#god i feel like I'll always be a little bit crazy abt this

[clowncloud]

i miss them strong sudden wave of i miss them i miss them so much fuck ive been watching their photo too often they're so pretty but also it's so obvious we're miles away in every aspect im glad at least i attempted to right the nasty 2021 "separation" im disappointed in how 2022-2023 reunion went im disappointed in what i did. im glad i was only weak like once in 2024. i dont intend to fuck up this year ive been thinking off them too much i need to stop ugh sigh

[hyunsvngs]

if ur comfortable with it,

A STEP BRO CHAN DRABBLE, IVE BEEN THINKING ABT THAT FOR SOOOO LONG OMFG

"hey, you okay?" chan asked, poking his head around your bedroom door. "dad said you called in sick to work today?"

"yeah, i'm okay," you assured him. "to be honest, i'm just feeling a bit burned out and needed to take a me day."

he nodded in understanding, sitting on the edge of your bed. "i get that. do you..." he cleared his throat. "do you want me to help take your mind off things?"

you sighed. god, that was fucking tempting. you'd never tasted any cock like your step-brother's cock. "i don't know if we should be doing this any more, chan... if our parents find out, we're fucked."

"c'mon," he urged you, leaning across to tuck a strand of your hair behind your ear. his voice was quiet, low, husky. "nobody's home - nobody's gonna be home all day. it's just you and me, baby. and i know you want this as bad as i do."

you attempted to give him a stern look.

he smiled at you. "just a quickie?"

you certainly couldn't deny that. "fuck. fine, come here."

chan grinned, ear-to-ear, pulling back your blankets and climbing atop you. "god, i love it when you were skimpy little pyjamas like this. drives me fucking crazy. almost popped a boner in front of your mom last night when i saw you."

you couldn't help but giggle. you were only chatting to your mom while getting a glass of water before bed, you obviously weren't intentionally trying to affect chan in any way. but your ass was slightly hanging out of your pyjama shorts, and you'd definitely noticed his panicked expression when he walked in and saw you.

chan, wasting no time, leaned down and begun kissing your neck. you moaned, tangling your hands in his hair and bucking your hips upwards. he slipped his hand into your shorts, letting out a gasp when he met your heat.

"babe, you're fucking dripping wet already," he breathed into your neck. "did this on purpose, hm? stayed home 'cause you knew i'd fuck you?"

"mm.. maybe." your words were nothing more than a whimper. you weren't in the mood for any teasing, not today. you needed him, now. you pushed him back, stripping off your clothes at lightning speed. chan followed suit with a smirk.

he was evidently as desperate as you were, cock already hard as he tugged on it harshly. "look at you," he remarked. "can't fucking wait for your big brother to dick you down."

you scoffed. "like you can talk. obsessed with your little sister's pussy."

he lined his cock up with your hole, pushing himself inside you, swiftly shutting you up. he slid in far too easily, though it made sense as he always had you spilling waterfalls.

"fuck, there we go," chan hissed as he bottomed out. his palms gripped your ass cheeks, angling you up for the most pleasurable angle. "you like that?"

"yes," you whined. "shut up and fuck me."

chan laughed, but followed your directions. his hips snapped against your frame with each thrust, slapping loudly. you rubbed your clit in time with his motions. the room was filled with moans from the both of you, crying out in pleasure.

"you're so fucking wet," chan groaned. "perfect pussy."

you pulled him down to you, capturing his lips against your own, kissing him with fervour. he kissed you back just as hard, if not harder, slipping his tongue past your lips and into your mouth.

your orgasm crept up on you far too fast, and you were clenching around his dick before you knew it.

"oh, fuck," chan grunted, burying his head in your neck and pounding into you even harder. "fuck, i'm gonna-"

"not inside me again!" you squeaked.

he gave one last extra-deep thrust, and looked up at you with a mischievous grin. "sorry. i'll buy you plan b."

you rolled your eyes, but couldn't truly get that annoyed, not when you looked down and saw his cum oozing out of you beautifully.

he got up right away, pulling on his joggers. "right. i'm gonna make you some breakfast. and then round two?"

"fuck, yes."

[kits-ships]

For the music ask game:

🤍 - Free space! Talk about any song you want!

THANK YOU!!!!!! im gonna be a little autistic for a moment so hang on. im honing in on like. only hyperfixation atm. i dont think this really fits the selfship prompt but i need to infodump anyways.

hiding the autism under the read more

OK SO DONT LAUGH.

BUT I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO THESE TWO SONGS ON REPEAT LATELY GHFGj.h...

THIS ONE FIRST!!!!!!!!

this one is just so fun as a whole, but also it has lee!!!!!! leon!!!!! im really happy they had a british artist come in for him; dan's voice is my headcanon for him whether i like it or not. (any nonbritish lee doesnt feel real to me) i also like that his lyrics come off as cocky, yet awkward. we get an erection joke then later on hes like IM SERIOUS :,( (favorite line: now im the man of the moment standing alone in my tower) (it itches my brain just right)

IT ALSO HAS CYNTHIA!!! familial f/os my beloved. not only is sinnoh my favorite region, but i like to imagine what lunette's verse would be, too. i havent come up with anything, but maybe i will one day. probably not. hgfg (fave line: im a full time scholar, babe, and brawler // i guarantee that no one go harder) (so true bestie. also love the play on words)

other random comments:

yay, blue!! pokemon blue/red was my dads favorite, so i grew up with his games + he ended up becoming like a big brother figure to me. he's a cocky bitch but i think his verse flows well.

lance: HOLY SHIT. his line 'but i don't need to lay a hand upon a damn guitar // to rock this stadium like a tyranitar' ALWAYS GETS STUCK IN MY HEAD........ i love the like. pressure it builds.

ok so. not to be a little stinker but i think the steven/wallace verses are my favorites. theyre just so good..... and im so happy they included wallace!! i feel like no one ever talks about him !!!! favorite lines from them: -all in, man of steel, but no stallin' i'm real quick like this rock is polished flawless with the beat, so milotic we be so scaldin', steven and wallace -looking like you met medusa when you step to stone you'll catch a trident like poseidon when you hear the flow

then i dont have much to say about kukui's but its so fun to listen to (i also like the unova + kalos champions, i just dont have as much of an attachment to those regions!! diantha's voice is pretty and alder + iris always get 'better run for cover when I pull up with the 'rona //'rona got you under the weather I'm in the zone' STUCK IN MY HEAD!!!!

