#god............ hrgh.
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I am on my knees begging for commentary on tbiohc chapter 21, I would love the part where Rilla gives Arum the flowers or where he bites her hand but honestly any section from the chapter at all would be amazing, please share thoughts!!
aslfjsjfaskfj yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah chapter 21 which caused me to write like 3k words in a single day and made me cry at least twice. :D
im gonna do the bite section but before i say anything else i will mention As Per Your Comment (💖💖💖), Rilla bringing two flowers was, indeed, VERY deliberate. On my part, at least. Rilla doesn't think in metaphors quite as much as me... and damien and arum. MOVING ON.
["Can I- would you let me just-"]
Poor Rilla doesn't have a good vocabulary for what she wants, here. There's a BIG gap between this and what she actually wants to say when she posits her Point Four, but... she wants SOME sort of physical contact with him before she makes her case about... well, informed consent, basically. She wants a connection before she tells him that she understands, and she wants to help him ANYWAY. But she doesn't have the right words to explain that desire, so... she just Reaches Out.
[She trails off, and Arum watches her, his violet eyes vivid and wide and still startled. She leaves her hand hanging in the air between them, just- waiting, and after a few breaths Arum looks towards her palm, swallows, and-]
Arum... I don't know if he fully understands what she's asking for either? But also, i hope this has come through, but in the last few chapters, Damien and Arum have gotten fairly comfortable with some casual touch. touching an elbow, poking each other, brushing shoulders. Since Arum can't talk, touch is just... easier, sometimes, when it comes to getting attention or (as shown earlier in this scene) telling someone to BACK OFF before other guards come in the room.
But that is extremely different from an active, specific request for physical contact from someone else. Even someone who Arum has a burgeoning friendship with via letter. and also. she's not just taking what she wants in the situation either. She's offering him a choice, too. Saying please.
[His face twitches, some strange pain crossing it, and then his jaw clenches for a moment before he- he jerks his face towards her, opening his mouth and nipping at the heel of Rilla's thumb before he shoves his cheek into her palm, his eyes squeezing shut and an expression of pained embarrassment on his face.]
i will say again, As Per Your Comment, you are SO right. Arum is extremely, extremely A Cat. This bit...... it just kinda came to me? i was literally staring off into space and imagining BEING ARUM in that moment, imagining what I would want to do, how I would respond, and... the sort of... despair of admitting how badly he wants what she's offering, and the little bit of defiance to at least pretend that he's going to use his teeth on her before he allows something soft.
And the thing is. He could have drawn blood. He did not want to. There's a little bit of the... like... urge to consume what you can't bear to lose? wrapped up in the gesture? But mostly he just needs to pretend like he even wants to resist them. just a nibble.
[Damien tenses, but- Rilla doesn't respond with pain, her hand looks- fine, and she makes a small concerned noise, moving closer and curling her fingers against Arum's jaw, lifting her other hand to cup his face on the other side.]
Damien doesn't think Arum would hurt him OR Rilla, at this point, but. like. the dude did just lunge and bite his fiance's hand. I'd probably also flinch, regardless. Rilla, for her part, is. having a moment. because she was not EXPECTING him to respond quite so... emotionally? Emphatically? he shoved his face into her hand, so of course she lets her other hand join the first. Of course she cups his face like That.
["Oh," she says, more shaky than Damien is used to hearing her. Arum growls, still carefully low, and he cracks his vivid eyes open to glare at her after a moment.]
I don't want to say that Rilla forgot how bad Arum had it, but... they've been acting like penpals with a secret code for a few weeks now, and... i mean... it's ARUM. he complains, obviously, but... he downplays his own emotional reaction. He describes it dry, if he describes the actual torment at all. Right in front of her, breaking over a simple touch, it breaks her heart, too. And Arum is, of course, embarrassed. Because what's more embarrassing than this? Than falling into her hands, just because she offered?
