#god im spamming today but i dont care

[nabaath-areng]

" Killed to keep the world turning. "

[bbq-potato-chip]

if Bleach characters had tumblr

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I just think that love and friendship are just so important i think we all should talk about this more

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MURDER KILLING I LOVE KILLING SOME ONE ILL KILL ANYONE ILL KILL I LOVE KILLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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my oc

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OMG THIS ART IS SO GOOD EVERYONE LOOK AT THIS NOW!!!! HE'S THE COOLEST EVERYONE FOLLOW THIS ARTIST NOW!!!!

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#mutual art

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captain-niceguy-deactivatived7581497147687

I'd just like to say that I appreciate all of my squad members and fellow captains. I am truly honored to work with such talented individuals

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Awwww taicho <3 this is so nice

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captain aizen is like so totally sweet i wish i could be in his squad

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😏supercoolsupermanlordaizen

suckers

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who keeps putting positivity posts on my dash i'm trying to think about how great it would be to be in a void stop it there is only hatred and darkness

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😏supercoolsupermanlordaizen

me and my underlings are about to kick yall's asses. be prepared

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❄️hitsugayathecoolestcaptain

AIZEN WHEN CATCH YOU ITS SO OVER

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❄️hitsu-gay-a

"aIzEn WhEn I cAtCh yOu ItS sO oVeR"

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istg if this is aizen on another account i'm going to kill him extra

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🏹shinigamihater

anyone else have a terrible dad or is it just me

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#ugh same my dad is terrible

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yet another great day of eating lots of bread and loving my friends \^w^)/

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friendship isn't even real the only things that exist are pain and suffering

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🍓ichi-go-1

what is your like actual problem like chill man shes literally just eating bread calm tf down make your own post

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look i know he's problematic but aizen is kinda fine w/o the glasses fr

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um...aizen stan anyone? this is super problematic thinking i don't care how hot he is (he's not btw) but you can't just say these kinds of things!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!1!!!!!

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#imagine being an aizen stan in today's world omg 😂 #he's literally a traitor to the state

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IF I DONTKILL SOME ONE RIGHT NOW IM GONNA KILL SOMEONE ANYONE WANNA FIGHT TO THE DEATH HEEEEYYYYY

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doing unethical experiments

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OH MY GOD STOP IT??? THEY"RE LITERALLY UNETHICAL STOPPP

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heehee doing unethical experiments again

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STOPPPPPP I'LL KILL YOU

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just block em man he's not worth your time

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wow what a great day i sure hope i dont get killed by a hollow today

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murderpanther asked ichi-go-1: FIGHT ME FIGHT ME FIGHT ME FIGHT ME FIGHT MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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NO??? I DON'T WANT TO?? STOP SPAMMING ME THIS IS LIKE THE THIRD TIME YOU SENT ME THIS

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# so true like im always saying this #[✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ*I'll always love queue✧･ﾟ *✧･ﾟ:*] #fav

[fuck-customers]

god i love working at local places but sometimes these management teams are way more stupid than corporate.

in this case, i say management team very lightly. the only employees at this job im at is me, my ex, two older ladies, and the boss. we have one helper as well but he’s been out of commission for about a month because he hurt his back really bad.

at first i was scheduled every day during a 5-day labor day sale, and fuck it was so hard. my boss refused to hire anymore help and chewed me out for nearly crying during my shift.

and then i had to call out a few times because i’m chronically ill and i can’t really work more than two days in a row, and even that is pushing it. and of course she got onto me, telling me that i need to grow up and get over it. she then changed my schedule around so instead of getting $1000 a month, i was deducted to $400. this month i’m getting two whole days! yay! that’s $200!

she constantly yells at me for my ex’s mistakes at work. the guy constantly leaves his bag (with weed in it usually) on the counter, leaves his bag on the ground so i trip over it, makes a complete mess of the place, leaves me without telling me when i’m busy at the computer so i can’t tend to customers… so much other stuff.

yesterday, he was the one on the register, and turns out we were short a significant amount of money. so we (most likely he, because when i’m with other people this shit NEVER happens) probably over paid someone. i told both of them that i’m busy today so i can’t call either of them but my boss still spammed me with calls. i asked my ex why and he said “well she called me and i told her to ask you.” like… telling the boss that i’m the one responsible, essentially. as if i fucking know why it’s under, as if i was the one on that stupid register.

i eventually texted my boss and explained that i dont know what happened and she said “well i dont know why this always happens with you two” (gee it’s almost like i never make mistakes when i’m with someone else and he makes mistakes no matter who he’s with!) and “i’ll have to deduct it from your paycheck.” i immediately sent her an article stating that that is VERY illegal and she has not responded.

i’ve been applying to many places already, and i plan on quitting as soon as i secure one. but if she pulls any funny shit again, i’m quitting, i dont care if i have a job or not.

Posted by admin Rodney.

[smoosnoom]

moon moon moon moon moon moon moon moon i dont think u understand i have butterflies rn i am so warm and happy and smiley and and snd amd and this is easily one of my favorite fics of yours i absolutely adore summer so so very much and . ohggg you wrote them so lovely and i literally can't stop smiling oh !!!! thank you for this fic and even including some things i mentioned i mean i bet a lot of people mentioned those tropes but aaa i am happy anyhow <3

also here r some of my fav quotes because . because this is my favorite thing in the universe

- “Are you okay?” 

Christ. Can’t a man fantasize about his best friend in peace?

THIS OS SO FUNYNYNYNY im obsessed w how u write mike i love him

- It’d be more terrifying than beautiful if Will weren’t here. 

maybe i will scream . i will becaud eohmmy9fods

- Will moves, again, their hands bumping, and it feels like they’re holding the sun in the space between.

THIS MAD EME . PAUSE AND JUST . OGGGHGGGGHGHG . i can only smile and keyboard smash moon i am so sorry 🙏😭

- “Everything, I guess,” he answers, because it’s true. Will is, kind of, everything, 

- “Me?” He questions, eyes wide, as if there could possibly be anyone else, as if Mike has ever even – looked at anyone else,

- and fingers sliding into Mike’s hair, and it’s everything, and Mike was right, he’s never doubting himself again, because Will is everything. 

I WIQLCOJWJ JSCKSJHD . i apologize but these part smake me sosoos !!*!&!<!!! i cant even explain . i am so in love w this fic moon i cnantng. okay .

also jsut . the ending. mike thinking of missing him and will going hey im right here OHGGGGG !!!!!!!! moon you are brilliant and so lovely and . this fic made me so incredibly happy i can't do this . today felt rlly like the first day of summer and this fic made me feel a million times warmer and than kyou thank you ohhggggg this fic is absolutely everything yo me i am so warm and giddy rn !!!!!!! ur fics especially make me love will so much more if that's even possible bc he is one of my favorite characters in any media ecer and getting to read him written by u . well it might be an honor . it definitely is . it makes me so happy i cant even describe it . so thank you thank you<3 i hope u have a good night moon and i hope your essay goes okay <3 remember to rest and take care of urself !!!!!!!!!<3<3<3

donnie byersverse hello !!!!!!!!!! every day is a good day to see u in my inbox !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohh im so happy u liked it oh my god ! i tried my absolute Best to make this fic something more like . fun and carefree or just something to cheer people up and im so glad it made u smile !!!! if i wasnt on a laptop id be spamming party hat emojis rn and yes !!!! i tried to include the things u specifically mentioned since u are always so kind to me in ur asks :D i thought uknow ! the least i could do !

LOL i love writing mike to be a little unhinged when hes in love with will <3 it just seems right

the keyboard smashing is so so real . expressing emotions no words can get across Thank u so much

NOO dont ever apologize i love seeing the parts u like the most !!!! especially then i can seee what i should do more often and what hits the hardest :D i am so happy u liked it so much omg

i am so honored to contribute to ur lovely summer day !! summer is such a fun season to write about and in, and im glad i got the very specific feeling of it across ! also ??? "ur fics especially make me love will so much more" finn what if i literally cry and di e and Explode into a million teeny tiny pieces . what then .

u are so entirely kind to me !!! im so happy u enjoyed reading it and that i did ur ideas justice :) and i love reading ur thoughts !! thank u so much !!!!!!!!

[secret-hidden-feelings]

B

This page of mine is quite a mess, it's kind of like how my mind has been for so long. When I was going through my last break up I really thought I was still going to be heart broken now, but I moved on for me. I was in a relationship with someone who wasn't dating me to marry me and you know what it truly was an eye opener to a lot of things I neglected in regard to myself.

Im here today because I want to let my thoughts out about you, B. I'm here because you drive me insane every moment of the day and when you wanna talk to me you drive me up the wall because you annoy me. You spam my phone, you do and say anything to annoy me. You block me and then unblock me and yet here I am. STILL WANTING YOU.

I was watching a movie, its called after everything. It's a series, im assuming it's from a book because there have been many. In this movie there is a character called Hardin. Hardin, is loving but possessive. He falls in love with Tessa and they are constantly on and off. They live together at one point and they have amazing chemistry. Hardin however has a drinking problem which had caused him to be quite jealous and do stupid things. He hurt Tessa, Tessa hurt him. They moved away from each other however in the end they always always fall back in each others lives. Their lives crossed. I couldn't help but think of you, in fact I've been thinking of you for days and quite frankly it's driving me insane. Every god damn forsaken memory is you for the last 7 years of me knowing you. you somehow, somewhere pop up. If you're not popping up then im thinking of you and missing you. Im crying over you, we have definitely had our downs and we have fought and said hurtful things to each other.

But you make me weak, you make me feel like I can't breathe and when im around you I just want you to come up and kiss me and hold me. I couldn't even care less if its at work, I just wanted that. I tried to come up and surprise you, I was in lingerie. I felt embarrassed because usually when I come surprise you, you open the door. This time you didn't and my heart broke. I miss you and hearing your voice just makes me miss you more. When I dont hear your voice I crave it and Im driving myself insane.

I guess I really did think one day we'd end up together and married whether It was up and down or not. I wanted kids and a future with you I just wanted to work on me first so I could be the best version of me for me.

[poppy-metal]

Eren jaeger x reader

I just wanted an excuse to write some bully!eren and this is the product of screaming abt it in the dms with @colossalnova

Eren is a god on the court. You loathe to give him any sort of credit but its true. His tall frame, his speed and ability, his competitive energy, all of it combines to make him a star player, he practically exudes a kind of raw energy that draws everyone to him, makes them watch.

