#god im bad at tagging soz

[forcebookish]

i'm unwell about them

[clownattack]

Whenever i am told thangs abt the leech i just go. What an embarrassing person gosh

[cookiecomics]

(warning from future me: this is very long, soz)

heyy!! i'm about to start another reread of atott but although im trying to get better at this, im bad at leaving comments (i get too invested in the action & dont mark down my thoughts... so when i get to the comment part i don't remember all or anything i wanted to talk abt + i'm ruminating on what just happened. that's true for the updates i've been following and doubly so for binge-reading sessions) so i just wanted to say some things directly to you, right now, before i forget - i adore the colosseum to this day. i was invested from moment one and the way you described everything was so impactful. to this day i also remember the way ren was panicked & aiming to return home despite his concussion, it felt very visceral and real. also the entirety heresy ring, akechi finding out he was in the fraud ring (this cracked me up iirc. that boy read you akechi), the toy grandma wanted to give ren & akechi managed to get to him (and ren/arsene crying bc of it....), the river, the hanged man game.... gods, you captivated me so much even within those first chapters.

another moment that is very present in my memory is the whole section where ren is in shido's palace, hiding from akechi w/o knowing it's him, finding out he was the "birdman" and then the aftermath, akechi's high fever, the way ren did his best to take care of him, how he told him he'd do the hit on the principal for him. it was all so good!! like i found ur fics from the accomplice tag iirc so i wasn't surprised when it happened, but it was all so exciting still! my memory sucks so i can't even paraphrase what ren told akechi before leaving to do it, but i do remember how akechi was still convinced (and kinda hoped) ren wouldn't actually get involved & he'd just end up dead. then ren came back, with new glasses to boot! lol

ohh also that moment where ren crossdressed and akechi was definitely attracted but ofc he can't Say It so he just critiques his makeup capabilities instead....... i was like. of course. of couse you would.

and i found atott shortly after finding out i'm arospec despite being very interested in making fictional characters kiss & romantic scenes in general, so it was very interesting to read akechi believe he was aromantic & have to deal with Actually Having Romantic Feelings Fuck This lmaoooo tho tbf i'd actually react similarly if i found out i was demisexual instead of completely ace like i think i am, so i also identified with it in that sense, since i've know about that part of my identity much longer than being arospec lol

ah. this is very long but i have more i want to say... so im gonna keep talking lol. ren realizing he was cluster-b helped me realize & come to terms with my low empathy. i remember when first reading akechi suggest ren get himself checked for sociopathy i was a bit skeptical bc i worried it'd be just edgy stuff, but i'd been trusting your writing & decisions so i decided to be optimistic & i rlly liked how you handled it, and, again, it helped me come to terms with the parts of me that also wouldn't be seen favourably by some of these ppl who insist they're mental health advocates lol

also, i rlly like akesumi so when sumi realized he was munin i was giddy. her own smile about it made me happy too.... oh this makes me remember the scene of futaba finding out ren is her online friend too gods such good scenes!!!! and finding the palace keywords. which made me remember the bad ending chapter in maruki's reality which i only managed to read on my 3rd read of the fic & then was immediately invested into too.....

anyway, what i want to say is, thank you so much for writing atott. it is almost constantly running through the like, background of my thoughts, and the story has been very important & dear to me. i hope you know it is genuinely engraved within me at this point. i love it so much. ♡

GOSH what a beautiful thing to come back to ;3; thank you so so much for your kind words and for trusting me as well dsfkjhsdfjk as someone who is cluster b AND on the a-spec merrygoround, I'm glad my handling of the topics have been great for you ;3; thank you for telling me all that you love about the fic ;3; hoping to get an update soon for Goro's birthday <3

Again, any and all love for Ren's palace makes me giddy since it is by far the aspect of the fic that took the longest to plan ;3; and there's no such thing as "too long" comments or asks for me by the way please know this is very sweet to read, i hope you have a great day! and look forward to people having a hashtagbadtime next chapter sdkjfhjkf

[kingsofneon]

tagged by @xamaxenta

amazing to make fun of xam's fic titles but also be incomprehensible lol (i normally just access them via links lol)

RULES: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! then tag as many people as you have

31-ish kinktober reqs

45 general writing reqs

5 writing trades or smth

Maracebo + exhibitionism 

Marco/ace + loving bdsm

Cobydrake + fake aphrodisiac 

Sabolucci hate fucking

boop le boop

kiss n tell

Play this my way

prince charming in your mind's eye

put on a show for me

teacher's pet

when you have teeth and claws (be prepared to bleed for it)

dragonfucking au

cobyshanks fake aphrodisiac

Acebo + giving Marco nipple piercings

silvertongue!sabo

zoro/law/luffy demon law getting dicked down, dicking down?, his boys.

below the cut is literally just copy-pasted asks lolol

im sure i have more but i confess my docs are a messs so. god knows where anything else is. also soz but i dont want to tag anyone, if u want me to tag you just pretend i did cackles

everyone in the revo wants a piece of their chief

Haunted or Not, Here I Cum - Ace's porn reality show 

Fuck the Truth + Sabo asking why Ace came to watch

Acebo + giving Marco nipple piercings

Zolu + Zoro waking up hard and cuddly luffy doesn't help

+ cat!sanji Sanji + praise + Luffy getting Sanji a collar

servant tashigi and pirate princess nami / royalty/servant + library + angry

NamTash + FWB + Nightclub + quickie sex

NaVi + needy, clingy sex + dirty talk/spanking

Marco/Shanks + dirty talk/spanking

DraSabo + Sabo regaining his memories

Zolu + post workout sex in the crow's nest

MAS + wedding night

"Owner" Ace + MarSabo who are competitive and he has to teach them to be nice

Sabo/Ace + "Beg for it"

Marco's foot kink

Sabo asking Ace to tie him up

Ace + Marco or Sabo + "Don't come until I tell you to." + Ace has been teased all day but mar/sab like seeing him fucked up

Troublemaker Ace + Marco teaching him a lesson

Sabo waking up to Koala fucking him + ""aw nice of you to join us".

Saboala + bondage/muzzle/obedience bc Sabo fucks up

kinktober day #1 I'm just gonna be the 4th person who asks for Sabo being spanked until he begs 😂 (MAS, Marco does the spanking and Ace comforts him and encourages him to beg already)

may i ask for sabo with pussy and huge tits - double penetration and overstimulation, shanks and ace having their way with him, humiliating and fucking our pretty boy till he's a crying mess? pull his nipple piercings because fun? hmmm

somno with saboala cause sabo getting ridden within an inch of his life while sleeping sounds so good. just like koala being a bit of a shit and sabo getting all red faced and squirmy in his sleep, dreaming about being buried in warmth

marshanks oral/training mmmm. A little cockwarming vibe? Shanks "training" Marco to properly service him and just keeps Marco's mouth around his dick for ages. OH and if it's an exasperated "when will you learn?" moment, maybe also a ring gag? just, mouth open, warm hole, constantly available, good birdie

katalu, belly bulge. ., stretchy boys, but how does he make luffy actually *feel* it, seastone?? haki dick??? luffy being so used to his stretchiness that he's completely caught off-guard and punched out by getting stuffed like this *~*

NAMI/CONIS CHASTITY??? i'm imagining very bad girl/good girl temptation vibes, Conis kind of desperate to give it up but Nami playing it slick and cooing about how she knows the importance of chastity to Conis, so don't worry about it, you can sit this one out while I have all the fun....

forced to beg with sabo -////- pretty please. and koala?

ZoLu, exhibitionism: Luffy just can’t stay quiet so the whole crew can hear them fucking.

Zoro is amazed that Luffy can fit all three of his sabers.(It’s most probably been done before, but I haven’t read it so far!)

