#grateful for you

[positivelypositive]

🌿

send this to someone...

...who needs to know their value in your life.

the one who helps you keep going. the one you're grateful for. the one who's your unpaid therapist. their presence in your life has only made it brighter.

you're amazed by them, everyday and hope you can bring some light to them too ✨

[euesworld]

"I feel you, I love you, I need you, I crave you, I adore you, and I like you all rolled into one. You are my best friend, my lover.. you are where I go to smile, laugh, feel safe.. you are where I go when I feel alone and you are where I go when I need to feel at home. I love you, I do.. with all of my heart and every beat that it has, with every breath that I take.. I love you. There is no greater intimacy than the depth that I feel when you smile, so close to your soul as if we are one.. it's a beautiful thing, love. You are beautiful and I love you deeply.."

I truly adore the time that we share.. there is no better feeling then waking up knowing you exist. You make me so happy knowing that I am not alone in this world, just thank you.. I am so grateful for you - eUë

[mrs-snape5984]

“How can you miss someone, you've never met? 'Cause I need you now, but I don't know you yet…”

“But can you find me soon because I'm in my head? Yeah, I need you now, but I don't know you yet…” (“IDK You Yet” by Alexander 23)

Being devoted to a fictional character for about 21 years can be challenging from time to time. Sure, it’s called “having a comfort character” for reasons, and I can’t deny, that my long lasting love for Severus Snape has given me the much needed comfort and consolation all over those years. He was by my side, whenever I felt the urge to escape from my traumatic reality…and fuck…there was way too much in my life, which made me flee to Severus. Don’t worry, I won’t mention all these experiences in this text (I’ve already done this in one of my other pathetically whiny posts).

But there’s another issue, that comes with the adoration for a fictional character…something torturous, heart-wrenching and devastatingly painful: It’s the piteous longing for someone, who will never be mine in real life….a goddamn feeling, which is eating me alive! Of course, I’m still coping with my current situation of being doomed to a life in darkness (fuck you, ME/CFS!!!!!) by writing my own ridiculously self-inserting fan fictions about Sevy and Jules…only for myself…solely to soothe my troubled heart. Furthermore, the many artists of Snapedom might know me as someone, who’s requesting immensely personal artworks for my blog…always using them to emphasise my journal entries here.

But there are times, when this isn’t enough anymore! I’m surrounded by Severus in my dark room… one could say, that I’m living in my private Snape-and-Wizarding-World-in-general-Museum. 😅 Everything here feels like my very own comfort blanket, which I’m pulling tighter around my trembling body to create a sensation of warmth and safety. And yet… yeah… and yet, I’m fucking lonely! Lying in darkness and solitude all day makes this cruel longing for Severus become agonising and almost unbearable. I’m bawling my eyes out for someone, who will never be able to hear my heart crying out for him. And to be honest: In my age, this is a sentiment, which I’m absolutely ashamed of!

For the past 21 years, I’ve known this miserable emotion only in this exact context. But now, something happened, which made the confines of my heart and the walls, I’ve built around myself, shatter into pieces…leaving me vulnerable and emotionally churned up like never before. Becoming close and trusting friends with someone, who’s living so far away from me - separated by the ocean - turns out to be blessing and curse at once.

Suddenly, I feel confronted by the same emotions, which my pining for Severus provokes in my heart…a yearning for a deeper connection - regardless of the relationship’s nature between us friends. And just like in the song, which I’ve mentioned above this text, I’m asking myself: “How can you miss someone, you’ve never met?”

Fortunately, I’m able to reach out to my friend in these occasions. I don’t have to weep over my fan fictions or my art collection…no, I can just grab my phone and annoy the fuck out of my beloved confidant. And I think, this is beautiful! 🥹

For this heartwarming piece of art, I’ve commissioned my friend @alinearthp once again. I asked her to draw Severus and my undeniably self-inserted OC Jules as young adults…going out to grab some butter beer in “The Three Broomsticks”. Whenever my longing for Severus becomes too strong, I’m trying to imagine him doing something casual like that with me…and now I’m doing the same with my long-distance-friend. For this reason, I’d like to dedicate this loving post to him. @preciousthelmadonna, you’re in my heart and in my thoughts every single day, since I got to meet you on tumblr. Despite those 6095 kilometres, which separate us from each other, it seems as if you’re right beside me, whenever we’re talking about everything and nothing at once. I’m beyond grateful for our connection, my love. Thank you for being you.

