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pepprs · 5 years ago

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im losing it abt my classes and i just need to complain abt it somewhere cuz no one is replying to my emails and im stressed

my image and text class that i had the presentation for a few weeks back (that i turned in 4 hrs late after starting it last minute LOL) is fine im just waiting on a grade on it and then i have a project due in 3 weeks but itll b fun and im not worried.. i gotta make a comic and then write abt what’s going on in it so it should be fine

i have an essay for my british culture course due on wed morning and im going fucking crazy i can’t get myself to work on it at all and i don’t want to write it. the whole class got ruined cuz we had to go home and the entire course was supposed to be just field trips all around south england that we’d write abt at the end but when this happened they just were like lol just read these articles instead and like i don’t wanna do research abt the places we woulda gone it’s just not fair and it makes me upset and also i can’t read. ik it’s only 1500 words that’s basically nothing but it counts for my entire grade and i just have no energy and nothing to give

im uhhhh withdrawing from my creative curiosity class. or i decided i would and my advisor agrees w my decision but idk how to actually withdraw and im scared to tell my prof 🥴 but that class only met once a week and it got even more fucked up by corona cuz the prof was like lol we aren’t having class meetings anymore and ur on ur own and the class was already so vague anyway and like.. we have a final project due NEZT tues that’s like an entire semesters worth of research and i haven’t even started and idk how to like. Function in british academic settings anyway so im just fucking giving up lol. im changing my major anyway which means im not graduating on time and i can do w/e i want cuz im making my own degree plan and i would rather take a class i know what im doing in and can stay invested / supported w rather than accept credit for like.. a shitty art project i don’t care abt anymore and couldn’t cuz of all of this u know? but yeah it’s very bad

#it just sucks sooooo much like i actually tly enjoyed my classes when i eas in brighton and if this hadnt happened i know i woulda put 100%#into them and i woulda had all the support and focus and whatever i needed and now everythings on fire. the time difference suuuuucks the #culture gap suuuucks and idk who to ask for help my school there or my school jere and like. i just wanna drop everything and say fuck it #and also we had strikes while we were there so classes were fucked alrwady and now this!!!! but even tho i didnt rly put a lot of time into #my classes i just.. i feel bad cuz i paid a lot dor all of this and to withdraw just feels so .. AUGHHH but also this is a global pandemic #and im losing my fucking mind and i need to do what feels right for me. and i cant afford to not do this wssay but the creative curiosity #thing i just ... i gotta get out of that. gotta jump ship. the only things that class gave me were a) the best friend i made in brighton and #b) a lot of great opportunities to actually go to the city campus and do shit there but.. idk it did nothing else and im fine wjrh that i ha #have to be fine with that. hate this hatw all of this just want may 22nd to come and go so i can be done w classes and then june 7 so i can #finlaly turn off the voice in my jead reminding me im not supposed to be here yet and then i can put it behind me and get closure #its so fuckj sad. i lnow everyones gone over how sad it is for everyone 3836827483 times but. it wasnt supposed to happen this way. it wasnt #brighton #covid19 #purrs

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