#got an email today FINALLY confirming my internship next semester

[mrspockify]

GOD sometimes thing work out okay huh? 😭😭😭😭

[spikeisawesome456]

what happened this weeek bro????

Well, funny you should ask that, my friend! Completely unprompted and everything! 😅

Ahhh. But BOY has this week been a chore. The last two days especially. I'll put this in a read more to prevent dash clutter, because this is a LOT. -.-

Anyway. For context, I am currently getting my master's degree in Educational Counseling, to hopefully become a school counselor. My college is completely online, which is helpful in some ways, unhelpful in others. I am also an after school teacher at an elementary school, a job I've had for almost 5 years now.

So, on Monday the 3rd, almost two weeks ago, my very last grad class started. My program has us doing one class a month, instead of five classes a semester or something, so this is my only class for this month (and the next, since this is a research class/my thesis class, and is logically a bit longer).

However, instead of hearing from my new professor on the 3rd, we had radio silence for a week. This was very frustrating, since I have quite a few questions about my research project that I came up with in my last class in December (yes, my last class ended in December, I guess they didn't have this class until April for some reason. I've been doing my internship the last 3 months though, so I was fine with it), but I decided to overlook it and do the assignments, which were just to submit the assignments from the last research class I took in December, which was easy.

Then, this Monday the 10th, I finally heard from my professor. She sent everyone a few emails at 3 am (??? Why 3 am I have no idea. I bet she finally checked her email, went "OH SHOOT I HAVE CLASS" and frantically send the emails), one of which said our first zoom class was that day at 5pm. Problem is, I work until 6:00 every week day, and I didn't have nearly enough time to ask for the hour off. Plus, I was a bit pissed at my prof for not giving enough warning. I sent an email asking if she would record the class, as well as asking her my main question I had. She replied back saying that she wanted to meet up with me privately, which I said that I was amenable to, telling her my availability. She then... emailed me back (calling me KAREN, when I had said my name is KATIE VERY CLEARLY IN MY CLOSER AND MY EMAIL IS LITERALLY MY FULL NAME) saying I didn't answer her????? When I very obviously did???

Well. Whatever, it was weird, but we eventually decided to meet Friday (today) at noon. I confirmed it, she didn't, but I just hoped she'd make the meeting.

Which... she did not. I sent her an email this morning at 7:00 asking for confirmation, and she never responded??? At all??? Like... dude??????? Finally, at noon, I decided to call it a wash and went to lunch with my parents. I had left my internship early for the meeting, too, and I was honestly super pissed.

But you want to know the kicker?? The real kick in the nuts????? When I finally got to lunch and sat down at 12:50... I opened my email for funsies and saw that she had finally emailed me... AT 12:15, SAYING THAT SHE WAS WAITING IN THE CLASS ZOOM LINK THAT SHE SENT THE CLASS. THAT SHE NEVER TOLD ME WE WERE SUPPOSED TO MEET IN. WHAT THE HELL.

I was SO DONE at this point I wanted to scream. I have since emailed the director of the whole program, her boss, and hopefully the director will get back to me... soon. But I have a feeling I will be stuck with this moron, for my most important class. And the worst thing is, I STILL DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER TO MY QUESTION, MEANING I DON'T KNOW IF I'M WASTING MY TIME DOING THIS WEEK'S HOMEWORK. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Ugh.

Anyway. If you thought THAT was bad, I also found out that I'm apparently not enrolled in my second internship class, despite the fact I'm at the exact same location, with the exact same counselor as my supervisor (I have a new internship class every 200 hours apparently, needing 600 hours total). No one told me I needed to apply for each class, either. But regardless, I now have to apply to the next class, even though I just finished my last 200 hours and am now starting my next 200, but I don't even know if they will count because my school is incompetent. And on top of that, the person who is reviewing my application has no idea how to insert my birth day and SSN into the credential website to see if I am clear to work at a school. I'm just... so freaking done with this school, I HATE THEM SO MUCH AHHHHH.

