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raikkonenvettels · 1 year ago

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thank you to @itsillyakuryakin and @thatquirkycookie for tagging me in this, it was fun!

Pairing/Shippy list!

Here’s the rules:

1. List your top seven ships

2. Put them all in order for your love for them; 7 to 1, 1 being your favourite.

3. Name the fandom.

4. Put a picture of the guys in question.

let’s goooooo! (this all all f1 ships btw)

7. loscar (logan sergeant / oscar piastri)

(aren’t they the cutest babies btw like???)

reasons: they have captivated me with their dynamic and i still have to completely understand why too. anyways childhood friends to lover with a shit ton of pining anyone? (also did you know that logan was in a picture on the fridge of the piastri household? yeah)

6. makkinen (mika hakkinen / michael schumacher)

(i love this pic of them sm 😭)

reasons: i have been appreciating them a lot more rn so i thought they should be here! they are married TO ME (also the og grumpy finn/sunshine german 😩)

5. dando (daniel ricciardo / lando norris)

(fruity af and also lando’s face in the first pic apkeekek he was soooo red)

reasons: the sillies i love them so much 😭 it’s the “everyone said we would be great together, but it seems we hate each other in the beginning but then something shifts and now i’m in love with you and have to let you go” TO ME. when i saw the pics of them together on the plane my soul ascended for a sec.

4. jensonando (jenson button / fernando alonso)

(that second pic is my LIFE you don’t understand!!!)

reasons: also the sillies, i genuinely love them and their dynamic so much, and the fact that they so underrated is CRIMINAL to ME!!!

3. britcedes (george russel / sir lewis hamilton)

(they are twinning in the first pic 😩)

reasons: from the first moment i saw them together i knew there was SOMETHING about them. like genuinely the way they look at each other makes me literally go “😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫” irl it’s not even funny. also the fics for this ship are soooooo good it’s insane like some of them capture them sosososo well??? and also i want both of them to like genuinely be happy and i think they would be the happiest with each other!!!

2. charlos (charles leclerc / carlos sainz jr)

(they are so silly and goofy my beloved idiot boys 🫶🏻)

reasons: ferrari boys 2: electric boogaloo. honestly the more i see their interactions the more i question if they are like actually kinda gay for each other bc like some of their moments are very suspicious like 😵‍💫 they call each other baby all the time, carlos has called charles love, they ALWAYS have to be touching each other, they are always giggly and blushy around each other etc etc. honestly i love them sooooo much and i am not prepared to see them being separated as teammates 😭

1. simi (sebastian vettel / kimi raikkonen)

(i could’t dump my whole gallery here so i limited myself alsksksk)

reasons: there is just so much i have to say about them bc like they are literally so important to me it’s insane but i’ll try to keep this as short as possible.

they have the best trope (grumpy x sunshine is the best idc about what anyone says, but also specifically the “i am supposed to be the iceman, but you are my sunshine and you melted the ice around my heart” is sooooo LSMSNSNE I CAN’T), the best and longest friendship (20 years as of 2023 technically, every time something happened between them they resolved it asap. goals fr fr) AND the chemistry of a couple that has been married for an ungodly amount of time (and are still very much in love might i add). also they have many children together so there is that (charles, lance, antonio, mick, lando etc etc they are way too many). so yeah they are just better you know?

also there is SO MUCH MORE to say but i don’t want to cry today (nor do i want to annoy anyone lol) so i gotta stop here lol

honorable mentions not f1 related:

eimiko (raiden ei / yae miko) from genshin impact

the wives, need i say more?

yewnolia (yew geneolgia / magnolia arch) from bravely second

they are so underrated it’s insane

ineffable bureaucracy (beelzebub / gabriel) from good omens

i can’t believe they are actually canon 😭

meikai (MEIKO / KAITO) from vocaloid

literally soulmates (created to be used together)

tagging @watercolor-hearts to do this bc this is genuinely fun af!!! (no pressure as always tho!)

#it took so long to find the right pics but i did it!#this was fun i love a bit of insanery in my life

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dameronology · 5 years ago

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the one where you finally tell him (poe dameron x reader)

summary: after an emotional battle, poe asks you a simple question - your answer is a bit more complicated than he intended (requested by anon!)

also ft. queen zorii bliss

this is set a little bit after the celebrations at the end of rise of skywalker. also i have been high low key in love with keri russell since i saw her in waitress which isn’t relevant to this but i felt the need to let u all know anyways. enjoy!

- jazz

The air was warm; filled with laughter and chatter and joy, but still with a sense of mourning for those that had been lost. The post-battle celebrations had begun to fizzle out a few hours ago, leaving a remaining few around a campfire. You were sat between Poe and Finn, a beer in your hand and a tired smile on your face as you chattered away.

The fire was still crackling away in front of you, leaving a burning warmth on your skin and an orange glow cast across your features. A few embers fell from the flames as the evening wind blew across the base, a nice contrast against the heat of the fire. You occasionally turned to glance up at Poe; his dark eyes were tired, deep-set with the stress of the last few years. He had a beer in one hand, and his other splayed out on your knee.

Now that the war was over - and you still couldn’t believe it - you’d actually had a chance to think about your feelings for him. Of course, they’d always been there but they’d increased ten fold over the last week. Watching him step up to the role of general and lead the fight against the First Order had reminded you why you’d fallen for him in the first place.

‘So, what was Poe like before he left Kijimi?’ Finn asked, curious eyes falling on Zorii.

She was on Poe’s otherside, gloved hands clasped tightly in her lap, the rusty glow of the fire reflecting off of her helmet. You couldn’t see her face - only her eyes. But, thanks to the burning glow of light before you, they were glowing a bright blue, occasionally crinkling at the sides whenever Poe said something funny.

‘You think he’s a pain in the ass now,’ Zorii replied, ‘but you should have met him then.’

‘Please,’ Poe snorted, ‘you love me really.’

He took his hand from your leg, freeing up his arm to elbow his former comrade in the side. You immediately missed his touch, but pushed the thought to the back of your head. You weren’t his - you weren’t with him. What right did you have to get jealous?

Still, you couldn’t deny that he was closer with you than he was with anybody else. Poe had always been a physical person but more-so with you. It was standard for him to have his hand on your back or resting the back of his neck; he’d sometimes intertwine your fingers when you walking to-and-from places and he loved to hug you. Any outsider would have assumed that you were a couple.

‘Keep telling yourself that, Dameron.’ Zorii shot back, thinning her eyes at him.

‘You’re calling me the pain in the ass, but I distinctly remember you being a nasty piece of work too.’ Poe reminded her.

‘That’s not the impression I got a few days ago when you asked to kiss me.’

A shower of beer ejected from your mouth as you choked, showering Poe straight in the face. He blinked in shock for a moment, eyes wide as he wiped the alcohol from his face, dragging his hand down the back of your shirt to dry it off. He gave you a frown, hand moving to your shoulder.

‘You good there, Y/N?’ He asked, giving your arm a light squeeze.

‘Yeah,’ you cleared your throat, ‘sorry - the beer...It went up my nose.’

‘Happens to the best of us,’ Zorii chuckled.

You stood up, dusting your hands on your jeans. ‘I’m gonna go...clean my X-Wing. See you guys in the morning?’

A chorus of yeah, see you soon’s echoed from the group as you waved goodbye.

You gave them one last slightly pained smile before trudging away, boots sinking into the wet ground. A few splatters of mud splashed up your jeans - you hadn’t even realised how heavy your footsteps were. You also hadn’t realised that Poe was following behind you, jogging to catch up with you.

‘Hey!’ He called. He grabbed your arm, forcing you to face him as he planted his hands on your shoulders. ‘Why’d you lie?’

‘What?’ You furrowed your brow. ‘Poe, I didn’t lie.’

‘You’re going to clean your X-Wing?’ The words rolled off of his tongue in a mocking tone.

‘Yeah, I am.’

