#harass me in dms if i dont live up to this

[ratsrequiem]

Okay fine I’ll start drawing magi again

[evilrobertsmith]

Intro Post ☆

post limit? apparently not

last updated 01/23/25

About me:

im a minor so dont be weird

probably harassing @d3l-t4co 's asks or something

canadian

genderfluid usually masc leaning idc what pronouns

i can speak french but not perfectly

feel free to dm me or send me asks or tag me in stuff i love yapping

chronic reblogger + i post whatever random thoughts i have

i do use slurs im allowed to say and i have a bad habit of suicidal jokes and i probs swear a lot mostly habit so thats my bad im also lowk a freak so don't question some of the stuff i rb / post (on occasion)

i tend to like flirt w my friends so pls pls pls lmk if i make u uncomfy with that and also assume im not srs

@m4yday-m4yday is my handsome wife

@b0ngobill @bongo-bill-s @alg3bra @johnny-son are our children (im forgetting one)

our wedding post if ur curious

Main Interests:

my chemical romance

dead poets society

garfield

Fav music:

tbh i listen to pretty much everything but here's some of my favs

artists/bands:

mcr, the cure, tfb, bauhaus, brokencyde, bratmobile, patd, lana del ray, green day, the smiths, the cramps, negative 25, duran duran, she wants revenge, garbage, nmh, cshr, ramones, dks, violent femmes, sublime + a lot more (visit my spotify if ur curious)

seen live:

Lana del ray (2023)

Brandon lake (2024 (i think?) at my moms request)

Seeing MCR (this summer 2025)

genres:

Punk / Emo / Goth / Riot grrl / Ska / Midwest emo / Crunk / Indie / Rock / Folk

Tag System? / Blog specifics

queue runs from 12-6 am PST

#killiez rambles - yapping tag

#asks!! - asks duh

i dont really have any other tags at the moment but i'm working on it (be patient guys i'll get there one day)

Other socials:

@evilminion001 is my sideblog im never on

tiktok is the same username as this blog

if we're friends feel free to ask for my ig or sc (unfortunately do not have dsc)

spotify

lmk if u want me to fllw u back on spotify + ur user bc i do nawt check often

airbuds

it'll probably take me a while to add u back on there sorryy

letterboxd

PLS PLS PLS ADD ME ON LETTERBOXD I NEED MOOTS

divider is from @fawndollie idk abt the rest

[peripaltepsy]

BEWARE OF "body mod advices" - they can be dangerous and LETHAL.

(this post was about a deactivated blog but extends to any possible future blog like it)

edit3 since he deactivated: Red told me in the DMs that he WILL be more careful about all this risk stuff, I believe he is going to do better. Im sure he's a good person and he also was extremely civil in the DMs. Since he's not here to defend himself anymore I'll gladly take his side and say that despite this mess, all Red wanted to do was indeed reduce harm and potentially save lives. Good luck on all your endeavors, Red, I wish you a beautiful and successful career and that you have a great positive impact in the atypical dysphoria community, both on and offline. I don't know how my post truly impacted you, I'm so sorry if you're feeling bad. You acted the best way you possibly could.

Second, if Red comes back, DO NOT HARASS HIM, let him be himself and don't let his past hold them down.

Third, all my points still stand for their deactivated blog and any potential body mod tips blogs in the future. Please everyone, take care, stay safe.

Past edit: DONT HARASS any possible blogs like hers, just REPORT and spread awareness, (also don't make the same mistakes as me: TALK TO THEM FIRST)

Past edit: minors please interact with this post, forget my bio for this one

Past edit: editing editing the post since I talked to Red and he isn't bait. I definitely should have talked to them in DMs first. I sincerely apologize. So sorry Red! To those reading, don't make the same mistake as me, ok? Always talk to people privately first, I genuinely fucked up bad. This mistake of assuming others intentions, can traumatize them. If I were in Red's shoes I'd be traumatized. So yeah, I fucked up bad.

Their intentions are genuine but my point still stands that its extremely dangerous and can't qualify as harm-reduction / end edit note

alright, I'm not transid/radqueer but you guys need to REPORT AND WARN OTHERS of these accounts as soon as they appear. Do not entertain them, no matter how desperate you are to transition. You can become a victim of dangerous charlatanism.

LONG POST AHEAD, VERY IMPORTANT NEVERTHELESS

Archive to what i'm about to post

Red claimed to be "a non-professional surgeon, planning on getting better with practice." Bad move!

Red has told me he's pursuing a medical degree and won't actually do non-qualified surgery.

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Red: "The blog is centered around an idea of "extreme" body mods that I would like to explore further, [...] things like breaking and re-mending bones, creating new joints, replacing skin, etc."

My point: the road to hell is paved with good intentions, and your blog was unsafe.

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To any possible counterarguments: "But they (people following/asking advice) know the risks!" That's victim-blaming. Red gave himself the responsibility to give harm-reducing advice, but he didn't do a good job.

"But I know the risks!" You can't possibly know the risks because Red doesn't know either or "kinda knows" but has not properly informed his audience, it didnt give sources, oversimplified their advice and failed to provide accurate information about risk. Or gave plain misinformation.

Again I'm not transid, I can't possibly imagine what you're going through in order to try anything at all to feel better, including trying experimental surgery not legally available or not researched at all. However, please please please do not become a victim of medical deceit or whatever tf it's called. Even if the blog owner tries their best to be reliable.

They might sound confident, but they do not know what they are saying, what they're telling others to do.

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Ask: "How would I make my skin gray without tattoos?" (DO NOT SHAME THIS USER BTW)

Red: "[...] I assume you want permanent grey. To do this, it's pretty simple, although it'll take a lot of time. Basically, what you want to do is to constantly be exposed to lots of silver. Any product with silver in it like specific lotions and skin creams. also fish, milk, mushrooms, and whole grains tend to have silver in them! So tldr, consume lots of silver!"

STOP!!! DONT FOLLOW THIS ADVICE!!! DONT OVER-EXPOSE YOURSELF TO SILVER!!! "Silver toxicity causes argyria. Silver toxicity occurs when too much silver is in your body." <- from a simple research on "too much silver in blood"

THE RESULT WILL BE ARGYRIA. EVEN IF YOU DO IT SLOWLY, YOU ARE BUILDING UP A HEAVY METAL IN YOUR BODY. THE GREY SKIN IS NOT PRETTY NOR WITHOUT GRUESOME SIDE SYMPTOMS.