AND THEN, ON TOP OF ALL THAT... At work yesterday, there was legit a NAKED MAN IN THE WINDOW OF THE HOUSE OVERLOOKING THE AREA WE HAVE THE KIDS PLAY IN EVERY DAY. AND TWO STUDENTS SAW HIM, ONE A KINDERGARTEN GIRL. AND SHE SAID SHE SAW EVERYTHING. This poor little girl... I looked to confirm there was indeed a naked man, and while I was able to look away fast enough to not see anything untoward (and the window was slightly blurred at least), I was able to confirm that he was, at least, not wearing a shirt or pants. Whether he had underwear on, I don't know, but it was still very disturbing, especially because he's been watching us for a few months now... I thought it was just some guy looking over his fence curiously at the kids outside, but now, I don't know. He definitely knew we were out there, since I am fairly certain I saw his face. My supervisor is handling this one, but I still am very creeped out by this.

Anyway, there is more, but I'm tired just writing this. I want to sleep for days, but I don't even get to rest this weekend, since I have homework THAT I DON'T KNOW WILL EVEN MATTER SINCE I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO MY RESEARCH, but whatever. WHATEVER. At least the work isn't hard. It's just coming up with my questionnaire for the kids to answer. But still!!!

So, that's how my week has been going. How's yours?? :-) :-) :-)

[writtenbyaini]

April 1st

Hey guys, welcome to the not-so-secret secret project. A project where I blog my thoughts and plans for the month of April. With April being the month of Ramadhan and (also) my birth month. I made this decision to make April the month where I make changes in my life on things that I have always wanted or haven’t gotten the chance to finish previously.

I am writing this on the 1st of April, meaning it has officially commenced and anything I type from now onwards are improvised on the go. So please bear with me as I experiment with things; I foresee the road ahead being very bumpy.

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I left the first two paragraph for an hour so now I’m just thinking: What if I can’t commit? What’s in it for me? What am I going to do? And to be truthful, I don’t think I will lose anything, rather I’d probably be the stagnant self that I am right now. But for real though, this secret project means that I do want to gain something from it, and I am documenting this to give myself the motivation and reference in the future.

Investments

So… let’s start with how I have finally made some investment in Squirrelsave. No, this is NOT sponsored at all LOL. I created an account last year October-ish to finally start investing on something, and me being a newbie and still discovering how investments work, I found and downloaded the App to start, but I didn’t deposit any money thinking MAYBE, just maybe, I should only do it when I start working full time.

But last night I was sorting out my finance, and I was reminded of this abandoned account I have, so I finally did it today. I deposited $10 in my account, just because I was afraid that I might transfer it to the wrong account, but I got an email that it’s being processed, so once it’s confirmed, I’ll deposit another 40. Starting small, but yay to investments!

Savings

Well of course I must talk about Savings after investing. Remember how I said I was sorting out my finance? I went to Popular after work to get myself a folder to keep my cash in, sort of like a piggy bank but more organized. I told myself again and again last year, I MUST save up. I lived my life way too comfortable spending money knowing it’ll come again, even at a cost of going through my weeks with 0 in my bank account. So, keeping some savings helps me prepare for what’s to come, or ease whatever I will need to pay for.

I have no main goal for my savings as of now (i.e. Marriage), but I do want to prepare for anything that happens in the future, so I split my savings into a few categories:

General savings (it can be for anything)

Medical emergencies (throwback to when I had to spend 100+ for my dental appointment)

Parents/Family (as of now I give my mom 100 every month since January)

I had more categories in mind (retirement, spare) but I was thinking maybe I’ll figure it out as I go; those 3 are what I think would be the priority for me. I also have another bank account where I keep 300 inside mainly because I want to get 2 new monitors for my setup next month. They cost $504 in total… MY GOD are they expensive as heck.

The reason(s) why I MUST get new monitors are because:

The screens are peeling off from its frame.

I can’t install my current monitors to my monitor arms (it doesn’t have VESA mount for me to attach it to the arms) ugh I really should’ve checked beforehand.

Hopefully in May, I could buy them so I can increase my savings more.

Working Life

Every time something money-related issue comes up I blame myself for not saving as soon as I got my job as an intern. It’s the spendthrift behavior for me.

