#god this feels so dumb now

[i-like-books-and-women]

Okay so I need an objective view on my love life so I'm just gonna write it out. I feel like this is an insane example of a lesbian stereotype but whatever.

Psa it's a really long story

So I have this friend. She was one of the seinors my freshman yeah and at the time she was dating my section leader. We didn't really get close until about halfway through the year when I got her into heartstopper. After the school year was over we hung out a bunch and she started talking about how she wanted to break up with her girlfriend because it felt like she didn't really care about her or her needs. She'd gone to college and my friend noticed that if she didnt initiate a conversation they never talked. Long story short eventually they broke up and during that time we decided that we were touch starved and were gonna take the matter of filling that void into our own hands. This evolved into hand holding and cuddling. There was one time we were lying on the couch sharing a blanket. She was wearing ripped jeans and let me put my hand in the hole on her thigh. There was one time she was driving us back from this hang out party thing and we were holding hands over her center console. She told me she learned how to drive one handed to hold hands with her ex just kinda in one of the lapses in conversation and it was just a comment she made and we moved on. We haven't been able to hang out a lot lately because I'm busy like all the time basically and she's working most of the time I'm actually free. So our messages are occasionally decorated with "I miss you"s. So about a week ago? She told me she missed me and that it was torture. Like writing this out it's like "Jesus you dumb gay bitch" but I have a crippling fear of rejection and I'm terrified to mess things up. Also years of self worth issues have convinced me that I kinda just don't deserve things like that romantically if that makes sense?

So some kind soul on the internet pls. Make sense of my love life or just tell me "bitch she loves you what-" whatever it is I just need someone who doesn't know me irl or her at all's opinion.

[cthulhum]

does anyone realize how crazy it is to have the actor of a mostly headcanoned queer ship say the fans were never crazy and they were right all along after 10+ years of everyone just absolutely going nuts over the said queerbaited ship

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

[scribblue]

Hey Ninjago fans who've watched the whole show, quick Q. I just watched the first 2 eps of s11 and uh. Does it...Get Better by any chance or do I have to lock in for these last 5 seasons? Asking for a friend who is me.

I'm committed to this damn show but am experiencing the wildest whiplash from the studio changes anejcndn i domt understand the choices being made here

[libidinous-weeb]

Gabriel’s Christmas story part 5b/FINALE (ft. LMAOOO GET FUCKED U ANNOYING TWINK (affectionate and with intent to ride his dick for sure next time))

[puppyeared]

i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

[menlove]

went from being "the cool dyke with the magneto icon and opinions about feminism and many hundred thousand note posts" to "the fucking beatles mutual again" and I will say this is 100% an upgrade I hate being broadly popular on here I need to be controversial with several dedicated haters but in a niche circle where we all know each other's names

[isa-ah]

im watching a retrospective about Majora's Masks dungeon progression and realizing a little more every time he says "this game took a lot of very brave steps out to not be ocarina of time" that my disappointment with totk isn't out of place. I've been told "it's breath of the wild 2, why did you expect it to be different?" but like.. it's it's own game. why is it the exact same but with an arguably worse iteration of the story?

[stupidrant]

i never wanted a God Of War Live Action in the first place but now i DEFINITELY dont want a ragnarok LA at all 💀 i really pray to god they stick with doing 2018 ONLY for the 20th anniversary because i can tell the discourse is gonna be trash and even worse since most ppl dont tend to care or disrespect about video games as an art form and are way more stubborn with films/TV Shows and what not. I really just want that new GOW game after (or before) the LA no more LA’s afterwards thats it thats all i ask 🙏🏾 they shouldve stuck to the greek saga for the live action tbh LOL it feels way too soon to do a norse LA

[slavhew]

Hello!

If you're not too busy, would you mind listing some of the things you think count as death flags for Mr. Spender?

There's the obvious fact that he's the "old" mentor to group of young protagonists, but what else do you think would count?

OHH BOY ok so I'd think I'm a crackpot for this but since we're talking about Zack "Foreshadowing" Morrison. I have some thoughts

No harm in leading with the (chronologically) first thing that jumped out at me:

This one IMMEDIATELY made me antsy whenever I came back to it after my initial read, and considering Zack has referred to it on twitter in the past as one of their favorite jokes it's definitely not been forgotten about.

