#happy sulphuric saturday

[thayerkerbasy]

darling is such a faggot word. gorgeously flamboyant. I love the feeling of saying it

[thayerkerbasy]

12.15 Deleted Scenes

Thanks to the @spnscripthunt​ team for buying the script for Somewhere Between Heaven and Hell. Apparently the script was too long, so there was a whole bit with Crowley and Dean teaming up to fight off Ramsay’s pups that was cut. (There are Sam and Gwen scenes interspersed with these in the script.)

[crowleysfavouritedemon]

Cain’s back. He’s gone dark, and I need the Blade.

[demonologist-in-denim]

What if in earlier seasons, Crowley was written as an amiable ally for the boys, rather than them disliking him. Imagine Crowley being established as “not as bad as other demons” in the Winchester’s eyes, as a semi-reluctant ally who – yeah, on occasion, puts his own interests first, but never directly threatens and even occasionally helps the boys. He’s still snarky, and he can still be an arse. But the boys know that as long as they don’t cross him, Crowley won’t mess with them. From Crowley’s end, that’s because keeping good relations with the infamous Winchester brothers is to his benefit. But then, they start to grow on him. And maybe he’s a little more lenient with the flannelled nightmares than he should be, a little indulgent, rolls his eyes and does a few favors for them. Which only further encourages the Winchesters, and later a less willing Castiel, to view him as a frenemy.

The rest of the early seasons is the same, except now, moving into season 6, the boys are willingly working with Crowley and Cas. They don’t like the idea of opening up Purgatory, but they understand that Hell and Heaven really do need to be taken in hand – and who else are they going to trust to do that? As things start to look really dark throughout that season, the boys start pushing back, start testing their relationship with both angel and demon, and Cas still betrays all of them and takes the souls for himself. And now there’s season 7, with Crowley working with the boys to stop Cas – Dean wanting to save him from himself, Sam and Crowley unhappily planning to kill the angel – Sam because he doesn’t think Cas can be saved, and Crowley because he wants his share of the Purgatory power. Unleash the Leviathans, and now we’ve got the King of Hell working closely and willingly with the boys to stop this new threat. Demons at their disposal, even. Which doesn’t put Crowley in a very good position in Hell, but he pushes on because it’s this or let the Leviathans eat the world. The Winchesters plus Crowley and a now restored Castiel manage to defeat the Leviathans, just as the demons rise up and dethrone Crowley. Hell is a free-for-all, and demons are loose in the world.

Then have all of season 8 be about demon in-fighting and the human casualties along the way. The boys work to get Crowley back on the throne, so he can restore some order. But that also means he’s temporarily dependent on them, in hiding with them from his former minions. Leads them to the Men of Letters legacy, which in turn leads to the bunker. Bring the British Men of Letters back in seasons earlier, alerted to the awakening of one of their old establishments in the States. Throw Abaddon into the mix, providing a competitor for Crowley laying claim to the throne, which would make him more susceptible to the help offered by the Winchesters, and unfortunately to the supposed support of the BMoL as well. By now, Crowley’s an unofficial member of Team Free Will, the boys well aware he chose saving the world (and them) over giving his full attention to Hell, leading to all this. There’s the sense that the four of them – plus Kevin and Charlie, at this point – are all in it together. Maybe even Meg is still around, maybe she’s trying to lead one of the demonic factions, and there is this whole I-care-about-you-but-we’re-on-opposite-sides between her and Cas. Crowley has softened, the same way Cas softened over time with exposure to humanity and the Winchesters.

Of course the tablets and Kevin came into play with the Leviathans. The BMoL reveal they have the demon tablet, and suggest Kevin might be able to find something on it to control demonkind and restore Hell. Big dramatic reveal to the Winchesters only, the BMoL admit that there is a means of closing the Gates of Hell permanently on the tablet – learned from a previous prophet whom, ahem, did not survive their duty – and now the Winchesters are torn between sparing the world from demons and betraying Crowley. Crowley, who is counting on them to help him get his throne back. Crowley who has begrudgingly and then more willingly worked cases with them while they’ve tried to find an answer to all of this. Crowley who led them to the MoL and the bunker in the first place. Who isn’t as bad as the rest of his kind, who Dean likes to go for a drink with and might even consider a friend. And just as the Winchesters decide they can find another way to close the Gates, Kevin discovers the necessary spell, and the BMoLs take advantage that there is a demon close at hand, and snatch Crowley to perform the demon trials.