ZoLu Orgasm denial and Luffy is the one being denied~ Zoro being soft and horny because Luffy is someone that not even the world can deny anything from, yet he hands over that control to Zoro freely and I just cant stop thinking bout these boys since your tweet >0<

CNC with marsab? where Marco is trying to make him submit and sabo is a mouthy brat, but Marco will have to fuck out the anger out of him. feat sabo begging to be let go and Marco won't, sabo tearing up and Marco complimenting him how pretty he looks. mm

“I think you need to be spanked.” marcosabo if u r ok with it and has inspiration <333

“I wanna fuck you hard, right up against the window.” “Damn, if I’d known how much you liked to be watched I would’ve invited them sooner.” “That’s right, put your chest against the window and spread your legs, arch your back, and beg me to fuck you.” Marco fucking Sabo and Ace walking into and joining please

“oh please continue on my lap.” or “beg for it.” (with Marco saying beg for it. embarrassed / ashamed ace?) 👌 👌 👌

sabo is spanked by marco after losing a bet 😏

but no really he has too much pride to back out and marco is all too happy to have him over his knees willingly, maybe make him bend over the table and bring out a paddle 🤤 his ass is red nd bruised and he has to wear a short skirt for the rest of the day

[luversgirl]

𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, part three

summary: two best friends evolve into something more but with more but with starting something more there is always a long road that leads to it

notes: 700 followers?????? wtf y’all are so mf amazing so here is a shitty chapter of longing love sorry for my terrible writing it’s a gift ❤️😘

warnings: smoking (cigarettes ) & death ( IM PLAYING )

liked by jonathandaviss, laylamitchell & 6,389 others

madelyncline: rip layla 🕊

tagged: laylamitchell, drewstarkey

username1: rip layla

username2: drew: 😊💕 layla: 🪦😵

hichasestokes: she will be missed

username3: rafes kill count be two now

username4: get married already omg

jonathandavissoffical: so im late to breakfast on tim and lays dead???

username5: lmaooooo jonathan

laylamitchell: this is homophobic

↳ drewstarkey: STOP SAYING THAT TO PEOPLE

“oh my god why are you so heavy!” layla exclaimed as she moved to sit beside drew on one of the patio couches as they shared a cigarette.

“don’t you bodyshame me” he joked as he laughed m as he looked at her.

“shut up” the girl laughed as she leaned into drew as he wrapped an arm around her and exhaled the breath of smoke.

“what time is our flight?” layla asked seeing as they were leaving tomorrow for the barbados to continue shooting season two.

“around 9” he awnsered taking the cigarette from layla and inhaling the burning tabaco.

“i’ll wake up up then, since you never get up for you’re alarm” the girl laughed taking the cigarette back and they both chuckled.

“hey what happened with that guy you met” drew suddenly blurted the one question he was trying to keep at bay due to his jealousy he liked to call ‘being protective’.

“he was too boring, he never really got me… you know” layla sighed taking a breath of the cigarette.

“yeah… yeah i get you” drew sighed looking down at the girl in his arm the he wanted to be his more then she could ever know.

liked by anguscloud, madelyncline & 7,479 others

laylamitchell: here's a throw back from s1 since i just realized it’s thursday

tagged: obx, drewstarkey

username1: aww

username2: pls not layla just realizing it's thursday

↳ laylamitchell: DONT BULLY ME

tomholland: what.….. what day did u think it was?? l

↳ layladowney: …. sunday

↳ rudeth: don’t blame her i thought it was monday

username3: layla and rudy lmaooooo

austinnorth55: season one rafe will always have a special place in our hearts

↳ layladowney: rip season one rate you were one pre-psycho greasy rat hair bitch

↳ drewstarkey: wtf???

username4: bahahaha pls layla

jonathandavissoffical: but now we got s2 rafe

andddddd he pretty fine

↳ laylamitchell: mhmmm

username5: IM SO EXCITED FOR S2

username6: pls reject me so I can move on

drewstarkey: he gonna be WILDIN this season

↳ layladowney: yes sir

username7: P4LLL

jonasjpate: GO TO SLEEP

↳ layladowney: yes mom

↳ madelyncline: sorry mom

↳ drewstarkey: my bad mom

↳rudeth: apologies mother

↳ madisonbalieybabe: yes mother

↳ hichasestokes: soz ma

↳ jonathandavissoffical: yes mom

username7: i live for this cast

taglist: @planetflos @domfikesgf @euthoricspidey @rafecameronswhore @pankowfruitsnacks @joeystarkey @writingsbehaviour

[shhhhyoursister]

sdkfjgsdf ive been TAGGED

i was tagged by @pink-unicorns-love-cookies (ily) and im gonna ANSWER NOW

a// age: 20!!

b// birthplace: long island, new york!!! (not gettin more speciic soz)

c// current time: 5:40pm!!!

d// drink you last had: omg i think water?? love that for me

e// easiest person to talk to: im gonna say my bff gabe (not mentioning them they dont know i write fics lol) and the entire dod (esp harri and yon i love you both so much)

f// favorite songs: too many!! the songs ive been singin a lot lately though are norwegian wood by the beatles, i dont trust u anymore by left at london, truth hurts by lizzo, the good side by troye sivan, askhas i could go on for hours

g// grossest memory: hm......definitely when a big fly landed on my glasses and i smacked it and 1. hurt myself and 2. smashed the bug all over the lens and couldnt see through the bug guts sldfhsl

h// horror yes or no: it really depends?? cause im such an anxious person but also i like horror?? i cant watch horror things a lot but im also interested

i// in love: god i wish, no im very single and lonely somebody pls send a boy in my direction

j// jealous of people: yeah this is one of my many bad traits im a v jealous person :/// 

k// kids of your own someday: YES i love babies and kids i cant wait to have my own lil crew but.....far in the future

l// love at first sight or should i walk by again: idk if i believe in love at first sight really like its a cute trope but in real life?? nah

m// middle name: joseph!!! after my grandpa!! tbh i love it when people call me noah joseph it makes me so happy

n// number of siblings: 2!!!! ive got a brother and a sister

o// one wish: rn honestly??? a boyfriend and to have less anxiety sdfsdf

p// person you last called: my mom <3

q// question you always get asked: “omg are you a boy or a girl??????” guys im NEITHER techincally but also a boy ya know gender is weird

r// random fact about you: uhuhhhuhuh.....im baby??? but for real uuhhh....ive got lots of freckles and beauty marks?? like all over me its wild

s// song you last sang: i dont trust u anymore by left at london its SO GOOD

t// time you woke up: technically around like 6am????

u// underwear color: omg i guess this is another random fact i almsot never wear underwear im awful dfsdfsdf

v// vacation destination: ITALY i have some fam that moved there and i love the food and architecture so i really wanna go and just die from pasta consumption

w// worst habit: i crack every single join in my body and im not exaggerating, like to an obnoxious degree cause now i have to cause i dont i get awful joint pain its so bad 

x// x-ray: omg i sprained my ankle after a fight with my sister while on vacation in portland and then went on a 2 mile hike through the mountains but didnt notice the pain cause i had eaten a strong edible right before we left whoops

y// your fave food: oh NO ive most recently only been wanting to eat indian food idk if that coutns sdfsdf

z// zodiac sign: scorpio sun/pisces moon!!!!!!

sajdfjsdf omg this was fun, i tag......any member of the dod that hasnt been tagged yet whoops!!!!!!!!

[1loer]

@slashuz tagged me in this stupid bitch ass post so i guess i’ll do it 🙄

🔪3 Ships

>Kiibo/Miu/Kokichi Brot3 supremacy.

Little bastards. Kiibo is the nice boy being corrupted and dragged into shenanigans by these monsterous little shitbags. Ultimate sibling dynamic. I think about them always.

>Mari/Hero

Replaying Omori got me right in my feels. Maybe heteros do have rights. Im so soft and so upset and so everything. Oh my god . Lay me to rest. Ultimate malewife girlboss pairing

> LeaIsa honorable mention

My life has been destroyed and they are all that sit in the ruins. The next time they’re on screen together i will not be held responsible for my actions.

> Thiefshipping double honorable mention

Screw the rules i have money fuck the system im adding thiefshipping too bc im thinking about them so much again bc a new ygotas episode came out. Both abridged and regular flavours of this ship are peak. True OTP shit. Been here since 2014 and show no signs of leaving.

💣Last Song

My heart is the worst kind of weapon - Fall Out Boy.

Pete Wentz. How tf does he do that. How. The lyric “You wouldnt know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat” makes me die from hysteria.

🪓Last Movie

Bobs Burgers Movie! With slashuz. But its my fault they got it wrong bc i miss understood the q when they asked me. My bad bro. It was cute and funny v. Nice time.

