#gonna take a look at the tags when i feel less sappy bc i Will Cry ahdjdksk

[scionshtola]

more healing adventures but i healed dohn mheg and it was very stressy but another party member told me i was doing good 🥹

[tellthatbrokebitch]

life update:

so i’ve been here for six weeks now, and honestly? i think they’re going to discharge me soon. i have made… tremendous progress. six weeks ago i couldn’t stand, i couldn’t walk, i was in pain any time iattempted either of these actions, and i’m not gonna sugarcoat it - i was super fucking depressed, to the point where my own thoughts scared me some of the time. everything felt hopeless. i had been dealing with this for a year, and every time i looked to the future, i just wasn’t there. i couldn’t fathom living the rest of my life like this. event hough it all happened over the course of a year, it felt like i was on a slow-moving train headed over a cliff, and i couldn’t get off

every time there was even a glimmer of hope, it was quickly extinguished. and then i came here. and it hasn’t been perfect; it’s been a huge adjustment, and i’ve had to face some harsh truths, and i’ve had to overcome a lot of my own insecurities and fought my anxiety and impostor syndrome every step of the way - literally - but i did it. and yeah, i had setbacks. there was a day last week when i think i spent most of the day crying. i’ve woken up in the morning and been in such pain that i didn’t think i could possibly put any weight on my good foot, let alone the bad one

but i started with a single step. i went from only being able to take five steps, to taking ten, to fifty, to one hundred, and now i can walk all the way to the pt room/gym, do my pt, and walk back. i went from having to - TMI - use a bedside commode to being able to walk to and from the bathroom without help. and yes, all of this is with a walker - but i actually just yesterday tested taking a few cautious steps without it, and i didn’t fall. there’s a set of fake stairs in the gym, and i’ve gone up and down with minimal assistance, the last two times with a cane. my last goal is gaining confidence using the stairs, so that when i finally go home, i’ll be able to use our stairs without worrying i’ll fall. maybe by the end of the year, i’ll be able to forego the walker/cane altogether. maybe next year, i’ll be able to work again

the point is, i’m doing better. and i know i’m not the most engaging, and i’m not all that sociable, and usually i would rather rip out my hair than make the first friendly overture. but to my mutuals, to my followers, to anyone who’s ever left a nice comment in the tags of a post or engaged with a post i made… the byler fandom, for all that i feel very much on the outskirts, you’ve all made the last fifteen months of my life more bearable, less soul-crushing. these two little guys have given me so much, bc before season four, i hadn’t written anything in… years. and now i’ve published over 200k just in the last eleven months, and i’ve had several lovely conversations with lovely people, and it’s all collectively kept me from drowning. so thank you

oh gosh this got so sappy

[immovable-force-archive]

send me a ship // @motherfucking-username​ (I’m doing both but I’m gonna do ‘em in separate posts)

1- Who is the most affectionate?

Connor.

2- Big spoon/Little spoon?

Kisama prefers being the big spoon, but I know Connor likes being able to look at/hold Kisama. Honestly I’m not sure they’re big on spooning when they could just hold each other face-to-face instead. When they do though, they probably trade off.

3- Most common argument?

Probably something about Kisama working too much or not telling Connor things. Kisama keeps a lot of secrets and that’s a main source of friction between them. They don’t ‘argue’ about that much exactly but it does come up a lot.

4- Favorite non-sexual activity?

Cuddling. Although Kisama loves taking Connor just about anywhere outside of work, showing him anything is super cute. 

5- Who is most likely to carry the other?

Hmmmm... It’s close, but I think I’m gonna say Kisama. Which is funny because Kisama tries not to-- Connor weighs over 300 lbs and casually picking him up requires his super-strength. At the same time though, I can totally imagine Kisama carrying Connor to bed bridal-style, or lifting him up and spinning him around when they get home from work. (These two are disgusting ifya haven’t noticed.)

6- What is their favorite feature of their partner’s?

Kisama’s favorite is either his eyes or his hair. He really loves that tuft Connor has that never stays up.