[Do not ask why I did that, he writes without looking a the page, his handwriting only barely more shaky than normal.]
Universe forbid he expresses himself. Also, i don't think he could in ANY way articulate why the fuck that just happened. He doesn't have the benefit of my perspective as the author, lmao. He'll maybe work out what the fuck is up with himself later.
for now, though, he just... gets to feel her hands on his scales. Deliberate, and calm, and gentle.
so. yeah.
argh.
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no!!!!!! 8 episodes will kill patient!!!!!!!! he needs 12-24 episodes some of which is light-hearted filler to live!!!!!!!!!!!!
#this was about shows in general but dw is on my mind#like the new season was so fawking good but oh my god it's so heavy. hrgh#I know this isnt the fault of the ppl making the show it's just that fucking everything has to be 8 episodes now#well stop!!!! please!!!!!!!!! aaaa!!!!!!!!#15 clearly going thru it yelling and crying in the upcoming christmas special WOULD be exciting but that's also the#plot of every single episode in the preceding season...#i dont think him being miserable at christmas is bad in fact it's great. im saying the absence of the#5 episodes that would've been 0 stakes fun adventures is making itself very very felt and obvious#like imagine season 4 which is already pretty much just unending misery WITHOUT the few fun fillers we get. lethal and#not in a good way. sometimes you need to breathe!!!#that does not excuse pl.anet of the d.ead being ass but yknow. at least it doesn't make me cry for an hour#doctor who#dw text#barking
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hey its been a while! have skull in this? idk you could make him a triad probably
#khr#fanart#skull de mort#honestly it was rly unintentional but his clothes look very chinese so yeah sure why not make him triad skull - that would be fun#if the quality is shit oops - i made this on my phone lmaooooo#my art#idk how phone artists do it... i used to do it before but god. so much time.... so much struggling..... hrgh
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gives mizuki a lil kiss on the head
#fable talks 💫#mizuki akiyama#god i need to like. sit down and actually play the story i need to know more abt her!!!#but hrgh. rhythm game fun.
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once I get time and energy I'll draw all my blood mage pc's and then it's over for all of u
#and also me#i rly rly want to draw my amell but good god im so tired#moving is busy business. and i hurt my stupid foot today hrgh#gastlee.txt#yes literally all of my dragon age pc's (except maybe rook) are blood mages what about it#ok so jack isnt my canon warden but the others are canon worldstate
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can you guys take a moment to fully cherish and relish in a world where you don't have a sore throat. for me
#i mentioned this earlier but i had chickened out on kissing somebody earlier and i Was going to fix that#but as i was texting them to come back over i realized i was getting sick and thus shouldnt . be kissing anybody .#i am gods jester.#hrgh. itll be fine but can i get better faster.#veespeaks
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i need to draw. i need to draw. i need to draw. i NEED TO DRAW. i NEED to draw. I NEED TO DRAW. I NEED TO DRA
#im a little desperate to draw. if you couldnt tell. i have so many ideas but . school. god . hrgh. HGRRUGRGHHGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#cw repetition
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The fabric gods blessed me once for that one Techno drawing I did last year and I've not seen them since 😔😔
#HRGH#fabric folds my beloathed#i still have no fucking clue what tf I was on with that drawing but I slayed#as I bloody well should have#mrs 20 hrs on the hair's lineart#i deserved a BREAK goddamni5#goddamnit#and I got it in the form of temporary god tier fabric drawing skills#feather speaks
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in another beautiful universe, your f/o is also excitedly gushing about you because they got art of you from their friend
WHATT EH WUWUNWAUAGAGAA HHHRHRGH ??@?@?@.,,&,,@,,@/POOSS ??@??