‘Yyou don’t have an X-Wing.’ He ruffled your hair, fingers lingering slightly as he moved a few strands away from your eyes.

‘Oh, yeah. That.’ You dropped your eyes to the ground, a sheepish look on your face. You had an innate inability to lie to Poe Dameron. ‘I suppose that might get in the way of my task.’

He put two fingers under your chin, guiding your face up to look at him. He looked beautiful under the late night glow of the moon; his brown eyes were gorgeous, his signature smirk more stupidly attractive than it ever had been before. You just wanted to kiss his dumb face.

‘So, why’d you actually leave?’ Poe enquired. ‘Not that I’m doubting your ability to clean a jet that doesn’t exist.’

Curse Poe Dameron and his ironclad logic.

You thought about telling him - just for a split second. It was a lingering thought, the kind that flashes in and out of your mind before you could properly consider it. A few hours ago, you didn’t even know if the pair of you were going to make it out the battle alive. Then, as though you had an angel and a devil resting on your shoulders, a tiny voice reminded you that he wouldn’t have asked to kiss Zorii if he liked you.

‘I’m just tired.’ You lied.

‘Let me rephrase my question,’ Poe said. ‘What made you feel so bad that you had to lie about why you were leaving?’

‘It’s dumb.’ You muttered.

‘Hey, it’s me. I’m not gonna judge you.’ He reminded you. His hands were still on your shoulders, thumbs occasionally rubbing tiny circles on your skin. ‘And if I do, it comes from a place of love.’

There it was: love. The friendship kind of love. The comrade kind of love. The circumstantial kind of love. Every kind of love that a person could possibly feel except the kind you wanted. The kind you needed.

‘I...I like you, Poe.’ You finally said, a bumbling of words building up in your chest. Here it came. A whole ass speech. A year’s worth of feelings, broken like a dam.

‘And I have for a really long time and I thought that maybe, just maybe, you could like me too, because you’re always touching me and laughing at my jokes when they are clearly not funny, and after the battle when I thought we were toast, I promised myself that if we made it out alive, I would tell you - but then I saw you with Zorii and I realised that you like her and not me and it feels like someone just skewered my heart with a lightsaber and served it to me on a plate like a fucked up hors d'oeuvres but I’m fine-’

‘- Jesus!’ Poe cut you off, violently shaking you by the shoulders. ‘You gotta breathe, baby.’

His eyes were just as wide as yours, both of you like a deer in headlights. Having realised that a simple I like you would have sufficed, you wanted to crawl up and die.

‘Oh, god.’ You whispered under your breath, cheeks burning bright red. ‘I am so sorry-‘

‘- are you daft?’ he took your face in his hands, pressing his forehead to yours. ‘I - that’s what I’ve always wanted to hear. I thought it was blatantly obvious that I was in love with you.’

‘I -’ you couldn’t quite find the words. ‘I love you too.’

‘There we go then.’

‘But what about Zorii?’ You asked. ‘She said that you asked to kiss her-’

‘- it’s a figure of speech.’ He chuckled quietly, breath tickling your face. ‘Don’t you remember the time that you asked Leia if you could kiss her?’

Your chest hurt slightly at the mention of the general’s name. You knew that you were going to face many losses in battle, but not Leia. She seemed like the kind of person who would turn up at death’s door and tell it to fuck off.

‘Sometimes people say it and they mean it,’ Poe continued. ‘Like this: can I kiss you?’

A small laugh escaped your lips as his hand moved to the back of your neck, pulling your face towards him. A shiver ran down your spine as your lips finally brushed in a soft kiss, one of your hands tangling in his curly hair. Poe moved to hold you by the hips, arms wrapping your torso as he lifted you off the ground.

‘You love me,’ you murmured against his lips. ‘Who would have thought?’

‘And you love me,’ He reminded you, ‘I’m going to remember that speech for a long time.’

You let out a groan, hiding your face in his shoulder as he dropped you back down to the ground. Pulling you towards him, Poe buried his head in your hair to hide his chortles, bodies swaying side to side as you caught your balance

‘I’m never gonna live it down, am I?’

‘Never.’

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apriki · 5 years ago

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RISE OF SKYWALKER

IT HAS BEEN SEEN MY FRIENDS... LET’S GO

IT WAS A LOVE STORY ALL ALONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU. GUYS. I AM SO... ALIVE RIGHT NOW I

okay that opening scrawl i laughed so hard... THE DEAD SPEAK!!

‘supreme leader kylo ren’ will never not be funny

OKAY OPENING WITH KYLO I SCREAMED.... HIS BEAUTIFUL FACE

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN TO YOU.... HOW MUCH

okay and his ruthless hell bent search for this silly macguffin.... we love a demonic legend

and ALSO his determination to kill the past!!!!!! HE HAS LITERALLY BEEN CIRCLING THIS THE WHOLE SERIES

look, i am biased because kylo is my favourite and he has been the one thing that’s been consistently written and done across this trilogy and i’m very spoiled because i got everything i wanted here

but KYLO REN. KYLO REN!!!!!!!!!!!

laughed my ASS off at the snoke in the tube and palpatine being like ‘surprise bitch.... bet you thought you’d seen the last of me’

laughed decidedly LESS at ‘i’ve been every voice you’ve ever heard in your head’

look this isn’t going to be a review.... just my thoughts really and this decidedly isn’t a comparison with the last jedi which it seems like everyone wants to do in a weird victorious kind of way

but kylo killing snoke/his abuser in tlj was a terrifying powerful moment to watch and i loved it fiercely and still do, and for kylo to see that he hadn’t done that at all.... and that evil still abides.... fucking nightmare, honestly

and that’s when i started getting a feeling in the back of my head because look he is so determined to kill the past

(let the past die)

that he will kill himself as well to do it. that has always been kylo’s character since the very beginning. SO!!!!!

also the structural integrity of palp’s hideaway.... not great

palps: kill rey heh heh

kylo: i am absolutely not gonna do that but okay

omfg when kylo was like ME AND MY KNIGHTS OF REN ARE GOING HUNTING

i cannot explain to you how HILARIOUS the knights of ren are to me

they do nothing! they say nothing! they just stand around and look stupid in their stupid helmets..... i laughed every single time they were on screen

it’s like kylo’s uselessness manifests into what 6? 7 more useless things. the Knights of Ren

‘we’re going hunting’ are you TWELVE YEARS OLD

this film felt like it was going a million miles an hour, all the time, and that started for me in that first scene in the falcon which was going all over the place? for some reason?

anyway THERE’S A MOLE IN THE FIRST ORDER and i know it is hux but i kind of wanted it to be kylo on the side.... though i know he is not capable of any such subterfuge. about as subtle as a wrecking ball... and my SON

loved the comraderie with poe and finn. i liked the lived-in feeling of the relationships between the rebellion characters this time around

felt like they had that new alien dude in the falcon for no reason and for two seconds like... why

(to sell toys, of course. the same reason why they have a new tiny droid)

but that of course is just the first in a long line of new and underdeveloped characters in this movie. but you know what? i can accept this because the core emotional story was strong and also, it’s star wars? a big sprawling mess is what it has always, always been. ANYWHOMST

REY IN THE FOREST LEVITATING!!!!

the white outfit!!! how at one she is with nature??? SORRY IT WAS BEAUTIFUL

and okay the specific framing of rey and rey’s power in this movie as not only a part of the force but so specifically as a woman using the force... like the power of empathy! the power of healing!!! IT WAS BEAUTIFUL WHATEVER

when she called leia her MASTER? MY HEART

THE POWER OF WOMEN!!!

on the flip side, doesn’t it kind of feel like poe has a problem with women?

like as soon as he started riffing with rey i was like GET A JOB STAY AWAY FROM HER

but in hindsight i feel kind of better about them and their interactions... more on that later

FINN! finn in this movie was WONDERFUL

(except it annoyed me how they had the whole ‘there’s something i want to say to you’ and never had him say it... like even if he was going to say he loved rey okay just don’t leave it hanging like that?)

