#god reading all these happy birthday asks are just filling me with so much serotonin

[derpiedoxie]

Oh my, almost forgot!!! HEY YOU. YES YOU!!!H a p p y b i r t h d a y!!!! You know why 28 september is cool??? Its because you were born lol!!! Have a great day, no, actually a whole great week!

*casting luck and no tummy aches upon ya*

Oh? You mean me? Why thank you!

HHDJSHDHSH THANK YOUU! I shall report back to you after the week is completed to confirm that it was wonderful, that I had some good luck and that I did not have any tummy aches!

[zhowongli]

hello! i started a new thread because the other one (+ this one) got really long, so sorry! but i guess this is my love letters to you guys because you’ve made my tumblr experience so, so much better && i’m grateful for all of you guys + all of my mutuals and followers!!

first of all, @himawari-senpaii thank you so so much for your kind words! meggi, i love your sunflower motif because it suits you so well! sunflowers make me smile whenever i see them, and it really brings me so much joy to see you on my dash/notifs. your tags are always so fun and sweet. thank you for tagging me in this 🥺 

@animoozies connie, where do i even start? you were my very, very first tumblr mutual on this account! i’m so thankful you reached out to me before, and you’re still checking up on me even now. words can’t describe how much i adore you + how appreciative of you! when i see you on my dash with your stories, i always end up cackling because you’re so fun. idk how you do it working all those hours + going to nursing school, but you is a mf boss ass queen!!

@hoekaashi ash, my queen!! my tag for you is my day is blessed because ash ✨exists✨ because that’s honestly how i feel about you. i am truly blessed with your kindness, your humor, your friendship, you. thank you for always keeping me company through our struggles in pharmacy school! you are one of the realest people i know, and i feel so honored that you always send me random kenma pics & fics you think i’d like 🥺

@kanao annette, the other half of my soul, my whole heart, my literal soul sister. you are one of the biggest blessings i’ve received this year, and i honestly don’t know where i would be without you listening to my dumb shit and supporting me through all my mess LOL. thank you for validating me all the time, even if it’s just stupid stuff like enabling me to buy all the random stuff that i’ve been thinking about LMAO. i love how we are always ✨speaking✨ and  ✨manifesting✨ good things in our futures together. i literally feel like i can talk about any and everything with you, and i love that about us 🥺 i am manifesting that beach vacation 2021 for us, okay!!! 💖

@sapphitedreams leo, my cutest menace in the kitchen 💖 thank you for reaching out to me when i was too shy to reach out to you uuuu. you’re such a chaotic calm in my life, and i love your energy. i am constantly in awe with how adorable, supportive, and creative you are! even though you bully me sometimes and only make things for characters’ birthdays, you are so so talented and it floors me every time i see your creations because they are so amazing idk how they’re real. i hope you are able to get some rest even if you have to work during your break (& i hope you don’t accidentally fall during work anymore smh HAHAH)!

@onefortyninecm danielle!! my love!! i know i mention this before, but i am always so so inspired by you. you’re so tiny, but you have such a big heart and soul. you’re so beautiful inside and out + your humor is god tier. i’m so glad you were the very first person i’ve ever commissioned from (& spiraled me into comissioning indulgent kenma art HAHAHA), and i’m still amazed by your talent and kindness every time you post something new omg. i still can’t believe you DREW ON YOUR PHONE what the heck!! you’re so talented it’s crazy HAHA. i’m always thinking fondly of you + dandy wedding in a pumpkin patch 2021, okay thanks. 

@p-irozhki rissa!! i am so blessed with all the gifs you create and all your content on my dash! whenever i think of you, i think about all the smol icons you use because to me, you = cuteness = i wanna hug you so much!!! i think i already said it, but i’m always so thankful when you read all my self-indulgent fanfics and leave kind comments on them 😭 thank you for culturing me about mangoes HAHAHA. there’s never a bad time with you, and i’m thankful we got to meet this year!