Being a basketball player eren isn't just enigmatic on the court, but out of it too. Sunkissed skin and boyish brown hair, a mega watt smile and a charming attitude, by your school's standards he was the perfect golden boy. Destined for greatness in life in every way that mattered.

Too bad he was your fucking nightmare.

“I hate you”, you pant, weakly clutching onto erens stupid jersey as his cock fucks in and out of you. He’d pulled you behind the gym right before you’d been about to enter. You didn’t want to watch his stupid game but your friends had made you. And now here you were. 

“Yeah?”, he pants right back, grunting as he pulls out, till just the tip of his cock is pressing at the entrance of your wet pussy, before lewdly sliding back in, your slick gushing around him “Your little pussy doesn’t hate me though, fuck, sqeezing me so good” 

Your head thumps back and you push your fingers through his ridiculously soft hair, gripping it as he fucks you, hard, wet, and desperate. “S-shut up” you hiss, closing your eyes at the throbbing in your pussy, the wet squelch of his dick fucking you and showing you just how wet you are, how much you’re enjoying this, this with him. You can’t help your little spams, the way your cunt drools and sucks him in, not even if you wanted to, and god, you hate that. Can’t he just fuck you in quiet? Does he have to taunt you too? 

“Mm, but you like it when i talk, dont you, little nerd?” his grip on your thighs is slick with your sweat and  his nails bite into your skin harshly as he keeps you hoisted up, pratically bouncing you up and down on his thick cock stirring up your insides, “yeah, you fucking like it when i tell you how im gonna treat you like my little pocket pussy, pump you full of my cum, mm fuck, you like being my nasty little good luck charms before my games, hm? Hm?” 

“Shut up shut up, i hate you i hate you, i hate you, nnn, fuck, hope you lose today, ahh!” you cry out, little tears finally slipping out of your eyes as he batters into you roughly, never relenting. You hate yourself for the way that you lean forward with a sob so that you can whine into his ear, because you cant stand to look at him, see his beautiful face, red flushed from putting all that raw power into fucking you stupid, green eyes bright and hungry and so intense it makes your heart hammer and your clit thunder with a heartbeat that has only half to do with how well hes punching into you, punching little whines and gasps out of your sore throat. 

“I thought about you today, fuck” Eren continues, his voice a little breathy, hands gripping and steadily rocking you back and forth on his dick as he talks, voice right fucking next to your ear, mockingly gentle with his lips brushing against it, “saw you in class, nng, writing your little notes with your cute little pens, fuck, wanted to be between your legs under that desk so bad, flip up that pathetic little skirt and eat you out right there, fucking god” his voice is cracking now, getting more high pitched and whiny and your eyes are hurting from how tight you’re squeezing them shut, able to do nothing else but just listen and take everything. 

He secures one arm around your waist like you’re nothing, his other hand coming up to tangle in your hair and yank your head back and then suddenly his intense green eyes are all you sea, seagreen boring into you, as he presses your forheads together, forcing you to look at him, never letting you escape from whos doing this to you. His lips are red and so inviting from where he pants in your face, and you’re almost kissing, sharing breaths, but he’s still talking, babbling really at this point “you hate me? I fucking hate you. Think your so fucking high and mighty all the time, think you can ignore me, huh? Ill fucking ruin you, your life, this fucking pussy, fucking all of it its” thurst “all” thrust “mine” 

You cry out as your cunt spasms around him one last time, your orgasm wrecking through you like a tital wave, sobbing out a “god” to anyone, to him, you dont know, its just too much, hes too much, you cant stand it anymore. You sob into his shoulder as he fucks you through the aftershocks, chasing his high, not caring for your oversensitve little pants that you muffle into his jersey wetly. “Yeah, yeah yeah”, hes chanting eratically, humping into you like you really are a fleshlight and hes just using you to get his cock off “you fucking bitch, take it, take my cum, gonna give it all to you- oh fuck!” he sobs, shuddering and grinding into you as his hot cum pumps into you, filling you, because of course he wouldn’t pull out. 

Hes trembling from the aftershocks, and you blame it on the hormones and your still beating pussy, now filled with his cum, his brand, as you stroke his hair, legs sqeezing tight around him almost lovingly. But the afterglow never lasts. 

Pulling out of you with a disgusting slick pop, eren sets you down and backs away, tucking his now soft cock into his uniform shorts as he surveys you with a smug kind of glee as you stand there on shaking legs, his warm cum still dribbling out of you. The picture of pathetic to his unwavering confidence. He ruffles your hair mockingly as he starts walking backwards to the gym, “I’ll dedicate my win to you, baby” 

“Go to hell jaeger”

[aikapwq]

please dont leave.

modern!xiao x gn reader (no specified pronouns)

warnings ; a lil bit of swearing, angsty

today, your boyfriend, xiao, was out playing with his friends. you didnt really have a good mood. it isnt because of your boyfriend or anything — it was because of one of your so called "friend". you've posted on your whatsapp status that you dont want anyone disturbing you because of your bad mood today — and that "friend" kept bugging you trying to figure out what happened and what caused your bad mood.

" y/n, tell me what happened! tell me! or you dont wanna tell me because.. maybe i am the problem? " they asked.

" can you not? im rly trying to calm down rn and youre literally making it worse. " you replied with slight anger

" cmon, just tell me. it wont hurt! " they replied in confusion.

" i literally js told you i dont wanna share anything. do you not fucking understand? just shut the fuck up already. please stop talking to me. " you replied in complete anger. what the fuck is her problem???

after that they finally stopped disturbing you. you felt relieved, but — you have an active channel in telegram where you update everything in your life, the channel's only for your internet friends that are on tele. you were literally so mad you typed angrily,

" why the fuck are they so annoying?? ive already told them to stop talking to me because im already in a bad mood and they wont fucking leave me alone. fucks sake why cant they understand someone isnt comfortable to share their problems out of force. "

you typed a few more paragraphs then finally stopped and turned off your phone. you wanted to get some rest until—

beep! you have received a notification from: "lover 🤍"

"oh, a text from him! lemme see what he said." you thought. you opened your phone to see a long paragraph from him. you wondered - why the sudden long paragraph? and read it, it said,

" hey— um, y/n. i saw your message in the channel, is that directed to me? im sorry if i annoy you too much. i didnt know you were in a bad mood, i shouldnt have talked to you. ill give you some space. but um, yeah. take care of yourself, im coming back late at night. dont stay up too late. goodnight. "

you were shocked. wait— those messages arent even directed to him! why did he think of that in the first place?! there, you were shaking and crying, trying to text him with a blurry vision because of the tears,

" wait— xiao wait— xiao please dont leave me. xiao, xiao please answer. xiao- xiao please dont leave. please, please dont leave. pick up. please just respond i need you! "

you were quite surprised no typos were made despite your blurry vision, but that wasnt the point — today was tbe day your mood wasnt good, and you ruined your own boyfriend's mood because of your vent texts. god you fucked up so bad because today was the day you needed him so bad and yet, you ruined his day too.

xiaos pov;

65 unread texts, 2 missed calls. god, who was spamming me this bad? ill check later.

around 20 minutes later he finally opened his phone to 78 missed texts, 4 missed calls from " 我的爱 🦋" jeez. what do they even want from me?

as i read her texts, i realised she was kinda getting on my nerves.

" xiao?? xiao, xiao please just answer me— " were the only texts i read. too lazy to read the rest. i respond,

" what? "

your pov:

" oh hes online, finally. " you said quietly.

" what? " was the only text you received. did— did he not care anymore?..

" xiao, please just scroll above. i explained everything. i just— nvm just, please look at those messages.. i understand if you need some space and dont wanna talk to me rn. when you come home, sleep on the bed, dont carry me on the bed or smth, im sleeping outside lol. have fun wit your friends. night, im going to sleep. "

you knew damn well you werent. youre overly attached, so when every single minute passes by, you check your phone to see if youve gotten any texts from him. unfortunately there wasnt anything from him. well, youve promised to give space to him anyway. its practically pointless now knowing he wont respond. you should probably just cry to sleep. maybe things will get better tomorrow.

:: a/n — hiii i felt abit angsty today so i um kinda tried writing angst wirh my creativity ig. some of these things are based on true events lolol. oh, thanks for the attention on my Xiao hcs btw ^^ love yall ❤️ please consider reblogging/ liking this post if you like it! follow me too btw :") okiess bye !!

[aroace-cat-lady]

UHUSDSFY SPAM INCOMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you can ignore this lol its way too long- even putting it in your ask box has made me feel like I've told someone about this so its totally fine to delete

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I JUST FOUND MY RULING THE WORLD PLANS FROM WHEN I WAS 14-

Sooo apparently, I was going to be a 'benevolent' leader and therefore opted for a federal government in my 'state' (which I've forgotten the name of)????

OKAY AND HERE'S WHERE IT GETS A LITTLE WEIRD-

so, I had this beautiful idea that people leaning toward different opinions should be encouraged to move to an area of like-minded people with a local government they mostly agree with (brooo, so essentially designated areas for different people depending on their opinions and political views and whatnot??)

okay it also says that I wanted to keep a difference in pay between a 'low-intelligence' job and a 'high-intelligence job' but I would lessen the gap so improving pay of say a 'street sweeper' and lowering that of a 'neurosurgeon' hmmmmmmm

My state or whatever would provide healthcare mostly paid by taxpayers (it would have a similar tax system) but still ask the person to pay a small amount??? okay..

education would be free (go mini me) paid by taxpayers ofc, but I wanted to continue the idea of grammar schools which meant students could pass an exam to get into these schools filled with higher ability kids who are pushed more- academically... (something we have here, do you??)

welfare and social care would also be fully paid by taxpayers (go me again I guess)

laws would be kept similar to that of today and trial and punishments would also be pretty much the same- NO capital punishment (well done child???)

for people who didn't agree with my idea? death. there would be designated protest zones and paths ?

they would be fined for extremely violent protest

I also had some big idea about petitions i think-

anyway, what do you think of my interesting plans that I came up with???

note that everything in the inverted commas are direct quotations 😭

again u can ignore this-sorry for the spam lol

Dividing ppl by its political pov sounds interesting, tbh. I dont think i couldve come with the concept in a billion years.

