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[ppeachesss]

Marla Singer

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[toshitophchan]

Roddacember Day 21 | Quest

“You know, I think it’s done Leo good, having Mimi in the house...it’s made him relax a bit. He seems more confident, somehow- less worried about doing the wrong thing. And he’s laughing more.”

Moodboards for when you join a team of professional questers because your (second) cousin wants to save her dog and everyone is really gung ho about this expect you, because you’ve spent your whole life doing the right thing- the sensible thing, and now you’re totally out of your element for this whole quest thing, but you’re on it anyway and hey- turns out you’re not too bad at it and this quest is literal but maybe also you’re on a quest of your own development wise and you start to grow into the person you’ve always wanted to be

[artoklasia]

Occlupanid Tags

A running list of the common tags used by this tag project. Artoklasia is a tagging experiment to observe the interplay of tag clouds for particular mature themes.

At the risk of my engineered charm of nuance and mystery, I have decided to add concept clouds to the tags list. Think of these less as strict definitions, and more of a general concept of what to expect from a given tag.

The most common CWs I do my best to tag for: blood, emeto, gore, nihilism, trypo, violence, unsanitary.

In order to guarantee this blog is only visible on PC to people who are 18+ and have opted into seeing Mature Content, I am officially giving my pinned post Labels.

Anointment: rain, oiled surfaces, orthotics, corsetry, posturing; saliromania

Apostasy: emeto, tissue rejection, violent/abrupt excretions

Apotheosis: terato, supernatural creatures, transformation

Asitophilia: pica, unsettling food

Aureole: haloes, fluorescence, crowns, horns

Bathwater: baths, tanks, bodies of water

Censer: respirators, particulates like smoke, smoking

Cephalophoria: headlessness, object heads

Chum for Chums: moodboard collages of a curated theme, chumboxes, clickbait

Devotion: (body) worship, intricate rituals, (religious) conceit

Discipline: BDSM

Elephant chan: the Elephant's Foot

Enkyoku na Seppun / 婉曲な接吻: contact transfer, contaminants; nyotaimori (previously "an indirect kiss")

Filament: fibers, threads, roots, wires, hair, rope

Flux: melt fetish body horror, melting, coagulating

Galatea: agalmato, objectum

Hagiography: conceit of sainthood/martyrdom. figures of interest

Hanahaki: Hanahaki disease; organs filled with foreign matter

Herakleophorbia: oversized things, macro

Kholodets / холодец: cross-sections, resin/gelatin suspensions, anatomical diagrams, dissections, fetish gear under plain clothes

Lace: lace, fishnets, mesh

Laces: corsetry aesthetic, shibari

Latex: vinyl, latex, esp. wetlook

Leaks: mirrors, masks, screens/monitors, reflective surfaces

Leather: only used when I can be mostly confident it isn't latex

Lichinka / личинка: tentacles, tongues, invertebrates, sex organs

Likhoradka / лихорадка: disease, symptoms, infectiousness; nosophilia

Louboutin: contrast-sole aesthetic, hidden linings/coatings

Myxomatosis: leporine, blistered, tumescent

Oblations: paraphernalia *****INDISTINCT TAG*****

Ontology: holes, voids; trypophilia

Optical Disc: distorted visuals, implicit of impaired/altered sensory input

Or the Crown Slips: edging, particular head tilts; symphorophilia, especially the rehearsal ("Chin up, Princess...")

Pachy chan: the corium slags produced by the Fukushima disaster, where three separate reactors melted down

Pearls: pearls, teeth

Raiment: wearables *****INDISTINCT TAG*****

Rapture: the "O"; erotic nihilism

Therapy: parasites, (bad) medicine; trypophilia, formicophilia

Thriai: apiaries, honey curation, telling of the bees

Unction: sploshing/gunge/WAM; more messy/sloppy than anointment tag, though there's overlap

Underfoot: foot fetishism, footwear, corium slag

Satin: silk, satin

Saturnine: afterglow, necro, decomposition

Second Skin: wearables fetishism; second skin

Shuba / шуба: fur, velvet, velour, suede, moss, mold, matte textured surfaces

Stimulating: looping stim gifs

Surfeit: swelling, excess, tumescence; expansion

Synecdoche: setting porn, warning signs, environmental storytelling. abandoned places, urbex, exclusion zones

