#halfbakedstoriesbyngoc

[firstimeforeverything]

flash backs

today as i was standing in the exam room observing the retinal specialist do an intrabulbar block injection on a pt with PDR so that he can do a prp on her later; i though to myself what a long way i’ve come. i still remember the first day of 4th grade, when my dad dropped me off at school front entrance. he asked me if i wanted him to walk me to my homeroom. I wanted to show him that im a big girl now, and i dont need him to do that so i said it was alright. As he walked out the door i was really sad, and a tear escaped me. But in no time i forgot all about it b/c i was making new friends. 

I thought about that today b/c in a few months, i will graduate and become a doctor. There are people out there their entrust their vision on me. I would be taking care of my parents visual health; i would be taking care of other ppl’s parents. How time flies, that it seems like not so long ago my dad was still taking me to school. and today im observing some lady getting shot in the eye with a laser. That in a few months i will be writing prescription for ppl’s glasses. 

I proud of all that i’ve accomplished. im greatful to have my parents constant supports. Even to this day, whenever i go home for a break; they still give me monies. Its like they’re afraid i would be starving. i tell them every time, the loans got me covered. but parents will always be parents. annoying at times, but loving unconditionally. 

[lookingformyron]

dads

today i was at charming charlies and next to me was an older gentleman, probably in his early 50s. he’s got a couple necklaces and earrings in his hands as he was giving it to the cashier. behind him was his two daughters. and with a smile on his face, he pulled out his wallet and handed over whatever the amt. it was to pay for those items. 

its the things like these that makes me miss my father. growing up we didn’t have much monies. what whatever he could spare, it was always to buy me and my sister nice things. 

when i was around the 4th or 5th grade, my dad won the lottery for approximately $100. of course it wasn’t a big amount that would change our lives or anything. but at the time it was $100 we didn’t have. he used that $100 to buy me a gold bangle, but that wasn’t enough for me. i wanted one with a bell on it. so that it could make a noise whenever i’m around. (annoying at such a young age, that’s me). in the end my dad have to put in more money for my bangle. lol. how did he put up with me sometimes? i really dont’ know. 

and i was thinking, did i do something to deserve that bracelet? did i make straight As, or did i win an award for something? no, nothing like that. and every time i look at that bangle, i feel like the luckiest person on earth. to have a family that love me. and support me in everything that i do. even in my worst moments, in my hardest times. I know i will be okay, and i remind myself how fortunate i am right at that moment when everything seems to be going to shit. lol. 

kids without parents scattered all over the world, kids with broken homes, kids with abusive parents... this imperfect world. to have parents that love you to me, meant that i probrably saved a country in my past life. I want to change a child’s life when im financially capable. i want to give them the love that every kids should have. I want to show them the love and care that my parents still to this day has shown me. And i urge all of you who are capable of doing so to think about adoptions if that have never crossed your minds. There are millions of kids waiting for a loving home like most of use who was fortunate enough to have one. 

[lookingformyron]

never straight forward.

well off families wants to marries their kids of to secure their empire. it was a business marriage for the two families. but the kids are not the ones to be placed here and there w/o putting off a fight. 

its been a 2 years since his parents passed away. Ron was struggling to keep the company afloat with what was left. all the stock holders are pullling out b/c they can’t trust their investments on a 25 year old something to make their monies grow. He’s only got a few years in the bussiness, still green if you must. But Ron, like his parents is a business genius. he didnt need those ppl who didn’t have faith in him anyways. but having the rumors that he was going to marry his fiance that was set by his parents only did his company good. he was their wish for him to marry her. he didn’t mind every much, not her or getting married. Ron was the type to not be bother by stuff such as love or affections. its not like he had a bad childhood or anything. but that was just the way he is.

He’s met Mr. Le two years ago at this parents funeral. He knew that man is going to be his father in law one day. Ron was okay with it. He was indifferent. Mr. Le helped Ron stayed afloat and rebuilt his empire, he wanted his daughter to live a comfortable life. although Mr. Le was a cold heart business man, he loves and cherishes his daughter above anyone else in the world. April is now 23 years old, and just finished her undegrad. It took her a while, b/c unlike Ron who had to mature quickly, she took her time growing up. If it wasn’t because Mr. Le pressuring her to finish her studies, she would’ve stilled be in school. April doen’st have any plans for the future. One thing she definately didn’t have in her future was getting marry. 