But idk. Dividing ppl has never turn out right for humanity (white/poc, men/woman, queer/cishetallo). Structurally, might work. But what keeps knowledge going is feedback. Mirrors and windows and all of that.

And like humans cant stay on their own business. Conservatives would want to declare war to progressives. If a person moves out of the conservative section they were born in, the born progressives would look down at them and call them fake progressives. Humanism sections would fight agains the high intelligence - low intelligence system cuz what if a high intelligent person is dysable and cant have a high intelligence work?? And what if a ND kid is selected as a low intelligent by the system?? Where do artist fit in this system??

GOD I SOUNDED LIKE A MEAN TEACHER REVISING A FINAL PROYECT IM SORRY i feel i analyzed it waaaaay more serious than i should. But your 14yo had a point and i can see were the idea came from?? You cant have a political fight if there isnt a political discussion and you cant have a political discussion if you think everyone thinks the same way you do?? Anyways it is an interesting concept to work with. (Again im sorry i think i was too mean i-)

Being fair, my someones and i tried to figure out an hypoterical utopia at fifteen (we called it Willherondopolis because of course) (this still is the name of our group chat) i cant remember how it was but thank god im going to medicine and not politics. I do recall one of them said Dude this looks like maze runner.

[heyitsyn]

Manager!Seijoh Part 3

a/n: yall i love seijoh so much like theyre my favorite school and my favorite boys and i know their names by heart and im just so SOFT for them !!!!!

also: yall will find out what other fandom ill be writing for in the future in this one

for more seijoh content, check this masterlist out!

combined two anon requests:

- Could we get the boys reacting to finding out the seijoh manager is quite popular to both genders?? Maybe they over hear a confession?

- Why do I feel like half of the team would be all pouty when word comes around that a guy confessed to manager, the others would probably be annoyed/irritated. Oikawa being all bratty cause no matter what he tried,she never showed ant interest when he flirts. But now this boy comes alone ... (but like you said manager is too focused in school and the team)

MY HEART WAS RIPPED OUT OF MY CHEST AND THROWN INTO A BLENDER WHEN I SAW THIS PART OR JUST WHEN SEIJOH LOST IN GENERAL BC MY BABIES WORKED SO HARD AAAAAAA

oof girl the world is ending

so basically,,,,,

the entire just magically knew about what happened earlier and yahaba’s theory of team telepathy really does work bc not even a minute after it happened, they all spammed you messages and next thing you knew, oikawa was naruto-ing down from the 3rd floor to your class in the first floor

tbh, they shouldve seen this coming yanno?

you were ridiculously pretty and you carried yourself w such elegance and grace that it just seemed to hypnotize everyone into stopping what they were doing and watched you in awe doing the most mundane things like walking or sitting

lmao couldnt be me

your confessions usually happened over letters bc either tol boys kunimi or kindaichi are usually around you at all times so theyre too scared to do anything

hence why your locker was always filled with envelopes yet no upfront public confessions

it ranged from upperclassmen and upperclasswomen who expressed their interest in you and wanted to date you and get to know you better

but tf you dont even know them and you werent about to date a whole stranger

this made the boys a little peeved because you were popular with both the boys and the gals so they were constantly on edge on who was talking to you

it was like having an oikawa 2.0 but not indulging them and pretending theyre not even there

like when you walk to class and sit down, they would flock over and offer you drinks and snacks but you either turned them down or just flat-out ignored them

maybe this was what fueled others on more

your reserved attitude and your refusals made it look like you were playing hard to get and it was almost like a game on who could win the heart of the princess of seijoh

this was proven really difficult because not only do they have your dismissals, you also had guard dogs at every corner and would bite their head off at the slight indication of an interaction

however,,,,

today,,,

this morning,,,,

at 7:53 AM,,,,

they saw you walking down the hallway with a purple-haired boy holding your bag and you giggling at what he was saying

um EXCUSE ME MAAM WHAT

EVERYONE HAS BEEN TRYING TO GAIN YOUR AFFECTIONS FOR MONTHS YET YOU ARE HERE INTERACTING WITH A MALE WHO NO ONE EVEN KNOWS

ESPECIALLY SINCE HE WAS A MALE WHO WAS STANDING RIGHT THERE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU AND HE WASNT A MEMBER OF THE TEAM

!!!!!

and ofc, the boys would immediately know even though theyre spread all over the school

it was kyoken who saw you as he was leaning against your locker and his eyes narrowed before he secretly took a picture and sent it to yahaba, asking if there was a new guy who entered the team while he was away

when he replied with a panicked, ‘NO WHO IS THAT’

kyoken was already advancing to you

yahaba-san immediately sent the picture to the team group chat, that excluded you rood, and oikawa wasted no time and even pushed some fangirls so he could go to you

‘-and she destroyed my sheets’

you laughed at the story and hitoshi stared at you with awe in his eyes

how can someone laugh so beautifully?

like a snort should be considered ugly and gross but it was like cute little squeaks from you and he thought you were like a fairy

‘oh god, i wasnt-’

you were cut off with a hand that held your arm

you came face to face with the glaring face of one of your boys and you immediately turned to him in concern, immediately grasping an arm with the other hand on his cheek to look for any cuts

he rarely comes to you on a normal basis so you thought something was wrong

‘whats wrong, kyo-san? did you get into a fight? do you need me to patch you up?’

he didnt care what you were saying, instead heatedly glaring at this new guy, and grunted a response to agreeing with you going to the nurse

just anywhere to get you away from this,,,, stranger

‘toshi i have to-’

then you were cut off again

‘YYYYY/NNNNNNN-CHHHHHAAAANNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!’

‘OI SHITTYKAWA!’

‘OIKAWA-SAN!’

‘OIKAWA!’

‘CAPTAIN!’

from behind you, 5 tol looming figures were running towards you and next thing you knew, you were in the arms of your captain

‘oikawa-san! what are you doing?!’

oikawa held you tightly against his chest and had his arms tightly around your form to prevent you from being taken away

most of the volleyball team were now circling you and pointedly glaring at the poor boy who was so confused that he wasnt bothered by the death glares

‘oh, its you’

kunimi grumbled

‘kunimi, whats happening?’

hitoshi questioned

you fought away from the hold of oikawa and pushed mattsukawa and hanamaki to stand in front of shinsou hitoshi

‘so sorry about this, toshi. i’ll help you with your room later and ill text you when practice is finished, okay?’

you sheepishly smiled and he nodded, his own smile reassuring you

‘yep. ill see you later then’

‘bye’

you softly said and he turned to walk away

but as soon as he was out of sight, you turned around with a grim looking expression and your hands on your hips, a hard look in your eyes

‘boys, what was that?’

you gritted out

‘y/n-chan! don’t you see?! he was going to take you away! he was an intrude-OW!’

he yelped when you reached up and grabbed his ear before grabbing the other closest who was iwaizumi

they both whined and complained about the ear and slapped your hand but you didnt let up

‘he is a friend, oikawa-san. you have no right on who i can be friends and who i can hang out with because i still have a life outside the team!’

you scolded and the others hung their heads low like puppies

‘sorry, y/n-chan’

oikawa mumbled and iwaizumi also mumbled his apology so you let go of them, dusting off your hands

‘and the rest of you, hold back your captain and dont intimidate him like that!’

‘sorry’

you sighed but ruffled their hair before turning to go to class

‘now, be good boys and dont bother others like this again’

‘yes’

they chorused and you nodded, satisfied

‘ill hold you to it!’

you shouted as you walked down the hallway

when you turned a corner, oikawa grabbed kunimi by the arms

‘you know him, dont you? who is he? what class? address? mother’s name? father’s name? age-’

‘oi stop it, shittykawa’

but despite that, iwaizumi looked at the younger, expecting answers as well

kunimi sighed

‘thats shinsou hitoshi from class 1-3. we have gym together’

and ‘we’ was kunimi and you since you were both in the same class so you constantly saw this shinsou boy?

nuh uh, dont think so, francisco

from the looks of it, you were still single and there was a pining from shinso’s part, maybe yours they dont know

and they were going to do everything in their power to keep you away from him

this was excused to them as protecting their manager from someone else and they werent going to let you be taken by someone else

during practice, they grilled you over your relationship with him

‘i honestly dont know why this is your business but if you must know, his adoptive father, aizawa-san, is my mother’s co-worker and i usually catsit for them. dont worry, we’re not dating. just friends, that’s all’

but they know it wasnt just a friendship type of situation

so when the 4 third years saw you being confessed to by this ‘friend’ outside, they almost toppled out the window as they tried to listen to what was being said

‘shittykawa get off my back!’

‘nuh uh! i want to see clearly!’

‘everyone needs to know that code red is happening!’

yall what

mattsun took a picture and sent it to the gc about their princess being confessed to 

no one replied, possibly too upset or too busy sulking

kyoken actually had to be excused outside bc he was glaring at everyone and everything and the teacher and students were so scared that they had to take him out of class

they were even more peeved when you just walked in like nothing happened

you didnt mention the confession to anyone else the whole day and when you entered the gym, it was very tense

the coaches even looked confused

‘did you guys fight?’

you questioned but no one answered

kunimi and kindaichi were playing with a ball and glaring at it as it hit the floor

the 2nd years yes including kyobabie were pouting to the side

the 3rd years looked annoyed and pissed off 

overall just not seijoh babie vibes

i am uncomfortable with the energy we have created in the gym today🧚✨

‘hey’

you gently said and walked to the captain to figure out what was going on

‘oikawa-san, what happened?’

‘are you dating him now, y/n?’

the seriousness in his voice shocked you and you took a step back in surprise

your expression made him think that you did accept the confession and he scoffed before walking away and doing a jump serve that sounded like a canon blasting

but you were actually confused and surprised that they even knew bc you were sure it was a secluded area where no one could see you

‘dating,,,? dating who?’

you asked to them and the 3rd years just knitted their eyebrows

‘dont play coy, y/n-chan’

oikawa hissed

‘no matter how many times i flirted or asked you on dates, you never said yes. never agreed or even showed a little bit of interest. on me!! your captain!!! but now!!! this little grape boy comes along and you suddenly start dating just because he has cats! what kinda bias is this?!’

he started ranting and whining and being a brat that you pinched his nose shut

‘oi, oikawa-san, are you jumping to conclusions again? first the hickey accident and now this?’

he made a whining noise for you to let go and rubbed his nose when you finally let go

you turned around to face the others and you sighed, massaging your temples

‘everyone, who spread this misunderstanding?’

no one pointed to anyone but their gazes settled on the thick eyebrow boy that you were sure wouldnt have ratted you out

a noise of surprise and betrayal escaped from you as mattsun quickly scrambled to get everyone to stop staring at him

‘MATTSUN-SAN! YOU-!’

you pointed at him and mattsun rushed forward to grab your hands before holding them close to his chest

‘y/n-chan, we just saw you when we were passing! it was makki who wanted to tell the others!’

the betrayal made iwa laugh but makki ran up to kick mattsun to the side

‘youre the one who committed the deed! i was merely suggesting it! it was iwaizumi who wanted to watch them first!’

