#gonna bake some brownies later and that will make feel better LOL

[poirot]

why does getting older becomes scarier every year 😭

[silverkoushi]

haikyuu!! headcanons

⇢ scenario: how you’d spend the holidays with them!! | read pt.2 here! ⇢ feat. : suga, hinata, & kageyama (karasuno) x gn!reader ⇢  wc & warnings: 1.7k, none ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ this is me trying to psych myself up for the holidays aha... thinkin of doing more if i get the inspo and make it in time ><

sugawara koushi ୨୧ ˻˳˯ₑ*॰¨̮ the holiday spirit with him is unsurprisingly soft and domestic!! he’s the kind of guy that loves to uphold traditional celebrations like the holidays, your birthdays, new years— things like that because it’s important for him to create memories that you can look back on many years later. you bet the holiday decorations will be up mid-november, so once you see him struggling to hang multi-colored lights along the exterior of your house, you have no choice but to laugh at him at first but eventually help him out!! his cheerfulness and child-like excitement nearing the holidays becomes contagious so the two of you start matching everything: penguin sweaters, (ugly but comfortable) red/green pajamas, mugs that have those cringey couple labels on them— basically, you name it, you and suga have two versions of it to wear/use!! suga would be in an extra-baking mood, too!!

if there’s a holiday party (probably at the school he’s teaching at) that you would be attending with him, suga will volunteer to be in charge of baked goodies! sugar cookies, brownies, donuts with cinnamon sugar, maybe even a raspberry choco cake roll?? the possibilities are endless with your pastry chef of a man, and ofc you make it your duty to help him out in the kitchen!! baking til 2 or 3am, sometimes just goofing off with the flour, cookie dough on the tips of your noses, and suga stealing a kiss (or a lick) here and there. all the while your favorite holiday playlist hums in the background of your colorfully lit home, pictures of the two of you hanging around a tree, santa hats bouncing up and down atop your heads the way you dance everywhere, his arms snug around your waist. while you wait for the last batch of cookies in the oven, suga has already prepared his original hot cocoa for the two of you, making sure he adds extra mini marshmallows in your elf mug tonight— you sit by the couch overlooking the decorated frenzy of your surroundings. and you know you made the right choice spending it with him. :) when the actual party happens, o god the kids love you!! calls you his partner for lifey!! sth cute like that and u don’t know if suga taught them that or they just made it up lol either way, you’re so very excited to see how the love of ur life interacts with his students as, you guessed it, he’s so so good with them!! they run up to him, bouncing up and down just to get a bite of his baked goodies and while he’s handing them out, he also gives them a handwritten card. for each n every one of them!! when did he do that?? you question to yourself, but when he seesn you giving him an incredulous look, he just sheepishly smiles and says, “when you fell asleep on the couch last night, i wrote them last minute.” o,, that’s why when you woke up, u don’t even remember lying down in the bed but you surmise suga had carried you all the way there too :’) 

they sing a lot of holiday songs, play those party games like trip to jerusalem or once the music stops, you have to stop dancing or you’re out type of game and just overall lots of fun filled moments and you feel thankful for witnessing such a pure, innocent sight right around the holidays!! ofc once it’s all done and he bids them goodbye with a hug, a hi five or a pat on the head, suga doesn’t forget about you and puts up a mini mistletoe by the door when everyone had left. he has that teasing smirk on his face and you’d do more than just kiss him bec of it but uh, you’re still in the classroom so you give in with a chaste yet sweet kiss on his lips. he returns it a little deeper, but you push his chest off playfully, and boop! him on the nose. “later, sir,” you reprimand lightly, yet cheeks blushing at your interaction with him in his workplace. he shows that toothy grin, and intertwines ur fingers together as u walk to your car and finally spend more time together again <333 his most favorite part of this season!!

hinata shouyo ୨୧ ˻˳˯ₑ*॰¨̮ be prepared for a very hyper and energetic holiday week with this guy!! imagine you two are still in college, he has a break from playing professional volleyball to spend these times with his family. and he chooses to spend most of those days with you!! he is actually very excited to bring you home to meet his mom and (not-so) little sister, and it’s very nerve-wracking knowing that it’s an important holiday for them to be together as a family— and then you’re just gonna crash it like that??? BUT sho doesn’t see it that way! he already sees you as a person he’ll definitely experience even more holidays the next year, and the one after that, but in order to ease up the anxiety that has been building up in your system, he tells you of his extravagant plans for the two of you before going back to his parents’ house!! think amusement parks in the winter, ice skating in frozen lakes, walking on boardwalks with two styrofoam cups of hot choco for him, and a peppermint mocha for you!!

o, and if there’s some downtime with your adventure, he’ll drag you outside where the snow is ankle deep, tells you to take a picture of him in the cold, earmuffs hugging the sides of his temple so warmly that you find so adorable. you’re about to pull your phone out until you feel cold, wet, melting ice smacked onto your cheek!! “SHO, WHAT THE HECK—” you don’t even have time to protest because WHACK, one more snowball, but he missed and it got to your jacket this time. luckily, your phone was still okay but your boyfriend definitely won’t be once you find him as he had started running, your voice calling out to his name in the breezy wind. so that whole afternoon, you were seen having a ridiculous snowball fight around campus (you guys stayed in the dorms until you were ready to leave), laughing when you threw one directly at his open, cackling mouth. shouyo started choking on the snowball, but you were still wiping tears from your eyes at the hilarity of the situation. “STOTPF IM LITERALYLYL DYUINGGG” “don’t be ridiculous” “JDFSKFDJH” and that’s when you actually run towards him, patting his back rather forcefully because oh god what if you did make him choke and his family won’t have a son coming home this time around?!