FORCE FUCKING SENSITIVE!!!!!!

look i really think they did they best they could with a really difficult job in incorporating leia and previous footage into this movie. it wouldn’t have felt right without her and the scenes were a bit clunky but again, a very very difficult thing to do

LEIA AND REY’S RELATIONSHIP..... MY HEART HURTS

i love that rey’s storyline has depth and motivation and kylo’s storyline is literally revolving around rey like she’s the sun

like i literally love this. MORE OF THIS!!!

FORCE BOND STILL EXISTSSSSSSSS

KNEW IT CALLED IT CLAIMED IT LOVE IT

the soft gasp rey does whenever kylo is about to show up for forceskype i love this song

the knights of ren standing around while kylo’s helmet got fixed omfg they are the stupidesttttt

kylo: maybe i don’t want to wear the helmet

the knights of ren: maybe shut the fuck up

Let’s Go To Burning Man

i actually kind of liked seeing these people doing their own cool cultural thing. like again this movie went at lightspeed but i did enjoy that. what’s better than this? just aliens being dudes

when rey talked to that little girl and she asked her last name i was like LOLLLL HERE WE GOOOOOOOO

as soon as lando showed up it was like ‘oh it’s lando’

‘i offered you my hand’

‘I’LL OFFER YOU MY HAND AGAIN’

WHY DID HE SAY THIS... LIKE IT WAS A PROPOSAL

I WAS SCREECHING SORRY... WOW.

i have never really found C3PO funny but um he was going off in this movie... when they all looked at him and then he looked away I CACKLED

and the mind wipe like whew man... one day we’re gonna have a conversation about Droids And The Uncomfortable Conclusions About Droids in these movies

but also, i wish they’d had the guts to stick with it and not restore his memory because, what a symbol for the past dying and the end of a saga? like 3PO has been there since the start!! the star wars live in his memory banks ???? and R2 as well i suppose

don’t think too long about this cause then you realise that for some reason they’re still using like 80 year old iphones and R2 and 3PO should be decommissioned for scraps

WHEN HE TOOK THE NECKLACE OFF HER I FOUND IT HOT I FOUND IT SEXY I FOUND IT UMMMM

the sand was a cool visual thing but then THE SNAKE

it felt so GREEK HERO MYTH but then rey stops the script!!

AND DOESN’T FIGHT IT

AND SHE HEALS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

as soon as rey healed that snake i was like

‘kylo ren is that snake’

blah blah dagger blah

the sith language and being forbidden actually interests me. i want more proper sith lore

basically i want a revan and bastila movie. make it so

keri russell was WASTED in this movie

but that one scene with her and rey where they had Mutual Respect was so much better and more important than anything she did with poe

poe is like... sure i guess. i mean i liked him better in this movie than tlj and i liked him more as the movie when on but hmmst

but hey if i get to have a kylo then the poe people can have i poe. i begrudge no one

except, uh.... hux people. y’all really got done this movie huh. ouch

double as bad cause there was literally no point to the new general character. should have just been hux and then had him die in the final battle?

but i laughed when he was like ‘i don’t want you to WIN. i want kylo to LOSE’

THAT’S KING PETTY

omfg when kylo was like ‘where are you’ and then saw the vader mask and was like ‘oh you’re in my room’

SCREECHED

KYLO’S EVIL BOARD MEETING

LAUGHED MY ASS OFF

WHEN HE SMACKED THAT DUDE TO THE ROOF

sorry the first order is a startup. not even an ‘evil’ one especially because they’re all just a bit evil

when kylo reacted to that guy saying ‘we should take more children’ and the small thread winding through this movie about children being indoctrinated and rey and ben stopping THAT cycle.. important to me and i wish it had been bigger but i was glad it was there

all kylo did in the first half of this movie was chase after his girlfriend and tell her how they were meant to be together and that he wasn’t going to kill her even though he should. i love one stupid man

kylo flying his ship at rey deliberately wanting to ‘push her’ and her jumping over it and crashing the whole damn thing

and then him just getting up and walking out of the wreck not a scratch on him

like some kind of hero in a romance novel in his stupid cape lmfaoaoooo... you love to see it

THE PUSH/PULL WITH THE TRANSPORT?

THEIR POWERRRRRR

and then rey with her fuckin LIGHTNING

as soon as that happened i was like, oh lol rey palps then....

but also, THE LOOK OF WONDER BUT ALSO VICTORY ON KYLO’S FACE

ADAM DRIVER SIR

okay to be honest the whole soujourn to the like space swiss village is kind of a blur to me

keri russell was wasted, did i say that already?

although okay that bit when poe was like ‘were you a stormtrooper? were you a scavenger?’ maybe give him his rights

when kylo said WE’RE TWO PARTS OF THE SAME BEING

A DYAD

TWO WHO ARE AS ONE

two? WHO ARE? AS ONEEEEEE

NEITHER WHOLE WITHOUT THE MOTHERFUCKING OTHER I

‘i never lied to you’ AND HE NEVER HAS AND NEVER FUCKING DIDDD!!!!!

all the stormtroopers getting knocked back and kylo steadying himself with the force lol... it’s these little things ok

JODIE COMER?

rEy PaLpAtInE

I LAUGHED MY ASSSS OFFFFFFF

like... sure jj. sure

look, i have always understood and respected the choice to make rey ‘nobody’ (like anakin was! the force just makes who it needs to create the balance!) but if rey was going to be anyone i guess.... this is the best choice?

and i think there IS merit in the story going from ‘person burdened with legacy vs person with no legacy’ to ‘person with a legacy of good turning evil and person with a legacy of evil turning good’

i gotta think longer and more about this but. besides its inherent silliness i do not hate this ‘twist’

this movie jumped from planet to planet like a ping pong ball! it felt a bit jarring but my mum pointed out that the galaxy IS big and they’ve never really done this before and i was like hmmm Points Were Made

THE FIGHT ON THE OLD DEATH STAR

KYLO DODGING REY’S SWIPES AND NOT EVEN PULLING HIS SABER UNTIL HE HAD TO

THEN ONLY FIGHTING DEFENSIVELY

and her DESPERATION

ALMOST LIKE SHE’S FIGHTING HERSELF

BECAUSE THEY ARE TWO HALVES! OF ONE WHOLE!

and then oh my god

‘you can’t go back to her (leia). just like i can’t’

and the VICTORY in his eyes and the acknowledgment of the truth in hers

because THEY ARE THE SSSAAAAAAMMMMMMMMEEEE

when rey SCREECHED and force threw finn back.... oh fuck

(sidebar the way finn was so determinedly THERE for rey this whole movie... even when she said about the sith throne... his faith in her didn’t waver im verklempt)

WHEN HE DISAPPEARED AND REY LOOKED BACK HORRIFIED

because he can’t go! because the fight is what they have and what she’s clinging on to!

AND THEN HE WALKED UP OUT THE WATTTTEERRRRRRRRR

absolute romantic nonsense.

AND THEN

SHE KILLED HIM

SHE KILLED HIM!!!!!!

SHE KILLED KYLO REN WITH HIS OWN DAMN CRUCIFIX SWORD

I COULD NOT

BE LEEEEAAAF

THIS HAS BEEN MY DREAM ENDGAME SINCE THE START AND IT’S HERE TWO THIRDS THROUGH THE FUCKING LAST MOVIE?

A GIFT. LICH RALLY A GIFT TO MEEEEE

leia gave her LIFE for her SON I...

this was the only moment in the movie where i started to get some tears cause like... IT WAS JUST SO MUCH

AND REY.... TOOK LEIA’S ENERGY THROUGH THE FORCE...

AND SHE PUT HER HANDS ON HIM

AND SHE HEALED HIM

SHE’S A SCAVENGER

SHE FIXES BROKEN THINGGGGSSSSS

HE DIED BECAUSE SHE KILLED HIM

AND HE LIVES BECAUSE SHE HEALED HIM...