Yall. Anything in excess will fuck up your body, including iron, vitamins, and silver.

To whoever asked Red, I don't know your mind, but I'm sure you'd love to live a happy life with grey skin! You'd love to have a body you're comfortable with and looks rad as hell! But you wouldn't be able to enjoy it if you're deeply sick with ARGYRIA, WHICH IS WHAT RED'S ADVICE WILL GIVE YOU!

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Ask: "How do I get darker skin without going too dark? I’m pale and burn easily, I just want a color similar to Lin Manuel Miranda" (AGAIN DONT HARASS THIS USER)

Red: [...] "expose yourself to the sun more! As you do this, you'll get tan which will protect you from future burns and make your skin slightly darker, do this enough and you can engineer your skin to be as dark as you want!"

THATS MISINFORMATION! Yes you may tan to get darker (Lin's tone may or may not be achievable to you) but one: it's not permanent unless you're constantly going out; two: SKIN CANCER!!!! DONT OVER-EXPOSE YOURSELF TO THE SUN!!!! USE SUNSCREEN!!

TO ANYONE SEEKING A MUCH DARKER TONE: YOU CAN'T "GO AS DARK AS YOU WANT TO" BY TANNING. Just look at people who have lived their whole lives outdoors like farmers! White people can't tan to black! There's a limit to how tan you may get! Are you seriously gonna risk skin cancer for an impossible thing???

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Red: "Self amputation is really dangerous! You should learn how to use a tourniquet, that way, you can stop the bleeding! [...]" WHERE ARE YOU GETTING YOUR SOURCES, RED?

If anyone reading this is seriously thinking of amputating themselves, and will not change their minds no matter what, please just have someone immediately drive you to the hospital. I do not support such operation and you can still die or get horribly sick even with your best precautions, but you better receive actual medical attention and stay alive rather than trying to heal it yourself. Because what you'll most likely get from following Red's advice is DEATH FROM BLOOD LOSS. Again, if you absolutely cannot get rid of this dysphoria with therapy, or manage it at least, or have a doctor do it for you, I still would NEVER suggest you do it yourself, but IF you end up doing that then at least please go straight to the hospital instead of trying to heal it yourself.

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Red: "do not try and break your own bones to make modifications! [...] Get another person (Like myself) to help you with the bone breakage instead."

NO ONE KNOWS WTF THEY'RE DOING. YOUR FRIEND DOESN'T. RED DOESN'T (as they advertised in the post). NO ONE IS GOING TO GET MODIFICATIONS LIKE THIS. NO ONE IS GOING TO BE HAPPY. EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE EITHER IN PAIN, RISK OF HORRIBLE INJURIES OR TROUBLE WITH THE LAW. FUCKING AROUND = GUARANTEED BOTCHED OPERATION.

Also, now that Red has clarified she won't perform surgery until having an actual degree, you can't really go to her XD

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Red: "Some advice for surgery [...] This one's important, make sure your patient is strapped down and properly sedated, if they move, even slightly, you risk hitting a vital artery or organ, if you do hit an artery, don't panic, this is why you learned how to use a tourniquet! if you hit a vital organ though, odds are you won't know how to fix that, so be extra careful with abdomen and face surgery!"

Thats still promoting medical malpractice, mutilating and potentially killing friends, dangerously downplaying surgery so much, this is not harm-reduction

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Ask: "I want to be blind in one eye, but more-so in the sense of extreme but not total vision loss. I want to do something permanent in the future!" (AGAIN DONT HARASS THIS USER)

Red: Well, a simple fix to your problem is just get some calcium hydroxide in your eye and wash it out a few minutes later, this should lead to permanent, extreme (but not total) vision loss in that eye. Keep it in too long and it can cause total vision loss so be careful!

Ok so, it's great that you're trying to come up with alternative ways for users not to kill themselves by gouging their eyes out, but you've still failed to give them the full picture

From a quick search "calcium hydroxide in the eyes": Exposure to the skin can produce burns, painful irritation and necrosis, and exposure to the eyes may cause severe pain and vision loss that can be temporary or permanent. If calcium hydroxide is exposed to the skin, contaminated clothing should be removed, excess amounts of the chemical should be wiped off and the affected skin should be flushed repeatedly with water. Victims of calcium hydroxide exposure to the eyes should flush their eyes with water continuously for the first 15 minutes, but all cases of external exposure should receive immediate medical care. Inhaling calcium hydroxide through the nose or mouth can also cause immediate, painful and potentially life-threatening complications. Throat and nasal passages may become painful and swollen, and the swelling may restrict airways, making breathing difficult or impossible. If the calcium hydroxide particles are carried all the way to the lungs, this may further complicate breathing. Victims of this type of exposure should be taken immediately to a fresh air environment, and emergency services should be contacted right away. Administration of oxygen and emergency respiratory assistance may be required.

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Red (answering an ask): "the question shouldn't be what DO people replace their skin with, it should be what CAN they, after all, just because it's never been practiced or very rarely practiced doesn't mean it's bad or impossible! Of course, my personal favorite skin substitutes are rubber and red velvet, I am also a big fan of stainless steel."

(Don't promote such an operation). THIS OPERATION IS BAD AND IMPOSSIBLE TO SUCCEED. SKIN CAN ONLY BE REPLACED WITH SKIN. SKIN IS A LIVING ORGAN. ANY OTHER SUBSTITUTE WILL CAUSE YOU TO LOSE BODY PARTS OR DIE.

YOU KNOW HOW PEOPLE WITH TRANSPLANTS NEED LIFE-LONG MEDICAL ATTENTION SO THEIR BODY DOESN'T REJECT IT? HOW TF WILL YOU DO THIS WITH FUCKING RED VELVET?

YOU WILL FUCK UP YOUR BODY'S IMMUNE SYSTEM A THOUSAND DIFFERENT WAYS.

ANYWAYS. CROSSTAGGING FOR REACH. PLEASE EVERYONE REBLOG. THIS IS SERIOUS SHIT.