🪦Currently Watching

Um. I do not watch things JWKJSJAJS. Im boring af and do nothing in my spare time soz im 2 dimensional my writers arent experienced. Im currently reading Choke by Chuck Palahniuk??? And the last thing I watched was Heartstopper if those count as answers (and yes heartstopper made me so happy i got violent and accidentally punched my dog in my euphoria sNDKAJjsjs)

🪤Currently playing

Just finished my third playthru of Omori last night and cried all over again ㅠㅠㅠㅠ Omori is so good pls play it its so important . Other than that I started playing Devil May Cry too recently so gotta get back on that!!!!!!!! Excited to experience the madness if i ever acc continue playing it’’’’

Not taggin no bitch but if u see this and wanna do it u can use me and we can be friends <333

[irl]

i was gonna nix the trauma tonight cos i didnt feel like it but ig im in a silly goofy mood cos here we are anyway 🤪

anyway like truly heed the tw cos idk this ine might get graphic idk man ill try to remember to tag for it but dam dude it may jus go unt lol soz. silly goofy mood 🥴

***trauma dumping

like. ik that all the shit today couldve been prevented if i just. blocked her number. she doesnt have any way to contact me, she doesnt use social media. but i cant

i dont know why i really dont. is it masochism? do i secretly like it every time she texts? do i enjoy the adrenaline rush? i dont fucking know. i feel afraid of her. im not constantly afraid. yea she still affects my daily life but like, shes not On My Mind yknow. but god

when i went to florida last december i was constantly shitting bricks. afraid that she was alrwady back. cos i knew she was supposed to be going back. i was so afraid id see her. till i found oht the night before i left that she still was in missouri. i felt so much relief. wxcept it still wasnt all gone, the fear and anxiety. some small part of me kept buzzing the rest of the night and the next day that id see her, that shed see me. that shed sink her claws in me again and ibwouldnt be able to get away this time

when i told her i was planning on leaving she started. really financially abusing me. more than she already had. i tried to get a part time job that i ended up also being able to get her one too. we were just sign holders. i got to watch netflix for six hours and get paid 25$ an hour for it. it wasnt bad.

every time i got paid shed ask for money and she also stopped paying for gas and for food. she demanded half of my check for “rent” or whatever despite the original “agreement” that she got me under was that id live rent free.

when i got my tax return which was around $700, she took all of it, wasting most of my money on uber eats and shit. saying she was going to pay me back but never did and would get mad if i tried to stand up to it.

my stimulus check went the same way, except i was able to spend a little of that on myself before she decided she wanted jt all and i couldnt even put anything towards savings to leave.

looking back. it shouldve been obvious. i was mad abt it yea but i didnt see it as a form of financial abuse. she had me wearing very thick rose colored glasses

she had me constantly high. if not constantly than as often as she could. she had me drive while i was high guilting me w the fact she couldnt drive, period. she would smoke out of a bong while u was driving past police officers on purpose for the thrill. i hadnt rly ever smoked much because of her

she found me hollowed out by my ex who had taken almost everything from me, including all sense of self. i wasnt allowed to have a self outside of him. he disapproved of everything i did if he didnt like it. im sure i did shit that really fucked him up too tho. i have no idea but like. this was my severely untreated and inflated bpd time. i has no coping methods and so while i was suseptible to trauma and manipulation or whateva i was also like. a horrible person lmao. idk much abt that me cos yknow 🥴amnesia🥴 lol but what i do remember, i dont like.

but i still got fucked up by him. she found me a couple months after he broke up with me and i was left just a completely hollow husk of a person with nothing driving me.

id never rly smoked weed much tbh. i lived in colorado before and after The Great Legalization and i only smoked weed once then. i got crossfaded with a group of friends and a handle of fireball then we went and watched the first deadpool movie in theaters lol

the second

HOL D ON LMAO INTERMISSION COS I GENUINELY WANT TO FUCKING CRITY NOW LMAO LMAO LAMON AMLMAO FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK C UVJ FUCK I TOLD MY FRIEND ABT A SLEIGH BELLS CONCERT AND ASKED HER IF WE COULD GO TOGTHER AND SHE SAID LET ME THINK ABOUT IT AND SHE KNOWS SLEIGH BELLS IS MY FAVORITE FUCKING BAND AND I

SHE JUST TEXTED ME LMAO LMAO LMAO SHE ASKED ME FOR THE DATES AGAIN AND I WAS LIKE OHOHO? serves me right for hoping for smth dependent on someone not me. i shouldve learned this fhckinnglesson forever ago LOLOL every time i get hope in something that depends on someone else its alwahs fucking. crhshed. i dont hope for things dependent on other people unless its literally guaranteed like my moms guilt money lol. whatever. its fine “sorry you. cant come wjth me and [redacted] we are going with family frowny face emoji”. like. okay

im not mad at her. genuinely i hope she has fun. but fuck dide. u couldntve fucming. googled it. yourself and then simply not told me ur plans and be like soz boo cant make it. i wouldve rather the fucking. lie. i let my hopes get up. i didnt take anything out on her ofc like id never do that cos like. Yeah. Im Upset. Yeah. Im Angry. but i know im mostly just angry at the situation, not exactly at her. yeah i wouldve apprecisted more tact bht like. at the end of the day its fine. i probably wouldntve been able to afford it

i loved sleigh bells since i was like. a freshman or sophomore. i found them with young legends on some wally west playlist on 8tracks. i was like hm interesting. then somewhere i heard crown on the ground abd my brain started to brr. after that it was a rabbit hole and now ive been to like. three sleigh bells concerts and my favorite most cherished memory ever is from a sleigh bells concert and ibalso got the setlist from that same concert and ive got all but their latest two albums on cd and vinyl and

at my second concert, we were in a basement bar show in aspen colorado. the opening act was tunde olaniran. id never seen or heard him berore. but oh my god it was love at first sight. this man is Drop Dead Gorgeous. he has the voice of an angel. he deserves the world. and then sleigh bells

god dereks guitar is so harsh and whiney but so fucking powerful and rhythmic. i love his guitar i love his hands

alexis. alexis krauss is my One. i would do anything she asked. shes. god. i was up against the stage, there were no barriers. i was singing and dancing along to every song she sang with all of my energy all of my might just thouroughly experiencing the night

the first time id seen sleigh bells i did so at a festival and i got high for the second time bcos some dude wire wrapping crystal at a booth offered me some hits off of his blunt lol. and so i spent the whole First Time Seeing My Favorite Band And The Whole Reason I Came To Riot Fest high off of my ass and behind my phone videoing and taking pictures. i remember basically none of it lmao

exceptnfor jonas but hes a topic for later. dw hes cool.

so i decided i was going to do my damndest to remember this concert and i wasnt gonna use my phone at all. and that was the Correct choice. sure i dont remember it all, this is deep in the times that i Dont Remember but ive clung to this memory with gnashing teeth and claws.

they were performing minnie from their album bitter rivals. during one of the “minnie minnie, go count your pennies” lines alexis got right up to my face, stooping down close. just far enough for the microphone to be comfortable. her hair cascading around us. for just a split moment, it was just me and her in the world. no one else mattered.

she ripped back up when the line was over and i remember once she got to “window pain, the pain!” i did a deep drop, just fully going feral for a moment.

it was the best concert of my life. she handed me the set list at the end.

anyway i love sleigh bells hi

intermission over ig lmao

that also, incidentally, included the second time i got high so there u go. the third was with my ex fiances uncle. kinda boring. then i met tisa when i moved to florida and after we broke up but still lived together. she also offered me coke once but i declined her lmao. one of the hard stop drugs

after that it was all the hippie. she very quickly (like within a couple weeks knowing her) put in the dynamic of “big sister little brother” and started placing herself in a caretaker role regardless of what i said. after a bit i relented and let it happen. and she started getting me high. very quickly, cos i was still untreated unregulated bpd bitch, the unhealthy dynamic was solidified and the infatuation and fixation began because i was very vulnerable and she was placing herself in the role of protector cause thats what i craved.

she apparently did this a few times before. i saw the end of her previous one with a woman named sarah. she talked about a couple others. i dont remember them clearly.

she talked about herself a lot. she trauma dumped constantly. and i was just expected to listen. she told me horrible horrible things thatd apparently happened to her. i still cant tell if she was telling the truth. and id just have to listen to it.

if it was true she had a habit of bringing it her way it felt like. it might get graphic soon

animal gore hg stuff idk um doubt anyones reading anywau im just gonna write

one time her sons cat got out. this was at the first place we lived with the trailer. her sons cat got out. or maybe it happened in the trailer. i. we found him. i dont know. i only just. unlocked this memory tonight. but god it was so awful and disgusting.

somehow he got a gnarly cut on one of his paws. and cats use a litter box and all. and she never cleaned it. and it got infected so a gnarly cut turned into a necrotic painful oozing wound.

i dont even know how it happened. or how long hed been like that. he was her cat and he rarely ever came around to me anyway.

she pissed away $15k on bullshit. so much so that upon finding this she decided she couldnt afford a vet. shed deal with it herself. with my assistance ofc cos she couldnt do it alone.

my task was to hold this poor cat still, wrapped tight in a blanket to keep him from hurting us or himself. as she cut away at his paw pad with a pair of cuticle scissors.

im going to vomit

there was so much blood. he was in so much pain. the wound was so bad. the blood was so dark. then it was bright. i dont know why. i didnt expect him to have bright red blood. the only time you see an animals blood is dried dark rust on pavement. but here he was. bleeding like a human. bright red

its teally hard. walking through this memory. i have a migraine building. im fighting twars. this is physically painful. i

it took so long. i felt like we were there for hours. we were probably only there for 30 minutes to an hour. but that long is infinity when youre watching this. she poured something on his foot. it was supposed to steralize it. it was some dark liquid that stained his white foot bright yellow. she wrapped his foot in gauze and put a sock on it. every few days unwrapping to go at the foot again a little bit. squeezing more and more awful puss shit out.

eventually it healed. she decided shed do it herself. with my help of course bcos how could she ever do this alone

i guess im done for now. im physically shaking. im out of weed. its almost midnight and i open tomorrow. and most importantly, my phones dying. the stars aligned i should sleep

i wish she would forget about me so i could forget about her

[sernooblington]

Fairy Tail

So i am currently re-watching Fairy tail, i know its a fan-service heavy anime but i like its plot....as well as its PLOT.