while you worry in your head, shouyo had already tackled you to the ground, snow engulfing your bodies together. “let’s take a picture here, this is the perfect spot!” he’d chuckle, peppering you with winter kisses, sending shivers down your arms not just because they were cold but also wow, you’re so lucky to be with a guy like him during this season. suddenly, you anticipate meeting his family :)

kageyama tobio

୨୧ ˻˳˯ₑ*॰¨̮ you know what you’re very excited for that kags isn’t? his birthday falls on the week of christmas, and any other normal person would just think, “ah, i can just combine his gifts into one!” but for you that’s a big no-no. and kageyama knows it, and he’s flustered and shy because everyone in his life up until the point he’s met you had always just given him a 1 for 2 type of gift. not that he minded, that’s all he’s ever known in his life so when you promised him a big birthday bash and a special holiday gift, he’s scared for what’s to come,,, although, you know he’s not big on surprises or bigger gatherings, but you wanted to see his reaction as to how you planned it all out! in reality, you just wanted to spend precious time with your bf on his bday and an early christmas before he leaves to go visit his family :(

after tiring hours of vball practice and finals (he’s gotten better at studying, don’t underestimate this guy!) he sleeps in on the day of his birthday, not even realizing the night prior he’s turning a year older that day!! you creep up to his dorm with the spare key he has given you, place the milk and berries cake you ordered yesterday on his desk, and surreptitiously clasp the paper birthday hat on his sleeping head. the guy doesn’t even stir!! stifling your laughter, you pull out your phone and snap a picture of him and you together, your lips puckering to kiss his cheek and— you forgot to turn your phone into silent mode! apparently the click was loud enough for his eyes to flutter open, and when he realizes you’re next to him he feels a sense of relief, but at the same time the rubber around his face became bothersome… only when you start singing happy birthday did it dawn on him… and he can’t get mad, it’s you, how can he??

you eat a piece of the milk n berries creme cake on his bed, talking about the day you’re gonna spend with him.. and you ask what he wants to do bec it’s his special day!! this gets him blushing since he thought you had this elaborate party with lots of people come, and now he feels guilty and grateful as to how thoughtful you’re being for him… he asks if he can sneak in a practice session for vball for at least an hour and you agree, guessing that would’ve come up sooner or later. anyway, aside from that his birthday was spent strolling around the town center near campus, snow underneath your boots and snowflakes showering your hair,,, he places his beanie on yours so it doesn’t get messed up and you thank him with a nose kiss… rudolph, is that you??

you take him to shops so you can buy matching sweaters <3 and he OBLIGES, seeing the gleeful expression in your eyes and smile, how can he resist the beauty radiating off you today? this is the best birthday gift he can ask for. you end the day by grabbing some milk tea, spending the rest of the night getting cozy under blankets, and watching cheesy romcoms to which kags just shields his eyes away… the embarrassment!! >< you end up sleeping in his arms, the ending credits with christmas music playing in the background. the next day, you both wear your holiday outfits (he has polar bear and yours is a panda!!) and take lots of pictures bec you know you’ll miss him when he goes back home :(( he immediately makes one of the selfies u took as his lockscreen: the two of you squish yourselves in between the snowman you both created. your face is lit up with utmost happiness, and kags is just looking at you with a loving grin to his smile as well. :)

[angeltrapz]

SAW ASK!!!!!! 💞 n ee wayz as far as Eric/Adam goes i wld love to hear yr thoughts on how their relationship looks @ th very beginning when Eric still v v fresh in his recovery (obvs we’ve talked a lil abt this both but expandin on stuff), n also u mentioned Eric knowing how to bake (at least some things) n id LOVE to hear more abt that!! also for a general SAW polycule question, just bc it’s a dynamic i don’t think either of us have rlly touched on, thoughts on William + Mallick?

SAW ASK!!! (tysm!! <3)

okay so Eric/Adam:

I rly like th idea u had where they meet at one of Bobby’s groups (also throwing in tht I think abt Group Therapy All The Time) bc like. neither of them want to be there, neither of them rly have much in common w any other survivors, n neither of them can stand Bobby Dagen. so tht’s still like, th foundation fr how these 2 meet to me lol. the idea of them listening 2 him talk while rolling their eyes at each other n fake gagging is So Good.

I feel like Adam is just... rly open? w Eric? bc god does he understand how fucking hard it is 2 be around ppl after smth like that - maybe not to the same extent (though they DO have tht solidarity), but like. there’s only so many times u can hear “I’m so sorry tht happened/I can only imagine what u went thru” b4 yr ready 2 just tell ppl to shut the fuck up. so like, on Eric’s side of things, not getting tht frm Adam? not hearing the whole “I’m rly sorry u almost lost yr son and were locked up fr six months”? tht’s foreign territory ENTIRELY 2 him. sorry is all anyone has to say, even other survivors. Adam not saying sorry n instead being like “well I’m glad yr still around” is kind of what makes tht decision in Eric’s head like, yes, I think I want 2 get to know this dude. He Gets It.

n Adam is just patient too. letting Eric come 2 him, making sure he knows he’s there, tht sorta thing, bc regardless of how much he likes Adam, being around ppl again is not smth he can just jump into. it’s a wound tht is still raw n open n aching n he needs to treat it w care instead of rubbing salt in. n Eric half expects tht to turn Adam away, esp when he sometimes goes a day w no communication, but it doesn’t n he’s just sorta like ??? bc Eric never rly... saw some1 making tht kind of accommodation fr him, never expected some1 to understand it. tht’s another region I feel they’re very similar in - contact, sometimes, can b very very hard, even over text. if they don’t speak all day, tht’s okay - they send each other “i’m okay” texts n th other person responds w “good” n tht’s fine. Adam provides compromises when Eric never even knew tht was a possibility. it’s good.

things progress kinda slowly but not in a bad way. they’re just kind of getting used 2 each other - both of them have been alone fr so long, having some1 in their lives tht they give a shit abt n who gives a shit abt them is smth they’re both navigating. fr Eric, it’s being around some1 consistently after his trap. fr Adam, it’s actually having a friend who doesn’t make him feel like shit + having some1 he can definitively say is there. sometimes its easier 2 sit in comfortable silence than it is to force a convo neither of thm rly have the energy fr. sometimes just being in a room together is enough. tht’s smth they both notice - tht it’s like. they find it easy 2 be around each other. which is SO foreign to both of thm so they’re just kinda feelin it out?

n again like u’ve written b4, I also feel one of th turning points is when Eric calls Adam abt his hair + Adam shaves it fr him in his bathroom. tht’s th point where they’re both like “oh, I rly care abt this person.” bc it’s three in th fucking morning, Adam didn’t even have 2 pick up his phone or even answer when he saw it was Eric. but he did, bc he cares, bc he wants to help, n Adam’s just kinda freaking out internally too bc it’s been a looong time since he’s felt tht way abt some1 - he just wants Eric 2 be okay. n it’s then tht he’s kinda like, coming 2 terms w th fact that he truly cares abt someone who he can say without a doubt cares abt him too and it’s just like. oof. ESP when Eric sleeps over bc again, it’s early as fuck, and isn’t it so much easier 2 just have him stay? isn’t it easier fr Adam to make space fr Eric in his bed n home n heart? n Eric actually doesn’t tell Adam abt this later, but tht night he sleeps over after Adam shaves his hair? it’s th best he’s slept in fucking weeks.