7- What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

... Everything? They realize it when Kisama is still in Detroit, and has to reconcile that they have about 2 weeks before Kisama heads back to Naobi, basically for good. I’m sure their entire work dynamic changes for a start, though. A lot of looks and pining, Kisama wishing he could just stop working and make every second count before time runs out.

8- Nicknames? & if so, how did they originate?

'Darling’ would be Kisama’s favorite for Connor, which is something he heard his parents (his dad, specifically) call each other a lot. But Kisama’s fond of other pet names too, like ‘sweetie’ or ‘honey.’ He’ll also call Connor ‘Officer’ at work, and jokingly outside of it.

9- Who worries the most?

God, that’s a tough one. They both worry way too much, can I just say both? Maybe Kisama just barely edges it out because he’s always worrying about Connor leaving if he finds out his secrets, or if he’s protecting Connor too much/not enough at work. Wouldn’t be surprised to see @motherfucking-username disagree though.

10- Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Connor. Seems like the sort of thing he’d memorize.

11- Who tops?

Kisama because that’s what he prefers, but if Connor wanted to give it a go, Kisama would (eventually) try to bottom instead.

12- Who initiates kisses?

They both do, although I think Connor does a bit more often once he gets more comfortable with it.

13- Who reaches for the other’s hand first?

Connor.

14- Who kisses the hardest?

Connor, probably? I think they both get pretty into it though.

15- Who wakes up first?

Connor, because he doesn’t sleep--

16- Who wants to stay in bed just a little longer?

Funnily enough, I think Connor again. Kisama is used to getting up early and going straight to work, and I could see Connor saying they have a few minutes to spare to cuddle before getting dressed. (And like backing it up with an exact time of how long it takes for them to get ready, just to sound super convincing.)

17- Who says I love you first?

I think Connor did, in a roundabout way. He admitted feelings first, at least. Kisama might’ve been the one to actually say ‘I love you’, although now I’m not sure.

18- Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it usually say?)

God, Connor would pack lunches for Kisama, wouldn’t he? Maybe gross, sappy, cute things (hearts, short quotes/poems about love, random things about Kisama that he likes, etc.) because these two are disgusting trash--

19- Who tells their family/friends about their relationship first?

Connor tells Hank everything-- Hank actually knew about Connor’s feelings before Kisama did. Kisama tells no one anything ever, although his bodyguards/Axa inevitably find out.

20- What do their family/friends think of their relationship?

Kisama’s bodyguards (Andrew and Yuuto) are initially in disbelief, and Yuuto is pretty disgusted with it, but they ultimately come to support Kisama because of how happy Connor makes him. (Having spent so much time with Kisama, and seen a few of his bad moments, they know he really needs more people in his life to support him.) Axa Pfertun, Kisama’s secretary/second-in-command, also starts out as extremely against the relationship, and believes Kisama can’t afford to be anything less than 100% professional at all times, or it will be used against him. She also comes around at some point during the time Kisama and Connor are separated.

21- Who is more likely to start dancing with the other?

Connor.

22- Who cooks more/who is better at cooking?

Connor on both counts, although I could see cooking together becoming something they do for fun at home.

23- Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines?

Both of them. They’re losers.

24- Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear during inappropriate times?

Kisama likes to compartmentalize his life as a way to cope with stress, so he has a ‘work life’ and a ‘home life.’ Things at work stay at work, and only work things are allowed at work. So I could see Connor whispering things to him at work to try and get him riled up, since he wants to bone in Kisama’s office so bad--

Real answer: They both do, Kisama’s not innocent of this either.

25- Who needs more assurance?

God, both of them again, they suck. Maybe Connor?

26- What would be their theme song?

My ship tag for them is Style by Taylor Swift, although I don’t think that’s a great one aside from a couple lines. First ones that come to mind that I like (as in, first ones I saw after looking through my Youtube likes) are This Feeling by The Chainsmokers, and Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler.

27- Who would sing to their child back to sleep?

Kisama. Unless Connor wants to sing Tequila. Or just like open his mouth and make Baby Shark play, like a speaker.

28- What do they do when they’re away from each other?

Work, mostly. That’s the main thing that keeps them apart, and these two both love diving headfirst into work to try and distract from The Gay Thoughts.