When i like an anime i tend to try to choose and think about points that would make an interesting fan-fiction. For Fairy Tail most (if not all of the "fan-fic AU points" are around Lucy Heartfilia.

Love or hate her you cant argue that she is a catalyst of plot development for the Fairy Tail guild. If she didn't meet Natsu at....at....that fishing town (go easy on me i have had a few sleeps since episode 1)  Then Natsu would still just run around chasing rumors instead of going on a bunch of jobs, remember Natsu hasn't really got a major need for money other than food, where as in cannon its mainly Lucy's need for rent money that sparks the teams need for a mission.

So the first Fan-Fic AU point is simple, what if Natsu and Lucy didn't meet at Hargeon (see i can Google). Just from this point you can go down so many other routes, mainly because there needs to be a reason, one of them didn't make it to the town that day, why? 

Maybe Natsu didn't make it off the train due to his sickness, maybe the guy who told him about the salamander rumour waited an extra day?

Lucy is a bit harder to delay as i belive she was on her way to Fairy tail from the start, so unless she took some time for some sightseeing  you'd have to use some whim or luck thing to delay her.

Lets go down the Natsu doesn't go route, Lucy first meets the fake salamander and falls under the spell, this time without Natsu to snap her out of it at the time she is just mentally aware that something is off and tries to fight the spell, she spots the ring causing the charm and recognises it, breaking the spell's hold on her. Dis-heartened that a fairy Tail wizard would use those things she walks away.

Fake salamander finds Lucy at the same bench and the scene plays out in one 2 ways, she either does goes with him on his party boat like in cannon, or she flat out says no and leaves him.

Knowing that if she goes to fairy tail and mentions what happened he would be found out Fake sally would knock Lucy out and keep her pacified either with magic or drugs.  either way with Natsu not there to get angry and smash things Lucy gets kidnapped and taken to the other country along with the other girls.

As Lucy's keys were knocked away from her into the ocean there is a chance they would be fished up at some point, maybe a sea creature ate them or picked them up but eventually the shopkeeper that Lucy used her...charms to get discount see the keys and recognises who they belonged to, he posts a job with the local Magic Guild that just so happened to be Fairy Tail!

With his many business connections Jude Heartfilia (Lucy's Dad) catches wind of this and adds a much higher reward for her return. Due to a new wave of bills from the beloved magic council the master sends a team out to find out as much as possible about the job while he does to the Magic summit thing. After which he would make a decision on who should take the job.

Natsu seeing that its a Father looking for their child heads out before the master returns as he feels a personal connection to the job. 

With no Lucy to join the team and Natsu missing when Erza returns she sends grey and Loke to bring him back, Grey volunteers to bring him by beating him up, and Loke joins him, outwardly saying its to help a fellow guild member but inwardly he is concerned about the keys (i am imagining that the shopkeeper would have taken a photo of the keys for the flyer, this in turn would cause Loke to worry as his old friends could be mistreated if anyone picked up the keys, or If this Lucy wasn't kind to them). Erza meanwhile would head towards the Guild Master's summit, (perhaps with a couple of other member's). With no Lucy and Virgo there Erza and whoever tagged along are trapped inside the wind spell.

With the masters Makarov either uses his magic words...or magic to defeat the bad guys before the flute could be played. (i refuse to accept the the Guild Masters wouldn't be able to do anything against the thing).

Makarov frees Erza's team from the wind magic where she tells him about Natsu, Grey and Loke. The master explains the job and asks Erza to go and get all three of them to join her and find the missing Girl. (due to the endless possibilities and possible rumours of slave trade he would made it an S class quest i believe, and in turn would have turned to his only sane(ish) s-class wizard), after giving her a copy of the Job details (he shared the job with the other guilds) Erza heads to the port.

I recon that Blue Pegasus would join Fairy Tail in the quest as the play-boy trio would do anything to help a woman i need. Along with Ichya (the short guy who has parfum!) After some high jinks, fights and happenings Erza agrees to work with them  when they Meet in Hargeon.

Im gunna stop there because i didn't plan on this being this long, but i hope you see what i mean when I Talk about AU points, once you have them they write themselves in a way.  The trick is trying to make it so that the changes in the characters happen naturally. Not 'just cause',for example: Lucy decided to train and get stronger as she was tired of being weak.

No, what made her think that throughout the anime we saw that the was aware that she wasn't the best fighter, so what made her want to change, and how did her spirits respond to her desire?

Another thing that bothers me is the zodiac spirits, they are supposedly rare and powerful...but they really aren't that strong,  i mean cancer is a hair dresser....te fek? Another possible fan fic is what if the spirits changed with the times? At one point they were practically Gods but as times moved on and wars stopped they didn't need war spirits, cancer focused on his hobby of fashion and hair dressing, Virgo on maid...things... Its frustrating to see them so weak.

 Yes i know that they are only as strong as the person who summons them but there is no real proof of that, like in the Grand magic games( GMG i will call it) Lucy is able to open two gates at once, it would be cool to see her have to make a choice, either two sprit's at normal power level, or one spirit powered up. Similar to how when Issei  from Highschool DXD ( I know more Plot with PLOT) had to choose when he powered up between either normal boosted gear or balance breaker. He couldn't just activate it anymore. 

But year all that was from one simple change, Natsu not turning up, i like coming up with ideas like this so i may post some more, if anyone wants to make a fan  fic with this idea or any other ideas i may put forward please do, just make sure you give some small credit  and let me know the link.

 Buh bye!

PS: this was supposed to be my opionon on fairy tail and the AU points but the inner writer wannabe took over and this happened soz!

[motherofkittens94]

tagged by @whiteladyofrohann 

Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Last;

1. Drink: tea 2. Phone call: My dad  3. Text message: im on the train now -  

4. Song you listened to: arsonists lullaby hozier 

5. Time you cried: like proper cried? not like just a tear or two ? i think a few weeks a go when i thought too much about andrew ...dont judge me * runs away* 

6. Dated someone twice?:  like dated broken up and then dated again? no  or gone on more than one date with the same person? ...also no  ive had a few disastrous  first dates but never made it the second one lol 

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No 8. Been cheated on: No 9. Lost someone special: Yes 10. Been depressed: apparently i am now oh well cest la vie  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up:  drunk yes with ive never been sick from alcohol 

Fave colours;

12. pink 13. Blue 14.  purple

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: with academia  yea  17. Laughed until you cried: Yes,  18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes 19. Met someone who changed you: Yes 20. Found out who your friends are: Yes 21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: no 

General;

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: almost all of them  23. Do you have any pets: i had a kitty who loved dearly but sadly he passed in October 

24. Do you want to change your name: No  25. What did you do for your last birthday: got real drunk in the student pub innit 

26. What time did you wake up today:  honestly ?*deep sigh* noon *horn of shame* and i had to be in work at 1 so i had to throw clothes on and grab a brunch and run for it thank god they didnt put me on morning  27. What were you doing at midnight last night: thinking about going bed but for some reason i didnt even though i wasnt really doing anything else 

28. What is something you cant wait for: im going to dodie live again i love her  30. What are you listening to right now: footloose  31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: oh  i know many many toms 

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: short people jokes and jokes in general about my disabilities .. which btw my height is a part of.. it just isnt funny... unless i make them hah ...but then thats a  much  different thing to laugh at yourself than to have other people do it  and sometimes its not even a joke its someone blatantly mocking the way you walk / run  in your view than laughing when they see you noticed and just that sucks ? like couldnt you at least wait for me to go first or laugh when you need help to reach things off shelves and stuff  and the fact that sometimes you gotta make those jokes yourself just so no one else can soz tmi but god that hacks me off 

33. Most visited website: Youtube? 34. Hair colour: Blonde 35. Long or short hair: my hair? short  its just below my jaw atm  36. Do you have a crush on someone: only actors 