‘IWA-SAN!’

you gasped at the normally chill third year and you didnt expect him to be the one who started it first

iwa panicked and held his hands out cautiously

‘y/n-chan, understand that i was just worried and i didnt want you to be outside by yourself after what happened, okay? i didnt know he was confessing to you’

you closed your eyes and pinched the bridge of your nose tightly

‘again! whoever and whatever happens in my love life is my business! mine! and only mine! you cannot control it and get angry at ME because i do want a boyfriend and i do want to experience dating bc i want to know how it feels to be loved like that! so i wont let a bunch of children stop me from having that!’

the third years shared a look before they they gave up and nodded in defeat

but oikawa was the most offended

‘Y/N-CHAN! I ASK YOU ON DATES ALL THE TIME AND I ALWAYS OFFER TO GIVE YOU THAT LOVE SO WHY CAN’T IT BE ME?! WHAT DOES THAT GRAPE HUMANOID HAVE THAT I DONT?!’

he whined and stomped his foot after crossing his arms and a pout on his face

you shook your head, not even bothering to answer that, and went to the others

‘dont be mad and be upset, okay? i refused him bc i have no time for a relationship when im too busy looking after my own boys. i really dont want to add another’

kindaichi and yahaba’s face scrunched as they rushed forward to hug you 

‘we thought you would leave us y/n-chan!’

‘stay as ours forever, okay?’

you were so relieved that they werent as aggressive as the oldests and gave each player their own favorite hugs

but you stopped in front of kyo, not really knowing how to hug him since youve never exactly showed any type of affection like that

so you were just awkwardly standing there with raised arms but he patted your head, you smiling and leaning more to his touch

‘hm, kyo-san, ya finally warming up to me?’

you teased but he scoffed, gently headbutting you with his forehead against yours

‘now, everyone! dont misunderstand and know that for as long as i will be a manager, i wont be in a relationship bc my time as a manager is too crucial since i would probably have to look after you so you dont get yourself to jail. a boyfriend is adding more boys in to that list and i dont want that. you will be my boys forever and i wont be taken from you so please trust on me and stop being so overprotective bc i wont give them the affection or wishes they want!’

oikawa teared up and was about to go trample you but he was held back

‘no! i want a hug! i want a family hug! cmon, iwa-chan!’

practice went by quickly but you demanded them to do 10 diving laps in punishment for all the misunderstandings theyve created 

but they gladly did it bc it meant that you wont be taken from them and you would be theirs forever and their cute manager is going to pay attention to them and them only

i got serious yandere vibes from this but its so heartwarming that theyre so overprotective and lowkey you got yourself a harem

after practice, they all wanted to walk home with you but you told them that shinsou’s house was the other direction

‘y/n-chan! you said you wouldn’t-’

you rolled your eyes

‘oikawa-san, just because i refused that confession doesnt mean i will stop earning money. i still have to catsit for his family and earn my money!’

they only agreed when kyo said that he was walking that way too but they were still weary and jealous bc he got to spend more time with you than them

as you were both walking, you looked up at him

‘kyo-san, what type of hug do you like?’

‘hah?’

he looked down at you bc we short with wide eyes and flushed cheeks

you smiled and looked forward, skipping slightly

‘everyone in the team has their own special hugs. i want everyone to have one bc you all are individually special to me so-’

but he stopped walking and pulled arm before he lifted you up, making you squeak and wrap your legs around his waist

thank god you were wearing your tracksuit and not your skirt

‘k-kyo-san?’

bruh is it obv that kyoken is one of my favorite seijoh boys like bls love on him

he didnt want you to see his flustered expression bc he still has a reputation to uphold, yanno?

so he tucked it in your neck and you softly smiled before playing with the baby hairs at the base of his neck

‘you like this kind then, kyo-san? kinda aggressive but perfectly suits you, yanno?’

he just grunted and you laughed

he wasnt about to tell you that he liked holding you on his arms bc you were so tiny and so you that holding you like this makes him feel like he was protecting you and feel good about himself bc he gets to be the one who shields you from the world

yuhhhhh get it kyo

‘so yahaba-san told me that you got kicked out of class bc you scared the teacher and kids?’

you questioned and he left his spot on your neck and pulled his face back so you could clearly see his face

it was red and possibly flustered but you just snickered

he still held you by his strong arms so you were able to move your small hands to his face where he flinched at first but relaxed when you touched his cheeks

your fingers gently pulled the sides of his lips and you tilted your head to the side

‘you,,, look really handsome when you smile, kyo-san’

you whispered and he was so surprised that his tough mask fell and was replaced by wide eyes and his eyebrows rose up, the intimidating look disappearing from his eyes

‘i-i do?’

you bit your lip bc this was so different from the aggressive kyo you knew and you didnt expect this type of innocence that he just showed you

maybe he wasnt so innocent from the fights and arguments he has started or been in 

but he was so innocent to soft touches and compliments bc he wasnt exposed to it, only used to the ones that were said due to the aura he exuded or his looks

‘yep, you do. so keep smiling for me, kay? dont have to be around the others or all the time, but i,,, want to see it sometimes’

he blinked at you but quickly went back to your neck to hide the big smile that was threatening to come out

you felt his lips move and you laughed

‘noooo! kyo-san!!! i want to see your smilee!!! dont hide it!!!’

but it was cut short when a familiar shout was heard from the other side of the street that was near the school

it seemed that oikawa was worried about you walking alone with kyoken so he followed you both with the other third years

‘kyoken-chan! y/n-chan!’

he shouted in betrayal

you were about to get away from kyo’s hold but he tightened his grip and leaned in to place a kiss on your forehead, still staring straight at the captain

‘mine’

again, do you know what happened next?

oikawa screamed

this was actually pretty funny to write bc wowza oikawa is so oikawa and hes just so oikawa-like, yanno? and im still simping over kyoken and shinsou is my ult fave in bnha and i really love him like ugghhhh :’)

[lulubs071]

diary of a confused teenager

Tuesday, October 13th- 11:18

oKAY so here’s whats new. spring break started. CAN I GET AN AMEN? also the boy I like finally texted me back and we called like for 3 days in a row for an hour or so :))))) happy about that. 

some other news. a friend of mine invited me to spend the rest of sring break with her on the beach, thursday through sunday, but my mom said i can only go if I finish my homework/projects due after spring break. IN TWO DAYS. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. okay imma get this shit done because 4 days on the beach are way cooler than procrastinating at home.also some girls that I didn’t talk in a while invited me to go out friday which i said i would buuuuuuuuuuttt i meaaaaaaaaan oops. 

also side note, this is all wearing masks, we all been social distancing properly, tested for covid, washing hands, i havent left the house in 4 months, so spring break is when my parents are letting me go out.

another boy i’ve been talking to since the beggining of quarantine invited me to sneak out like ... in November since his parents won’t be home the whole week. I can go “sleepover” at my bestfriends and go to his house. BUT IDK. like, there’s many cons. 

1- it’s probably, most definetly a booty call

2- if my parents discover, IM GONNA BE KILLED

3- i like that other boy ......

but.... counterarguments

1- you’d enjoy the booty call anyways common

2- if my parents don’t discover, IT’S GONNA BE EPIC SNEAKIN OUT

3- YOU HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT YOU’RE FEELING.

So yeah, but if the universe favors this event (since it’s like next month) I might go hehe.  This is crazy, imagine if it actually works out. bruh it`s so weird to think about because ... I don`t know my life seems to be shifting so much this last month????? i started to manifest things and raise my vibration and stuff has been falling into place???/ so unexpectedly????  i feel like the univere is giving me a second chance to this year. but i have to be willing to make a sacrifice.

i might sound crazy but inside me I feel as if that if I put effort into school and have a good rel\tionship with my parents and take care of my mental health, things will just start falling into place the way I desire. which is amazing, but also hard since i really usually don’t give a fuck about school. but YA KNOW WHAT IMMA GET MY SHIT TOGETHER AND FINISH THIS ALL BEFORE SO I GET TO GO TO THE BEACH, GET MY CUTE MANS.

also my ex texted me today???? mmmmmmm  ._. tf is this bout now.  i think we just grew comfortabe talking to each other because there’s no fucking way he still genuinly cares/likes talking to me. every talk is kinda dry and the same?????? like common. oh well.  

i went out for a walk saturday and burnt myself with my gym top, it’s like  red all over lmaooooooo. i really want to start a podcast????? like my brother has his videogame headset THAT HAS A GOODASS MIC??? I COULD GENUINLY RECORD AN HOUR LONG EPISODE TALKING??? cuz i manage to talk bout anything for as long as fucking possible, i’d just need a day home alone to be able to talk for that long with his headset lmaooooo. i don’t really know how to upload it to anywhere, but soundcloud is chill, i’d just have to rip a rock out my ass to learn how to put it on spotify. BUT IT’S OKAY, i wanna try it anyways.

my mom said she’d beat my ass if I reactivated my twitter again because im not alloweeeeddddd but likeeeeeeeeeeee commON i don’t wanna loose the account, which will happen in 3 days if i dont reactivate. ya know im thinking about just reactivating and deactivating each month so i don’t loose it LMAOO.cuz like, all my friends are there and i love talking shit. like, its just not the same on tumblr or my spam instagram.i mean im sure that if i tried it would be cool but twitter was my shit bruh.

 i hate that the more i write the dumber I fucking sound since these are paragraph long run on sentences and i deeply apoligize, my english teacher would die inside if she read this but honestly it’s just a brain dump. I swear that in real life I dont’t constantly talk about men and failing school and being irresponsible. but also i don’t think anyone really reads this. if you’re still reading write “flying cucumber”. 