29- one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart.

The fact that Connor will outlive Kisama even in the best case scenario is pretty heartbreaking, along with the fact that Kisama doesn’t think he’s going to make it there. He’ll probably die young, just because of who he is and what his job is. It’s also heartbreaking that Kisama knows there is, technically, a way to bring him back indefinitely via Devil Contracts, and Loqero would be 100% down to help Connor with it. He just doesn’t want this to happen because it basically requires killing someone each time, and Kisama hates the idea that Connor would consider sacrificing innocent people if it meant bringing his boyfriend back. It’s something he never wants to confront, and will probably never bring up as a result.

30- one headcanon about this OTP that mends it.    

Kisama having to take a meeting over the phone while they’re home and it’s running long and Kisama’s pissed about it. Connor walking over and touching his phone to make it shut off, then taking Kisama’s hand and going “Oh no your battery died :) What a shame :)” And then they smooch bc screw running a country when you can be gay instead

Also Kisama at work with Connor sitting in his lap, “””making sure Kisama gets work done””” when they’re actually just snuggling.

[ariyadaivaris]

artemidi replied to your post “boy oh boy i sure hope nobody asks about the embarrassing sappy au i...”

I need......more info on this.....blease

i’ve GOT more info on this don’t you even worry your sweet fred head about it !!

nxt’s tag team division is, to say the least, KIND OF...UH...BORDERLINE NONEXISTENT AS OF LATE and so when the time comes to set up the dusty rhodes tag team classic they really end up needing to Scrumble something together! the original plan was that tyler (bate) (to name specific tylers) and jack would team up however long they needed to for the tournament, but oh NO tyler’s been gravely injured, probably by pete because he’s a motherfucker

jack is stuck without a partner and the tournament is stuck without the final team! regal puts out a desperate call for help and ariya decides to strike a deal because why would he team with jack motherfucking gallagher without something to gain from it

the deal is this: ariya teams with jack, withstands whatever mockery comes his way this time, carries the team through the tournament and when he wins, he gets a shot at the cruiserweight title. ariya is a difficult person to work with but desperate times calls for desperate measures, and so ariya and jack end up being the newest addition to the tag team classic! Oh What Drama ! 

things are TENSE, TO SAY THE LEAST

they have to take a bit of a hiatus from 205 so they can travel with nxt, some of the tournament matches take place at house shows and live events and they do still need to work together as a team outside of the tournament if only because they’d be completely fucked otherwise! jack still can’t drive so ariya (dear sweet ariya who can’t drive for shit) is the official pilot in their travels, and jack is...an...interesting co-pilot

the first few weeks are mostly ariya giving jack Ze Silent Treatment while jack refuses to shut up ever and it’s kind of an awkward uneasy dynamic, even after they win their first tournament match through SOME MIRACLE

ariya finally talks to jack during a drive because jack stumbles onto the topic of musicals and says some things and ariya gets very heated very easily and it MIGHT turn into a cutting discussion about the accessibility of theatre and of bootlegs, and about who and what gets visibility in mainstream media and who and what gets nominated for tonys, etc, but its the most fun ariya’s had in awhile and they both kinda learn smth from it and from then on ariya’s more willing to like. at least talk to jack. and it’s...disappointingly...very nice

i feel like during a house show ariya gets trapped in the corner and almost gets dropkicked but jack manages to get to his corner and use his umbrella as kind of a makeshift shield to throw off their opponent and give ariya time to collect his wits and it’s maybe a silly thing to think about but its cute imo! my city now! 

