#god i miss that suselle fic

[uttotheegg]

PSA PLEAAASEEEE

if you know someone on ao3 that used to be under the pseud ClausLucas, can you tell them that theyre my favorite author ever? 👉👈

They took down all their works and im still mourning their suselle fics but i never got to tell them how much their works mean to me because my internet was heavily monitored

this is a psa that if a fanfic impacts you in any way possible, dont be like 15 y/o and actually tell the author that you enjoy their works. It could be the difference of getting to read your favorite fics, or them being lost forever.

[janetbrown711]

What... Happened?

"Noelle tries to get a grip on what just happened when none other than Susie stops by for a sudden visit."

Basically, I wrote a Suselle Snowgrave fic bc angst and feelings.

Snowgrave spoilers are below. You have been warned.

Part 2 Part 3

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Noelle knew she controlled it. She raised her arms. That was her choice.

She didn’t have to listen to Kris’s command.

But the voice was so loud.

“Watch what happens when I cast a spell I don’t know!” She had shouted, fed up with all of the pain and energy built inside.

The pain was felt through her every vein.

God, it was so painful- but then, she felt… it kick in.

A gust of wind shot through the area, she closed her eyes as the energy burned and stung like the thorn wrapped around her finger. However, after the first little flicker, she dared to peak, hoping it was all.

But the second she opened her eyes, everything went white.

She felt herself begin to levitate, music played, snow quickly formed into a blizzard around her, the pain shot through and released at her fingertips, as she felt stars form in her hands, but it was followed by a crushing weight she then fought against. A gigantic gust of cold wind followed, leaving Noelle chilled to her very bones.

After that, she all but collapsed onto the ground, so exhausted she could barely feel the sting of the thorns as she touched the pavement beneath her.

At least the pain was gone…

She used what strength she had left to at least turn to face Kris, but she couldn’t even look up.

“What… what happened?” she whispered.

So much power…

“There was so much snow… I couldn’t see anything- I...”

It wasn’t the snow that had blinded her.

The power. The voice. The pain.

Gathering her strength, she forced herself to stand.

There was a large ice sculpture to her right.

Berdly.

Kris would never ask her to…

Berdly was…

Noelle…

A knot twisted, and tied, and sank in her stomach.

“I don’t feel so good.”

“I think… I’m going home,” She had said, not looking back at either Kris or Berdly.

She was pretty sure she could hear crying as a shield and sword were put away, but she carried on.

She couldn’t actually go home, she knew that.

Hell- she really didn’t have a damn clue how to get home. The closest thing she had was- well…

Queen’s Mansion.

A private room at the very top. Where no one could bother her.

Noelle felt like a ghost as she floated down the halls of the mansion, looking perfectly forward. She didn’t look at the paintings, or at the puzzles that froze as she walked by, or at the Swatchinglings as they fled at the very sight of her, or the odd little man replacing all of Queen’s portraits.

She retired straight to her room, sitting on her bed and she looked out at the moon.

And there she was, tracing her steps until she found herself right where she was.

In her room, in Queen’s Mansion.

“What a strange moon.” She thought to herself. It was true. It… looked more like a baseball than anything.

“It’s like nothing I’ve ever seen before.”

False.

It felt… slightly familiar.

This world…

She glanced at the calendar to her left.

Dess.

Noelle ached for Dess.

Dess knew how to make this pain go away- with her, any pain was whisked away with a hug or bandaid.

But with her gone there was nothing.

Just a swirling, deafening, all-encompassing darkness.

Berdly.

She didn’t see where he went- just a giant ice crystal.

There-... There was a chance.

Just like there was a chance with Dess.

R-Right?

Kris would never.

Sure they could be weird, b-but they would never, not in a million years.

Proceed.

The sheer volume of it was so loud, it drowned out any thoughts of her own.

Kris would never.

Berdly.

God, she missed Berdly too.

He could be a pain, but he was never that bad.

She was made stronger.

Stronger is better, that’s what Mother always says.

Power is everything in this world.

Noelle looked up at the stars.

If power really was everything…

Why was she left with nothing?

…

It was slow at first, but once Noelle noticed, the tears rapidly increased, and before she knew it, she was weeping, wind and snow swirling everything in her room, threatening to tear the curtains off her bed.

The storm raged on, as she wept and wept and wept and wept, her heart yearning for Dess or Dad or even Berdly.

But Nobody Came.

She sobbed more.

A long time passed.

Suddenly, a voice.

The wind and snow ceased instantly as Noelle’s ears perked at the sound, making sure it was real.

It was.

Was it Queen?

No no, too gruff.