Mr. Le set his daughter down and gave April the news. 

you want me to marry this 27 something man, that i’ve never met? what if he is abusive? what if he treats me like his servant? even worst... what if he was UGLY? -april  he’s not abusive, nor will he treats you like a servant. and base on everyone around him, he seems to be decent looking. top of the crop for my daughter of course -Mr. Le  but why? i LITERALLY JUST graduate. dont you want me to be independent, find a job. -april  you can do all that even if you’re married. this is not debatable. -Mr.Le is the company in trouble? is that why you’re marrying me off? -april  no, the company is fine. I just want to keep my promise to my friends who’s passed away. Ron is fine young man, with only a little bit of my guidance, he was able to run his parents company into sucess. and with every little knowldge of the bussiness. He was mid-way thru med school when his parents passed. He dropped everything and came back. isn’t that admirable? -Mr. Le stop trying to sell him to me. I dont want to get married. -april  i bought the tickets for you, he’s been over seas for the past comple of years. and i think he’ll be over there for a few more years. Im sending you over there to get to know him first. and if when you guys decided to come back, you still dont want to marry him, then we’ll talk then. how does that sound? -Mr. Le  where is ‘over seas.’ you dont love me anymore, you want to ship me off! is that what it is? -april  vietnam -Mr.Le ARE YOU KIDDING ME? you want me to spend a few years in VN. what am i going to do there? -april  you leave tomorrow at 3. we’ll have lunch before you leave. the maid has already prepare your luggage. if you’re  missing anything, you can buy it over there. if you need anything, he’ll take care of it for you. i’ve already told him that you’ll be arriving. he’ll pick you up. -Mr. Le

and like that april was set for VN the next day. Our princess however had different plans for herself. After bidding her father farewell, april was heading to the airport. but she was not going to VN. April decided to be  make something of herself so that she does not have to reply on her family anymore. what what is she going to do with a biology degree? she didn’t exactly planned it through when she graduate. She just decided on a degree needed the least amount of credit to graduate with. and it was biology. why did she take so many science classes? b/c most of her nerdy friends are pre-med. and she was there to hang out. 

She could be a zoologist, a highschool teacher, or continue with her education. med school? -not smart enough  something in the medical field thought, April always wanted to be a doctor. with that, she decided to apply to optometry school. luck was on her side when she got accepted. and like that she went off grid and started optometry school. 

tha day, Ron was at the airport waiting for his ‘fiance’ to arrive. she never showed. Ron check the flight, she never got on. 

i guess she didn’t care for this marriage as much as myself. That’s good, b/c i can’t afford to babysit some little girl right now. -ron 

he was worried that something might happened to her on the way to the airport. the thing about rich children is that they always have to be careful of being kiddnapped for randsom. he’s experienced it a few time as a kid... since then his parents are every careful with the help they hired. Ron was also enlisted in multiple self defense classes. he hired a private detective to see what his ‘fiance’ is up to. as much as april thought she was ‘off grid’. she wasn’t. it only took the PI a few days to find her. after Ron learned that she enrolled in some graduate school in arizona. and will be there for the next four years. that was to the extend of his knowledge. its a win-win situation for the both of them. 

i guess she’s not that spoiled type to sit idle on her princessy throne like the other girls. 

he was impressed with her. he hired to PI to check up on her occasionally, and only to report to him if anything’s changed. after all he can’t let his fiance run loose. he owns his ‘father in law’ that much. he lied to Mr. Le that day that april has arrived safely. and that he need not to worry. April is in good hands. Besides from learning that her name is apirl, Ron has no idea what she looks like. pretty or not, it was none of his business, its not like he’s can reject her b/c she doesn’t look good. But Ron was not superficial like that. (april might be a little bit)

3 years pass --

April is now in her 4th year and is about to graduate. [she gets loans for the school, living on loan money was a bit of an adjustmnet for her. She cant afford all the nice things like before, but those things never matthered much to her. She do miss the good food, which she splurge on once in a while. so life has been okay for april] she’s relocated to el-paso for a rotation. it was just another ordinary day. when her Mr. Le called... 

fk fk fk, i was able to pretend that iwas in VN for the past 3 years via txts and emails. but why does my dad suddenly have the time to call! and in the middle of a sunday as im in the laundry room!! 

hi dad. how are you? -a  im good, where are you? a few days a go, an old friend of mine said he saw you on his business trip to el paso. and i said no way, your’e in vn. or did you make a trip back and not tell your old man? -Mr. Le el paso? bahaha, your friends are getting older by days. im in vn with my fiance like im suppose to! dont worry. -a are you with him right now? it should be 9am over there, he’s home right? let me talk to him -Mr. Le you want to talk to him... urrr... he’s in the shower. how about i tell him to txt you in a little bit -a  i’ll wait, i need to talk to him about some business stuff anwyays. it’ll be too troublesome via txt -Mr. Le 

shit shit shit. wtfff do i do. -April

as luck as it, there was a asian looking man at the time in the laundry mat. 