LMAO YEAH :( THEN WE JUST GO TO THE VILLIAN CYPHER GFDG

ok one of them is an f/o but i wont tell you who. so im just gonna go through my favorite bits of each verse

giovanni: again. the pressure he builds with the first few lines is crazy. i think his verse is also very fitting because like. giovanni is just EVIL. all the other villians have an intriguing or even silly reason for their wrongdoings but gio just wants MONEY. FREAK !!

archie: so i dont remember much abt hoenn and magma/aqua thanks to my childhood but archie is silly to me. yeah youre gonna flood the world? then what? duh. favorite line: you get smacked up if you act up // you can ask those on team magma (also itches my brain good)

maxie: HIS VERSE HAS NO EXCUSE TO BE SO GOOD??? I ALWAYS SAW HIM AS A DORK BUT THE WRITERS WENT CRAZY WITH HIM.. my favorite lines are 'im here to lead, they gon' hail me like a taxi cab i'll make them bleed if they're stepping into maxie's pad' LIKE ???!!! JESUS. i was a sapphire girlie but ok?

cyrus: i cant even describe it. its all so good. god characterization. good beat. really dives into his character past my old surface level view of him

n: poor guy is having an existential crisis but manages to end it with /guess thats why they call me natural B)' hell yeah boy

ghetsis: fuck you ghetsis

lysandre: I DIDNT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HIM BEFORE THIS SONG BUT JESUS!?? THIS MAN WAS NOT DOING WELL. his verse flows well but good god like. can we go back and talk about this man. can we get you therapy

lusamine: fuck you lusamine. they did not abandon you!!! but also. 'got nothing to lose by my ✨ni-hil-ego✨

guzma: ok i dont know if its just me but i think its not a good verse, but like. in a good way?? i dont think he'd be good at rapping so it feels fitting; as does the odd beat backing him. i also love the voice they chose for him! fuck kukui no discussion.

rose: FUCK YOU ROSE!!!! YOURE THE PEON DUDE

no comment on mewtwo bc i was originally so excited to hear jessie and james but they ripped it away from me

[velarisdusk]

Our favorite Azriel stan 🦇🖤💙 !!

1. Why is Azriel one of your favorite characters?

2. Is there a specific scene that made you like them?

3. What theories/headcanons do you have for Azriel?

4. Feel free to share anything else about Azriel that the questions didn’t cover!

omg i wasn't expecting such a title, what an honor. i’d like to thank the academy, azriel, beyonce

putting this under the cut bc i just realized how much i wrote lol

i always love the characters that don’t talk much and aren’t super expanded on by the author (this isnt me saying he lacks depth, i just need an azriel book). ig partially bc of more room for headcanons/fanon exploration, but mostly bc it’s like…. omg so mysterious let me learn more abt you bbg 🫦 az is so broody and witty and i love that abt him

im gonna be so real i fell in love with him (and cass) from that first dinner at the house of wind. like i said, very quiet, very witty, lots of small but telling facial reactions. i was REALLY hooked, though, later on at the “i don’t see you spouting poetry, brother” “i don’t need to resort to it” AND IM PRETTY SURE HE WAS LIKE LEANING AGAINST THE WALL OR SOMETHING ARMS CROSSED WITH A LITTLE SMIRK LIKE STOP THATS ENOUGH I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE i know its such a basic and very brought up bit of dialogue but UGH i literally squealed and kicked my legs for feyre bc god i WISH i couldve witnessed that with my own eyeballs

buckle up, i’ve got a good few. azriel: ♡ is left-handed. i wont be taking any questions. ♡ is a switch, but ive been on my sub!azriel soapbox for months now, and i'm not getting off anytime soon. sub top sub bottom idc, sub azriel for president ♡ if only he was born in the right place and the right time, he would LOVE rock music. i think where cass is more classic rock (i'll die on this hill), az is more punk rock, alt rock, garage rock, grunge if he's feeling a lil crazy. oh but i bet he loves classical music. ♡ at one point he tried to learn piano bc he wanted to play a piece he heard at one of those hewn city balls :) but he realized very quickly how difficult it would be what with the chronic pain in his hands and all :( ♡ there was one night in particular, he was alone at the house of wind practicing, and he got so frustrated after messing up the same measure for the millionth time. staring down at the keys - no, at his hands, his fingers... he slammed the keylid down on them over and over in a moment of rage ♡ when the IC asked why his fingers were wrapped, he'd told them he just trained too hard ♡ but he didn't stop playing. i like to think he plays in private. plays and sings for the shadows. and it's always beautiful ♡ he's got a soft spot for animals. specifically birds.. like owls and falcons i think. ♡ i also feel like he's got pre-mission rituals. like he's gotta sharpen his blades in a specific order, checks his gear once, twice, three times. reflects in front of the mirror for a few minutes, then heads out. i feel like it borders on compulsive. like he feels that if he deviates from it even slightly, something will go wrong with the mission. ♡ REALLY good with kids. they just gravitate toward him. he'll let them play with his shadows, shapes them into little animals too UGH uncle az with nyx is so :") ♡ has a small, hidden tattoo that means a lot to him and no one else knows about it. yes, he did it on himself. no, he isn't showing anyone except his mate. ♡ OH ALSO i feel like hes really good at dancing. like cmon he sneaks around all the time hes gotta be very nimble and quick on his feet. qualities of a good dancer. put him in a dance with nesta lets see THAT i have a lot of thoughts on azriel my bad

i love him

[gallifreyanhotfive]

I am so, so insane about your watching the show fic. I have reread it like 4 times by now lol (I am such a sucker for doctor/master and their incredibly toxic dynamic <3). I'm assuming at some point we'll see The Parting of the Ways bc I think Jack is a pretty big source of guilt for this doctor, but would we see The Empty Child/The Doctor Dances? and if you haven't thought abt it, would you consider it? I'm very biased about Jack lol (and the 9th doctor in general), so I'm rly curious abt it!

also, idk how you've managed to write so much in such a short amount of time it is incredibly impressive and I wish I had your powers of. write

Hi hi hi!!!! Thank you so much!!! (Feeling very blessed with interaction rn. Much serotonin. :))

I am also rather biased towards Jack. :) My favorite Doctor changes on almost a daily basis (depending on who I watched/listened to last usually), but Nine is also quite amazing.