@hoshino-a lena lena! you actually have so much bde that i am in constant awe by you. you are such a baddie & i have this like clear imagine in my head of you with crisp and clean vibes + the skies from your pfp on discord, hehe. i love you and all your brain rots about your exes. at this point, every time i see semi, my first thought is “ah it’s lena’s ex” and whenever i hear some sad song, i would be like “omg it’s lena ab her ex semi eita” LMFAOIOAGJDLA. i love talking to you because your energy is just immaculate + i just love your presence 💖 also please get some sleep because do you even sleep 😭 

@myelocin nic!! you’ve painted my world in so many iridescent shade so life, i can’t even begin to describe how much you mean to me. you works are just so beautiful so imagine how much i shrieked when i saw you followed me LMFAOOADIGDALJ i love that your blog is your safe space because it has become a place of comfort for me as well (and i’m going to miss you so much when you leave 😭😭). your makki brain rot is so strong, and sometimes i think about makki and you making dinner and teasing each other and throwing flour at each other or something idk. this is nic’s world now and we are all living in it tbh. 

@tsu-kiss nina!! you are someone i find such comfort in. i’m not really sure if that even makes sense LOL. but your blog and you are a source of comfort for me. in my head, you have such an older sister vibe even though i’m older than you LMAOOADGHDAKJ. i hope life is treating you well because you deserve all the best!! seeing you thrive makes my heart so full 🥺 i love you so much!!

@souheii lisa!! i kid you not, the first time you dropped an ask in my ask box, my heart skipped a beat because you told me you love me and i love you and you are so cute and i cri!!!! i know we don’t talk often, but every time i see you on my dash or in my notifs or when we do talk, it’s like a little shot of serotonin every time :”) thank you for being such a lovely human being mrs. iwaizumi hajime, 27, althetic trainer😭

@ultkags​ cas!! my first child 💖 i know you’re on a hiatus right now because school really, really sucks BUT you are seriously one of my biggest blessings. you are literally my ray of sunshine because every time i talk to you, i gain so much warmth and energy from you. every time i see your edits, it absolutely AMAZES me because i literally don’t know how i am able to see all your edits FOR FREE?? all your thoughts behind the composition and symbolism for each piece is CRAZY. please remember that i’m always your biggest fan + i love you so so much. please take care and remember to drink water and get some rest!! your grandma is always here to send you love + forehead kisses because this grandma can’t bake :(

@u-make-my-heart-tsumtsum​ ree!! hi, i know we’ve only started talking recently but i love how open and warm you are. our love was so strong that even tumblr tried to stop us 😭 conversations with you are always so easy and lovely, and you are just such a cool person!? i love reading all your thoughts (& i can’t wait to dive into your masterlist after school ends because we live for fluffy tsumu content 😭). i’m not sure why you even follow me, but i adore you so much!!

@neonghxst​ el, where do i even begin!! you are such a lovely person, and i literally have no other words to say because you always leave me speechless. your writing is so so gorgeous, and you are so so beautiful. i love reading all your stories because they truly leave an everlasting impact on me, and i love reading your interactions + just seeing you on my dash. you are so thoughtful, and you take care of everyone around you so well. i hope that you are also giving yourself the same treatment because you deserve all the best as well! remember to drink water in between your coffees and get some rest as you go into your final 2 weeks of the semester!! 

@und3lla​ maliha! hi love! i know we haven’t spoken much or in a while, but i really do always think of you randomly. you were one of the first mutuals i made && you are such a sweet soul. i love how every time we talk, it really fills me up with happiness. thank you for just being such a lovely person && you truly are one of the softest people i’ve met. thank you <3

@deadontheinsidebut angel, my dumb ham, my queen, my hoe (heaven on earth), my everything. i know you are also on a semi-hiatus right now because everything that’s going on, but i hope you are properly taking care of yourself >:( i’m always here to remind you to drink some water in between your coffees and teas and to GET SOME REST. you are so so driven, and i really admire how open and friendly you are. you truly are your namesake because you are literally an angel, and i always feel so blessed to be in your presence (even if you bully me sometimes for being a boomer 😔). words can’t describe how much i love you and care about you && i hope that you are able to find what you’re looking for during your break! 💖

@rumprich​ ananya! hello! i am so thankful to see you and all your content on my dash. you have so much creativity, and all your edits are so aesthetically pleasing to look at? like it’s so light + pretty!! i’m so so grateful that we are mutuals somehow because ahhh i really don’t deserve you. you are so adorable, and i truly am blessed to see your presence! 