I feel like after tht they’re a LOT more comfortable w each other - not tht they weren’t b4; I mean in th sense tht when they’re not doing too great, they’ll reach out 2 each other rather than bottling it up n dealing w it alone. Adam comes over w CDs he likes bc he can’t talk abt it but he doesn’t want 2 be by himself n they sit in Eric’s living room together in comfortable silence. sometimes Eric sings 2 him. they both find tht it helps. Eric becomes more accustomed 2 accepting help when he knows he needs it + Adam offers - dimming th lights n staying close by to keep him frm getting another migraine, having th TV on but w the sound down low enough tht it doesn’t feel like some1′s hitting him over th head w too-loud dialogue, getting things fr him on th days tht his nerve pain flares up n he’s mostly confined 2 his bed. they’re there fr each other. this is what friendship looks like fr them, two Jigsaw survivors who understand each other better than any1 else ever could.

another huge step fr them is like, th first time Adam offers 2 help w Eric’s rashes. I feel like, even as they grow closer, tht’s still not smth he’s vocal abt/comfortable showing often, something he’s ashamed of bc he feels like it’s gross n he doesn’t want 2 like. make Adam deal w that. but like during one of their sleepovers where Adam cuts his hair fr him n Eric’s got his shirt off he just. grabs the ointment he knows Eric keeps in th cabinet above the sink n while Eric’s still sitting w his back to him, he wordlessly begins tending 2 the rash spread along Eric’s shoulders n his neck n back, n Eric just. freezes. Adam doesn’t say anything, just does it fr him, n Eric kinda. Breaks Down a lil bit. like he just starts silently sobbing bc Adam doesn’t have 2 do this. he doesn’t have to help him w one of th things Eric hates most abt his own body. he could think it’s Gross. but he doesn’t think it’s gross n he doesn’t mind touching it and he’s so gentle when applying the ointment n then when he’s done he just kind of leans against Eric’s back bc He Knows. he reaches around front n grabs one of Eric’s hands n just sits there w him while he cries it out, holding his hand 2 say I’m right here, I’m not going anywhere, n that is MAJOR fr Eric. and honestly? tht’s kind of th first time he Rly becomes aware of “oh fuck I love him.” (Adam too, ngl)

basically, the way it starts is a shared experience, smth no one else can rly say they have, an understanding based on tht shared experience. giving each other space until they begin inviting each other in. care, patience, “I’m here.” re-learning th feeling of mutual concern. somewhere along th way, it turns into love, and somehow falling into tht is just as easy.

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Eric + baking:

YES I love this hc!! this is smth he picked up during his time btwn jobs during th earlier stages of recovery (but After meeting Adam/connecting w Art) bc he needed smth to do n was just sorta like, “well I guess this works huh?” n like. it was def a learning curve bc Eric can cook, relatively well/at least okay, but baking is a entirely different matter. at frst he was kinda discouraged when things didn’t turn out th way he hoped they would, but w gentle guidance on Art’s side n enthusiastic encouragement frm Adam, he stuck w it n has gotten pretty good as a result!! his fave things 2 make r peanut butter cookies (he does a little design on th top w a fork n both Adam + Art r like Oh My God That’s Adorable) + th aforementioned carrot cake cupcakes!! frosting is usually homemade n it’s usually cream cheese! he makes his own frosting fr cakes n stuff too (Constantly has 2 tell Adam to “keep yr hands off of th frosting/batter/dough! we’re not gonna have any left!!!” even tho tht Doesn’t stop him).

he makes rly good banana bread too! tht one was a lil harder 2 learn but he’s honestly pretty proud of it now. it’s so funny bc Adam typically doesn’t like stuff like tht but if Eric made it? oh it’s Amazing. (he’s like tht w Art’s cooking too kjdfhjs partially bc he is a Disaster in th kitchen, but also bc That’s His BF/Best Friend!!!)

if some1 is feeling particularly shitty he takes requests (Adam usually wants brownies + Art is partial 2 peanut butter cookies but w chocolate chips too) n it’s just a nice lil thing he can do 2 help, which is smth he Always wants to do. he also stress bakes tho so sometimes his bfs have 2 just kinda like check in n make sure he’s doing okay. but! yeah baking is smth he enjoys + is relatively good at!!

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William/Mallick dynamic:

yr right I haven’t thought abt this dynamic much but I Am Now!!!

I feel like at his core, William is def a caretaker. Mallick, 2 me, is someone who is just wholly unfamiliar w being cared for. so like, at the Very Least, they’re both dating Adam + Lawrence, right? they spend a lot of time around each other. plenty enough time fr William 2 pick up on this. it just kinda. makes his heart hurt, bc he sees the unease in Mallick’s eyes every time one of thm performs even th smallest acts of kindness fr him - not bc he doesn’t appreciate it/doesn’t want it, but because it’s more that he feels like he doesn’t deserve it. n William Sees That and is just like. I Need U To Know You’re Loved.

they’re comfortable w each other, of course they are! they’re friends, good friends, who happen 2 be dating th same people! who go to bed together at night n wake up w each other in th morning. it’s love, they know tht, but Mallick still always looks so surprised when William makes waffles fr him fr breakfast. William cares.

n Mallick can kinda feel it, and he’s not resistant 2 it, but he’s definitely on edge abt it a little. but William also just has this air abt him that Mallick finds it hard to stay keyed up in, so it doesn’t rly take long fr Mallick to at least be at peace w William’s attention. but the moment he starts to really fathom it is during one of those days he can’t get himself 2 relax n is just shaking out on the couch, knees drawn up to his chest n his arm wrapped around thm, just kinda staring down at th carpet n just Not having the energy to get himself out of his own head. Lawrence + Adam r at work n Eric is taking a quick nap so it’s just Mallick n William.

so Mallick is sitting there spiraling n his breaths r coming out a little fast n William just sits down beside him, a mug of warm tea tht he sets down on th coffee table fr a moment, n he just rests a hand on Mallick’s shoulder. doesn’t say anything, just sort of like. offers tht bridge, opens tht avenue. n Mallick is like This Close to just breaking entirely, but what rly does it is when William just swipes his thumb over his shoulder n squeezes. n Mallick rly DOES break down, almost ugly-sobbing and wheezing, n somehow he ends up w his face in William’s neck, pretty much curled into his side, n tht’s when it truly hits him how much William cares abt him too. tht there are Several People who hold tht kind of room fr him in their hearts n lives. William didn’t even have 2 say anything fr Mallick to understand that, to know it as truth. n tht’s like, one of th events tht actually leads Mallick to building up tht self-esteem, knowing that.