37. What do you like about yourself:  determination kindness  and i have a good memory 

38. Want any piercings?: No 39. Blood type:  idk it  40. Nicknames: beth  bethie  41. Relationship status: Single 42. Zodiac: Sagittarius  43. Pronouns: She/her 44. Fave tv shows: Game of Thrones, braodchurch penny dreadful doctor who and im enjoying the punisher atm also i have an on / off relationship with holby city and casualty and all those hospital dramas tbh 

45. Tattoos: None ...yet... 46. Right or left handed: Right 47. Ever had surgery: yes three on the leg once when i hurt my skull pretty bad  i also broke my arm but  that probably doesnt count cause i dont think i had surgery on it ? i cant quite remember it had three different casts tho  48. Piercings: just standard ears  49. Sport: no thanks lol my bug sis is trying to get into running he like ill make you feel better we can do fun runs together  im like .. nope ... i think find fun run is an oxymoron sis 

50. Vacation: i want to go to Australia or America but will probaly end up just in Devon again  

51. Trainers: standard ones idk 

More general;

52. Eating: pancakes 

53. Drinking: tea  54. I’m about to watch: nothing atm 

55. Waiting for:   right now ? nothing really bed i guess? 56. Want: to go shopping 

57. Get married: id like to  someday 

58. Career: i have even less idea about that  now then i used to idk a writer i could do that maybe 

Which is better;

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs 

60. Lips or eye: Eyes 61. Shorter or taller:  Taller nobody is shorter than me -

62. Older or younger:  than me? hmm maybe older but not too much older or the same age would be better 

63. Nice arms or stomach: arms  64. Hookup or relationship: Relationship 65. Troublemaker or hesitant: Troublemaker

Have you ever;

66. Kissed a stranger: no

67. Drank hard liquor: yes  68. Lost glasses: yes

69. Turned someone down: Yes 70. Sex on first date: No 71. Broken someones heart: i dont think so  im 90 % sure people i turned down did it for jokes i mean  know for sure one was a joke the others probably were too assholes 72. Had your heart broken: Yes 73. Been arrested: No 74. Cried when someone died: Yes 75. Fallen for a friend: yes 

Do you believe in;

76. Yourself: im trying to

77. Miracles: yes 

78. Love at first sight: depends

79. Santa claus:  i used to haha  80. Kiss on a first date: i havent so far but my dates up to now have all been sucky so if i had a really nice one  maybe

81. Angels: yes 

Other;

82. Best friend’s name: V 83. Eye colour: green 84. Fave movie: the aristocats 27 dresses 10 things i hate about you   85. Fave actor: alfie allen iwan rheon david tennant 

tagging @randomlut @gennalannisters @themanwithakeyisking @maddie-grove  @s0mewhereweaknessis0urstrength @anotherrandompersonsblog 

if you want to :) 

[the-casbah-way]

Here’s a Tag :3

I was tagged by @donttalktomewhenimreading thank u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ik this is so long but cba putting a read more in soz

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

im not tagging twenty bc fuck the police but i always tag the same ppl so just do it

THE LAST

1. drink: idk im in my room but i cant leave bc i have so much work to do and if i do i’ll get distracted pls send help ive forgotten what liquid is 


2. phone call: my pal big daddy dave 


3. text message: i think the same person 


4. song you listened to: no clue lmao 


5. time you cried: yesterday but a guy gave me a permanent marker to do eyeliner with so it didnt smudge but i only did a little bit bc i was scared but its all good bc it came off 


6. dated someone twice: i guess but idk what my life is


7. kissed someone and regretted it: YES lmaoooo

8. been cheated on: not that i know of lmao but probs

9. lost someone special: it’s my entire villain origin story so yes ?


10. been depressed: have you met me

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: who do you think i am  3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. PINK 13. yellow 14. idk man

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. made new friends: yea! fuck knows how tho!

16. fallen out of love: u avin a giggle

17. laughed until you cried: yea like every five seconds

18. found out someone was talking about you: yea but not in a bad way..im sure they have been tho lmao


19. met someone who changed you: big daddy pollitt

20. found out who your friends are: i already knew bc im woke

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: yea tryna work my way thru the lot feel

GENERAL

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like almost all of them

23. do you have any pets: i used to :(((((


24. do you want to change your name: kinda but i dont use it as much now so idm


25. what did you do for your last birthday: i genuinely cant remember but im sure it was wild

26. what time did you wake up: no clue probs bout 7/8 


27. what were you doing at midnight last night: praying of course


28. name something you can’t wait for: i could use this opportunity to make a really edgy joke but im not going 2 be that gal 

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like five seconds ago she threw a melon at me

31. what are you listening to right now: the sound of time running out god i will die in this place

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i had a dream i was on a train w tom jones can i count that thks

33. something that is getting on your nerves: literally everything woops


34. most visited website: idk 

35. hair colour: blonde boyz rule the world

36. long or short hair: BOY she long (i need 2 get it cut urgently its becoming an issue)

37. do you have a crush on someone: cringe lol

38. what do you like about yourself: next question lol

39. want any piercings: i was gonna get my seconds done but our school r being right crazy about it and sending ppl home who have more than one piercing lmaooo.....i also kinda want to get an eyebrow piercing bc my cousin has one and it looks killer but my doctor said i shouldnt get piercings bc of my skin/allergies and i ignored her and my ears were infected for a year lmaoo

40. blood type: idk i asked mabel but she didnt say

41. nickname: big bopper how many times do i have to tell you

42. relationship status: mentally dating james spader, irl repulsed by everyone

43. zodiac: aries

44. pronouns: big/bopper

45. favourite tv show: all of them! :) 

46. tattoos: none but i want one....but like....a rlly small one...a little star or anchor or sth cute...no biggie....but i wanted it on my ankle and we wear tights 2 school so they’lll see and kick me out and i need ma grades lmao

47. right or left handed: right bc im mainstream


48. surgery: WHAT ABOUT IT

49. piercings you have: just earrings

50. sport: im rlly sad bc the only sports im actually good at are tennis and badminton and kinda golf and football and the weather is too shit for most of that


51. vacation:what

52. pair of trainers: why do ppl call them trainers theyvee not trained you in anything don t give them credit for sth they havent done

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: pussy (insert laugh track)

54. drinking: i drink 2 forget but i always remember

55. i’m about to: nut

56. waiting for: a reason2 be ablive

57. want: A REASONT O BNE ABLIVE


58. get married: i love weddings and dresses and pretty things but like getting married?? no lmaoo fuck outta here 


59. career: i literally want to do everything

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: please do not touch me girl

61. lips or eyes: eyes but when u like someone then u look @ their lips youre like hey there

62. shorter or taller: taller
 i guess

63. older or younger: depends what we talking bout


64. nice arms or nice stomach: personality am i right ladies

65. hook up or relationship: nothing fills the void


66. troublemaker or hesitant: dont b hesitant its boring


HAVE YOU EVER

67. kissed a stranger: dk


68. drank hard liquor: NEVER GAIN


69. lost glasses/contact lenses: i lose them every day lmao


70. turned someone down: turn down for what

71. sex on the first date: ive only been on a date once i think...like a proper date...and no

72. broken someone’s heart: yes but its the price you got to pay for looking this fly


73. had your heart broken: i break it myself. in lots of mundane little ways. my dad taught me if you want something done right do it yourself 


74. been arrested: talk to my lawyer bitch

75. cried when someone died: yeaboy

76. fallen for a friend: idk i dont understand feelings at all and it scares me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

77. yourself: who he 


78. miracles: you sexy thang

79. love at first sight: no 

80. santa claus: why would u ask that he real

81. kiss on the first date: u do you


82. angels: i didnt til i saw steve buscemi

OTHER

83. current best friend’s name: idk i dont categorise my friends

84. eye colour: like bluey grey i think but idk i dont look into my own eyes

85. favourite movie: dont ask i’ll die

[nightandstarlight]

Demeter, Apollo, Ares, Centaur, Siren, Nymph, Agamemnon, Jason, Sun Chariot, Caduceus, Aegis, Golden Fleece, Olympus, Tartarus, Elysium, Ogygia, The Labyrinth? :3c

Asdfghjkdhslñ so many omfg why iLY ((I have to say tho i didnt really think about having to answer more than one of these at a time before i rbed the qs and since im on mobile and theres no way im gonna remember all of them im probsbly gonna do one first and then like edit this post to add the rest or something so it might take a while))

‡Demeter: do you have any pets?