#WAUAAGHEUGHEUEEEE#WAHAHAUAHAHAA AHAGHR RHRGGHR GHH IM RUINED#im going tothink about this for the rest of my day. the rest of my week actually#THANK U…….. PLEASEHAVE A GREAT REST OF YOUR DAY IM WISHING YOU NOTHING BUT JOY IN YOUR LIFE ….#the fact that f/o has an artist friend?…? brother. too im so. im so im so im so#❥ vel answers#i am actually NOT normal oh my god#I crumpled collapsed intomy bed in real life dude. Im so im so sim so im so im so im#uhwahuaUEHAHAVEBHEGR HRGH.#UEEUEUEU..
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most unfortunate thing ive learned about getting into jr.wi is the overlap with genlo.ssers
#im so sorry but also i keep getting jumpscared in my notes. hrgh#its a new year so im not gonna be a hater but just know every time i go to follow a new blog im like. 🤨#praying to GOD this doesnt show up in any tags#theres also. ive found. a very specific style of fanfic writing where im like “oh you came from the ranb.oo side of dsmp didnt you.”#theres such a SPECIFIC voice ppl write in and j cant explain it but it goes#i open a fic. i recognize ranb.oo fan writing style. i immediately close the fic#im sorry but ran.boo fans are a different breed and 90% of the time theyre Not Normal about queer people#and . gillion being asexual js like. putting him behind my back. nobody fucking touch him.#hes not uwu innocent baby boy and if i have to see one more person writing him like that im going on my villain arc#i knowwww thats an issue with most ace characters but im Especially miffed about the gil writers. nobody understands him like i do#i havent found the earth shattering lifechanging jrwi fics yet#and im so upset about it because that means i have to dredge the depths of the tag myself
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It feels like getting a lil pat on the head and i feel so. :3
#HRGH.#weak man weak weak weak man.#pathetic boy.#i am SO CLOSE to doing it i SWEAR to GOD.#꒰ঌ♡ 𝟽𝟽𝟽.ramble
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I am alone, and miserable; man will not associate with me; but one as deformed and horrible as myself would not deny herself to me. My companion must be made of the same species, and have the same defects. This being you must create.
--- Frankenstein, by Mary Shelley.
#okay but like as a biblical reference here#God saw that it was not good for man to be alone#and made Eve his wife#when adam saw her he said at last this is bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh#and he loved her#and like#there is something so specific about this piece here#about the way that shelley's monster desires. love. companionship. friendship. understanding.#it's like#the human condition is the idea that you are perpetually alone within yourself#and that is the struggle we all must fight against#and it's just so#hrgh#the one thing the monster asks for#is someone to love him#because his creator hates him#the world hates him#he is completely alone and completely detestable#and it's like#of course. of course. of course of course of course. he wants to be loved. don't you?#frankenstein#summer tbr
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just so y’all know, i physically cannot stop thinking about this scene.
#( i’m not even romancing gale on this playthrough but god maybe i should have )#( look . i am a certified gale lover )#( and something about these two specifically ingame is just. Hrgh )#( this edit is very self-indulgent sjfhskfj )#꒰ა visage.#꒰ა gale of waterdeep.
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had a hot trans girl shove my face in her crotch as she pissed on me.
this too is yuri.
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was doodling a lil tove and had a Realization hes the Heavy to my Medic. unfuckingfortunate
#he would think its rly funny. like shut up#also god. i have a type. beeg boy#also HRGH cant ignore it im just medic at heart.#im a variety of medic.#docart
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you know the car trouble is bad when even ethan is going 'hm should i get an ebike?'
#RADICAL IDEA FOR CAR MANUFACTURERS#MAYBE if there is a tool that is the SINGULAR tool you need to make the spare tire USABLE#you LABEL THAT TOOL#and dont make it look like A PIECE OF GARBAGE PIPE\#hrgh i know this is just our fault but my god am i fucking pissed at everybody right now#WE SAT THRU THREE PEOPLE COMING OUT JUST TO TELL US THEY COULDNT FIX IT HELLO#killing someone#its also still not fixed its just at a mechanics to be dealt with in the morning#lmao.
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