#goddd i’ve been looking at this one way too long i kinda hate it

[unknownarmageddon]

in the back of my mind

Cross belongs to Jael Peñaloza Killer belongs to Rahafwabas Apocalyptic Kross AU belongs to me, @psycho-chair, and @denieatsart

[emissary-of-dog]

humbly asks your for your geara hc.......

MEL U A REAL ONE !!!!  🙏 🙏 OKOK HERE GOES.

headcanons for my favorite little emo beast! [ DOES A SPIN ]

MY (VERY LONG) ANSWER IS RIGHT BELOW...

Sexuality Headcanon: You take one look at this man and tell me with the straightest face you can possibly muster: “Geara isn’t gay. He’s not into men.” This motherfucker wears eyeliner, has the full MCR fit, constantly talks about Zetta in ways other men in-game have not, he literally SENT Giratina to Zetta on Terajuma Island so he could pick him up like a prom date. THIS MAN??? 🌈🌈 WOULD KISS ANOTHER MAN. AND WOULD ENJOY IT. CHECKMATE BITCHES.

Gender Headcanon: He is the most cis-acting motherfucker ever and yet they are, simultaneously, one of the most trans-looking characters too. Truly a paradox!

AMAB. Transmasc as fuck. But DEFINITELY nonbinary. This guy screams “He/They.” Madame X gives her gayest battles (Valor Mt) to her trans-est soldiers.

A ship I have with said character: Valorshipping VALORSHIPPING VALORSHIPPING V A LOR SHIPPGINGF VALORSHIPGFGFMGHMHG ZETTA X GEARA!!!!! AAAAAAAA UAUA UA GH HG UAUGJJF J GFHGFH GH RGUUHHUGR

( In other words they are SO much to go into, narratively-speaking, and I can’t get all of my words out here but just know I’ve been unabashedly autistic about their dynamic since December/January of this year. GODDD. )

A BROTP I have with said character: I’ve NEVER played Insurgence in my life but I know for a FACT that Zenith and Geara would be best friends/brothers. But I’d also say that it’s probably a good thing they’re in separate games... I can only imagine the opposite, honestly. And what I imagine is pure hellfire. Don’t put these two in a room together they’ll probably bond over their sick-ass legendaries they’re weirdly religious about; explosives and hating children. And dick jokes.

Madelis + Eli are also characters I’d say have a funny dynamic with him... Eli in previous versions used to interact w/ Geara and Geara would treat him with more respect than Sharon so SDHGJFGH that’s definitely something I think about often!

A NOTP I have with said character: Honestly any ship that involves him and a woman. Not only because he’s straight as a swirly straw but because I personally think she could do way better. I think every single girl forced to look at him at least once in their lives deserves financial compensation. Sariah I’m giving you all the therapy money you need once you grow up and have to confront your previously poor taste  🙏

A random headcanon: HEADCANON SPEED-ROUND! 🎇 (woo!)

Geara wears so many cosmetics it’s insane. Earrings, eyeliner, foundation, hair gel, dude definitely uses a hair ironer, SOOO much cologne THIS GUY STINKS, aaand glitter. He puts glitter in his hair, yes. He claims it’s the manliest shit ever.

He enjoys EVERY single Ghost Pokemon. All of them. Not a single one he dislikes. Ask him if he hates one and he’ll punch you in the face and spit on you.

He smokes. Why? Because he thinks it makes him look cool.

He owns a bass guitar, and it sits right in his room! Does he know how to play it? No. He owns it because it makes him look cool... Or so he believes.

He is 5′0′‘. He’s so short you could pick him up.

And finally... He’s actually an AMAZING singer. I’d compare his vocal range to that of Devin Townsend’s. Operatic, can hold notes -- but can also SCREAM like he’s in a metal song. His voice is relatively deep too, so he surprisingly has a pretty silky singing voice! Will he ever sing? No. That’s embarrassing.

General Opinion over said character: i kinda think i’m in love with him but i also wish he’d die

[spockandawe]

1, 2, 3!

Ooh, let’s see!

1. Tell us about your current project(s)  – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?

Okay, so I have tabs open for several likely wips where inspiration might strike at any time, but my big focus right now is in the fic I refer to interchangeably as ‘diet bingge’ or ‘bingge lite’. I hit a wall for a little while, but I’m trying to get back into it. This is (one of) my svsss feynite-inspired aus of aus situations. And it’s basically here, because I love all the svsss characters a LOT, and it is remarkably hard to keep them all alive and happy, not in the least because one of my biggest faves (shen jiu) technically dies before he ever appears. Also, I multiship like whoa, and the scope of a jianghu setting intimidates me, so the iwywmh dreamer-in-the-spring-boudoir-based harem setting.... it is a good fit for me.

So! My initial impulse. In the iwywmh “canon” setting, shen qingqiu gets killed by luo binghe, kinda... accidentally. An ‘I didn’t realize my own strength’ situation, after they’ve had a horrible falling out and shen qingqiu’s marriage has been effectively destroyed. My initial impulse was ‘but what if he.... didn’t die, though’

It opens up a really interesting story is what happens!!!

Because, okay. I’m not going to rehash all of the original story’s backstory, because it’s So Much, feynite’s fics and comments are packed full of solid gold. But in this situation, Shen Qingqiu has watched his marriage dissolve out from under him, and he’s heartbroken and furious, and just got framed (partly by binghe) for the death of his husband’s baby-in-progress (with another man). He’s lost everything he valued most. He no longer has a will to live. Binghe, on the other hand, is kinda horrified at what he just almost did, because he hates his shizun, definitely, but also.... shizun is the most important person to him. So with that tweak, I’ve saddled him with a Shen Qingqiu who he just almost killed, who has no will of his own to keep going, and he’s trying to make his way in the world.

Also liu qingge is there, and also shen sha yuan eventually, and they’re all important, but the shen jiu + binghe dynamic is the core of this story for me. Because what happens is that they kind of despise each other, but also.... Shen Jiu accidentally makes Binghe a much, much better person. He’s not nearly as soft as the Binghe of the original fic, but he’s not the Bingge of the original fic either, not by a long shot. And the emotional balance is fraught for some time, and is slow to get more healthy, but my boy gets there! And it’s kind of a situation like the last svsss verse I posted, where I was like ‘wow, I have no idea who will be willing to take this trip with me, but I tripped into a concept I find fascinating, and I hope people will join me’

This is the first story I’ve written in a long time where I’m letting myself diverge sharply from a flowing narrative with the minimum number of povs. I actually have to take like 20k of wip out of second person, because I’ve got like four major povs I need to bounce between constantly (binghe, shen jiu, liu qingge, shen yuan) and one or two side povs I need to flush out other bits of story (shang qinghua and maybe mobei-jun) (outside chance of liu mingyan too, goddd). I just made the decision a few days ago to split this into chapters, so I’d be able to post something soonish, but I did stall out for a while, because the scope is pretty overwhelming. And in the end, I’m not even sure it will work as A Narrative, because I don’t even know how it concludes, but I’m working on making my peace with that XD I’ve got close to 30k in a document, and still ages to go, so I badly want to pull it into a shape I can share, but.... it’s so much story, hahaha XDD

(my document with working notes for this is ‘SHIZUN GET BACK HERE AND GRADE MY FINAL PROJECT’, which also lives in my head rent-free as a working fic title. actually titling this fic is going to be a bear)

2. Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project

Oh, hmm. I think... If I’m sticking to projects where I actually can picture the scenes in question, I think I’ll have to go with the xuexiao wip that I’m going to return to any day, I swear, where I get into the actual dialog of the humiliation kink. It’s going to be a really interesting emotional balance, which is part of why I’ve been putting it off (I need to be in just the right mood, y’know?), but I’ll be in Xue Yang’s head, and I want to roll around in the way he gets to let loose with his crueler impulses, and the satisfaction that comes with it... plus a side serving of emotional self-harm, because he’s got extremely mixed feelings about making Xiao Xingchen hurt, and this is showing him all the ways he could dig the knife in deeper, which is theoretically what Xiao Xingchen agreed to, but is Xue Yang even enjoying this anymore??? Anyways, I love a good excuse to write top drop. Some of the top drop is written so far, but I’ll have to edit it based on how the scene itself plays out

3. What is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)

Oh my god, I want to write the whole peak lord liu mingyan au, but it’s another one where I don’t have a narrative so much as a whole bunch of sequential moments in a story. But I am COMPLETELY committed to giving Shen Jiu a happier life, and if that means flipping the liu siblings around so that Liu Qingge is Luo Binghe’s peer (and drags him up the hill to Bai Zhan Peak instead of Qing Jing), and they are both shamelessly corrupting Shen Qingqiu’s favorite disciple, Shen Yuan, then... I’ll....... try to do it. Eventually :X If I had to pick a single scene, it would probablyyyy be the aftermath of this version of the abyss (the focus is the shen jiu + liu mingyan frenemyship, but the background is bingliushen)

But also, I want to write the canon version, where people accuse Shen Jiu of creeping on women for violently unfair reasons, and where he’s unfairly blamed for Peak Lord Liu Mingyan’s death in the Lingxi Caves, but now there’s an additional flavor of ‘well I bet she rejected him, and he took his anger out on her’ and he very bitterly doesn’t even try to defend himself, because nobody will believe him anyways. And I want to write the fic itself, where her natural big sister energies are exactly what he needs and can never never never admit out loud, and where she’s a comforting presence that he would never admit to needing. 

I have no idea what this fic would even look like, physically! None at all I want it to just Exist, but it’s looking like I have to write it, which means I need to figure out how to write it, and none of this is fair :’)

[avvidstarion]

For the album ask game... how about The Black Parade?

oh ABSOLUTELY. i LOVE you. this is all subject to change at the drop of the hat bc im wishy-washy and i love all of these songs anyway so

this got WAY too long so i am putting it under a readmore shhvkldlkdgjlkdsj

not including b-sides:

1. Teenagers- kind of a basic pick i know, BUT, in my defense, the song slaps. it’s such a fun song, especially when you’re singing it at the top of your lungs. the guitar part is super cool too- im trying to learn it rn but it’s a slow process bc im bad at guitar.

2. Mama- what can i say. it fucks. the old time-y feel, the harmonies/background vocals, the layers. the guitar goes so fucking hard. banging lyrics- “you should’ve raised a baby girl, i should have been a better son”??????? songs to be trans to.”but the shit that i’ve done with this fuck of a gun” is the kind of lyric that you can only properly convey if you’re screaming it at the top of your lungs. the whole ending is just. mind blowing

3. The End.- LISTEN!!!!!!!!! the end is WAY TOO FUCKING UNDERRATED!!!! oh my goddd i love it so much. i love it SO much. it’s such a perfect beginning to the song. the lyrics are great (”now come one, come all, to this tragic affair” if you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see, you can find out first hand what it’s like to be me”, “another contusion, my funeral jag. here’s my resignation, i’ll serve it in drag. you’ve got front row seats to the penitence ball, when i grow up, i want to be NOTHING AT ALL!!! SAVE ME!!! GET ME THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!!! SAVE ME!!! TOO YOUNG TO DIE, AND MY DEAR!!! IF YOU CAN HEAR ME JUST WALK AWAY AND TAKE ME!!). the bit with the snapping and the ooooohs is fun too. such a good song, it could honestly be 1 or 2 but my ranking system isnt based in logic and makes no sense to even myself

4. House of Wolves- house of wolves was my favorite mcr song for a good chunk of time, but as a result i’m kinda burned out on it, which is why it isn’t higher.  however it is still number four  because it’s objectively a fucking amazing song. the guitar is so fuckin fun, the lyrics are great, and it’s just. fun to dance around and sing it at the top of your lungs. you better run like the devil cause they’re never gonna leave you alone!!!!! tell me i’m a bad, bad, bad, bad man!!!

5. Welcome to the Black Parade- the big man itself. the titular song. their biggest hit. a lot of people shit on wttbp for being popular and, like, pretty much the only song of theirs to ever be on the radio anymore (and even then it’s once in a blue moon), BUT. it got popular for a reason. it’s a really good song. i love the structure of it, i love how it builds and builds and builds. the lyrics are wonderfully done- “a world that sent you reelin from decimated dreams/ your misery and hate will kill us all”, the whole “do or die, you’ll never make me” stanza is The Ultimate rallying cry. and the “im just a man, i’m not a hero” is just. ughghghdlkslakdjglsdkg. the titular song of an album entirely about death and dying and misery being SO hopeful and SO upbeat really portrays the album as a whole much differently- mcr is known as The Emo Band because, yeah, their aesthetic is dark and their songs touch dark stuff but they have never been all whiney and boo-hoo-y and melancholic for the sake of melancholy. there’s always been a positive note to their music and a lot of people just don’t get that which makes me sad. anyway. wttbp is fun and i like it and i like the drums and the trumpets at the end. marching bands fuck

6. Blood- ok so the pattern here seems to be that i favor the fun songs over the slow ones, and blood sticks with that. much like with mama, i love the old time-y feel. i love that this is like a fun little bonus ditty to end the album on. the lyrics are silly and fun and jovial, and the piano is great. love it and it makes me happy

7. Disenchanted- OUGHH. OUUUUUGH. i know cancer is objectively the saddest song on the album, but disenchanted just hits different. “when the lights all went out, we watched our lives on the screen/ i hate the ending myself, but it started with an alright scene” just DECIMATES me, man. the acoustic guitar is a nice change of pace, and the vocal performance is just. so fucking emotional. especially the “woahhhhhhhh-ohs” at the end. great song, makes me Feel Emotions

8. The Sharpest Lives- ok so i know this is pretty much in the middle of the list, but i want to stress that i dont hate any of the songs on this album, so even the middle of the list is pretty fuckin good imo. the sharpest lives makes me go batshit.  the lyrics are so fucking wild. “a light to burn all the empires, so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be” is SO fuckin sick like OH my god. what a line. also “there’s a place in the dark where the animals go/ you can take off your skin in the cannibal glow/ juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands/ drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, romeo” like WHAT?????????????? GERARD POPPED OFF W THIS ONE FOLKS!! also i love how at the beginning the whisper-y vocals bounce from ear to ear. also “so why don’t you blow me......a kiss before she goes” is fuckin hilarious. honestly this song should be higher but i havent gone through a phase where i’ve been obsessed w it yet so it stays down here for now. one day it will take hold and be all i can listen to for a month straight and THEN it will climb the ranks. 