after their second round match, which they almost accidentally win (against reDRagon, no less, bc let’s be real while we’re being self indulgent here i DO care more abt this storyline than about those two probably very talented but uninteresting slices of white bread), jack compliments ariya’s performance in the match and ariya doesn’t take it well because like. to this point he’s only thought jack’s just been humiliating and mocking him for no fucken reason since they met, and why wouldn’t he turn up this opportunity to backhandedly insult ariya now. and jack doesn’t KNOW that, and so ariya starts giving him a cold shoulder again for no reason as far as jack knows. OOH this drama. OOH this suspense

after they make it to the semi-finals (which no one was expecting, and certainly not them, honestly), they’ve gotta go to a press event with the other semi-finalists and it’s maybe not the most plot relevant thing but ariya does clean up really nicely and jack is maybe a little distracted the entire time because holy shit

and maybe then jack kinda realizes he hasn’t been engaging in a rivalry with ariya so much as maybe he’s had a dumb awful crush on him this entire time and not known how to realize that or express it and spends the night trying to keep his composure (because who is jack gallagher if not composed) while internally just writhing in embarrassment and agony and going “oh nnnnNNNOOOOOOO oh my goddd what did i DOOOO why did i DO that oh noooooOOOOOooOOooOoo” and its a rough night! 

and ariya sees jack being less than 100% during all this and sees it as Oh He Doesn’t Care, Of Course, Why Would He, and he’s pissed because he really thought they were getting somewhere as a team, and alas here they are and jack isn’t even paying attention to what’s happening, what a rude asshole as fucking always, and ariya MAYBE--just maybe--maybe just fuckin clocks jack in the face after jack tries to tell him he handled that really well

and jack sincerely admires that ariya remained pretty composed and serious and focused even when jack was busy trying not to wither into embarrassed gay dust but ariya only hears that as jack intentionally leaving ariya to his own devices and mocking how shitty a job he did

(not that ariya would ever say he thinks he did a shitty job, but in his heart he DOES want to do well and be a worthy contender, and opponent, and partner, and he knows he gets lucky a lot and so when he DOESN’T and when he’s painfully in control of the things that happen to him everything feels amplified and clumsy and Wrong and jack’s not helping lmao. i love drama)

obviously this isn’t received well and jack and ariya get into a brawl and they have to get broken up by their coworkers in attendance and ariya’s just yelling WHAT DID I EVEN DO TO YOU ASSHOLE, WHAT’S YOUR PROBLEM

jack stays with mustafa and lince for the night because ariya straight up threw his bags outside the door of their room and locked him out and jack plays the words back and he’s like Wait...Maybe I’m Misunderstanding The Situation Here

and the next morning he goes to talk to ariya 

(who answers the door looking just fine and who hasn’t been alternating between uneasy sleep and furious tears all night, ariya’s fine) 

and he doesn’t like...get the nerve to go “hey i think i might be in love with you a bit” but he does manage to tell ariya he hasn’t been mocking him, and he’s been sincere this whole time, and he’s genuinely sorry he’s been a dick to ariya since they started on 205, but ariya, to be fair, has also been a dick, maybe more in terms of beating people up but jack’s sorry about what’s been happening, and ariya doesn’t have to accept that apology, and if ariya wants to forfeit their semi-finals match, he understands entirely

and ariya’s just like “yo what the fuck are you kidding i’ve still got a title shot on the line and we’re gonna win this, get in the car, it’s cool or whatever cmon lets GO” and he’s a bit flippant about it but for some reason he wants to...start grinning like an idiot and never stop again? for some reason? weird

things aren’t just all Cool suddenly after that because when i say i love slow burn shit i MEAN like, years, they’re still only barely allies but something’s There and that’s endgame, don’t play with me, we’ve gotta get face!ariya calling for a parlay with heel!jack in between here and The Datening for me to feel truly alive but thats just my humble imho

also they lose in the finals but ariya puts on enough of a performance to merit a title shot anyway and after the loss they might not work as a team anymore and they’re back to their own stories on 205 but before they get back to the hotel and get cleaned up and wash off the grime of bitter bitter defeat ariya finds jack sitting with his chin on his knees in the stairwell and sits silently with him and they maybe hold h*nds for like the BRIEFEST of minutes and never talk about it again but like. we’ve gone this far with this shitty badly written self-indulgent embarrassing post right? try and stop me

just kidding im stopping myself now. i hate that i wrote all of this. im gonna kill myself thanks

[crazyfangarlady]

Sildy I know like little of the windy son I drew for you please ramble about him to me 💙 also how's the green bean

my boy my man my love ZACH I’m calling it right now this is going to take me the night if I don’t try to keep it short.

