#grief for ts

[dashnite]

Found out today (right now) that my childhood friend had a heart attack in the early morning hours and did not resist. I’m currently on my way to the wake.

He was literally my first crush. He was this blond teen w green eyes and just as awkward as I was so we bonded immediately. He hyperfixated on Sherlock and learned how to play the violin because of him.

My last memory of him is getting wasted in my room and playing the violin for me to sing and doing absolutely terrible. He was a sweet, shy and caring guy and I will feel his loss with all my heart.

I love you, Vinicius. Sorry I wasn’t around in the past few months to remind you of that.

[swiftieinbrazil]

Edit: Taylor's playlists she personally curated for Apple Music + her messages

[baby-girl-aaron-dessner]

The leaks have confirmed that Joe Alwyn NEVER cheated.

For the people who have been accusing Joe of cheating and using that as justification to harass his co-workers - Emma Laird and Alison Oliver - what have you got to say now?

[hyakunana]

No but I’ve never played the game in my life and yet the few scenes I’ve seen of Guardian and Ghost is really wholesome to me? Like I love their relationship?

It’s so beautiful, how much Ghost cares about his Guardian like with that “Guardian… there you are.” Implying that he was still actively searching for them even after he died and was relieved to see them when he did find them 😭 why am I emotional?

I KNOW RIGHT??? Guardian and Ghost relationships is definitely my favorite thing in this game ;u;

[cosmiclove-heavenstruck]

SINCERELY, THE CHAIRMAN OF THE TORTURED POETS DEPARMENT

THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT | A WEB-WEAVE

sources under the cut

Waiting by Caitlyn Siehl / Rolling Stone on Taylor’s Playlist / Taylor Swift at The Eras Tour / No Light, No Light by Florence + The Machine / Dear Reader by Taylor Swift / The Five Stages Of Grief by Lina Pastan / Taylor on her Denial Playlist / Lavender Haze by Taylor Swift / False God by Taylor Swift / The Five Stages Of Grief by Lina Pastan / Taylor on her Anger Playlist / Illicit Affairs by Taylor Swift / The Moment I Knew by Taylor Swift / You’re Losing Me by Taylor Swift / The Stream Of Life by Clarice Lispector / Tolerate It by Taylor Swift / The Glass Essay by Anne Carson / Boyish by Japanese Breakfast / White Oleander by Janet Fitch / The Five Stages Of Grief by Lina Pastan / Taylor on her Bargaining Playlist / Death By A Thousand Cuts by Taylor Swift / The Story Of Us by Taylor Swift / Renegade by The National and Taylor Swift / If This Was A Movie by Taylor Swift / The Five Stages Of Grief by Lina Pastan / Taylor on her Depression Playlist / Bloodsport by Yves Olade / Law Of Holes on Wikipedia / Sylvia Plath / ? / No Light, No Light by Florence + The Machine / Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift / Law Of Holes on Wikipedia / Bigger Than The Whole Sky by Taylor Swift / Hoax by Taylor Swift / Last Kiss by Taylor Swift / The Five Stages Of Grief by Lina Pastan / Taylor on her Acceptance Playlist / Richard Siken in an interview with James Hall / Hits Different by Taylor Swift / @endlessnamelesseternity / Letters From Medea by Salma Deera / There Is No Absolution For The Fallen, Only The Dying by @lostcap / Poetry Collection by Fady Joudah / You’re On Your Own, Kid by Taylor Swift / Clean by Taylor Swift / The One by Taylor Swift / The Bomb by Florence + The Machine / Happiness by Taylor Swift / I Bet You Think About Me by Taylor Swift / The Tortured Poets Department Tracklist

[goldonion]

Find Me Here, with my thick fuckin Skull

the manners in which people leave our lives isn't always clear cut

the manners in which friends can fall apart isn't always hard and fast often times people come into our lives and leave in much the same manner slowly so slowly

much like TS Eliot said "Not with a bang, but with a whimper"

Sometimes we lose things all at once and sometimes we wake up and turn around and wonder