are you vietnamese? -april  urr yes -ron  thank the lord almighty! brother, help me out. take this call.  its my father. pretend to be my fiance. just do superficial greetings i beg of you -april 

this girl is mental... -ron thought but before he could say no, april has already pushed the phone aginst his ear

i havn’t heard from you in a while is business good? -mr. Le.  urrr. yes, sir -ron  thank you for taking care of apirl, i know she can be a handful. she’s been spoiled by me ever since she was a kid. i hope you can be understanding. -Mr. Le yes -ron okay, i wont bother you both anymore. come visit when you get a chance i miss my girl. and you guys need to get married officially. its not good to live together for too long w/o getting married if you understand. -Mr. Le.  yes. good bye - ron 

omg thank you so much. that was a close call. -april  if you dont mind me asking, where is your fiance? -ron  idk. i’ve never met him. i ran away before i could see what he looks like. and it doesn’t seem like he cared, to tell my father. so im just going to go along with it. i know its hard to understand, and i dont expect you to. -april  you’d be surprise how much i DO understand. -ron 

and that was their first encounter for a every winding road to find ea. other. 

[lookingformyron]

its pretty hard to start your brain up again, after not using it for so long. small steps at a time. its been a while since i’ve written anything... its just so much easier to just have all the thoughts in my head, but the thing bout those thoughts... they dont stay in my head for long.. and before you know it... its gone. goodbye to all the good ideas that never gotten a chance to make ti to real life. 

new year new me...  

[lookingformyron]

secret to hid 2

this is going to be one of my harder mission. our king caught news that the new boyfriend our princess is dating is nothing but a trap from another kingdom. this is really not the first occurance with our princess, its not her fault that she’s so willing to hand out her love and trust to almost everyone and everything. its her charm and also her faults. In the past we could reasons into her and show her prove that they’re using her kindness to infiltrate the kingdom. but not this time, this guy is too good. no loose ends. and she’s in head over heal for him. there’s nothing we can do to show her that sh’e just another one of his project. there’s nothing for us to do... 

thats where i need to come in. i need to make him disappear from her life. for the sake of this kingdom and for her. i love the princess, but it can never be for us. Im just a servant. I know the king values me, and that we grew up together; but i need to know my place. all i can do is to ensure the kingdom is safe. and that the king and my princess is safe and happy. The king’s already order for me to end her highness pathetic excuse of a bf. i’ll just wait for the opportunity. I hope he could at least make her happy during his last day as a breathing human being. 

i waited for them to bid their farewell that night. as he was approaching the parking lot heading home, i knocked him unconscious and put him in the trunk of my car. As i was driving away to pre-set up warehouse, i needed to get a comfession from him first. There’s no hard proof that he’s a spy, I just know in  my heart and i want to at least give him a chance to confess. after all, killing an innocent is nothing really my style.

I got to the warehouse and woke him, dude was a pain in the ass even though he was unconscious. like why the fk is over 200lbs and 6ft tall? unness body mass. after a long ‘talk’ with him, and a little bit of violence, he confessed. [like a little pussy] 

it was nice knowing you asshole. thank you for at least making our princess happy today. sorry you have to go this way, but i really can’t have you marrying our princess and give her a lifetime of unhappiness b/c YOU’RE A FKING SSPY. 

as i was about to end him, our princess pushed me out of the way and a shot missed fired; luckily she wasn’t hurt.  

no, you can’t kill him! -princess  i wont let you! -princess 

why do you always ruin my happiness? every time i find any glimps of happiness with anyone, you have to come in and tell me they’re kill to take over the kingdom, or trying to use me to get the king to do whatever. why do you hate seeing me happy? arn’t your suppose to be my best friend? why do you like to torment me? -princess 

she yelled at me as tears stream down her face. each tears feels like a sharp stab to my chest. i never wwanted to hurt her. but she seriously has the worst taste in men. i would never want to hurt her. but i’d rather she feel sad now, then to let this relationship continue to ruin the rest of her life. i didnt say anything back to her. once again i raised my gun, and pointed at his chest. 

this time however, she jumped between us, and is now in front of him. 

i wont see him again if thats what you want. but i love him. and i can’t let you kill him. if you want to kill him; then you’ll have to kill me first. -princess 

i’ve received orders from the king. we both only wants whats better for you. please move -i calmly asked her 

no- she yelled at me. 

i’ve rarely failed a mission that was given to me. but when the princess is involved, im usually ready for whatever punishment that will handed to me. just like that i knocked him out and warn him to never return to our kingdom. then i escort the  princess home. we were both silence the whole ride home. 

