#goal is to also make gifs or photoshoots for each day

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Jealous - Antoine Griezmann x reader (Part I)

Requested: Yes ("antoine griezmann angst plz! u guys have an argument about something, and ignore each other but then make up" - Anon)

Pairing: Antoine Griezmann x Female!Reader

Summary: Your boyfriend Antoine sees you with Mbappé and a big misunderstanding follows.

Word Count:  1.2k

Warnings: Angst, mention of cheating, false accusation

A/N: Sorry for the delay, college is hell! This is actually wayyy longer than I intended, so I'll do it in two parts :) I hope this is what you had in mind. Also please note that this is my first time writing angst so I hope it's not too cringe lol. GIF isn't mine. (I found the perfect one but it's too big for Tumblr 😫) ENGLISH ISN'T MY FIRST LANGUAGE!

PART ONE

You had been Didier Deschamps’ assistant for a few years now, and you really liked your job, as helping the Coach with basically everything wasn’t that hard. You had a good relationship with him, and you were close to all the players. You had a sister-brother relationship with most of them – except for one. You had just started working for the team when Antoine first arrived, and you two instantly became friends, getting closer and closer every time you saw each other during international breaks. You two eventually fell for each other and started dating. Antoine made you the happiest you had ever been, and you enjoyed the idea of spending the rest of your life with him. Living in different countries – as you lived in France and he lived in Madrid – really was a challenge at times, but you both worked hard to make it work. It had almost been a year since you’ve started dating now, and the Bleus had arrived today in their home of Clairefontaine. You greeted each of them as they entered the castle, and tried your best not to treat Antoine differently – as while Deschamps was happy for you guys, he still asked for you and Antoine to remain professional. It was hard of course but you still managed to do it despite Antoine who constantly was winking at you and never missed an opportunity to give you a kiss or to kiss your neck when you where alone or in public while no one was watching.

The first day went smoothly, with a training session and the guys catching up with each other. While Antoine and the rest of the players were all doing a photoshoot for new official pics and the Coach was busy on the phone, you sat in the living room and checked the week’s schedule to make sure everything was okay when Kylian entered, still wearing his football kit from the photoshoot.

“Hey,” you smiled. “Already done?”

“Yeah, they only need a few pics for each of us,” the striker said, sitting next to you in front of the TV. “You should have seen the way Theo was trying to distract me with his stupid jokes.”

You and Kylian were basically the same age, but he still acted like a big brother towards you, the same way Hugo and Olivier did. His girlfriend was actually one of your closest friends, and you were very happy for them.

“Typical,” you answered with a soft laugh, shaking your head. The Bleus could be childish sometimes, and they often needed you to be their babysitter but you still loved them dearly. “By the way, you have an interview for a TV channel tomorrow and the day before the match, you and Didier have a press conference.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

After a second Kylian stood up all of a sudden, and went to grab a PlayStation’s controller.

“Hey, Y/N, wanna play?”

Since you had nothing to do, you accepted. You and Kylian played at FIFA, and you were actually doing great, having played countless times with the other members of the team over the years. You won a few games and Kylian won a few as well, and this time you both scored twice. You scored a victory goal at the last minute, and let out a victory scream before laughing but Kylian wasn’t having it.

“Come on, you cheated. Nah, nah, stop it, this ain’t happening. You cheated.”

“Oh, stop it,” you said after you controlled your laugh. “I just scored, that’s all. Maybe if you weren’t terrible-”

“You little-”

He grabbed a pillow from behind him and proceeded to hit on your face and your belly with it, accusing you of being a cheater, but you also grabbed the pillow next to you to hit him back. You both were out of breath from too much laughing when Antoine appeared at the door.

“Yo, man”, Kylian said, the pillow still in his hand. “Are they finished yet?”

But Antoine remained silent, and the cold look he had in his blue eyes was more than unusual. All joy left your body and your boyfriend turned around and left without a word.

“Oh come on, Grizi, don’t be silly-”

You didn’t hear the rest of what Kylian said because you immediately followed Antoine in another room.

“Antoine,” you called him, trying to walk as fast as him. “Antoine, please. What is it? What’s wrong?”