WHEN. WILL. YOUR. FAVES?????????

‘I WANTED TO TAKE YOUR HAND. BEN’S HAND’

take my hand? take my whole life too

IIRENGOWENRGKLJEWNGFKJBKJBKJBKJLB

ALL THE BEAUTIFUL WINDSWEPT CLOSE UP SHOTS OF KYLO’S BEAUTIFUL WINDSWEPT FACE IN THIS MOVIE. I WAS BREATHLESS

KYLO STNADING ON THE EDGE OF THAT SEA WITH THE WIND GOING AND HIS LEG OUT LIKE THE STUPID BYRONIC HERO HE IS

HEATHCLIFF? HEATHCLIFF ON THE MOOR?

HAN’S HAND ON BEN’S FACE

HE CALLED HIM. DAD

‘kylo ren is dead’

OHHHHHH BABBBBYYYYYY

look i loved the crossguard saber but i understood why it had to go

and like ben shedding the persona he had built as a defence mechanism... rey killed that part of him? powerful too powerful

i know i have rose coloured glasses because i care about the core story of kylo/rey enough and i’m passionate enough about it but okay the way they are entwined with one another on the journey to identity is the greatest thing a silly blockbuster series has maybe ever given me

it’s tam lin. IT’S FAIRY TALE NONSENSE AND I LOVE IT

i 100% know in my bones they wanted the scene with han to be leia but they obviously couldnt have that so that was fine. when ben turned his head around and heard her and felt her.... DONT LOOK AT ME

the most emotional moment in this movie was when chewie heard about leia and broke down and collapsed and screamed

us too buddy. damn

rey stealing kylo’s ship and yeeting away lmfao

and when she went back to ach-to and burned it and was like IM STAYING HERE 4EVA >:(

she’s literally the exact same stupid reckless as kylo and i love

rose was wasted in this movie. very annoying

i DID laugh when they said ‘we should pull a holdo manoeuvre’ like of course that’s the one thing jj took from tlj. ohhhh jj

loved finn meeting the ex stormtrooper lady. i always felt like the one weakness of tlj is that it dropped this thread of finn’s indoctrination that i thought was being woven alongside rey and kylo’s issues with their childhoods in force awakens. the look of wonder on his face when she said that the whole battalion defected.... and saying the force lead them to do it like it lead him... and you could see john boyega feeling that with his whole heart!!!

i laughed at palps’ fleet of star destroyers that like all have death star capabilities now? so dumb

and also, a star destroyer is basically an aircraft carrier.... do you think the people who make star wars realise the empire is america? no...??? alright imma head out

missed opportunity for a shot of jar jar or a gungan when the galaxy fleet showed up like those towboats at dunkirk. to be HONEST

where did sheev palps find that stadium of goons? are they on retainer?

yeah so palpatine’s lair is the underworld and rey is eurydice and ben is orpheus. YEAH. YEAHHHHHHHHH

LEIA WAS TRAINED AS A MFING JEDI

THAT FLASHBACK WAS EVERYTHING FUCK

LEIA’S SABER!!!!!!!!!

i have Questions about leia ‘seeing her son dying at the end of her journey’ like ?

BUT HER PUTTING AWAY THE SABER TO PROTECT BEN!!!!

THIS FAMILY

fuck. benjy solo in that jumper.... USING A BLASTER LIKE HIS DAD.....

THE X WING AND THE TIE FIGHTER PARKED NEXT TO EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!

PALPATINE CALLING THEIR BOND ‘AS POWERFUL AS LIFE AND THE FORCE ITSELF’

NOT FOR GENERATIONS HAS THEIR BEEN A DYAD LIKE THEM!!!

FUCKING

DESTINED

BITCH

THEY ARE EACH OTHER’S DESTINY? WOW SORRY.... WOWOWOOWOOWOWOOWOWOW

ben versus his idiot knights of ren.... yeah i love my son

sorry rey had a vision of her AND kylo sitting on the throne but the throne is.... one seat? what are the logistics here? her on his lap? him on her lap? both of them sitting on an armrest like awkward kids taking a photo with santa?

I THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR LIKE FIVE MINUTES COMPLETELY DISTRACTED

THE LITTLE SHRUG BEN DID WHEN HE GOT THE LIGHTSABER AND WAS LIKE ‘YEAH SORRY NOW YOU’RE GONNA DIE’

I SCREAMED. IM LOVE HIM

rey giving ben the saber through the force bond!!

ACROSS SPACE??? LOVE THAT TRANSCENDS THE WORLD

palpatine taking, SPECIFICALLY, the power of rey and kylo’s BOND to strengthen himself because it is THE STRONGEST THING IN THE FUCKING UNIVERSE???????? CANONICALLY????????

REY AND BEN FIGHTING WITH LUKE AND LEIA’S SABERS

FUCKING... I FUCKING....

when palps like flicked ben away sorry i laughed... i mean i was like REALLY? FOR THE BIG FINALE HE’S GONE? but i understood why and that rey is the hero etc etc

THE JEDI SPEAKING TO REY! OBI WAN! QUI GON FUCKIN JINN

yoda is there too

AND THE POWER OF THE JEDI FLOWING THROUGH HER!!!!!

god her power.... SHE AMAZES MEEEE

(initially i thought ben was gonna kill palps for rey because of the whole The Sith Live in My Killer thing and then she’d have to kill him but HOISTED ON HIS OWN PETARDDD)

palpatine:

and the power was too much and it killed her ooooof

(the power of being a legacy... of channeling all that has some before!!! these movies get so ridiculously meta sometimes. best believe we’ll talk about THIS)

BUT HERE COMES BEN

BENJY BOYYYYY

his hair JUST long enough to be scraggly and devastating

literally dragging a broken leg

ADAM DRIVERS PHYSICALITY IN THESE MOVIES (WELL ALWAYS) (BUT SPECIFICALLY IN THIS ROLE)

and he knows

WHAT HE HAS TO DOOOO

HE FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING HE LOVED ENOUGH TO DIE FOR

I JUST CAN’T BELIEVE THIS

when he held her body holy shit... HOLY SHIT, GUYS

FULL CIRCLE????CVMSDFJNVDSLKFJVLDKJFVLKJDBFV

A PIETA.... A FUCKING PIETA

OH MY GOD THIS MOVIE

and his heartbroken face.... stumbling back to her... oh my good goddd

and then

‘I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO BUT I’M AFRAID TO DO IT’

HE DIED FOR HER

HE GAVE.... HIS LIFE..... FOR HER.....

I CANNOT BE LIEVE THISSSSSS

HE GAVE UP HIS LIFE!!!!! HIS FUCKING LIFE!!!

he fought.... his whole life.... and he gave it up....

THAT’S LOVE? THAT’S FUCKING TRUE LOVE HOLLYL SKDJBVDKBF

REVAN AND BASTILA!!!!! REVAN AND BASTILA!!!1

and then she was alive again!!! ROMEO AND JULIET OKAY WOW

AND

THEY

KISSED

I’M SORRY I DID FREAK THE FUCK OUT

HIS SOFT EYES

(super spoilery shot coming up here but)

OH MY GOD

FOR FUCK’S

SAKE.

i’m sure people will be mad about how little kylo like... talked in this movie but like sorry this was perfect

she saved his life! and she saved the world! and he quietly gave his life to her, for her?

this humble act of love? PURE LOVE?

WHAT WONDERFUL AND TERRIBLE THINGS THEY ARE CAPABLE OF.

THAT THEY PUSH EACH OTHER TO

THIS TRILOGY WAS MADE FOR ME AND ONLY ME. THERE’S NO OTHER EXPLANATION

and her look of JOY and she said, ‘BEN’

look. i have been on the record for YEARS as saying my dream endgame would be for rey to kill kylo and for him to be forceghost with her always

AND SOMEHOW UMMMM THIS IS BETTER?