you didn’t kill him? he wasn’t even a trained agent! he was just a planted fk boy by the princess?! i cant think of a reason why he could have lived, after the encounter he had with you. -king

i didn’t say anything. its was my fault anyways for being so careless, and letting the princess find out. 

its my fault. im ready for my punishment.  -k 

our king smiled. and pat me in the back. you really think i wouldnt’ find out that our spoiled little princess was making a scene and being the melodramatic princess that she is interfered with your mission? why do you not tell me things like these? is talking really such a chore to you? -king 

a failed mission is a failed mission. i dont want to make up an excuse for it. -k 

in your lifetime, there are a handful of failed mission. and EVERY SINGLE one of it has the princess name written all over it. yet not once has you ever said anything. -king

i looked at our king in surprise. he knows. he knows everything. 

anyhow, we still have to put on a show. we can’t let ppl know how much i love you compare to everyone else here. you grew up with me and the princess. there’s no one in this kingdom, besides my spoiled little sister, that i love more than you. you know that. it just annoys me so much that you’ve never said you love me back **cute face** -king 

i smiled. i know the king cherishes me. but rules are rules. 

go run around the filed until you’re tired. that’s your punishment. i feel like you need to let out some steam. our princess must have pissed you off on the ride home. -king 

____

how long has be been running? -king  about 7 hrs. -servant  SEVEN HOURS?! how many miles is that -king i think he runs 6mph, so around ~42miles -servant

our king was for some reason furious. he got into his running gear and headed to the track. he started to run along side with K. 

are you trying to kill yourself? stop running and go rest! -king  you told me to run until im tired. im still okay -k  stop running right now; that is an order! -king

K continues to run. 

are you defying me right now? -king you went too easy on me with the punishment. i can’t let the ppl see how easy you are to step all over. im really still okay. i’ve been in worser situation.... 

[lookingformyron]

little restaurant in town

he was just 10 yo when life handed him a little more than any 10yo could handle. loved and cherished by his parents, he was the treasure in their eyes. being the only child, ron was a quiet and timid boy. He was okay with being alone, but he also get along with the other kids. although he’s only 10, he’s got more kindness and genorisity than any human could possiply posses their whole life. 

His parents owns a successful noodle restaurant, they live a pretty comfortable life. Thanks to his mom’s recipe the restaurant picked up the moment it started after his birth. Ron was always around his mom in the kitchen, helping her mixing the the flour for their noodles. Or at least to him, he was helping out. But to his mom, he was a hazard waiting to happen. She love his company regardless. His father takes care of the business aspect of the restaurant and deals with customers. Ron was more like his mom, preferred to be alone most times. 

His happiness didn’t last too long, after his 10th birthday, was the last that he was able to celebrate with his parents. One busy lunch time at the restaurant a customer was complaining about his food and services. Ron remember hearing arguments and screaming in the back, he was scared so he stayed pretty close to his mom. the fight lasted for about 20mins and then the whole restaurant fell into a complete silence. Next thing he remembered was the cops coming and took his father away. His father has hurt a man out of rage. He was at fault b/c he was the first one to struck the man. The judge ruled in the man’s favor. Ron was told he could no longer see his dad until he turns 18. He knew then, his dad must have really hurt that man. he was mad at his dad. why couldn’t his dad just control himself, then non of this would have happened. it was all his father’s fault that his mom grew frail by the days. They sold the restaurant to help with his father’s legal fees. His mom has to run north and south to take care of everything. His mom would have given up her life to help his dad. Regardless of what happened, one thing that will never change is their love for ea. other. Even at just 10yo, ron could see that every clearly. he was once jealous that his parents might love ea. other more than they love him, but his mom assure him that was not the case. It doesn’t matter anymore, his mom can’t see his dad anymore. and she was sad. 

a year or so after his father was taken away, his mom was re-hired by their restaurant to be their cook. W/o his mom’s recipe the business was not doing well, ppl were their for his mom’s bowl of noodles. It was something she would never sale, she wanted to give it to her future daughter in law. However the new owner was ruthless business ppl that treated their employees more like slaves then anything else. his mom was working 12+ hrs a day, with barely enough pay to keep the rent. She grew weaker and weaker day after day. There wasnt much laughter in the house anymore. just two ppl trying their best to survive. a few days before ron’s 11th birthday, his mom sat him down to have the hardest talk of their life. 