9. Cancer- makes me cry like a liddol baby. my mom doesnt let it play in the car cause it makes her too sad. twenty one pilots covered it and it was FUCKING AWFUL so the song is kinda ruined now cause i can only think about their shitty cover. like the AUDACITY. but anyway besides that the song is heart wrenching and amazing. the hardest part of this is leavin you!!!!

10. Dead!- look, i know technically the end. and dead! are the same song/ are just continuations of each other but i’m listing them separately bc dead! is, to me, the worse of the two. not that it’s bad or anything, it just doesn’t pop off the same way the end. and all the songs before it on the list do. however i do love the guitar at the beginning and the solo, and the “one! two! one two three four! LA LA LA LAs” are super fucking fun. 

11. Famous Last Words- i used to hate this song!!!! i truly did!! it’s obvs not on the top of my list now or anything, but i have grown to appreciate it a lot more than i used to. like with wttbp, it is the silver lining of the album that betrays its optimistic side. it’s a happy final message to a dark album. the ending is fucking amazing. I am not afraid to keep on living!!!! i am not afraid to walk this world alone!!!!!!

12. Sleep- Sleep is, unfortunately, just kinda boring in comparison. i almost forgot to even put it on the list. however, i do like the “the hardest part’s the awful things that i’ve seen” and the “a drink, for the horrors that i’m in. for the good guys and the bad guys, for the monsters that i’ve been” lines. also the “three cheers for tyranny, unapologetic apathy!” line. but overall it’s just. eh

13. This is How I Disappear- i have. complicated feelings on tihid. on one hand, it reminds me of my favorite oc, re, and is on their playlist. on the other hand, i have grown bored with it over time. it just doesn’t stand out to me at all really. that being said, i do really like the “who walks among the famous living dead” and the “can you hear me cry out to you” stanzas. 

14. I Don’t Love You- while i dont think idly is a bad song at all, it just simply isnt my kind of song. i do think gerard’s vocals are extremely strong throughout, especially during the “when you go, would you have the guts to say/ i don’t love you like i loved you yesterday” line. like wow ok maam please continue. but overall i just dont vibe w breakup songs bc i cant relate

including b sides: 1. Heaven Help Us

2. Kill All Your Friends

3. Everything else

4. My  Way Home is Through You

my reasoning: 

heaven help us is tied for my favorite mcr song Of All Time. everything about this song is catnip for lil old me. the angsty christian imagery, the vocals, the guitar. all of it. the lyrics make me lose my mind, especially the “will you pray for me? or make a saint of me? and will you lay for me? or make a saint of- cause i’ll give you all the nails you need/cover me in gasoline/ wipe away those tears of blood again/ and the punchline to the joke is asking ‘SOMEONE SAVE US’” and the “you don’t know a thing about my sins/ or the misery begins/ you don’t know, so i’m burnin! I’m burnin!!!” parts. like i absolutely vibe with this song so fucking hard. i sing it constantly, it’s great to sing (very stimmy for me), it sounds beautiful. i am obsessed with it through and through

similarly, kill all your friends also speaks to my very soul. i can’t pick favorite lyrics bc id just have to copy and paste the whole song. i love the build-up, i love the time progression throughout the song (it’s been TEN FUCKING YEARS since i’ve been seein your faaaaaace rounnnnnd heeeere), i love the “you’ll never take me alives”. literally everything about this song makes me emo. it just Gets Me. it’s literally about my greatest fear. all my friends growing up and moving away and getting on with their lives without me, leaving me to rot in my hometown waiting for them to return. we only see each other at weddings and funerals, so it’s time to kill all your friends so we can party when the funeral ends!! it’s probably tied with heaven help us, but i’m putting it at number two just because it didn’t hook me as strongly as hhu did. it’s more of a strong, steady favorite than a “this song has latched on to my very soul and i have to listen to it on repeat over and over and over again”, if that makes sense. it’s still in my top 5 mcr songs though

i never vibed with my way home is through you. i don’t listen to it often, and i just don’t really feel it. it’s not bad, it’s just. eh.

anyway if you’ve read this far down i love you so much. thank you for listening to me ramble, mcr means a lot and i love to infodump about my music tastes. i really really appreciate being given an opportunity to do so <3

[wintersoldeer]

ok here's some totally incoherent thoughts about endgame that i just have to write down or i might explode spoilers: i loved it also actual spoilers spoilers very spoilery spoilers

1. Steve and the goddddamn mjölnir!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!! when thor, iron man and cap were like 'aw yeahhh we're gonna fight thanos' i was like what the heckie is steve even doing there, supersoldier or not he's just a human. then thor drops his hammer and i’m like oh my gods please literally crossing my fingers. then thor’s fight is not going so well and oh no he definitely needs someone to save him! i’m like ohhhhhmygooddss. and THEN IT FINALLY HAPPENS I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR YEARS HELL YEAHHHHH

2. steve & peggy dance. yes. just yes. fucking finally. i love it. it was perfect i cried

3. clint should’ve died. (finally haha) he was my fave since before the avengers and i was so sure he was going to die back then, but then he didn’t and look what’s became of him since.......... i had a violent flashback to watching age of ultron for the first time and for the first time just hoping that my fave character (that would be clint) would just die, bc they’re screwing his character over so badly........ and most definitely it. should.  not. have. been. natasha. who. died.  that was such a bullshit i mean WHAT THE FUCK????  i mean maybe clint and natasha were the only remaining avengers that actually loved each other (?¿¿????¿¿¿?¿ tho that’s just flimsy, i’m just trying to....idek) and that’s why it had to be them on that stupid fuckin death cliff, but why did natasha have to die?? just because clint had a family (still with no actual characterization, not that i even care, or maybe i would if the movies had given me any reason to...) to return to and she didn’t??that fucking sucks and what sucks even more is that not only was natasha the only character that died (i’m not even counting tony, bc that was very Different) but she’s the only original female avenger AND it’s the same stupd fucking rock that the only original female gotg gamora died in such a bullshit way just last movie??? goddddd i hated that so much like maybe if she hadn’t been the first one to die and all the original avengers would’ve died as was i kinda hoping (tho i love happy endings so i didn’t actually hope that it would happen..), maybe then i would be okay with her being dead. now i am very much not okay, and that means very much not okay in a angry way, not in a sad way

4. speaking of death: to me tony’s was perfect. i might not be the biggest fan of how he always got the most screentime and a bigger role than other characters, but i can’t deny that he definitely is the heart of the whole mcu and it had to be him who saves the day in the end and what else could it have been that a very tony-like self-sacrifice..... god i cried. i loved that he got a funeral (even tho natasha didn’t...) and i loved his funeral with all the people and fricking harley and then the kid saying how much she likes cheeseburgers and the frickin ‘proof that tony stark has a heart’ and sfghkklkghhhh

5. i gasped audibly when i noticed that natasha was wearing the arrow necklace

6. i kinda forgot that vision ever even existed..... in the end i first thought that wanda was talking about pietro and then i was like ok well maybe not maybe she’s talking about tony or something WHICH MAKES NO SENSE LOL i don’t even remember what she actually said, but as was pointed out to me, she was probably talking about vision. who was a thing that existed... whoops

7. ugh i hate brucenat, i really thought we were over that shit already. i also very much disliked that they actually decided to go with professor hulk, but idk w/e i don’t care that much. but natasha’s death sucked tho and the one thing i do not want to see is bruce’s pain or whatever when the movie didn’t even give me the time or reason to actually grieve for her goddd that whole thing was such a bullshit

8. i did not like that thor was treated as a joke most of his screentime........