@yuki-souma​ vee! i know we only started talking very very recently, but you are so much fun to talk to! i love how diverse our conversations are, and i love that we have similar favorites, and even when we don’t, it’s always a fun conversation that i look forward to! i love how open and inviting you are, and i’m really grateful that we are mutuals + i love and appreciate you so so much! 

@owlywrites​ owly! hello! you are seriously one of the most supportive souls i’ve met on this website. your kindness and drive to learn always leaves me speechless because you’re so amazing. thank you for being so kind to me, and i hope you extend that same kindness to yourself! don’t be so hard on yourself and remember to take breaks and take care too. you are such a beautiful soul, and i hope you’ll remember that i’m always here to support you!! 

@graphicstills-in-motion hi arianne! thank you so so much for always being so kind to me. i don’t know what i did in life to deserve you, but i must have done something right to have someone so kind like you in my life! thank you for being such a sweet soul + always boosting everyone around you up. your kindness is definitely contagious! i love seeing your edits and reading our conversations because there are always so many thoughts put in. thank you <3

@applepienation​ justine! thank you so much for always checking in on me whenever i post random shit on my dash. i really do appreciate you and all that you do for not just me, but also for everyone around you. you are such a ray of sunshine, and i’m so thankful that you’re in my life! i know uni is crazy for you right now, but i hope you’re still taking time to take care of yourself! sending you lots of love and positive energy!!

@touyax​ drake! hi love. i absolutely LIVE for your tags LMAOOADJGALD. they are literally my thoughts but you just typed them out HAHAH. i’m so thankful that i get to see your beautiful content on my dash, and i’m always in awe by all your edits! thank you for always being such a fun person + never leaving me feeling like a fool whenever i post ask games LOL. i love and appreciate you so much! 💖

@kagehjna​ ilayda! my kagehina supplier 🥺🥺 i love seeing your presence on my dash because you truly post all the best things! you are such a lovely person + i love reading your tags HAHA. you are truly a joy and we will definitely have matching kagehina icons one day okay 😭😭 12/7 is finally here/coming SO I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! thank you for always blessing me <3

@sadaharus hi mei! you are literally the definition of softness to me. all your content and edits are just so soft and beautiful, and i love seeing everything you post. you are my main gintama supplier HAHA. i really appreciate how kind you are + how you’re always so sweet to me. 🥺 i know it’s kinda funny how i started following you because of a random ask game, but i’m so so glad i did because i always feel so thankful you’re here! 

@fake-charliebrown charlie! my little sprout babie!! i have so much admiration for you because you have so so much talent! your style is so distinctive, and i love that!! it’s so soft + vibey, and i’m honestly so so amazed by it all. not to mention, you have the best haikyuu thoughts! thank you for sharing all of that with me! i’m thankful for you, thank you <3

@itachihaa​ ay! my froggy princess 🥺 thank you for always being so kind to me + having the patience to deal with how slow i am to responding!! i’m really appreciative of you always because you make/have so much beautiful content and you are so so sweet as well!? and the way you call me miss starlight 🥺 that makes me so soft like!! uuu i love you. 

@stardust-make-a-wish​ star! you are so so adorable!! i LOVE reading your tags because they make me feel so fuzzy and soft but also relatable HAHA. your presence is such a joy + thank you for always interacting with me even though i just spam random stuff LMAO. i love how thoughtful your answers are + how much you love cake/sweets (very suiting because you are so sweet 🥺). thank you for being interested in me even though i am the one asking you questions! 