1. SHE DID! KILL HIM! AND THEN BROUGHT HIM BACK

2. AND THEN HE WILLINGLY DIED FOR HER?

3. AND NOW SHE CARRIES HIM WITH HER ALWAYS??????

when his body faded and leia’s did too..... wo OOOOOOOOOOWWWW

SHE TOOK

HIS FUGGIN

LAST NAMMMEMELRKNWELKJBNLKJBFLKJBFKLRBJKLERJB

I’M SORRY THIS MOVIE WAS MADE FOR ME. KYLO REN WAS BREWED UP F O R MEEEEEEE

listen. there is a video game where a lady’s boyfriend gets killed and his soul goes into a sword and she carries the sword around with her

THAT IS THE RISE OF SKYWALKER

I CARRY YOUR HEART I CARRY IT IN MY HEART BITCH??????

THE FUCKING ORANGE SABER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and look. ben’s story is allowed to be just about rey and rey’s is allowed to be bigger than just him. that’s EQUALITY. that’s JUSTICE

look i know it’s very douchey of me but i wrote this paragraph about a character of mine in a book i wrote and it is like..... LIKE IT’S JUST KYLO REN OKAY

he was never gonna be someone who could settle down and live like a quiet life of monkhood or whatever luke was doin on ach-to....

okay when finn poe and rey hugged at the end okay I DID FEEL SOMETHING IN MY COLD DEAD HEART

FINN JUST LOVES THEM! SO MUCH! THERE IS SO MUCH LOVE IN THAT BOY’S HEART

and probably up until that moment i hadn’t really cared about having a Trio in the new movies like we had han and leia and luke but that hug had me feeling like... okay... Friendship IS Great

okay back to kylo, i tweeted this but i’ll repeat here: my favourite arc in media has always been snape’s, to me it is the perfect ‘redemption’ arc (and yes this will make people scrunchy-nosed angry, so i will point out: redemption to me has always meant redemption in the eyes of the reader/viewer, not in-world, this is true for anakin/vader too, who also has a nearly flawless ‘redemption’ arc) but now it’s kylo solo ren ben

I LOVE HIM. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I CAN’T STAND IT A LITTLE

HE FELL IN LOVE? AND IT SAVED HIM

HE WAS LOST AND HE FOUND HIS OTHER HALF

AND HE DIED BECAUSE SHE WAS STRONG ENOUGH TO CARRY IT ALL

CARRY THE LEGACY WHEN HE COULDN’T!!!

IT’S JUST SOSSOOSOOSOSOOSSO

i want a funko pop of ben in his comfy jumper running to fuck sheev palps the fuck up

i don’t even LIKE funko pops

naboo has a lot to answer for. literally all of these problems come from naboo

sure this movie was a big ole mess and i surely can’t wait for the good old disk horse

but i’m riding this high for as long as i can

because it was always about LOVE! LOVE CAN IGNITE THE STARS

so sure, this movie pandered terribly. but i am one of the people it pandered to and i am HAPPY INDEED

remember when maz kanata was like ‘your parents aren’t coming back but there is someone who still could’ YEAH IT WAS BEN!!!!!

#star wars #star wars spoilers #rise of skywalker spoilers #SPOILERS

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targsdaenerys · 5 years ago

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The 100!

just rewatched the s6 finale today, god i miss this show!

❤ Favorite Male: either bellamy or murphy (ive tried to stop it)❤ Favorite Female: yall i just,,, love clarke with my Whole Soul❤ Favorite Pairing: bellarke ❤ Least Favorite Character: russels gotta go. finns been gone but he also gotta go.❤ who’s most like me: e.cho in the fact that she shows nor gives any physical emotion whatsoever❤ most attractive: im bi for clarke and octavia❤ three more characters that I like: raven, emori, that dog in that first sanctum episode

#ask games #about me #the 100 #aryasansa

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annakie · 5 years ago

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I made a post earlier tonight about having some big worries going into watching The Rise of Skywalker.

I’ve seen it now.

Here are some thoughts.

I was worried that I might hate the movie, or that it might ruin Star Wars for me a bit, but I’m glad to say, I was wrong.

I hated that moment from the movie A WHOLE FUCKING LOT. Like it was as bad as I feared it would be. But snip about ten seconds out of the movie and I’d be OK with to loving the rest of it.

The thing is, the kiss didn’t have to happen. And Rey initiated it, tbh. So yeah. I really hated it and want an edit of the movie where Ben saves her, she says “Ben!” and then he just dies. Thanks.

I have a lot I wanna say on this topic, but for most media, I think you need to find the good, the things you love, and be willing to discard the things you don’t like about it. Like I said in my post earlier tonight, I DID love so many of the character moments, though I wish there were more. I loved getting to spend time with the trio as a trio finally. I loved 3P0 getting a little arc, I loved seeing so many old favorites again, even briefly, I loved THE VOICES SCENE so, so much (but was a little sad they didn’t canonize The Old Republic there, they could have so easily). I liked all the new characters a bunch. I was a bit mixed on all the Palpatine stuff, but thought overall, it worked.

I agree with the critics that it felt rushed, and almost manic in places. But even so, the two and a half hours FLEW by. I wish they’d just taken a bit more time here and there.

I thought the Leia stuff... almost worked. They did the best they could with what they had, though I think even if you didn’t know what they were doing there, you could tell something off. It almost felt like... bad video game writing with her dialog. But, I appreciate what they did do, and it was a fitting tribute.

I suppose that if they had to redeem Kylo Ren, at least it was the power of Leia Organa and the memory of Han Solo that did it.

I’ll still never like Kylo Ren, or Ben Solo.

I have a lot of thoughts still brewing in my head about Finn and his role in the movie. I felt like he’d really matured, like he truly loved both Poe and Rey. I kind of hated that they gave Poe a female love interest, even if it was light and even if it was Keri Russell, who I think is great. I did really like Jannah.

I think that the movie was kind of trying to set up “What do you think Finn did next? Did he continue to pursue Rey, or did he find a new attraction in Jannah?” question, though I’m glad that they didn’t at any point push a possible Jannah/Finn thing except show that they really work well together. So if you want to go that way, it’s totally plausible.

I feel like they also wanted to set it up without saying that Rey... wanted Finn to tell her the thing he never had. I think she knew, I think she wanted to hear it, though she also knew she was attracted to Kylo. I think the thing is though, if Ben had lived (as Ben, not Kylo), that’s who she would have chosen. Though she has feelings for Finn, as well. But we’ll never know, I suppose, if anything comes of that. Finn deserves better than to be someone’s second choice, so I think that if Finn and Rey did happen after this movie, it wouldn’t be soon, or easily. I guess, in the end, I still ship it.

And also still Finn/Poe, because there’s no way you can tell me he wasn’t anything but jealous in the scene when Hux nearly killed them. Poe Dameron is Bisexual and also he loves Finn.

I also really loved that there were a couple of FinnReyPoe moments in there, including a literal “Finn has two hands” moment, and finally, finally that very long, deep hug we’ve been needing since TFA.

Ok that’s enough shippy stuff.

FINN IS CANONICALLY FORCE SENSITIVE AND I AM LOVING IT. I guess Rey’s gonna have her first student very quickly.

Dominic Monahan being in the movie was a nice surprise (I mean not that surprising, just unexpected). Seeing Wedge for literally 2 seconds was neat but not long enough. There was more Lando than anticipated and I loved that. I was genuinely worried about Chewey for like 30 seconds, and that wail of mourning when he learned about Leia was HEARTBREAKING.

There were several laugh out loud moments I loved.

I liked the new droid. Not enough Artoo this movie, though.

Yep the LGBT moment was very blink-and-you’ll-miss-it. Cool, two characters who had like ten lines between them over the last 3 movies (and never to each other, I don’t think?) kissed. That’s nice. Do better next time. Way better.