She can see that he’s was on the verge of being malnourish. Her son was not like other healthy kids. Ron was always tired and sleepy w/little to no energy to do anything. And she could not afford to send him to school anymore.... She got on her knees and started crying in front of him. She had to give him up so that he could have a better life. she was not capable of taking care of him anymore. She said once he get to the orphanage, there might be better suited parents that might want to adopt him. And he should go with them for a better life. Ron didn’t say anything. He didn’t cry. He did what he was told. he felt like he was a uneccessary baggage that his mom has to carry. it would be easier for her if he wasn’t around. And so he quietly started his new life at the orphanage. 

he celebrated his 11th birthday with a bunch of kids he didnt know. Ron isolated himself now more than ever. Ron was a small orphanage on the outskirt of town. The place was run by sister Kesson, she was a kind nun but with a stern personality. rules are rules and are not ment to be broken. That didn’t bother Ron all that much, he doesn’t do much anyways. He just did as he was told. 

2 years later, Ron is now the oldest kid at the orphanage. Kids comes and goes through the orphanage, but he stayed. There were a few nice couples that wanted to adopt him, but he didn’t wanna go with them. He wasn’t really waiting for his mom to come back either, he didn’t want to be a baggage to her or anyone else. He thought his parents would just toss him away once things gets hard, b/c he was disposable. Plus the orphanage needed him. Sister Kesson was already in her late 60s and she was running the place by herself. She didn’t complain much, or ask for anyone’s help. In a way, they were pretty similar. He liked that he feels peaceful around her but most importantly he felt needed. Ron helps take care of the younger ones, he became way too mature for his age, and he was okay with that. Ron was the older brother to everyone at the orphanage, he was the handy man when things goes broken, and he was the a shoulder everyone could lean on. 

After ron turned 16 he is now old enough to get a part time job. He wanted to go into town, he wanted to see how his mom is doing. But only from afar. What if she doesn’t want to see him, but would she recognize him? maybe he can just be in the background watching her. That would be enough for him. But he also need money to help sister Kesson, the orphanage relies heavily on donation but for the past couple of years it wasn’t sustainable. More ppl are donating to the bigger orphanage so that they could be reconized by the media as humanitarium. The media doens’t really go into the outskirt of town to cover any stories. Sister Kesson agrees to let him get a part time job, as long as his grades doesn’t suffer. 

Ron took the bus and went straight to his parents restaurant. He sat down for a bowl of noodles. His mom still works here... holding back his tears, Ron finished his bowl of noodles, he wanted so badly to see her. But what justification does he have to visit her? Ron doesn’t want to make his mom cry like she did years ago. he decided to start his job hunting... As he was walking out the doors, a flyer caught his eyes. they’re hiring. he applied. 

Ron started working the next day. The pay is minimum wage, there’s regulation now, the owner can’t risk being looked into by the IRS. It only took but 5mins at his new job, to see his mom again. She’s aged, but still as beautiful as ever. he debated if he should walk up to her or not. NO. he already decided to keep his distance. She was focus on her task, not once did she took her eyes off what she was doing. That works out. 

Its been two months, and she didn’t hasn’t notice her son, who comes in and out of the kitchen to bring food out.. It was around 10pm one night, and she was on her way out heading home when the owner asked if she can take the trash out with her before she leaves and lock up. Ron was in the restroom, when he headed out the whole place was dark. They must have thought everyone was gone. He headed to the back door to leave, and saw that his mom as struggling to pull the big bag of trash that was almost her size. Without hesitation, ron reached for the bag to help her. their eyes meet. Instantly her eyes were filled with tears. Hot burning tears. 

He’s failed. Once again, he mad his mom cry. 

‘im sorry’ -he said. 

His mom was confused. What does he have to be sorry for? she was the one abandoning him! 

‘im not here to be a burden. Its just a part time job. But if you dont want to see me, i can quit’ 

A burden?! has he been thinking this all these years? thats whys he left him at the orphanage? more tears roll down her cheeks. and she fell to the ground. her body numbed. her poor son. her ron. all these years he quietly stayed at the orphanage b/c he didn’t want to be her burden. 

‘my son, you are not a burden to him. you never were. i dont think i could have go on w/o knowing that one day we will be reunited. I wasn’t financially capable of taking care of you. And rather than having the states take you away from me, i wanted to put you with Sister Kesson, at least then when i come back for you, even if you are adopted she could tell me which nice couple became your parents. At least then i could find you. you are NOT my burden. you’re the best thing that happened to me and your father.’ 

Hot tears starts to roll down his cheeks now. 

‘then why didn’t you ask me to wait for you to come back. you wanted me to go with other ppl and be their kids. you didn’t want to be my mother anymore. and didn’t want anything to do with me!’ 

as those words come out his mouth, all the years of resentment and sadness could be heard behind those words. no mater now mature and understanding ron is. He was scarred, and its going to take a long time for him forgive his mom. he was mad. and he needed someone to take the anger out on. His mom could see that. she nodded. 