n after tht happens, Mallick is a little less reluctant abt accepting William’s (+ everyone else’s!) help, at least some of the time. like Mallick will catch himself digging his fingers a lil too harshly into th stump of his arm (I’m w u on 10 Pints resulting in at least a partial amputation - like what was tht little scar in 3D???) n then he’ll feel William’s hand cover his n gently curl around his palm 2 be like “I’m not gonna say anything, but I see you, it’s okay,” n his grip relaxes. Eric will notice he’s working himself up too much n he’ll reach out n take one of his hands while he’s pacing + laces their fingers together so tht Mallick has to pause a moment n then he’s able to breathe. Lawrence stumbles across him in th midst of a panic attack n Mallick finds himself breathing easier when Lawrence takes one of his hands, places it over his chest + his heart, n breathes w him. Adam holds him when he jolts awake frm a nightmare. lil things like tht.

one of their fave things to help them both de-stress is they’ll lay in bed n William will read out loud to Mallick, who has his head on his chest n is listening but doesn’t have to put too much energy into keeping up, bc it’s mostly abt being close + having smth to fill the silence tht neither of them feel particularly comfortable in anymore. sometimes Mallick falls asleep n it honestly makes William rly happy bc not only is Mallick relaxed enough to actually close his eyes, he also trusts William enough to fall asleep around him, trusts him during a time he’s at his most vulnerable. it’s not uncommon fr Lawrence to get home frm work to find th two of them curled up against th pillows, sometimes both asleep or just Mallick while William continues reading silently and brushes his fingers thru Mallick’s hair. Adam def has a pic of them like tht somewhere, hung up on th cork board Art had bought specifically fr those kinds of photos. it’s smth easy tht doesn’t really require much energy + has the added bonus of just being close to n held by someone u love n who loves u.

and they help each other. sometimes William has a rly hard time looking at himself, the days where his guilt sits heavy in his chest n doesn’t seem 2 want to anywhere, n Mallick will just sit w him outside on th porch swing and just Be There bc it’s like. “I’m here, I want to b here, Jigsaw was wrong, you are not a terrible person, u did what u could w what u had and I love you,” in a single action. I think William also struggles, like u’ve mentioned tht Eric does, w th guilt of what happened + feeling like it was his fault. so Mallick sitting w him, their shoulders brushing, fr William it’s like, if he was truly as awful a person as John seemed 2 think he was, wld Mallick be this close? wld Mallick willingly lay down beside him some nights n kiss him good morning? wld he kiss him again on th cheek after he makes a fresh pot of coffee + pancakes? n William knows tht Mallick wouldn’t keep himself so close if John was right, so it’s like. proof of tht. n tht means a lot to William. sometimes tht’s all he needs.

they don’t have 2 deal w their struggles alone. they’re both surrounded by ppl who love them n want to see them do well - it’s only natural they feel tht way abt each other, too.

[chloe-gayzer]

a l l o f t h e m (for adora & jess! :D)

okay finished these. some were duplicates of the last one so i answered the ones that weren’t.

Who wakes up first?

Jess does, especially when they don’t have the safest place to sleep.

Who wants to stay in bed just a little longer?

Adora, and she’ll hold Jess there if she has to.

Who takes longer getting ready?

Adora, but she’s got a lot of hair so there’s no way she could be quicker that Jess, unless her hair is in braids

When they can’t sleep, what do they do?

Jess likes to wander, Adora likes to read. Together, they might find a secluded spot to just sit in the quiet.

Who falls asleep while watching a movie?

Adora. Especially if there are no subtitles.

Who falls asleep last, watching the other with a small affectionate smile?

Fuck Adora loves doing that. Just watching Jess be quiet and comfortable at all.

Who comes up with the cheesy pick-up lines?

Oh i just answered this, and it’s sTILL Adora

Who gets extremely competitive playing Mario Kart?

JESS. Adora lets her win though

Who accidentally pushes a door instead of pulling?

I was gonna say Adora but then the thought of Jess doing it and I prefer that for the laughs

Who sets the other’s ringtone to something loud and obnoxious behind their back?

I guess Adora??? Cause it’s a lost joke if Jess does it on her because she’s DEAF and can’t hear it anyway.

Who rearranges the bookshelf/DVD shelf in alphabetical order?

Adora, but then she does it by colour later when she decides it looks better that way.

Who does the hands-over-the-eyes “Guess Who” thing?

Adora again, if only because she’s the only one who could do that to Jess and not get stabbed.

Who points out a dog when they see one?

Adora. Jess points out the cats.

Who’s prone to road rage?

Jess

Who’s prone to wearing socks indoor (or to sleep)?

No.

Who reminds the other to put on sunscreen before going to the beach (or pool)?

Jess reminds Adora. Just because she’s darker skinned doesn’t mean she can’t get a sunburn.

Who carries all the important documents while traveling?

Jess. Adora is pretty good at misplacing things.

Who gets the window seat?

Adora. Jess likes the aisle seat because she’s all protective and what not.

Who puts their cold hands/feet on the other?

Adora will take Jess’s cold hands and force Jess to put them on her lol. She doesn’t like Jess being too cold, but knows Jess wouldn’t do it without being made to.

What do they argue about the most?

Answered this one earlier too. Faith. Adora thinks Faith should’ve been helped. Jess very much does not.

Who’s clumsier?

Adora.

Who texts more often?

Jess will text Adora one thing and get ten responses from Adora over a half an hour. If Jess sends a selfie, Adora would blow up her phone with just so many compliments and emojis.

Who is better with kids?

Adora, but Jess still likes kids.

Who’s the better cook?

Jess

Who mistakes salt for sugar?

Adora…..

Who puts the fork in the microwave?

Adora didn’t mean to gdi

Who cooks at 2 in the morning?

Jess but only because Adora asked

Who lets the microwave play the loud beeping sound at 1 a.m.?

Adora but she FORGETS IT DOES THAT. she’s deaf and she just got up for some tea.

Who licks the spoon when they’re baking brownies?

Both of them tbh

Who likes doing the dishes?

Adora again

Who has bigger cravings? What are they?

Jess has more cravings, but she doesn’t act on them as often as Adora will act on hers, so Adora looks like she has more.

Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Jess!

How do they eat ice cream? What’s their favorite flavors?

Adora’s favourite flavour is cookie dough, and since Jess claims not to have a favourite, Adora has her try a bunch. Jury is still out tho.

