#haruka's happy to be alive. takane is happy to have her body back. and things are hard but theyve always been hard

[yuukei-yikes]

ratio + takane cannot properly walk after getting her body back. kano HELPS her out of the tank he can go sob outside later (not only can she not walk but she's also having a panic attack for sensory overload. 2 YEARS. KANO CAN GO SOB OUTSIDE LATER. HE HELPS HER!!!!!) and seto carries her back to the hideout. i know this. also she's on a wheelchair while on rehab. she has messy coordination to walk cuz her muscles are atrophied and stands with her knees together and bent. i KNOW THIS.

[yuukei-yikes]

this is actually an interesting take and i was gonna cry about it and move on but then i started thinking and if that was so, wouldn't haruka already be dead?

like if that really was the case, haruka would die AS SOON as he gets his body back. i mean... he's pretty late to the dying date they set for him back then

i think he would honestly assume he's still dying despite everything so he probably gets a check up immediately. he wouldn't be planning his future (being an artist) if they told him he was still dying because he would be like "i'm dying anyway" like he always is... i mean, unless that the whole experience made him think that he should appreciate his time alive even if it's not much and do whatever he wants despite still having a clock over his head like you said but... idk, that seems incredibly specific and i see it kinda unlikely?? but i guess that could be a thing too

and he talks a lot about becoming an adult and stuff so i think that's because he's not sick anymore and now he actually GETS to grow up, something that was always impossible to him due knowing he was gonna die at 16/17

also if jin's planning a haruka spin off i think it'd be boring to have a corpse as a protagonist askskskjdkdk

and if takane still has her illness that's pretty harmless since 1) it's not deadly and 2) she has her powers now so whenever she passes out she can just hang out in the internet or 3) even if she doesn't have her powers she found her happiness with the mekakushi dan so she's really not miserable anymore.

anyway. Yeah. let's hope both haruka and takane are okay, because after all the shit show that happened to them, they honestly deserve it.

i think everyone forgot that post str takane and haruka probably still do have their illnesses and haruka still has a clock over his head

[midnightsdarkangel]

I don’t want to die.

Summary: Haruka didn't care if he lived or died at first, but when Takane came into the picture, he couldn't help but suffocate.

(i read some of the translated book of over the dimension and my heart hurts. tbh i have this headcanon haruka really has little to no self care with his mental being unless Takane is there. Pls save these children)

When I was young, I was told that I was going to die.

Normally when you’re told news like this, the first thing you do is cry. You fear and you grieve over the life you wouldn't live. When my mother had died, I was numb as my father told me the same thing would happen. He was void of all emotions, just a blank stare as if to state the facts and nothing more. I'm not sure if I had cried as a child, I just remember feeling suffocated.

From then on, I just didn't care.

.

The suffocating feeling never went away as I got older. If anything, I was able to press it down in the depths of my mind. It led me to lead a very careless life- or, well, what little I have of my life. It never really bothered me when I collapsed and woke up in the same white room, with the same bed and the same blurred faces of nurses. If anything, I welcomed it as a daily routine in my life that I had grown accustomed to.  No one cared either, if anything we had all become desensitized to the notion of my predicted death so there really was no reason to worry.

Everyone but Takane.

"You idiot , you’re bleeding! Quickly, put your hand under the sink!"

It was one afternoon when all the students had gone home that Takane had rushed over me in a panic.

I stared baffled as Takane grabbed my wrist rather forcefully and dragged me to the bathroom to clean up. I had managed to get cut by a shard of glass in science class when I dropped my glass beaker, shattering all over the floor. Takane told me to leave it while she got a mop, but I just crouched down and swept the glass with my hand, collecting the fragments to throw in the bin as I managed to get a cut from a rather large piece. Blood had dripped from my palm into the bin when I let go.

I wasn't really aware of Takane at first as she panicked as I just stared at the blood drip from my hand. It felt oddly soothing to see that there was proof that I was still alive in this moment.   It wasn't until she had grabbed me by the shoulders did I snap out of my state to look at her. Her eyebrows were pinched in a angry yet concerning gaze as her lips gave off a small pout that I couldn’t help but smile.