After a while, Antoine finally turned around to face you and finally spoke.

“‘What’s wrong’?” he said harshly, no longer hiding his anger. “Really, Y/N? I find you like this with another man and you ask me what’s wrong?”

Before you could answer, he turned back and started walking again in a corridor.

“Yes!”, you exclaimed, feeling exasperated.

You really were confused by Antoine’s behavior, as he wasn’t really the jealous type, and you made it clear to him when you started dating that his teammates were the brothers you never had and that nothing – mostly due to most of them dating someone or being married – would ever happen between you and any of them, or anybody else.

“You’re acting like this because I played with Kylian?!” you said, raising your voice. “You’ve got to be kidding me.”

You prayed that it was all a joke, that he would turn around, laugh and take you in his arms saying “I got you again, babe!”. But Antoine didn’t turn.

“Antoine can you just stop acting like a fucking child for once?” you screamed.

You were now upstairs, in the corridor where the players’ bedrooms were. Benjamin and Presnel – who apparently finished right after Kylian and went directly to their rooms – put their heads outside Presnel’s door, probably wondering why you were screaming, but when they understood what was going on they quickly put their heads back and closed the door. Antoine let out a big sigh and turned around at last.

“I don’t get why you’re reacting like this,” you said with your usual voice, feeling sadness coming to replace the anger. “Me and Kylian, and the entire team actually, are just friends and you know it!”

“No, ‘friends’ don’t act like that,” Antoine retorted.

“We were playing around!” you raised your voice again, feeling frustrated and misunderstood. “You know Kylian and Emilie are dating and that he loves her! She told me they even talked about getting engaged!”

“Yeah, well, in that case he’s not better than you,” Antoine spat.

“Are you- Are you accusing me of cheating?” you asked, your heart sinking in your chest.

You couldn’t believe your ears. Antoine and you always trusted each other. At least you thought so. You saw Antoine being a bit taken aback by your question, and he thought for a second, the coldness and anger in his eyes not leaving.

“Well, who knows what was going on before I came? How can I know? Maybe you were kissing. Maybe you cheated with some other guys.”

As you felt tears coming, you suddenly heard someone coming behind you, and Paul put himself right next to you.

“Grizou, please,” he said with a calming yet firm voice. “You can’t say that, man. I can’t let you say that. I don’t know what you think Y/N did but you know she loves you and would never cheat. She’s our sister, nothing else. Chill the hell out.”

“Mind your fucking business,” Antoine spat. “When I want idiotic dances I’ll ask you.”

He gave you a look full of anger and even disgust before going to his room and slamming the door behind him. You couldn’t stand it anymore and started crying. Paul immediately tried to soothe you, quickly joined by Benjamin and Hugo, and you felt like your whole world was shattering in pieces.

PART II

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Taylor and Joe in 2019 

January 2nd – Joe is seen leaving Taylor’s Tribeca apartment. (x)

January 6th – They both attend the Golden Globes in LA.

“While Taylor presented, Joe watched the teleprompter near him and smiled and [his The Favourite costar] Nicholas Hoult patted him on the back. After Gaga walked on stage, Joe shifted his gaze to the stage near Taylor. She was smiling at him while she walked off the stage. She looked over her shoulder and gave a sassy cute little smile at his table’s direction.” 

(via US Weekly)

January 6th – An ET reporter asks Joe if he and Taylor would ever work together. (x)

“It’s not planned at the moment but who knows.”

“Swift joined Alwyn at Fox’s party at the Beverly Hilton Hotel. The instant she entered the event, the “Gorgeous” singer made a beeline for The Favourite star, putting her head on his shoulder and hand on his chest. Swift didn’t leave Alwyn’s side, posing for photos and chatting with Alwyn’s co-star, Nicholas Hoult, as she kept her hand around Alwyn’s waist. At the end of the evening, the two exited through the back of the venue and away from the crowds.” 

(via Entertainment Tonight)

FOX Post Show Celebration was also one of the starriest, with The Favourite cast holding court at their table and having a ball throughout the night. Big winner Olivia Colman was seen taking shots with Joe Alwyn, who was accompanied by girlfriend Taylor Swift the whole night. 