Do they go on dates? What are they like?

Their dates, in a world without peggies, would probably be a mix of hiking, swimming, or maybe hunting. Fishing! Maybe occasionally to a diner or something, but Adora knows Jess feels better away from people.

What do they smell when they smell amortentia?

Jeez i had to double check what that was butAdora smells that… the smell after it rains? And vanilla.Oh Jess is harder…. Prrrobably a little bit of fletching glue. And pine.

36. Which one is the secret snuggler?

Oh Jess. Adora is not secretive about it.

Which one offers their jacket to the other when they complain they feel cold?

I feel like Jess would do that. She has enough layers to spare one lol

Who reaches for the other one’s hand while driving?

Adora!

Who leaves little notes in the other one’s lunch? (Bonus: What does it say?)

Def already answered this…. Adora

Who is the most affectionate?

Adora is more openly affectionate. Jess is more restrained.

Who is the big spoon/little spoon?

*chanting* little spoon jess, little spoon jess!

[i skipped a bunch here because i’d already answered them]

Who gets overwhelmed by small acts of kindness?

I feel like it’d be Jess more often than not. Just because she’s used to being alone and Adora would go out of her way to make her feel good.When Adora is overwhelmed it’s usually with love just at the smallest things Jess does. Even if it’s not expressly for her. Like… Jess kneels down to pet a cat and is murmuring cute things to the cat under her breath. Adora would just die. positively.

[outofmycu]

Thursday, April 4th

11:20am 

I have a very big problem with lying. 

I had several topics to start off my first blog post with. I could have talked about how I was going to use Wordpress to write my first blog, because I saw some girl on Instagram that I used to follow using it, but then realizing that it would take too long to figure out how to use the platform just to write about my feelings (which I’ve desperately been needing to do). I could have talked about how watching Maisie Williams lie about a Game of Thrones spoiler in an April Fool’s joke with Jimmy Fallon triggered a memory of J (specifically around 2:31, when she stares at Jimmy in fabricated fear, and remembering J’s face when I told her I had cheated on her). I could have even chosen the notion that I want to try ecstasy with my mom, after my experience with L (I need to come up with better nicknames for the people in my life).

But I’m going to start off with lying.

I guess I can write about those things later. I can write about the podcasts I listen to, whatever. I can write as many times as I want to, about anything I want to. I think it will be easier on here over pen and paper, because although pen and paper can be extremely cathartic in the way my fingers connect to the pen and paper like a stream of consciousness, it can get a little messy.

In any case.

I have a very big problem with lying.

I lie about everything in my life. I lie at least three times a day, when I’m with other people. I lie about how I’m feeling, I lie about what I did that day. I lie about big things. I lie about why I failed my course. I lie about things that have happened to me.

Actually, this is too much to talk about right now. This goes way deeper than I imagined. I’m starting to realize how defined I am by my lying. How I lie to myself about who I am so often, I’m starting to forget. I’m starting to think I am a lie, even though I pride myself so much on being honest with myself (outwardly) and not caring about what people think.

Am I lying when I think I have been sexually abused? I think I may be. But then, why do I not remember the first time I masturbated? Why do I react to sex the way I do? Why does oral sex disturb me? Is it biological, or is it mental?

I remember the time a guy I was sexting on Instagram told me he couldn’t come through oral sex anymore, but that it was just mental because he could come through penetrative sex. That really stuck with me.

(God, when I start writing down what I feel, I really start to realize how much is wandering around in my head that I don’t let out. So much starts flowing. So many thoughts start emerging.)

A lot of things stick with me, and I forget a lot of other things. Very odd things stick with me, too. Very specific things. Like L telling me how superior he felt to his work colleagues. 

Okay, now I was looking for icons for my Tumblr blog and I got distracted and thought about gender again. Fuck my ADHD brain.

Lol I made my account private because this shit is about to get deeeeeeep.

Bruh I need to choose one topic and stick to it like omg. But it’s so hard when one thought leads to another and another I just wanna write what I think about.

But like, I just opened my dash and saw a black cat just as my black cat (Bruno) was in front of me. And I realized I need to be more in contact with myself instead of focusing on being in contact with L. 

Which is funny because last night I realized I was in L’s life. Like for a second there I thought I didn’t exist to him? Idk if that makes sense. Like I don’t know how to explain it, but I felt like I was a stranger to him for some reason. I can’t reconnect with that experience right now if I try to, but I just... like, when I thought about him I was like, wow. This guy is in love with me. Isn’t that weird? This guy cares about me (does he?). I’m in his life. I’m part of his life (am I?).

It was really weird. Idk if I felt distant to him too. Maybe I felt like I wasn’t part of his life. Maybe when he starts ignoring me, I start imagining my life without him so much, that last night it actually materialized in my mind. One day we will actually be strangers though. And that’s not in a far off future. Which is weird to think about. But like, it’s gonna happen. Soon. You know?

I’ll be fine by then, though. Tbh like I don’t wanna sound like an evil bitch but I do want to learn from him. I don’t want to drain him, but I want every time I spend with him to be a learning experience. I want to learn from him. I want to be a different person by the end of the year.

Btw, it’s so much easier writing on a laptop than on a journal. Also bc I’m scared people with find my journal. I might take pictures of it and post them here to document what I was feeling then and keep that shit, but like also not have the physical evidence of all of those dark thoughts that I was having.

The physical evidence really freaks me out. I used to think I had no reason to keep a diary, because I had nothing to hide. But I have more to hide than I had thought. I have a whole world inside me, unexplored. And the more I write about what I feel, the more I realize I hide more than I show. Soooo much more. I wonder if everyone is like that. Probably. Like 100% actually lol.

I need to start being more conscious of how I feel. I need to really connect with myself. I’ve spent so long disconnecting with myself. I was thinking this last night - I don’t remember when, but I remember looking at my hands or something, maybe walking back from the gym for some reason, and thinking - man, I really want to know myself. Omg yes! I was listening to that song by Luisa Sonza, “Pior Que Possa Imaginar”, and that really triggered that feeling in me. Like I needed to know what was inside me. Like I need to explore myself better than I’ve ever explored anyone else, to understand what I feel, in order to like... tame myself.

Because I don’t really know myself. And I don’t trust myself. The fact that I am so bad at manual labor - so scared of cutting someone else’s hair, of learning how to drive a car - reflects how I feel inside about myself. I don’t trust myself to do things. I think I’m stupid and incapable, therefore I become stupid and incapable. But I want to change that. Genuinely. I want to change how stupid and incapable I feel.