"Sorry, it was quicker that way,"

I spoke carelessly as we arrived to the girls bathroom, thankfully it was after school and no one really bothered to hang around after an hour had passed. It was the only place she could take me. She thrust my hand in the sink and turned the water on. The cold water made contact with my cut, letting water and blood blend to sink down the drain. I could hear her sigh in the background as she leaned on one of the sinks herself and brushed the hair from her face, her eyes were careful in watching me from the corner of my gaze as I gently washed the blood until it was no longer leaking out of my hand and was a mere cut.

"You need to be more careful..."

Her voice had become soft, yet still stubborn as if she was afraid to break her cruel streak in case anyone else had seen as she turned to face me, coming up close to my side to grab my hand gently to inspect the wound.

"It shouldn’t be too bad, I’ll tell teacher when he comes back if we have anything to bandage that up."

I wasn’t really sure how to react to her concern over my wellbeing. I had expected her to call me an idiot for cutting myself and tell me to wash up, but here she was, she had personally made sure to see that I was ok. It felt...odd. As if the suffocating feeling was rising in the back of my throat momentarily;

"You don’t need to worry that much Takane,"

I muttered gently as I turned the tap off and dried my hand with the tissue she handed over, not really caring if I rubbed it on my cut. When I turned to face her after crumpling the tissue and throwing it in the bin, I froze. She wasn’t angry, but instead had a look of concern had washed over her. It seemed as if she had something she wanted to say as she flexed her hands, clenching it and opening it. She bit her lip as if what she was going to tell me could turn the atmosphere grim, and in all honesty I was expecting it.

"...Why do you not care about yourself?"

"You mean this cut? I told you it’s not that much of a big deal-"

"No, not just the cut, Haruka, I’m talking about you! H-how you can collapse at any second and yet you don't care, you push yourself to your limit and yet to you it’s nothing. How can you not care about yourself, what if you..."

She doesn't dare say the next word, but I know what she wants to say as I smile sadly, finishing her sentence;

"Die, right?"

Takane just nods looking down as I sigh smiling softly. My hand gently rubbed her hair as she looks up to me with that worried but pouty gaze. I prepare to tell her I don't really care, that this was normal for me and I knew I was safe, just to ease her thoughts but my words don't come out. My mouth is open but I can’t speak. Why can’t I speak..? My hand tenses for a moment as I just stare at her to try and figure out what's stopping me. I tell everyone countless times of my predicament and how normal it was for me.

But Takane isn’t just 'anyone'.

The suffocation rises higher.

My hand sinks back down from her head as she sighs and looks away.

"Come on, I’m sure the teacher’s worried."

I stare at her as she leaves the room leaving the door prompt open for me. I don't move at first, I'm not really sure what happened as I grip my throat slowly, the sweat drips from my face as my heart races.

For that one moment in my life. I was afraid to die.

--

1 a.m.

I couldn't sleep.

If anything I just kept replaying her gaze at me over and over. How fragile she looked as if I would crumble at any second. I hated it, it made me uncomfortable. No one had ever given me such a look, no one had cared if i did reckless actions and normally i didn't care when others fretted over me. Yet Takane was able to stun me. In all honesty she had that affect...She was like a hurricane, no matter who you were you would be thrown into her world. I had fallen for her spell, i was thrown into the heart of the hurricane and i loved it. I loved seeing her for myself, every little subtle actions of her emotions. To anyone else it'd look as if she was angry all the time, but i saw every detail she wanted to show me. When she was flustered her eyes would dart away, if she was happy she liked to kick her legs back and forth and hum a tune. When she was sad…

It killed me.

I never wanted to see her sad and yet, it was I who made her look that way.

' How can you not care about yourself?'