[spot-the-antisemitism]

cecil, i swear the questions are genuine, in good faith and not meant as a gotcha, i know you get a lot of backhanded ones.

can you please tell me, what to avoid while criticising the israeli government. things like not lumping every israeli (and every zionist) as a monolith is obvious, but what else is there? bc while i dont want to stay silent abt bibi, ben-gvir and their buddies, i also dont want to cause any harm to jews in general, while criticising these guys (obviously)

also, what sources you would deem generally trustworthy? bc ive seen you name a bunch of institutions, not all of them that obvious, as untrustworthy, so i want to know, who you consider to usually have it correct/true to facts/etc.

and this one isnt that much of a question, as it is an observation, bc reading your posts i sometimes feel like we live in different realities (in some sense we do, i guess, since im a goy), but from people around me, who identify with pro palestine movement, ive seen genuine interest in learning from different sources and understanding all the nuance, elections in usa not changing anything. not to mention, none of them being antisemitic (at least not intentionally and when on rare occassion of something like that happening, met with the information, that this might be, usual response is "shit, i had no idea, thank you for telling me, i wont do/say that anymore"). it is also just one of many "things" (for the lack of a better word) they care about, we are all generally interested in politics, social issues and local activism. but my social circle may be a bubble, since i am careful about who i befriend, not to mention i live in an entirely different country. idk. this last part may have been a dm, honestly, i just felt like sharing it with you, bc dissonance between our experiences is on my mind a lot.

tldr, im trying my best to be an ally to jewish people and im asking your advice

Dear Zina,

"can you please tell me, what to avoid while criticising the israeli government?"

If what you're saying sounds like a desparagement of all Jews rather than certain idviduals you're doing it wrong. The moment you imply people are cruel or doing harm because they're Jewish or Israeli, you fucked up.

But sure go off how the Likud silences hostages when they talk about their rapes but say the real rape is them not being able continue the war.

Talk about how Ben-Gvir finds Muslim call to prayer upsetting and hires police to harass Mosques and claim it's for "safety" and that the calls "drown out the bomb siren" but never imply it's because Jews are evil and hate Muslims or that's it illegal for Muslims to pray in Israel (it's currently not, but Ben-Gvir wishes he could change that)

"also, what sources you would deem generally trustworthy? bc ive seen you name a bunch of institutions, not all of them that obvious, as untrustworthy, so i want to know, who you consider to usually have it correct/true to facts/etc."

that's hard as all media either has a pro-Israel bias and sometimes softens the things they do or more usually an anti-Israel bias and exxagerates it to stoke antisemitism. Al-Jazeera and the grey zone and mint media exist for this sole purpose. Avoid them. Know that Haaretz and JPost are biased in the other direction. As for the rest plug that into Media bias

Media bias is your friend

"bc reading your posts i sometimes feel like we live in different realities (in some sense we do, i guess, since im a goy), but from people around me, who identify with pro palestine movement, ive seen genuine interest in learning from different sources and understanding all the nuance, elections in usa not changing anything."

So first off you're a gentile and really really miss a lot of Dogwhistles. secondly I debunk terminally online slactivists who wish to join Hamas but can't even go the polls, you are friends with people with lives and actual activism. Your friends and my enemies simply aren't the same

"but my social circle may be a bubble, since i am careful about who i befriend" yeah see you might be activist Georg who is the outlier since you don't befriend abusive people and so you just don't hang out with antisemites

"i live in an entirely different country" you live in POLAND. one of the more nationalistic, xenophobic and antisemitic countries. You are lucky not to be Russian like myself but I know how your countries treated and continues to treat immigrants and Jews. Your friend group sounds great but beware of the substrates of your culture seeping in.

"bc dissonance between our experiences is on my mind a lot" you do know this is just my online experience and most of my friends IRL who do care about Palestine are very reasonable people? it's just very dangerous to be a jew with any degree of fame online right now

please write again,

Cecil

[woomycritiques543]

Um... I was on Youtube and I just saw this cursed af image of Moxxie in an upcoming ep. ..WTF is going on??

TW: NOT SAFE FOR LIFE MENTION!

Ok, already answered this, but:

The stans harassed me real hard for this one. One even called drag queens "F&&GOTS!" and said that the laws I literally said were genocide were "GOOD LAWS!" because some of them, are just that desperate for Helluva Boss softcore porn that they'd let stereotypes of androgynous people being stereotyped as "A DANGER TO CHILDREN!" be released to the public, in the middle of a harsh political climate from people using the exact stereotype Vivziepop put into this episode to justify a potiential minority genocide.

Multiple fans either supported the ant-trans laws, are homophobic, or called me saying that trans lives don't deserve to die for being trans "MAKING ME LOSE BRAINCELLS! SO STUPID!"

So even something as universal as:

"Hey Spindlehorse, this is an episode that contains stereotypes that are currently being used against the lgbt+ community to encourage a genocide happening in Florida right now towards androygnous people, transgender people, and drag queens and transphobes have been trying to make lgbt+, as a whole, look like "a danger to/around kids!" to try to justify getting us harassed, abused, along with killed and to use the public's fear of what they dont understand to vote more transphobes into office. transphobes! So maybe, actually care about your representation of minorities instead of shoving in stereotypes for 4chan views? Especially at a time where we need all the good representation we can get and releasing this episode so soon could cause literal deaths within the lgbt+ community to have an even further chance of happening if there's more public media representing us as "A danger around children." You know... a stereotype being used, right now, to justify a literal genocide against minorities, and conservatives are using these stereotypes to make people paranoid of us and our existence, so Vivienne, maybe consider your timing for the sake of the lgbtqia community, as a whole -and dont release this episode in such a politically hostile climate towards LGBTQ+ known as 2023 and post pone it until things cool down so people don't potientially get killed because more people voted for Desantis because of your content for the love of God, stereotypes are not "just hyperbole!" this is getting serious now at this point what are you doing?!"

Still ended up causing the stans to say shit like this, because they're that hellbent on getting more material of Moxxie being fetishized and mocked for being feminine as rushed out as possible, even to the level of sexualizing him while he's meant to be disguised as a preteen girl, that they'd ignore real life genocide towards minorities and how Vivziepop's episode will 100% effect the votes towards Desantis next year, so these are the exact stereotypes Viv should not be using in this episode, at all, especially this year, as conservatives have been trying to make us look like a "DANGER AROUND CHILDREN!" for decades and to release this episode in a political climiate currently using this exact stereotype to try to justify genocide towards the trans community, if it means that they get to further fetishize feminine men by calling them "FEMBOYS!" and jacking off to more Helluva Boss hentai on 4CHAN and Rule 34, and instead of... I dont know... caring about real people that are suffering right now?!