Hux... yeah whatever. Neat that he was a traitor... sorta. But still, got what he deserved. I can’t woobify him after starkiller base in TFA.

I’m sure I’m going to have a lot more thoughts, but it’s almost 1am and I gotta go to work in the morning, and then go see this movie again not long after leaving work.

#star wars #the rise of skywalker #personal post tag thingy

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callieshipman · 5 years ago

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S7 Speculation game

i was tagged by my dear @cosmo-k-i-d, thank you!

Pick one or more characters you think will survive:

octavia for sure. probably bellamy and clarke. niylah, miller, jackson because they’re too scared to kill any more lgbt characters! good, because i love them. and jordan for the sake of monty and harper’s legacy!

Pick one or more characters you think will die:

russell and gabriel, the primes gotta go! i’m super worried for murphy too, that cockroach luck can’t work forever. even more worried for emori. and if they kill off echo for bellarke...i will not be happy at all

Pick one deceased character you think might make a cameo:

GHOST MONTY GHOST MONTY GHOST MONTY

actually though i think they could justify just about anyone within the anomaly?? i’d say some old high-profile delinquents to bring back the original 100!! maybe finn, jasper?? monty again + harper?

Do you expect any romantic changes to happen this season?

dhfguksh who the fuck knows? i’m really rooting for niytavia and murven! and if bellarke does happen i’m gonna be psyched for you guys as long as echo gets her happy ending too. i think bellarke is likely though, there’s only so far you can look past those kind of scenes

Where will the final scene take place?

maybe looking out over a planet from a ship?? whether that’s earth or somewhere else entirely i can’t say. i think they’ll go back to earth myself and the absolute dream is to see the dropship again

What will the final line be?

probably a callback to something earlier. i’m inclined towards “let’s be good guys” but perhaps that’s not on message anymore. maybe a “shut up murphy” for old time’s sake, but probably an “i was born in space” style monologue

Who will say it?

probably clarke or one of the 100, but i’d buy jordan or madi too as the members of the next generation. but also it might be way way in the future with the 100 just distant memories and legends and it’s some completely random child

What’s one thing you hope happens?

raven smiles. next question.

Do you expect a happy ending?

i expect a bittersweet ending. same vibe as the end of s5. something wonderful will be achieved, but the cost will be great. someone we love will definitely be dead, but for once maybe it’ll be worth it

List your favourite character, season and episode up to this point?

favourite character: monty!! raven is a close second

season: 2 is the best by far

episode: nevermore, join or die for those Good Delinquent Bonding Times

and i’ll tag @easilydistractedbyfanfic @tackmins @thehundredtimesobsessed @tracylorde and anyone else who wants to play!!

#tag games #fun fun fun

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jencsi · 6 years ago

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First Lines

got tagged by @bisexualstokes Thank you so much :)

Post the first line of your last 10 published fics, then tag 10 people. 1. Feel Again- "Did you think I would die?" she asked so bluntly one evening as they lay in bed watching TV. 2. Happy In My Heartache- The cup of tea had steam rising from it as she set it down on her Pikes Place coaster on her coffee table. 3. Cry Pretty- "Please, you don't have to do this," she begged, folding her hands together in a praying gesture, something unfamiliar to her but necessary in this moment. 4. Saturdays- Las Vegas was hot, there was no denying it, Julie thought as she was forced to vacate the cool comfort of her police SUV to step back outside into the furnace like conditions surrounding her. 5. Fool For Love- As an investigator, observing things was a necessary skill. 6. Even If It Breaks Your Heart- The phones incessant ringing coming from the kitchen woke Patrick out of a sound sleep. 7. Radioactive- "I gotta get some air, before I rip your head off," Nick snarled the warning to disgraced former undersheriff Jeffrey McKeen as he sat interrogating him with Russell about his team of spies in the lab. 8. Finn- "I don't need you to think Finn, I need you to be smart"Those words had echoed in her head for the last few hours, pounding right alongside the pain all over her body she felt from being hit repeatedly by Crenshaw in the club. 9. How The Day Sounds- The rain woke him up which surprised him because it was not a heavy rain. 10. Broken Glass- The distant rumble of thunder caused her to look up at the grey sky with a growing sense of nervousness. Tagging- @enbyboiwonder @mutatedsilverunicorn and anyone else who writes fics that I may or may not know about. And anyone who sees this and wants to do it, go for it :)

#ask games #fanfiction #Thanks bisexualstokes #if anyone wants to read these fics #check out my fanfiction.net page

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Beautiful Boy | Peaky Blinders Part 3 |

SO here’s the final part! I hope you all have enjoyed this, I know I have loved writing it. ENJOY! Y/S/N – Your Son’s Name

Summary: Nine months later and you are ready to welcome your baby into the world Part One Part Two

Warnings: Swearing, childbirth, bullying (?), and self-degrading talk. That’s about it I think.

Whore. Slut. Skank. Stupid. Irresponsible. Disgusting. Bastard.

All words you had, sadly, become accustomed to over the course of your pregnancy. Now, no one was stupid enough to say anything while you had anyone with you, but while you were on your own was a completely different story. Women sneered at you, laughing behind your back when they thought you couldn’t hear them, gossiped about you to their friends. But you steeled yourself against the words aimed to hurt you, ignoring the people around you who wanted to see you cry but you refused to give them the satisfaction.

By the eighth month of your pregnancy, your family had become increasingly protective, almost not allowing you to leave the house, and if by some miracle you were allowed an hour out of the confines of the house, you had an escort. Today you had three. Isiaha, Michael and Finn walked on beside you, making jokes and scaring off the on lookers.

You laughed at a joke Finn had made, steering into the market, the boys following you. The doctor had warned you that your baby could come any day now, so your family had taken extra precautions, making sure that at least two people were with you at all times.

“Filthy whore.” An older man turned his nose up at you, spitting the words out and walking away from the stall that you approached. Gritting your teeth you moved passed it, rolling your eyes at the standard insult you had become immune to. Unfortunately for the man, Michael had heard the words.

“What was that?” He turned to the man, taking a step closer, threatening the old man without so much as saying the words.

“She’s disgusting. Having a child out of wedlock to a man she probably doesn’t even know the name of.” The old man carried on, either blind to who he was speaking too or just dumb.

“I’d watch the way you speak to my sister. I won’t hesitate to cut your fuckin’ tongue out if I hear you say some shit like that again.” Finn snarled, glaring at the man. As if he got a sudden realisation as to who was around him he ducked his head, apologising profusely.

“I-I’m sorry Mr Shelby, Miss Shelby. Please forgive me.” He rushed to get the words out, keeping his head down and not looking at you or the three boys around you.

“Get out of our fuckin’ sight.” Isiaha rolled his eyes, gesturing to the exit of the market place. Nodding, the man hurried out of the building, not once stopping to look behind him. The four of you were silent for a moment before you all burst into laughter at the poor man’s expense.

“Fuckin’ prick.” You laughed, turning back to the stall, when it felt like something gave way. Clutching both the table in front of you and your stomach, you waited for the pain to pass before you turned to your brother.

“Get me back to Polly’s. Now.” You gritted your teeth, spitting the words out. Finn looked confused for a moment, before he finally understood what was happening. Wrapping his arm around your waist, he moved you as fast as he possibly could. About half way, you realised that you weren’t going to make it back to Polly’s, so you wheeled to the right, in the direction of your old house.

“Change of plans boys, we’re not gonna make it to Pol’s. You gotta get her to me.” You glanced over your shoulder, meeting Isiaha’s eyes. The boy nodded, taking off in the direction of Polly’s while Finn helped you along to the old house, Michael trailing, and keeping an eye on the area around you. Kicking the door open, Finn helped you up the couple of steps, interrupting your brothers from their small family meeting.

“What’s the meaning of this, then?” Tommy asked, standing from his place at the table and reaching to help Finn get you inside.