I definitely plan on doing all three titles you listed above at some point. The Empty Child/The Doctor Dances is basically my favorite Nine story. :)

I'm not sure when I'll get there quite yet though. I tend to plan out several chapters in advance, but even those are subject to change until the moment I start writing them lollll

But the way things are going so far is that after The Giggle we are having an interlude, going away from the new series for a chapter, back to the new series for two chapters, and then going to the audios for a little bit. I kind of have an absolutely crazy plan going on in the back of my head right now (like dear God y'all have no idea the horrors I'm planning on pulling out of my sleeve).

But after I subject them to the next round of horrors, I was thinking of using The Empty Child/The Doctor Dances in particular as a 'cool down,' just as they will be having a cool down period after The Giggle. And I always love a quick reference to the Doctor’s early life of course, which that story has.

Anyway, I'm not going to reveal too many cards yet because I'm cackling to myself about my evil plan rn, but this is sort of the plan as of rn (but as I said, until it is being written, the order is subject to change)

An interlude (and the possible addition of some of my favorite companions I desperately regret deleting from my first draft - seriously I have been kicking myself for months - which would involve quickly catching them up)

A regeneration story (funny as hell considering they're expecting a calm adventure, but the Doctor doesn't even think this one is that bad in comparison...)

Oh My God What Happened to Him (another regeneration story, but this one is Painful)

Poor Clara had to deal with THREE of you?

There's three of you again here too. Who's Vansell? Oh no you got shot. Now your leg is broken. God damn it now you're screaming your head off.

Did Shakespeare just roofie you with ginger?!?!?!?!

You might want to get off that airship. It's going to crash. Did you just save someone who was supposed to die? Oh fuck now you're emotionally invested in her. Oh no now she's your best friend.

Plastic Daffodils and a Doomsday Weapon - Sounds Like a Date To Me

And then the next round of Horrors commence, after which will likely be The Empty Child because yes.

And so on and so forth...

[gayspock]

ok im lbing this bc we're not gonna get more for a long time

ok initial thoughts: zombies by the cranberries sent me a little loopy. im sorry. its a heartbreaking song, its a heartbreaking scene. but playing those both together is the funniest fucking thing you could do ever. heavens

second thoughts: i know there was a lotof, like, backlash abt the last ep regarding the present day girlies "giving in to lottie so easily" so its funny to see them ppl owned so early. LOL. although this cant end well and i have already been spoiled and i will say i saw that coming sort of but thought "no they wouldnt do that... tht sucks" but anyways

THIRD thoughts and last time im gonna open a thought with that: literally i said all that, but i know last week ppl also complaine saying they didnt "explain the game well enough" which i thought was stupid bc if they sat there and did thatd be clunky and dumb and ruin the horror of it so now misty is just exposition dumping to lottie im like for gods sake. and in some ways i do kinda get what theyre trying to do with it (misty would be frank about it and clear and etc) but i still think its just a bit alrighhttt alrighttt to watch

this is making me feel sick...

SHAUNA BEING THE DESIGNATED BUTCHER TOO... heavens and a bit.

TH

NOT THE DESIGNATED T...

this is so fucking crazy

HER COVERING HER EYES. I AM SICK. YOU KNOW WHEN THE WET, BIG BROWN PUPPY DOG EYES ARE GONE THE WORLD IS DARK AND CRUEL

ok but seeing trav crying over havi like that . meanwhile shauna was fucking sobbing with jackies corpse holding it for months. everything in the world mental

UGHHH FUCKING WALTERRRRR

SORRY IVE MADE MY FEELINGS CLEAR. I DO NOT LIKE HIS FUNCTION AS A CHARACTER. I THINK MISTY'S ARC WOULD BE SO MUCH FUCKING STRONGER WITHOUT HIM. GET MORE CREATIVE. YOU DONT NEED HIM . and its like hes not bad hes fine but its so annoying that they give him more FUCKING ATTENTION THAN FUCKING NAT AT THIS POINT

plus her dynamic with nat is so much better

i love adult shauna scheming. always gets them into a bit of a pickle. classic!

COACH BEN COMING BACK TO STIUATIONS IS FUCKING UNFATHOMABLY F- NATALIE WHAT HAPPENED

I FIGURED OUT WHERE HAVI WAS HIDING

DOES ANYONE HEAR HIM

YOURE N

I FEEL SICK

his little gorgeous babygirl tear.

coach ben your gay ass needs to move fast before the second most homophobic fast food chain after chick fil a opens up in the canadian wilderness with a limited menu of #1 fucking d

FUCK OFF ELIJAH WOODFUCK OFF KEVYN THIS IS SICK. UGHHHH YOU GUYS ARE THE WORST.

UGH

THIS WHOLE CONVO IS SO BORING IM ASLEEP WORST GUYS IN THE WORLD FUCK OFF THERES NO WAY WE'RE WASTING TIME ON THESE GUYS WHEN THERE'S LITERAL GIRLS EATING GIRLS

"A COVEN OF THEM ALL UP TO NO GOOD" OK that kinda ruled

JEFF WIN JEFF WIN JEFF WIN HIS BIGGG JEFFING COCK FUCKING RULES . NO JEFFING ABOUT.