.... this is the "progressive good faith!" standom Vivziepop told you about... they're definitely not "good faith" that's for sure.

So it's no wonder why there are multiple Vivziepop stans that would ignore or defend something like Vivziepop's transphobic dms or ignore the fact that she supports Blaire White:

THEY ARE TRANSPHOBIC.

PS: Femme Moxxie is not "cursed. Femme Moxxie is still just as valid and cool as macullaine Moxxie. Double PS: The fact that I even heard the words "trans genocide are good laws!" come out of a Helluva Boss stan's mouth, right after Pride Month, RIGHT after Pride Month, shows just how down the shitter this fandom has become.... holy shit...

[lotusarchon]

new year yet same ole you

face it ali, youre such a fuckup it doesnt matter how much you "change". people dont fucking like you, theyll never like you and all these attempts to make them just wont work

didnt you say that yourself :( "the same thing i did to you i did to my friend and now he hates me" like the little crybaby bitch you are

least one saved themselves by calling it quits 💀 wonder how long itll take the others...knowing you it wont be that long huh 🤔

A wise man once said: Aren't you tired Poseidon, it's been ten years how long will this go? We're both hurting from losses so why not leave this here and just go home?

Mariin ...I don't know why you're doing this. It's been so, so unbelievably long. The last conversation we had, I was drunk out of my mind and sad I lost one of my friends. Are you seriously holding onto that and believing you have some influence over me just because I came crying to you because you reminded me of that person?

I don't expect you to forgive me. Your feelings are valid, and I'm not gonna pretend what I did to you and others was okay. You're right to be angry and you're right not to forgive me but come on, isn't this just pointless now?

You're so insistent you want to make my life miserable....but so what? What exactly do you intend to do except spread rumours, pretend to be me, involve innocent people and then bring up old wounds hoping to get a rise out of me?

It's been so long Mariin. So, so long. You keep hanging around, being a nuisance in my anons or dms, and then waiting for drama to start to show your head, like you did last August with Neveah and her crew, and right now. Is it not tiring for you? Do you not take the hint everytime I've blocked you and ignored your attempts?

It's tiring. I'm tired. How long do you intend to keep this up?

You're right that you know me. You're one of the only people that know me better than I know myself, but I know you too. And I know that even if you got what you wanted, you're not gonna be happy. You'll still say my death or something wasn't enough, that I need to burn in hell. For all I know you'd probably pull another stunt and celebrate me not being around. You're never, ever gonna be happy.

You do know I'm gonna disappear from here one day right? Eventually I'm gonna leave LMK, which IS soon because this fandom is the fucking worst, and I'll never be here again, right? I'm gonna find a new interest, make a new account for it, and stay there for a few months or years until. I'm gonna change my name, so no one can recognize me, and live my life anew. I might make new friends there and never look back to any old ones.

Then what. What the fuck are you gonna do then? How the fuck are you gonna find me? Who the fuck are you gonna mention and harass hoping to get them to blame and hate me for it? Who the fuck will you get to bother?

You're wasting your time and mines, dude. It's been too long, this is unnecessary.

Keep being angry, I can't blame nor stop you. But don't expect me to pay attention and care anymore.

Its pointless. All of this are pointless. Your words hurt and you're right, I am a fuckup but you know what? At least I know I'm a fuckup. At least I know I've done shit and at least I'm aware of what I've done.

Unlike you. Just get some rest or go to hell, Mariin. Get a hobby or something. Just. Go. Dear god

You yap so fucking much oh my fucking god get a life you dumb, whiny pissy ass bitch your entire birth was a mistake, your hair smells and you're such a red flag any boyfriend you have will leave you for someone else you fucking creep. You're so obsessed with me it's fucking insane am I that attractive to you or do you just get aroused by being a bitch?? Fucking dumbass whore

[umiueno]

katsura uses bun/buns only btw .

i am aware of this now but at the time i genuinely just forgot, but i am sorry for messing up buns pronouns. i also apologize for initially messing up enas, i tried to fix all of those once i realized but i missed an instance where i referred to them as a “her”. i know the harm that can cause and i will be much more careful and double-check when referring to the *original* wtcd cast in the future (which i do not plan on doing anymore)

however i would also like to state that continuously sending asks and messages to fuss at me about the redesigns / rewrite is a bit immature and i hope you all recognize that calling someone (within dms, not from this asker) a horrible person and talking about how you couldnt live with yourself if you were me over accidental misgendering, calling some character design choices ugly, and playful insults of an ancient fangan is just not a very good way to handle criticism. none of this was an attack on someone’s personal character, i did not go out of my way to mention the creators, tag them, or harass them in any way. me thinking a fangan from 4 years ago is bad is not me saying the creators are bad people and that they havent changed

my rewrite is meant to be an expression of the potential wtcd had and how badly i wish it was realized. it was full of fascinating concepts for a story and characters, and i wanted to share my own interpretation and essentially au of a *public project*. i plan on doing the same thing with my favorite fangan ever. i dont know how else i can explain that none of this was a personal insult and i dont understand why it was seen as such

for all of your own health please block the wtcd tag and me. i’m not using the wtcd tags nor posting about the original fangan at all going forward but i do still want to post my own art and i dont want it to somehow end up on your pages if its as upsetting as it seems to be

(edit note: i also went back and added a caption on the post about katsura’s pronouns since i cant edit the original images anymore due to a malfunction with my art program. sorry again!)

[michameinmicha]

Hi Micha,

Re: your post about the two people gifting each other fics for the same pairing continuously - I suppose it's possible the time frame and number of fics might fit another set of fandom friends, but I have a suspicion I'm one half of that. A regular reader nudged this post my way, actually. If so, I'd just like to thank you very much for not naming the fandom, pairing or usernames! It's the kind of ship that leads to us getting harassment on a semi-regular basis anyway (hence the locked posting of fics), and we don't need more of that.