Syzygy: concentrism, convergence, overlay

Tryasovitsy / трясовицы: contagiousness, transcendentalism

Vagusblogging: appetites, (sensory) gluttony, compulsive behaviors; feederism

Vessels: containers, rooms, dishes; (clothes) stuffing

Wetware: clinical apathy, cybernetics, body hacking

Wetware Softhack: drug use, nerve tweaking, cybernetic malfunctions (historically I've also had a #Wetware Hack tag, but I've been trying to merge that tag into #Discipline)

With the devotion of an Earl Marshal: symphorophilia, especially the planning (Often blurs with #Or the Crown Slips.) "[He] thought of nothing else but her death, a coronation of wounds he had staged with the devotion of an Earl Marshal."

Wonderbread: (Wonder)bread, adulterated bread, extremely processed food products, hypercapitalist environmental damage

Wormwood: radiochemical symphorophilia, hazardous waste, apocalyptica

wundermöpse: I haven't decided whether to add this one to the mix or not

Functional non-aes tags

Chum for Chums: moodboards in this are made by me

Dimercaprol: my adult art

Fav: personal favs

Mine: content I've uploaded, compiled, and/or myself

Music: music tag

Peak B.A.L.: something of a best-ofs where I'm OP

We Just Don't Know: Catch-all nonsense. I started using it originally for raunchy shitposts, memes, and text posts I wanted to be able to reference again. Trying to use it less often and focus on the abstract for this blog.

In addition to the above, I've done my best to tag as many posts as possible with the contributing artists. If it's a publication like a zine, I try to remember to tag that, too. If you ever feel cheeky and want to help me source anything in my #Needs Source tag, you're lovely.

[h4nagaki]

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[starryevermore]

paradise island: a review

A note before we begin: everything above the cut will be spoiler free and will just be my general feelings about the story as a whole, the writing, and if I’d recommend it. Everything below the cut will include spoilers to explain my feelings about the story.

Rating: 3/5 stars

Visiting the North Shore had been a bizarre and unsettling experience, to say the least, but when they got home after vacation was over, he was going to suggest to Colby that they make a video about it.

Hell, no. Even better. Write a book. Videos melted away after a while, but a book? Books and stories solidified on the conscious mind forever. (91-92)

Overall, I enjoyed this book. I generally enjoy stories like this, but there were a few moments throughout the novel where things just fell a bit flat. 

While I was reading, I made a few notes, the first being that there was a weird juxtaposition between talking about more adult topics (drinking, women, sex, etc.) but in an odd, almost kid-friendly way. Some of the word choices were interesting, such as constant use of “fancy-pants”, “hottie”, “goofball”, “oddball”, and “doofus”, as well as the one moment where Colby said he hated “dicky” people and the moment where Sam said Colby was about to have an “emo-ruption”. (Though I did laugh a lot longer than I should have at “emo-ruption”.) It felt like they were still trying to make the story appropriate for their younger fans by using more kid-friendly language, while also appealing to their older fans by being like “look!! we drink!! and ooh look, we talked about smoking weed 👀🤪”. I wish they would’ve committed to one or the other, because it added an odd sense of disjointedness to the story that could’ve been easily resolved.

The other big thing I made note of was that there was a lot of “tell, not show” throughout. There’s a heavy focus on dialogue to progress the story rather than seeing into the boys’ inner thoughts and using other means to find out information. (I’m not one to talk, though, since I also focus more on dialogue than description.) It sometimes made it difficult to fully get into the story. I struggled with developing a picture of what the Belle Estate looked like, or what the other characters (beside SNC, Nate, and Alex) looked like. In terms of the boys, it seemed very reliant on us knowing who Sam and Colby are and what they’re all about (which is fair, since probably 99.9% of people who bought the book are fans of them but, if they want success outside of their audience, it could’ve been more descriptive in that regard). 