@karasu-hoes​ daisy! hello! i have so much admiration for you because you have so much creativity and kindness! like your events are so cool and unique + your writing is so beautiful! i love reading your feral thoughts + all your work. i also really love reading your witching hours!!! thank you for blessing me with you 🥺 you are always so kind + i love how much you care about your friends and the people around you. i hope you’re taking care while renewing your teaching certifications! 💖

@frailuta nico! hello love! i know we haven’t really spoken before, but i just want to know i love you so much. you make the most beautiful gifs + i truly am in awe every time you post something. life is tough sometimes, but you are tougher! sending so so much love and positive energy to you + please remember to take care! <3

to all my mutuals and followers: thank you so so much for sticking with me and my mess of a blog. i honestly don’t really contribute much to anything, but i’m so thankful you guys are still here! thank you, thank you, thank you! i love and appreciate all of you guys + my ask box/messages are always open if you want/need someone to talk to 💖 thinking fondly of everyone today + so much love to you guys mwah mwah!

[peachyteabuck]

☀️☀️☀️

HERE WE FUCKIN GOOOO

first of all?? the fact that you have put up with my type 8, neurotic, anarchist, total fucking SHIT for long enough for me to wish you not 1 but 2 ‘happy birthdays’ should be a testament to your patience that should be socially acceptable to put on a resume. i’m serious on that one. y’all think i’m annoying on TUMBLR?? imagine being on a zoom call with me while i try to explain how my laptop’s organizational system works. also you balancing that AND being able to call me on my shit? perfect. the wet dream of 8s everywhere. 

anyway. my entire life (like since i was 13) people have been telling me i’m really mature for my age (in therapy we call that a ✨✨trauma response✨✨) but it’s always felt a little...empty. like yeah i keep a planner and make my own doctor’s appointments idk if that counts as me being an “adult” but whenever you tell me that it feels a lot more genuine? i think that’s bc we’ve found this middle ground between our respective traumas despite our entire decade age difference (that’s a whole one direction, who knew) and there’s a sense of mutual respect that i don’t build with many people, let alone people over the internet 

also i love being able to tell you scotus related jokes. i’ve been able to call cowboy ‘justice thomas if justice thomas only liked tuna and naps’ to two (2) people and you’re one of them and JESUS that’s a freeing feeling

this venn diagram of niche interests also extends to shit like bottom thor, and nuance in the age of tumblr, both things i appreciate. 

plus you’re such a fantastic fucking writer, even if sometimes i read ur stuff and i’m like is this?? is this woman okay?? (the answer is no, most of the time, but ya know what? mood). 

and your cat...i wish that little danish could send in his own ask because honest to god every time you send me pics of him they fill me with so much serotonin. i know this is supposed to be about you but i think our pets are apart of ourselves and that little fucking. well buttered lightly toasted cheese danish boy deserves some love. just a few kisses. 

mutuals pls send me ☀️ and i will tell you some things i love about you

[shookethbrooketh]

stars

chapter 18

dan felt warm, both physically and emotionally, somehow. there was a warm happiness about the evening, and it made dan feel at home not in a place but in a person. he’d had one of the best weeks of his life, and phil only added to it, giving him a warm, lovely feeling he couldn’t quite describe. finally, he felt like everything in his life was perfectly balanced, and all he knew to be true was that he never wanted it to end.

summary: dan grew up in a normal 1930s london family with his parents and little brother. everything was completely and utterly normal… until the bombs started dropping. When dan was fifteen his father went off to war, and when he was sixteen he and his brother hayden were sent off to a foster family in rural england. he looked up at the stars and couldn’t help but wonder how something that beautiful could exist in such a broken world. just when he thought things would never get better, dan met phil, and he became the shining star of his life. but when phil turned eighteen and went off to war, dan couldn’t help but wonder when, if ever, the stars would twinkle the same way again.

