#god making liveblog

[5-pp-man]

i 4got how cool ep9 was. why didnt i just finish this last time.

[chompe-diem]

hey. don't cry. audible smile in brian murphy's voice when he says "...but it's good when your friends look out for you" ok?

[eerna]

Speaking of, theoretically there is a possibility someone who doesn't know PJO book release lore reads the OG series and just. Continues onto the college rec letter books because it says those are books 6, 7 and 8 of the first series, so you should probably read those before HoO and beyond. Imagine the whiplash of reading Percy "FUCK the gods, we demigods ONLY need each other and we will NEVER submit to their standards, if anything THEY should submit to OUR standards" Jackson from TLO and then jumping right into Percy "hewwo gods pwease give me your approval, I know you guys are fair and help your kids out when needed 🥹 I am just a stupid silly guy hehe" Jackson from CotG

[elfieafterdark]

Gideon: she (Harrow) never loved me.

Me: God Almighty how are you so fucking stupid?

[sableeira]

dazai makes atsushi take random photos and videos of him throughout the day (most of them are super dramatic and/or aesthetic) only to caption them with the most unhinged stuff when he posts them on social media

[skitskatdacat63]

He is so 🤏

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[pmpknsoup]

actually huge props to martin for managing to be messy during the apocalypse. providing much some needed humor

[theclearblue]

"Don't search for a reason for somebody to love you." What if I started crying again

[arthursfuckinghat]

[spectres-fulcrum]

"Do you not know any mythology?" Hephaestion to Ptolemy after Parmenion made a mythology reference he didn't understand.

THAT my friends is the sass that every Hephaestion seems to has and must have. I love it.

(Also overall I do love Hephaestion's relationship with Alexander but I'm waiting to watch all six episodes for a big analysis.)

[sparring-spirals]

Compromise. Im not going to actually WRITE meta but i AM going to lay out a list of things I'm thinking about broadly and thematically and would probably write meta about if i were properly caught up and informed, but is instead influenced much more by early campaign F.C.G:

**edit: no this is kind of meta again. sorry.

- F.C.G grappling with the questions of: being made. purpose. whether it matters if you find your own purpose if you were made with one in mind and you "choose" something else. Can you actually? Does it matter? Is your choice a choice at all?

- Wanting so badly to heal people and help people and the unique fear of waking up and seeing damage done by your own hands. To the same people you wanted so badly to help. You extend healing and you offer comfort or kind words but all the while, in your core is a tightness. In your core is a danger. How much good do you need to do to get the blood off your chassis? Can you, at all?

- Metal body. Metal hands. A little wheel. You were a turtle once and it felt so wondrous to breathe. You try out tongues or little wooden legs or whatnot but it always comes back to an inorganic metal body and empty insides no matter if youre filling them with liquids or secret goods to smuggle or pastries (faux warmth). Maybe everything like wooden legs dangling off a metal body. All for show.

- A coin in hand. Looking for a higher power. Thinking about choice. Deferring choices.

- You love your friends, so much. You love people being kind to each other. You love your boyfriend and their wonderful way of thinking. You love being alive. Even when you doubted you were at all. You love, truly and deeply.

- Ashton raging at F.C.G for being a martyr. For aching for a good enough reason to get himself hurt or killed or blown up. Ashton looking at F.C.G knowing they're all messed up inside and trying so hard to stop them from letting it destroy them.

- Ashton always worried about how they're always trying to find a big enough cause, a good enough reason.

And so with those things, I remembered about F.C.G:

- F.C.G looking at their friends all down. Ashton laid out unmoving.

- F.C.G with something awful in their core. Ready to spill out. The same something awful they were always worried about. They were always aware of.

- F.C.G always looking for that reason. For that bigger and better cause.

- F.C.G always feeling like they didn't understand purpose, like it was so. unattainable- finally, briefly, startlingly- sure. Finally free of doubt. Their friends down and something awful and destructive in their core and one last thing they can do to maybe make things worth it, and the ability to choose it. They were made for something. They chose what to do with it.

- F.C.G finding that reason. F.C.G making that call. F.C.G thinking it was worth it.

- I think because of him, they succeeded. They won. That is certain.

- I think. "Worth it". Is always a subjective thing.

- I think. A self sacrifice is never just one person giving everything up. A self sacrifice, unfortunately- is one person making a choice.

And everyone else caught, in the blast radius.

[5-pp-man]

[nathanfrazers]

there are things worse than dying for example being a gabriel/sabriel fan in 2024

[eerna]

see Asuna Yuuki in another writer's hands could have been one of the coolest pop culture heroines ever. her character concept in Aincrad is truly the closest mainstream gamer media ever got to balancing female gamer sterotypes with an interesting concept. she is neither a gamer girl who is basically one of the guys, nor a traditional support character. she never touched a mainstream video game in her life before and ended up in SAO on accident, but she is a quick learner and manages to climb to the top of the charts within a year. let me remind you, she is tied with Kirito for the second most powerful player in the game - she is his equal in absolutely everything, but from a different angle, and they share basically no overlap. it could have been such a cool duality, where our two protagonists each represent one facet of digital existence. Kirito would be the seasoned veteran, he has completely retreated into video games and has nothing else going for him in his life, so this situation where his empowerment suddenly becomes real instead of make-believe is a heady drug. Asuna has no idea how video games work and doesn't understand the culture surrounding them at all, but this is a whole new realism-oriented approach to gaming, which means her lack of understanding could actually be a boon, which in turn allows her to live out her overachiever fantasies brought over from the real world (because there's nothing the Golden Child loves more than mastering something in a very short, very unhealthy timeframe). and then they meet each other, two sides of the same coin who would have never ever met in real life, and it reframes how they see themselves and their goals and dreams. we could have had an epic romantic gaming opera. we could have had it all. if only mainstream gaming media understood itself

[gooperts-gunk]

and if bbh doesn't get punished for nuking spawn/cucurucho's office if he's caught, let's rehearse what we're gonna say. ahem-hem-hem...... SPECIAL GUEST THEORY--

[forcebookish]

yeah cordy's ace i'm claiming her for us