm pretty sure I like her a lot." I HATE stuff like this. Why did I tell old girl I'd watch this and discuss it with her? 😭

But she like him, so like??? 😭

And her daddy, who we haven't seen yet is presumably a rolling stone. Only one negro in this town and the nigga gotta be probably running around on his wife? 🙄 I'm like, OH, so the one Black man in the show gotta be a rolling stone? And even though his wife is also highly irresponsible as a parent, she's sort of made out to be the victim of his dreams. They never portray Black mothers doing things on their own as victims. That woman was messing up left and right and it's all on her husband not being there, when that's only part of the problem.

Also, if she IS the only present parent and made the decision to do that, she should be doing it instead of leaning on Summer all of the time. 

And she got a close friend that have an obvious crush on her but she seems oblivious. I hate dis

This dude reminds me of Max Theriot. He always looked musty to me. 🤣🤣🤣 He look like him breaf stank. Him and Jack Griffo were working on something where they play soldiers and I absolutely said, "He still look like he stank" when I saw him on Instagram…

This is basically the same mold of dude and it looks moldy and should be tossed out. None for me, thanks.

But, there are moments in this show that's really cracking me up. 🤣🤣🤣 It's like, I feel like I should enjoy it for the messiness of it, but the main characters can be infuriating.

She called him an asshole and he said, "You don't even know me." No duh dipshit. She ain't know you when you tried to kiss her neither. NOR when you was talmbout you like her. 

This girl kissing her friend!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. She's gonna hurt this boy! My Gwad. He finna be discombobulated. 😭😭😭 He all happy today and she don't even see him like that. Lordt.

He walked up and she look uncomfortable AF. Her younger sister is like, "You're being weird." 🤣🤣🤣 Even SHE hip to something. He on the beach talmbout "It's hot today, don't you think?" And took his shirt off. 😭😭😭😭😭😭

I like Summer's friends and feel bad for them because she really didn't treat them kindly. She used Edo whenever she was upset by Ale and then she just completely ditched Sofie on her birthday and didn't even text her or anything. Just had her waiting on her and didn't even apologize. Like, I love that she gets a chance to be human, but being an asshole to the people who you're supposed to be friends with is such an upsetting trope to me.

And the connection between her and Ale is so weird. He comes across as super predatory in the beginning and I don't understand why she liked him in the first place, but also whenever he does something by mistake, she is so angry at him, even though she's been just as inconsiderate when it comes to her friends.

NOW... HE HARASSING HER AT HER JOB. 

WOTTICE DIS HUNNY??? 

Talmbout if she got a boyfriend he'll "take care of him" 😖 After she told him to leave and he said he'd wait for her outside, she asked her coworker, "What do you do to let a guy know you like him back?"

NOW, she went outside and he's there, but her friend showed up to surprise her after work. 🤣 Whoever made this HATES me

He stole a book out her locker and left a card with his phone number. How is this the start of a romance???

OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. FRIEND IS TALKING ABOUT THE KISS...He said it was perfect........

Chile... And she don't even wanna tell their other best friend. Bruh. He said, "What we have doesn't need to be discussed." Summy PLEASE tell this young man...HE TRIED TO KISS HER AGAIN AND SHE SAID, "We just talked about last night's mistake" 😭😭😭

And she done hurt my friend this way, but she worried about Maxface because his mama can't reach him on the phone??? Girl.. go.. girl...

The gag is that she got mad at Ale because she saw him talking to his ex and she had to cover for him at work, but you've now ACTUALLY put your best friend in a bad space. And he ran into her mom and little sister and looked so uncomfortable but kept it short and sweet. These are people he loves. Idk. I feel bad for him and also like she kind of a hypocrite.

That was what REALLY bothered me. I don't expect her to be perfect, by all means. Black girls should be allowed their imperfections and their mistakes, but the fact that she knows what it's like to have the people you love be so absent and that she would treat her friends this way because of one guy who she's only known for a couple of months was disappointing for her character. She could have been written imperfectly without this glaring problem that I don't believe a real person in her position would actually have. 

