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[mojonder]

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What a joyous day.

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[rawbins-undertale-blog]

How do monsters age? Also how old are the brothers?

~ Sincerely, a very Library Anon ~

Hello! Thanks for the ask, and also sorry for you, my friend, who’s about to have pages of me rambling about my thoughts and headcanons that may or may not be entirely supported by the game for a socially unacceptable amount of time <3

HOW MONSTERS AGE

I’ve actually had multiple different headcanons when it comes to monster age! They all go into three different categories: “all monsters age slower”, “they age the same way (unless they’re a boss monster without a kid)” and “some monsters age like humans, some slower and some quicker depending on species”. But, I now have one that goes into a slightly different category.

Now, I think, “what if their aging is a bit of everything?”

Allow me to explain what I mean.

My first headcanon was that monsters age 10x slower than a human does. Just choose a human age for a character and then tack on a 0 to the end of the number and you’ve got the right age. A part of me still wants to go that route, simply because it’s easier…

… but then, a monster would be a literal child while being 100 years old. It would make it a bit awkward to write about human kids being friends with monster kids lol, ngl. (Also I don’t want to write Sans and Papyrus as being like 250 years old.) Not to mention, it’s a bit boring. So I decided to spice it up a bit, if you will.

Let’s start explaining this by taking a monster with an average mental state who is the most average of species. They’re not suffering from any mental disorders, illnesses, have no trauma or physical ailments and are overall just what you’d call an averagely happy person. There’s nothing special about this monster. They’re literally the most average of average monsters, maybe so average they don’t even actually exist - they are made up by the statistics.

At first, they age quicker than a human does. While they’re what would translate to 5 human years (AKA when they’re 5 monster years), they are actually only 2 human years. At age 10 in monster years, they are 5 in human years. Their aging starts to slow down at 16 monster years, and by the time they’re 25 in monster years, they are also 25 in human years. Then it slows down even more quickly and on a huge scale, so that when they are 50 in monster years, they are about 500 in human years. On average, a normal monster becomes 2000 human years old. (Keep in mind, that this monster is so average they don’t exist - this aging varies a lot between species.)

Now, let’s take another monster of this same statistics-made species who is more happy than the average monster. They’ve experienced many good things, and bad things happening to them are unusual, but not unusual enough to make the happy moments meaningless. They make sure to care of themself and take their own feelings into consideration, they know their own worth. A monster like this may become up to a staggering 4000 human years old with some luck.

Finally, here’s a monster who suffers and just… isn’t happy. They suffer from trauma, have gone through horrible things, overall just not a very good time. They’re very likely to only get to 800 human years or less, if things don’t start looking up for them.

However, these aging mechanics also get more complicated when we get into species of monsters and monsters having children. Gerson, who is a turtle-species, ages about 5x slower than the average monster, which is why he was alive during wartime (though he is near the end of the line now, he’s only maybe 20 years from dying by the end of the game). A whimsun definitely won’t live past 1000 years, even if they’re the happiest whimsun on the planet, because their magic isn’t strong enough to last.

A boss monster (Toriel, Asgore, Asriel) doesn’t age past 30 until they have a child. When/if they have that child, they age at the same speed as the kid does. If the child dies, however, they stop aging again.

Speaking of not aging when their kids die, the same kinda goes for every other monster to a much smaller extent.

A non-boss monster will slow their aging after their kid dies. If they survive losing their kid (because a lot of monsters would dust from the hopelessness they feel after losing somebody so important), their aging slows by about 150%, again depending on the species of the monster.

However, despite their slow aging, monsters are weaker than humans. Too unstable emotions or living in conditions that make the monster feel unsafe may fuck up thair aging, as mentioned previously. To go into more detail about this: the aging process is not messed up by the situation the monster is in - the monster could be in the most horrible position without their aging being affected at all - but it has to do with how their hope is affected.

If a monster loses hope, their aging is affected so it speeds up. If they gain hope, it slows down.

Taking this in mind, let’s talk about the skeleton brothers’ ages!

Let’s start with the Undertale brothers, since they’re the “base” for the ages.

It’s hard to pinpoint exactly what I think their ages are, but I would say that:

At the time the game takes place, Sans is about 24-28 years old in monster years and Papyrus is about 19-23 in monster years. In human years, Sans is about 23 and Papyrus has recently turned 18. This has to do with their experiences in life.

Sans only has 1 HP. Skeleton monsters are among the groups that age more slowly, which ends up with him aging a tiny bit quicker than the ‘average monster’. This HP is mostly brought on by his clinical depression (which is actually very rare to have for a monster).

Papyrus ages slower than the ‘average monster’. He’s full of HoPe and is one of the most compassionate monsters, which says a lot by the way lol. But, we can’t forget that he literally didn’t have any friends, which did deal a huge blow to his self-confidence even if he won’t admit it. He aged just a little quicker than a skeleton monster should, at the time the game takes place (though this does change in my fics and headcanons right away, all he needs is one (1) friend to age as slowly as he should, or well. Slower, actually).

