#happy cas day <3

[wayward-sherlock]

ok byler mutuals im done destiel blogging (for now)

[cockworkangels]

cascoded for never replying to my messages and being avoidant to a pathological degree

[bloodydeanwinchester]

oh my god i just love castiel so much. like he literally was sent on a mission from heaven to save a man from hell and instead of just finishing the mission and moving on he fell in love with the man and fell from heaven for him and literally created free will. but also he’s just a cute nerdy lil dude and he was god once and he’s such a bitch and a dad and a best friend and a husband and i just love him so so so much 😭😭😭

[limbel]

SEE THEY'RE HOLDING HANDS DO NOT EVEN WORRY. absolutely nothing else happened. 🙂

[snebulae]

everyone say happy birthday to my girlfriend!!!!!!1

[papermint-airplane]

This is me, just begging for baby's first community label. 🤭

These two couldn't take their eyes off each other the whole time. Suits really are an aphrodisiac!

[jackexmachina]

Sam Winchester Appreciation Week 2023 day 5: LGBT+ Sam // Favorite Sam Relationships Maybe I'm not worth all this. Your mom thought you were. So did Cas. So do I. thanks to @suncaptor and @ghostsam <3

[thezephyrus7]

I wanted to post something for nov.5th so I’m posting this which obviously isn’t done yet

Original painting by Herbert James Draper “The Lamnet of Icarus”

I saw this painting while searching for inspiration on Pinterest and I just had to do it as Cas and Dean

[rouge-fauna]

[some context]

What a lovely thing to wake up to. <3 <3 :) No worries on me feeling like I’m doing something wrong, it was more so an observation and realization that perhaps I need to make sure I’m more explicit about whether I’m looking at things from a certain pov. But yeah you are not the only one, and it’s hard when we watch lore through povs, not helped by the fact that Dream doesn’t have one for 98% of the lore making it easy to be biased against him automatically. But I’ve talked about bias a lot I feel like so probably ought to not jump down that rabbit hole lol. I’m glad you are looking at things from other povs too though and manage to get along with your Dream apologist friend that way. I feel like that is what the dsmp is supposed to be. :)

On the other note, I really appreciate you saying that <3, and if it makes you feel better last week’s backlash actually provided an insight into the sucess for a therapy I’ve been doing relating to trauma and pinning down the past so it doesn’t effect the future, as well as feeling very validating. Like I said before, no one’s ever stood up for me in the past or had my back and it was very healing to have that. (Thank y’all for being my Punz and Techno XD <3) And it also almost leaves me with a sense of pride because for pretty much the first time I handled something like this differently than I would have before. Instead of retreating, I stayed. Instead of rolling over, conceding, taking the blame or not responding, I actually stood up for my self a bit. Instead of keeping it all to myself irl, I actually told people. (All of these things, certainly helped by y’all’s support of course <3). Hell instead of being upset to the point of not being able to think about Tommy ever again, I literally went on to post about him less than a week later lol XD. And that might not seem like a big deal to you, but not so long ago it would have destroyed me. The last time something similar to this happened I cried for hours till my whole body hurt and I had run out of tears. I would have likely deleted the app and not redownloaded it, in fact I’d probably be so hurt and upset I’d give it all up, including the fanfiction I’ve been excitedly working on.

So in a way, while it was painful and shitty, it also brought forth almost a sense of like celebration or pride I guess of how far I’ve come. It rocked my boat but it didn’t flip it over and leave me to drown. And it also was very healing to have support, even from people irl who’s reactions really suprised me… So, I guess as always I recommend if you have the means to go to therapy y’all, even if to just have a qualified objective person help you through life and provide you with strategies and outlooks to navigate relationships and challenges. And don’t be afraid to see a new counselor if the one isn’t helping, whether because of personality just doesn’t fit or they aren’t supporting you in the way you need. (Like I had a counselor once who basically compared my pain to the holocaust like wtf.… but that doesn’t mean all therapy is bad just because she was not particularly great)…..

umm… anyways sorry to ramble and get a little personal, this ended up way longer than I intended (no surprise lol XD) <3 <3 <3

[thigholstercas]

Cas woke up and covered Dean with the new blanket he knitted, "Two years ago, I told you I love you, how good I think you are... I'm still sorry for the pain I caused you, I never thought - "

In between a yawn Dean just says "I love you, too" because that was it wasn't it? The pain is always worthy if it leads here. "Don't do that again tho, I meant it when you came back and I mean it now, don't."