I think in real life, the girl who raises her sister and basically has to lift her mother up all the time would overextend herself to her friends, but instead, she just leaves them in her dust as soon as she gets some dick. 😭

He is now hanging out with her little sister. 😭😭😭She goes to school with them but she looks tiny. I'm cringing at everything.

BRUH. Like... I can't tell if they're trying to or not, but I wouldn't be surprised because he's cool with the sister too, but they've been friends a while, so I didn't think much of it until Summer hurt him.I thought she liked him earlier, so idk if he is noticing her or I just EXPECT it. 

OAN, this man realized his son had a motorcycle accident on purpose and got mad instead of concerned

At one point, they say he's been riding bikes for 20 years, and whenever his father is mad that he had his accident on purpose (which I'll come back to) he says that he's never made a mistake like that, not even was he was 4, so Ale is AT LEAST 24 and she JUST turned 18. Which is WILD to me, even though at 18 I dated someone who was 23 (he was possessive and abusive, so I have a real suspicion of age gaps). 

But, aside from that - she gets mad at him any time she sees him with his ex when It is perfectly fine to speak with your ex and whenever she did see them together, it was always innocent and she didn't give him a chance to explain.

But then, when he does something questionable, like whenever he tried to kiss her the first day they met, or whenever he came to her job to ask her out and she told him to leave but he said he was going to wait outside (toxic AF and presumptuous) she is fine with those things.

Now, back to Ale's accident. I really felt so bad for him whenever we discover he did this on purpose, because his father is mad, when they should be concerned. His mother says, "You could have died" and he agrees...

How did they not notice that meant that this young man was so disappointed with his life as a biker that he was literally suicidal? They just grazed past it and whenever he vanished on them, there wasn't a huge call to find him,even though he'd just admitted to purposefully filling a possibly fatal mistake.

I'm prepared for nothing but disappointment. ALL these people outta there. Ale's best friend is in love with his ex. 😭 IT'S SUMMER'S 18TH BIRTHDAY. MYNIGGA She really stood her other best friend up to go get some dick on a little ass boat

The little sister shot her shot! 😭😭😭 He told her she's like his little sister and she burnt off mad denna muffugga

This child drunk, walking down the street in the middle of the night without her glasses...

OMG AS I WAS TYPING THAT SHE GOT HIT BY A DAMN CAR

I was really upset by these things coming to light, and also whenever Blue gets hit by a car, because all of the reviews that I've seen on this site have been that it's a cute love story with likable characters, but nobody mentions the problematic content, the dark portions of the story that can be triggering - like suicide and alcohol incidents and literally seeing a young Black girl be hit and run by a car??? 

I wasn't prepared for that shit in a "cute love story." I think that this story is less cute and more dark than people have made it out to be, and that's one of my problems with it. It isn't marketed as a dramatic coming of age story. It's marketed as a romantic comedy, when it is more serious than that and has a lot of issues that should be considered.

The lesbian best friend is in love with her too??????????????????? I. Hate. This.

My favorite person in this whole thing is the lesbian in the background, Irene. And also Dario.

I was entertained a lot of the times. Just heavily confused because I couldn't figure out what the tone was supposed to be. 😁

In conclusion - it's maybe a dark comedy, not a cute comedy, IS a coming of age about a young Black girl who is kind of an asshole, but Black girls should be free to be assholes too. White dudes do it all the time and are valued characters. The dude is weird AF for chasing around this 17 year old girl and he's in his 20s. Idk if that's normal in Italy. It's nasty to me. Their beginning is young people foolishness and there's not much that we see their relationship built upon, but that happens, yanno. You young, tired and silly and some pushy dude makes his move whenever he see you. Slap some discount sex in a dinghy on it and you have this show. I don't recommend it, but a lot of folk loved it, so I guess it did what it meant to do.