So, now that I’ve put down the base for what the two brothers are, let’s just straight up say: all the AU brothers are the same age in human years and there’s only small differences for the monster ages. Except for in Horrortale, which takes place later than the base game does.

I can’t say how old they are here, though, not exactly, because it would obviously vary depending on how long we wait to see them after the starvation starts, as horrible as that sounds. All my headcanons are off the basis that they were left in the Underground for about five human years after Frisk left, so let’s just go with that. After five years in the Underground, Dusk (Horrortale Sans) is about 38 in monster years and Aster (Horrortale Papyrus) is about 37 (he caught up quickly to his brother, as the things that happened took a bigger toll on him).

I want to mention, however, that all my headcanons for ages are very loose and not entirely my “final decision” on how I think monsters age lol, and they may change in the future. Anyways, this is what I’m going for as of right now! If you want any clarification feel free to ask :-)

[kachulein]

get to know me tag

tagged by: @jjisungg & @happyyoongii thank you💖

rules: tag ten followers you want to get to know better

star sign: Aquarius~

put your playlist on shuffle and list the first four songs:

Stray Kids - Grow Up

TARGET - Awake

Sunmi - Siren

Pentagon - Shine

grab the nearest book. turn to page 23, what is line 17?:

(sorry, the first sentence in line 17 starts on line 16 and the last ends on line 18)

"Cancerians seek close personal relationships and are happiest surrounded by the familiar and those whom they love. Capricorn, Cancer's opposite sign, is the sign of reputation and public standing. Natives of Capricorn are concerned with the image they project, and they search for power and fulfillment in the outside world."

It's a book about astrology because I'm into that.^^

ever has a song or poem written about you?:

Actually, yes. I once had a friend who was a rapper (ngl his songs were pretty good) and he made a love song for me and it was very touching ;-; Sadly, I didn't feel the same for him... he couldn't take my rejection, started insulting me and calling me names and ended up making and spreading a diss track about me over Facebook^^"

what was the last time you played air guitar?:

probably years ago :')

what’s a sound you hate? you love?:

I generally don't like loud noises (except for music), shouting/yelling especially because I'm very sensitive and I tend to cry easily when people next to me shout at each other because it reminds me of my childhood. ;-;

I love birds chirping, crickets chirring, wind rustling through leaves, waves hitting the shore at the beach, generally animals in nature and sounds of nature. All the sounds that are soft and melodic to my ears I guess.

do you believe in ghosts?:

I'm not sure...But I once had a somewhat paranormal experience, so kind of?

do you believe in aliens?:

Tbh I strongly doubt humans, out of all, are the only intelligent species in such a vast universe full of millions of galaxies with other solar systems in it, especially when we don't even know where the universe starts and where it ends. ^^"

do you like the smell of gasoline?:

please no :c

whats the last movie you saw?:

A Star Is Born at the cinema with friends (guys, I sat in between my two friends with tissues and I cried so much ;-;)

what’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?:

On Christmas Eve 2003 when I was 4 years old I fell from the sofa and broke my arm (guess I was on Santa's naughty list that year :c). I had to spend Christmas at the hospital. :')

When I was around 10 years old I got run over by a bicycle on the sidewalk and had a wound on my forehead, one on my elbow, one of my thighs was full of bruises and the other was full of cuts and I had a big and deep wound in my hip region where you could see my muscle tissue. ;-;

On September 9th 2015 we did hurdle race at school and I stumbled over the last one and landed on my foot, resulting in me tearing my ligaments apart. It looked so bad that even the doctor who's specialised on ligaments injuries was shocked and I had to get an MRI scan.

I don't know which of those was the worst :') you can decide~

do you have any obsessions right now?:

music/kpop, singing, dancing, drawing, astrology, writing, reading and Harry Potter^-^

do you tend to hold grudges?:

not really. I'm not even the type to stand up for myself because I can't be mean and I seriously need to practice standing up for myself and getting (rightfully) mad at people if they do me wrong otherwise people will keep taking advantage of me.

in a relationship?:

nope^-^

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[inspirationallyinsane]