9. that stevepeggy dance tho. love it. it’ll probably take me at least another seven years to get over it

10. i fricking adored the whole going back in time thing, especially the 2012. the callbacks and the humor really worked for me, the elevator scene straight from cap2 but reversed and hail hydra and steve fighting steve and loki’s expressions when things go wrong and goddhhh i loved it all aaaaaaa, that was the moment when i was like ok i need to see this movie again immediately.... also the fact that their time travel rules were that they were just creating new paths or w/e i guess, and not actually changing what happened to them specifically... good. so many aus

11. that final battle was so perfectly epic

12. tho shouldn’t valkyrie’s (who really just doesn’t have a real name, now does she..) horse have died after being shot haha

13. i loved that clint had the gauntlet for so long, like he’s definitely the Least Qualified Person to keep it safe, why would that be his job, it was amazing

14. i hated natasha’s death with burning passion, but i loved how she and clint fought each other over who gets to throw themselves off that cliff. tho i really hoped that their ‘yeahh we know what we have to do’ would’ve rather meant that they decided to just throw red skull down bc who even knows if it even actually needs love sacrifice or w/e, a soul is a soul is a soul

15. i loved the human jarvis whatever-his-first-name-was cameo and i really need to finally watch/rewatch agent carter

16. i really liked the tony howard scene even if i thought it felt a bit iffy, bc i feel like there’s so much more to unpack w/ those daddy issues.... but maybe that scene means that there is that one universe where howard was actually a good dad. i want to believe that. yeah. (maybe not but let me dream)

17. i like how they totally forgot that sharon carter ever even existed

18. damn that moment when black panther comes through that portal

19. damn that moment when gi ant-man is giant

20. damn that final battle was so epic

21. damn that steve with mjölnir

22. this movie was SO GOOD when it was good and so mehhh when it was bad, and i’m really glad that it was just good enough that i can forgive overlook all of its flaws. (tho i will not forgive what they did to natasha, even if i can mostly ignore it when thinking about how good most of the rest of the movie was) but idk if it would’ve been perfect, maybe i wouldn’t have survived like there’s this One Huge Thing (natasha) that really brings down the movie that otherwise would’ve been just Amazing

23. i don’t know if my heart has ever beaten as fast as when steve finally picks up the hammer. never while watching a movie, at least

24. i love that carol has her short haircut, bc it bothered me so much in cpn marvel that she should not have been able to see anything when her hair was just constantly on her face haha

25. i feel nothing but seething resentment towards clint’s stupid family and that stupid family man role he is stuck with

26. why was natasha’s hair so weird and ugly. why can’t it just be red??

27. clint’s hair was weird and ugly too and i think i have finally kinda given up on mcu!clint (tho he has those small Very Good moments and i cry for what could’ve been.....we could’ve have it aaaaaalllll.... i think i’m going to watch swat (2003) again and still pretend it’s the clint backstory movie i deserve haha, it’s been ages since i’ve seen it idk if it would still work for me, i’m gonna try)

28. i love nebula tho

29. i loved the trip down memory lane! frigga!!!! the way the continuation of the avengers capturing loki just felt so natural and like it probably happened just like that! nebula and rhodey judging quill’s singing and dancing haha yes! everything! just as i was hoping it would be!

30. doesn’t really have anything to do with this movie but: i still firmly believe that coulson never died. i still firmly believe that pietro never died. 

31. falcon cap helll yeah!!

32. i guess i’ll never get my strike team delta movie with clintasha best friends soulmates and with buckynat and the red room.........  goddd there really should’ve been a black widow movie after cap2. like that was The Perfect Spot for a black widow movie, it’s really a crime that there isn’t one, and even if they make a black widow movie now, it’ll definitely be too little too late.

33. like..... a for effort..... for that female heroes girl power.... ughhhh.... scene, i guess, but that. does. not. cut. it. when you have just killed natasha

34. things i really wished they would say in some perfect moments: “hail hydra” “avengers assemble!” “i am iron man”. things they did say in those moments: “hail hydra” “avengers assemble” “i am iron man”, gogssgddd that was perfect (ok i also really did wish steve would’ve said the “i could do this all day” in the fight but couldn’t say bc the movie had just made fun of that.. i’m kinda sad but haha it’s not that big of a deal, maybe if he hadnt said it in civil war which i dont like but well...)

35. haha people are already complaining about the steve going back thing and how it’s definitely not moving on and erasing character development or whatever and HA. i finally got my stevepeggy dance i don’t care about anything else i am so happy!!!!!

36. i am so glad i managed to avoid any spoilers bc i hear that there was some pretty massive ones going around??¿?¿?

37. also: ok from here on out i am not here for any of you negative nancys complaining (probably very reasonable complaints idec) about the movie, god i really wish it was 2012 again

38. in final thoughts: i absolutely loved it and i love that it turns out that i’m apparently still very much marvel trash........ if natasha hadn’t died, especially in such a bullshit way, i would’ve been able to overlook everything else that was kinda meh about the movie and just purely and blindly loved it. i still did love it, a lot, but now there’s that bitter aftertaste.....

ok now, maybe that’s enough rambling and repeating myself....... i’m going to need to see it again asap

//EDIT

39. I FORGOT TO MENTION IT BC I FORGOT ABOUT IT but goooooooooodddd i loved nebula and tony playing that game in the beginning and tony letting nebula win ääääää

[multi-fandom-imagines8]

The New Recruit

Part 5

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Summary: Steve turns for you for help, after he thought Fury died.

A/N: So this is basically a summarized version of The Winter Soldier, but with slight changes.  Also gifs are not mine.

Word Count: 3065

You can finally relax. It's been a month since the last mission. Tony was busy doing who  knows what.

You just finished getting ready to go out when you heard a knock on the door.

“Rogers, to what do I owe this displeasure?” you opened the door.

“I need your help” he quickly got to the chase.

“Seriously? What is it with you guys? Every time one of you come to see me, you want my help. How about no this time” you got annoyed.

“This time, it's really urgent” he informed you.

“Isn't that what Stark says every time?” you didn't take it seriously.

“Stark didn't put me up to this, this time. We're on our own” he told you.

“who's we?” you asked.

“Just me and Nat” he answered.

“where's the rest?” you asked..

“either not available or I can't trust them” he answered.

“and you trust me?” you weren't sure.

“I do. We were stuck on an island together,remember? If you wanted to harm me, you could've done it back then and you're not a S.H.I.E.L.D agent, are you?” he reminded you.

“justifiable. And no, I'm not. But sorry, no can do. I actually have plans this time” you informed him.

“You mean other than watching TV alone. WOW! That's a progress...  did you develop to going out to eat alone?” he teased.

“HA HA, very funny Rogers. But no, I'm actually making new friends. We're gonna watch a movie together in the cinema this time” you explained.

“the fate of many people rests in your hand and you prefer to watch a movie. you can reschedule” he informed you.

“How is this about me now? And wrong. It rests in your hands and you want my help to share the responsibility, but I'm not helping, forget about it Rogers. You can't tell Stark will come if I don't go, 'cause he's not with you on this on, so good luck” he rejected.