Noelle wiped her eyes, cursing herself for making such as mess. She ran around straightening everything out as much as possible- she couldn’t let anyone see her like this.

As she was putting ICE’E back into place though, the door burst open.

Susie.

Susie.

It was Susie.

“N...Noelle?” Susie looked around at the mess, before snorting. “Never thought you’d be the type to have a messy room.”

Susie had no idea what happened.

Noelle wanted nothing more than to run up and hug her, to cry more until all of the pain and cold within melted away.

“I… yeah… I guess the secrets out,” Noelle joked, wiping her face once more and going to her bed.

“Hey- Noelle, you’re bleeding! Jesus- is that a ring of thorns?” Susie pointed out the torture device on her finger.

“O-oh, I hardly noticed- I should-” Noelle pulled at it, but it only dug into her other fingers.

“You’re hurting yourself, let me- I mean… uh… do you- uh…” Susie looked away, embarrassed.

Noelle held out her finger, looking away tiredly.

Susie, having scales tough as nails, successfully removed it.

“Holy shit- I mean- crap, Noelle, your finger is totally screwed up. How did you even get this?” Susie pointed out.

“It doesn’t matter,” Noelle closed her eyes and turned back to the window.

So many Ice Shock spells.

“Okay…” Susie stuck her hands in her pockets, looking out the window too.

Noelle ached for a hug. She almost offered to let Susie sit next to her, but Susie would never want to sit with her.

Especially if she knew what she had done.

“Cool moon,” Susie stated.

Noelle blinked.

How could she be so normal?

“Y...Yeah,” Noelle nodded a little, ignoring the frost that was slowly covering the window.

“But… it’s odd, right? Not just the moon- this whole world, you know?” Noelle said. “I-i mean, it didn’t snow inside back home, am I right?” She joked anxiously.

It made Susie chuckle and a bit of her anxiety was soothed.

There was another pause.

“How… how did we even get here? What even is this place?” Noelle asked earnestly.

She had barely seen Susie but it seemed she had a grasp on what was going on- more than Noelle anyway.

“Uhhh, It’s uhhhh…” Susie was clearly caught off guard.

Of course Susie didn’t have any answers. She was from Hometown too, it wasn’t like she’d-

“You’re- uh… Just having a dream!”

A… dream?

It… it couldn’t be a dream, it was so… real.

“Are you sure?” Noelle asked.

Susie nodded.

“Yep! All a dream, that’s for sure,” She smiled.

“Susie, do you promise it’s a dream?” Noelle said a bit too desperately.

Susie nodded again, confused but sincere.

Noelle all but lept off the bed to hug her.

A dream… oh, thank god it was a dream.

Berdly was okay. Kris was okay. Noelle was okay.

“A-are you okay? You’ve never- you don’t-” Susie was a stuttering and blushing mess, Noelle quickly jumped back and let go.

“I-I’m sorry, it’s just… it’s been a very, very long day,” Noelle sat back on her bed, tracing the pattern with her finger.

“Though… it makes sense this is all a dream… I’d never have the courage to hug you like that in the real world,” Noelle laughed a little to herself.

“O-oh?” Susie’s face turned a dark shade of purple, like a grape.

“Oh, nevermind. It’s all silly…” Noelle shook her head.

“I’m just… glad you’re here,” She smiled a little.

“Oh! Speaking of-!” Susie remembered something.

“I’m actually here to rescue you!” She grinned, her sharp teeth shining.

“O-oh? Wh...why would you do that?” Noelle’s face turned red.

“Because you’re being held prisoner by Queen!” Susie stated, a bit confused Noelle wasn’t aware of that.

“Oh, well… I… It’s not all bad in this room, and honestly? I kinda chose to come here, to get some peace of mind, you know?” Noelle asked. Susie blinked.

“But Queen..?”

“Queen- well I haven’t seen from her in awhile. She hasn’t even tried to turn my face into a robot one since I saw Kris-...” Noelle felt she said too much.

“When did you see Kris?” Susie asked.

“Just… briefly. They were alone and I thought ‘hey there’s a familiar face’ and… well, it hardly matters, this is all a dream right?” Noelle chuckled tiredly to herself.

“Rrrright,” Susie nodded.

“Still… I’m really glad you’re here, Susie. And… thank you for comforting me,” Noelle looked at her.

“No problem! Now- uh- Kris is just waiting right outside so we should probably join them and-”

“No.”

Susie blinked, surprised.

“I-i mean… I think I’ll just stay here until I wake up,” Noelle kicked herself.

“Okay… I’ll- uh… come back for you later, okay?” Susie said.

Noelle hugged her again.