As for the true love thing - we started gifting each other in exchanges because we both realised we've been madly in love with the same character in that fandom since we were children. So FWIW, you're right about the true love, but in the wrong way. :D

Hello! (I saw you sent this last night? (Well where i live it was night) and i wanted to take some time to write a proper answer (although now it got super long sorry))

(Edit: You know what, im putting this under a read more, its not gonna be interesting to most people who aren't the anon anyway lmao)

Im happy to hear from you (and if you wanna chat off-anon feel free to dm me) and just judging from your message i also think you might be right! (Ive seen a handful of pairings mentioned in the notes who might fit but arent the one i talked about, ...i cant explain it but i have a feeling it might be you)

At first when i made the post i didnt expect it to get this big but when it did and some people started to ask or make guesses about the pairing i was curious if anyone would guess right (and really didnt believe it could happen tbh) but then it kept getting bigger and people took it as a challenge and i finally i decided i didnt want to say it anyway. Im glad your little corner of the internet stays calm and nice <3

I hope you dont mind the post, it really touched me to see your works and i just wanted to share that experience and make others feel a bit of this emotion too.

i was too shy to comment on the fics i read (sorry im working on getting better at it) but im hoping you'll read this answer so i want to use this opportunity to say some of my thoughts (I would have liked to send you some friendly anons to say this back then😅 but you didnt have tumblrs linked in your ao3 profiles) i enjoyed reading your stories a lot! I had some really stressful weeks when i came across the pairing tag and even though im not really in the fandom myself (besides enjoying what i knew of the source material years ago) i was happy to find it! it was such a nice little treasure, this collection of stories to read when i was feeling down and they cheered me up a lot! So yeah im sorry to hear you get harrassment for it but i for one am glad you post the fics despite that, because then i could find and appreciate them! (this all sounds very sappy but i mean it!)

Im happy that you two found each other! I gotta say 'true love' to me is just as much platonic as romantic (like, the relationship i have with my best friend isnt anything less than true love to me) but i also think its wonderful that you share that love for your character!

I hope you two are doing great, please tell your friend that i appreciate their work (and yours of course!) And i wish you that you can keep doing this for as long as it makes you happy!

[aidenknow]

Gonna say something before I get busy

With the situation going on with me with allegations such as inappropriate behavior with minors, stalking, harassment etc while also have involvement with the MoA group and Cashew, I have to say something about it especially since it seems like I’m the main problem to it. Though I cannot say much of it at the moment due to the complexity of the drama itself while also have to deal with IRL stuff like university

The main reason why I blocked the callout accounts was for the sake of my mental health and stopping myself from making myself paranoid and bothered going back and forth looking at what I had done, despite it was stopped a few months ago. Wherever you are, yes I am aware of what I had done, just that it really drained me a lot to process this. Most of the decisions were done with advices from others. Talked to my close friends and taking with someone and their advices on the things I dealt with lately. It takes a while for me to calm myself down to a stable state especially when things going on right now is busy for me. When this post is done, that is when I have calmed myself, though there are things in my head that still lingers in me.

Anything involved with Cashew was me fawning over her, mainly because I dont want to hurt her feelings. I was clueless on what is going on other than comforting Cashew, despite the things I comforted her ends up feeding the hate towards her victim. When Cashew said that we (me and the people in the MoA group) manipulated and enabled her, I was furious by it while she also provided screenshots of the MoA creators tracing the art from other artists (note that they only traced the poses, while also had a different understanding what tracing were in their definition) despite the fact it was from months ago. Plus, the issue regarding the “traced” art was brought up before to me by Fortress. Fortress did not brought the issue up directly to the MoA creators but instead at other people who are newly acquainted with them, one of which was me. I felt violated and I was shaken by it because its not something I was not supposed to deal with. People say they wanted to settle in DMs. If so, why are you settle with someone who is not responsible with that particular issues? Why did you bring up about the tracing issues as if its a big deal if the MoA creators already stop doing it since February?

The fact that someone attempted to call the police on me is too far, in my opinion. Thankfully it never happened since I lived from a different country. But even when they did called on me, that would’ve considered as doxxing. They probably aren’t aware that the country I live in is really lgbtphobic which could’ve got me into physical punishments and my family is pretty conservative. Additionally, I would’ve been discarded from uni if they tried to attempt it which make it difficult. Though, it is more likely it would not work since my country have laws that are possibly different to the laws in the US, and most of the situation happens online and not IRL.

To those who stayed, I am grateful for it and I wanted to thank to those who reassured me due to the situation going on while being at my side. Though I apologize if those issues I shared regarding the situation I dealt with bothered you, along with those people who also got into the mess similar to me. For the people who stayed neutral with the situation, I’m glad that people make the decision to analyze the situation going on and pointed out certain points that does not add up, or when something is missing.

I’ll be only lurking here liking and reblogging some art here. Art stuff will be posted less frequently and it’s mostly going to be doodles and possibly some art stuff I did for uni. Social interaction will be only done within my remaining online friends (mainly those from the MoA group and people who were in the server(s) I’m formerly in) on Discord, unless I decided to reconnect with the people I rarely talked to. Adding on, I’ll also be interacting with my IRL friends on Twitter and Instagram since those are the only social medias that they are active roaming around the most and I wanted to (re)connect with them esp since I’m in uni now.

I’m planning to do a response to the Cashew doc if I have time, since I already talked to the writer of the doc and it was already settled on the decisions before the acc itself deactivated, but the doc itself is still up. Once I made the response, I will also share the post my friend made regarding it too

Anyways, I’ll see you around.

[heyharoldsboo]

Hey babes, let's talk

As someone who has been

A. sexually assaulted

And

B. falsely accused of sexual assault

I feel somewhat confident I can give some insight on the Percy situation...

Now I have a firm philosophy that stems from my experience and that philosophy is... BELIEVE THE VICTIM BUT NOT WITHOUT PROOF, SOLID IRREFUTABLE PROOF.

So let's get into my philosophy and backstory:

#1. Believing the victim

So...back in school, I and three other people came forward with stories about how a student (18) had been harassing the three of us (this douche even had the audacity to grope me in the middle of class). Me and one other person in our trio were under 18...and what did our school do? Nothing, they did nothing. Not even when the guy admitted to it! The three of us victims were forbidden from even talking about it! Not to mention after that he made our lives a living hell. So yes believe the victims...