Imiel is doing good!! Kind of in a lore pause while he waits for his boss’s new dragon to be born. Jeez, Ono.

nOW for proper rambles under the cut~

Most of that can probably already be found in his tag on my blog, but honestly I don’t even remember what’s in there anymore or how accurate it is. Though it’s probably still mostly good, if you wanna check it out for details I might skip here~(sidenote: after checking out his tag myself I realized there are interactions with some people you do Not like in there so. While the info is good and there is no connected lore, be wary some not-nice names are included. ;v;)

I am tORN though because there’s this huge shift between how he’s been for most of the time I had him and his current state due to Recent Lore Happenings. So whiCH ZACH DO I TALK ABOUT?? …the answer is probably to start from the beginning. More rambles for your soul. This will be too long and I am slightly sorry

Zach’s a wind mage, and part of my pirate crew, as the helmsdragon - basically, he makes the ship fly, up to creating artificial winds when needed to steer it where they want to go. That’s basically all he does- he doesn’t even take part in any of the the fighting or plundering (when the rest of the crew’s busy doing That, he’s still flying the airship). Our man doesn’t much like fighting, you see.

…which might sound weird coming from a pirate, but he’s not always been one. It’s quite a recent thing, even. He was born to a family of very rich merchants from the Cloudsong, and lived most of his life basically free from trouble. Good living environment, a family that loved him more than anything - he has a twin sister, named Adara, and they grew up real close. Best sibs.

The only thing that sets him apart from the rest of his fam is his proficiency at magic. And the man is crazy good at it. It’s innate. Heck, he could make things around him and himself as well fly before he even knew how to walk or how to speak. He was quite a handful as a child. Thankfully he was well-behaved.His parents tried to hire confirmed mages to teach him to make the best out of his powers, but it???? didn’t yield anything. Mostly because he didn’t understand the methods they wanted him to apply, and also because he didn’t want to try much… So he just kept on going with whatever he could do on his own, and not much understanding why or how it worked. Why would he?? It felt more natural to him than so many other things that were already effortless. 

(People who know his powers like to joke that to be this talented, he must be the windsinger’s own son. But they’re not that far from the truth… His sister was an only egg, and a fragile one- the others had been created lifeless. Their parents prayed to the Windsinger that she’d live, and Winddad heard them. He also heard how sad they were that their other eggs did not live, and so he was like. “Yknow what, I’m gonna do y’all a favor”, and while strengthening Adara’s own egg, created a perfect copy of it from his own magic, out of which Zach would be born.)(An identical copy of his sister, created from pure magic, by his god’s own hands. Come on, he’s made of the stuff, of course it’d flow naturally to him.)

ANYWAY. Sadly, good times have an end, he has to end up on that pirate ship somehow.

See, his family’s business was well-established, making lot of money and all. But some people didn’t like that, or certain new decisions they’d made. And one rousing scandal and some carefully planted ‘evidence’ later, their name was that of traitors, and the heads of the family, imprisoned. So our man Zach, who’d been enjoying life half doing his own thing, half helping out with said business, found himself homeless, money-less, and with everyone he used to know turning his back on him, either believing the lies or not wanting to associate with him to save face. 

I think he left the Cloudsong for a little while, maybe went to his sister’s… But eventually he came back, because it was all that he knew. Maybe to see if things had changed? He’s a stubborn one. Well, they had not, and he ended up finishing his day in some random tavern in the not-so-well-frequented area. By which I mean, most of the patrons being outlaws of some sort. The only place where people would serve him anymore without at least a handful of people giving him weird looks.

That’s where he happened upon my pirate crew, and most specifically its captain, Eydis. They’d met once before, but in very different circumstances (still good though). But all that Eyds remembered basically boiled down to “this guy is a good mage, and I need a new one of those, hEY GUY OVER THERE WANNA WORK FOR ME?”

(She’s not very subtle)

(And he was kind of in a reckless mood so he was like “A friendly face? Sign me up”)(…he just did not remember that she was a pirate. Only that he didn’t associate any negative things with her, and in that moment, that was all he needed.)(...he still has trouble explaining his reasoning from back then now. If someone asks him, he say he just followed his instinct- maybe it was a little push of fate? But hey, things turned out for the better!)