>Unfortunately i dont my dad never wanted us to have any :// last time i had an actual pet living in my house i think it was when i was like 10 y/o or so and they were a couple of turtles who used to escape all the goddamn time like we would literally find them on the street trying to get away from our house even tho we had a enormous backyard and we treated them as well as we possibly could?? idk they prolly hated us so my parents mightve given them away i dont even remember,,, and thenn like two years ago i think i got a pet sheep called peter.. Peter the sheep was only around for a week tho and he wasnt even officially my pet but i loved him as if he were i still miss him and think about him often.. basically that summer when we went to visit my dads brother in misiones we took him with us from my dads farm ? (not really my dads farm but i dont wanna get too sidetracked here lmao) to my uncles farm for breeding or whatever so it was a solid 6-7 drive with him in the bed of our truck and me just starting at him and trying to get attention goD i never thought id care about a sheep that much anyway once we got to misiones we couldnt take him straight away to my uncles farm for whatever logistics reason i never asked about because all it meant was that he would have to stay in my uncles backyard for a couple of days and i would get to spend more time with him !! so thats what happened !! I took tons of pics and recorded him doing nothing and loved him from afar and then i was there when we dropped him off at my uncles farm.. and then i never saw him again.. the saddest part is that weeks later when we were all back home my uncled called my dad to let him know that Peter wasnt even fit for breeding bc rumour has it he had a third testicule lmao so he was technically useless rip peter the sheep ,,, aaaand now that i live alone i really wanna get like a cat or something but i never learned how to take care of anything so im scared i wont know how to if i have to do it all by myself

if i could add tags to this on mobile id apologize for talking so much about peter instead of just answering the question but i cant soz

‡Apollo: What kind of music are you into?

>alt/pop/rock/indie/pop punk,, i dont really like defining it by genres because who knows for sure what do they even mean anymore but the second best way i have to describe my music taste is ~basic white girl who thinks shes special~ and that makes me feel even weirder,, if you want i could try to make a playlist once im back in my apartment like next week or so lmk

‡Ares: whats a big pet peeve of yours?

>probably when people dont listen,, (u mean deaf people?? thats pretty fucked up dude) no lmao i mean people who pretend to listen but dont care about what you have to say or even worse when theyre so self absorbed that they dont even try to act like theyre paying attention and just straight up talk on top of you or interrup you constantly and not even bc they have something important to say but just because they can like whyy ohh or even worse when they do all that and then have the nerve get angry/offended if you dont pay enough attention to them??? Boyyy oh boy i hate that but i *cough love my parents i love themm

‡Centaur: Last book you read?

>all the bright places by jennifer niven,, didnt actually read it but i listened to the audiobook a week ago so i think that counts,, and if audiobooks dont count i read Evenfall by Santino Hassel back in march

‡Siren: Last song you listened to?

>((when i answered this (at 3:30am) i wasnt listening to anything but)) spotify says it was devil in me by halsey,, rn (13:40) im listening to alone by halsey

‡Nymph: Last dream you remember?

>i cant remember any recent ones atm but a couple of weeks ago i dreamt i was dating veronica from riverdale?? I probably posted something on here about that and it was so sweeett other than that idk maybe something about my classmates i see some of them pretty often in my dreams and theyre usually really nice cause i almost never remember any bad dreams/nightmares

‡Agamemnon: whats an achievement that youre proud of?

>i cant think of anything rn maybe getting into uni or coming out to my mom

‡Jason: have you ever travelled abroad?

>nope,, the closest i was to leaving the country was in 2014 when i was gonna go with my english teacher and class to nyc i got my papers and everything ready but then everyone started to come up with reasons why they couldnt go so i was gonna have to go completly alone/with friends of my teacher and their students which i didnt know at all so i got scared and decided not to 3 i know (hope) i’ll get another chance to go tho

‡Sun Chariot: whats your favorite mythological creature

>umm maybe sirens or gorgons im not 100%sure

‡Caduceus: whats your favorite color

>too many for different purposes but mostly purple?

‡Aegis: whats your favorite book or series?

>all for the game by nora sakavic atm

‡Golden Fleece: whats your favorite animal?

>ive loved dolphins since i was a kid but felines are too perfect in too many ways they make me weak at the knees

‡Olympus: describe your dream job

>so i know id looove to have an office job really stable and monotonous and everything like translating books but i also know that im terrified of getting stuck? And i feel like a job like that doesnt really leave much room to grow professionally so even if at the time im happy with just doing that the idea of looking back one day and realizing i sat at a desk and did the same thing for 20 years is not the best (which is ironic bc im wasting my youth ™ doing exsclty that for free basically but yea idk ) Dream job as in actually ~dream~ job would have to be like whatever people did on that show extreme makeover home edition?? I used to be obsessed with that show when i was a kid and i still think its a great idea even if its not as extra and over the top like that was id love to help people that way i could also make this longer but its lowkey too personal

‡Tartarus: Whats a short term goal you hope to achieve?

>going back to therapy and not quitting this time? making friends? Id say improving myself as a person but i feel like thats more of a long term goal but not hating myself rn would be nice,, also something tangible would have to be passing my calc II final that i shouldve taken a year ago and didnt cause i got scared + too depressed to study properly lmaao

‡Elysium: if you could have a superpower, what would it be?

>telekinesis and or being able to teletransport sounds cool

‡Ogygia: describe your dream husband/wife/life partner?

>patient, better at comunication than i am, respectful but that should be obvious, loves puns and bad/dad jokes, loves me? Also loves kids and is okay with adopting cause i definitely wanna adopt childrepn someday

‡The Labyrinth: have you ever died and came back as a vampire?

>not sure if im allowed to talk about this but i bet no one is gonna read all this cause its wayy too long lmao also i dont care anyway so yes, yes i have

half a day later im done!!! i know its a lot I hope its not too boring tho lmao

[kingsofneon]

faq

Ships that aren’t my jam thnx

cora//law

nami//any male chara

robin//luffy / zoro / sanj (franky and brook and nams are free game for robin ships, as are non-strawhats)

franky//any strawhat (except robin)

chopper or carrot//anyone. 

not a big fan of law//lu or zo//san (but i love zolulaw and zolusan lmfao so. hilariously the turning point is zoro in zolulaw and lu in zolusan lmao)

zo//lu will basically always be heavily implied sex-neu luf and i love it very much

not a big fan of age difference prompts (ie. stuff that heavily focuses on experience & lack thereof / daddy kink esque stuff. teacher student got me like 😬)

[that being said I lowkey rlly like dof//lu and croco//lu lmfao]

I got asked abt smoker//tashigi and mihawk//perona and I think I could maybe do smoker/tash but I don't vibe with hawk/perona sorz

Don't talk to me abt deu//ace, bad experience being harassed by fans ✌️ there r one person who can ask me for them and he knows who he is lolol

Bad Things

mpreg (ovipos is fine ‘cause there’s a level of magic/no pregnancy and tentacle/slime monsters are Good Shit)

minor//adult (🤢), and espec, like, rlly bad/blatant power differences like teacher/student (you get one warning and then ill fucking block you. t/s is a big no-go, it squicks me super bad)

different if it’s in a scene or roleplay, but like, you better specify. You get ONE. WARNING. 🔪

nottttt a big fan of dd//lg. Yandere is different but i write it more possessive then obsessive/i think ace is into the fact that sabo's a bit of a freak 😂

non-con/dub-con is more complicated it’s basically at my own Discretion. I do like cnc but it gets tagged, so if you don’t like it, block the tags. dub-con is only bc in some scenes ((like and the heat is burning wild or a cold and sleeping beauty)) it might be more implied/take a while to be specific. Idk? tags will be noncon / dub con / cnc (consensual nonconsent) depending on the vibes.

if i see anyone referring to anything as sin i swear i’ll just delete the ask

same goes for uke//seme//fujoshi//yaoi [dont do it.] [I dont like it.] [I think defining ur ships by who bottoms is kinda dumb + i like introspection and character driven porn so it doesnt pass my vibe check]

im not writing anymore ‘loss of virginity’. especially not for m/m ships. y’all have lost your privileges. Femships have more leeway bc it's cute and also. I just don't like woobifying which is like, what seems to be the Goal of virginity kink, idk. 0/10

Good Things

mas

praise kink

cnc 😳 sowwy

nam//tash or robin//koala

overstimulation

prompts w/ more info rather than just “bondage + ship”

i said no mpreg but consentacles and ovipos is fine

THIS 👏 IS ���A 👏 KINK 👏 BLOG (for god’s sake take pity on me and send kinks, not just requests for x and y having sex.)

these [1 2 3 4] were my favourite type of asks to answer. i want to show what i mean when i say i like specificity - not that they have to be every-detail specific, but that they prompt a scenario to headcanon/write for. that’s the Good Kush

General Notes

Specify ships etc. in your ask ✌ otherwise i write whatever i want atm lol and it'll probably be mas, but it also makes it helpful to me

no but legit tho specifying ur ships gets rid of a lot of the anxiety i feel abt doing reqs

also if you do “sabo is spanked by marco after losing a bet” you’re more likely to get a req than if you just do “sabo+spanking” or smth like that

Femslash is fucking pathetic and apparently noone will even req it so now im gonna just take fucking reqs and make em femslash if i want ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i only rlly write what i have inspo for lmao so if i dont get ur req done soz.