“You're really gonna make me do this, aren't you? Fine, you owe me one. There I said it”.

“No, I don't” you denied.

“Uhm. The island? The 'giant' insect” he reminded you.

“You're an asshole. What do you want me to do? You asked.

“Before we do this, I have to warn you, we're gonna be wanted and they'll hunt us down” he informed you.

“You have to tell me why were committing a felony before we do it. Not that that’s going to stop us, but at least I’ll have all the facts” you demanded.

“Fair enough. There's been a corruption in S.H.I.E.L.D and Fury told me not to trust anyone. He gave a USB stick that has information of it. We're going to see what's on it in a public place but they'll be able to track us. Then we'll have to run” he explained the plan.

“This is the stupidest plan I've ever heard of. Who died and made you in charge? Don't answer that. If that's what you want then fine, I'll do it, but then you're on your own” you told him

- - -

“Nat, long time no see” you greeted.

“y/n. I'm surprised you agreed. To be honest I told him not to go to you or trust you. I really hope you won't betray us” she told you.

“I didn't want to come, he forced me” Steve gave you a look “Fine. I owed him one” you corrected.

“And you can trust me. If one thing is known about me is that I'm honest and loyal” you added.

“Only time will tell” she said.

“Okay, so let's go over the plan. Nat you will me on the roof of the building and you'll tell us when they're on their way. Y/n.. you and me are gonna see what's on the file. Then we'll walk out, hopefully without any complications. And after we're done. You're free to go and I'll continue with Nat” he explained the plan.

“sounds good to me. Let's do this” you were eager to finish it and go back.

- - -

“How much time do we have?” Steve asked you.

“Uh, about 9 minutes from.. now”  you put the USB stick in the laptop.

“hey, do you guys need anything?” a man who worked there asked.

“Oh. Uhm no we're fine thank you” you told him.

“My fiancee was helping me with some honeymoon destination. We are getting married this summer” Steve put an arm around your waist.

“congratulations. Where do you guys think about going?” the man asked.

“No idea yet” you were interrupted by Steve who looked at the screen and said “New Jersey”.

“If you guys need anything, I'm right over the corner” the man informed you.

“Hands off. And getting married? Seriously?” you questioned.

“that's the first thing that came up to my mind. Did you have a better plan?” he asked.

“guys, stop fighting. They're closing in” Nat informed you.

“Got it” you showed Steve the place and he looked at it as if it was familiar.

“You know it?” you asked.

“I used to, let's go”.

- - -

“Put your hand around her and pretend to laugh at something she said” Nat ordered him.

“What?” both of you said.

“Just do it” and  he did.

“Shit there's one down the escalator” you told them.

“kiss her” Nat told him.

“What? You're very straightforward but that's not gonna happen. I'm not kissing him” you refused.

“public displays of affection makes people very uncomfortable” Nat justified.

“Yes they do” Steve added.

“Goddd!! I hate the both of you” you complained.

Steve leaned forward and held your face in his hand and gave you a long kiss

“Let's never do that again” you pointed your index finger at him then turned around.

“Sill uncomfortable” Nat asked.

“it's not exactly the word I would use” Steve told her.

“Where the hell are you?” you asked.

“guys, you have to go without me. I got some complications. I'll get to you as soon as I can” she turned her comm. Off.

“great. Now it's just us again” you complained.

- - -

“Where did Captain America learn how to steal a car?” you asked in surprise.

“Nazi Germany... and we're borrowing. Take your feet off the dash” he ordered.

“Ugh.. you're no fun” you looked at him in silence before you spoke again “alright, I have a question for you which you do not have to answer. I feel like if you don't answer it though, you're kinda answering it you know” you asked.

“what?”.

“was that your first kiss since 1945?” you finally asked.

“that bad, huh?” he said.

��I didn't say that” you smiled.

“Well it kinda sounds like what you're saying” he informed you.

“No, I didn't- I just wondered how much practice  you've had” you denied.

“You don't need practice” he said.

“everybody needs practice, wow now I sound like Nat” you said.

“that was not my first kiss since 1945. I'm 95, I'm not dead” he expressed.

“nobody special though?” you asked.

He scoffed “believe it or not, it's hard to find someone with shared life experience”.

“well, it's alright. Just make something up” you really started to sound like Nat.

“what Like you?” he asked.

“I don't make things up. I hate deception. I just don't like to talk about my past” “and cap, that was my first kiss since... I think 8-10 years ago was the last kiss I had” you informed him.

“You? Why?” he sounded surprised.

“I never really had a real boyfriends before. Was to busy concentrating on my A levels and then university. I wasn't like the other kids in school. I didn't party or drink or go on dates with guys or girls. I preferred staying at home watching TV, reading a book or studying real hard. And I can proudly say, it actually helped me. I became what I always dreamed of becoming, not this, not a hero, but s doctor” you explained.

“Doctors are heroes of other kind, you know” he listened to you carefully.

“The longest relationship I had was probably two weeks. Yes, I went  on dates, but it never turned out the way I wanted it to be. I guess I just have high expectations”.

“or you haven't found the right guy yet” .

“What makes you think I'm looking for a guy?” you asked.

“So a girl then?” he answered with another question.

“No. I mean I'm not looking for a guy. I don't have time for this. And commitment is not my thing and neither is responsibility, well except when I'm working.... Why the hell am I telling you this?” you realized you were talking about deep stuff with him and quickly snapped out of it.

“aaand we're back to you being mean” he teased.

“shut up” you hushed him.

- - -

“Please be a secret door, please!” you tried to find one in the base.

“YES!” you screamed “I've always wanted to find a secret door” you told him.

“Good to see you enjoying a serious mission” he said.

“It's not bad, you know” you added.

“never said it was” he helped you push the shelves aside.

You put the USB stick in the device and it explained everything.

“Captain, there's a missile headed towards us” you informed him.

He took you hand and helped you get in the hole. He used his shield to protect the both of you.

You were unconscious when he carried you out of the hole. You had several cuts on your face, arms and legs, but nothing too serious.

The next day, he told you there's only one more person he trust and you went with him.

He introduced you  and explained everything to Sam.

You washed yourself and was drying your face on the bed, while Steve went to do the same thing.

“Are you okay?” he asked.

“Aha” you lied with a smile.

He sat next to you and looked you in the eyes “what's going on?” he asked.

“Nothi- I-, I don't want to talk about it” this reminded you of something you were trying to forget for more than 6 months.

“I made breakfast, if you guys eat that sort of thing” Sam said.

“I don't, he does” you tried to change the subject.

You were discussing who could be behind this, when Sam showed you his resume.

“You're the bird” you joked.

“it's a falcon” he corrected.

- - -

Steve interrogated Sitwell for information but he refused. He held him at the edge of the rooftop

“It's not your style Rogers” Sitwell thought he was bluffing.

“you're right, it's not. It's hers” he handed him over to you and you pushed him off the roof.

When Falcon lifted him up, he started talking.

“great, so now I'm a target thanks to you and Stark” you complained and Steve rolled his eyes.

As you were discussing the plan in the car , a metal arm grabbed Sitwell and threw him out. He started shooting at you and you quickly moved to the front seat. You were now sitting on Steve's lap. He quickly pulled up the gear and the man was standing in front of you . Suddenly a car from behind hit you and started moving the car. The man grabbed the Steering and threw it out. You tried to reach for your gun, but couldn't.

