#harry-louis-forever

[trashraccoongirl]

forever. ❤️

[dimpledsmile]

I also think what makes Liam’s death so hard is the realization that those little fan-girl days are truly over.

I would always look back on memories of being a young teen and having not a care in the world but one direction. I would miss the staying up late to watch interviews. I would miss making these fan edits and posting them to my fan account. I would miss the innocence of being a young girl in love with a boyband.

Of course as I grew up and became an adult, I have matured and in a sense “put those days behind me”. But I still had so much love and respect for One Direction and how much they meant to me growing up.

I guess I just always held onto this belief that One Direction wasn’t really over. Even when Zayn left. Even when they announced their hiatus. I knew that that boys loved their fans and they all needed time to find themselves and heal from their own experiences, good and bad. I knew it must have not been easy for them to be catapulted into the spotlight at such a young age. I just always had this belief that maybe they wouldn’t entirely regroup / start over again as One Direction … but that they would at least have reunion to show that they are still strong and they are still proud of the band.

But with Liam’s passing, the possibility of One Direction truly never having a proper reunion is a punch to the gut knowing that we will never witness them together again. Also, selfishly, knowing I will never be able to see them in concert like so many other lucky fans were. It feels like a part of my inner teen also died. Knowing she will never be able to experience the joys and love that came from one direction makes me so sad for her. Adult me, knowing I will never be able to re-experience One Direction is also grieving it. 

When did we all grow up?

From now on, every music video, every throwback photo, or even any future reunion will always look this sense of sadness. Knowing that we are missing one of our boys.

[eminentzayn]

remember when someone released 5 balloons for liam at a memorial and the balloons formed the WMYB formation before the balloons scattered and one went way higher than the others? yeah. me too.

[chaoticneutraltor]

[harrywavycurly]

So now we are all going to be missing One Direction in a whole new way because they’ll never be the same ever again.

[scriptapermahrukh]

Their songs hit so damn hard now ❤️‍🩹

[suhstaste]

ive been thinking about it this heavily since liams death and the way those boys were treated and managed during their time in one direction really breaks my heart.

i was 11-14 when i was a one direction stan during its peak (this was 2012-2015 era) and i couldn’t tell u at that point of my life that anything was wrong. i was eating up all the content and i thought they were all happy.

its when i got older that i recognized how fucked up these boys were in the sense that they were 17,18,19 thrust into limelight that was so bright and strong with no one there to protect them from the monster that is fame.

harry & zayns image haunts me the most, the racism and islamophobia that zayn received and the fact that baby harry was being preyed on by older woman and it was seen as okay because he was the “womanizer”…..he was 16….

honestly zayn, liam and harry were in odd relationships with older women at very young ages, again nobody was there to PROTECT them

it’s why liam struggled the way he did. it’s why zayn escaped and it took him 6-7 years to even do a public interview again. it’s why harry is so closed off to the public now. that band was destroying them as it was saving us and that’s the most heartbreaking thing to come to terms with.

especially now that liam has died (still insane to write this sentence) now more than ever what i wish for them is healing. i hope they can all reconcile with one another, not even for us, but for them. this came at a shock to all of us but we knew liam from one direction. they knew liam payne, the boy from wolverhampton. this probably feels like a million daggers in the heart no matter how close they were in the present.

they shared that experience with one another and no matter what has happened since then that has forever tethered them to one another and now one of those tethers is broken forever.

i know what liams been accused of but in this life we love complicated people. i pray for maya as well bc she was only opening up about what she experienced and it shouldnt be received with backlash. he hurt people, he hurt her and death doesn’t absolve that and it’s also important to acknowledge this. it’s why this is also so hard for me personally to react too.

at the end of the day, this was a very tragic situation and my heart goes out to everyone. the fans who loved him, his friends and family and everyone in between.

im so sorry liam, im sorry that my favorite boy band in the world destroyed you. if only someone had helped u that night and kept u away from that locked room. i know how much u hated being locked in ur hotel room

[colesawicn]

“behind every gay person is a gayer, more evil gay person” and it’s these genre of photos:

[sunshineofyourlovee]

Today I went to Liam’s memorial. There were a lot of people and what hit me was the fact that we were all different. There were people of my age who are almost 30 years old and who grew up listening to One Direction, when we were 14 years old and that band was our biggest dream and our safe place; there were people younger than me, around 20 years old, who maybe met One Direction during their last years or maybe they found out about them after discovering the boys as solists; there were adults older than me; there were adult women with their boyfriends who maybe were alone in the past when they used to listen to One Direction; there were girls with their sons; there were people wearing 1D merchandise and people wearing elegant blazers; there were people with their friends and while looking at them I asked myself about how long they know each other, if their friendship was born thanks to the band — and maybe this is why they are still together today —.

