areallysaddog

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i put this above my bed so I never doubt my power

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Can't believe I didn't post this when I made it

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damn, i kinda think my whole life is a lie

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I have to remind myself that he's a fuckin liar every sweet thing he says is also a lie it's so easy to forget and take him at face value

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decided to go to hinge and chat i think it's working i try to copy wulfie and i think it works i have two whole chats going well. a pretty boy offered to take a nap with me and a beautiful woman offered to kiss me to make up for the lack of nye kiss i?? have rizz now??? thanks for letting me use you for practice wulfie <333333

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“my daughter turned out fine” he’s a puppy slut tumblr whore who whines and whimpers like a dog when he’s masturbating and gets off to the feeling of being controlled

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chat, am i a bad person?

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how do i know if im even a real person at all

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bro I am so silly and goofy.

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nighty night wulfie dont be staying up late

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Moody lake

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blegh second night I can recall this happening to me. embarrassing

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what if I was a different person? do I even know who I am now?

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I just love when beautiful boys give me attention god it's so hard to be treated the way I want to be treated but the disgusting way my physical form reacts when im treated that way is just too good to ignore yknow?? tell me how adorable n teeny tiny i am, go aweee you think you're so tough?? tell me how im sooo small and how it'd be so easy to pick me up he just is so easy it's so easy to get him to make me feel the way I want to feel plus it's humiliating in so many different ways. it's humiliating bc I know he's probably screenshotting and sharing and yeah yeah but he knows what i want. he knows what i want without me having to say it and that's the best part because having to say what I want is humiliating and having to ask for someone to treat me a certain way??? idk. that's gross yknow?? everyone treats me the way they are comfortable treating me and he is comfortable in his sexuality or whatever and he's comfortable treating me this way and yknow what thank you. it's nice to remember this feeling and that it's possible to achieve, even if he isn't the best. it's not about him it's about me. it's always about me. I don't care if it's cringe. everything I want is cringe. if I hide away from cringe my whole life I'll be the girl from the show where she's trapped in her sitcom marriage where her life is a joke. I love love love being there for my people but I also just want to not be the bigger person. god for once just let me be as small as I am. thank you. but also not actually. thank me. I'm thanking me. thank me for allowing myself to feel this way. anyways why is this a blog post I'm supposed to be funny. woof

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everyday I say "wow I'm so strong and also have great self esteem" and then boom i am weak and boundless cold

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i want to say that i'm not easy but that's so wrong. one "good boy" and i'm rubbing my thighs together fantasising about getting my back blown out by you. two "good boy"s and my pants are suddenly gone. past three "good boy"s you could use me however you want

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Take me back (Castro Street Fair, San Francisco)

Photographs by Crawford Wayne Barton, courtesy of the GLBT Historical Society