rating: t

genre: angst, fluff, history au, strangers to lovers, teenagers

whole fic warnings: warfare (not descriptive), bombings, fire, panic attacks, ptsd, epilepsy/seizures, homophobia, death chapter warnings: n/a

chapter word count: 1.6k total word count: 24.3k

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The three boys each spent their afternoons in their independent rooms. Hayden was resting, with Dan checking in on him every half hour or so. It was a brief process, Dan just poking his head in to make sure the boy seemed alright. The rest of Dan’s afternoon was spent deep in thought dedicated to the struggles of the poor boy next door. He’d taken an emotional blow on the hill that he needed the afternoon alone to recover from, and that left Phil alone too. 

It wasn’t until Margo called them down for dinner that any of them spoke. “Can I talk to you for a second, Hayden?” Dan said, pulling him back as Phil passed them by. He looked up at Dan with sad eyes as he awaited a conversation topic. “Are you feeling alright?” 

“Yeah, I’m fine,” he said monotonously. “I feel completely normal now; don’t worry about me.” He gave Dan a smile that was obviously just to prove his point and ran off down the stairs. Dan stood for a second, unsure as to whether or not to believe him, but he obviously didn’t want Dan to have to worry about him. He went downstairs and watched Hayden scarf down his dinner, deciding he was definitely acting normal enough. 

“Hey, do you want to go back up to the hill?” Phil asked Dan as they left the kitchen after filling up on ham. “Just the two of us. I think you need a break.” 

Dan sighed. “I guess.” 

In a moment’s time, they were coasting up the hill in the dim evening light. The sun was still out, but Dan could tell it would be setting soon. Phil parked the truck at the top of the hill, and walked around to sit in the truck bed rather than climb the tree. Dan assumed he thought Dan’s short term memory would be triggered by the tree. He didn’t exactly appreciate the special treatment, but knowing it was out of a place of love, he climbed into the bed beside him. 

“I’m sorry I made you bring Hayden up here. I should have known whatever weird premonition you had would be right.” 

“Don’t be. You wouldn’t have known. He loved it up until-you know. Besides, I should be thanking you. You may have saved his life.” 

“Maybe, but it wouldn’t have needed saving if I hadn’t endangered it in the first place.” 

“Don’t be so hard on yourself,” Dan said, wrapping his arms around the neck of his counterpart. “You did a good thing today. Thank God you were there.” 

“Really?” 

“Absolutely.” 

Their lips connected in a sort of a make up kiss for a fight that never happened. It was short, but it somehow managed to melt all his stress away in the split second that it existed. They settled back into the truck bed and watched the sun set in front of them. It was an uncharacteristically cold night, so it didn’t take long for Dan to get chilly. “Do you want to go inside? I’m cold.” 

Phil exhaled, rolling his eyes. “I’m so glad you said something; I’m freezing. Why is it this damn cold in June?” 

“I know, right?” Dan said, suddenly widening his eyes. “Is it really June already?” 

“Somehow, yeah.” 

“Wow.” Dan thought of his upcoming birthday and sighed. He used to love his birthday, but after his last traumatic birthday, he preferred not to think about it at all. He shook his head and smiled at Phil as they climbed into the truck. “Best six months of my life.” 

About a week passed uneventfully. Dan’s birthday was fast approaching, although he didn’t mention it to anyone. He was spending most of his time with Phil, but he was doing his best to make time for Hayden as well. The day before his birthday, Dan followed Hayden to his room after breakfast with the intent of spending the morning with him. “What do you want to do this morning?” he asked, grinning. 

“Actually,” Hayden said, absentmindedly putting some folded clothes in his dresser. “Phil was going to teach me to play football this morning.”

“Ready, Hayden?” Phil said, peeking in beside him. “Oh, hey Dan.” 

“Hey?” Dan said, pleasantly surprised. 