“Baby’s coming. Get the fuck out of my way.” You groaned, heading for the stairs, when a particularly nasty contraction hit you. A small scream made its way passed your lips, frightening your brothers into action.

Not letting you stumble up the stairs, Arthur hoisted you into his arms and carried you the rest of the way up, placing you in your old bed. You cried out gripping a hold of the bed and writhing in pain, making your brothers back away from you slightly. They had no idea what to do in this situation, and Michael was down stairs waiting for Polly and Esme.

“Right. Get out of my fuckin’ way!” You heard Polly holler before thundering footsteps approached your room. Polly and Esme rushed in, pushing your brothers out of the room and instructing them to ‘go to the pub. We’ll get you when it’s over’.

The next six hours were the longest of your life. Screaming and crying out with every contraction, you distinctly remember telling Polly ‘go fuck yourself, I’ll push when I fuckin’ please’ when the woman tried to advise you against pushing. That had caused a round of laughter from both of the women in the room. But by the end of the six hours, after trying to give up several times, and cursing James to the deepest pit of Hell, you had your newborn baby boy in your arms.

Esme left the room, headed for the Garrison to let your brothers know that they had a new nephew. You and Polly cooed over him, looking at his big blue eyes. They were beautiful, but Polly let you know his eye colour would change over the course of the next few months.

“He’s perfect. How did such a screw up like me, make something as beautiful as he is?” You asked, looking up at your Aunt who sat on the edge of the bed behind you.

“Now you listen here Y/N Shelby. You are not a screw up. Yes, you’ve made some horrible decisions, but you are not a screw up. You’re a beautiful, strong woman who will make a wonderful mother.” She chastised you, making you feel as if you were seven again, and got the same lecture. You were going to reply when you heard the drunken shouts of your brothers arriving home, dragging Michael and Finn up the stairs with them. They stumbled into the room, wide smiles as they took in the sight of your son, their nephew.

“Boys, this is your nephew, Russell Anthony Shelby.” You spoke, smiling widely at them. They laughed gleefully, approaching the bed and bending down to get a look at your son.

“You did well, Y/N. He’s a beautiful boy.”

Tagged: @sarahjpxx

#shelby family imagine #tommy shelby imagine #john shelby imagine #arthur shelby imagine #finn shelby imagine #Michael Gray imagine #Polly Gray imagine #Peaky Blinders #peaky blinders imagine

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useyourrwords · 6 years ago

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2019 Ahead // It’s Twentybiteen, You Ready?

I’m back! Again!

Your fave chaotic disaster queer took time off once again to get her shit together! Did I???? Kinda???

I’m glad I took the time off, I needed that time and space to sort out and find balance in my life and did I???? Kinda???

So now I’m back! There are going to be a few changes! But I’ll go through that a little later in this post.

2018 was fucking hard man. It was maybe the worst year of my life so far which is not an easy feat, let me tell you!

I’m glad it’s over, I’m thankful for the lessons it gave me but more than anything I’m grateful for the foundation in providing for the next chapter of my life.

2019 so far has been just getting through the delayed effects of the last part of 2018 honestly. But I’m hopeful it’ll only get better from here.

TBR

So what are the books I plan to read this year?? Honestly too many but here are the books I definitely want to get to in 2019.

I was going to talk about my anticipated releases BUT literally, everyone has done that so it’s not like I’d be sharing new information with anyone. No shade! Y’all those lists are amazing and I love them because I am always behind on what is coming out. Those posts just aren’t for me personally to write. But mostly it’s because this year I am focusing on books I actually own and neglected all of last year while I was busy having a love affair with my library.

│The Raven Cycle│Maggie Stiefvater│

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I read the first book in 2017 and then my mum bought me the whole series for my birthday in 2018 and do you think I’ve read them yet??? Of course not! So I want to this year for sure!

│Shadow and Bone Series│Leigh Bardugo│

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I loved the Six of Crows duology and now that the Grishaverse is getting a Netflix series I have to read the first series! Undoubtedly I will probably reread the Six of Crows duology after.

│The Conqueror’s Saga│Kiersten White│

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I loved the first book in this series and I’ve bought the other two books as soon as they came out but did I read them??? No.

│Montague Siblings│Mackenzi Lee│

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I really enjoyed the first book in this series even though I was in a major reading slump and it heavily dampened my experience but I still enjoyed it so I’m looking to rereading it and then following it with the last book!

│Villains│VE Schwab│

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I loved the first book and I can’t wait for the second one to come out. I ordered it in December but I entered my address wrong so I ended up going to my neighbour’s house to ask if they had it and they did!!!! Thank god for that!

I think I’ll wait to read them until I can get the paperbacks though since I like to annotate but not in my special editions.

│The Dark Artifices│Cassandra Clare│

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I loved the first book so much and I meant to read Lord of Shadows asap but then didn’t??? Now I’m just waiting for the last book to come out in the small paperback so I can read the series start to finish.

│Harry Potter Series│JK Rowling│

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│ I’m not putting LGBT rep because it’s not actually in the book and JK’s intentions don’t seem genuine to me.

The first time I read this series was 2011. And I didn’t finish it. So I’m gonna try again and watch the movies as I go to compare as well! And every time JK does some dumbass shit I am thankful I bought my copies secondhand.

│Sharp Objects│Gillian Flynn│

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I fucking loved the TV series, it was so intense! I’m looking forward to reading the book!

│Sadie│Courtney Summers│

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I’ve heard such good things and I need to read it but there’s a huge wait at the library and they do not have enough copies across the state library network so I might just end up buying it??

│Sawkill Girls│Claire Legrand│

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I’m planning on reading this one this month if I can get a hold of it from the library!

│The Hate U Give│Angie Thomas│

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I neeeeeed to read this one pronto!!!!

│Rejected Princesses│Jason Porath│

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│Bygone badass Broads│Mackenzi Lee│

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So I decided on my new Structured TBR each month (More info in my Month Ahead post!) I’m going to read a certain amount of entries in these each month over the year.

│Simon Vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda│Creekwood Series│Becky Albertelli│

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I need to read the book for my fave romcom guys, I just have to.

│Children of Blood & Bone│Legacy of Orïsha #1│Tomi Adeyemi│

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I literally bought this the day it came out and so, of course, I haven’t read it yet.

│City of Ghosts│Cassidy Blake #1│Victoria Schwab│

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I have to read it, it’s a Schwab book. But I am pumped for it!!!

│Percy Jackson and the Olympians│Rick Riordan│

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A childhood classic I never fucking read as a child. Also, I now own almost all or Riordan’s books because they were super cheap secondhand and so I have to read them.

Past Grey Reads

Book Review // Girl Made of Stars – I Am Broken

Book Review // Everything Leads To You – A Quite Love Story

Book Review // The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo – What Do You Mean She’s Not a Real Person???

TBW

Basically here’s a bunch of movies and seasons released this year that I want to watch!

│The Hate U Give│

│Jan 31│

George Tillman Jr.│

Amandla Stenberg, Regina Hall, Russell Hornsby│

Australia sucks so this only just came out here but I am ready.

│On The Basis of Sex│

│Feb 7│

Mimi Leder│

Felicity Jones, Armie Hammer, Justin Theroux│

Looks like a good feminist film!

│Captain Marvel│

│Mar 7│

Anna Boden, Ryan Fleck│

Brie Larson, Gemma Chan, Samuel L. Jackson│

What is this??? The first solo Marvel film for a female Avenger??? I have been waiting!

│Avengers: Endgame│

│Apr 24│

Anthony Russo, Joe Russo│

Brie Larson, Bradley Cooper, Karen Gillan│

I am not ready. Not even a little bit. I’m just glad it’s confirmed that our lil spidey survives somehow.

│Detective Pikachu│

│May 9│

Rob Letterman│

Suki Waterhouse, Ryan Reynolds, Kathryn Newton│

When I first saw the trailer I legit thought it was a very cleverly put together fan trailer and died when I realised it was real.