The Grammy winner cheered on the cast as they took the shots and was affectionate with her beau throughout the celebration. The ultra-private couple was spotted kissing and cozying up at their table along with Alwyn’s Favourite costar Emma Stone and her Saturday Night Live writer boyfriend Dave McCary. 

(via PEOPLE)

CAA party: Alwyn and Swift made a brief appearance around 1 a.m. Security swarmed them,” the source says. “They sat in a couch at a table with their drinks in the back of the party and were talking with several people. They looked at each other a few times and it seemed like Joe was trying to make sure she was OK and gauge when she wanted to leave. They were then escorted out of a private exit together.”

(via E Online)

Video of them arriving at one of the afterparties.

February 8th – Taylor and Joe are spotted leaving The Spaniards Inn in Hampstead, London. (x)

February 9th – They’re seen walking around in Notting Hill.

February 10th – Taylor skips the Grammys and attends several BAFTA afterparties with Joe instead. (x) (x)

Taylor Swift spotted caressing Joe Alwyn after sneaking into BAFTA dinner (x)

Determined to keep a low profile, Taylor swerved the main event at the Royal Albert Hall attended by the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge and headed straight to the exclusive dinner at the swanky Grosvenor Hotel on Park Lane.

“Taylor and Joe spent most of the evening in the middle of the room near the head table and based on table 68. They were chatting to colleagues but Taylor didn’t hide her affection towards Joe. She was seen caressing his back as they chatted away to a pal. It was clear they were an item but Taylor appeared conscious not to make a big deal about her appearance - she was just there for a good time rather than working like she would have to at the Grammys. Taylor didn’t leave Joe’s side all evening.”

Keen to keep a memento from the night, Taylor was seen taking home two pottery rabbit table decorations from her table. 

Taylor talked to a Grazia reporter about The Favourite and how proud she was of him. (x)

While Grazia chatted to Joe about working with Olivia Colman (‘She was amazing,’ he gushed), Taylor appeared and gave him a congratulatory squeeze. ‘I was watching the show from home,’ she told us. ‘Every time The Favourite won another award, I was just squealing! I couldn’t believe it,’ she continued. ‘It’s so great for him – and it’s his first time coming to the BAFTAs, so it’s exciting. It’s a big deal.’ The singer, who is currently filming Cats, added how ‘proud’ she was of Joe’s success. 

They were seen leaving the Vogue / Tiffany & Co afterparty. (video) (x)

February 12th – In an interview with ET, Rebel Wilson is asked whether she’s seen Joe on the set of CATS. (x)

“I haven’t! I have met him, but not on set.” 

February 22nd – Taylor and Joe attend the CAA Oscars pre-party in West Hollywood. (x)

February 23rd – The Mirror publishes an article about Olivia Colman and Taylor becoming friends through Joe. (x)

A source revealed: “After the Baftas Taylor sang up a storm with Olivia Colman, Joe and Melissa McCarthy too at a London hotel. They had their own room and Olivia and Taylor were behaving like best buddies.Taylor thinks Olivia is amazing, she loves her and the sing song wasn’t a one off.” The insider added: “They have already made plans for Oscar week. They’re going to have a rerun of the karaoke night and Olivia has even been to Taylor and Joe’s LA home too.”

February 24th – Taylor and Joe hang out with Martha, Camila Cabello and Matthew Hussey at the Vanity Fair Oscars afterparty.

Video of them at the Fox afterparty.

“Taylor Swift made a surprise appearance with her boyfriend, The Favourite star Joe Alwyn. As the party wound down, Swift and Alwyn were overheard contemplating late-night karaoke with Alwyn’s co-star Nicholas Hoult.”

(via Vanity Fair)

February 25th – Joe posts a photo taken in Taylor’s LA house.