“Let’s go!” Hayden exclaimed, rushing to Phil’s side. The two of them disappeared down the stairs, leaving Dan to stand in awe for a moment. Eventually he followed them down the stairs and outside, where Phil was showing Hayden some technique. Dan thought back to playing football with Hayden in the London streets a year or so ago. They’d never been very good, but they’d had fun. Dan hadn’t even known until then that he was interested in playing football, nor that Phil had the skills to teach him. 

Dan slipped inside and grabbed the radio and its table, bringing them both outside and setting them down beside the rocking chair on the porch, where he rested. He turned on a jazz station and watched as they kicked the ball around. Dan was still in shock from the fact that Phil had taken the initiative to spend a morning with his brother. 

They’d set up a couple makeshift goals with sticks at either end of their ‘field’, and they started playing a bit of a mini game. Phil was obviously going easy on Hayden, but that almost made it even cuter. A part of Dan was crying out for him to join the Howell team and destroy Phil, but an even bigger part was telling him that he was perfect right where he was, and watching them play was bringing him a sense of ease he hadn’t felt in a while. It was like he was Hayden’s widowed mother, and Phil was the man he’d found refuge in. He was making an effort, and that was everything. 

The game was slow for a while, but then Hayden began to get into a groove. Dan watched as he scored his first goal and began jumping up and down from joy. “I did it!” he shouted, and Dan cheered from the porch, smiling so wide he wasn’t sure he was physically capable of stopping. There was a certain, soft happiness from the morning that couldn’t be replicated. It was pure, it was real, and it was love.

The three chose to spend the afternoon together, Dan and Hayden teaching Phil one of their favorite card games before they returned back outside to play hacky sack. The day was nonstop and eventful, in the best way possible, and the serotonin and adrenaline didn’t stop flowing on maximum until they were back on the hill. They were in the truck bed, as they’d taken to it instead of the tree. It wasn’t because of Dan’s possible fears; it was simply more comfortable. In the moist, summer air, neither of them wanted to use the energy to climb the tree. They enjoyed it on occasion, but more often than not they chose the truck bed. 

“Hey, Phil?” Dan said while he was in Phil’s arms, turning his head up to Phil as the sun was setting. 

“Mmm?” Phil responded, his hair blowing back from his head in the breeze as he looked down at Dan. 

“Thanks for hanging out with Hayden today.” 

“No problem,” he said, leaning his head back to its resting position. 

“No, really,” Dan said, drawing Phil’s eye contact back. “I really appreciate that you’re putting in effort to get closer to him. It really says to me that you care about me, and that means a lot to me.” 

“Well, you’re kind of a two for one, you know.” 

“Yeah, I know. I’m just glad you know.” Dan smiled a pure smile up at him, and Phil smiled back. Phil shifted his head down, connecting their lips, and they simply didn’t disconnect until one of them had to gasp for air. Dan hadn’t a clue how they’d gotten there, but suddenly neither of them could tear himself away from the other. Adrenaline coursed through Dan’s veins as he ran his hands through Phil’s hair, feeling Phil’s hands on his own back. It was a release of stress neither of them even knew they had, and Dan didn’t know how much he needed it until he had it. 

When they finally pulled apart, they pressed their foreheads together, a smile on each face. “Damn, I love you,” Phil said, his voice deeper than Dan had ever heard it before. 

“I love you too,” Dan replied in between sharp breaths. There was a sexual tension in the air they mutually chose to ignore for the time being, instead choosing to revel in the moment. Eventually they relaxed into a cuddling position in the truck bed, hand in hand as they pointed out the planets and constellations. They even created their own constellations, Dan pointing out one in the shape of a heart. It was a moment that could only be described with the simple word ‘warmth’. Dan felt warm, both physically and emotionally, somehow. There was a warm happiness about the evening, and it made Dan feel at home not in a place but in a person. He’d had one of the best weeks of his life, and Phil only added to it, giving him a warm, lovely feeling he couldn’t quite describe. Finally, he felt like everything in his life was perfectly balanced, and all he knew to be true was that he never wanted it to end.