“Hang on” Steve said and got his shield out. He grabbed you and Sam and jumped out of the car.

The man was about to shoot a small bomb at you but Steve pushed you aside and put his shield in front of him. He fell off the bridge.

The man with the metal arm and some other agents started shooting at you and you moved from car to car trying to protect yourself.

“Damn you, Rogers” you muttered.

He fired another small missile at the car that was protecting you and you jumped on the bridge. Unfortunately you landed on your stomach. The pain was excruciating.

“Come on, twice in two days. I must be cursed” you complained and hid under the bridge. You couldn't move your right leg, so you limped.

“Where the hell are you Rogers?” you looked around but couldn't find him.

You fought the metal-armed man and tried to rub, but you were to slow that he shot you in the shoulder. You hid behind a car, but this time he could clearly see you and was about to shoot you before Steve came and started to fight him. There was nothing you could do so you just watched.

For the first time, you were actually rooting for Steve.

When he removed the man's mask and saw his face, Steve was shocked. He knew the guy. You couldn't hear what he said exactly, so you tried to crawl closer.

Many black police cars and S.H.I.E.L.D agents came armed. You surrendered and were transported in one of the cars.

“It was him. He looked right at me and he didn't know me” Steve explained.

“The hot soldier right? Or sergeant? His name is Bucky or James, something like that” you weren't sure.

“How do you know that?” Steve asked.

“'cause I know” you didn't fully answer.

“wait... did you go to the museum?” Steve realized that must have been how you found out.

“I was forced to okay? You don't think I'd voluntarily go, right? I was making new friends and she really wanted to go, after I rescheduled our movie night with her 10 times, because of you and Stark . She said and I quote 'every time is the same with you, whenever I say let's go to the theater you accept and then bail on me. This time we're going to captain America's museum'. I complained and refused, but she told me if I didn't go, then I shouldn't bother talking to her again, so I went. And your friend got my attention, just saying” you tried to justify.

“riiight” Sam said.

You sat in silence and Sam and Steve discussed how he could've survived. You were tired and wanted to rest.

“We need to get a doctor here. If we don't put pressure on her wound she's gonna bleed out” Sam informed the masked guards.

The guard hit knocked out the other one. It turned out to be Nat.

“Nat?” Steve asked.

“who's this?” she pointed at Sam.

“Sam Wilson, at your service ma'am” he introduced himself.

“You don't look so good” she told you.

“Nice to see you too” you smiled.

“I knew you weren't dead” you added.

“it's good to know you believe in me. Now let's get out of here” she told you.

“I have something to show you” she added and led you to a building.

“Son of a bitch, I thought you said he died” you looked at Steve.

“that's what he made me believe” he tried to justify.

The doctor took you and tried to remove the bullet and gave you something for your leg.

- - -

“Y/n after you get better, go to Canada, for now. The rest suit up, we're going” Steve ordered.

“Hold on, what do you mean go to Canada? I'm coming with you” you insisted.

“I'm sorry I got you into this mess. That was our deal and now you don't owe me anymore. You are free to go” he continued.

“I don't want to go. I changed my mind. I'm in” you informed him.

“What? Why?” he was surprised at the sudden change of behavior.

“Are you kidding me? A hot soldier gone rogue. Trying to save hot guys is kinda what I do” you explained.

“Uhm, no, it's not. And stop calling him hot” he was slightly annoyed.

“It is from now on. Why? Are you jealous captain?” you teased.

“No, I'm not. He's my friend and I take this very seriously. Now if you want to help, then you'll have to follow my orders” he said.

“Fiiine” you rolled your eyes.

- - -

After you exposed HYDRA and S.H.I.E.L.D and defeated the bad guys, Steve was left unconscious and was transported to the hospital. You and Sam stayed by his side. Not because you wanted to, but it was your job to make sure patients were okay. You helped fix him.

“On your left” Steve finally woke up and told Sam.

“You're awake” you stated the obvious.

“and you're here” he was surprised to see you.

“You're my patient. I have to check on you every now and then” you justified.

“keep telling yourself that” he smirked.

- - -

“You're going after him” Sam said.

“Wait. You're going after Bucky?” you asked. “if you are then count me in”.

“You don't have to come with me” Steve said to the both of you.

“I want to” you reassured him.

“Why are you suddenly so interested in helping me?” he questioned.

“Don't flatter yourself. I'm not doing it for you. I happen to want to save the guy. He's probably my type” you teased.

“Alright, if I let you come with me, you're gonna have to stop saying stuff like that” he warned.

“aye aye captain” you saluted, but you weren't gonna let this go.

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[goforwardgreenwriter-blog]

The Worm Reads: Empire of Storms, Ch 54 - 57

I’m going on vacation for a couple of days so we’ll cover some extra chapters to make up for it.

The last leg of the trek the next morning was the longest yet, Manon thought.

At least we’re in Manon’s POV for now. They’re all still traveling through the marshes.

Dorian Havilliard’s tense tan face

Since when the hell was Dorito tan??

The others were swiftly pulling ahead, but Dorian remained still. Even had the audacity to grip [Manon’s] wrist—hard.

^ me when Dorito lays one slimy finger on my baby Manon

Dorito tells Manon he killed his father and Manon isn’t bothered by it, because y’know, she’s a witch and all. They finally stumble upon the temple that holds the Lock.

When Lysandra’s solitary, swift roar cleaved the air, Aelin murmured to Rowan, “What’s the catch? Where is the catch? It’s too easy.” Indeed, there was nothing and no one here.

Oh, there will be a catch or trap waiting, y’all are just fucking stupid and wouldn’t spot a trap if it punched you in the face.

“I keep a tally, you know, Princess. To remind myself to repay you the next time we’re alone for all the truly wonderful things you say.” [Aelin’s] toes curled in her soggy boots. But she patted [Rowan] on the shoulder, looking him over with absolute irreverence, saying as she walked ahead, “I certainly hope you make me beg for it.”

You two are goddamn disgusting and I hate you. Also, why does Rowboat call her princess when he’s constantly referred to her as his queen before? Consistency who?

Alien asks Manon what the name of her sword is.

“Wind-Cleaver.” Aelin clicked her tongue. “Good name.” “Yours?” “Goldryn.” A slash of iron teeth as they were bared in a half smile. “Not as good a name.”

lmfao roast her

Alien is about to tell Rowboat something, presumably important, but chickens out and says she’ll tell him later. That’s pretty much a guarantee that it’ll bite them in the ass. Anyways, they find a chest on the altar that presumably contains the Lock.

Manon leaned over the chest to study the lid but did not open it. Studying, Aelin realized, the countless Wyrdmarks carved into the stone. Nehemia had known how to use the marks. Had been taught them and was fluent enough in them to have wielded their power. Aelin had never asked how or why or when.

*sobs* these books were so much better when Nehemia was around......

Before they can do anything, Lorass sends them a warning signal that the Ilken are approaching.

Rowan’s throat bobbed, and [Aelin] knew he’d been taking in the horizon and surrounding lands not for any chance of winning the battle that was sure to come, but for any shot at getting her out. Even if the rest of them had to buy her time with their own lives.