March 3rd – Taylor and Joe are seen hiking together in the Santa Monica mountains. (video) 

A picture he took of her is later included in the Lover photoshoot. (x)

March 6th – Taylor drops an ELLE article titled “30 Things I Learned Before Turning 30.″ (x)

How to fight fair with the ones you love. Chances are you’re not trying to hurt the person you love and they aren’t trying to hurt you. If you can wind the tension of an argument down to a conversation about where the other person is coming from, there’s a greater chance you can remove the shame of losing a fight for one of you and the ego boost of the one who “won” the fight. I know a couple who, in the thick of a fight, say “Hey, same team.” Find a way to defuse the anger that can spiral out of control and make you lose sight of the good things you two have built. They don’t give out awards for winning the most fights in your relationship. They just give out divorce papers.

Apologizing when you have hurt someone who really matters to you takes nothing away from you. Even if it was unintentional, it’s so easy to just apologize and move on. Try not to say “I’m sorry, but...” and make excuses for yourself. Learn how to make a sincere apology, and you can avoid breaking down the trust in your friendships and relationships.

For too long, the projected opinions of strangers affected how I viewed my relationships. Whether it was the general internet consensus of who would be right for me, or what they thought was “couples goals” based on a picture I posted on Instagram. That stuff isn’t real. For an approval seeker like me, it was an important lesson for me to learn to have my OWN value system of what I actually want.

Playing mind games is for the chase. In a real relationship or friendship, you’re shooting yourself in the foot if you don’t tell the other person how you feel, and what could be done to fix it. No one is a mind reader. If someone really loves you, they want you to verbalize how you feel. This is real life, not chess.

April 17th – Emma Roberts and Garrett Hedlund (Joe’s Billy Lynn co-star) visit Joe and Taylor at their LA place. (x)

April 24th – Taylor sends @/daylightanna – a family friend of the Alwyns – reputation merch and a signed photo for her birthday. (x)

April 26th – Taylor posts a video of her cat Benjamin Button, and Joe’s hand is clearly visible at the start of the clip. (x)

April 30th – In the ME! behind the scenes video where Taylor meets Benji, she says she has to “get on the phone” before she can adopt him. (x)

May 1st – In an interview with iHeartRadio Canada, Taylor is asked about how she chose Benji’s name. (x)

What made you decide to go with the name Benjamin Button?

I really liked the movie Benjamin Button.

Okay, that’s a good answer.

And Benjamin Button in the movies is such a good guy, you know? He’s always doing the right thing.

May 2nd – The day after the BBMAs, Taylor leaves Las Vegas for London.

May 4th – Taylor is seen in Notting Hill (again).

May 15th – Taylor is interviewed on The Ellen Show, and at one point Ellen says to the audience, “We have to take a break, and then uh, we’re gonna come back and she’s gonna talk all about her boyfriend!” (video)

May 21st – Taylor leaves LA for London, and then she and Joe fly to France the next day.

May 24th – Taylor and Joe are seen out in Paris together. (x)

They visit the Pont Neuf Bridge and the Square du Vert-Galant, where scenes from the Begin Again music video were filmed.

They also went to the Grand Palais on the same trip.

Joe posts these photos that Taylor took. 

May 25th – In an interview with NRJ Paris, Taylor was asked what she would do if her boyfriend forgot her birthday. (x)

“Wouldn’t happen. I don’t know how to react to something that is an impossibility. I’m so loud about my birthday, you couldn’t miss it.”

May 25th – Taylor likes and reblogs this chain post.

May 26th – Taylor posts photos from her hotel room that Joe most likely took.

May 31st – Taylor and Joe go on a double date with Rob Pattinson and Suki Waterhouse at San Vicente Bungalows in LA. (x)

The San Vicente Bungalows is an exclusive members-only club and has a "no phones, no pictures, no social media, no talking about other members-policy." So it truly is the perfect place for two private couples to have a double date out.

Other people still saw Swift, Alwyn, Pattinson, and Waterhouse, and one onlooker told Us Weekly that the date happened. It was good fun. "The four were laughing and talking" all night, the onlooker said. "They were at a table, just the four of them. Rob and Taylor were across from each other."

June 12th – Katy Perry posts a photo from Taylor’s place, and a blurry polaroid of Joe and Benji can be seen in the corner.