YOU KILLED HIM?

OKAY jeff is raising the bar here im happy with jeff and walter jeffing and waltering and jaltering and weffing

is weffing something sexual it sounds sexual i hope to god not

shauna is so mother making a meal for the family 😊

THE WOBBLY HEART . MY GOD. DONT- DONT GIVE IT TO TRAVIS. DONT FUCKING LOOK AT HIM WITH THE WOBBLY HEART. COME ON BRO.

hes

um

raw.....

this is a little um

god the crazy parallels of lottie in the past fucking ruined over the ritual and lottie of the present being the most caught up in it. hellaur

IF YOU MAKE CALLIE DEAL WITH THAT ROTTEN COP I'LL KILL US ALL

SHAUNA DRAWING THE CARD?

"IT WAS JUST US!" "is there a difference?" EXACTLY. SAY THAT AT THE FUCKING C- SORRY BUT THEIR SLOW ASS RUNNING MADE ME LOSE IT

TH

THE TRUNK OF THE FUCKING CAR HELP THATS SO FUNNYYYY KEVYNNNNNN

CALLIE WITH A GUN

HI... OK. BUT THE ... OK IS ANYONE GOING CRAZY RIGHT NOW

i mean other than the girlies in animal masks in th e woods

lottie: everybo-

SHUT UP ITS CRAZY EVERY TIME THEY CUT FROM A FUTURE SCENE TO A PAST SCENE I GO STUPID IN THE HEAD

lottie: can you fucking kill me

lottie: can you fucking kill me and can i also elect the next girl president

ANTLER QUEEN?

NATALIE?

YOU MAKE ME SICK

YOU MAKE ME SICK THERES NOWAYYYYYYY

NATALIE NO MY SEET SWEETBABYGIRL

HEY

HI

AND HELLO

LISA....

LISA. NO. SURELY NOT.

OH MY GOD

NATALIE YOU ARE SO....

the nattielot stocks are literall crazy the nattielot stocks are literally in turmoil its like a rollercoaster its literally a thrillride they blow your brain right out up and down and round and round til your FUCKING BRAIN COMES OUT YOUR NOSE AS DINNER SURPRISE

travis......................

my god natalie atalie no NA QUEEN CA RD QU

NM

M

M

M

M

M

HI AND HELLO AND HI

SORRY . THATS TISTE DTHIS IS TWISTED THIS IS THE WORST FUCKING THING EVER IM ABSOLUTELY FURIOUS EVERYBODY VETTER FUCKING KILL

STOP PLAYING RADIOHEAD AND SLOWMOING HER FUCKING DEATH IS THERE NO FUCKING DIGNIT

NO THIS IS

YOU ALL.... ARE THE WORST.....

I HATE MY STUPID FUCKING EXISTENCE

ITS NOT EVIL ITS JUST HU

THE NATLOTTIE STOCKS JUST BURST

I FEEL ILL I HATE MY ST- NOT THE DRUG OVERDOSE. COME ON . I JSUT WANT TO FUCKING CRY THIS ALL FUCKING SUCCKS.

walter: um...... >_<

you guys fucking suck sending her there i know i know theres so few options but fu- VAN. PUT THOSE BIG WET EYES AWAY. PUT THAT AWE-INDUCED WET SMILE AWAY. COME ON GIRL. PULL IT TOGETHER

hey shauna

most normal girl in the world

coach ben said FUCK women. WOW. ALRIGHT. i mean it was... RIGHT LIKE HE?

HE SERIOUSLY JUST DECIDED FUCK THESE GIRLS OH MY GOD YES TYHIS IS THE FUCKING ENDING I WANTED

van being the last out vantler queen when?

THIS IS FUCKING NUTS

altrnateively the wilderness being like :/ you didnt need to do that to havi guys....

ANYWAYS GOD WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT

[luvlyycy]

for the character ask thingy: 5, 7, + 22 for any character of your choosing ^.^

“5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?”

“7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?”

“22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?”

-🫀

sorry im late !!! havent checked my asks in a bit <33 also, I'll do a few characters for each. uhhh 22. has a incest mention abt childe n dabi n tomu !!

5. law , light , gojo , deadpool.

the first thing that comes to mind when i think about law is his tattoos .. they are so cool !!

for light aaa.. I'd say i like to imagine what our domestic lives would be like.

for gojo, it's just dick. literally just his cawk n balls. him bein mean to me is all.

deadpool is how much of a cutie patootie he is and how he did cocaine (it baffles me).

7. law , zoro , childe , sukuna

for law its they give him vitiligo sometimes !!! I LOVE ITTT , and give him extra super duper many piercings... hes such a emo boy..

god , for zoro... WHEN THEY GIVE HIM HIS FUCKING MELANIN BACK AAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

for childe its vv simple, when they make him manipulative, weird, stalker-ish , n off putting perv.

no curse aus are my fav with jjk so, when they give sukuna piercings and make him like cute stuff..

22. gojo , sukuna , sanji , law , deadpool , childe , dabi , tomura .

what i like for fics abt gojo is when hes really crazed, like his pupils get blown out his normally pale face is flushed pink and hes breathing heavy.. i love crazy men. one thing i dont like abt some fics is when they make it seem like he doesn't care abt anyone but himself, at that point its not gojo its ur oc babe.

gosh, i like so much stuff abt sukuna fics, mostly when they make itadori present cus his dynamic with him is sososo cute, and it'd be funny if itadori saw his uncle with a girl whos so different from him. something i do not like issss when they make reader so terribly babyfied around kuna to the point her speech sounds like shes 10.

i love when sanji is pathetic in fics, hes so down bad for reader that when she kisses his cheek hes almost crying. i love my baby sm. STOP MAKING. HIM. OOC. he would NEVER disagree with reader, EVER.

i love everything abt law fics, every take is good, next.

deadpool fics need to be silly, thank you everyone who makes him say jokes in and out of sex. that said, why take away this mans mojo? its like cutting off a dogs tail... no mojo..