I know it’s only logical to try and get the royalty out safely but I’m goddamn sick of everyone being so ready to lay down their lives for Alien, when she wouldn’t lift a single finger to help anyone who doesn’t kiss her ass. Alien is such a goddamn Mary Sue please free me from this hell.

Next chapter starts with Lorass and Elide making a run for it.

Lorcan sent out another flickering blast of his power. Not toward the winged army that raced not too far ahead, but farther—toward wherever Whitethorn and his bitch-queen might be in this festering place. If those ilken reached them long before Lorcan could arrive, that Wyrdkey the bitch carried would be as good as lost.

Oh my goddd, thank you for having someone’s motivation be anything besides hailing Alien as the best queen ever. Lorass, you’re at least interesting and you’re actually improving enough that I can stomach your POVs, plus you might kill Alien off and that’s a major bonus. You are hereby promoted back to Lorcan.

We immediately shift back to Alien and her group of jackasses making a run for it.

And Lorcan … somewhere out there. [Aelin]’d think on that later. At least Fenrys and Gavriel had remained, rather than charging off to fulfill Maeve’s kill order.

Of course they stayed to save your dumb ass rather than fulfill their orders. Of fucking course. Alien suggests she uses the Wyrdkey again and Rowboat gets all pissy, which I kinda understand because the last time Alien used the Wyrdkey she killed a bunch of innocent people, destroyed part of an island, and was possessed by a goddess. She really is fucking stupid.

Aedion let out a low, bitter laugh. “You wanted to send a message to our enemies about your power, Aelin.” (...) Aedion jerked his chin toward the army approaching. “It seems Erawan sent his answer.”

IMPOSSIBLE, ALIEN MAKES A BAD DECISION AND ASSDION IS CALLING HER OUT ON IT??? I know Rowboat is gonna shoot him down but holy shit, Assdion is thinking independently for once in his life! Maybe he’ll be promoted back to Aedion.

Aelin hissed, “You blame me for this?” Aedion’s eyes darkened. “We should have stayed in the North.” “I had no choice, I’ll have you remember.” “You did,” Aedion breathed, none of the others, not even Rowan, stepping in. “You’ve had a choice all along, and you opted to flash your magic around.”

FINISH HER

I am fucking living for this Alien roast tbh, I’d read a whole book of the characters taking shots at her dumb vain ass. That's right Alien, you thought you could kill innocent people for no reason other than to show off and get away with it but you were WRONG BITCH!!! WRONG!!!!!!!

Aedion’s lip curled off his teeth. “This isn’t a game. This is war, and you pushed and pushed Erawan to show his hand. You refused to run your schemes by us first, to let us weigh in, when we have fought wars—”

I LOVE THIS SONG!! I know Assdion has done shit in the past but oh my god, I am living for this redemption!!! Has SJM become self aware and is redeeming her characters last minute??? Even Rowboat thinks her plan is fucking stupid!

Only [Rowan’s] anger was directed at [Aelin]—perhaps more livid than she’d seen him since Mistward.

This is the best chapter no competition, I am loving this Alien roast. I know it probably won’t last but I am crying, finally we’re acknowledging that Alien’s plans are selfish and stupid.

But [Rowan’s] pine-green eyes were bright—almost soft—as he said, “Remember who you are. Every step of the way down, and every step of the way back. Remember who you are. And that you’re mine.”

Now we’re ripping off the Lion King? I mean, I know it’s a semi generic quote but given SJM’s past of ripping off other novels, I wouldn’t be surprised.

The Queen of Flame and Shadow, the Heir of Fire, Aelin of the Wildfire, Fireheart …

I feel like at this point, SJM, you should’ve realized you’ve given Alien waaaaay too many titles, none of which she’s done anything to deserve or earn. Can you say, Mary Sue?

Chapter ends with Alien firing out a huge fire tornado out of her ass that is most certainly going to drain up all of her magic. Gg dumbass, you’re gonna be useless for a few days after this. Fingers crossed that this bites her in the ass afterwards.

Lorcan knew they were still too slow, warning signal or not.

Next chapter opens with Elide and Lorcan again. Lorcan has given her Maeve’s ring to protect her, which is honestly really sweet. Maybe I’ll ship them. Maybe.

Elide staggered one step—one step toward Aelin, a small noise coming out of her.

No please SJM I’m begging you, don’t make Elide into a mindless Alien worshiper like Assdion... please SJM I’m begging.......

“What is … ,” Elide breathed, but Lorcan lunged for her, hurling them to the ground, covering her body with his. He threw a shield over them, plummeting hard and fast into his magic, the drop nearly uncontrolled.

Lorcan puts the safety of Elide over his own need for revenge against Alien. I’ve gripped about his character development before, but it’s probably the only real character arc in this entire novel, so I’ll take it.

There’s a switch to Assdion’s POV, but it lasts for like half a page before it returns to Lorcan. SJM really just wants to splooge over how uhmazing Alien is through Assdion. Gag.

Lorcan watched in silence as Rowan slid a hand over her waist, the other cupping the side of her face, and kissed his queen. Embers stirred her unbound hair as she wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed close. A golden crown of flame flickered to life atop Rowan’s head—the twin to the one Lorcan had seen burning that day at Mistward.

Ewwww at least Lorcan is only saying what he’s seeing and not splooging over the shitty Ratlin ship.

Ash continued to fall, clumping on Elide’s silky night-dark hair. [Lorcan] gently picked out a bit, then put a shield over her to keep it from landing on her again.

P-pure...

Anyways Lorcan and Elide decide to stroll on over to say hello to the group of jackasses. Weird, since Elide just pointed Lorcan isn’t on friendly terms with Alien, but eh, maybe he knows they won’t prioritize attacking him due to the circumstances-

Slowly, Lorcan closed in on his prey, too focused on the fire-breathing bitch to notice that Fenrys and Gavriel had vanished from their positions in the reeds.

Oh my god, I...I actually feel... panic! Like, I actually do care about Elide and Lorcan a little bit now? I don’t want them to be hurt? What the fuck, how did you manage this, SJM?

Well, Chapter 57 picks right back up with Elide’s POV.

Elide had never been more aware of her limp. Of her dirty clothes; of her long, unshaped hair; of her small body and lack of any discernible gifts.

Christ I get it SJM, no one is even worthy of getting to lick Alien’s boots, I get it, stop rubbing it in my face.

[Lorcan] said coolly, “It would seem our bargain with each other is about to end anyway. I’ll be sure to explain the terms, don’t worry. I’d hate for them to think you were slumming it with me.”

Aww, Lorcan is putting her needs above his own......

Gav and Fenrys, understandably, attack Lorcan in furry wolf/lion form. Elide pushes him out of the way and one of them bites her arm.

[Lorcan] growled to the lion and the wolf, his shield a swirling, obsidian wind around them, “You’re dead. You’re both dead—”

I’m a sucker for that “Character A doesn’t know how much Character B cares about them until they’re injured and B loses their mind” trope, so I admit I’m warming up to them a tiny bit more.

Lorcan’s onyx eyes were unreadable as he scanned [Elide’s] face. And then he said quietly, “I wanted to go to Perranth with you.” Lorcan dropped the shield.

Damn.. can’t believe SJM’s writing is improving a tiny bit towards the end... it’s rather late, but not completely unwelcomed.

Gav offers to heal Elide while Fenrys and Lorcan wave their dicks around some more at each other. Can’t believe I’m grateful for Rowboat’s presence for once, but he comes to put a stop to the Alpha Male competition. Alien also shows up so SJM can splooge about her via Elide’s POV.