June 19th – Taylor leaves NYC and flies to London.

June 27th – Taylor films the BBC Children In Need documentary and says she got involved because Olivia Colman reached out to Joe.

(via taylorswifth)

Olivia talks about how she managed to get Taylor to show up and surprise Shaun. (x)

“Taylor Swift goes out with a very lovely fella, Joe Alwyn, who I did a job with. And I did a very cheeky text at him and went, ‘Do you think Taylor will come along and surprise Shaun Dooley?’”

June 29th – kingkeir tweets about Taylor renting a place near London Zoo.

July 2nd – Taylor, Martha, Ashley and the HAIM sisters go on vacation to the St Thomas Virgin Islands. (x)

July 6th – Joe finishes filming A Christmas Carol, the same day Taylor and her friends are papped flying back to the US. They presumably meet up in New York the next day.

July 10th – Taylor performs at the Amazon Prime Day Concert in NYC. Throughout the show–and especially during Delicate–she kept looking and pointing at Joe, who was sitting in the soundbooth. (video)

In Ashley’s IG story, Gigi says “Taylor can’t stop looking at him!” and she replies “here text him!” (video)

July 11th – The day after the Prime Concert, they fly from NYC to London.

July 13th – Taylor and Joe were reportedly seen at Starbucks in Muswell Hill.

July 16th – In a radio interview with KIIS 1065, Katy Perry talks about ending her feud with Taylor. (x)

“I started seeing her around at like the Oscar parties when she was accompanying her boyfriend and I just went up to her and I was like 'hey, you know it's been a long time and I think we've grown up a little bit and I just wanted to say I'm sorry.”

July 18th – Taylor and Joe fly to Manchester, and it’s pretty likely that this photo (posted on July 26) was from this trip, because it was taken at the Peak District and that’s an hour long drive from Manchester.

July 20th – Joe and Taylor arrive in LA.

July 24th – Taylor likes this post. 

July 23rd – Taylor films the Lover music video in LA. Joe and Andrea are seen sitting together on set. (x)

July 25th – Riley Knoxx posts a vlog on her YouTube channel about her experience of being in the YNTCD video. She talks about her conversations with Taylor on-set, and how Taylor showed her photos of her with Joe. (x)

“We talked about everything, from whether we want kids or not, [Taylor] showed me videos of her cats and her boyfriend, who she’s rarely seen with, but she’s showing me, you know, the pictures.”

July 30th – In an interview with Cosmopolitan, Rebel Wilson is asked whether she got some dating tips from Taylor while they were filming CATS. (x)

“She’s in a pretty committed relationship now, so it didn’t really come up.”

August 2nd – London secret sessions are held.

Taylor name dropped Joe when explaining Cruel Summer, confirming that it’s about him. (x)

She also talks to theirgetawaycar about spending Christmas in Ireland, which stacks because we know she spent the holidays with Joe and their families at Glin Castle.

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One More Night.Pt 13

A/n: This is the last chapter of the story. I will post one final chapter but it’s more like a long afterword, (a timeline over what happened the following years) 

TW, this chapter has mentions of self harm and depression. It’s part of a section in the middle.

Pairing: Kim Hongjoong / fem!Reader

Chapter: 13/14

Genre: Mutual pining, canon compliant, fluffy af, angsty af, suggestive, teasing and filled with that good shit that everyone loves

