#grief is ugly and has teeth. death is physical death is inevitable death is decomposing body parts

[lottieurl]

i am VERY sleep deprived and not really sure how to put it into words so bear with me but something about yellowjackets pushing regular human experiences to the extremes and being so unafraid to step into the truly bizarre and unhinged really just resonates with me in some way. it's hard to show the inner experiences on screen and they often feel so much larger and so much weirder than how it looks from the outside. and then there's the way things turn very literal on this show. they wanted to freeze out a member in the pilot and then they reject jackie and she freezes to death. the consequences become so much more lethal but i think for many people they always felt that way internally. and it's this way with like every main character. take like.. even misty for example. yeah you probably didn't prevent your entire team from getting rescued after a plane crash lmao but you may have been bullied and you may have craved validation so much you did things you're embarrassed by or keep a secret. oh you have intrusive thoughts or health anxiety? you might relate to tai's very real fear of her own self, to thinking you can't trust yourself or your body. have you ever been consumed by grief and guilt? well try finding a character more consumed by guilt and grief than shauna