Aelin strode closer, eyes never leaving Elide’s face. Young—she felt so young compared to the woman who approached.

Ain’t they like, the same age, though?

And Elide sobbed as Manon Blackbeak emerged, smiling faintly.

PURE AND WHOLESOME................I hope we get more Elide/Manon interactions.

Fenrys feels legitimately sorry for injuring Elide, and I’m inclined to believe him. She did push Lorcan out of the way of a bite that was intended for him.

“I’m here,” Elide said as Aelin fixed those unnervingly vivid eyes on her, “because of Kaltain Rompier.”

So apparently Kaltain gave Elide the stone because she owed Alien for... giving her a warm cloak. What the fuck? Alien slutshamed Kaltain, insulted her, didn’t bother to free her from prison, did I mentioned she slutshamed her? And Kaltain wants to repay a debt for Alien doing the bare minimum? Fuck outta here with that nonsense.

“M-majesty,” [Elide] stammered, inclining her head. She should really get up. Really stop lying on the ground like a worm. But the cloth and stone still lay in her hand.

Elide, baby, it’s okay. None of these people are worth the dirt on the bottom of your shoe.

[Lorcan] didn’t let go of Elide’s arm, and she tried not to lean into his warmth. Tried not to make it seem like she hadn’t just met her queen, her friend, her court, and … somehow now found Lorcan to be the safest of them all.

Honestly fam, don’t blame you. These people are batshit insane.

“We like to call it ‘territorial male nonsense,’” Aelin confided. “Or ‘territorial Fae bastard’ works just as nicely.” The Fae Prince coughed pointedly behind her.

Unghhh this shit again. We’re almost done, my dudes, we’re almost done....

Lorcan had been willing to die for Elide. Had been willing to put aside his quest for Maeve in order for Elide to live. And had then acted territorial enough to make Rowan wonder if he seemed so ridiculous around Aelin all the time.

How can I hold all this self awareness??? Like what the fuck was SJM high writing this book but sobered up for these final few chapters???

“Aelin can decide what to tell you.” “Such a good dog.” Rowan gave him a lazy smile but refrained from commenting on the delicate, dark-haired young woman who now held Lorcan’s own leash.

Holy fucking shit, SJM really did want these guys to be werewolves.

[conspiraships]

you & arthur for the ship meme?

owo – but i deleted some of the questions that i’m like uh,,,, not rly fond of because i’m still developing my si for otp: smile through the sadness but ty ;__;

How did you meet?: tbh,,, it’s just luck that i passed by when those kids were beating him up in the alley. but like?? i’m not about to stand by and watch that kinda shit happen, that’s not okay! 

Who developed romantic feelings first?: pfffff… it’s impossible to say? i think both our feelings were growing at the same time. absolutely disgusting (but not really). it was very much on the same page of… who started falling for who first. but probably Arthur, let’s be honest. i wanna say i started crushing right away, but it took bumping into each other again for me to realize, oh he’s handsome…

Who is your biggest “shipper?”: uh… probably just like, the only one of my friends in Gotham because, yknow… it’s Gotham and everything is shit there unless you’re rich and people suck.

When did you have your first kiss and under what circumstances?: shut upppp goddd. it was… after he lost his job, actually. that night, he was so filthy and his makeup was smeared and he looked so harried and upset… it was a desperate kiss, but… it was him, so it wasn’t really all that bad.

Who confessed their feelings first?: ME SORRY. you know he never would’ve, even with his newfound confidence after losing his job. but damn if i was gonna let this man get away from me, and i was definitely very up front when i realized i was in love with him.

What was your first official date?: proper proper date, date, huh? i asked him on a date a couple of days after we bumped into each other at the grocery store, and we just went to the noodle place near my apartment complex and tried different things to share them with each other!

How do you feel about double dates/group dates?: well, if we had people to go on double dates with it wouldn’t be too bad lol

What do you do in their down time?: i love to cook for him!!!! and i love to cook with him. the amount of times i’ve crashed his and his mother’s apartment just to feed them? and he loves to help. he picks up on things so fast, and i’ve started to leave some of my seasonings and tools at their place. we also like to just curl up on the couch and watch movies. and of course he shares his love for Murray with me! i love watching it with him, and… i could go on and on, because spending down time with Arthur is one of the best parts of my day!

What was the first meeting of parents as an official couple like?: well, his mother already knew. i’d been going around long enough that when she finally asked, the answer was yes, we were together. he’s… never met my mother. and Gotham willing he never will.

What was your first fight over and how did you get past it?: first fight… oh lord. i think it was… yeah, i made an offhanded remark about his mother, and how needy she could be. for a while, he hated people saying anything against his mother (even if it was true. but i can relate), and my comment flipped a switch and he started yelling at me. i got defensive and started yelling back, and we ended up waking Penny up and she yelled at us for not keeping our voices down. i apologized, in the end. and he apologized for yelling. and we just stupidly apologized for a while.

Which one is more easily made jealous?: him. as much as i wish neither of us got jealous, i talk to more men than he does women and it’s easier for him to get jealous. i interact with more people at my job and… well, when you work in the customer service industry you know how some men can be. all entitled and self righteous and prick-y. yeah. Arthur doesn’t like that. (neither do i.) (i have gotten jealous before. that woman down the hall? i saw… how he looked at her once, in the beginning of us getting to know each other. it made me incredibly jealous.)

What is your favourite thing to get to eat?: well, if we go out i think we usually agree to go get noodles. the pho place by my apartment is delicious, and affordable. but also i love to cook for him, even if he doesn’t eat that much. there’s always leftovers in the Fleck house and we have our choice every night.

Who’s the cuddly one? What’s your favourite cuddling position?: god we are both cuddly, but in the end i’m more of a cuddler than he is. those snuggles and just being held and the sweet feeling of human touch? love that shit. i love when he spoons me (usually only works if he comes to my apartment and we share my bed) but i also like to lay on the couch and have him lay on me. it’s stimmy and comfortable for me. (also easier to kiss him)

Are you hand holders?: oh bitch you KNOW IT. i love to hold Arthur’s hand, and after our first kiss he definitely got more bold and initiates hand holding more often than not.

How long did you wait before sleeping together for the first time? What’s the circumstances?: uh. well. whell…….. well. it was probably a few days after our first kiss that we slept together?? it was brought on by a fit of jealousy when he came to pick me up after work and saw one of the customers hitting on me. and even though we both knew i was uncomfortable and didn’t want anything to do with that man, Arthur still got jealous and he kissed me so aggressively when i left the restaurant that i know the man inside saw. he kept a hand on me all the way home. on my hip, my waist, the small of my back, my wrist, my knee, my thigh, Arthur made sure we were always in contact on the way back to my apartment and then it just… happened.

Who does the shopping and the cooking?: well i’m used to doing both, and it’s easier anyway. his mother and i eat far more than he does so he doesn’t really like meal planning. besides, he eats almost anything i cook for him, so i really don’t mind. but i like to drag him shopping with me, just for the company.

Which one is more organized and prone to tidiness?: god. neither of us, but probably more likely him? he picks up a lot, and is quick to wash dishes and things like that. i usually let it sit til the last minute or til i actually need something that needs put away or washed.