Words in this chapter: 6029

“You two, you can stay” Eunji said, harshly and I looked up from my papers, surprised at who she was referring to until I realized that she looked straight at me, before her eyes flicked over to Hongjoong at the other side of the table as well. I looked up at the members surrounding him, all standing up and ready to walk out of the meeting room we were in. We’d had a discussion, all members and staff, designers and stylist, both make-up and hair about the new comeback, the goal we had in mind, the wardrobe and suggested main looks, not only for the stages but for every day. Sponsors for their airport fashion, looks for photoshoots etc. “Why?” Jongho asked, brows furrowed angrily, fists clenched, and he looked like he was wanted to punch the information out of her, ready and fully armed to defend his noona and hyung with everything he got. He wouldn’t of course, he wasn’t a violent person, not to mention that Eunji was a little over 22 weeks pregnant. She clenched her teeth and placed her hands reflexively over the swell of her belly, “It doesn’t concern you Mr. Choi. Please refer to mention this meeting in the future. Now excuse us, you will either exit this room or be escorted out” The members sighed with the knowledge that they couldn’t do anything and Seonghwa gave us the sad smile he’d given us for the past two months. The one that knew, just as well as the feeling in my heart that our time was out. The clicking noise of the door shutting made me flinch slightly and I looked down on the stack of paper in front of me, a revolting feeling simmered in the pit of my stomach and I swallowed hard when Eunji called my name, making me look up and meet her eyes, my gaze flicked to the only other two that sat next to her; Hongjoong’s manager, who had a small polite smile on his lips and the man who’d been on my job interview but I’d never learned the name of. I only knew that he was Eunji’s boss. The little brother of the CEO and the one who had the whole marketing and design team around his little finger. “When we hired you, nearly a year ago, you signed your name on a contract that clearly said, and I quote ‘any sort of involvement, be it romantically or sexually with your designated clients will lead to your immediate termination and your possibilities of growing within the company or any other company will disappear’ Is that correct?” Eunji drilled her eyes into me and I opened my mouth to answer but the panic that quickly erupted in my heart like a volcano of anxiety made me lose my voice. My gaze automatically flicked over at Hongjoong instead, sitting at the other side of the table, eyes begging for his support and he nodded slightly with a small reassuring smile on his lips. I swallowed hard and wondered for a split second if he hadn’t realized what was going on until I recognized the frightened look that shadowed his eyes as well. “Yes, that correct” I managed to say after inhaling deep, my voice waved slightly and Eunji smiled, politely with a nod towards her boss who reached into a bag next to him and pulled out a series of photos, laid them out one by one on the table, and the thick, tense atmosphere in the room became more and more chilly. One was off me and Hongjoong together, in the park we’d been in a week ago, walking hand in hand, another of us looking at each other with a look only lovers gave, the following of him squeezing my hands, us kissing and lastly one where we parted, the zoom on Hongjoong’s face and there was no doubt in the world, the photo quality was steady and good, that it was him. “This was taken a week ago by a major fan site of yours. Explain” Eunji’s boss said and a shiver ran down my back from the cold stare he gave me, arms crossed over his chest and I felt so small under it, so insignificant, like I was a bug under his shoe. “I love her” Hongjoong said with a shrug, mirroring the same cold eyes the other man had and crossed his arms, a smile of defeat on his lips and my heart sank to the bottom of my stomach as I gave him a look, tears already in my eyes from the death sentence he just handled me, “Come on, babe” He glanced over at me, keeping the smile and shrugged. Jaw clenched as he raised his brows, “They want an answer and that’s it. It’s clearly me. I can see that, you can see that, everyone in this room can see that. They’ve been waiting for this proof for months and this is it” He snorted out a small laugh, shaking his head in disbelief and looked over at his manager who gave him a scolding look. Not happy at all, not only by the fact that we’d been doing something we absolutely shouldn’t but the fact that we’d also been caught doing so. “We’ve paid a lot of money to get these photos, Mr. Kim and make sure that it doesn’t get out to the public. You might think this is funny, but I assure you it’s not. A situation like this could ruin your reputation. KQ is not a big company, you would not only throw yourself into the abyss but everyone who has worked with you to make sure that you are where you are right now” Eunji’s boss scolded with a harsh voice and Hongjoong sighed, cleared his throat, straightened his back and clasped his hands, rested them