I LOVE. childe . i love when they make him weird, make him weirder pls. he loves stuffing his face in a hamper of your dirty clothes type of weird. of course if he was your brother he'd be into incest, ofc he would. hes so caring abt his little brother that he would kill for him, now imagine if he had a sister?? as beautiful as reader is??? yeah, he wants his sister. that said... please, im begging you, please, make him angrier. hes not a soft baby guyys.

love when they make dabi realistic . like ofc this guy would smoke cigarettes and have a tongue piercing, OF COURSE his whole body wouldnt be burnt in a modern au — its just a big tattoo. yeah, ofc if one of his sisters stuck around for him he'd be so attached to point where he feels actual love for her. why wouldnt he ? he wants sister!reader so bad, shut up. something i hate is ... when they make dabi an insufferable asshole. like guys, i guarantee you do not love and know dabi if you make him act like a prick cus thats not dabi or touya thats a weird third option.

sigh, love when hes perverted and into piss. cus i know hes into piss. he watches porn and hentai all the fucking time, his balls are always full of nasty bitter disgusting cum because he doesnt eat or drink well. yeah hes seen sister/brother sex, why wouldn't he wanna try it? why wouldnt he call his sister mommy? or even call his gf mommy? hes a fucking bottom. when he tops he WHINES. hes a fucking loser who wants to do disgusting things to his sister and his gf. hes a fucked up person but underneath all that, hes a fucking NICE guy. overall, tomura is a gooner. stop taking away these guys mojo. im gonna kill you.

[bugaboooooooooo]

Chapter 12 of my fic ''A blessing in disguise!''

Enjoy!

Info abt the fic + first chapter here.

*****

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(Saturday)

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The next morning, Marinette woke up without any worries. But then all the memories of yesterday came flooding back, and her head began to spin. Tikki quickly calmed her down. She headed downstairs to the bathroom. Once she stood before the sink, she began examining her reflection. Her dark hair was a mess and her eyes were slightly swollen from crying, but overall she looked okay. She quickly washed her face. Just when she wanted to grab a towel, Tikki popped up right in front of her. The kwami studied her face, trying to read her expression.

''How are you feeling?'' she asked tentatively.

Marinette smiled, her heart not exactly in it. ''I could be worse.''

Tikki pursed her lips. At last, she said, ''Hey, maybe you can go sketch something. That always makes you feel better, right?''

She nodded. ''That's a good idea. I think I'll do that. But first, I want to check the news footage.''

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Marinette plopped down onto her chair and sighed. She wasn't looking forward to watching herself terrorize Paris, but she felt obliged to. It was something she had to do. After all, the first step to get over stuff is to accept it. Marinette nodded to herself. She was ready to watch this.

And if she was completely honest, she was a bit curious. Sure, she'd seen some footage with Luka, but it wasn't much. She wanted to see the full picture.

She started up her computer. After a few seconds, her screensaver popped up; a hamster in a polar bear onesie. She smiled. She used to have a collage of photos of Adrien as her screensaver, but over time, she'd decided to use something else. Adrien... her thoughts quickly wandered over to the blond boy. Tikki must have noticed her dazed expression. She felt the kwami bumping her shoulder, and was jerked back to reality. She was met with a stern glance of her kwami. She smiled sheepishly.

''Right. Footage. Akuma.''

She opened the news channel and began watching. Nadja Chamack began describing the akuma— Little Devil, as the camera showed Francois Dupont. Students were running in all directions. Teachers tried to herd them towards the exit. Demons swarmed the place. Occasionally, a student became a victim of the Lil Devils. Marinette winced at the scene. Had she caused all that chaos?

The camera zoomed in on Little Devil, and Marinette could finally see herself properly for the first time. She wore thigh-length boots, with little bat wings on the side and black dungaree shorts. A tail irritatedly swished behind her back. Two wings folded protectively around her shoulders. Opera gloves covered about two-third of her arms. A choker graced her neck, and red and yellow hearts were spread across the whole design.

Marinettes gaze flicked towards her face. Her eyes widened in horror. She— the akuma— looked terrifying. Little Devils skin was crimson red. Parts of her hair were turned up to resemble horns. Black ovals encircled her eyes. And god, the eyes themselves... Marinette resisted the urge to cower behind her chair. Her eye white was a sickly yellow colour, and her pupils were reduced to slits. Her once so friendly eyes were filled with hate and malice. Nevertheless, Marinette forced herself to look at them.

Little Devil flashed a smile towards the camera and blew a kiss. It was terrifying. Little Devil managed to turn the simplest actions into something sinister and ominous. It was like she was trying to say hey Paris, this is your new ruler! Cross me, and you'll be sorry you were ever born! Good day!

The scene changed. Marinette was now looking at a girl in the process of demonization. The girl beat her fists on the ground and wailed. Marinette flinched. It was horrible. Then, the poor thing raised her head and looked directly into the camera. She had a crazy and desperate gleam in her eyes. She seemed to be sending one message: run. while you still can. Marinette felt her eyes prickling. Tikki paused the video.

''I think that's enough for now,'' she said softly.

Marinette nodded numbly. She didn't think she could handle seeing any more of that.

Tikki nudged her. The bluenette glanced at the kwami and smiled slightly; she'd brought her her sketchbook, along with a pencil and eraser.

''Thanks, Tikki,'' she murmured.

And with that, she began sketching.

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Note to reader:

This is Marinette's screensaver btw:

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Marinette examined her sketches. For some reason, her brain had decided to incorporate elements of her akuma in her drawings. She looked at them again. The longer she stared at them, the more the whole idea started to grow on her. Finally, she snapped her fingers. Tikki frowned.

''What is it, Marinette?'' she asked.

But the bluenette didn't hear her. Her brain was going 600 miles an hour. She rapidly began sketching again, putting her idea on paper.