Feel free to ask abt any aus whenever. i. Miss interacting w/ ppl 🥲

[alistaircousland]

Tagged by @arya4queen the kindest lil bb I would tag people but,,, u kno,,, 

5 things you’d find in my bag:

wet wipes, fam you need wet wipes. 

my headset

lip balm because my lips are honestly permanently dehydrated hh

my credit card because i spend way to much money on useless shit

uhhh my cellphone?

5 things you’d find in my bedroom:

a shitstorm of a mess on my floor

bOOKSSSS

the most comfortable mattress topper you’ll ever sleep on

rn things in piles everywhere as i am moving to uni for my second year of my bachelor lol

a big ass tv that i watch way to much series and films on

5 things i’ve always wanted to do:

be productive

actually be a good student who read all assignments and gets good ass grades

get my shit/life together

sometimes i wish i was famous, or at least famous enough to get to meet my idols and whoops there u go they are now in love with me well that’s neAT

god honestly though- i’ve always dreamed of being a youtuber but starting out these days is a pain in the ass and i’m not ready for that commitment

5 things that make me happy:

all the fandoms im in good god

can reylo and jonerys have their own section k thanks

my family’s bunnies i love them sm

as i am acutally a christian thinking about god makes me happy?? i am blessed with such a loving family thank heavens

dear god reading and watching things is the single most important thing to keeping sane

5 things i’m currently into:

GAME OF THRONES BIH

i recently read A Court of Thorns and Roses, all three books, and i am now impatiently waiting for the next book to come out in like a year+ 

would it be bad if i said dream daddy a dad dating sim

i want to reread the hunger games!! been years since i first read em god

mortal instruments!!!! watching the tv series, seen the film, reading the books rn love love love it

5 things on my to-do list:

get my shit together

open up more to people i meet that i feel i can trust

be kind, always

honestly i want to write fanfics again after like 5 years 

jonerys/reylo/other ship edits hhh

i may update this later with tags, but for now i’m too tired soz ily all

[punkscowardschampions]

Grace & Janis

Little Twin Times

Grace: It's not too late to change your mind! Get dad to bring you xxx Grace: 👍💜💭 Janis: Nah, you're all good, I'm going out to play footie with lads from down the road after tea Janis: You having fun? Grace: 😮😈 WHICH LADS??! Grace: of course! it's the best! 🙌 Name a film and we've got it ready to watch Grace: her mum ordered from the posh bakery too Grace: They've got each of our names iced on so you've gotta come Janis: You know, they live in the farmhouse one along if you keep going down the lane, renovated all fancy, like but they're actually alright Janis: shit at football though 😉 Janis: s'alright, you eat mine Janis: think they use too much cream, s'not as good as Da's stuff Janis: got any horrors? Grace: EW JANIS THOSE BOYS ARE GROSS DON'T PLAY WITH THEM Grace: they always shout stuff at us they think they're so 💪😎 Grace: You always say that! You'd eat custard tarts every day and never try anything new ever! Grace: 🙄 Grace: OBVIOUSLY WE'RE NOT AMATEURS Grace: the cinema room has everything it's like being out at the poshest one you can imagine 😍 Janis: Only 'cos you act like such a drip whenever you see a boy Janis: If you shouted back instead of going all giggly and red maybe they'd not take the piss, ey? 🙄 Janis: I would if I was faced with all that pastry and cream...tastes like fusty old tissue paper 🤢 Janis: At least that'll be a laugh then Janis: Her house smells like an old lady's handbag though 😂 Grace: OMG I DO NOT! Grace: what would you know anyway you're too busy trying to BE like a gross boy to get a boyfriend Grace: such a 👽 weirdo for a sister, how and why Grace: AGAIN DUH! It is such a laugh and you're missing it Grace: for football 🙄 Grace: RUDE JAN-JAN IT DOES NOT Grace: you're just jealous of how cool her house is Janis: Yes you do, you all just nudge each other and laugh like a bunch of loonies Janis: LOL and what would you do with a boyfriend, gracie? you can't even talk to one nevermind anything else Janis: for you, maybe, i'm good where i am tah 👌 Janis: why would i be jealous of having a too large tv in a too small room and calling it a cinema Janis: they ain't even got that much money, we've probably got more, they're just snobby twats about it Janis: how cool, so cool, woooow Grace: DO NOT Grace: I can't believe you've already forgotten that Jake and two of his friends are all fighting over who gets to be my boyfriend rn so Grace: I'm gonna be a great girlfriend like in all the films excuse you Grace: ugh you're the snobby one thinking we're richer than everyone and talking about how much money everyone's got all the time Grace: what am I gonna do with you? 🙄 Janis: how buzzin you must be Janis: doesn't mean you'll know what to do Janis: s'the stuff that happens after the happily ever after you need to know, graciekins Janis: only cos she's a show-off when she's got no right to Janis: always bragging that one Janis: you just don't like it 'cos you're up her hole, like 😂 Grace: I will too! I've practiced kissing loads Grace: Just because you don't have a clue don't tell me I don't Grace: You're the showoff always trying to beat the boys ugh Grace: just brush your hair, put some gloss on and come over Grace: you'll see she is cool and you're just being salty as usual Janis: yeah, we've seen the gloss on the oranges, its manky Janis: at least eat them when you've frenched them Janis: there's no trying involved, i'm just better than all the boys 😏 Janis: no thanks, i've got plans, like i said Janis: if she's so cool why you ignoring her rn hmm Grace: YOU'RE MANKY I don't even use 🍊 thanks Grace: You think as much of yourself as the boys do it's cringey Grace: and im not even ignoring her she's setting the spa up Grace: nobody's allowed to see what's she's done until she's done it so you're wrong again there Janis: Well all the others have got fellas rn or experience under their belt so don't think they're still getting in 'practice' like its a shitty teen movie 😂 Busted Janis: soz, I'll develop an eating disorder and self-esteem issues asap Janis: oh wait, no, fuck that i'm great Janis: don't hate cos u ain't Janis: better get ur surprised face ready now, you're a shitty actress, like LiLo bad post-all the drugs Grace: It's likely you, J, you've gotten really embarrassing lately 😂 make sense why you don't wanna come out. gotta stay in with the fruit bowl Grace: Don't even joke Kirsty Dixon from number 22 had to go to the hospital loads in the summer it's so serious Grace: you're the hater on me and my friends, read the chat back if you don't believe Janis: Whatever you say, Graciepoo Janis: So? She's still a lame bitch Janis: or you gonna be her best friend now too? Janis: Last I remember, it was your pals calling her names Janis: but now she's in the hospital, you all wanna send her flowers Janis: just not chocolates, she'll be raging, like Grace: YOU'RE SO RUDE AND SOOO WRONG Grace: i know you're blinded by your jealousy but it's sad how much you have no idea what you're talking about Grace: cute but still cringey of course Janis: lol jealous of what? Grace: me having friends and you being the lone loser Janis: 😂 no Janis: firstly, your 'friends', you can keep 'em, there's a reason they were free to let you tag along and be their bitch Janis: secondly, i'm happy being alone, you're the one begging me to come hang, so nice one there 👍 Grace: I'M TRYING TO BE NICE Grace: won't next time, bitch Janis: please don't 😂 Grace: laugh it up all you want you were the one tagging along with us for ages Grace: you're not too good, you're too much of a freak now that's all Janis: yeah because wittle baby gracie doesn't want to do anything on her own Janis: don't cry about it now 😂 Grace: no i didnt want my sister to be an antisocial weirdo Grace: makes me look bad too Janis: Literally going out after tea, did you not hear? Janis: You wanna control WHO I'm friends with Janis: I've got friends, I don't want your hand-me-downs Grace: those creepy boys who want to look at you in your shorts aren't your friends saddo Janis: Your mind, Gracie 🙄 Honestly Janis: lads don't care about things like that, they wanna play footie Janis: and I have plenty of other people I hang with, not everyone wants to be in a sad lil gang Grace: now who's being a baby 😂 lads always think about stuff like that Grace: 🙄 you only think its a gang because you've made yourself unwanted Grace: whatever Jan-Jan i've got fun to have Grace: be boring Janis: They really don't, they think you're mental Janis: also a right slag 😂 Janis: sure you do 😏 laters! Grace: at least they think of me you're furniture Grace: I've got plenty of time and chances to change their mind but you're always gonna be blah Janis: lol yeah, so much chance, when i'm the one that gets to chat with them every day on the pitch and you just stand there staring and dribbling, not the ball, like 😂 Grace: 🙄 so jealous at least they know me and my friends are interested they all think you play for the other team Janis: so? I'm not the slag, I'm NOT interested Janis: how lame Grace: i'm no slag either Grace: you're just being too judgey and weird to know the difference Janis: whatever you say 👌 not me you've gotta convince otherwise, is it Grace: thank god for that 😂 Janis: eurgh don't be disgusting Janis: now who's the freak Grace: EWW THAT'S YOUR MIND I MEANT YOU'VE BEEN HIT IN THE HEAD BY THE BALL TOO MANY TIMES TO HAVE A CLUE ABOUT ANYTHING Grace: 👽 Grace: so gross Janis: no you didn't Janis: you're a shit liar Janis: why would you even say something like that Janis: you're messed up, grace Grace: WHY WOULD YOU WEIRDO Janis: I didn't Janis: you're always like this Janis: you're so fucking creepy Grace: I am not Grace: you're the gross creep Janis: get your own comebacks Janis: this is why i don't want to hang with you Janis: you're so boring Grace: get a life and stop being so disgusting all the time Grace: it's not cool its just gross Janis: I've got one Janis: and it isn't yours to ruin with your lameness Janis: ✌ Grace: I can't ruin what doesn't exist Grace: can't compete with how much of a loser you are anyway Janis: stop trying then Janis: weirdo 😂 Grace: 🙄 pathetic Janis: Oh, FYI, you forgot your jammies Janis: Rio's dropping them in so you better run unless you want her to come in and show you up for being a fake little bitch Grace: No I didn't we've all got matching here already Grace: I'm doing fine get over it Janis: That's literally the most hilarious thing I've ever heard Janis: Hope you're snapping pictures so we've all got something to laugh at Janis: 'Course you are, remember to let Jake know the # Janis: so sexy 😂 Grace: You're so obsessed it's embarrassing Grace: leave me alone Janis: I'll remember that when you're pestering me later Janis: Thanks for putting in writing Grace: Don't flatter yourself that I care Janis: So blatant Janis: N'awwwwh Grace: so annoying 🙄 Grace: go away Janis: go soak your manky feet Grace: go lose on the pitch you try hard bitch Janis: me? LOL ok Janis: trying so hard to be white and likable Janis: of which, you are neither Grace: Plenty of people like me as I am thanks Janis: oh, and who are you today? 😂 Janis: you haven't got a clue Janis: faker than your brands Grace: and you do? 😂 trying so hard to be a badass all of a sudden Grace: everyone's laughing at you Grace: not me Janis: By everyone you mean your sad little friends Janis: who no one but you gives a shit about Janis: be more mad 'cos I've ditched you FINALLY Janis: and I can actually enjoy myself Grace: go and do it then Grace: you'd have to stop talking rubbish at me first Janis: do you see me there rn? Janis: I already am Janis: laughing at you takes no time outta my day Grace: 😂 Grace: like i said, obsessed Grace: nothing better to do than be this lame Janis: like i said, bad actress Janis: i still, unfortunately, have to share a room with you, remember? i've heard you crying Janis: 😂 Grace: not everything is about you Grace: nothing is pretty much Janis: Why'd you go crying to mum about me then Janis: Now I've gotta be nicer to you Janis: What a drag Grace: you're a drag Grace: and a worse actress than you think i am Janis: I'm not pretending otherwise Janis: Its impossible to be nice to you, faking it or otherwise Grace: can't be harder than dealing with being around you Grace: too cringey for words Janis: Aww Jan-Jan please come Janis: PLEEEEEEEEEEASE ITS SO MUCH FUN Janis: now that's cringe Janis: 👍💜💭 Grace: not sorry for trying to get you to keep your invite Grace: you said you'd come and the girls were expecting you Grace: some of them wanted you to be there, because they feel sorry for you or whatever Janis: I don't recall that coming from my mouth Janis: more like YOU said I would Janis: boohoo Janis: the ONLY person who gives a shit is you Grace: blah Grace: bored of you thinking you know everything about me Grace: if you don't care then leave me alone like I already told you to do Janis: how could i not? EVERYONE knows you, right gracie? Janis: ur as transparent as a window and as shallow as a puddle Janis: doesn't take a genius babe 😂 Janis: i'm having fun, fuck off yourself if you can't deal Grace: 😂😂😂 Grace: your definition of fun is so sad Grace: I'm off to have some for real Grace: bye Janis: enjoy your spa and matching jimmies Janis: you wild one 😂