Hah... I let out a weak chuckle as i covered my hand over my eyes, her words replaying over and over in my thoughts like a broken record. She had got me. And yet i wished i never felt this way. In my scattered thoughts i had wished the cut i had over my eyes would open again and blood to just pour, to cover my body in a lake of it and let myself sink until there was nothing left of me in a blood red ocean of my own mistakes.

I'd never forgive myself.

--

And of course a few months later i died.

Not the way i had expected..but i was certainly dead. My body had collapsed one day. Takane, poor thing. She was wearing her headphones staring at the paper in front of her with such a cute expression. How i wish i wasnt there to break her heart. My breathing had became fast and shallow like it normally had done with any attack i faced. However i didn't take it as casually as i did.

I felt myself suffocate.

My heart had began to race as i looked over to her, my pupils shrinking as i reached out in hopes to grab her attention but my hand froze. I couldn't. I couldn't do that to her, i didn't want to see her worry over me. This was fear wasn't it? How ironic…

Tears fell from my face as I smiled weakly.

I wished she didnt worry too much…

--

I love Takane Enomoto.

Took me a while- no...maybe i knew from the very beginning she was something special to me. It was just a shame i was too late.

After i had died i was given an offer...one i foolishly refused. I was hooked up to thousand upoun thousand of wires connecting to my arm, pouring lifeless energy into my core as the world around me was pure white. I wish i could say home sweet home seeing as this wouldn't had been any diffrent to what i experienced normally, but without her around i just felt miserable.

I had a tv infront of my bed, i had to shuffle myself up against the banister to watch, my eyes are weary and dull. Supposedly i was awoken as another person. Konoha. It felt funny watching a character i created in my own spare time begin to live my life out. Maybe this is what i wanted in the end, someone else to take my place- someone who was stronger than i was. Innocent to their own cruel predicament.

For a few weeks it was nothing but background noise to me as i preferred to sleep instead. It wasn't my life anymore, it was his and it just felt wrong looking into it as if i was there.

Well...until I heard her voice again.

"Ah wait Master! Done leave me with-darn.."

My head whipped up so fast i found myself clutching my sheets.

It was her voice.

Takane.

She was live- she was actually alive how did she-

"Ah...Hello Ene.."

Ah...I sunk back down in my pillow but my heart was still racing. It was her...but...she was different. She was in a phone Konoha had clung onto as he plugged her into a socket to charge the batteries. She had a different smile i wasn't aware of. She looked so happy...A spark of joy i thought id never see in my life time. She did pout and have that look of irritation to her but it overall was lighter- playful. I leant forward as i felt my head spin;

Did she remember me?

My hand reached out as i felt the wires tug on my skin, pulling me back.

I didn't want to live at first, this should had been my wish come true but not until Takane had came along did that wish change. If Takane was alive and happy then i was...But there was, smiling with the others i failed to recognise. Of course Konoha was there also but...i wasn't. A weak smile painted my lips as i felt my body tremble. Did she cry over my death...was she happier in a world without me?

No wonder she looked so bright...i wasn't there to drag her down anymore, she was finally opening out of her shell like i had always wished her to. So why...why was i crying..?

"Takane..."

I dont want to be left behind...

I want to smile with her..

"I love you."

--

"Huh..? Konoha?" Ene was snapped out of her thoughts when she had felt tears tap at her screen as she looked up baffled. Everyone in the room had noticed this when she had spoken up as they all looked to Konoha who just stared at her baffled and confused.

"Why are you crying?" Ene asks softly as Konoha touches his face ever so gently as if he could shatter in one touch if not careful.

"Im not sure...i just feel really sad."

Such sad lives we live..

[medusaandhuman-blog]

Route XII

"No more... No more... I don't want to see them die..."