‘yes, be mad at me. as long as you’re healthy. Im okay with it. will you catch me up with your life? we haven’t seen each other for six years.’ 

‘no. do you still want me to quit? if i make you uncomforable 

-work with mom. she’ll get sick. and dies. 

-becomes sucessful, fund the orphanage, buy the resturant, run both places. 

-real interests in writing, and it looks like to can leave the business to his friend (childhood friend at the orphange) to travel and write

-reunite with father. who comes by the resturant to see how its doing. did some reaseach on his son. and understand the story

-business and everything was looking good. but the orphanage was being threaten to be demolish. sister kessson is stressing out and dont know what to do. turns out the land belongs to the gov. which  was sold under the table for some politician personal gain. 

-to save the orphanage ron has to give up his parents restaurant. and join corporate

[lookingformyron]

BOARDS

boards is in about 6 days from today! i’ve gotten this far and im almost there! i need to persist and keep going! i have it in me, i need to put in the work and everything will pay off. anything is achievable as long as you put in the effort! i’ve proven that to be true since the begining of time. and its not going to be any different this time either! i can do it! 

half the battle is work. and i’ve put in! 

FIGHTING! 

[lookingformyron]

secret to hid

base of my dream: 

it was back in the olden days, in a land far away, the king and his wife has just passed away in a tragic accident leaving behind their oldest son and young daughter. their sun who’s still in his young teens must take action fast before the throne will be taken away from him. His 3 uncle and two aunts have been eyeing the throne for some times now, and they might also be responsible for his parents death. 

But what is a young boy who’s still trying to figure out the world to deal with what is happening. they say you never know what you’re capable of until you’re put to the test. this once kind prince, had so much more darkness in him then he realized. he knew immediately that the only ppl he can trust right now are his servant that grew up with him, and his young sister. His sister, the one person who will die to protect. as precious as a gem, and as pure as a drop of dew on an early morning. 

he plotted to kill his 4 auntie and uncle, collect proof that they were in charge of killing his parents and rule the country his father worked so hard for. he asked his servant to take his sister to the back pond where his parents were killed to collect the different gravel at the bottom. he just know there’s going to be something there to proof that his parents death are no accident. And while they’re doing that, he’s going to kill is remaining family members. 

he walked into their meeting as they were plotting how to rule over this kingdom. one of his uncle was called outside to take care of some business. (that one’s going to be spare) and he slowly walked behind them with a knife in his hand, killing each of them with ease. it was too shocking and unexpected for them to react... the kingdom is his. 

after collect the gravel like they were told, this servant, K, took his sister hand and they head back to the palace. (not aware of that our young prince just did). they placed the gravel collected in a safe place and went to meet with our prince. he told them what happened. and they will be the only ppl on the face of this earth to know what happened. his sister was too young to comprehend. but K, who is of the same age as our young prince, understood. and regardless of what happens his roylaty has always been with our prince. 

when they came back to fetch the gravel, it was gone... and the pond was destroyed. the once once to proof his parents death as just as gone as they were...

Prince handed the knife to K to hid, he dont want to ever speak of this matter again. and K understood. He hid it in a safe place inside the palace... 

passforward years later. our prince is now a strong and rightous king the land deserve. just like his father was. this was all thanks to K, who does his dirty work when needed. (which is rarely, but you know to rule a kingdom, you can’t play fair all the time)

<one incident>

K was giving and order to infiltrate an enemy camp to see what their war plans are. (K was captain of the military for the kingdom. along side the king they’ve trained together. but K was always better than our king. however there were never any jealousy from our king, nothing could get in the way of their friendship.) however their enemy this time was much more clever then they’ve ever had to face. they were anticipating the spy and they were ready for it. after putting up a fight K was finally capture by the enemy. which they presented in front of the king a few days later (they had their fun torturing him first)

in front of the king, K was covered in blood. his clothes ripped from what looking like hundreds of whips and beaten. he could barely keep his posture straight when kneeling in front of our king. whom kept his cool, and asked why did they treat his captain like this. they better have a good reason, or the they’re going to feel his rage. the prince from the other kingdom, said they found him around their camp trying to steal their most valueable sword, that they brought along (frameing obvi). the king knew that wasn’t true, but what can he do?