[lavendr-bay]

85 Question Meme

I was tagged by @stressodepressoespresso​

Rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

– what was your last…

1. drink: peppermint tea 2. phone call: Toby 3. text message: “Oh noo :(” (in the context of the shop not having any hotdogs) 4. last song you listened to: Harry Dean - SWMRSS 5. last time you cried: literally like yesterday haha 

– have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: lowkey idk what this means but probably no?? 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nah 8. been cheated on: nopee 9. lost someone special: prons 10. been depressed: big mood (yes)  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: surprisingly, no I don’t really vom

– favourite colours

12. RED 13. like, sunset-y orangey red 14. grey (BuT GrEY Is A ShaDE)

– in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: so fucking many 16. fallen out of love: nopee, thank god. 17. laughed until you cried: so many times 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah lol 19. met someone who has changed you: we already knew each other but imma say yes anyway 20. found out who your friends are: lowkey yes lowkey no, people are snakes  21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: i dont have facebook lol, but if i did the answer would be yes

– general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: dont have it lol  23. do you have any pets: two dogs  24. do you want to change your name: i’d rather be called lil that lily but that’s not really changing my name 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went out for dinner with my family, it wasn’t an important one 26. what time did you wake up today: 7:25am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: was probably asleep, i had to get up early 28. what is something you can’t wait for: literally nothing, i’m going to two gigs in september over the same weekend but that’s about it. 29. last time you saw your mother: this morning

30. what are you listening to right now: Coloured in Smiles - Super Furniture (they’re sick please listen to them) 31. have you ever met a person named tom: yuppp 32. something that’s getting on you nerves: am kinda hungry and my dog is barking for no reason

33. most visited website: youtube or tumblr 34. hair colour: ginger 35. long or short hair: fairly short, its a bit longer than collarbone length 

36. do you have a crush on someone: i don’t think it counts as a crush  37. what do you like about yourself: ngl im fucking funny and i’ve lowkey (highkey) got a good music taste 38. want any piercings: wanna get my nose pierced so bad but my parents are so against it hahaha  39. blood type: red 40. nicknames: Lil, Lils, Lou, (they’re all boring) Lilian if its from @stressodepressoespresso​ lol 41. relationship status: yes :) 42. zodiac sign: Pisces 43. pronouns: She/Her 44. fave tv show: Brooklyn nine nine or queer eye 45. tattoos: I want them but i’m indecisive and have no idea what i want  46. right or left handed: right . 47. ever had surgery: nope. 48. piercings: got to piercings in each lobe, did have my cartilage done but it kept getting infecteed so i took it out. 49. sport: no.  50. vacation: idk what i’m meant to say about it but i want to travel a lot 51. trainers: ngl i dont really wear them, i wear my docs more

– more general

52. eating: plain buttered toast is peng but i love chicken burgers so much man. 53. drinking: tea or coffee 54. about to watch:  my life crumble before my eyes lol 55. waiting for: a will to live

56. want: money pls. 57. get married: hopefully at some point 58. career: interior design

– which is better

59. hugs or kisses: kisses, always . 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: taller 62. older or younger: same age, preferably  63. nice arms or stomach: arms, but i’m honestly not arsed  64. hookup or relationship: relationship plz 65. troublemaker or hesitant: neither, just dont be a dick

– have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: nahhh. 67. drank hard liquor: probably. 68. turned someone down: yeah and it feels shit 69. sex on first date: nope 70. broken someone’s heart: i dont think so?. 71. had your heart broken: lowkey yes but its irrelevant now?. 72. been arrested: nah73. cried when someone died: yes. 74. fallen for a friend: .yep, its lowkey the best way

– do you believe in

75. yourself: do i fuck  76. miracles: idk pls give me one. 77. love at first sight: not love, maybe lust 78. santa claus: he’s alright but he’s not real (soz @ santa)  79. angels: idk not really

– misc

80. eye colour: my eyes are literally the same colour as my hair so like sorta ginger 81. best friend’s name: Lizz 82. favourite movie: Spike Island. 83. favourite actor: I dont really have one. 84. favourite cartoon: idk i dont have one. 85. favourite teacher’s name: Mr Ferguson.

I tag @unfortunatelymary @caveera