#2. But not without solid proof.

With this story also taking place during school this one takes a little longer to break down. Starting back just before second wave of the pandemic so back in the late fall/early winter 2020, met a nice enough guy(for the sake of this lets call him Rich NOT HIS REAL NAME DONT WORRY), he came on a little strong but hey he was cute...so why not. Starting as friends, we would dm each other until...I saw major red flags, he was moving way too fast so, I tried to steer us back to the friend angle...didn't work, so I did the sensible thing, I blocked him. Fast forward a month or so and he's dating my friend, not wanting her to go into this unprepared I give her a little warning...that ended up screwing me over because just before we went back online they broke up, not a big deal...at the time. So a few months into online school (think early/mid spring 2021) I get a dm from my ex (not Rich) saying Rich had accused me of r/pe...this was bad for Rich for 4 reasons

The first accusation was of me assaulting him at my house. (The dick hadn't ever been to my house)

The second one he said I assaulted him in the school field during lunch (??? Also I was working in the cafeteria on the day in question)

He's at least 6' and stronger than me (a 5'2" female who hates violent interactions and can barely throw a punch. At this point his story is so full of holes it's starting to look like Swiss cheese)

My mom is gonna raise hell (she did, she got the police involved because my school wouldn't take it seriously. Once again my school ladies and gentlemen👏)

Anyway my point here is like with the Percy situation most of this took place online which is why I stand with my motto

Believe the victim...but not without solid proof. Take everything that happens online with a grain of salt and don't just jump to conclusions.

Hey lovely! First of all, I'm so sorry about what was done to you. Thank you for trusting me with your story.

I agree with you. I have a friend who was accused of SA, and in the end it all turned out to be a lie made out of revange wishes. So I'm a firm believer of believe the victim, but also be serious and think about the story that is being told. If the story is weird, check things out.

And please, please, do as dear anon did: go to the police! social media can't do shit for you. get a legal exam done if needed, get your proof. don't use it in social media, because it may not be able to be used in court if done so.

[kimulokml]

Longer Introduction!

{I'm the rain that understands that it will fall,

The rain that can't come to resemble any person,

But I want to know the feelings that trouble the rest of the world}

(Lyrics from "Watashi wa Ame" by inabakumori)

So I decided to make a longer intro for more details.

NOTE THAT THIS POST IS PRONE TO UPDATES!!

(More details below the keep reading, don't wanna clog up anyone's tls!)

Basic Info

Nicknames: Kimulo, JJ, 3

Age: Minor

Socials: Kimulo56 (Discord), kimulokml (Twitter and Tumblr)

Pronouns: he/she, although they/them is ok

Strawpage: https://kimulokml.straw.page

Birthday: 13th July

Extra:

May possibly have ADHD and Moral OCD

I live in Ireland, use that to calculate my timezone bc i have no idea how timezones work.

I may also have trust issues thanks to previous online experiences.

Might be aromantic? I'm not sure about this so.

suspecting i may be genderfluid.

may occasionally vaguepost, usually if i see people not caring about life-threatening circumstances

Ask to tag! This means if I've missed out on any cw/tw tags, lmk! (i may refuse to tag certain things, like life-saving fundraisers or important resources. this more applies to art/writing)

Tag List:

[ #luminou daze ] for stuff relating to Luminou Daze, an OC lore story

[ #kims art ] or [ #kimulo's art ] for any of my art

[ #kims doodles ] for doodles

[ #riftbreaker ] for anything in general relating to my OC lore

[ #bored as hell ] for things i do on impulse

[ #reblog chain boi ] for tag + reblog things

[ #normal reblog ] for posts I reblog because i like the contents

[ #funny reblog ] for comedic reposts

[ #negative vent ] or [#vent] for venting

[ #vagueposting ] for vagueposting. ill try to avoid doing it, but i tend to get scared with 1-on-1 confrontations and... yeah. if you want me to take it down, contact me CALMLY.

[ #kimulo's opinions ] for opinions and debates (if youre only following my acc for my art or stories, please mute this tag!)

[ #opinions in polls ] for polls

[ #strawpage chaos ] for strawpage things

CHARACTER TAG LIST: here

DNI List:

General DNI stuff, BUT I am fine with adults interacting with me as long as they aren't 18+ only accounts.

If you use ANY kind of generative AI frequently (chat gpt, art bots, c.ai or anything similar). There is a difference between generative AI (stealing) and analytical AI (actually helpful and doesn't steal).

If you support Axie/soopersouper on twt (groomer, p3d0) or Haley of ha1touch studios (p3d0, groomer, transphobe). DO NOT HARRASS THEM, just block them, and if you share any circles with them, please report them!

Think abstaining from voting in 2024's election was the way to go/or you voted red. If you did do one of these things but now realise it wasn't the way to go, I'm fine with that, and this doesn't apply to you.

Fandom List:

PRIMARY: {What I am most inclined to post about}

Kirby

Vocaloid

Splatoon

YDKJ

SECONDARY: {May occasionally post about}

Layton

Ace Attorney

Rayman

Chainsaw Man

BFB/TPOT

Rhythm Heaven

Project SEKAI

No Straight Roads

Scott Pilgrim

PROJECT MILGRAM

TERITARY: {More inclined to discuss in private servers/dms, mainly because of problematic parts}

Happy Tree Friends (poorly stereotyped depictions of ocd, ptsd and did)

Khonjin House (i am aware the og creator is a very bad person (joked about palestine and is attempting to cover it up bad, plus has harassed quite a few people) so i am tempted to make my own designs for the characters and throw them into my lore so i dont have to associate them with the og creator)

CONSIDERING: {May not be part of, but considering getting into}

Dungeons and Dragons

Homestuck (yes i am serious)

OC Permissions:

This will depend on the character, but general rules are

Fanart is welcome! Feel free to ping me for it!

Suggestive stuff is only ok on some characters, DO ASK FOR WHICH CHARACTERS ARE OK TO DRAW SUGGESTIVE STUFF ON!!

No NSFW, I am a minor, plus I don't want to see it in the first place.

Please ask if you're unsure of anything, my attention span isn't great and i only have 7-ish references so far.