Even though it was a tiny victory, yesterday when I was helping my mom put up the curtains, I felt so capable. Maybe today I will cook something. I will bake sweet potatoes. And I could make a brownie or something, I don’t know. I don’t know what I will do, but I am going to do something manual. I think every day I will try to do one manual thing, and one mental thing (aside from writing). If I translate the manual into mental, I will improve as a person.

I have soooo much work to do on myself and I’m only 21. How does that happen?

[kurorinde]

The Moonrise Chronicles | No. 7 | get it wrong, get it right / feel in love, feel alright

It's been six months. Let’s see how I did:

1. Have more money (and pay my debts) I wrote those goals when I just started my first job, and I’m at a different job now. I make more and have been budgeting better so far this year. Especially because I have actual debts now. So yeah, I’d say I reached this goal.

2. Clean my room I just did! Although, there’s a few functional things I want to get to complete the space.

3. Ride my bike and get better at baking I rode my bike once last year, buuuut I fixed it up earlier this month and rode it twice. I’m even thinking of biking to work when it gets warmer. I haven’t baked too much, but I did recently make some brownies from the box. In the Hallmark movie a few nights ago, the main character made apple pie, and I wanna get back to that. (I’m also reading the post from August and LOL I’m still asking myself if I’ll confess…)

4. Pass FE Exam I’m studying, I promise. I don’t really wanna talk any further about this.

5. 10 subs I’m at the same 3 since the beginning, but that’s alright lol

6. Finish the projects that I started in 2021 I didn’t finish the photo series. I didn’t break the geode. I did sort all my files. I’m not really too concerned about finishing projects right now. I’m more in the mindset to take it one thing at a time and go at my own pace. There’s some things I’ve thought about doing, but I haven’t made any plans. And that’s okay.

So about the confession part:

Tldr; Long lost childhood friend is leaving again and everything will change once that happens, I don’t know when I’d see them next, and I have things I should’ve said at the beginning.

I don’t know. Right now, I’m listening to a playlist of pretty much every song that’s tied to him ever since we reconnected. Our friendship has changed so much in a short amount of time, and I think I’m just scared of losing him for good. That we’ll become strangers. That he’ll be my biggest ‘what if’ as cliché as that sounds.

I’ll probably straight up ask him if he’s more comfortable sitting down and talking it out, or if he’d rather read it in an end-all-be-all letter. We’ll figure it out. I think I just need to get out of my head so I can stop feeling so sad over the future.

I wish I could make a more insightful update with new goals and things to look forward to, but I’m once again *going through it* lol. Just gonna take it one day at a time and I’ll see you hopefully later this month.

LOL HI IT’S LATER IN THE MONTH:

It was a rough afternoon at work, but I survived so I guess it’s not that bad. 

I think the situation with *him* is not dissimilar to my childhood friend who got married. After he leaves, I know that we can never talk to each other the way we used to. He’ll be more “in front” of people and I don’t want to compromise his reputation. I should’ve better prepared for this. I knew that he would leave for this specific reason eventually, I just didn’t think it would be this year. And I’ve been thinking about whether I valued our time enough or took it all for granted. Are we approaching our expiration date? Best if used by 17? 

17, as if you walked out of my childhood dream.

I might see him this weekend at a get-together with some pals. We’ll see what I decide to do.

Love you all, Robin aka bobi

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[some-days-we-get-sundays]

Weight loss articles are not meant for overweight people.

Have yall noticed that weight loss articles and studies on weight loss are often done on people who are already thin and may have never been overweight in their lives?

They write things like eat 3-5 snacks a day to lose weight. Thin people can do that because to them a snack is carrots and hummus. To overweight people they hear snack and are like oh ok pizza rolls or chips. Or they write articles and studies like, eating a big breakfast can help you lose weight because you'll feel full and won't eat a lot at lunch :) :) :). But thin people think about food differently, they eat food differently, they have a completely different mentality when it comes to food than people who are overweight. A big breakfast to me is bacon, eggs, sausage, French toast, hash browns, and maybe a donut. And because of my relationship with food and already being overweight I'm still gonna eat a large lunch and a large dinner. That's what these articles don't take into account. Overweight people are going to over eat and still be hungry. If you have bacon, eggs, sausage, harsh browns, French toast, and a donut ... lol you shouldn't be eating 1,000+ calories in one meal. But overweight people just hear eat a big breakfast and this will help with weight loss you won’t feel as hungry when dinner or lunch comes, but this is not true for overweight people. This will only help thin people who can control what they eat a lot better than overweight people. And are smarter in their food choices. And even if a thin person does overeat at breakfast, they will be able to say hey I had a big breakfast I’ll just eat a small lunch or small dinner, overweight people don’t think this way.

Overweight people hardly notice when they are full that's one of the reasons why they are overweight, and even when they do notice they push through and keep eating. Having a big breakfast or having snacks in between only benefits thin people because they eat healthier and they know how to control calories as well as stop eating when they are full. I only say this because I struggled almost my whole life with losing weight and putting it back on and not knowing what to do and following what these articles say and wondering why nothing was working. Then I started looking at calories. There are more calories than you think in just about everything. Before I never even counted calories. I would eat whatever I wanted to eat and not care. I didn't know how many calories I was consuming or even how much I needed. But at one point I said enough, I’m going to lose weight I don’t like the way I look I don’t like the way I feel. So I started sprinting and because I was overweight the weight came off fast. But then after a while the weight stopped coming off and this was because I was still eating junk. I thought I could keep eating what I wanted but you can’t outwork a bad diet. So I started researching what to eat and I got advice from a trainer who told me to eat snacks in between meals. And I read aticles that told me to eat 3-5 snacks between meals and to eat a large breakfast. And like an overweight person, I hear snacks and think chips and pizza rolls. And even if it’s a “healthy” snack I still will overeat that. So the weight didn’t come off, I ended up putting more on because essentially I was being told to eat more. And I said OK! I will! 

But as I said most of this advice is for people who don’t struggle with binge eating or being overweight. This is for people who can look at a pile of cookies and not eat them all, this is advice for people who can just stop eating before they get to the point of bursting. It took me a long time to get to that point but I still have those tendencies in me that I struggle to fight. Telling myself that I don’t need to eat another full meal when I just had one an hour ago. Telling myself that I’ll be ok if I don’t eat whatever it is I want to eat at that moment. Not eating to the point of it hurting. But see, weight loss articles don’t understand this and they don’t write to overweight people trying to lose weight, they write to people who are already thin and want to keep the weight off.