��Aladdin│

│May 23│

Guy Ritchie│

Will Smith, Billy Magnussen, Naomi Scott│

I am so excited, it’s gonna be so magical!

│Rocketman│

│May 30│

Dexter Fletcher│

Richard Madden, Bryce Dallas Howard, Taron Egerton│

I never knew I needed it but then I heard of it and then I watched the trailer and now I’m already a fan.

│Men in Black: International│

│Jun 13│

F. Gary Gray│

Rebecca Ferguson, Chris Hemsworth, Tessa Thompson│

This movie is for the bisexuals.

│Spider-Man: Far From Home│

│Jul 4│

Jon Watts│

Zendaya, Jake Gyllenhaal, Cobie Smulders│

Okay blogging secret, when it comes to the directors, creators and stars of this segment I always just copy and paste from IMDB because I’m lazy and can we just appreciate the fact that Tom Holland—the literal star of the movie, the person who plays the main character—isn’t even listed at the top as part of the top stars.

Also, I’m very excited to watch this. Tom and Zendaya are my children and they must be protected at all costs.

│It: Chapter 2│

│Sep 5│

Andy Muschietti│

James McAvoy, Jessica Chastain, Bill Skarsgård│

I’m ready for adult loser club thanks.

│Star Wars: Episode IX│

│Dec 19│

J.J. Abrams│

Keri Russell, Adam Driver, Richard E. Grant│

I’m always happy with a new Star Wars film.

│To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before 2│

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Susan Johnson│

Lana Condor, Noah Centineo│

YES YES YES YES YES.

│Brooklyn Nine-Nine│Season 6│

│Jan 10│

Daniel J. Goor, Michael Schur│

Andre Braugher, Andy Samberg, Stephanie Beatriz│

I’m so glad NBC saved this!!!!

│One Day At A Time│Season 3│

│Feb 8│

Gloria Calderon Kellett, Mike Royce│

Justina Machado, Todd Grinnell, Isabella Gomez│

This is probably mine and mum’s fave sitcom that makes us piss ourselves laughing but also makes us sob.

│Game of Thrones│Season 8│

│Apr 14│

David Benioff, D.B. Weiss│

Emilia Clarke, Peter Dinklage, Kit Harington│

I won’t make it to the end of 2019, not because of depression

but because I’m going to die while watching this, I know it.

│Stranger Things│Season 3│

│Jul 4│

Matt Duffer, Ross Duffer│

Millie Bobby Brown, Finn Wolfhard, Winona Ryder│

I just want the gang together and happy.

│Mindhunter│Season 2│

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Joe Penhall│

Jonathan Groff, Holt McCallany, Anna Torv│

I gotta watch it and live text my thoughts to my aunt who is hugely into true crime (so much so that she is studying criminology). Because I’m hilarious and also I know she’ll appreciate it and also I no longer have a best friend to do this shit with.

│Big little Lies│Season 2│

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David E. Kelley│

Reese Witherspoon, Nicole Kidman, Shailene Woodley│

Big Little Lies rocked my world and made me realise I actually like thrillers.

│RuPaul’s Drag Race UK│Season 1│

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I’m just excited to see what a season would look like that isn’t hosted and judged by RuPaul.

Past Grey Watches

Grey Watches // I Wanna Bone Jude Law and Kate Winslet – The Holiday

Grey Watches // It Has To Be A Shit Show – A Christmas Prince: The Royal Wedding

Grey Watches // I Hate It So Much I Love It – A Christmas Prince

Yes I know I said I wouldn’t change the appearance of my blog while I was gone but we all know I’m a dirty liar.

Besides, it’s only some small tweaks here and there and I won’t be going back through my past posts to edit everything to match. A year of posts is too many. I promised myself and my mum I wouldn’t do it again.

This year I’m going to be posting less! Like half the amount I did last year.

Last year I eventually got to a schedule of four posts a week and this year I will be doing two.

I’m doing this for a couple of reasons.

I exercise and eat healthy now and it turns out those two things take up so much time.

I wanna start actually dedicating time to working on my new WIP and maybe have a draft by the end of the year????

I’m planning on doing more Grey Watches post this year, and my book review posts will now be called Grey Reads and I might try and do more discussion posts called Grey Speaks and maybe WIP writing updates in Grey Writes??? It’s all about that branding.

But who knows what I’ll do, honestly I don’t even know myself! I’m terrible with follow through but we’ll see!

My Ancient Archive posts will be moved to once every two months as well because those posts take ages and as much as I love them I just don’t have that kind of time. And they’ll also get a rename—Grey Learns

I was also going to start requesting physical ARCs from publishers but ahhhh turns out I don’t actually enjoy writing reviews??? And there’s always the risk that I’m not gonna like it and I’ll feel obligated to finish it and I don’t have time for that either so I’m not doing that, I’ll be requesting far, far less from Netgalley.

I’ll be posting book reviews roughly once or twice a month, instead of once a week. I’ll still be writing reviews for all the books I read but they’ll be a lot shorter and I’ll mostly just post them on my Goodreads.

If you notice I am reading a book you wanna see a review of over on here, let me know and I’ll be sure to post it!

Past Month In Review

Month in Review // Christmas is Over Thank Fuck – December

Month in Review // November – I Already Hate Christmas

Month in Review // July, August, September & October – New Post Series!

Goals

Get to a point where I walk 10000 steps a day.

On the reg, like every day for the most part. At the moment I just have my step goal as 8000 a day because small steps literally.

But I hit my first 10000 steps on the 16th of last month so that was very exciting for me especially since it was on the day I don’t go for a walk and proved why that is my day off because it’s my shopping day so I’m clearly walking plenty, to begin with!

Find a way to be more financially stable somehow.

Whether that be by a full-time job or maybe work out a way to get paid for doing what I love??

I don’t know. I’m trying to be more open to different paths to get to a place I want to be.

Also, it seems like I may be forced into this sooner rather than later thanks to things out of my control so that’s exciting but also terrifying because ANXIETY.

Finish a draft for my WIP.

Have I started writing it yet? Absolutely not but I’m gonna try!

And I’m very excited about the concept. Think queer banshees and witches and strong women and girls supporting each other. That’s the plan.

Read 50 books.

I read 100 last year and 130 the year before that but with focusing on writing and my health I feel that trying to keep reading that many books is just going to stress me out so I’m not doing it!

Also, I’m already struggling to get through a book a week right now and I need to if I have any hope of just reading 50.

Legally change my name FINALLY!

And guess what guys that one is very close to being complete!

I’ve submitted to the paperwork and now it’s just the waiting for it to get approved and then I can pick up my new birth certificate!

I’ve been waiting for this moment for years so I’m very excited!

Continue going to therapy.

I’m in a much better mental space than I was last year but I still need therapy. Especially since last year was basically just me venting about how fucked up my family is and this year is about me so I want to use my therapy to focus on my shit, get official diagnoses and maybe testing out medication???

Also find a better way to deal with my paranoia because guys, it’s been especially rough lately.

Take regular mental health days

This is much needed!!!!!

And by mental health days I mean spend one whole day doing nothing but maybe watching Netflix and reading and crying if I need to.

My mum and I don’t really stop and so we get hit with emotions at really inconvenient times so I’m hoping that if we schedule a day where we can allow ourselves to be emotional then it might help?

I want to aim for once a month but we’ll see.

Play more video games.

Because they’re fun and I like them and I keep telling myself I don’t have time because it’s not important but fuck important, sometimes you just gotta do shit because it’s fun and pointless.

Past Month Ahead

Month Ahead // Happy Birthday To Me + Hiatus Announcement – January

Month Ahead // December – I Already Hate It

Month Ahead // November – New Post Series

2019 is all about growth and glow ups guys, I can feel it.

What are you doing this year? What are you reading? What are your goals?

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