July 18 2018

Tumblr :) hi. It is I. I am feeling so good right now. Honestly, you guys don't even know. My life is so wonderful and beautiful atm and I am so appreciative of everything that is going on. Similarly? I'm also appreciative of everything that has happened to me in the past. All the shit that I went through?? Allllllll the shit?? I am genuinely grateful for it. And beyond that I am so grateful to myself that I wrote it, here, and I have it, forever. It's an unreal experience to go back to 2013 and read my posts. It would be impossible for me to remember how truly awful that time was for me without my writing. I read some of the things that I wrote about myself and the people around me and I feel like crying. I hated myself so much. An extraordinary amount. If I ever wrote something positive about myself or something good that had happened to me/I had done, I would immediately follow it up with something incredibly self-deprecating and negative. I don't write or think that way anymore. There was a time in my life where every single good thing was drowned out by twenty bad things and I don't believe I can be a full person when that is happening. It breaks my heart when I see it in other people. Because I was so there and I have long, rambling posts about being there. About the doubt and the questioning and the utter lack of confidence. Posts that identify it to be nothing more than my normalcy. The only existence I had ever experienced. Things are so different for me now. I don't question the words that come out of my mouth or my belief in myself. I was looking through my old photosets and all of the captions were something like "I know I look ugly but I wanted to show this outfit" or "I look bad but the person next to me looks so cute". Something like that. And in reality??? I was cute af!!! Like in a 15/16 year old way like I look young but I slayed!!! And now? I know I look good. I know that I'm cute and fun and interesting. Which is something that is reflected in my prose and my captions and even my hashtags. I think that is really exciting. It's very interesting for me to go back through the 5(!!!!!) years I have been writing and see such huge development. In 2013? Cha girl was a huge mess. By 2015 I was just beginning to become who I am right now. That's when I see it happen. And I don't know why or what caused that growth to start, I'm sure I could find it if I read through everything closely enough, but I am so glad for it. To be able to pinpoint each stage of development and understand why is important. I think that it encourages me to continue to develop and strive to better to myself and to other people. To be excited about the things I am doing and saying and experiencing. That's rad af. I honestly am so hyped for the next five years. And the five years after that. So on and so forth for the rest of time. I'm going to kill it. Life is going to be my bitch. Lowkey it already is. I've been thinking a lot about my lifestyle and the lifestyle I will have in the future. And I've been thinking about the idea of being a multi-millionaire, right? Like that's the goal. CEO of US Bank, ultra successful, ultra rich. But?? I also don't see myself ever needing or even wanting that sort of lavish luxurious lifestyle that often comes with the money. I mean, I'm the happiest I've ever been and also (almost) the poorest I've ever been. Technically, I live below the poverty line, right? But I don't feel like I lack anything in my life. I eat well and I have enough to get everything that I could need. My apartment is kinda a shithole but it's my shithole and I make it work. It's cute. I know, from experience, that money doesn't bring happiness. I lived that lifestyle that is so over the top and unreal. Thousands of dollars in clothes was a casual shopping trip to the mall. Brand name everything. And??? I was miserable. Not directly because of the money, like there was obviously a lot of shit going on but I can confidently say that the shit was no better or worse because of the money. It did nothing for me, for us. Obviously having your needs met is incredibly important, having housing and food and clothing, the basics, is necessary for happiness. I know that too. There was a time in my life where, for almost a full year, I couldn't afford to have my needs met. And I'm glad I experienced that. At the time I genuinely thought I was going to die but I didn't and now I know where the middle ground (?) is for that stuff. I think it is an important experience to understand. I want to be CEO of US Bank because that is what I want to do. Not because it comes with a salary that I want to have. I truly hope for my future self that I remember all of the stuff that I am reading about and thinking about right now and that when I am there, I do everything that I want to do now. It feels so distant to me that it becomes a fantasy and in my fantasy it is easy for me to do the sorts of things I think I'd do. It's easy to say "Oh yea when I'm there? I'd want to give money from my salary back to the company so that people can get more than 5 grand a year for college tuition help". I'd love to give people the opportunity to go to school whenever they want to do that. And I think it would be especially meaningful to do it for my company and my employees. I really like that a lot. I also think college is hella important and learning how to be a lifelong learner is a skill that I would love to emphasize in my company. I would love to be able to present more opportunity for people who are just starting out. "Oh, you're a teller right now but you are interested in marketing??" That's awesome. I'd never want to limit financial aid to certain degrees or interests. Like I know that to get financial aid from US Bank (which is awesome that they offer it at all, honestly), I'd have to major in business or econ. Which I want to anyway because it is personally interesting to me and my career but I'd like to see more diversity in my company, if I were running it. I know, that at least in some ways, when I'm there things will be different. Maybe after I have an MBA or whatever I'll understand more that I can't offer help to creative/arts majors. I don't know. I would like to think that I'll remain a similar person though. That would be cool. Goldman Sachs is replacing their CEO right now. And a lot of people seem to be kinda shitting all over David Solomon (the new