-is that true? -king -silience -K  -IM ASKING YOU IS THAT TRUE? -king 

[K feel to the ground unconscious]

-DOCTORSSSS - our king screamed for 

the prince of the other enemy was in rage when they were totally ignoring the fact that he was standing right here with what was going on. -what are you going to do about this thieve, surely you’re not going to reward him, and nurse him back to health. unless he was carring out and order for you. I better get an answer appropriate, b/c i will never settle until his matter is taken care of -prince

K will be punished what what he’s done. he’s known for having an interest in reare weaponery. Im sure he wasn’t trying to steal it but, perhaps he just want to take a closer look. and it looked like he’s paid for his stupidty with you guys, however, what he did was not right, i’ll lock him up for a few days. no food. -king 

ha! that’s how you take care of business around here? the rumors are right, after the last king, this kingdom is a mess, dealing with things the ways a woman would. i will no accept that punishment. hang him up for 3 nights outside. -prince 

its in the negatives outside. -king 

that’s the point. do it, or i’ll take matters into my own hands. im giving you a chance as a curtousy since i am in your kingdom after all. -prince

at last they hung K outside in the blazzing cold. and the prince was satisfy. he left. that night our king walked out to see how K is holding up. he was still unconsious when they hung him up. stepping closer to K, who is now as blue as ice. his breathing was dangerously low, he was cold to the touch. our king immediately removed his royal robe and placed it on K. protecting him from the cold... 

to be continue. 

[firstimeforeverything]

10pm

as time passes the people that comes and go in your life starts to frequent. and the ones that stick around are the ones that are valuable. but the last time i determined that someone has became a significant part of my life. i was wrong. sure there were time when we were once closed. but as time passes and as other chracterers appears in our lives. relationship changes. and at first i wasn’t okay with that. but i’m slowly learning to be okay with it. i’m slowly learning that its okay to lose people from your life. 

after trying to make things work. after always being the person at the shorter end of the stick. i always felt friendship is not about who’s winning or who’s losing. but more so of who’s important enough for you to just put everything aside and just admit defeat b/c they are more important to you than being right all the time. i still believe that. but the question is who’s worth it. 

a friend that’s been a part of my life since last year was put in the back burner. but this this school year we have gotten a lot closer. he’s like a bigger brother to me. sure he can be mean sometimes. but its easy with him. no drama. no petty arguments. the whole year, he’s been there every step of the way for whatever i need. when i’m stressed. when i need time just to be alone. when i don't understand something. when i’m conflicted about something. i can turn to him. no i’m not interested. not like that. but i just feel so lucky to constantly have so many kind and generous people in my life. 

earlier, i dropped this hand held watch that has some kind of momentum value to me. and he picked it up. the battery fell off. we stood there for a couple of mins for him to piece it together. one of the minutes arm fell off. i would have just walked away. but he took his time. got on the ground to search for that hand. he doesn't even know how significant that watch meant to me. he just did it. b/c that’s the kind of person he is. genuine kindness is hard to come by. and it takes time to discover that about someone. today i saw it in him. 

[firstimeforeverything]

life lesson

when you’re avoiding someone, there are a million reasons why you’re busy. but when you make someone a priority, regardless of the millions things to do; there’s always time for them...

[lookingformyron]

great time to be alive

although i hate the idea of cramming and studying and the anxiety of the exams. for some reasons, i really enjoy the student life. worry free, just studying at coffee shops and trying our best to conquer the next test. 

being able to just lounge around, studying, sipping that cold coffee on a hot summer day is just a great feeling. i’m just glad to be alive and be able to work hard towards the things i want in life. not a lot of people have the choice to choose their career, or a chance at education. and i’m grateful for what i have. just putting it out there. 

[lookingformyron]

screaming for help

i was going for a walk during the night. the fact that its dark and i’m in a pretty bad neighborhood did not register...not yet. then a black car drove passed me followed by a cop. then i heard machines guns going off. i got on the ground hoping they don’t see, hoping that the blanket i have on my back would make me invisible. but the guy from the black car saw me, and next thing i know he was shooting at me. then everything started to become really slow, slow enough for me to duck from the bullets. they were on to me. then he got out of his car and now standing in front of the police office. 

he pointed his guy at the officer. there was a gun by the officer’s feet so i kicked it and it went off on the criminal, straight on the chest. he feel down. i thought i was in the clear but then out of the blue there’s another guy and he was limping towards us. at this time i’m the only one that’s not injured~ 

i grabbed the gun and pointed at the guy that was coming towards us. i told him to stay where he is or ill shoot. but he keep moving towards me. we are not on the street anymore, we’re now inside a building. 5 story and vacant. i see a phone on the wall. and i reached for it. trying to call the cops. but i was so nervous, so instead of 911, i dialed 922. failed. it seems like the cops is not in any danger, i decided to move to the other floors to find a phone. next thing you know, i’m on the 5th floor, thinking i’m safe. i looked for a phone. nothing. i hear foot steeps and now he is in the room with me. i pointed the gun at him. he knew i wouldn't have the guts to shoot him. and he was right. but i if i don’t, we’re all going to be in trouble. so i shot him. 

i didn’t see any blood coming out of his body. ITS  A BEBE GUN!! i’m so fked!! but it doesn’t seem like he noticed that it was a fake gun! he just felt the pain and assumed that he was shot. i looked out the windown and i see a pair of siblings playing in their drive way. i screamed for help, the window was open. i scream as loud as i can but only whispers came out. the window was open, but they can't hear me! finally i was able to let out my voice, “HELPPP” 

and i woke up yelling! 