''Marinette?''

Tikki sounded quite concerned now. Not wanting to worry the kwami, Marinette paused quickly.

''Look! I'm going to design an outfit based on my akuma!'' she hastily said before returning to her sketchbook.

Tikki flew closer to the paper. She stayed there until Marinette finally put her pencil down triumphantly.

''Ha!'' the bluenette cried. She examined the drawing, her eyes brimming with excitement.

Tikki drifted to her eye level and studied the paper. Finally, she broke into a huge grin.

''Marinette! This is amazing!'' she squealed.

The bluenette puffed out her chest. She felt great.

And then Tikki completely hyped her up with her next suggestion.

''Marinette,'' the kwami began, ''What if you design outfits inspired by other akuma's?''

Marinette's eyes filled with euphoria and she was practically vibrating. She suspected that she looked like a complete madman. But that didn't matter now. Marinette kissed the kwami on her forehead.

''Tikki, that's brilliant!''

And so, she began sketching.

For the first time that day, Marinette felt that maybe, today wasn't going to be that bad.

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Tikki nudged Marinette gently. Luckily, the girl had calmed down since her creative epiphany. The downside to that was that she was probably driving herself crazy now thinking about her akumatization. Tikki decided to try and make her think about something else.

''So, any ideas what you want to do for your birthday?'' she asked her.

Marinette laughed weakly. ''Honestly, with all that's been going on, I don't think I'm going to celebrate my birthday this year. I still have so much to do...'' She didn't bother finishing the sentence, and instead traced one of her designs with her finger. ''I simply don't have the energy to host a party on top of everything,'' she concluded with a heavy sigh.

Tikki nodded sympathetically. ''You know you don't have to host a party, right? You can just do something else.''

Marinette shook her head. ''Maybe... oh, I don't know Tikki.''

Tikki could tell the girl didn't want to talk about it, so she took it as a sign to switch the topics. She desperately tried to think of something new. Luckily, Marinette had just finished one design. Tikki decided to let the young designer talk about the thing she loved most: designing.

''What akuma are you going to do now?'' she asked her.

Marinette smiled and began typing something on her computer. ''Silencer,'' she said while clicking on an image of said akuma.

Tikki nodded. The bluenette started sketching some ideas based on Silencer. After a few minutes, she frowned. Tikki nudged her gently.

''What's wrong?'' she asked.

Marinette groaned. ''I don't know... something's just not right here,'' she said, gesturing at the various sketches.

Tikki glanced at them. There was indeed something off. She tried to figure out what. The leather jacket was nice, and so were the pants. But the T-shirt... aha! That's what was wrong! There was no contrast between the black shirt and the jacket. She shared her thoughts with Marinette.

''So yeah, that's what I think you could change,'' she concluded.

The kwami glanced at her holder, waiting for a reaction. Slowly, the bluenette began nodding.

''That's... genius! Let me just...'' she trailed off, already putting the idea on paper. Her pencil furiously scratched against the paper.

Tikki noticed she'd changed stuff up a bit, along with adding Tikki's own suggestions. The long lilac pants were transformed into shorts of a bluer hue. The leather jacket was swapped for a baseball jacket. The shoes were given a more purple tint and the colour of the headphones was inverted.

Once Marinette was satisfied with the sketch, she grinned and hastily whipped out a couple of markers. Tikki watched in awe as the drawing came to life.

''There!'' Marinette exclaimed happily.

Across the paper stood a hip girl dressed in a baseball jacket and ripped shorts. She sported some rollerblades, along with black and green headphones. The white T-shirt underneath her jacket had Silencer's music wave logo embedded.

Tikki squealed. She always had a soft spot for arts, being the kwami of creation, but this drawing— it was amazing. Marinette had incorporated so many details of the akuma into her drawing, making it completely unique.

''Marinette, this is amazing!'' she exclaimed.

The bluenette chuckled and wordlessly began designing the back of the jacket. Slowly, Tikki could make out the design: a lilac angular shape, with in the middle an S. She assumed that stood for Silencer. The bold design really stood out against the black jacket.

Tikki was jerked out of her wonder when Marinette gasped slightly. The kwami frowned slightly.

''What is it, Marinette?''

A grin crept up her mouth. She gestured at the picture on her computer. ''Right, so you see the headgear Silencer is wearing?'' she asked.

Tikki nodded.

Marinette took this as a sign to continue. ''Well, what if I give her,'' she pointed to the girl in her drawing, ''a biker helmet?''

The kwami pondered this. ''That's a great idea!'' she finally said.

Marinette puffed out her chest a bit and began sketching. Tikki smiled. It was good to see her chosen one so in her element.

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Edit: I completely FORGOT to link those outfits Marinette made!! You can view them here.

[rosykims]

omg tay ... is there anything u can tell us abt ur godwoken ... i wanna know all abt them

ok well first of all i love u forever for asking ophelia !!! 🥺🥺 and secondly she's actually one of ....... 4 godwokens so far 🤡 since im so lost in the dos2 sauce rn i apparently cant help myself. i usually dont like making multiple ocs but dos2 is just SO good for multi chara worldstates, and i like to think they all hang out ykno..... <3 tho as much as i'd love to go crazy go stupid about all of them i would literally be infodumping all night so i'll spare u that and refrain from inflicting the rest of the squad upon ye....for now...