CEO) but honestly? I'm really into him being the CEO. He's an interesting guy with a background in investment banking, which is new for Goldman Sachs. Their thing really has been trading and their last CEO had his background in trading. Solomon also has a musical career on the side, which he still pursues. A CEO that moonlights as a DJ. A CEO with an album on Spotify. That is so cool to me. The idea that a person can have a really intense, high power, heavy responsibility job, and also pursue his or her creative interests is exciting. I feel like that is something new. I sometimes will hear people say that my blog or my raps or my pictures that I share with the world will limit my ability to become everything that I want to be but now?? I can look those people in the face and say "see?". Being a passionate, well rounded person is never limiting. It is something to embrace and celebrate. I love it. Also!!! There is a guy running for congress in the 19th district in NY and lowkey??? Kinda in love with him. He's young and cool and interesting and so incredibly intelligent. And he used to be a rapper! Full ass political rapper. It's so cool. That's amazing to me. To be able to express across multiple platforms is a skill I value. His opponent is trying to say that his raps demonstrate that he isn't serious enough or that he isn't refined enough to be a congressman but guess what? His opponent is down in the polls. Dude's gonna take the seat and I'm so excited to see what he does and follow his political career. People are so cool and people are out there doing so many cool things all at the same time. I want to be that person. I'm on my way to being that person. I'm a banker and a rapper and a poet and a writer. I'm an artist who knows a whole lot about finances. It's awesome. I think it's cool. Umm my personal life is good right now too. Zach and I made up which! I know I said all that stuff about my friends but ultimately I can not stay mad at them. I love my friends and I probably always will. It doesn't matter if we are in different places or doing different things, I love them. That's it. I'm really glad that I saw Zach again and things are good. I went to one of his film shoots and I always think it's really beautiful watching Zach make a film. He's a good director and I genuinely believe that with the right team and the right equipment Zach could make something amazing. I've also been kinda seeing this guy? More consistently than the others at least. I go on a lot of dates with a lot of guys and Ben likes to make fun of me for it like "who is the flavor of the week?" But I do think it is important for me to explore different things and different people and at least get to know them. I'm not sleeping with them or tryna be serious with them like it's all very casual and fun and interesting. I'm collecting a lot of stories and characters and building relationships with my community. So. Whatever, Benadryl. I know what I'm doing. But anyway. I've stopped that over the last week or so and have been focusing more on one person which is a lot more comfortable for me. I enjoy that more, I'm ngl. It's been a lot of late nights and long talks and conversation I can appreciate. Focusing energy on developing one thing is very different. It creates a different kind of intimacy with a person. One that I like. Um. So yes. That is good. I think. I'm going to be honest with you rn, Tumblr. I'm scared. And I so badly want to be that fearless bitch that I was in my last post like "What is heartbreak to me?" Like, fuck it, I don't care about anything. I embrace the sadness. But it's a scary thing. It just is and as much as I can appreciate it and say that I do value the beauty in it, I don't wanna feel that way. Ben is leaving and that is enough sadness in my life currently. I'm going to miss tf out of him. The bank is going to be so different. Sad face. Benadryl. Sad face. So the idea of beginning something new and something that I actually give two shits about is extremely daunting. But. Who knows. Life is going to happen whether I want it to or not at this point. Luckily for me, most of the time I want it to. The only thing that has been bothering me recently is my health? I got over the whole throat issue and I can breathe again which is a gd miracle but now I'm having other issues. And I feel like it's something different every week. Like this week? I literally haven't been eating. I can't eat for shit this week. I'm so nauseous all of the time. It's super annoying. Even water or tea makes me feel sick. I believe it is my anxiety because it usually presents itself in that way physically and I also believe I know exactly what I'm feeling anxiety about but! It's still super upsetting. Um and then just other really dumb stuff like my back hurts like a bitch 90% of the time or I'll have these major headaches for weeks straight and even with advil they won't go away. Or I'll have nightmares or I won't sleep. I should be tired right now. I was up until 4:30 in the morning last night and I was up at 7. But I tried to sleep after work and I slept for about 30 minutes and woke up in a full ass panic attack. And then I thought I saw a lady bug crawling on me?? Which I'm not sure if that was real or not but it freaked me tf out. First of all, why would a lady bug be in my apartment? And secondly? That lady bug looked me dead in my eyes as it crawled up my arm and it scared the living shit out of me. Why was I scared of a ladybug? Lord knows. But I certainly was. That lady bug, which likely was not real, was evil I s2g. And that about sums up my relationship with sleep atm. Not good. I want to sleep and I want to be on top of everything and I want to have the real energy that comes from being rested and feeling healthy. I don't know what is going on. It does concern me. So. Ok. I guess that is all for now. Imma go watch Queer Eye because that show gives me so much happiness, y'all don't even know. It is the cutest shit. Every episode I'm like, no way is another one gonna make me want to cry or laugh or whatever and then?? I feel all of those emotions. Incredible. Honestly I'm not a huge fan of reality TV but that one?? Good af. 10/10 would recommend. Also, I don’t have the energy to proofread this, which I usually do, so I’m sure it’s riddled with mistakes. I promise I will fix them later. Sorry :D Goodnight Tumblr, sleep better than I am ;P until next time~