Was all that the white haired medusa, Mary, mumbled as tears rolled down her cheeks. The reason? Corpses on the ground, right in front of her. Two of them were shot in the head and torso, one had a broken neck, the other had it's lungs and heart ripped out along with many others she couldn't see anymore due to the tears. In fact, she didn't wanted to see them but for some reason, she couldn't. That reason alone was enough to make anyone get in shock and traumatised. However, those corpses were from her friends. The ones she stayed with, some for too long and others not for long but already cared deeply. And seeing them in such form... It was her nightmare. However, this wasn't the first time she saw them like this. Multiple timelines she had seen this over and over and no matter how hard she tried to prevent this... It always ended up in this tragedy. Mary tried and tried to understand why this always happened but no matter how many times she tried stop their fate to be this she simply couldn't.

She could hear a voice that seemed very distant but was actually pretty close. The voice of the murder, Snake of Clearing Eyes, that possessed one of her friends body. All he was doing was making fun of them and laughing but Mary simply couldn't hear him. She couldn't focus on anything else apart from her dead friends... Seconds looked like hours to her. The more she mumbled those words, she spaced out even more. She couldn't move. All that the girl could do was cry, tremble and just be in shock.

However... After what looked like hours to her, she noticed that it was silent... The voice stopped. Only wind could be heard. Mary was, once again, alone...

The blood of her friends on her dress and face... That, in previous timelines, was enough for her to fulfil the Snake of Clearing Eyes desire. Another reset. Another timeline. But this time, she didn't did such thing... She remained there. Staring at their corpses as thoughts started appearing on her mind. Negative thoughts.

"It's all my fault..."

The girl said. Her voice being low and shaky. However... There were no more tears on her eyes. Even if she wanted to cry more, Mary simply couldn't do it.

"I caused all this..."

She mumbled once more before looking at Seto's dead body. The one that had found her and brought her out of her loneliness. But now there was nothing he could do help...

Slowly crawling towards the boy's direction and seeing his torso open without his heart and lungs... The girl remained quiet for a few minutes, red eyes looking down at his lifeless eyes. That is... Until she started.

"One last reset.... One last timeline were everyone can be happy..."

Mary said as time itself started to rewind. Not to before they were killed. Not to when she was found by the boy. She rewinded time to the point of days after her own mother had died. Before everyone she knew had those eyes that would send them to their demise. With each reset, she always remembered what happened or at least a bit of it. This time, however, she remembered it all.

And so, she went to try and save their friends. Still as in the body of a child, the girl went to various life and death situations, to try and gather the snake eyes before anyone else could. Concealing, Stealing, Deceiving, Drawing, Opening, Focusing and Awakening Eyes. One after another, almost dying in the process of doing so, the girl somehow prevented everyone to get such abilities, letting them live and go on with their lives.

With everyone alive, without the Snakes and meeting each other, Mary, that was hiding herself with the Concealing Eyes, was watching everyone gathering at the Dan. talking, laughing and having fun. Haruka and Takane still on their human body, both alive and well. Momo and Shintarou were there as well. Kido, Seto, Kano and even Ayano, her parents, Hiyori and Hibiya were there as well. All of them, alive and happy... Mary would be lying if she said that she didn't wanted to just go there and hug them very tight. But she couldn't... She simply couldn't risk their lives. And so... The medusa, now with short hair, snake-like cheeks went back to her house, in the middle of the forest. Seto didn't had Stealing Eyes, which let the user to read other's minds. Therefore, he didn't found Mary's house.

The girl finally prevented that fate from happening again. Even if that means her being alone for her entire life in that house.

[yuukei-yikes]

i think that after getting her body back takane just cant look at mirrors. she wants to fix her hair but if she looks in the mirror she'll get slapped in the face with the fact that yeah shes alive and has a body. like wow thats me thats how other people see me. its supposed to be comforting but for takane it isnt cause she feels so detached from her actual physical form and its as if shes living in a body that isnt hers. it makes her want to rip her skin off so she just asks haruka to tie her hair

YES!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXAAAAACTLY

at first takane running to be ene.... but does start forcing herself to stay bc nothing will get solved if she keeps running... and everything feels like a slap in the face. youre real, the last 2 years were real, ur life was real, YOURE STILL REAL and you will CONTINUE TO BE REAL takane loves being real she never meant to die she LIKES having a place in the world so of course she is incredibly happy!! but it's so damn SCARYYYYY!!!!!!! AND OVERWHELMING!!!!!!!!