What became of this bridge in the time since i last crossed it? When did the ropes start to fray? The planks have loosened and some are gone making it harder if not impossible to meet you in the middle I cannot follow you on this journey maybe someday there'll be another bridge or a new way forward but for now I've got to let go your nihilistic apathy wounds me- the harder i try to make you see

the light will always be there even when you choose to ignore it look to the light or not, thou that i know doesn't knowest thine, you may doubt the stars are fire and you may doubt truth to be a liar you doubt that your voice matters

what a fickle thing, hope is you must find a way to carry it shield it and nurture it without smothering it

know that i will always love the friendship we had and you will always have been a part of my life but i simply cannot sit idly by while you choose paths that perpetuate harm in the unknown name of fears and unhealed wounds I'm not waiting in the wings any longer so maybe I'll see you when the show is over

[ibetonlosinghuskies]

rip kafka you would’ve loved wlw relationships

he’s actually just me in a past life

[kwistowee]

Darth Teeth will not be returning to thirst trap us again. Happy Birthday, Manny. Go do bigger and better things!

[loganslowdown4]

Incorrect quotes filming (TBD) 👀😁

[feat-taylorswift]

| the tortured poets department

written by - taylor swift & co. published - april 19th 2024

file 1:

i love you, it's ruining my life

file 2:

you don't get to tell me about sad

file 3:

am i allowed to cry?

final file:

old habits die screaming

in the drama of grief, denial, adorned in a protective cloak of disbelief, shielding herself from the harsh truths. then, anger, a tempestuous force, wielding emotional storms, directing ire at the world or even themself. bargaining, a negotiator adorned with desperate pleas and attempts to regain control. then, the brooding depression enters, casting a heavy shadow upon the landscape with its profound sadness. finally, acceptance, a wise woman embodying resilience and the gradual reconciliation with the altered reality, bringing lessened pain upon the land.

[katebeckets]

please Please consider... feelings and thoughts are not facts. they are meant to guide and protect and teach you, and they do their best, but sometimes they get it wrong. we are notoriously unreliable narrators. someone's feelings and experiences are theirs and theirs alone. they have a right to remember and process and respond to those things, but that doesn't mean you take it at face value as The definitive narrative. it's also their responsibility to accept that their experiences can be true even when it directly conflicts with someone else's experiences of the same things. you can take people's feelings and experiences at face value, acknowledge and validate and empathize with them, without accepting it as the truth. Because feelings are so often not true.

[janiedean]

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while I still think that boomer jokes are stupid, that generational humor is stupid in general because we all have issues across the ages and the only thing that never changes is feeling like when you were young things were easier and I generally hold no ill will towards the boomer category outside of making vague fun of some cringy stuff only that category posts on fb

I swear to god doing the very specific kind of retail I'm currently doing which I can't disclose is making me grow a damned resentment for the category in merit to some specific things no one outside that age range does and I just wish they'd fucking stop

[lunar-years]

London Boy into Soon You’ll Get Better into False God is such an insane run I think that’s the most unhinged she’s ever been on a tracklist

[passionfruitmango]

Grief is stupid

[veinsglisten]

The folklore love triangle

as the ultimate folklore girl, I refuse to believe the folklore love triangle is indeed taylor, joe and potential “augustine”, whoever that is…

I’m in denial

I mean taylor has changed how we view her discography over the past few days

but this just subverts my worldview and hits my core

my mind is fucked, my heart is broken

watching some videos of the long pond session gives you so much context now

like how taylor explained betty and james would end up together despite the cheating but “james really put her through it” and the side eye from aaron dessner says it all, as if he knew what she was going through and was empathizing with her

she genuinely believed they could sustain the relationship at that time but now betty is in the denial playlist…

and in another video she emphasized that james was a fool

and a line from it’s time to go: “or that moment again, he’s insisting that friends look at each other like that”

that speaks volume as to what possibly happened…

and hoax

if you don’t count the lakes, hoax is the closing track

and it is just the saddest

“my best laid plan, your sleight of hand”

“sleight of hand”

“you knew it still hurts underneath my scars

from when they pulled me apart

but what you did was just as dark

darling, this was just as hard”

I can’t…

[newromantickristen]

the tortured poets department is for the people that put YEARS into a relationship, ignored red flags, spent many nights anxious about what the future holds, had so much anger, then eventually had to end the relationship, scared they made the wrong decision, and recovered or is trying to recover from it

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as someone who recently ended my 8 year relationship I don’t think i’m going to recover nicely from this album😅🥲