Second, the sheer amounts of near-misses, jokey or not, of Spender narrowly avoiding specifically lightning

Again, not much, but it's weird that it happened thrice, latter two of which had real gravitas rather than an one-off joke.

And third, Spender himself. He's repeatedly shown himself to be kind of a self sacrificing idiot, as well as prideful to a fault. Granted, it's both him and Mina trying to take on all the responsibility of saving Mayview and its inhabitants from their fate.. But Spender is exactly that right measure of doesn't-value-himself-enough (chest footprint aftercare or lack thereof), having an obscene amount of power (enables his loner act + pride) and poor judgement that has the capacity to put him at great risk. And it has!

Spender has not only shown low enough self-esteem to view himself as the de-facto scapegoat for the safety of the town, but also prideful enough to make very bad calls that end up in people, often himself, hurt (COUGH FORGE INCIDENT COUGH)

This is all conjecture, but it's definitely enough to make me worried about him :') Even if all this doesn't mean he'll necessarily die he's definitely getting (even more) seriously injured at some point. I love the guy but he's so far doing a horrible job of convincing me he wants to live bad enough to circumvent at least that

[daydreamerwonderkid]

I was today's year old when I finally put together that the reason it's called Task Force Z is because the Z stands for Zombie.

[ganondoodle]

started to write a whole post about starting to doubt myself immediately, but had to stop bc i was falling into an intense panic attack so fast like i dont think i ever had before- now being conscious again i deleted all the panic talk-

i know i speak from a place of priviledge, but also know that the priviledged should speak up- so i tried, knowing i cannot handle situation like this well, even after all this time

ill turn off anon for a while, sorry nice anons :(

[jordanswitches]

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[misssmeat]

Talking about other people choosing to be anonymous when you are also anonymous and secretive about your life is hypocritical no? Thought you would understand that more than anyone.

I’m not secretive with my real life partners bro. Any dating apps I’ve been on have featured my real photo and name because guess what? I want people who want to date the real me.

Forgive me for not wanting to share the details of my life and my body with 100K absolutely random people.

Insane that you think you have the right to my life in the way someone I’m dating reasonably does.

[kitausuret]

the world does not need another silly one shot from me about the Venom Symbiote's time in captivity with the Fantastic Four but if I'm going to fixate on one page in one comic by god I'm going to do something with that

I just think it would be sweet if in Reed Richards' desperate attempts to communicate with the Symbiote he tried to like, teach it Morse code, and he asks it, "do you have a name? is there something you were called, some designation you were given? something unique to you?"

And the symbiote taps back after a long moment the closest thing to a human translation of the only thing it can think might fit what Reed is referring to: "DEATH"

And Reed is all at once filled with a kind of overwhelming sadness, because what kind of life has this alien lived that it was called only "Death" by those it encountered? What kind of symbiosis had it experienced, if any at all?

But then he manages to collect himself, and he tells his guest that well, we'll just have to come up with a better designation than that, won't we? He probably tells it about how Sue, his own partner, is the one who gave him the name the world knows him by, "Mister Fantastic", and that he hopes the symbiote, too, can find a name it can be proud of.

Everyone needs a name, after all.

[captainimprobable]

I have one more day of being thirty and Im trying so so so hard to convince myself I haven't wasted over three decades, that I HAVE accomplished important things, and that my 21 year old self wouldn't be disappointed in me. But it's hard bc I literally can't think of anything I've done that I can be proud of even since my last birthday.

I'm in the same place I was ten years ago, and there was so much I was planning to accomplish this year, and instead I got fired, spent multiple months with zero dollars in my bank account, and returned to retail, where I'm getting paid a truly offensive amount of money. There is no physical way I can move out in the next year. I have gone BACKWARDS and that's insane. I'm so ashamed of where I am in life and of WHO I am, and I'm tired of feeling like a loser among my peers. I'm tired of running on a hamster wheel and thinking I'm moving forward only to realize I've been running in place. I so badly want to hold on to the hope I had last birthday and extend that to my 32nd, but it feels pointless. This time next year I will STILL be living at home. It's not even a question, I cannot logically save enough money to get out in a year. Me from ten years ago would hate me and I can't even blame them.