I managed to get an internship during my Year 2 summer semester, which means I was ahead of my peers, then I finished my internship mid-fall semester and continued working part-time in the same company. I chose to work part-time because I had class ongoing and being allowed to clock my hours in means I can also focus on schoolwork in peace when I need to.

This is my last month working as a part-time in the company and I’m hoping I can continue as a full-time once it ends. But I haven’t gotten the chance to talk to my supervisor yet. Maybe Monday, I hope.

The pay isn’t that bad... question mark??? My dad pays for everything in the house, so my pay is basically my own allowance. Problem was, as mentioned, I’m a BIG spender, it IS bad. I have my parents to blame for (somewhat). Recently I found out that they faced financial issues when I was very young (they’re fine now) but I think because of how secretive they were about it, I lack the knowledge of dealing with money, leaving me with the current state that I am now. Can you imagine how much money we’d make if we had invested in things (safely) way earlier?

Sigh, I’m just hoping that this habit changes, so stay tune for the end of the month???

Spiritual Health

It’s the fasting month starting 3rd April onwards. Which is pretty much a blessing for me: Less spending on food. It’s a challenge for me to fight my spending habits as well. I think in the past few years I haven’t gotten to properly find myself the time and space to improve my spiritual connection with God. I am THAT person that uses Ramadhan as an excuse to be more pious and stuff, but I think that’s also the wonder of it, don’t you think? So rather than holding myself back thinking that I am not worthy enough to be better during this fasting month, I should use it to my best of abilities to do better and be better.

I also found this post on Twitter whereby we can track our readings to complete our recitation of the Quran, which is something I should try this year. I had friends around me during secondary school do this challenge but I had never really done it.

One thing for sure, I hope this month gives me the strength I need to face it with little to no hardship. I wish to be better.

Conclusion

I think that’s all I could write for today. It’s 1:25am right now for me, I had just finished a few hours of gaming with my friends.

I also left my tabs open as I haven’t finished finding the right theme for this blog. So just know that whatever theme you see here is chosen sincerely as I have such an indecisive attitude towards making a design choice.

See you in the next post.

Note: I KNOW this post is dated 3rd April but it was such a hectic day what with the night prayers and all that. I’ll do a double post next!

[canaryatlaw]