(also disclaimer even tho i have like 200 hours in this game i still have so little understanding of the lore lol....so a lot of this might be subject to change. anyways)

NADAIA "DAIA" [LAST NAME PENDING LOL]

aka my baby my darling my angel

she/her, elven, lawful neutral, around 50ish years old so still super young considering elves r literally immortal lol

pyromancer + priestess (priest class is a mod i'm pretty sure, but it makes more sense for her than a hydrosophist build imo) with the scholar and noble personality tags ! so she's a stuffy nerd who will either heal u or burn u to a crisp <3

begrudgingly romances fane — her main party is fane/lohse/ifan!

out of all four of my dos2 godwokens she is the only one who (reluctantly) ascends, making her my canon divine

she was orphaned at a young age, has absolutely no idea what happened to her family or who they were

born and raised in arx, she was taken in by priests of the divine order at a young age. while this gave her the safety/order/education she needed as a child, her being an elf meant she was p much immediately put to work as a servant and not given too much extra thought. she grew up shadowing healers and priests who tended to the magisters, and — through dedication, experience, and SO much bs —eventually became a formidable healer herself. one of the best in arx.

despite growing up within the heart of the divine order, she's never really had much true loyalty towards them, since she cares more for the PEOPLE she would see and help every day, over some abstract and shadowy institution. in fact i'd say she was always a bit wary/resentful of the magister ideals, because SHE was the one who would have to take care of the people who were harmed in it's name. so she saw first hand what zealotry was capable of and wasn't super surprised when the order went nuts and turned on sourcerers.

instead of fleeing she remained to try and help deradicalize magisters on the inside, as well as work with sympathisers to help sourcers and their families hide or get out of the city. obviously she was eventually caught and sent to fort joy, but i like to think she was the reason a lot of former magisters deserted the order and went on to join the seekers 😔✊

personality wise she is..... very GOOD and mostly kind, but she can be short and impatient with people who try to test the limits of her politeness lol. being a healer to MAGISTERS of all people means shes been exposed to SO much stupidity and really doesnt have ANY tolerance to absorb more. so sometimes her "kindness" involves ...... chewing someone out until they get their shit together and stop wasting her time. she's very "im not angry, just disappointed. just kidding i'm also fucking angry lol". other than that she's gentle, introspective and quite serious, but has a lot of passion for people in general and couldn't stand on the sidelines even if she wanted to

i'm still working on some of the big building blocks of her lore, like a more solid motivation for wanting divinity other than just restoring the divine order, as well as figuring out more about her family (thinking she could be a lost scion t b h 👀) and what her relationships are with the gods. but i like to think she has always held an inexplicable *feeling* of divinity that she could never understand, and her finding herself more or less within arms reach of the former divine as a child might have smth to do with fate putting her where she needed to be. idk. mostly i just think she's neat !

[seekforwarmth]

HELLOOOOO from your secret santa🎄🧑🏻‍🎄🤍:

I'm really sorry for the very late message, life it's been very busy this couple of days and the closest we get to Christmas, the more crazy my work gets:( But here I am again, just trying to cheer up your day a little bit<33. I hope you didn't miss me too much;).

First things first, how are you? I'm glad you had a good day yesterday and I really hope you had a wonderful day today as well ❤️‍🩹.

So, you're a math teacher, huh? You clever girl. That's amazing! I've always been the worst at Maths, I don't hate them, I respect them but they're so difficult! I mean, I know it's just practice and logic but sometimes my brain frozes at the sight of many numbers hahaha:( So, how you do it? Have you always liked Maths? I'm interested! ☺️

Omg, such a nice combo of colors! I like Pink too! It's really cute and you can mix it with a lot of different colors and it'll look good! And pink it's definitely a calm person color! So i get it <3 One of your favorite numbers it's also one of mine😱. Crazy coincidence, don't you think?

It's amazing to know that our birthdays are close to each other. My birthday is in July and it's also when the springs ends and summer begins. I'm a summer baby!! 🌞 What season do you like more? I used to love summer but where I live it's really really hot, it's unbearable but when it's winter it's too freaking cold, so I prefer autumn, always.

This message is getting so long, my god. I'm sorry but I love to talk a lot, if you can see. So I'll make this quick, my questions for today are: do you consider yourself an introvert or extrovert person? Do you like cats or dogs? And last but no least, favorite song when you where a child? 👀

I'm loving getting to know you better, hope you been liking it too <33

Have a good rest of your evening/night. Sending you a big and warm hug. xx 😙

helloooooo! omg santa, you’re so sweet! please don’t worry abt the messages, i was too happy that i got two yesterday that i didn’t worry much abt getting one today, please don’t stress abt it! hopefully you’re not too stressed? if you even feel too tired just send an emoji and i’ll know, okay? no need to say more <3 but yes, i still missed you.

i’m good, today was eventful really except for some disciplinary matters that i had to deal with my students but nothing big. after worked i came home and watched a match from the world cup, then i read a fic and took a nap. do you like football? fics? naps? hehe. how was your day?

i’ve always been interested in maths and i think part of me being a teacher comes from the times i used to help my classmates with their exercises. i think we’re all good at math bc they’re literally everywhere. you don’t have to solve a quadratic equation to be good at maths, so i’m sure you’re excellent!

i’m so happy to know we both like pink and, what was the number we coincide on? it’s crazy but maybe it’s just something telling us that we’ll get along just fine!

oh, a summer baby! i think we’re in the same hemisphere then hehe. i think i always say fall is my fave season but where i live it’s always hot so there isn’t really a difference between seasons. i like the ~aesthetic though.

you can write and talk as much as you want to, please feel free! i love reading your thoughts. :) and to answer your questions; i’m definitely an introvert even if i talk a lot, but it takes some time for me to be totally comfortable sharing my thoughts hehe. i like both, but i lean towards cats bc i have one! he’s my most precious thing in the world! and a song that i remember listening and singing when i was a toddler was “what’s up?” by 4 non blondes. every time i listen to it, i get flashbacks. it’s not my fave song but i wouldn’t know how to pick one. do you have a fave song?

thank you so much for your message, it brightened up my day! hope you’re having a nice evening. sending a hug back. <333

[thecloversandtherosethorns]

Silver's Letters

These are some of the last Letters Silver wrote to her father before she passed. They're taken from different times in her life and dont have any exact dates. But they are in order basicly. There might be more letters in between them too but this is what we have for now:> 

