#god. literally dk how to articulate how this makes me emotional

[rinbylin]

hlht ep 2 // 8: 故人之子

[lemongogo]

i am. now on ch 164. can i just say i rly like tanjirou and giyuu's dynamic? something abt it is so nice but i cant put my finger on it. idk what it is. mby its bc giyuu feels like an older brother? which throws me off bc tanjirou is supposed to b the Older Brother character. idk maybe im dumb. also i cried over inosuke's past & i still got tears in my eyes for shinobu.

AHAH so when i first saw this i typed a response in the notes app & was gonna fix it up later but im.just going to post them instead if thats ok KSDFJNSKDFN hopefully it makes some sense :3

edit: AHADASHS im so dumb this post has post-164 spoilers so just spoilers for dat i guess

AA BUT UR RIGHT THO i think they fulfill these rly special roles for each other that makes their dynamic work the way it does . u mentioned how tanjirou is the older brother character between the two of them and i like how the story works to remind us of this multiple times throughout its course (fight w the tsuzumi demon, crying for nezuko’s pain during the red light arc, nezuko conquering the sun, etc). his whole life hes had to hold himself to that standard (standard being his sense of responsibility and obligation) in the face of adversity for sake of protecting nezuko, carrying the burden of his family’s loss, bearing the pain of the demons and corpsman around him, etc. all at the tender age of like . 15 .  and thats so much to shoulder on ur own yknow. i feel like giyuu , being that mentor figure he is for tanjiro (and later falling into this big brother role), allows him to not Have to be the oldest one in the situation and lets him relax a little u know . like hes able to kind of step back and be a kid again and YEAH hes still dealing w all this shit on the side and its not as if any of his problems are just magically solved, but god to have giyuu provide that space for him is just rly nice and i appreciate that . 

and on the other hand i thjnk it also gives giyuu purpose and meaning? he grieves the loss of his sister and sabito every day and i truly think he embraces the opportunity to play the same role they did in protecting his life . like, hes always dealing w these feelings of guilt , insecurity, and weakness for relying on others so now w tanjirou, he’s able to pay it back via his mentorship and big brother relationship. its a tribute to tsutako and sabito in its own way nd im so soft abt that u know. it makes their teamwork in that final battle w muzan soo so important to me . like i see these images and i want to burst into tears bro

(AND HOW IT MIMICS THE WAY TANJIROU SAYS GOODBYE TO RENGOKU & EVEN SHOWS HIS FLAME GUARD AAAAAAAAAAA. knowing how important rengoku was for tanjiro’s development, its cool to see it projected onto giyuu and the ways in which tanjiro has provided meaning for him as well)

theres so much i want to say abt their dynamic that i just dk how to articulate. its unfortunate bc if i could transcribe the 4432 page novel in my head i would  AAHAH im just. i love how receptive their relationship is. i like how they are able to fit into each others lives like they were always meant to be there . how they are both the same person in many ways bt also benefit from the differences they bring each other . oojhh its so good and im really happy w how they’ve evolved from literally ch.1 to the end. 

AND WAWWBWHHHDU INOSUKES PAST MAKES ME SO SAD I . kotoha..... i miss her so much . its so painful to think of just how incredibly young she was and the awful ways in which the people in her life treated her . she did all she could for inosuke all while doubting herself nd i . gd . and to think that , because inosuke never had the chance of meeting her , thought that he was unloved or unwanted . and then to find out thru his moms murderer just How Much she loved him and all she went thru to ensure his safety, survival, and success . it breaks me down every fuckign time . AND JUST . HOW HE FOUND COMFORT THRU SHINOBU AND .. HIM AND KANAO SHARING THEIR EXPERIENCES TOGETHER LIKE THAT . IM SO SAD IM . SO SAD . douma is such a (n intentionally) godawful character but i really love his arc w these three and i love the revelations , the tension , nd the emotion. i love the breathing techniques and blood demon arts and suspense . the art .. ouughh . shinobus anger being treated in the way that it was , both as a motivational force and positive character asset despite also detailing her flaws in leaving kanao behind without much say of her own . its so fucking good

i just rly love this whole sequence of events . bc you get storylines for nearly every character within that 40 chapter span (between 140-180) nd they all hit different points . all share the common theme of loss, anger, resilience, and love while also manifesting their own unique narratives .