As for the big twist at the end, it was a bit lackluster. I’ll go more in detail on this in the “spoiler section”, but it kind of diminished everything that had happened throughout the story and left me wondering “what was the point?”. 

I was excited when I’d heard that the story was told through both Sam and Colby’s POVs, but, I’ll be honest, I saw little difference between Sam’s chapters than Colby’s chapters. The most difference was the almost stereotypical portrayal of Sam being the logical one while Colby being the emotional one. Aside from that, they were almost indistinguishable from me and I often had to flip back to the start of a chapter to remind myself of who’s head I was in.

Since that was all critical, here’s some things I did like:

I feel like, while the inner monologues were a bit lacking, Gaby did make up for it by making the dialogue between the boys really realistic to them. In this regard, she really nailed the portrayal of them. 

The depiction of the paranormal things was really great. I feel like those parts were the ones I could get most into the story. The way Gaby wrote them was so interesting and pulled me in. I wish there was more of these moments throughout the story, because I think they really showcased who Gaby is as a writer.

The convo where Colby called Sam “Velma” and then Nate asked if Colby was “Fred”? I really enjoyed that because (a) Scooby is my favorite thing in the whole world and (b) I chose Sam and Colby be Velma and Fred in my moodboards a month ago so just a lil fun moment for me.

Just how meta the book was. Like, the quote I included at the top? I laughed for way too long when I read that. 

There was a nice sense of nostalgia throughout, specifically when they brought up their YouTube channel, their Vine days, them being arrested, wining a Teen Choice Award, and Corey and the Shadowman. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, and reminded me of how proud I am for how far they’ve come.

*slight spoiler here* Speaking of being arrested, there was a moment where SNC were contemplating escaping to the beach and they had a conversation if it was worth being arrested again. I really loved that, especially with how much fans joke about them inevitably being arrested again.

This is more for the person who designed the cover, but holy shit?? I loved it so much?? 

I don’t know if I would have picked this book up if it didn’t have Sam and Colby’s name attached to it. I will say, though, I finished the book in one sitting, which is pretty rare for me nowadays, so it was engaging. I think, overall, it was a great story with a great concept but it could’ve been fleshed out more. In some ways, it almost felt like this was a draft rather than a completed novel. 

That being said, for SNC’s first book and Gaby’s first time working with the boys, it exceeded my expectations. If they were to continue writing books together, I imagine it will get better and better as they get more used to each other and potentially open up more so that their characters become a more accurate depiction of them.

Overall, the book’s not something you really need to race out to get. I think, if you have a gift card or there’s some sort of deal or you need to spend a little more to get free shipping, it wouldn’t hurt to pick up Paradise Island. It wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t a great, top-tier novel in my opinion. That being said, if you do pick it up, I think you will enjoy the book.

Spoiler Avenue

The characterization of all four of the boys is a bit 2D. Sam’s logical and wants to keep the peace, Colby’s emotional and more of a wildcard, Nate’s focused on his schoolwork and flexing his vocabulary, and Alex? Well, I couldn’t get a good read on Alex until he sells out SNC at the end of the novel and even then, he didn’t feel so much like his own character, more like someone just present to further the plot.

Speaking of characters, the introduction of Trey was...meh. I wish we could’ve gotten more insight on why Colby was so adamant about not liking Trey and why Nate was so gung ho to ditch their plans to go to the North side of the island for this guy they barely knew. Finding out that Colby didn’t like Trey because he said college was the only way to success was such an odd thing? Like, undoubtedly there’s been many people who would’ve said that, so does Colby also dislike everyone who’s said that or is there a more specific reason he didn’t like Trey? Just...👏🏻 more 👏🏻 inner 👏🏻 thoughts 👏🏻 please 👏🏻 and 👏🏻 thank 👏🏻 you 👏🏻 

@golbrocklovely​ brought this up in her review but Colby’s fixation on the  mermaid statue of a 16-year-old was really odd. It probably wouldn’t have been as odd if Amy was aged up a bit to 18, but as a 16-year-old with the descriptions that were given? Yeah...not the vibe.

I also wasn’t a fan of how so many things plot-wise was just...told to the boys. They could’ve found some newspaper clippings or something, anything to make them put in a little bit of detective work. But for so much information to just be handed to them? It got old, and almost lazy. 