Cas just kisses him in the forehead, "I already have in mind what to give you for our 25th anniversary, I'm not going anywhere".

Dean, in awe, just stares at him not believing how lucky he ended up being, "Good".

[fronwth]

Happy Cas Day!!!

We made Cas cookies to celebrate :D

[bloodydeanwinchester]

4x01 lazarus rising || 1x12 faith

[poptartmochi]

OHHH. rotating in my MIND... my old beloved rp characters who were shelved when i abandoned GaiaOnline can see the light of day again! :]

[gayangelcrimes]

One last moment. One last touch.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 9

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Worked on the previously mentioned tapestry style painting thing for like 5-6 hours today (with a few breaks in between), and that's just for the border around the main picture lol.. I think all the little sections and detail always take longer than I think they might. But hopefully the final product will look interesting! :0

I feel like I'm entering another Sick Phase where I just am weird/ill/sleepy/having joint pains much of the day (probably some vitamin deficiencies or hormone imbalances or general bodily inflammation or whatever nonsense seems to randomly pop up from time to time lol), so couldn't focus on anything more intensive like writing or editing videos, unfortunately. It's good to have smaller crafts I can do that don't take much mental effort and are just menial hand tasks (like carving, painting, sculpting, etc.), but I still always feel frustrated falling behind on the things I see as much more broadly significant to my overall life and potential career (making games, writing, finishing videos, socializing, costumes, etc.)

Organized my desk a little. Responded to some doctor emails. Paid bills.

Planned out something I might make with pressed flowers tomorrow.

Edited like 4 costume photos.

Also have a lingering sense of dread due to the weather. The heat often makes me feel terrible, and if I'm already in kind of a Bad Phase at the moment, I'm afraid of it making it even worse... stimky..

Which I know these temperatures are nothing to some people but.. to me... aUGHHHH... I am abnormally heat sensitive + live in a dinky old apartment with no ventilation that gets direct sun the hottest part of the day.. on a 90F day outside, it literally gets about 84F inside.. like.. even people who love the heat I feel like would struggle to sleep at night if their bed is 85F lol... hewwo.. You can spray yourself down with water, drink ice water, put a fan on yourself, etc. etc. but.. sometimes it just feels so oppressive and inescapable..

ANYWAY. Aside from painting, feeling weird, and dreading the upcoming heat/contemplating my entire life and how to get enough money to move to a different climate somehow one day/existential exhaustion/etc., I didn't accomplish very much lol

Spent maybe 30 minutes thinking about a little more worldbuilding stuff, and some things in reference to the game I mentioned resuming work on at some point.

Notable sights: The clouds were really pretty and pastel this afternoon, and some stars are visible in the sky for once since the nights are beginning to be clearer. The 'forget me not' flowers that I thought had died after transplanting actually seemed to be perked up and healthy looking today, and perhaps may actually survive. >:3

Goals moving forward: Do new poll adventure post. focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with the ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Not much, kind of a warm day so didn't really want to use the oven. No idea how I'll handle the diet I've been put on by my doctors (involves usually cooking all food fresh, using the stove a lot, nothing is supposed to be canned or processed or premade, so that eliminates a lot of 'quick easy simple warm weather' meals, etc. etc.) during the heatwave. I might just have to break the diet a little and hope it doesn't give me stomach pains while I'm already hot and feeling sick lol..

I did have a boiled egg with some green onions on top, which is very simple but was refreshing somehow lol. Another ice cold ginger ale treat today, and some cold prune juice (which I know most people find gross/it's an old person food/etc., but I like that it's a smooth textured and not very sweet juice? Like it's slightly thicker than apple juice, has a lightly bitter taste, etc. I just find it nice for some reason. More evidence I am secretly an 85 year old wizard)

[t4tstarvingdog]

happy cas gay

i’m super dehydrated rn because i’ve been packing a uhaul so rest assured. i will be guzzling and suckling and slurping cas up….