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Homura Akemi as she appears before and during the ending scenes of movie 3.

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反逆の物語 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 by RigeL [pixiv] [twitter]

♡ reprint permission was granted by the artist.

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Do You Know This Anime?

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Euphemia Li Britannia // Code Geass

Garage Kit (1/5) by See knacK

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The world's largest pizza! - Code Geass R2 - Episode 5

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Today's Maid of the Day: Shirley Fenette from CODE GEASS: Hangyaku no Lelouch

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Lelouch Lamperouge ; Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion ☆ MegaHouse

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Lelouch's relentless search for purpose in life

I've previously talked to you about Lelouch's trauma through the enneagram to explain why Lelouch refuses to open up and trust others and insists on doing everything alone to feel self-sufficient and strong. I've also used the enneagram to explain that Lelouch has locked himself into a protective shell and is uncomfortable feeling vulnerable because of his trauma and his upbringing in Darwinian values ​​in Britannia. However, I haven't talked to you directly about one thing that is very important and perhaps because it is so obvious I have overlooked it until I stumbled upon a small thread on Twitter.

In the last conversation Lelouch has with his father, Charles nullifies the meaning and value of his existence by telling him: "But you're dead. You've always been dead, from the moment you were born. Who gave you the fine clothes you wear, a comfortable home, the food you eat, and your own life? I gave you all of that. You are nothing to me because you have never existed." At that moment, Charles kills Lelouch in symbolic terms, causing him enormous psychological and emotional damage from which he never recovers.

We have this flashback in episode 7 of the first season and later Lelouch threatens CC with suicide if she does not let him go to face his sister, Cornelia: "Until I met you, I was dead. A corpse that existed behind a false appearance of life, a life in which I did nothing real. I experienced the emotions of living day to day as if I were a zombie, with the feeling that I was dying little by little. And if I have to go back to that, then I prefer… [And he places his finger on the trigger of the gun]." The series connects those two scenes through a Dutch shot focused on Lelouch's gaze. The Dutch shot is a steep horizontal tilt shot that is used to indicate instability or danger or that something is not right. In this case, it warns us, on a superficial level, that Lelouch has felt dead since his last meeting with his father and that he has been fighting against that (unfounded) belief and these negative feelings and, on a deeper level, that this is a wrong and harmful belief of Lelouch's that has been poisoning his mental health ever since.

(It's sad to compare the two shots. Little Lelouch's eyes show deep pain. As the Bart and Lisa Simpson meme says: it's the exact frame in which his heart broke. Teenage Lelouch's eyes, on the other hand, are empty. A dead look.)

There are several moments in the story that give us an idea of ​​the young prince's struggle. For example, in the first Audio Drama, "The Uninvited Prince," a young Suzaku rescues Lelouch from some children who are beating him and reproaches him for not standing up for himself and disregarding the hospitality his home provides him and his sister, to which the child Lelouch replies, "I am here and I will live. If I live by my own strength, then I will never be dead again." Little Suzaku, of course, finds Lelouch's statement absurd and just thinks he is a strange child. But this response reflects the boy's insane desire to be self-sufficient (to the point of rejecting the help of others) in order to feel that he is alive (remember that Charles told him that he is alive because he has given him everything he has).

We also have a Picture Drama (I'm sorry I don't remember or have the exact number of the PD, but if it's part of the alternate universe, we can ignore it because they are different universes that shouldn't be mixed) with a monologue by a teenage Lelouch: "I've made a vow to use the strength I have to save Nunnally. That will be the proof that I exist in this world."

These words evoke in me a part of Lelouch's song "Back to Zero" (for the fantastic Code Black album in Ashford) in which our hero sings: "Oh! Can you hear me? This fight is how I know I'm alive."

That is, Lelouch tries to prove his father wrong by looking for a purpose to live that reaffirms his existence and, in principle, Lelouch finds it in Zero and the rebellion since they are the means he has to destroy Britannia and create a kind world for Nunnally. And that's why later on he abandons Ashford Academy, the Zero mask and his friends and gives in to depression (in the future, I'll talk about this moment in more depth in another analysis). Then his goals change and his motivations are reconsidered for a series of reasons and events that I won't stop to explain here, but I will point out that I find it interesting and moving how Lelouch goes from clinging to a purpose in life to giving up on it and dying, in order to fulfill his new goals, obtain results and atone for his sins (the magic of a powerful script and a narrative arc, Larry).

Also, all of this explains why Lelouch lost his temper in the season 1 finale when Suzaku yelled at him that his existence was a mistake and that he needed to be wiped off the face of the Earth. Not only did it bring back memories of Vietnam for Lelouch, it was another important person to him who was denying his existence. Suzaku's words hurt him because, as President Snow said in the Hunger Games trilogy, "the people we love the most are the ones who destroy us." I'm not sure if Suzaku knew what Charles told his friend since Lelouch never reveals his secrets to anyone (people around him, including his loved ones, find out on their own), but Suzaku certainly hit a sensitive button that mentally unsettled Lelouch.

Poor Lelouch. He just wanted his existence validated.

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" We are beings that exist outside the conventions of this world. " - L.L.

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Code Geass: Hangyaku no Lelouch; Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion - Episode 25

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Hiii I was wondering if you could do lelouch x sick s/o I haven't seen many x readers with these headcanons so I thought of this idea! I love reading your blog btw!

Aaaw thank you~ I hope you enjoy this

Lelouch Vi Britannia

That day you didn't come to school and Lelouch was worried.

He wasn't sure if anything really serious had happened to you.

Lelouch was afraid that someone would have found out his identity and would have done something to you.

Leading the resistance would not be a risk-free endeavor.

The school day went really restlessly.

As soon as he could he came to check on you.

He would be really relieved if it was just that you were sick.

Lelouch would take really good care of you.

He would have taken care of Nunnaly so this would not be a stranger.

Lelouch would be a surprisingly good cook.

The most important thing would be for you to be okay.

Lelouch would come after school to take care of you whenever he could.

He would also bring you homework at the same time.

Too bad Lelouch wouldn't be able to give you affection when you're sick.

However, he would be there with you.

When you are better Lelouch would give you the love you deserve <3

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Flame&魔女&CLARA DOLLS by Inoriac [pixiv] [twitter]

♡ reprint permission was granted by the artist.

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made this yesterday

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Homulilly pls!

Homulilly (Puella Magi Madoka Magica)

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The Black Angel of the Day is...

Homura Akemi

From Puella Magi Madoka☆Magica series