Oh, and @alinearthp, you made me smile with this cute drawing of Sevy and Jules! Thank you for your understanding of my ideas and for each of your lovely and kind messages! Feel hugged, my dear!

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

[heartofmuse]

Is there anything more beautiful than someone who is willing to stay? Someone who chooses you over and over again, in spite of your faults, in spite of your darkness and your mistakes, because they love you that much, because of the unwavering certainty in their heart of the love that also  beats in your heart for them.

e.v.e.

[alexispink31]

My grandma has been battling cancer for some time now.. She made a huge decision to be put on hospice, that started Friday. It’s absolutely horrifying to know that you are now in your last days of life.. 😭💔😭

God brought you into my life at the age of 12, I haven’t always been the easiest granddaughter, consistency was challenging for me, abandonment issues caused me to withdraw myself from just about anyone. Involving myself with the wrong people which led me to live life on certain expectations cause of my own choices.

You helped with open hands, a caring heart, love you poured into every single one of us. Speaking advice into ears that needed it, being the worlds greatest grandma to us kids! Importantly, while leaving a toxic relationship my daughter gained having the best gee-gee in her life!!!!!! She adores you!!!! She feels everything so deeply so this right now is affecting her so much… 💔

I pray for peace, I pray for strength, I pray for no more pain in your life grandma!!!!!!

A PRECIOUS human my family & I LOVE dearly, is once again being ripped away from us by this evil sickness cancer! It’s not fair, watching someone so close to you slowly dying is terrifying. It makes you question everything, mixed emotions & not enough words to be said that we can say to save those we care about…

Pray for my family at this time. Cherish your time with your loved ones, hug them extra tightly for a moment. You never know what life has in store for each one of us. Embrace the love that comes to us, appreciate the people who have been there all along. Life flashes before our eyes, without a trace of hope or fear of the unknown.

[sethwilson32]

Down the hatch!

[farfallasims]

thank you for 2k

so grateful for 2k of you to be enjoying my content! I promise to get back to posting soon, just bare with me while i recreate my save file x

[godhasheardtruthfully]

✨🦇📯

I make mistakes irl & online every day

Not to mention trials that come my way

I hug my stuffed creatures & remember there’s always hope with God, Most Compassionate.

May you & I overcome this life most joyfully.

[moonyw4ltz]

Took a scribbly approach to my sweet baby, Saturn

I am forever grateful to have been gifted him <33

Thank you for everything

Day 17: Water Type

[sunset-a-story]

@cljordan-imperium I am having a bad chronic illness/brain fog week and you are giving me life 🤣🤣 ❤️🐹

[marthabeingmartha]

Working on that Spotify playlist & meaning/significance the specific lyrics I connect with among the songs in the playlist.

[euesworld]

"You are beautiful and playful, and lovely, and thankful.. and I just.. I'm so grateful for you."

I love you.. thank you for being in my life - eUë

[meintohthakgayibhaisaab]

*hugs you* it's alright to feel that way, just know that I'm here for you and I lobe you <33

Thank you so much for this anon

But tell me kya fayda iska when I hate myself? When I hate myself for reacting the way I do.

I'm so fucking sorry to absolutely ruin the mood of this ask, just know that I really appreciate you (and hate myself equally shayad)

[herbeauty93]

"Gratitude is not just a feeling, it's a choice. Choose to find the good in every situation and watch your life transform into one of abundance and joy."

[mayhemchicken-artblog]

in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off

EDIT: reblogs are STAYING OFF. op was right and correct and i have never regretted making a post as much as this one. if you want to reblog my art you can reblog something else from my blog. or commission me, lord knows i deserve financial compensation for the nightmare this post has put me through

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.