on the table instead, his smile gone and he tilted his head, a serious look on his face instead, “I love her. She loves me. Is it really such a crime?” “You’re violating a rule that exists for a reason, it’s perverted, morally wrong. You’re her client” Eunji’s face flushed red before she turned to me, clearly distressed by the situation “And you” She almost gasped, pointing at me with an accusing finger, “You were god sent, an angel in so many ways, making my job into the dream I’d always wished for. Everything you did seemed like it was so easy, so obvious. Why? Why do you do this to me? Why do you destroy everything you’ve been working for? You’ve been digging yourself into this grave, into this hell for what? For an idol? For a love that cannot prevail? You were my friend, the best friend I’d had in years until you just had to destroy everything” She was almost hysterical, and I swallowed hard at her words. Hongjoong’s manager gave her a worried look and placed his hand on her shoulder. “Easy, Eunji-nim. You must think about the baby” His words held a similar tone to one I recognized, and I paused, furrowed my eyebrows and time seemed to slow down as I watched their body language. The gentle hand on Eunji’s shoulder, her clenched jaw as she fought not to smile bright as him. I pursed my lips in thought and then glanced over at Hongjoong before I made the connection, flashbacks played in my head like a movie. Eunji and the manager talking together in hushed voices, looking around them to make sure that no-one gave them a second glance, touching each other innocently but without a clear intention, on the arm, the shoulder. The two of them grabbing lunch together, the fact that I hadn’t noticed that she had someone at home. It was as if a light bulb lit over my head and I tilted my head, a thoughtful look on my face as I answered her question. “I couldn’t help it, but you know how easy love can blossom in a place like work. Right?” Eunji’s face fell and she reflectively placed her hand on her stomach and the child that grew inside her, “It’s yours, right? The baby” I looked at the manager, who’s mouth fell open as I peeked behind that stoic mask of his, just for a second before he closed it again, swallowed and averted my gaze, “This doesn’t belong to this conversation. What we do in our time is our business” He mumbled. “Just like us!” I exclaimed loudly, rage and adrenaline rushing through my bloodstream and Eunji’s boss cleared your throat, “Enough of this circus, even though this has been a turn of events, Chung Eunji and Min Dong-hyun will be given their judgement another time. This has been dragging out on both my patience and time even though it shouldn’t even be a discussion. You” He turned to me and I swallowed hard when he drilled his eyes into mine, “Will be immediately terminated from you place at this company, as Kim Hongjoong’s stylist and designer” He punctuated the words carefully, just like he’d done all those months ago at my interview, like he was sure that I had a mental illness and couldn’t understand words properly, “I will not write a letter of recommendation. I will not allow you to work another day, but you will get a paid leave, this month of October for the work you have done in September” My heart shattered into a thousand pieces at the bottom of my stomach and it felt as if I’d gotten punched as I audibly gasped for air, gutted open by the razor sharp splinters of my dreams and hope about the future. Hongjoong clenched his fists on the table and he shook his head violently, like he was in disbelief of what had been said. “You can’t do that” His voice was shaky as he spoke, a small on his lips as if he thought it was a joke but the man who’d placed the sentence shrugged, and spoke like he was discussing the weather outside, “It’s the rules she signed her name under when she took the job. It’s not the first time a stylist and an idol falls in love, it’s unfortunate but it happens. Those times it does, no matter how much time has passed and how good they are at their job, they can’t keep working for clients they have a personal relationship with. It’s just wrong and makes it impossible to separate personal life with work” Hongjoong clenched his jaw and he looked at me from underneath his eyelashes, meeting my wet eyes as tears silently fell from them, “Will I be able to see her?” He asked, almost as a whisper. “If you continue to see her, romantically that is, you will be punished in ways that will not be discussed at this moment” The man said and Hongjoong sighed, still keeping his eye contact with me, tears filling his eyes as well. “Tell me” He said, and the man chuckled out a snort, “Well, it’s up for debate but take this as a warning then. You can say goodbye to writing your own lyrics. You can say goodbye to sleeping in late in days you’re free. I heard that they favoured long jogs down the Han River over at JYP before 06:00 in the morning. You can say goodbye to that big dorm you live in, just to name a few” Hongjoong looked away, the tears that had threatened to fall, overflowed and I choked on my breath, not daring to reach out for him over the table, “A new personal stylist will be