MY QUICK ADVICE if you’re big and trying to lose weight. 

1. Burn more calories than you consume and you will lose weight. Tell yourself this over and over. Because in it’s most simple form that is how you lose weight. 

2. You cannot outwork a bad diet. Maybe you can for a little but it’s easier to just not eat that snickers instead of run 20 miles to burn off calories you wish you hadn’t scarfed down in a moment of weakness. 

3. CHECK sugar, salt, calories. On the backs of things that you buy. And most importantly. CHECK THE SERVING SIZE. If something says it’s 100 calories but you eat 4 servings of it that’s 400 calories. A single size doesn’t always mean there is one serving. CHECK THE LABELS!! And even if something does say it’s one serving (usually granola bars or small bag of chips) you’re not gonna just eat one. I don’t know anyone who just eats one granola bar. I eat like 4 in one sitting. (or I used to ;-) 

4. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable. Weight loss is not going to always be pleasant. The worst for me is feeling hungry and not feeling that “satisfaction” that being full gives me. But it’s all a mind game. Train your mind to not be happy when you feel like you’re gonna burst. Train your mind to stop using food as a means of comfort and happiness. Be ok with being a bit hungry until your next meal and being a bit hungry after you have eaten. YOU WILL LIVE AND BE OK! Working out means sweating and being in a bit of pain and breathing hard and taking time out of your day when you could be chilling watching netflix. This is the uncomfortable not always fun stuff you have to just deal with. 

5. Do not eat a huge breakfast. IF you’re like me or other overweight people, you’re going to want the works when you hear that you should eat a big breakfast. Go ahead, try it. See how much weight you lose. If you do lose weight then good on you, you’re better than me. But if you found yourself still putting weight on or not losing any it’s because you don’t need 800-1000 calories of fucking breakfast! My advice is eat a small breakfast of yogurt or fruit. I have a protein shake every morning and then I go work out. Protein keeps you feeling full and give you energy to workout. If you eat a huge breakfast you’re going to be way over the amount of cals you need in a day and the amount you need to lose weight. Especially if you eat a big lunch and dinner, which like I said many overweight people still would. 

6. MEAL PREP! I never used to do this and now that I do I love that I do this! It saves you time in the long run and allows you to make healthy (they need to be healthy) meals ahead of time so that you’re not just tempted to throw in a pizza or open a bag of chips and go to town. You’ll have a meal made and ready and it will be the right portion size (it needs to be the right portion size, don’t make a huge thing with 10 servings of food). I usually do chicken or grass fed beef and then noodles with sauce and broccoli. A lot of people do rice and chicken and veggies. Look on instagram or tumblr and search meal prep for ideas on what to make. 

7. Don’t bring unhealthy temping food into the house. I think back on all of the stuff I used to eat and I can’t believe that I’m shocked at how much weight I accumulated through the years. I used to eat chocolate chips cookies (like 12) of those ready to bake ones almost every night. I ate chocolate caramel brownies, chips, 4 slices of pizza sometimes more, sometimes the whole thing, huge plates of spaghetti, poptarts. I wasn’t much of a soda drinker luckily but still that’s a lot of food. And I never controlled my portions. I’d eat as much as I wanted of it. Moderation is key, but it’s also key not to bring junk that you know you shouldn’t be eating every day into the house. Out of sight out of mind. For some people putting it on the top shelf works, but my hungry ass will just reach up and get it. If I don’t even buy it at the grocery store than how can I get it? See how that works. Will power usually is my strongest ally. Sometimes you just gotta say no and be disappointed. But your body will thank you later with the progress you’ve made.

8. One last little thing. I hardly weight myself. I used to all the time but it’s more accurate to me to try on clothes that I used to fit and see if I can fit in them. When your clothes start feeling loser and you notice you’re not getting winded just walking and talking at the same time (swear this happens to me) then you know you’re on the right track. 

DISCLAIMER: I’m not a health provider or an expert. Just a former still kind of not as big as I used to be and not as small as I used to be blogger trying to help some people out. 

[actualltr4sh]

just cus i feel like sharing

1. What was the name of the first person you ever had a crush on? Why did you like them?: something with an I. i was in like kindergarten. i just remember having feelings lmfao.

2. What is one thing you regret having done or not done in your life?: i regret some sexual decisions i’ve made in the past. i used to be fucking up. no pun intended lmfao.

3. Which parent do you identify with the most?: pops. that’s my baby man i love my dad so much.

4. What do you think you cook or bake the best?: idk. i’m pretty decent at everything i make but i haven’t tried anything new forreal. i made a dog ass steak the other day.

5. If you could change your first name what would it be?: my name translates to golden in swahili, so if anything i’d just make it golden in english lol.

6. Can you hula hoop?: not a skill i’ve tapped into recently so idk.

7. What embarrasses you the most in front of other people?: stuttering. i get flustered easily lmao.

8. Have you considered running for president?: mayor, yes. president? heck no. i think being a first lady would be awesome tho.

9. If you had to choose one thing you were most passionate about, what would it be and why?: writing. it’s the easiest and best way for me to express myself. i can be clear or i can be metaphorical. it’s awesome.

10. Who are you most envious of—real or fictional—and why?: bonnie bennett, the witch from TVD. just because she’s a witch. she died a ton though lmfao.

11. Where is the most beautiful place on earth and why?: wherever you’re surrounded by love.

12. Are ghosts real?: yep.

13. Are aliens real?: yep.

14. How old is the most expired item in your fridge?: i think i have some cheese that expires this month.

15. What are your favorite style of underwear?: cheeksters! let them cheeks show lmfao.

16. What’s the saddest song you’ve ever heard?: my story by sean mcgee used to fuck me up in 6th grade.

17. How about the sweetest song?: iiii don’t know. i love r&b and all that shit is cutesy tootsie. probably you & i by john legend. i used to want this played at my wedding.

18. Do you know how to play dominoes?: my dad tried to teach me when i was younger but i dont remember.

19. What’s under your bed?: an empty cup. i always forget to grab it.

20. Have you ever prank called someone?: used to love that shit in middle school.

21. 100 kittens or 3 baby sloths?: sloths. i don’t fuck with cats.

22. Are you proud of what you’re doing with your heart and time right now?: this is relatively heavy lmfao. kinda. i like that i’m focused on being a better writer. 

23. Why or why not?: i’m proud because it’s the only thing i’ve done consistently since i was a kid. idk why it took me so long to make a career out of it.