And by the time the Winchesters race to his rescue – torn, because ending the trial means not closing the Gates, but damn it, he’s had their backs, so they’re going to have his – Crowley is in the last hour of the cure. Tells them to let it happen, let the trial be complete, the Gates slammed shut. His own soul restored. But there’s that whole thing with Metatron and Cas and the angels going on, so of course this is the moment the angels are cast out of Heaven. And Abaddon bursts in, maybe Meg comes to challenge her. And in all the chaos, the cure is never completed, time’s up, too late. The boys defeat the BMoLs, rescue Crowley, escape. Cas is lost somewhere in the world, human after what happened in Heaven.

Season 9 would be almost completely the same – Crowley’s blood addiction, searching for the Mark and the Blade, Abaddon, the angels, all of it – except, the Winchesters actually sympathize with Crowley. They express concern, ask after him, say maybe having regained something of his soul is a good thing. And Crowley is torn, because he can now really feel that affection he has for the boys, and he might very well have the option of a place among them, but also he knows Hell needs a ruler to keep demonkind in line, and he still likes power. The boys help him overthrow Abaddon, help him get clean of his blood addiction. Maybe there’s a scene where Crowley and Meg compare notes – he who went through the cure, and she who cares for an angel, neither of whom really fit with demonkind anymore. And by the time the season reaches the later episodes, with Crowley back on the throne and the boys working cases while trying to figure out what to do about Metatron, Crowley is an acknowledged, secret extension of Team Free Will. Makes changes to Hell, keeps demonkind under tight control, helps here and there on cases.

All of this, all of this headcanon, just to get to the point where the boys are always making side comments to Crowley about, you know, how if he wanted to give up Hell and join the three of them full time, he’d be welcome. Come on, just work one more case with us. Just this one about hellhounds. Just that one with vampires. Just one more, one more, one more. And Crowley acquiesces more than he knows he should. Cares about the boys and Cas more than he knows he should, hates Hell and demons more than he knows he should.

So that by the time the Mark takes Dean and turns him into a demon, it’s not only Sam and Cas that are hurt by it. It’s Crowley, too. Crowley who sees Dean turning into something truly evil, something worse than Crowley himself is now. And he agrees with Sam and Cas that he’ll take demon!Dean under his wing as his second-in-command in Hell until they find a cure, a cure for the Mark as much as for being a demon. Season 10 is all about Cas (who’s grace is fading) and Sam working to find a cure while working cases, and Crowley trying to keep Dean occupied with hunting down rebel demons and the like. He even sends the Knight of Hell after angels, to capture more grace for the fading Castiel. Throw Rowena – as Fergus’ ex-wife – in there, attempting to convince Crowley to share his throne with her, causing mischief. He would feel this deep sense of loneliness – demon!Dean isn’t the companion he was before the Mark, Rowena only wants power for herself ultimately, demonkind hates and is in open rebellion against him – and Crowley is beginning to admit to himself that he just doesn’t have this in him anymore, to be the kind of monster it takes to rule Hell. Maybe Dean even tries to take the throne from him, with Rowena’s help, and the acceptance by the demons of this alternative ruler is everything Crowley needs to finally break from old loyalties and the desire to rule, from demonkind entirely.

Realizing the situation is entirely out of control, Crowley, Cas and Sam work to capture Dean. They convince Rowena, who has now taken the throne of Hell for herself, to remove the Mark, thus removing a threat to her reign. Crowley makes an oath that if she will do this, he will never seek to retake the throne. An enraged demon!Dean is forced through the demon trials, in which he says the most horrible and hurtful things to Sam and Cas. And to Crowley, cuttingly demanding to know why the former king will put Dean through this, restore the hunter’s humanity, but not his own. Crowley doesn’t have an answer. He doesn’t have an answer because he realizes that, once, he would have said it was important he hold Hell, or that he wanted the power that came with being a demon, or that he was scared of facing what he’s done as a demon. In light of everything that has happened – the complete rejection by demonkind and the loss of Hell, the revulsion he feels after the aborted cure and Dean’s own time as a demon, and knowing he has a place here on Team Free Will – Crowley realizes he no longer has a reason not to complete the cure.

And in the last hour of the cure, with Dean almost entirely restored to himself, the hunter understands the demon better than ever before. Tells him, one of these days, it’s going to be Crowley in this chair, the cure coursing through him, the three of them gathered around him, supportive. And Crowley knows he’s right. It’s no longer a question of if – only when.

