#gortash is the ONLY one who looks at both versions of durge and says 'yes you are someone i care for and i want to stay at your side'

[crossdressingdeath]

No thoughts. Head empty. Gortash being the only person in the world to love and care for Durge both as Bhaal's Chosen and as an amnesiac hero only.

[deathvalleyqueen]

Let me tell you about my DnD character - I have turned into my Durge OC... (yes it's the same character - i change her hair a lot)

Her name is T'alice - it rhymes with Malice. (because I too, like Neil on this High Rollers oneshot - am a Drizzt stan and in the DnD game I play her original version she may have some connection to Drizzt or a Drizzt like character in my friend's world we are still mid-campaign and I genuinely don't know who her father is yet - only her mother is a goddess.)

She is a Lolth Sworn Drow (or rather thinks she is)

She has black hair over the typical White/Silver of Drow cuz of Bhaal babe things.

Durge/Gortash is very much a real thing in my HC for her.

She is a Hexblade Warlock/Phantom Rogue multiclass - both modded in- in my DnD game she was going to be a Hexblade/Rogue multiclass but my DM/friend begged me not to subject him to a Hexblade so she is a Barbarian/Rogue with a homebrew Rogue subclass that lets me use heavy weapons for sneak and she used the Kobold Press subclass for Path of Herald Barb - there aren't equivalent mods for either and while I am learning to mod subclasses in I haven't yet managed to make one work. Which is why I went back to the original concept of her being a Hexblade/Rogue build for BG3.

Her Hexblade weapon is the Stillmaker - yes... with all the implications that Gortash gave her it etc.

She tries to fight the urges - somewhat. Still very stabby.

Used to braid Orin's hair.... (I gave her very similar hair to Orin and like this is just some little HC I have about why they look the same)

There are 3 people that call her "Tali" - Gortash, Astarion and Gale... all men she may or may not have romantic entanglements with. Anyone else who dares - will promptly stabbed in the face.

She and Gortash have known each other a very long time, I would say since their teen years - I picture them being very close in age.

If either of them (T'alice or Gortash) are actually capable of feeling love for another being - the only real person they have love for is each other.

The real idea behind enslaving the elder brain was for T'alice to amass enough power for her to ascend to Godhood so she would break free of the Urge. This explains why she tries to fight her Urges.

The reason she ends up with either Gale and/or Astarion - is they both are very ambitious men. I am very torn of if she is poly or not. Probably because I can't resist Astarion's charm.

The only bits of her old life she remembers - revolve around Gortash.

Karlach thinks T'alice is familiar but she can't place where she knows her from till act 3 when she sees T'alice and Gortash standing next to each other.