POLICE MEN SWEAR TO GOD LOVE SWEEPING FROM THE GUNSSSSSSSS I KNOW MY FRIENDS AND IIIIIII TUTUTUTU TO RUN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. 

yeah thats it for today my fellow people, imma go finish some homework after watching 15 Corpse husband gameplays ON GOD THAT MANS VOICE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA MARRY ME PLEASE, I’D PAY.

 byebyeeeeee

[dathen]

TMA 158 liveblog dump

this is gonna be incoherent and long as heck and idk how they didn’t ban my twitter from all the spam

ft. excessive yelling about how much I want to kill peter lukas and me being whipped around by the plot twists like a chew toy with a hyperactive dog

looks at cast list oh god oh fuck oh christ

UMMM THE SUMMARY WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK

skjdjd why did alex read BERT!! three times as loud as the rest of the names that was cute am I just frantically latching onto anything to calm me down?? yes

me yesterday: I hope they mention Tim! me now: PETER LUKAS GET THAT NAME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH I WILL KILL YOU

“what’s that in your hands” “it’s a leitner!” “and the blood on it?” “that’s leitner too!” WHY IS THIS SHOW SO FUCKING FUNNY when i’m about to pass out from suspense

LETTING THE CHANGELING FREE TO HUNT JON JUST TO KEEP HIM AWAY?? taunting martin with “oh you can still leave to help them :)” ?? MY BLOOD IS BOILING 

this BASTARD i’m going to EVISCERATE HIM i’m going to INVENT NEW WAYS TO KILL HIM i am SHAKING  

so much for protecting the institute!!!! bastard!!! motherfucker!!!!!

ELIAS GOT OUT????? WHAT THE FUCKKKK

also my heart is suddenly wrapped in warm cozy blankets to hear jon daisy and basira are reunited but I need to know how they got separated in the first place

jon’s little high-pitched “now?? I guess??” is so cute everything he does is cute uwu

I’m reveling in hearing martin talk but part of me is in “soon I may never hear from him again” mode and it’s making it ROUGH

OOOO WE KNEW YOU COULD SEE EVERYTHING FROM THE PANOPTICON I love being right *remembers I’m afraid martin will be lost forever* ..but not all the time

also peter freeing the changeling to hunt Jon shoots down my theory that all of this is to bait him down here, which also makes me certain that he didn’t leave the statement I’m also pretty certain martin didn’t either which means...

JONAH MAGNUS?????? (DOES THAT MEAN ELIAS -IS- BRAT STONER RICH KID ELIAS??? BIGGEST FUCKING TWIST OF ALL)

HEY HEY DONT MAKE MARTIN MURDER PEOPLE YOU ASSHOLE stab jonah magnus YOURSELF

“I brought a knife” has the same air as “I have a pipe” which means someone other than (though possibly including) jonah is gonna get stabbed HOPEFULLY PETER LET MARTIN STAB PETER

me: don’t make martin a murderer he’s so soft it would make him sad uwu :(( also me: LET 👏  MARTIN 👏  MURDER 👏  LUKAS

WAIT WAIT WHAT WHAT DID I SPEAK TOO SOON DOES ELIAS HAVE JONAH’S EYES

why was there static when jon says “we don’t have time for this” hmmmm

aaaaa daisy sticking up for jon’s idea I’m :’)

“””””Elias””””””” HHHHHHHGGHHHHHHH GLGLGLLGLG

I AM IN WHIPLASH elias really is possessed I AM SAD...... I wasn’t able to join in on all the jokes bc I KNEW I’d be sad if the theory turned out to be true GLLGHHGLL...

so gertrude planning to burn down the institute was a DISTRACTION?? for murdering jonah’s body in the panopticon??

“do you really care about any of them? or is that worry simply an old reflex?” there are so many old fuckers I need to eviscerate

Martin: “No” Me: [SCREAMS ALOUD FORGETTING MY WINDOWS ARE OPEN AND SOMEONE IS PROBABLY THINKING I GOT MURDERED]

MY ENTIRE LIFE. LED UP TO THAT MOMENT. OF MARTIN SAYING NO

jon gets his second fuck!!!!!

well jon gets no fucks but you know what I mean!!!

are julia and trevor just murdering their way through the institute??? jesus CHRIST

I’m about to straight up pass out I’m so glad I worked from home today so I didn’t have to listen while driving

jon: don’t I get a gun?? :( basira: you don’t know how to fire one! jon, whiny: you never taught me!! basira: you never asked!! HE’S SO PETULANT ITS SO CUTE fjdjjdjdj

jon not wanting to leave basira and daisy behind out of fear they’ll die holding the others off :((( jonathan “I’m not losing you too” sims always making me sad ALSO I AM TERRIFIED FOR DAISY AND BASIRA

DAAAAISSYYYYY IM SHAKING AND CRYING I AM GONNA DISSOLVE

“promise me” this is only the third time I’ve cried while listening but BOY IS THE CRYING HAPPENING  

they’re gonna find her later and save her with the power of love right????

I can’t even properly appreciate how hot feral daisy is this is a crime  

MARTIN SNARK ON PETER LUKAS TIME?? is our seasonly martin smackdown gonna be on PETER LUKAS is life REALLY THIS GOOD TO ME??

oh no the knife clattering to the floor I’ve seen return of the jedi I know how this goes

“oh I’m sure it is! but that’s not what it is about, is it?” oh no martin is being Hot again I didn’t ask for this

me @ me when daisy is feral and martin is being commanding and sarcastic 

“honestly? I mostly just said what I thought you wanted to hear” JEJDSJNDJKDOEJFOSNCJKDNDKKDKSJFJDKKSNDJDKKSNNDJDJBEJSJJEJEJJDKJFNDND

THATS MY BOY!!!!!! MY BEAUTIFUL MAGIC BOY!!!!!!!!!!!

MARTIN’S SPEECH IS SO GOOD I CANT EVEN REACT TO IT IM JUST GONNA GET THE WHOLE THING TATTOOED ON MY BODY LOVE FOR MARTIN BLACKWOOD TRIPLED AGAIN HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE   

OH GOD OH GOD PETER THREW MARTIN INTO THE LONELY  NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I SAW IT COMING in fact yesterday I predicted the last few eps would be saving martin from the Lonely but THAT DOESNT MEAN I AM ANY LESS DISTRESSED

KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS KILL PETER LUKAS

all of yesterday’s horny elias jokes were so on point elias is in maximum horny mode

“what is this place?” “that’s a complicated—“ “it’s the Panopticon” elias:

JON IS SO IN LOVE

“yeah you’ll 100% die if you go in to save mar—“ “how do I do it” NOT A FUCKING SECOND OF HESITATION I AM SCREAMING FOR A THOUSAND YEARS 

“are you scared, Jon?” “..Yes.” “Perfect” this was maximum vulnerable Jon an maximum horny elias and I am having such whiplash and I’m pretty sure my heart forgot how to beat half an hour ago 

 OH WAIT FUCK THAT WAS THE END NOOOOOOOO HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE ANOTHER WEEK? HOW?????

MARTIN REFUSING TO HELP LUKAS AND BEING CAST INTO THE LONELY AS PUNISHMENT AND JON FOLLOWING AFTER TO SAVE HIM WAS MY DREAM SCENARIO THAT WAS TOO IDEALISTIC FOR FICS TO EVEN DARE

[xitzcaathewstj0nesx]

cakc

"y/n... i dont know how to say this....." cacker whispered his voice breathey.

"w-what is it??" you gasp looking at cacker in all her glory. cacker took a depe breathe."

"i love you y/n" said cacker with agoy. come with me to sanfransisco and we will live inn my condo by the beach. wecan stay together forrevre." cacker looks at you with despurashun. "please y/n... i..... i dont wanna loose you....."

you look at cacker disbelefingly "im sorry cacker.. but.... i cant....... i cnt go with you..... i need to stay here where im from....... i cant go to sanfransisco with yo" cacker crys "please y/n i cant bare to be with out you"

"im sorry cacker" "dont leave me" "i have to" cacker falls to her knees and sobbing.

you look at cacker "stop crying you say your being a baby about this" cacker crys harder. "ok the oh well im leaving goodbye" you shout and start walking to the door

suddenly you see light from behind you. "what is going on here" a voice says. you turn around and cacker turns around. "bellatorta what are you doing here" says cacker. "no roleplaying in chat this is spam" she says "read the rules"

"who are you" you say

"i am bellatorta angriest of all cats protector of the chat rules"

"cackre how dare you cheat on me" you say "what" says cacker" "you know what i mean" says you.

"y/n i dont know what you mean"

suddenly a voice says loud "club recruit"

"well then who are you to cacker" you say to bellatorta

"i dont know but im giving birth" said bella. "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"

"oh my god so you had a child with bellatorta!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!! HOW DARE YOU" you say

"that is not my child" said bellatorta "i am not the parental figure to this thing i do not pay child support"

"its not mine either" said cacker. they played hot potato with baby spyro_chan

"STOP BICKERING OVER THE BABY NOBODY CARES" you yell. how dare they worry about that there are so many other important things! you take the baby and throw it in the crib

"ok" said bellatorta

"im leaving" you say

"no my love dont go" said cacker "please'

"taxi" you say  you get in the taxi "where do you want to go" says your taxi driver wafflefishes. "new players chat room 1" you say. "okay but i dont have a license" wafflefishes slams the gas pedal and you go speeding off. suddenly someone is on the road. "oh no watch out for eccentric 20" you shout.

waffles tries to hit the brakes but misses and stomps through the floorboard. something thuds under the car. you get out of the car "oh wow" said wafflefishes. BANG suddenly she drops to the ground she is dead. "oh my god" you scream.

king blows the smoke from the hole of his gun "she has been dealt with. she always tried to get rid of my ex wife, mr lollipow, but i wont let her do that anymore. hes too hot to die. also he paid me" suddenly a cloud of ospreys and pelicans and puffins and owls soar down from the clouds. king makes all of their calls at the same time as he is lifted away into the clouds.

you are scared and lost. "psst" a voice whispers. "whose their" you ask. "come here" it says. you walk towards the voice."i am bubbies youre safe with me follow me". you follow bubies. suddenly there are lots of people. "welcome you are safe here. we are the bubs. the super smash bubs" says bubbies. suddenly you are grabbed by the arms. "the cat game gods will protect you" says bubbies. "no let me go" you yell. you are put on a stake

"we sacrifice to the gods today. they are named staff. let the staff be appeased" says moontrain the second in command of the cult. "yes huzzah" the cult members cheer. "burn them all, theyre all fat and gay" says the other cult leader desbee. "wilted wants to see them burn" says wilted rose

"no dont burn me" you say. another stake is lifted up beside you. "dont worry the gods will protect us" says Vanya_Hargreeves. they set her on fire. "AHHHHHHH" she screams. "AHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH". the cult blows party horns and cheers.

