#god. this does not mean shilo was right when calling me a yura kinnie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sunflower-bnuuy]

yura beletsky really means so much to me. he's a rat bastard and manipulative and an asshole sure but... something about just being a teenager trying to get by in a town you hate. the only choices you have don't matter. your future isn't really in your hands and it looks like it's going downhill pretty fast, which is funny considering you already thought you were at the bottom. so why worry about it? let's have fun and party instead. let's not worry about waking up in the morning. let's hope we don't wake up in the morning.

but then-- then you meet a girl. it sounds so cliche, but it's not in that romantic teen movie way. god, it's not in a romantic way. she needs help. and you make the choice to help her. and god, is that choice so freeing! and it may be the bad choice-- something about her, it makes your stomach turn, and you figure it out pretty quick-- but it's a choice you get to make and it's helping. it's helping someone. you're actually doing something.

then of course, it's all ripped away. and it's your fault, really.

but you're not going to let it stay your fault forever.

you're breaking her out of the facility no matter what. no matter what sacrifices you have to make, you got her back there, you're getting her out. and sure, it's horrible, you're horrible, but it's freeing. finally, you've weaponized your helpless spite.

anyway i hate yura beletsky. he ruined my life and also probably saved it. im normal btw