So he became a member of my pirate crew. Befriended most everyone quite easily, tbh, he’s a very sympathetic guy, and a very valuable asset to the crew too. Things went so well he ended up falling in love with Eydis, they even had some kids... At some point down the line my man Cenric comes back to the crew too, falls hard for Zach, who also loves him quite a lot, and Eydis is like “if you don’t both confess I will personally make this happen” and now they’re dating too. Its generally just Chill for a good, long time period. Happiness up on a (pirate) airship.

THEN Carver, his son, happens to die. That’s hard blow #1. He kind of bottles it up, because he’s not good at dealing with things and if he just stays positive he can do as if nothing happened, right? right??TheN, within only a few months, some heck happens over with his other two children. That’s hard blow #2. This one is a little harder to shake off. On top of Carver’s death, the emotional toll becomes kind of heavy. He’s having a bit of trouble right now tbh, not to mention that Eyds is not doing her best either- and with their captain in a bad spot, the entire crew can feel it. That’s two of their most energetic people down. The mood is just Not That Great..

AND THEN more stuff happens but this is hella long so imma cut it there bc it is Not Official Yet (and once it is it’ll probs come out in a pseudo-update that’s just Bad Writing: Discord Update Edition bc i Cannot Hecking Write)

BUT!!!!! Some Bulletpoint Zach Facts for you still, in no particular order:

When I say he was born an identical copy of his sister aside from the magic powers, I mean it. He’s a trans man~

He “befriended” a Crowned Roc once. Which is to say, it tolerates him. He gets to ried on its back sometimes. By sitting on it and keeping himself stable with magic. 

Said Roc is the one he got almost all his Windbound feathers from. Blessed them himself. In my lore, they are good luck charms and magic catalysts popular among wind flight mages

I’d talk about his approach to magic more but I found some posts instead

The jade jewelry he wears means a lot to him, and he gifted some to both his SOs, so have some very short things I wrote about those bc im a sappy shit

He almost never sleeps full nights, instead taking several short naps throughout the day. It takes a little while for other people to get used to it.

He’s, as of now, probably the most powerful dragon of my lair. And he doesn’t even realize it. This man is all potential... but almost only that.

He loves his family so much it is literally The Most Important thing to him ever. Family goes before anything else

His hair looks so ridiculously good all the time, he takes good care of it. He enjoys doing other people’s hair, too

He can’t fight to save his life

He’s almost killed a man once, though. Without even lifting a finger. I’ll need to tell that story someday. It was terrifying.

I’m cutting his hair off in future lore. It will be missed.

I love him so much but don’t do enough with him and also it’s sUPER LATE so I might stop here?

Oh wait look its theme songs time

That’s all I think?

If you have any more questions feel free to ask

Thank you so much for reading QvQ ♥

[homeinabookshelf]

answer all the numbers

lmao this is going to be a looong post! if anyone cares that much about me, I’m gonna put the answers under a read more!