"ARDYTFUGJKFHMINWDYUAKGHJMFNHIU GYAHKDMJNHUBGKJFNHLJMADNHUBYFSKNHAJDUBGAYNKHF UYSGHDN IWNKH*&^@IUTYRKHBDUI K@YTURGHNHUIF YGHBNU@I^K YQRHJIUJGHMBNWUIYJGRMB" said Edgy McGee "KILL BLOOD FIRE EG%WFTIYDAUKH DESTROY" she licks a knife

suddenly cacker arrives. she has a sword and is fighting with her sidekicks prayerlynx, moon cloud, denmother, and cheshie. they fight the cult members off. "hurry" you yell "im comeing" says cacker and she cuts away the ropes "lets go" says cacker and you run with her away from the fight. you find cheshie waiting for you and cacker and the rest in a cat. "get in we need to leave NOW" she says. you get in and hold cackers hand and you drive off

you stop at a restaurant to eat. "what can i get you" says yawndere the waiter" you all order and she leaves. you decide to move to sanfransisco with cacker. "cacker i want to go with you to sanfransisco" "i knew you would" said cacker.

you get the check and go home. "have fun" says everyone and they dirve off leaving you and cacker alone. "cacker......." you say "im...... im-" "shh its okay" says cacker pressing a finger to your lips "you dont need to say anything i know what you mean" you share a passionate kiss

"what is this" says saes. "WHY ARE WE ALWAYS INTERRUPTED" YOU YELL. leon chan and loki965 eavesdrop. "sorry about them" says cacker "ill tell them to leave" she says "GET OUT" yells cacker.

"are you going to spend the night y/n?" cacker asks. "yes, i dont really have anywhere ellse to go" "okay but youll have to stay in my bed because we dont have room anywhere else"

you are sleeping when the door opens very quietly footsteps get close to you. you sit up fast and suddenly a knife is pressed to your throat "get up" says a voice. you obey and follow them downstairs. they sit you in a chair. its leon chan! edgy mcgee is also there. "you shouldnt be here" they say "were going to get rid of you we dont want you here " "cacker" you yell scaredly. "cacker wont help you" "ill leave if you want me to" you say. "you have nowhere to go we know that" says edgy. "how" loki steps forward looking akwward. "im sorry" says loki. "its okay" you say. "im not talking to you" says loki. suddenly she throat punches edgy mcgee and leon chan.

"HOW DARE YOU" edgy mcgee roars. she doesnt have any chance to do anything though because cheshie smacks her in the head with a table. "take THAT" she says. cacker runs down the stairs "whats going on? oh no!" she says. cheshie and loki fight the two kidnappers "ill come back" says leon chan running off. cacker chases them with a bat.

cacker comes back sweaty and glorious "are you okay" she askes "yes im fine. lets go to san fransisco i dont want to be here anymore" "okay says cacker "i love you y/n" she says and kisses "i love you too" you say back

you get a plain to sanfransisco with cacker and live with her happily ever after. cheshie, prayerlynx, moon cloud, and denmother protect you from any bad things like cults. you knoew your safe when you hear the cry of five different birds as king-pelican sors overhead.

the end

[bramblepaws]

HHRHHGH mumbled annoyances abt the bcb discord below the cut

idk if i should put this in the tag or not............idk, people will find it maybe, if they dont that may be for the best LOL

im gonna pull the constructive part out of the complaining so if all ur looking for is that, here:

- I’d like there to be more work done to keep people on-topic in the channels - Should really be separate channels for BCB-specific art and general art - Having a channel or a set of channels that’re for Adults to talk about the comic would be great (obviously no nsfw talk, but more mature themes are able to be discussed like mental illness, sexual harassment / assault, abuse, etc)

the next chunk is just me complaining, skip to the last section if you just wanna see What I’d Do Differently

i finally left the bcb discord today because Jesus Christ there is literally NO channel where people don’t spam shit i dont care about

started out following Every BCB-related channel, that turned out to be way too cluttered so i muted everything but the two bcb discussions channels, the bulletin channel, and the art channel

but people FREQUENTLY go off-topic in the bcb discussion channels. and also are like, weirdly inflammatory about what they say? honestly it just seems like a lot of people in the discord are Really Young, which is fine, but i wish there was a channel for like. adults to discuss the comic. because i get young people having an interest in it and im All For That, but it often led to a lot of really immature shit happening? and maybe the perpetrators of that weren’t young, maybe they were just immature

but like there’d regularly be shit posted in the discussion chat (for theories! and opinions! about the comic! which sounds great! until u go into it!) that was like.... “i’d love to just punch lucy” “mike can die in a fire” “david is the worst” etc. like .. i like, hearing people’s opinions, but, jesus? can we not like. talk about our opinions on different characters without resorting to That

plus people went off topic ssssooooo frequently, you’d start off in one channel talking about mike/lucy and all their problems and then it’d somehow switch to one person telling everyone else they were idiots for not seeing that lucy is garbage and THEN it’d switch to some random topic. 

even in The Place For Art people went off topic a LOT (one time i contributed to the conversation and that was the only time i saw anyone get called out for posting in the wrong channel, ironically, dkjgnfkjgndf MY BAD THO FOR ENCOURAGING IT)

not to mention people spam the “show me old art” command in the art room and like..... Blease. please go do that in the room that’s Specifically For Bot Commands

also i’d really like to see an art room for General Art and a room for BCB-specific art. im only there for the bcb art. specifically for the NEW bcb art. 

i guess my biggest frustration with it was just how often it Wasn’t about bcb, even tho bcb was all i was there for? idk it wouldve been nice to have discussions with people, but the few discussions i got involved in got WAY out of hand really quickly (with people zooming off topic or guilt-tripping others or saying characters should die). better organization of channels would also be nice. idk. 

back to semi-constructive: 

if i made my own bcb discord server (which i wont, because that’d be rude to the creators who put a bunch of time / effort into making this one), here’s how i’d do it:

Area for general topics, not related to BCB. - General (where Whatever can be talked about) - General Art - Bot room (bot commands used) - Meme room - Music room (song recs, playlists, maybe videos) - Maybe a room for discussing / recommending other comics. - Maybe a room /specifically/ for venting in bc people seem to like doing that 

Area for BCB specific topics. - General BCB (just talking about Whatever in relation to the comic, can even be shitposts/memes as long as they’re on-topic) - Page Update Room (nobody BUT the page updater can talk, that way people can have alerts to this on w/o getting clutter) - Discussion room (talking about the characters / the story, making sure to include in the rules that saying shit like “x character sucks” and “x character should die / get beat up” is not cool, as well as rules abt Being Nice To Vero) - BCB art room where candybooru posts are shared (as they’re uploaded) and people can share their bcb-specific art

Area for Real Adults (over 18 at least, maybe even pushing it to 21 & over) - General - BCB-specific discussion (can just talk about bcb in a place where There Aren’t Kids) - BCB-specific Extra Adult Discussion (talk specifically about mature topics like mental illness/etc)

and then i’d have mods that like regularly pushed people into the right channels or encourage everyone to keep each other in check. 

idk i think that’s it...... if i think of anything else to add i’ll do that,,, later

i might like. ask oliver if i can make an adults-only BCB channel (specifically banning nsfw art/talk tho) that’s more for like... discussion and such that is More Mature. maybe. idk. i’m gonna have time once im Out Of College

and a final disclaimer: im not Against kids liking the comics, im just in a very different place from people younger than me in like... how i view the topics. in fact im in a Very Different Place from me 3 years ago wanting to talk about the comic. so if ur young and you like the comic that’s fine! it’s good! i just want to be able to Also talk abt it with my peers

oh and another final disclaimer: i know Oliver is doing his best w/ like.. running this discord & keeping up with everything, it seems like A Lot. fully no shade intended here, i just wanted to like air my personal grievances with the discord. & i understand that a lot of my frustration is due to.... the type of people that post the most in the discord. which is why i’d vote for a Mature Area (god i sound pretentious saying that, im so sorry). 

[gallifreyansalt]

on my old DA from earlier this year, I did a tag 

time to see how my old answers have changed :)

tag is under the cut because im not evil

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life?

Yep!

2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

Nope.

3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”

Ruff

4: What’s something you really want right now?

Cheesecake

5: Are you afraid of falling in love?

Not really

6: Do you like the beach?

Yes

7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?

Jes I have

8: What’s the background on your cell?

My boyfriend c:

9: Name the last four beds you sat on?

Mine, uhm my parents, my cousins and uhm my other cousins

10: Do you like your phone?

yeah its chill

11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned?

No, but it'd be boring if it did

12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?

uhm i dont remember

13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?

a rottweiler

14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

emotional pain

15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?

a zoo!

16: Are you tired?

yeah

17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact?

OKAY so my 1st phone contact is my boyfriend and I’ve known him roughly 9 months

18: Are they a relative?

Nope

19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?

No lol I’m good with my boo

20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?

Just a second ago

21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?

definitely.

22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I would kiss them until their lips fell off

23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

1 if you dont count a rubber band

24: Is there a certain quote you live by?

“try not to mistake, what you have with what you hate, it could leave come the morning!” -Matchbox Twenty, How Far We’ve Come

25: What’s on your mind?

My boyfriend is so cute I wish I had somebody to just spam with pics of my bf

26: Do you have any tattoos?

Nope

27: What is your favorite color?

Black, red and white

28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?

Next time I see my boyfriend

29: Who are you texting?

My boyfriend (he’s my only friend rip)

30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

Uhm yes 

31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?

YEP. 

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? 

Help I’m genderfluid. (Sex- I have one or two guy friends)

33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

I would hope my bf does

34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

Many times. (It never bothered me or made me feel special until I started hearing my boyfriend babble about my eyes at 2 am when he’s sleepy. The cutest thing I stg)

35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?