Once they’ve completed the demon cure, the boys set about removing the Mark, with Rowena’s help. And removing the Mark unleashes the Darkness in the world. In season 11, the Darkness should have been something much more insidious, and dangerous. A force which slithers into people, bolsters the innate darkness that is in everyone, turning people into their worst selves. And it controls demons utterly. They are mostly formed of the Darkness, after all.

And for Crowley and the cure, “when” is now. It is that, or fear turning on the people who used to teasingly ensnare him in “just one more case,” who would embrace him as one of them if only he’d allow it. And now, he’s finally ready for that.

[houndsharkk]

SULPHERIC SATURDAY IS A THING??? WHY DIDNT YALL TELL ME

anyways, crowley appreciation :]

he's worth five pigs, at least <3

[thayerkerbasy]

#they were so alike #and they cared about each other in their own damaged way #that's why if anyone could have saved Crowley #it would have been Dean#crowley deserved better (via @demonologist-in-denim​)

"You are the only person who has ever looked at the ruins of my soul and hasn't flinched" is gold tier ship dynamic but "I have seen you in your whole fucked up glory, and I have seen that you are just like me" is SO good too

[crowleybigbang]

Not to mix fandoms, but:

Authors can still sign up here. Artists sign up in May.

What’s the Crowley Big Bang? Check it out here!

[thayerkerbasy]

Sulphuric Saturday

is on hiatus this week (at least here on my blog) because between work and back to school and fostering a feral kitten, I haven’t even had time to think about what to post. Sorry to all three people who actually look forward to Sulphuric Saturday. The usual “whatever I felt like reblogging” will appear on my blog today, and our regularly scheduled barrage of Crowley will return next Saturday.

[crowleysfavouritedemon]

Let me guess. Bringing it to your wee pal, the Winchester boy. You’d give that to the one person who can harness its power against you. He’s a threat to you!

rule number 1: no one talks about his bestie 

[thayerkerbasy]

The same exact show you’ve been watching, but with a dog.

Writers!! Describe your current WIP(s) in the most boring way possible. I want to see this skdjfkdfhk

[demonologist-in-denim]

After encountering a situation with the Winchesters that shocks Crowley to his core – coming facing to face with his pre-cure demonic self or a more-human version of himself who has always been family, or maybe something which temporarily fully restores his soul or nearly causes him to revert to his old pre-cure self – Dean comes to check on him.

“Hey, man. You good?”

“If,” Crowley mutters after a moment, “I’m being honest with myself – no. No, I’m not.” He glances up at Dean, hesitantly. “I think…I need help.”

Dean’s confusion gives way to understanding. He swallows, and nods. “Yeah, okay.” And then, with conviction. “Okay.”

---

Imagine if Crowley had come to a point where he could have admitted to himself and then say aloud to someone – mostly likely Dean – that he needed help. He must have known, at some point after the cure, that he did. That if he was going to find a way out of this hell of his own making, he would need someone’s help. It would have meant admitting that there was something wrong with him, something wrong with being a demon. That he wasn’t fully in control, that he needed something more than will power and intention to reclaim himself. It would have never happened in canon, but maybe in fanfiction he might one day been able to reach that point.

Needing help, and knowing it’s needed, is one thing. Being able to ask for it is often something entirely different.

[crowleybigbang]

Hiiii

I hope I'm still on time for National Poetry Month. The Crack And The Wound

Wound and cracks are where The light crawls in Shining on a soul Letting it grow, go, fall.

So there’s light and dark And all in between. There’s sides and hearts There’s beats and views.

In a less damaged world I would be able to pick I would happen to be on just one side

But here I am the flaw I am the crack and the wound I am the shattered glass Flecked atop a wall Separating and apart Just a crack and a wound.

Sorry, Nonnie! We completely forgot to reblog this.

Sharing for a much belated National Poetry Month (April).

[thayerkerbasy]

#Crowley discovered he could monologue on and on about winchesters in suits without Cas telling him to shut up#well he did but only as a defensive manoeuvre after Crowley was describing how a well fitted inside seam would help#and Cas nearly rear-ended someone in that crappy truck#and he had to say something to get Crowley off his case (via @elizabethrobertajones)

these being back to back episodes after cas and crowley spend multiple episodes working together -> they literally discussed this

[thayerkerbasy]

A moment of exuberance for Mark A. Sheppard in between scenes on the set of "Leverage." October 30, 2008

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[crowleysfavouritedemon]

Your mum was a prodigy. Funny. Not what I called you.

[demonologist-in-denim]

Dean: What’s your body count?

Crowley: Do you mean sex or murder?