“Okay,” She said, smiling softly as she squeezed her.

A dream.

The smile faded a little.

She wasn’t actually hugging Susie. She didn’t have the courage.

But it still felt very, very nice.

“Alright- okay gotta go- bye!” Susie barely said a word before leaving Noelle alone once more.

She listened to Susie’s voice behind the door, until it silenced and she heard them all walk away.

She sighed, wiping off what tear residue was still left on her face.

God… what a dream.

At least it would all be over soon. She’d wake up and see Berdly in no time, and he’d hit her with one of those stupid gamer jokes that never made her laugh, but this time it would.

And she’d see Susie, granted that she showed up to the study session.

And… Kris.

Kris would be there too.

B-but she knew Kris, knew them since childhood.

One bad dream couldn’t change that.

…

Dear god, if there is one, please let this nightmare end and end quickly," She prayed as quiet as could be.

And she really, truly meant it.

[spacejunkgalaxies]

For ships, Papyton 😉

I feel like this is the first post where I’ve gone into detail on this ship. But hey. First time for everything.

When I started shipping them: I don't really know what happened. At first I was like, "Eh, it sounds cute, but I don't see it happening." Then I got exposed to a shit-ton of fanart for it and I was like, "Oh my God, this is actually really cute," and I don't know what happened, but then it was like, "Oh God. I ship it. So hard." It was about July 2019 when it happened. I was doing choir camp, and when we weren't doing singing stuff, I was mostly browsing Undertale content on my phone.

My thoughts: Ugh. It's such a cute ship. Why isn't it canon. They're just too perfect for each other. They'd be such a happy, cute, healthy couple. I have so many ideas for possible interactions between these two and I've already written five fics about them, one of which is a currently ongoing multichapter. Sure, it isn't canon and they've never met, but come on. There are lots of ships where that's the case. Welcome to shipping. 

What makes me happy about them: First of all, more LGBT in an already LGBT-loaded game. Seeing anything gay makes me happy as a lesbian. Second of all, they're probably the most compatible characters for each other. They have so many things in common it's hard to tell if Toby Fox intended it or not. 

What makes me sad about them: The only time they ever meet is at the end of a Neutral ending where Mettaton is king and the Underground's a fucked-up dystopia. That makes me deeply uncomfortable for some reason. Also, fandom portrayal of them.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: Overprotective Sans. Just. Let Sans be supportive. He loves his bro. I mean, realistically he'd probably be slightly apprehensive considering it's Pap's first relationship, but he'd step to the side and let them just be happy. Besides, he's too lazy to do anything beyond pranking. Also, I hate it when people portray Mettaton as being borderline abusive toward Papyrus and Papyrus being unaware and "innocent." Nope. Miss me with that shit.

Things I look for in fanfic: Well, like I said above, supportive Sans. But I also love fanfic where they're a healthy, happy couple and no abusive shit is going on. Also, I generally don't like reading fanfic where they're in the background. I love to see the progression of their relationship and somehow seeing them as a background couple where they're already together and happy from the start makes it... even harder to believe, somehow? Plus, I tend to gravitate toward fanfic where Mettaton's not being suave and seductive toward Papyrus and is actually nervous and blushy and crushing around him because. It's just cute. Come on.

My wishlist: (I'm not too sure exactly what that means, but I'm just going to go for it.) We don't really know what happens after a True Pacifist route beyond that all the characters are happy and living out their dreams. But please. I need them to meet at some point and become friends and fall in love with each other and get together. Also, there's Deltarune to consider, so... Fingers crossed? Hopefully along with Alphyne and Suselle? :,)

Who I'd be comfortable with them ending up with, if not each other: For Papyrus... IDK. I've seen Papyrus X Napstablook material and it sounds like a cute idea. I don't really ship it at all, though. As for Mettaton, I can't really see him falling for anyone else. 

My happily ever after for them: They have a generally long and happy relationship full of love and respect for each other. They get married and maybe start a family. IDK, still figuring that one out. They become the sweetest gay uncles for Frisk and combined with the rest of the Undertale cast, they all make one interesting, eclectic, happy family.

[official-arbys]

Signal boosting because im sad

PSA PLEAAASEEEE

if you know someone on ao3 that used to be under the pseud ClausLucas, can you tell them that theyre my favorite author ever? 👉👈

They took down all their works and im still mourning their suselle fics but i never got to tell them how much their works mean to me because my internet was heavily monitored

this is a psa that if a fanfic impacts you in any way possible, dont be like 15 y/o and actually tell the author that you enjoy their works. It could be the difference of getting to read your favorite fics, or them being lost forever.