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autisticlee · 12 days ago

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it's ridiculous how many people recommend mindfulness to me

I don't think I need to practice mindfulness when i'm acutely aware of every drop of water that hits my skin in the shower and every sound that exists within hearing distance all at once with the inability to ever turn that awareness off (without it resulting in a severely dissociated state)

#feels like needles are piercing my skin. and I sure do mind it!#had to stop my shower halfway through. couldn't deal with the sensory overload 😭#autistic #autism #sensory processing disorder #sensory overload #im aware of everything at all times. i need to be less mindful of sensory input and feelings!#im always one wrong sensation/thought/feeling away from an autistic meltdown. i cant be anymore “mindful” than this #my mind is FULL. full of too much of everything! i need to be practice more mindLESS. mindEMPTY 😭😭😭😭#except when dissociating which seems to happen more often than not 😭#lee rambles #so many times i talk about being stressed or something and people respond TRY MINDFULNESS and #why do you want me to try being even more aware of the things tbat are causing me stress and overwhelm? 😭😭😭😭😭😭#like people tell me to meditate with adhd. thats not gonna work. ill stim my way out of it and not realize i stopped hours ago

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