The big twist being that all of the paranormal stuff they’d encountered being a hallucination? God, that was so fucking annoying (though I did go back afterwards from the moment that they first arrived at the Belle Estate—starting as early as page 36—and it felt incredibly obvious knowing now that it was all drugs, so props to Gaby for dropping that many hints early on). To spend so much time making all of this scary shit happen just to turn around and say “HAHA JK THE BOYS WERE JUST TRIPPING BALLS” was such a cop out. It would’ve been more terrifying for it all to be real, make the boys question their beliefs and the reality of there being something out there that they didn’t quite understand. Though, there is something terrifying about not knowing you’ve been drugged and having hallucinated that vividly, but I feel like it didn’t quite fit in with the story. 

Alex betraying the boys? So interesting! This was one of the few things that made sense in terms of them being drugged. But then when he was betrayed when Pauahi (who’s name was misspelled a few different times in the book) escaped? Ugh, amazing. We love instant karma like that. 

Going back to the “tell not show” thing, I wish the sacrifice at the end would’ve been more detailed. For all of the paranormal stuff to be written off as a drug-induced hallucination, I would’ve loved if Gaby had leaned more into the horror of being used in a human sacrifice. There was more of a focus on Colby bargaining for his life, which is fair, but I would’ve loved to see more of the pure terror there.

That being said, the way Trey finally snapped out of it? *chef’s kiss* Loved that shit so much. And I loved the fact that Trey stayed behind in the end. It added a nice eeriness to the story that had been lacking since they debunked the paranormal shit as being hallucinations. 

Again, going back to my overall, thoughts, I enjoyed the book in general. Some things could’ve been fleshed out a bit more to reach its full potential. I wish they leaned more into the paranormal aspect and had more descriptions to balance out all of the dialogue, but other than that, I did enjoy the book and don’t regret buying it. 

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[clockworkmoose]

Oof 2020 recap.

I stepped down from my job in... End of Jan? Early Feb? with the intention of 1. getting away from a crazy employee I was not being paid enough to deal with and was not allowed to fire, 2. Finally had enough savings that I wasn’t a constant ball of insecurity, and I could take 9 months off with no income before I’d start worrying, and 9 months felt like a good time frame to try and be self employed and sell crafts/plushies at conventions.

Because why wouldn’t there be a bunch of conventions to sell things at in 2020???

Not working 50 hour weeks was also supposed to give me time to plan August wedding, and make wedding dress.

March, start sending out wedding invites. Two weeks later, Cuomo shuts down the entire state. *~*Timing~*~

Send out “woops hold that thought” cards.

The fiance had to transition to teaching his classes over zoom, and making youtube videos, which ends up being a 12-hour, 7-day a week time commitment. On the plus there, that was a huge crash course in video editing he finally had a reason to learn. And serendipitously, me had his brother had gotten him a bunch of camera and recording equipment to bully him into doing movie reviews on youtube, so he actually had the stuff he needed to teach online effectively. He takes over half of my craft room immediately after I reorganized and spread things out to make sewing more efficient and organized. Sewing stuff gets re-squished back into the corner. :<

April, i sew so many masks. so so many. i do not like sew mask. ;~;

Etsy sticks more fees on their site! I make a website! Web design has changed a fuckton since ye olden dayes of neopet pet pages! I have no idea what I’m doing; can’t even add a glitter trail following the cursor around! Where is the option for autoplay music in the background! Lame!

Mid June, and no end in sight for, ...y’know, so we cancel August wedding and push our deposit back to 2021. Fiance was really bummed about not getting the specific date so like a week later the venue says we can still show up with a small group and get “official married” outside on the day. I’m not gung-ho for this at all, but James is, so we decide to do that; start scrambling. I make my dress but like. From what was supposed to be the first drape fabric, because fabric store’s still closed. I like it, but idk!