1. selfie? all of mine are in the tag ‘my face’2. what would you name your future kids? i really love longer name, heard Gwendolyn the other day and really dig it. also really like Persephone, but not sure if i want to stick a kid with that name lol3. do you miss anyone? one of my best friends is in the hospital right now, and even though she’s not far away, i can’t really talk to her soo4. what are you looking forward to? i’m in a place where i have a lot of good things coming towards me. in 2 weeks, i’m going to a youth activism camp that i’m very excited for5. is there anyone who can always make you smile? i’m a dork who loves my friends very much, i pretty much always smile when talking to them6. is it hard for you to get over someone? sort of… i have a lot of passing infatuations, which i usually get over in a couple weeks. if i’m hardcore crushing, it takes me waaay longer (last one took almost a year)7. what was your life like last year? almost exactly today last year, i left for 6 weeks to tour the country with my youth group. don’t regret it, but definitely nerve wracking in the beginning8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed? yes! i tend to hyperfocus while doing my makeup, and if my eyeliner isn’t right i get very upset9. who did you last see in person? i’m watching my baby cousin sleep right now10. are you good at hiding your feelings? very lol. love that repression11. are you listening to music right now? nope!12. what is something you want right now? i’ve been in a sappy mood the past few days, and I’ve just been hit with an inexplicable craving for a girlfriend13. how do you feel right now? coming out of my cage and I’ve been doing just fine14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you? not including family, probably last week at graduation(not mine)15. personality description? umm?? i’m a very fluid person, i can be very sassy and outgoing or super withdrawn based on my mood. i tend to have my head stuck in the clouds. i’m very anxious(it’s the anxiety), and i’m a total mom friend. i really like taking care of people and listening to their problems. 16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t? all the time. 17. opinion on insecurities? everyone has them, try not to let them get the best of you!18. do you miss how things were a year ago? I’ve grown so much as a person over the past year, wouldn’t go back19. have you ever been to New York? all the time! i live super close so i drive over a lot. i want to go to college there20. what is your favourite song at the moment? hard!! Avriel and the Sequoias just released their debut album and it makes me want to take a nap in a cornfield, in a good way21. age and birthday? just turned 17 in june!22. description of crush? just got over a pretty big one… don’t really want to mention in23. fear(s)? people rejecting me24. height? 5′325. role model? ummm so many lol… recently my psychology teacher influenced me a lot so i’ll say her26. idol(s)?  i try not to idolize people. everyone is a person, no more no less27. things i hate? bigotry, hypocrisy, people who make me feel small28. i’ll love you if… you are nice to me (my standards are pretty low lol)29. favourite film(s)? kinda dorky, but i love disney movies30. favourite tv show(s)? been on a steven universe kick lately31. 3 random facts? during a year, a mature tree will take in over 48 pounds of oxygen; one large tree can provide a day’s oxygen for up to 4 people; trees literally reduce the need for a/c or heat if you plant them around your house. (did you mean about me? nah)32. are your friends mainly girls or guys? mostly girls(which i love), but kinda wish i was friends with more guys!33. something you want to learn? ASL!34. most embarrassing moment? my whole life is an embarrassing moment35. favourite subject? psychology or english36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill? i want to get a ph.d, be a foster parent, and see lots of broadway shows37. favourite actor/actress? every single person in the dear evan hansen cast lol38. favourite comedian(s)? don’t really follow any in particular39. favourite sport(s)? i’ve never sported intentionally once in my life and i do not intend to start now. hockey’s pretty cool tho40. favourite memory? personal.41. relationship status? lmao single as heck, nobody wants to date this loser42. favourite book(s)? answered43. favourite song ever? hard!!!!!!!!! anything by Anais Mitchell, or the Mowgli’s44. age you get mistaken for? i’ve gotten everywhere between 14 and 22 (i’m 17)45. how you found out about your idol? lmao nah46. what my last text message says? my last 5 are all thank yous and good nights and i love yous47. turn ons(NSFW obv)? girls & guys; piercings(nipples, belly button, nose), size difference, deep/raspy voices, “shut up” “make me”, i’m a sucker for bedroom eyes, really into people who are loud during sex48. turn offs? people who are dominant(I am), there’s so many weird kinks that i find uncomfy, but mostly depends on the person i’m with49. where i want to be right now? bruh idk50. favourite picture of your idol? answered51. starsign gemini!52. something i’m talented at? answered53. 5 things that make me happy? answered54. something thats worrying me at the moment? that i’ll lose contact with all my friends over the summer while i’m away55. tumblr friends? not too many bc i’m an antisocial nerd. also too nervous to tag them here bc what if THEY don’t think we’re friends??? it’s a very complex situation56. favourite food(s)?  mac and cheese all the way57. favourite animal(s)? damn they’re all so hecking cute58. description of my best friend?  lets go with Frankie; tol, pale, dark hair, is a cat/dragon in human form59. why i joined tumblr? it’s been like 3 years, i do not remember

if you made it to the end of this, you now know a lot more about me than most people! hmu and tell me things about yourself if you want to be friends or smth