I would cry and then beat whoever the f--- is kissing my boo

36: Were you single on Valentines Day?

Feb. of 2017, I was ;-;

37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed?

YES

38: What do your friends call you?

Atlas, Cammy, Cam (Cam is my birth name *belch*)

39: Has anyone upset you in the last week?

Yeah :/

40: Have you ever cried over a text?

Yep

41: Where’s your last bruise located?

On my neck ;) (IM KIDDING I THINK MY HAND)

42: What is it from?

Colorguard

43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?

Earlier today

44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

My friend Katelyn

45: Do you have a favorite pair of shoes?

Yes

46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?

I will try, but my school dress code doesn't allow hats so I usually wear it up in a ponytail

47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style?

Nah

48: Do you make supper for your family?

No, we all make our own food

49: Does your bedroom have a door?

Si

50: Top 3 web-pages?

Tumblr, Twitter, and The Sims Resource because im a cc no life

51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping?

Yes I do

52: Does anything on your body hurt?

My back because I have to slouch in this chair to see my computer screen

53: Are goodbyes hard for you?

Depends

54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

Uhm... a soda ;-;

55: How is your hair?

Silky for once

56: What do you usually do first in the morning?

Check my phone to see how long I have to “get ready” (/sleep)

57: Do you think two people can last forever?

Yeah, if their love and loyalty is real and strong.

58: Think back to January 2007, were you single?

Well I had just turned 4, so I assume so.

59: Green or purple grapes?

Green 

60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?

When I see my boyfriend because I never get to see him so I always give him like giant bear hugs

61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?

Yeah. Far, Far away from here.

62: When will be the next time you text someone?

After my boyfriend gets out of the shower (oh my god I have no friends)

63: Where will you be 5 hours from now?

Probably asleep or babbling to my boyfriend about how I want to transfer schools already

64: What were you doing at 8 this morning.

dying (well said, old me)

65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

Yes, I was head over heels for one of my guy friends

66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

There are many

67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today?

Do my dogs count?

68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

I have exams tomorrow.

69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

Many times

70: How many windows are open on your computer?

2. (This page and also my tumblr page)

71: How many fingers do you have?

I'm not sure...

72: What is your ringtone?

The default ringtone

73: How old will you be in 5 months?

15

74: Where is your Mum right now?

In her room sleeping probably

75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?

Because we broke up woooaah

76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

Nope

77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

Like one person

78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?

7th grade? Yes

79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?

I don't know anyone personally with that name, but I mean... Stranger Things.

80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

No, but I've woken up in someones arms < THAT WAS OLD ME OMG POOR BABY FALLING ASLEEP IN SOMEONES ARMS IS SO NICE AND CUDDLY AND WARM FUDGE

81: How many people have you liked in the past three months?

ONE c:

82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?

Well... no

83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

Yes c:

84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

I would never yell at hot people. Hot people are intimidating.

85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?

Yes!

86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?

I had to awkwardly smile at my boyfriend and his parents as I snuggled in his jacket cause I was freezing. 

87: Who was your last received call from?

My friend Kate

88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?

Yeah, and then my friends would do it too so we'd have like, 3000 dollars.

89: What is something you wish you had more of?

Friends

90: Have you ever trusted someone too much?

yes

91: Do you sleep with your window open?

nah

92: Do you get along with girls?

No girls are mean (trust me I’m biologically female)

93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?

Not that I know of

94: Does sex mean love?

okay this depends. in the way most people will think, no. But like, if you've been in a relationship for a while and want children then I think that's pretty dang lovey.

95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

Nah we’d probably just keep making out

96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?

No

97: Did you sleep alone this week?

No I have my doggos

98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

Yes

99: Do you believe in love at first sight?

Meh

100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

Oh gosh I don't remember

[belarath]

so I've finally figured out how to vent on here again without falling into a panic spiral which is lovely  :  and I’m just going to spam myself here cause I really need to let something out   :   I’m dying, I'm just straight up dying in here   :   I’m so empty, in many ways   :   I’m wrecked physically, I couldn't walk up a hill 2 weeks ago without sitting down halfway though, and I don't mean a big hill I mean the side of a lightly inclined large road   :   I barely can make it to eat anymore, sitting up is a challenge, any you can forget any kind of maintenance   :   I got better yesterday only just so I could wash my hair enough that after washing it again today its not riddled with dandruff enough to clog up my comb anymore   :   I finally shaved which I like, but i’ve only been able to enjoy that at home. I step outside and its not good for how anxious I am. I had a fake lining of protective masculinity that I relied on to convince me I’m safe. I still felt uncomfortable going places especially at night but it wasn't to bad. now though I’m double as certain every person I see will shank me. I’m constantly looking over my shoulder which panics me cause every time I do that I'm certain that makes me look afraid which makes me a better target   :   though shaving has made me feel better physically   :   I hate my body so much, but shaving makes me feel a bit better which is a relief, the constant loathing of how I look is very very draining   :   you'd think that like after alllll this god damn time it'd get a little easier to live with such a retched self body image but its just so heavy feeling still   :   I worry   :   I’ve always been a very sad person   :   and like I acknowledge that Its probably not healthy how sad I am all the time but   :   I’ve been like this my entire life   :   I’ve never felt happy for longer than like, maybe more than a month or 2 straight   :   I’m so confident in how well I can endure the deathly long expanses of numbness and hyper draining lack of energy   :  the lack of passion for anything the tastelessness of food   :   the contentment to not move the endless wishing for god damn peace and quiet   :   I have that thing where you really just don't want to exist, I just don't want to have to live in this body and be this mind, I acknowledge I don't have a fear of death because I day dream about not being alive in the sense that being alive is very very very heavy   :   not all the time but,,  so much of the time and that not needing to feel the desire to not want to feel heavy anymore is lovely   :   like I’ve lived like this for my entire memory and so just continuing to live has been my jam   :   I know that if I did die, my Mum would not cope, she’s die   :   I’ve watched her claw her way through things, I swear she doesn't know how hard she’s had it, and I cannot take any joy she's gleamed from this life she's sacrificed so much to reach by selfishly dying   :   death is out of the option until my Mum dies   :   and its likely that death will be out of the option until my close friends either drift away or die as, well, they’ve gone though too much, one specifically I worry about, and I think that dying would be rude to say the least   :   and again its just very selfish   :   one of the virtues of having been programmed to treat myself as lesser is that this instinct has prevent my death which is cool   :   it does make for some suffering though   :   but anyway i’ve drifted   :   I wasn't worried about myself and my sadness until this week   :   I think wednesday? I think I had a moment, I’m certain I had a moment where I fantasied about self harm, and the thing about this is that fantasising about it made me feel better, which really is the part I’m scared about   :   funny thing is though that I have a friend who did self harm but they used like a cutting tool and in my head I was like “ugh no thats just not the way to do it stabing is a way better idea!”   :   my friend told me about their experience and they said they knew it was dumb thing to do cause they had people they knew that did it but they still did it, I forget the reason why. but they regretted it and for some reason it made me thing that I’m way more reasonable because I learnt from them and decided that using like cork board pins seems like a way better idea XD   :   I didn't self harm because the pin I had on me I’m sure wasn't clean and I didn't have the energy or the free break to go get a clean one, and going through the rigamarole of sterilising and then trying to hide it was just,,, to much for my stamina to think possible.  : luckily again another piece of programming “gifted” to me by good old paterna saved me from this moment of self harm as I believe everything has to be done by the book! not by like a real book but the book he taught me to make for myself. what a lovely instinct! to have half my brain assigned to making rules to punish and contain my self which is completely SELF SUFFICIENT   :   I’m being sarcastic btw   :   to the core of me tip to toe I hate it with a fucking passion   :   one of the few passions that I do have XD   :   but again I drifted though   : the moment passed and I haven't wanted to self harm again since then which is good but I’m still unnerved   :   I’m so scared   :   I’ve been dying on the inside for a little bit now   :   I think i have anxiety, and i think I may have a little paranoia though I haven't googled it so I may not   :   but gosh its been put into perspective how self destructive I am   :   there was a post which listed a bunch of self destructive behaviours 28 in total, I had 21 of them and the other 7 involved sexuality which I don't have much of being mostly ace   :   I remember thinking “its a fairly good list” but it kinda highlighted somethings    :   it made me think    :   maybe dressing in wet clothes because you couldnt be bothered to keep your body clothed cleanly and then going out in cold windy weather even though you know you’re going to shiver and probably chafe a bit and then be super hungry cause your cold so you decide to eat out and berate yourself for spending or get home and eat and berate yourself for not making something better and getting fatter or not eating just cause who cares.   MAYBE THATS SELF DESTRUCTIVE   :   or maybe staying at public dnd games which a bunch of people who unnerve you and sap you of energy for sometimes chunks of 3 to 5 hours because you “don't want to offend people” or “don't want to mess up anyones schedule” while also not eating or drinking enough MaYbE ThAtS SeLfDeStRuCtIvE Too   :   maybe its knowing you will get horrific migraines or want to throw up from lack of sleep and maybe that will spike your anxiety about being fired from your work because you can't shake the feeling everyone wants to fire you but you don't mention anything because you'd feel bad about leaving or something and because some of these people you actually like you'll degrade yourself more because they are worth it and you’re not MAYBE THATS FUCKING SELF DESTRUCTIVE   :   I WANT TO SCREAM BUT I DONT   :   I NEVER FUCKING HAVE AND IM DYING INSIDE   :   god I get so mad and I scream so loud in my head my head hurts   :   I’m so broken in so many intricate ways and I know I could feel so much better but, theres so much in the way! and most of its me thats in the way! I’m so close to not even just like help Im so close to comfort! I just want be held by people I like, I’m sure I could ask for like more hugs or to cuddle or to hold hands or for people to play with my hair or for just in general human contact of any kind but, theres so much social anxiety to even begin to ask something like that and that even if I were to get consent how the hell could i learn to initiate!? I”M SO FUCKING SCARED to like ask for physical contact from yet another trauma as a kid. If it weren't bad enough that I’m hyper petrified about getting consent for any kind of physical contact but I also believe that if i were to touch people it would be automatically labeled as predatory because I’m male. I’m starting to think maybe sexual trauma as a kid has had a bigger effect on my psyche than I think? which in all honesty is just, its just exhausting to hold in my head that idea.