I didn’t think I actually cared super much about wedding details, like I didn’t have a “dream wedding” as a kid or have a moodboard or anything... All I was really hoping for was having family there since I only get to see all the cousins maybe once every 7-10 years, and making my own dress. Since big family gather was obviously not allowed, not even being able to make my dress in the way I saw it in my head was just kinda... disgruntling? I guess? Sad emotions I can’t really put to words, and not strong enough to overrule fiance having strong happy emotions about getting to keep our original wedding date.

New York gathering limit is raised to 25, so my family (6) and his (2) plus us and officiant (3) all get together and yay, officially married on August 1st! Until we get paperwork from NY state, and ha ha funny story, officiant signed the paperwork for August 2. Officiant apologizes, sends in a correction letter, so now we’re officially married on the 2nd, but have a footnote in state records that says *(actually it was Aug. 1).

So like, I’m happy we got married, that’s a happy part of the day, but 1. family wasn’t there, 2. didn’t get to make the dress I was hoping to, 3. we didn’t even get the fucking date we did all this for??? It’s a complicated mix of emotions and I’m finding myself just kinda ignoring the fact we actually got married instead of trying to grapple and force the positive feelings to outweigh the negative. SHRUG EMOJI HAHA. DEALING WITH OUR FEELINGS? SOUNDS SUS.

September, my former job reopens, asks if I want to come back, because the person I trained as my replacement ended up quitting because she didn’t want to come back. Neither do I.

October, they hire a new manager, and I end up going in to train her a few days, and cover for her a few more days, and now I’m on call to help out, because I am a big wimpy pushover and did actually really like my job, and like the new lady taking over and don’t want things to be hard for her.

November, I got glasses! I have discovered that the world should NOT be blurry when it is 10 feet away from you.

I know I struggle without a defined definite schedule and my brain latches on to any possible distraction, so this year has been heck. Mental health-wise, I’m doing much better now that I’m not in daily contact with chaos employee! But productivity and focus-wise? ZIP ZILCH ZERO. It has been a STRUGGLE. I don’t have a distraction free zone because of James doing work-from-home teaching, and I don’t have a defined schedule of social events and work shifts to keep me on task. I kinda feel like my brain has turned into a bunch of smokey fog that’s just kinda swirling around inside my head, and every once in a while I emerge and realize a week has passed and I have not checked my email or talked to another non-husband human being in that time.

Oh, and small schadenfreude update on chaos employee- she didn’t have a job until the state reopened, wasn’t eligible for unemployment during the shutdown apparently, her husband finally got the divorce he’s been pushing for for the past decade, and she had to sell her 5k$ sewing machine to be able to make the monthly payments on it. And when she came in to the store once it reopened, new manager had already been warned that she was banned from the premises.

But before she was chased out, she rambled on about how she thought the government was tracking her phone so she got a new one and didn’t back up any of her contacts, and she was hoping new manager would give her my number again because we’re “””best friends.”””””””  Manager declined to assist.

CHAOS LADY DOESN’T HAVE MY NUMBER OR ADDRESS ANY MORE. :D

[honeylarrie]

Personal moodboard » @siricervin

[deadkins]

Same Oswald anon as before (Loved the moodboards by the way Dead, thanks!), so hello again!

May I request a tarot reading + oracle cards on my general life in my Role-Reversal Paint Spots timeline?

Hey, Oswald! Sorry this took a moment, but let's get to it.

Overall vibes:

The Lovers; Union.

The Lovers represents harmonious union, whether this be friendship or relationship is sort of up to the situation. However, it also represents important choices, life-changing decisions and an overall need to follow your heart, even at the cost of the loss of that union.

How you perceived yourself:

(Dead note: We've got a fiver.)

Page of Wands; Enthusiasm.

The Page of Wands tells me that you were enthusiastic, rebellious and excited to pursue something. It tells me that you were the gung-ho type, that you approached challenge with optimism.

Page of Cups (Reversed); Fear.

The reversed Page of Cups represents a fear or difficulty in connecting with your emotions, an inability to express yourself in a way that is meaningful.

Eight of Swords; Trapped.

The Eight of Swords represents feelings of being trapped, of being powerless or victimized. It represents a need to accept responsibility for your own fate.

Eight of Wands; Change.

The Eight of Bones is a card that advices you embrace inevitable change or transformation. It suggests that maybe you were heading into a hectic period of your life but that it was a heralding of positive change.