with time she does manage but the in between still exists and it's not easy... i do think it's comforting sometimes though. i think it depends completely on the days like sometimes she's like YIPPPEEE and other times wants to rip her skin off. 💖 like being real is as comforting as it's terrifying.. touching, smelling, tasting is all weird and ur so right. looking at herself in the mirror is also so strange. while it's good it's still overwhelming and there is no adaptation process like either she uses opening eyes or she doesn't. it's either u run or you take it. all or nothing. and it's so hard to choose but she does and her body has so many damn FUNCTIONS!! WHAT THE HELL!!

and its so damn hard because everything is Too Much but haruka is there for her and is understanding and helps her and takane's like god. im such a freak. i should be fine!! everything is fine so i should be too!!!!!! and haruka's like you shouldn't BE anything it's okay to take your time ur already doing so much with just pulling through and not resorting to using opening eyes whenever you feel bad. AUUUGGGGHHthey make me sick.

sorry for making it harutaka there. erm. but harutaka💖 i will continue to make it harutaka. takane explains her avoidance to mirrors and haruka tells her that's such a shame youre so pretty. he isnt even flirting hes just stating it as fact. like i wish u could look at yourself because looking at you is nice :) and to him thats completely logical. takane's like. *sniff* whatever

ALSO HARUKA DOING TAKANE'S HAIR... AUUGGH AUUUUUGHHH *BITE BITE BITE BITE BITE* he would enjoy that so much. he tries not to be so obvious because takane's embarrassed and she hates that she can't do basic things. but he's glad she's relying on him!!! and he makes it clear she should never be embarrassed and he's always there for her no questions asked!!! takane's like ugh im sorry this is stupid. and haruka's like IT'S NEVER STUPID IT'S IMPORTANT TO YOU SO IT'S NOT STUPID‼️ AND IF CAN HELP YOU I WILL‼️‼️‼️

and also teehee... it's a bonus that he gets to play with her hair. he may be a little happy about that too but it's mostly about takane relying on him!! and being like the One person she seems to be oddly comfortable being physical with.

she still struggles with haruka of course but noticeably less than with others because... man. im sorry. takane is so over the moon haruka's back. she never thought this OR finding her body could be possible!! that's crazy!!!! and takane HAS this overbearing personality like even though ene cant physically be with anyone there's SO MUCH official art of her just being all over people. like hugging shintaro and stuff!!! THAT bit in the second novel where takane was worried abt haruka not coming back and when he does arrive she's so relieved she goes in for a hug before getting distracted!!??! TAKANE IS SO TOUCHY *is dragged away by guards*

ok but yeah harutaka all over each other but. takane's on this spinning wheel of OKAY and NOT OKAY. but she tries really hard because a simple hug is such a celebratory act of getting both her body and haruka back that she's just really motivated to make it work. ratio + hugs you hugs you hugs you hugs you!!!!!!! also haruka is the easiest NOT ONLY because he is her faaaavoooriteee person :3 but also haruka knows all the ins and outs of her term and conditions and is so patient with her and is honestly the one to set the boundaries because he sees how much takane's forcing herself and while it makes him happy she's so eager it is okay to take it slow and she shouldn't push herself so hard!! takane's mostly the impatient one like I SHOULD BE NORMALLLL!!! again HUGS YOU HUGS YOU HUGS YOU i think it'd be funny if takane's like hugging the air like I WANT A HUG SO BAD BUT IF I TOUCH ANYTHING RN I'LL EXPLODE!!!! and haruka's like I ALWAYS WANNA HUG SO TELL ME WHENEVER UR FEELING FINE :)

sniff sniff.... she's taken her own body for granted before and she lost it but she got it back and...she gets to feel the sun in her face again...the breeze in her hair... haruka's hand in hers..... it's difficult but it's worth it it's all so worth it *explosion* sorry. i love enomoto takane and i love harutaka