That's all for now! {Last updated: 21/1/2025}

[femmefaggot]

what a disgusting and immature response. do you actually have concrete evidence of him being contacted by your stalker? do you have concrete evidence that that was the reason he blocked you? you don’t, but you keep alluding to that being the situation even though you admitted that you don’t actually know if it was because of your stalker. then you were threatening to send him a vile message that got sent to you and threatening to @ him and harass him over why he blocked you. you keep posting about how you sent money to him as if you’re trying to paint him as some manipulative thief who ran off with your money. you put your own personal drama with him on blast and told people to block him (which lessens the amount of exposure he would get if he needed donations again; great job, you’re making it harder for a black person to raise money for necessities/emergencies while your white ass is financially comfortable enough to send money to other people). people do not owe you anything. you are not owed an explanation for why you got blocked. you already said the money isn’t that big of a deal. move the fuck on and stop threatening to harass, twist people’s perception of, and try to socially isolate and endanger a black user because you’re mad you got blocked. you could not possibly be this stupid and ignorant.

can you break your responses up next time if you want me to actually respond. genuinely. cant read this chunk. if I ignore shit its bc we are blurred. but okay god. since you want to keep at it too

long post incoming bc you wanted to send so much in one ask and clearly want to be absolved

but I need you to give concrete evidence that ive been a bigot

we know what our stalker sounds like. you don't have to believe me but I know that he's been contacted by them and baselessly believed accusations of us being racist*

*which again. if they aren't baseless I really want to know.

but believing something an anon sends you without proof on this website seems so weird atp.

i didn't threaten anything. you misread my posts. let me be clearer

he is being messaged by someone who has sent us the**

(in our words, but to quote you too to make it perfectly transparent bc you seem to have trouble reading, as do we. no judgement)

**"vile messages", the post was made to say that we could show how awful this stalker has been to us. the fact that he is listening to them is worrying

(not for us. I don't believe this person could do worse than they have. i am genuinely so genuinely worried about nao. and I am not a sincere person but I mean this. please dm me if you need.

worried that if they become friends and he somehow does something "wrong" theyll behave similarly toward him)

is the money a big deal? no. not to us personally. luckily.

how many times do i have to say that I dont think he's evil. im not blaming him for intentionally doing anything.

but that on principle abandoning someone w no word in general but esp w these circumstances is. odd? uncalled for. etc

we are in a very uniquely fortunate position to be able to donate to people. and have the urge to show affection through purchases.

and he was a part of that!

will not deny that 95% of the money given was offered, and even then the other 5% was likely going to be given anyway.

the only thing he ever sort of asked for was a game, and we were considering buying that for him anyway

i need to reiterate the actual money isn't the point at all, but it is the principle of us doing that and getting dropped with zero communication

but is it rude at best that after genuinely giving someone that, with no expectations, we were not given a chance to talk before he decided to make assumptions (during a heavily blurry and hectic time) about us

(I've said before and I'll say again, because you're conveniently ignoring it

if he needed I would give him more money. the fact that he's been a dick to me doesnt negate his humanity or need to live.

you need to absorb that. he could come to me now asking for money and id give it. so could anyone.)

him being black does not negate the fact that hes being shitty to us, but again use your own judgement and dm if you want

heres his cshapp, this is genuine. hes still human and can use dns, but until i get paid esp i cant justify spending more money

again, if he ever needs I'll send more money. and I'm not in the business of making this a callout, honestly this ask is 10x longer than I wanted but you def want the attention

anyway yeah heres his c$ w the proof of money we (voluntarily again, just sucks to be blocked after this) sent to him

but fr if he makes a dn post dnt let this stop you

and if ur reading this n ever need money or ever wanna fact check the racism allegations we will be here. nothing to hide

despite the vitriol of this post fr if he makes a dn post do contribute and again always send me ur dn posts

not in the business of letting personal shit get in the way of mutual aid

again c$ is $moonvampyre he deserves to live as a person no matter whats going on

I mean this genuinely not as a taunt or a gotcha.

nobody deserves to suffer bc of decisions or lack of able to make decisions or personality or anything.

justice and housing and livable wage for all god fucking bless

[a-rogue-god]

4, 8, 10, 37, 41

4. A character you rarely talk about?

Valiel / Nihilus / and Absinthe I guess. I didn't put a whole lot of character building into any 3 of them besides kinda being side characters to more important ocs stories (Val and Absinthe for Michael, Nihilus for Gabriel) and that's on me. Val is a very lovely angel who is a loyal soldier, and one of Michael's closest friends/confidants. Maybe even lover at rare points idk. Nihilus is another priest in Gabriel's world, either one who trained alongside him or Gabriel trained himself? Friend turned someone who's suspicious of Gabriel. Absinthe is a succubus demon who butts heads with Michael frequently. I have a fun little idea of a 3 team save the world type interaction between Absinthe, Michael, and Mariel, where Mariel kinda helps Michael and Absinthe better get along.

8. Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here!

I dont sadly. I've tried to make oc rp blogs in the past but I get overwhelmed on trying to make the blog look nice and just being shy overall with them. I would love to rp more in private though so. If you're interested dm me or smth idk

10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design?

I think Augustine's design is the most complicated rn. All the frills and ornate designs gold watchers have... god. And ofc I want Augustine to be more flashy compared to other gold watchers, that's just what Augustine gives. Eventually I want to draw a more full body portrait of Augustine but eehhhhh hard

37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human

Victor :)

Victor's species is a species that evolved aside humanity, sharing humanoid traits but obviously different. They feed off of humans, and while their species is unnamed, Victor will allow you to call them a vampire since that's the closest analog to them that humans have come up with. They are not a vampire. Victor has lived for about 300 years but is not immortal. Their species hails from Siberia so they are white and have point coloration on their extremities. They are also all intersex, each member of the species able to get pregnant or get others pregnant. But it's usually a dominance thing when it comes to breeding where more submissive members of the tribe are the ones to carry young. Their species can vocalize like humans can, and in fact is how they lure human prey to their deaths, mimicking human voices calling for help. Victor was different though and actually learned how to speak and learned about humanity. They still ofc need to eat human prey so they gave themselves a code to only eat shitty people they meet or people they like tell them about. Lol.