Queen of Cups (Reversed); Over-emotional.

The reversed Queen of Cups represents a lack of control over your emotions, drama and sometimes toxicity.

How others perceived you:

(Dead note: Three!)

Knight of Swords; Action.

The Knight of Swords indicates to me that people often saw you as someone who was not afraid to act. You were impulsive at times but you were unafraid to do what needed to be done.

Two of Pentacles (Reversed); Imbalance.

The Pentacles represents that you were too focused on something in your life, that your focus on that person or thing was taking you away from other things.

Seven of Swords; Betrayal.

The Seven of Swords represents that perhaps people thought you were sneaky in some way or that they thought you were doomed to be betrayed.

A source of conflict:

The World (Reversed); Closure.

The World in it's reversed position suggests that you needed closure, that there were loose ends that you couldn't tie up.

A source of joy:

Two of Cups; Partnership.

The Two of Cups represents friendship, partners. It represents a close bond that brought you happiness and that it was mutually beneficial for you and your friend.

Someone you liked:

Two of Wands; Choices.

The Two of Wands indicates to me that this person was good at planning, at making choices and strategizing. It represents that they were likely adventurous and daring.

Someone you disliked:

Nine of Blades; Anxiety.

The Nine of Blades here likely represents someone who brought you anxiety and stress. That you were either frequently worried about them or worried about what they may do.

Annnnd now for your animal oracle.

The Sow; Generosity.

The Sow represents abundance and generosity. It represents someone who gives and gives freely, it represents someone who understands that those who give will also receive. However, the Sow also represents someone who often lacked wisdom.

And for your Moon card.

"Have faith in your dreams."

[exowolf-reactions]

Oh my goodness! Ara! Alice in Wonderland is my favorite book and maybe one of my favorite animated movies! The moodboards were a pleasant surprise! I love them. ♥

Not gonna lie, I love the Alice in Wonderland EXO concept, we need more of this xD I actually wanted the moodboards to be a little trippy styled but… they turned out to be more gunge/dark/mysterious so… but I loved them. I’m glad you liked them! Xo, Ara~

[ku-jotaro]

this fellow ouma lover wants you to do the character thing with ouma with reasons why, spread the love for him dude

You mean this thing right?

looks: somewhat attractive | eh | not really my type | pretty | handsome | beautiful | stud | gorgeous | SWEET LORD MERCY

can you relate to this character on a personal level?: no | not really | somewhat | yes | they are me

would you date/be friends with this character in real life if they were real?: total bros | friends | best friends | date | become their steady boyfriend/ girlfriend | neither | i don’t kno

My summary of why will be under the cut, but that’s only scraping the surface.

My reasons? Holy shit do I have a list. Like first it was his character design that kinda brought me in because he just looked really cute??? And he’s around the same height as I am and it’s so fucking adorable goddamn, as well as his voice, both Japan and English (yes I absolutely loved his English voice). So like Komaeda and Byakuya were my favorite characters before, right? The assholes that ruined everything? Let’s add a third to my trio of shitty faves but this time he’s the best one. And there’s also his issue with lying, which I shouldn’t be proud of admitting, I’m kind of the same way. I’ve been told I act a lot like Ouma, and it’s scary. Just last night I learned that apparently when I was younger, I used to rally up the other kids on the playground and make them do my bidding and if that doesn’t sound like Kokichi, I don’t know what does. Weird leadership skills aside, I see so many negative moodboards of him that hit pretty close and I guess that weird relation is why I like him even more than I already would’ve. Like I honest to god love this man, and I’d do anything for him. Fuck man I’d stab myself for him, he probably wouldn’t want that, but it’s the thought that counts. Call it an unhealthy obsession if you will but he’s probably my only reason I’m still alive. His existence just makes me really happy? And that’s why I’m so damn gung-ho on calling him my husband because everytime I see him I cry legitimate tears of joy like god I want to spoil him so bad and make him feel special it hurts (which sadly leads me to get jealous when I see other people who like him oops). But holy shit I do not believe I have ever felt so strongly about a character in my life.