24. How many bones have you broken?: none. kids who read in the closet didnt break bones.

25. Have you ever won anything? Big or small?: meh, i used to win awards a lot in highschool cus i did decathlon and stuff lol.

26. If you could buy one material thing, and money was not an issue, what would it be?: a car. a beetle. i think they’re so cute lol.

27. What’s your favorite movie from your childhood?: i used to love love & basketball.

28. What food will you absolutely not, under any circumstances, eat?: chitlins.

29. What’s the best way to comfort you when you’re having a really terrible day?: let me cry and just kinda validating my sadness. like “yeah this does suck. but maybe it’ll suck less later.” lmao.

30. Has anything/anyone every saved your life before?: my friends save my life every day and they don’t even know it.

31. Would you ever adopt a child?: i suppose.

32. What is one thing you’re embarrassed to admit you want to try?: nothing comes to mind.

33. If you were a cake which cake would you be?: i’d be a brownie cus cake ain’t all that.

34. What is the most important material possession you have and why?: probably my camera. i love her.

35. What is the most important memory you have and why?: important? wow idk. i have this memory of being like 6 ish and crying and my dad telling me that not everyone was gonna like me but it’s important to remain true to myself.

36. When was the last time you cried?: wednesday. i saw my ex with another girl and SHAMBLED bitch lmfaoo.

37. How old was your mother when she had you?: like 35.

38. Which famous person would you like to be BFFs with?: vince staples. i’d become his best friend and then he’d fall in love with me and then we’d get married.

39. Is there something you wish you had said sorry for but never did?: i chose my ex over one of my closest friends at the time. i regret.. but you live and you learn.

40. Have you been on your first date? If so, how did it go?: not really. nobody’s ever been like “hey, i like you and i’d like to take you out sometime.”

[jungnoir]

92 Truths Tag

tagged by @marktuansflip!! thank you sweetie!!!

the true test of who I am lies below ⇣

LAST…

[1] drink: water!

[2] phone call: I’m actually currently on the phone with my best friend, I can’t remember my last call haha

[3] text message: jen aka hongbombs

[4] song you listened to: that’s what i like - bruno mars

[5] time you cried: probably last week? 

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: I haven’t dated anyone once lol

[7] been cheated on: no

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: no

[9] lost someone special: do animals count :/

[10] been depressed: yeh lol

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: i’m a bab

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

[12] blue

[13] purple

[14] pink

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: yes!!!

[16] fallen out of love: i’ve never been in love

[17] laughed until you cried: honestly probably but I can’t remember what it was that made me laugh that hard

[18] found out someone was talking about you: yes

[19] met someone who changed you: yes

[20] found out who your true friends are: yesssss

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: I don’t even use facebook for anyone but family

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them except like one but we’ve been friends for years when we met online

[23] do you have any pets: yep!!

[24] do you want to change your name: not really?? I used to want to but ppl say they like it a lot and it starts conversations so hehe

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: my parents took me to ihop for some strawberry pancakes, then I went to target and bought something, and then I went out for dinner later that night and took some pictures of the sunset :)

[26] what time did you wake up: 1:20 pm because fuk u i’m graduating

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: I was watching this video and this video and crying my eyes out

[28] name something you cannot wait for: death

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: half an hour ago before I took a nap

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I went to public school

[31] what are you listening to right now: 365 fresh - triple h

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah he was an asshole

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: this song

and yet i love it so much

[34] most visited website: tumblr

[35] elementary: was nice, I lived in germany at the time

[36] high school: lol

[37] college: I’m worried but I’m also really excited abt what it’ll be like!! I want to make lots of friends and find myself

[38] hair color: black

[39] long or short hair: tbh, I haven’t had long hair since I was 12. I think I like short hair more

[40] do you have a crush on someone: wonho :)

[41] what do you like about yourself: I try to find the good in everything and everyone

[42] piercings: ears!

[43]blood type: I think I’m O but I gotta ask again

[44] nickname: maj, mj, majo, yugremlin, gremlin, demon, nugget, majestia

[45] relationship status: has never existed

[46] zodiac sign: virgo

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show: cartoons count, right? cause if so, voltron: the legendary defender. or goblin

[49] tattoos: nope

[50] right or left hand: right~

FIRST…

[51] surgery: just dental surgery and I only remember losing consciousness right before they started work haha

[52] piercing: my ears when I was five

[53] best friend: her name was renee, I miss her a lot

[54] sport: basketball

[55] vacation: disney world when I was four!

[56] pair of trainers: I think they were jordans because my brother was obsessed with michael jordan (hence my nickname, mj)

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: brownie batter

[58] drinking: nothingggg

[59] i’m about to: watch some danisnotonfire and wait for these brownies to finish baking

[60] listening to: show me what I’m looking for - carolina liar

[61] waiting for: noragami s3, voltron s3, graduation, contentment

[62] want: someone tall and warm to hold me and tell me everything is gonna be alright

[63] get married: maybe one day

[64] career: im just a child let me live (leaving nat’s answer bc same)

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: i love love both

[66] lips or eyes: eyes

[67] shorter or taller: taller bc I am perpetually the tol in all my relationships

[68] older or younger: older (like gong yoo no I'm kidding sfnajsdoi)

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: 

[71] sensitive or loud: sensitive

[72] hook up or relationship: relationship. I really don’t think I’m the type to hook up, my heart is in every interaction and it stays there no matter how much I try to forget it

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant. I try to consider everyone involved before I do anything

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger? haha nope!

[75] drank hard liquor? i have not

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? noooope

[77] turned someone down: yep

[78] sex on first date? no (see 72 lol)

[79] broken someone’s heart? yep, he deserved it though, he was an ass

[80] had your own heart broken? *currently suppressing many dark memories* haha nope!

[81] been arrested? almost. i’ll leave it at that

[82] cried when someone died? yes :/ it was christina grimmie’s death, and it still haunts me tbh. I’ve never taken anything that hard before

[83] fallen for a friend? no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? I believe I can overcomplicate anything to hell and back

[85] miracles? kinda? I got a 100 on my final in pre-calc so I probably should lol

[86] love at first sight? the romantic in me says yes

[87] Santa Claus? I was raised christian so def not

[88] kiss on the first date? sure!! if the feelings are there

[89] angels? I used to have nightmares about angels

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: rascal, he’s a chihuahua and i love him

[91] eye color: dark brown

[92] favorite movie: lilo and stitch

tagging: @hongbombs @honeyheonie @sadradmom @blushguk @wonhopes @jingogi (totally tagged u bc of that post you made earlier hehe)