Today there were a lot of different people and I realized how much our lifes went on for all of us. Yet, despite the fact that our lives changed, today we were there all together, as if we were young and teenagers again. Despite the fact that our lives took different directions, today we were there to remember something that had a serious impact on us, something that is unforgettable and irremovable, no matter where we are now with our lives. And today more than ever I understood that One Direction will never have an end, that they were never a meteor in our lives and that their legacy will be eternal because during these days we are stopping our lives to go back where everything began. Where we began.

[awh0reforlouist91]

calling yourself a directioner in 2024 is cool, pass it on.

[trashraccoongirl]

[dimpledsmile]

To any Directioner and fan-girl who don’t know how to feel and who doesn’t have anyone to talk to about this. I hear you.

It’s not going to be easy out in the real world because many people will look at one direction as “just a band” and you have to get back to your every day life despite this weird sense of grief looming over.

I hope you are finding time to take care of yourself. Cry if you need to. Listening to music if you need to. There’s no right way to feel about this.

You are not being “dramatic”. You are not “too old”.

You are allowed to grieve the loss of someone your younger self once loved so much. You are allowed to grieve the music that will now sound different. You are allowed to grieve the photos that will never look the same. You are allowed to grieve that you might never have another experience with a band like you did with one direction. You are allowed to grieve your younger self who would turn on their music and felt loved by a group of boys you never met but felt like you did.

Take care of yourselves.

[chaoticneutraltor]

[anchorandrope]

happy pride to my hands your hands tied up like two ships i don't care what people say when we're together oh i will carry over fire and water for your love the script was written and i could not change a thing i said hey it's alright if it makes you feel alive and every jaw drops when she's in those jeans there will always be the kind that criticize but i know yes i know we'll be alright so i built you a house from a broken home i'm all yours i've got no control no control it's been so long it's been so long maybe we're fireproof used to sing about being free but now he's changed his mind if you like to do the things you know that we shouldn't do then baby i'm perfect the priest thinks it's the devil my mum thinks it's the flu but girl it's only you for your eyes only i'll show you my heart the summertime and butterflies all belong to your creation so many nights i thought it over told myself i kinda like her but there was something missing in her eyes same lips red same eyes blue same white shirt couple more tattoos wherever i go you bring me home in a black dress she's such an actress yeah so you can cut me up and kiss me harder you can be the pill to ease the pain im just like you if you only knew now i'm asking my friends how to say i'm sorry they say lad give it time there's no need to worry i know that you're scared because i'm so open breathe me in breathe me out i don't know if i could ever go without i get so lost inside your eyes would you believe it? so bright sometimes shine i'm not ever going back don't blame me for falling i was just a little boy i couldn't want you anymore kiss in the kitchen like it's a dance floor staring at the ceiling two weeks and i'll be home we were only kids just tryna work it out wonder what they'd think if they could see us now i've been looking back a lot lately me and you is all i ever know and it's been ages different stages come so far from princess park waiting to wrap your legs around me and i know you hate to smoke without me cause you're the only one when it's said and done and i'm too tired to be tough just wanna be loved by you it's a church of brunt romances and i'm too far gone to pray in a strange way we're all in this together been this way forever you're not the only one but i'd follow you to any place if it's hollywood or bishopsgate i'm coming too if i was a bluebird i would fly to you stay green a little while you bring blue lights to dreams do you think i'm cool too? or am i too into you? maple syrup coffee pancakes for two you lay with him as you stay in the daydream you feel a fool you're back at it again i take you with me every time i go away in a hotel usin' someone else's name when we're finished saying nothing can we please get back to lovin'? i don't wanna face the music but i still wanna dance with you but the friends we make the love it takes is worth is worth is worth it all the time my heart might be broken but i won't be broken down you and me until the end wakin' up to start again fabricated fairytales bring a new world to life there were problems in this empty bottle at the bottom but we drained all that you should be startin' at the sky the birds just passin' by love spent my whole life thinking i had to change

[inspo]

[memories-of-1d]

I listened to this song today for the first time since his passing and it HURTS

(Also creds to the creator of this photo, I don’t remember who it was but I found it on twitter, if anyone knows who it is pls let me know!💕)

[larryandziamasf]

Its been a whole month since you left us Leeyum

Its been a whole month since I have gone through all five stages of grief a trillions times over

Its been a month since I have tried to live my life just like how you would want many of us to live it to the absolute fullest only to be reminded in the simpliest ways possible that you are still gone

Its been a month and I have come to the sudden realization that I am finding comfort in my grief because if I choose to move forward I am scared I will forget you

Its been a month but it feels both like a lifetime but also just barely a second ago I heard the news

Its been a month Liam and I wish you came back to us so we can show you how truly loved you were

My sunshine is gone.....