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pepprs · 7 years ago

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me: *literally can't sleep bc im so stressed out abt the lack of rsvps for the launch party for the lit mag i Devote My Entire Life to which is in exactly Four (4) Days*

me: hoe don't do it

me: *AGGRESSIVELY SENDS 38484848855 DMS ABT THE LAUNCH PARTY TO PPL FROM SCHOOL IVE BARELY TALKED TO WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY MELTING INTO THE GROUND BC IM SCARED IM DISTURBING PPL @ 2AM WITH MY ANNOYING ASS, WHICH I AM, STOP LYING TO URSELF JFC*

me: oh my god

#SHOULD I STOP???? I SHOULD STOP #SOMEONE TELL ME TO STOP #lit mag tag #purrs #caps-#SORRY FOR CAPS IM JUST LOSING MY FUCKING MIND #f literally Everybody @ School didn't hate me already for my obnoxious grad speech they Sure hate me now #half of them r @ ocean city for sweek and im. a nobody up @ 2 in the morning #writing INDIVIDUALIZED MESSAGES to every single person on the list. literally sending follow requests to ppl on insta ive never talked 2 b4 #bc i feel bad just dming them w/o a follow. i am So Bad. i hate myself #literally nobody cares as much abt this as i do and now im just being annoying And petty at the same time #but no my overachieving school obsessed ass Had to message like 15 people just now #bc i am Just that annoying n edgy and i need to shut up sobbadlt holy shit #fuck FCK fuck UCK fuck i need to finish getting ready for bed but ive made myself so anxious n upset over this #i still have literally 50 people to go i can't just leave off i'll Die.#if my mentor finds out i was doing this @ 2am she's gonna just.... have 2 arrest me or smth idk im overworking myself and doing way too much #but this is so important to me i know 99% of the ppl im messaging will ignore me or b rude n awkward back n won't even show up #which is honestly fine idc I just #im doing p much all of this on my own and i shouldn't b and its Just A Train Wreck #anyways it's 2:16 am im starving to death and i need to wash my face n get up early to go hiking #i need to stop messaging ppl at Fuck O Clock in the morning w my annoying bs nobody wants to hear lmdhfsjsjjtkf #OK IM DONE RANTING GOODNIGHT #WAIT NO IM NOT ONE KORE THING everything I'm doing rn is even More problematic bc bitch i graduated im not supposed to come back!!!#yet here i am wasting space And time when ppl #r enjoying themselves n Sleeping n partying n shit. and im still hanging on 4 dear life #i could yell abt this for 20 million years honestly i Musr Be Stopped

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