[heyitsyn]

Keeping Up With Seijoh Ep. 5

a/n: ong this is going to be a bit of a crack episode w a tiny dash of flirty manager

for more seijoh content, check this masterlist out!

anon:

-Watch the boys be all dramatic when yn misses a few days of school and suddenly show up with a broken arm😭✊🏻😔

- Dunno if this is a dream or not but i think you mentioned that yn is clumsy. Just imagine her carrying those cute band aids around for when she gets hurt. But what if she uses them on the boys when they get hurt

tumblr moot:

- She is looking down at the boy who is checking her scrap on her knee, when she smiles all cutely and shit "I fell for you" And cue the boy having a heart attack because she is way to cute

im totally not running out of seijoh gifs or anything

anyways!!

lets start!!

okay as mentioned before and as read above,,

you are quite clumsy

like there is a normal level of clumsy

but you are just on another level

like in manager part 2, your mom ltr was not shocked when you said you fell up the stairs like ‘oh okay. the weathers nice today’

lmao what

and youre also the type to not even know you got hurt like youd just be scratching your arm and youd find a bruise 

‘how did that get there?’

so it was common to find you with band-aids on you and bruises all over

like you entered the gym for practice and you were just doing your normal manager tingz when our meme bois saw you and zoomed towards you

‘y/n-chan!!! we missed you!!!!

makki screeched which scared you so you dropped the crate of bottles onto your feet

‘owie’

you mumbled, the pain settling in at an overwhelmingly quick pace so there were tiny tears in your eyes

the duo gasped and quickly kicked the crate to the side like they were angry at it for hurting you

uwu omg thats so cute

or the one time you were wiping the sweat from kyo’s forehead

he had a small soft smile that could only be seen by you as you got rid of the sweat 

but that smile turned into a frown when he got a glimpse at the discoloration on certain parts of your arms

‘y/n’

he whispered

you blinked up and he gently grabbed your arm, fingertips ghosting over the bruises

‘how could you do this to your beautiful skin’

he mumbles and you shrugged

‘hmm,,, i didnt even know they were there’

kyo shook his head with an amused chuckle and iwa, who was drinking water at the side, noticed you two

then he noticed more at your other arm and baby boi hurriedly ran over to you

next thing you know, you got best bois fussing over you always hurting yourself and kyo gently headbutts you to tell you off while iwa flicks your nose

‘honestly, we cant trust you by yourself’

you just giggled at them which caused them to stumble and fluster

THESE BOYS ARE SO SOFT LIKE PLEASE

its quite normal for you to look like you just fell down the stairs and be so surprised whenever the boys point it out

like youd have this confused pout  and tilt your head ‘hm? hello. how did you get here’

its kinda cute

and ofc you would naturally have your ointments for bruises or a first aid kit at all times bc you never really know when it happens and you need to treat it quickly

the boys always count on you for medical tape when their fingers bleed or whenever watari gets bruises all over his legs bc of too many flying dives

the bench was a common place for you to treat the others and our libero babie was sitting there at one practice

you were kneeled on the floor and gently applying ointment on the growing colors on his skin 

‘hmm,,, wata-san, be careful next time, okay? your skin is really soft and pretty. its a shame to ruin it’

he wanted to scoff at the irony and the hypocritical comment but your worried and concerned eyes made him softly smile and nod

‘mhm. i will’

even though it was uneeded on reddened places, you would dig in your bag and fish out a gudetama bandaid on it

it was like a doctor’s signature for you and it makes the boys ltr fall in love with you all over again

ororororor that one time where kindaichi accidentally got a papercut during your study sessions and he was tearing up slightly at the pain

LMAO YALL REALLY OUT HERE TOUGHING OUT PAPERCUTS LIKE ITS NOTHING BUT I ACT LIKE I GOT STABBED 10 TIMES 

you grinned at him to show that it was going to be okay and he let you sit on his lap so you could treat it

he still had a pout and you were giving him forehead kisses to calm him down

‘see? its going to be okay. nurse y/n-chan is the best out there and she’ll take care of you!’

he laughed slightly and you victoriously smiled

once it was all wrapped up, you placed a kiss on it

‘ya gotta kiss it to make it better’

not saying im doing a kindaichi route or anything but he may or may not tackled you with kisses with that comment

but sometimes, they would have to be the one to put that bandaid on you

like one day, you were walking down the stairs to go to the changing rooms for practice and humming softly when you caught sight of the tall volleyball player mattsun at the bottom of the stairs

he was just passing by and you noticed him, waving your hand and shouting his name

‘mattsun-san!’

you greeted and he turned and he smiled brightly at you

you excitedly increased your pace going down the stairs, not noticing that you stepped on the edge of the step and caused your foot to slip

unfortunately, mattsun was too far away for him to catch you so you tripped and scraped your knee

he flashnyoomed over to you and kneeled in front of you to examine it

ofc it hurt like hell but you put up a brave front

‘its okay, mattsun-san’

his adorable eyebrows scrunched in concern and he quickly shook his head and gently picked you up to sit 2 steps up

you watched silently as he grabbed ahold of the familiar blue first aid kit from your bag and he opened it to take out alcohol and other treatment things

his fingers worked to open the bottle and pour a little bit of alcohol before he gently reached out to grab your leg

but before that, our babie mattsun is a gentleman and looked up for a permission to help you

‘its okay, mattsun-san’

you giggled and you booped his nose

he was slowly cleaning the wound and you could still tell he was worried with how his brows were still furrowed

‘mattsun-san’

you called out and he looked up

you smiled cutely and looked down, flustered, then met his eyes again

‘i fell for you’

mattsun.exe stopped working

like deadass he blanked for a second then his brain processed what you said and when he did, he dropped the cotton ball and his face blew up red

this babie grimaced, eyes shutting tightly and head leaning on your thigh

you giggled at him and ran your hands through his hair

‘i swear, y/n, i swear’

he kept mumbling and his heartbeat quickened to the point he felt faint and he felt light-headed

you were just too cute

too damn cute for his heart

too damn cute for this world

just too cute

and thats not good

mattsun quickly regained his senses and hurriedly placed the ointment and the bandaid on to finish the job

you reached out with your hands for a hug and mattsun gladly leaned in and you clung to him like a koala which made him hold you tightly against his chest

‘hmm~~~~ thank you, mattsun-san’

you appreciated and gave him a kiss on his cheek in gratitude which made him hide his face in your neck

‘im going to get a heart attack, y/n. take responsibility’

he mumbled, nipping your neck 

you chuckled and played with the hair on his neck

‘hm~ okay~ i take responsibility~’

I SWEAR MY MATTSUN SIMP IS NOW PEAKING THROUGH

that was only one of the accidents the seijoh boys went through with you and i swear those boys have superior intelligence in medical care just because you get hurt so much

until that one faithful day

you werent there

you werent at school or at practice

ofc you texted the coaches and the team that you werent going to be at school for a while and they spammed you asking what happened or if you were okay

but you didnt want to worry them so you just said that you were okay and it was just something that happened

ONG OIKAWA ACTUALLY CAME TO YOUR HOUSE BUT YOU TOLD YOUR PARENTS AND NATSU TO TELL HIM TO GO AWAY BC IF HE FINDS OUT WHAT HAPPENED, THE CHILE WILL STORM INTO YOUR ROOM AND LECTURE YOU 

HE ONLY WENT AWAY WHEN YOUR DAD CAME OUT WITH A BROOM AND THREATENED TO HIT HIM IF HE CONTINUES TO BOTHER YOU

UKAI VIBES HONESTLY

IS UKAI YOUR FATHER?

CONSPIRACY THEORY?

BUZZFEED UNSOLVED COME SOLVE THIS

then you finally appeared

dear god 

kunimi saw you enter the classroom and he almost shot up to saturn when he saw your cast

‘y/n!’

he shouted and kindaichi heard it from his classroom beside yours and he also usain bolted towards your classroom to your desk

the boi texted the team you were here and they all raced to your classroom 

EVERYONE WAS HAVING A FIELD DAY WITH THE APPEARANCE OF THE BEAUTIFUL VOLLEYBALL TEAM LIKE THE BOYS + YOU?! GODSEND

oikawa screeched at the sight of your arm and everyone was firing questions at you but you couldnt focus on one so you just sat there sheepishly smiling

‘Y/N! WHAT DID-’

‘I SWEAR ITS LIKE WE HAVE TO-’

‘MY HEART ALMOST DIED!! I THOUGHT YOU DIED-’

thank god your professor entered the shooed them out with a large textbook but your teacher smiled at you

‘l/n, good to have you back’

at lunch, dear god there was a riot

kunimi strong man kunimi hoisted you in his arms and walked over to the hidden team stairwell where everyone was waiting

they all had narrowed eyes and crossed arms, with iwakyo tapping their foot

you did the 🥺👉👈 and their eyes softened at that sight alone

‘you see,,,, i had a,,, concert,,, in the shower,,, and slipped’

they blinked, confusion swirling over everyone’s head

‘excuse me? you said you slipped in the bath?’

‘for a concert?’

‘you sing?’

the team facepalmed at the reason you came in with a broken arm and you pouted at them

‘sorry, captain, everyone. i didnt mean to’

you mumbled but the others couldnt blame you so they pulled you to a group hug

‘i swear, y/n-chan, you will get yourself killed one day’

‘sorry’

you apologized again but oikawa flicked your nose

‘no dont apologize. we’ll just have to be there for you constantly to look out for you’

and he stuck to that word

like oikawa came over to your house early in the morning to pick you up from school and your dad thought it was just him bothering again

so he sighed, placed his newspaper down, took a sip of tea, then stood up to go to the closet for his broom

this mans took a deep breath before opening his door and shouting and waving his broom around maniacally

‘SHUT UP!!! YOURE DISTURBING THE NEIGHBORS!! I WILL BEAT YOUR LOUD CRUSTY DUSTY-’

that woke up everyone in the house and you bolted down the stairs, terrified yet chuckling at the sight

then something happened for everyone in the neighborhood-or Japan- to wake up

yanno the drill ladies and gents

oikawa screamed

a/n: sorry i disappeared for a HOT SEC but im back!! and we finally going back to the groove!!! and uwu thanks for sticking by and waiting for another update and the next one might be my first not-seijoh work in a LONG WHILE so look forward to that!!!