Hello again dad. A bit of a long time since i've written to you. Everything around here has been crazy! I've finally moved together with Anthony! U know the one that I talked abt so much before?? We met again after highschool or maybe in it or something? He is doing so much better now!! It almost doesnt show at all that he's been sick. Maybe only his eyes can tell. They look a bit too knowledgeable for anyone's good. I feel like mine can look like that too sometimes. As if my resting face is just hella depressed, but im not!!! My face never rests for long!! U not being able to be beside me won’t stop me dad!! I'll live the best life ever and u'll be able to read it all if you want to<3 Me and Anthony found a place near St. Magdalena or something like that. Its a rather new city, with very good hospital peeps if u can pay for em. Not that we need that anymore since Anthony is okay now^^ Its pretty but, a bit noisy here. It'll probably calm whenever u become king. In the meantime we'll wear soundblockers;3 and be just fine^^  

-Goodbye for now. Hope ur okay. Gotta go to Tony now

Dad!!! Dibdsksb oh The First!! I purposed!!! He said yes!!! Me and Anthony are getting MARRIEEEED oh my god!!!!! He was blushing and crying and i was blushing and crying and oh RCD!!! I really hope u can come! I'll send and invitation with the envelope!! But hey, if u cant then no one will hold it against you dad! Ur always with me! Even tho it only goes one wayX3 Mom never stopped stressing how much love you would give if you were here. Like, she literally still gives me the double amount of hug-time than other parents ever would. Just to give a hug from u to me as well. She's awsome. But damn. I think i'll give her an extra hug too. She was so happy for us!! But i could see an undertone of longing. Or remembering. But ye see ya! Gotta plan a wedding!! 

 -love, ur daughter, soon to be a wife!

DAD UR A GRANDFATHER NOW!!!!! me and Anthony's son Michael was born yesterday!! He has mom's eyes!!! And our freckles!!! He also has Anothony's spotted ears. We dont know abt his hair yet since he's such a tiny lil alien blob. But he's mine so he is beyond loved and accepted! I just hope I can be a good mother.. I really really hope i can. I bet i will!!! Especially with the help of mom!! And Anthony!! Awwwww he's a father now aaaa. U must feel old now grampsX3 

-Love, ur daughter, busy being a mom! 

Dad.. To be honest i feel off. I've been feeling off for months now. I think my balance ain't too great. In life i mean. Mom passed away too... I think she wrote to you. I dont wanna get this paper soaked. So back to my balance. We have a 3 year old in the house now. He is a true light! Shining and running around. His smile is absolutely adorable. I see so much of Anthony in the little boy. He says he sees alot of me in all his energy. But again. I think i've lost it a bit. Or i am still losing it? Idk. I think i am working too much. But we need income right? So i cant just not either. I need to feed my 2 little guys. Anthony is working too! He needs to set his feet up high after work tho. Nothing too bad he says. So i really dont think its that bad. I just hope it NEVER escalates or something . .

-Love, Silver

Hi dad. I- Anthony is sick. He cant go anywhere anymore. Sometimes he gets in his wheelchair and plays a bit with Michael, but mostly he's in bed. He is in pain. My love is in pain dad! And idk what to do! I am working my ass off! Trying to take care of Michael too! I am so tired dad. So so tired. I can't get the money Anthony needs. The work payment here is bad. I never realized, but the more dependant we got on our income it seemed to get more and more hopeless. We can't get enough to move either. No matter what we sell or gain. How did i end up here? A 6 year old child and a husband thats... Dying. H-how.. What am i suppost to do? I wish you were here dad! I wish that bitch would let you go!! I hope... You're okay.. Or better than this.. Or idk.. I just hope and pray that someday, me and you can take care of Anthony, take a walk to the playground with michael, and light candles at mom's gravestone.. Wouldn't that be nice dad? 

-Love, ur daughter, Silver

. . Hi dad. This is the last letter i write. Not because i dont like writing them, but because, after this there will be nothing more for me to write. Anthony hasn't gotten any better. We still dont have the money to help him. I have no energy left. I can't even stop Mike from crying. He misses his dad. I am a ghost of myself dad. I dont have mom's guidance either. Dear RCD i miss her.. I've always been used to her being here, for me, with me. I can't get over it. I know its silly. As if i'm still just a child... I guess i still am.. Dad.. I am so sorry. I am so sorry i never get to meet you. To give you a pure and proper hug.. I think under the exterior you've made urself as the king, there is a man in great pain. The Borders of the ghost gang here. They're so violent.. I hope Anthony and Mike will be okay after this.. You'll take care of them if you see them right? Promise me. Just like i promised to never give up on ur kindness to mom. And even though i've doupted it after you became king, im still writing to u. So.. I never gave that up. Not even now, when i am giving your daughter up. Her lost life will give the rest of her family enough money. Anthony will be able to get a perminant surgery, and Mike and him will be able to get away from this dump! I will watch over them... 

Dad. Just know that even tho u never got the chance to be there for me. You.. You were always here.. Truly. I've ventelated so much to you with these letters over the years. I think you know even more than mom ever did. Not just because she died but, yeah. Its not because of ur absence that you're losing me.. I've just lost the battle so many times. I can’t rise. Not like you and mom. I've never seen your strength in action, but mom said she never matched ur strength. and she was so strong.. I'm sorry you ended up with this child as cliche as it sounds. I am sorry... I will never know.. Dad.. I will never know how good your hugs are.. Or what you're favorite tea that Oscar makes actually smells like. Mom said she never got them right like Oscar did. I will never know how you've been.. How it was.. Living in that prison.. I will never know what your favorite TV show is today.. I will never see you in person. Mom said you had long fluffy hair.. Do you still have that? Heh. We share eyes too. I think they're both very tired. I just hope that u can stay alive for Mike or.. Something. Not do what i am doing.. Dad. I truly and utterly love you. From the bottom of my heart i do. I hope and pray that someone will show you that you deserve proper good love. I am sorry that person will never be me. Goodbye dad. I love you.  

-Sincerely, your daughter, Silver Rosethorn Clover