So today was pretty good, and I'm not too abominably tired (just a little abominably tired) so I can deal with that for now. My alarm went off at 7 but I had basically figured I could pass off my morning obligation since it was for the judge shadow for the child and family law association and another e-board member would be there anyway so I texted her and went back to sleep until my typical Friday wake up at 11:10, then got ready to go to school, which turned out to be a bit of a bust because it turns out I didn't actually have class....I thought that may be the case because we were supposed to have oral arguments this week (despite mine not being till next week), and that's all it says in the syllabus in the week, but the week where we just had individual conferences and no class it specifically said no class in the syllabus so I figured we had it....apparently not, lol. I mean it makes sense since our prof has a trial to deal with right now, but I got there and nobody else was there so I texted someone and confirmed we didn't have class lol. I wasn't too mad though because it just meant I could take my time at the gym and have a good workout, so I went to do that. Took the bus to the gym, and did the whole arm and leg workout thing for a while before moving on to abs. I was trying not to piss off my back too much because it's really been bugging me lately, but I managed to do so anyway. I got a good amount of ab workouts done though, so I was satisfied with that. By the time I got to the exercise bike though my back was really killing me and my stomach was starting to hurt, probably from overdoing it on the abs even though I tried not to, so I wound up bailing from the exercise bike after 20 minutes because I didn't want to overdo it more and injure myself in the process. It was still a really good workout though so I was satisfied. I stopped at the little tea place that's right there that I've wanted to stop in on (and it's the more prudent choice then stopping in on the Dylan's candy bar that's right there) and got some hibiscus Apple cider and a croissant which were both very good. Took the bus back to school then and chilled out in the PAD office till our meeting, and in the mean time I did a couple communication based things and also caught up on updating the company tumblr because I was nearly 3 weeks behind and the queue was down to like, 110 posts, which is at least half depleted haha so I had to deal with that obviously and restock it properly. I had been texting my mom about my tiredness issue and why I didn't want to go to a doctor about it, and she was saying she just started seeing a new doctor there that's been good. It's not that I don't want to go to a doctor, I just don't want to go to a doctor who doesn't know what he's doing, and unfortunately I've had a good amount of experience with those. It's hard too because when you google "mono experts" almost all of them are some form of alternative medicine and like at this point I have almost no trust in any sort of alternative medicine just because of all the bs I've been through with it, and I don't want to walk out with some loony diagnosis nobody's ever heard of and they find in everybody who comes in, because been there done that and it hasn't helped at all. Sigh. Idk what to do there, we'll have to see. I was also emailing with children's rights about an estimate for when they can let me know about the internship. This was prompted by an email I received the other night from my current office regarding a conference in May they always send all their law clerks to that sounds really damn cool and they want to know by March 15th if the law clerks want to go, so if I'm staying there for the summer I'd want to know by then so I can definitely go. They said they could definitely let me know within the next two weeks, so that's good. I'm still feeling good about them, I think they're just analyzing all their recipients before making any final decisions which I can understand. So around 5ish people started arriving for the meeting so I talked with them and all, and we started at 5:30. It was a pretty basic meeting, just talking about plans for the rest of the semester and such and everything we need to get done. My spring break friend who runs the donate and days had texted me yesterday asking if we wanted to sponsor the march donate a day so I brought that up and we decided we could, and someone else could attend (as I'll be at HVFF that weekend) so that was good. We also decided to scrap the other March service event I was supposed to be doing, some sort of bracket game for March madness that I didn't know the first thing about, just because it didn't ever make much money, so that's at least one less thing for me to have to deal with. Heading home after the meeting, had some food and then turned to my tv shows while catching up on other stuff online. Apparently my tv decided not to record this week's episode of Powerless, so I'll have to figure that out at some point. Same with Suits, which I'm now behind on (which I'm somewhat apathetic to since I've not been enjoying the show all that much lately). Speaking of such, I started with 24: Legacy which was enough to finally get me to call it quits with the show. I gave it more than an ample chance and it just wasn't doing it for me, so I'm done with it for now and I don't feel bad about it. Next up was Riverdale, which I had to watch last week's episode and this week's episode of. I have to say, Riverdale has become like the land of shitty parenting. Like there was so much crappy parenting going on in these two episodes it made me so angry. Like you're just asking for your kids to be screwed up. The plots were good though, plenty interesting. I'm of course interested in where they're going with the whole Jason thing, and I have to say POOR CHERYL MAN she has to deal with some crazy ass parents, clearly. That sucks. I felt very bad for Josie as well during her storyline with her dad, who seems for all intents and purposes awful. I definitely appreciated the whole Polly storyline, especially with Betty finally finding her sister and (spoiler) finding out she's pregnant. Dude, if I were Betty and I found out my parents did that to my sister I would never trust them with anything, ever. So messed up. Like I said, land of shitty parents. But like I said, overall I enjoyed both episodes. Lastly I watched this week's episode of Training Day, which was of course preceded by a short but sad tribute to Bill Paxton. Still don't know what they're doing with the show going forward from here. They can't really keep it going without him, so they'll have to figure out how to end it one way or another, which sucks because it likely means Kyle will never figure out who killed his dad, which was kind of the whole point of this thing. Sigh. The episode was good though, interesting topic, but I liked following the prisoner's escape and finding his family and trying to save them. It was a well-executed plot, although I have to strenuously object to it being that easy to break out of prison, lol. If it were, the folks at prison break did WAY too much work. But yeah, I like the way they wrapped everything up and just generally did a good job with it, and that was about it for my night. Sleeping in tomorrow of course, then hopefully making a target run and doing a couple other errands like hitting up the post office and possibly visiting my friend Louis in his nursing home, I'll have to call and inquire about visiting hours and hope they work for me. Hopefully I won't sleep all that late so I'll still have time to get shit done, although I do of course look forward to the sleep, which I'm going to get a start on now. Goodnight mah people. Lots of love.