41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

aaaa yes yes 🥺

For Michael someone on my tmc blog drew this of him:

It makes me sad bc they submitted it anonymously so I don't know who did it but it's so good.

I also commissioned my partner (not tagging his blog for now bc he's been targeted by a huge harassment campaign) to draw Michael:

For Gabriel there's a couple drawings from when he was an ihnmaims au oc with a couple other ocs from that server / Ted

I dont remember who did these unfortunatelllyy

And ofc my partner has doodled him a couple times:

Thank you so much for askingggg ;;;;;

[macademia-nut]

I'm not being squishy lol I'm being effective.

Shame breeds resentment. Shame establishes an ingroup and an outgroup, and feeds - rather than attenuates - psychological disorders that thrive off of victimization. Every single anxious mess of a woman out there with BPD and a sexcel a mile long was shamed for her behaviour, probably by someone who loved her but didn't know how to express it, and doubled down.

No, you don't shame them. You keep them in your ingroup, and laugh at the idea. You reject the thought, not the person.

"Lol girl why are you pining for that guy cant you see he's playing with you?" " "Yeah sleeping around is an interesting concept but you know I like, want to enjoy sex" "skill issue" "yeah worrying about the attitudes of mid men is boring Id rather do my hobbies" "imo love makes sex better" "your boss' husband looked at her like shes the best thing hes ever found? dont you want to wait for that? I keep that as my standard tbh" "just do better lol" etc. Similarly how I don't fat shame, I make fun of the choices it takes to be fat. Ocassionally, I give tips disguised as personal stories - "yeah its super annoying to catch yourself snacking when you're just thirsty".

Ultimately it puts them at the crossroads of spending their lives thinking up cope for their choices or not making them, and living like you instead. Because you're a role model by being a happier person who's there for them xoxo

You just have to know how to be dismissive without being hateful, which is actually quite fun when you figure it out (it helps to be athletic due to the physiological effects of such).

With men in my dms, however, this same attitude translates itself to bullying. "You love me? lol yeah ok as if you know what that is you slut" "Youve said that to what, 50 women? its a devalued statement dont you think" "You harass women into looking at your d*ck? thats kinda sad. are you really that insecure?" "wow BIG porn addled coomer energy in the chat rn"

Shame is punishment, and punishment incites rebellion. Weaponize love. Know the benefits of your own choices and become invincible, or end up an angry, petty coper like the rest of them. Ultimately shame comes off as seethe, friendliness does not.

Warning: I do slut shame.

[a-v-j]

They freaking found me

Ok, so remember how i basically moved out from my old house about 3 months ago? I just wish to be forgotten but noooooo.

One ugly face i hoped to not see again till the day of their funeral, showed in front of my doorstep this morning. I DONT KNOW HOW, but FUUUUUUU

They gonna keep showing up now, threat me again with bullshit and demand some money that barely last ME a month, since they know where i am.

I need to accumulate about $500 to move again, the other rents here are more expensive than the one i currently live in

So people please commission me. I know i know i still got a list and is slow with it but i cant stand the idea of them coming back to harass me again, as if the slander they tell about me to my old neighborhood wasnt enough, all while playing victim. URGHHHHhhhh.

I really hate disclosing my real life issue but i really dont have money to do something about it and i don't want to be in debt to rl friends 'cause they are also broke

Update: we're still short on the goal but I guess a good news is that I figured out how i got found. Some snitch from the old neighborhood saw me and tattled like GOSH that's none of their business, man! Im trying to settle some business with them and im trying not to be violent, gotta keep my private life unsullied

Anyways, been on the process of finding a new home from the listing but so far not enough funds yet.

Update: i, uh, landed myself a job and training starts in about a week from now. We'll see where this will take me

Commission details can be found here

Paypal here

For support, my Patreon here(you'll get a glamrock bonnie sticker!)

Pasting rules here for everybody to see(for my page only. I could only pin one post but i have to paste my rules because there are followers who doesn't know these rules)

RULES FOR NEW COMERS

Most especially if it’s a newly-made account and/or empty blogs or obviously recently filled with with likes from my work to not look empty

*Don’t ask me for requests or free drawings, i only do that for my friends(or announced events)

*Make good first impression(dont just compliment me that won’t work)(whether if it’s dm or ask), otherwise you’ll be labeled as troll alt acc and will be blocked after 3 violations(no notices, no warning). Automatic block for those who intentionally violate rules

*Know my work first before trying to befriend me(genuine interest in my work=genuine interest in me)

*Know im not always nice but will try to keep things friendly as much as possible

*It’s ok to make a mistake, but don’t make the same mistake twice

*Take note i occasionally make 18+ skeleton materials so when you happen to bump into one and it’s totally not your cup of tea, know that it’s on you for not reading this pinned post

*I’m very keen in details, so better get names right if you want me to have a good impression on you

*Don’t do “what’s everyone’s reaction to this” “what do you think of my oc” in my Ask box. Ask one to two characters only because like you, i get tired drawing too. Unless the question including multiple characters of mine is answerable with words then ok

*Note that i answer asks in three ways; with words only(occasional old art for visuals), drawings(static or animated) or not answering at all. So in such case i dont answer immediately with words, then your ask might be answered with a drawing(or with a gif if it’s taking longer, no promises) or has been ignored due to technical difficulties that i don’t want to answer it.

*Do not submit to me your oc that isnt even related to my characters, im not gonna be some advertisement ad to showcase your stuff in my blog even if that’s not your intention and im not an art teacher who you be submitting your art to. Im sorry, i just can’t give any genuine opinion on things i didnt make or not interested in(it requires me to think harder than i should and I don’t want that) but im not saying your art is bad or anything

*Jesus, one ask from one person at a time. If curiosity gets the best of ya, compile it in one ask. Youre giving me quite a workout, kid

*If you get blocked, im sorry, but you didnt read the rules

*Do not ask me for my favorite things because my head usually doesnt keep record of what they are, I would try answer my friends of course

*When sending an ask addressed to a character, make sure they are residents of Avjverse. See the full list here**. Asking a character i don't have will result in a block under the belief youre just deliberately doing it on purpose to spite me. So read for your own sake

**note: not everyone in this list are available for Asks

*auto-block for empty ass blogs with default avatar picture for profile pic cuz ur sus. I suggest putting content in your blogs first other wise dont follow me

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