[firstimeforeverything]

transportation

it seems like they’ve been friends since forever. longer than the both of them can remember exactly when. but they’ve always been together. going to school together having the same friends. two sides of the same coin almost. 

but under the ruler of this princess, who is unreasonable and oppresses her people. many were in fear and rage, they want a fair ruler, they want a time when they can live in peace in their own home. but little did they know, little miss princess had a problem of her own also. but that’s another story. 

one day the two friends, lets call them ray and joy, entered the palace b/c they were chosen to be the princesses new guards. they were introduced to this room, or in better terms this hallway with a multiple doors. these doors leads you to different rooms of the palace so that they would have easy access to the princess if needed. joy the more curious one would of course enter all the doors to explore the place. but there was this one door. it does’t exactly leads to any particular room, but at the same time it lead to all the rooms. all you have to do is go trough the door and think of a place you want to be, doesn’t even have to be a room in the place, and you’ll be there. it was a like an unexpected gift. she showed ray, and besides guarding the princess, they used this door to travel around and help those in needs. go on missions. 

one day the kingdom was under attack the joy needs to be by the princess’s side. so she went to the princess and introduced herself. and next thing you know they were at a big pond. just running away from the intruders. there were these really large fish and so they decided to go fishing. but suddenly one of the fish jumped up and bite the princess!! what to do, first we need to identify the fish! to see if its poisonous or not. turns out it was a red oscar fish, harmless. 

and i woke up.... the dream was more exciting when i was unconscious. and I'm pretty sure i remembered on 1/10th of what it is. but that’s that :D

[firstimeforeverything]

first break!!

finally finished the first quarter of optometry school. did i do so well? lets not talk about that. but next semester i will try even harder than now. there's only going to be an improvement. no excuses. can't believe everything was a success!! this three wks break will help me recharge and prepare for next quarter! 

i've made some friends along the way. and i'm glad to have ppl in my life who knows what i'm going through. i'm just excited in general. i feel like i'm one step closer to where i'm suppose to be in the world. 

i'll end it here world. until nxt time. 

[firstimeforeverything]

survial

today's dream was so epic. i woke up clenching my fists, scared as fk. but did not have the brain to write it down at instant. b/c 12 hrs later, they're just bits and pieces now. but its all that i've got. perhaps one day... it'll be a part of my movie/bool! DREAM ON!

i just dropped off my cousin at his house, he's once again ran away from home or had car trouble. its late, but not too dark out. i walk towards my car , through this familiar alley i must have walked through a million of times. but this evening, something was out of place. odd. there was foot steps behind me. i'm being followed. 

keep your cool , don't let them know you're afraid - i told myself. 

i had to turn around to see, is my imagination running wild again? am i being over paranoid? i turned around. this man was behind me. i smiled politely as i speed up a little bit. for some reasons today, my car seems to be further then it normally is. 

he follows. i ran. he ran. at this point i was full on freaked out. what does he want from me? i'm scared. he caught up and grabbed a hold of me. strangled my arms, i couldn't resist. my phone in my hand but i can't dial!! i'm in full panic mode. why didn't i invest in any self-defense classes? too late to be regretting now. i have to get myself out of this situation. 

i grab hold of whatever i could with my hands and squeeze as hard as i could. his arm. he seems to be in some pain. but i still couldnt win over. Ron stepped out from no where (generic male name) and released me out of his grasp. we ran towards the gate as fast as we could. Ron right behind him trying to slow him down while i escape. i passed the wooden gate and closed it behind me. he doesn't give up. he tried to reach over to unlatch the gate himself. suddenly i have this sharp object in my hand and i'm using it to stab his. he screams in pain but doesn't give up. i'm so scared. he doesnt seem to be behaving like a human anymore. possessed almost. i keep stabbing, blood where everywhere. Ron is pulling him away from the gate but it doesn't seem to be working. 

then BANG a loud noise, Ron loses his grip and fell to the ground. he's been shot! the fking bastard have an accomplice! no one can help me now. i'm afraid of thinking what will happen to me...

i woke up.

[firstimeforeverything]

Got accepted to optometry school!!

Don't screw up this time Ngoc!!