selected for you Mr. Kim, someone who can simply…” He shrugged and motioned for me with his hands, smiling greatly, “Take over. Your noona here have planned everything so perfect for us that the first months will just flow past” “I refuse” Hongjoong said, “I don’t want anyone else than her” He met my eyes and gave me a small smile and I swallowed hard at the pain of it, my heart ached to hold him. The man flat out laughed, like he’d just heard a great joke, and Hongjoong’s smile fell as he flinched at the sound “You won’t have a say in the matter. You’re an idol, the leader of the group, you need a personal stylist” Hongjoong opened his mouth to protest again but the man just held up his hand to keep him silent, “Now, let’s not waste any more time. I need to talk to the CEO to make sure that all of your papers are in order and you probably want to say goodbye to everyone and collect your personal belongings at your desk” He stood up, walked over to me and motioned for me to do the same before he placed a hand on my shoulder to guide me out. Not letting me collect my papers still on the table, not even letting me take a final look at the love of my life. But Hongjoong stood up just as abruptly, not caring when his manager shouted out a warning, not caring as he showed the man to the side to embrace me. A whisper about how sorry he was slipping from his lips before they collided with mine and I melted into his touch, holding onto him for dear life as my knees threatened to buckle. His lips tasted of the tears that lingered on his cupids bow and I gasped out a sob, from the hurting fact that this was it. The end of us. The end of our beautiful fairy-tale. The end as I expected but it was so soon, so quick that it still hurt. It hurt so bad that I couldn’t breathe, choking on my own breath as he flushed against me as if he wanted to disappear within me, escape from this hurtful evil place with me. My hands grasping the back of his neck, feeling the stubby traces of his newly cut hair there, wanting to do so much more, hold him for so much longer but the urgent cough behind me told us to hurry up and Hongjoong broke the kiss, pressed his forehead against mine, pecked my lips again and said with a voice that broke, “I love you, only you, don’t you forget that. Hold onto that, ok?” I could only nod, and whispered, “I love you too, I will wait for you” Before I kissed him one last time and let him go, breaking down into sobs completely as I watched the smile on his lips falter, his teary red eyes closing, not able to see me leave as I turned around, the sound of him falling to his knees in pure despair when he heard me walk away made me pause in a step for a second, but the man placed a hand on my shoulder again, forcing me to keep walking. - And just like that, it was over. I got home. My phone was silent, my apartment was silent, my mind was silent. The roses I’d received a few days ago made me sob even harder and the scream of anguish I let out was muffled by the sweater that covered my palms. One day passed and I only got out of bed to go to the toilet. Sobbing and crying for hours, going through photos of us I’d taken on my phone. Photos, I’d saved in a private folder. Ones of him in the sunset, ones at a dim restaurant at 1am, ones with him, freshly awake, laying on his back, my sheets covering the lower part of his body - all with him smiling at me behind the camera with that warmth, I feared I’d never feel again. Two days and I retched into the toilet, forced my body to keep down a banana and a bowl of yogurt. A stylist I didn’t know the name off came to take Hongjoong’s personal clothes away from my spare wardrobe and I bit back a choked cry when the smell of him went past me as they steered the large bag out of my room. I slept in the empty wardrobe that night, bundled up with pillows and a blanket, salvaging the smell of him while crying myself to sleep. Three days and I knew that Hongjoong sat on a plane to Thailand for KCON. Imagined his face when he fell asleep, leaning against the wall of the plane, like he used to. Four days and I imagined how someone else dressed him up in the clothes I’d picked for him. How he’d look and how good he’d feel against me if I’d be there with him, adrenaline in his bloodstream, making him high on excitement, a rush he loved to take out on me. I buried my face in my pillow and sobbed, screamed my anger into the duvet material. Five days and I finally got into a shower, sitting on the floor for an hour, clawing at my own skin. Hoping that I’d just disappear if I did the motion for long enough. Six days and my wrists were bloody from me turning the scratching into a habit, I went to sleep weeping at the pain. Seven days and I was empty. I tried to cry, tried to get angry but I didn’t feel anything at all. My mom called but I only glanced at the phone before turning over in my bed again, unable to do anything. Dishes would be piling in my kitchen at this point but to be honest, I hadn’t eaten much at all. Every bite seemed to grow in my mouth and made it hard to swallow. Days passed quickly after that, my mom called again, and I answered her on a text message. Only so she wouldn’t worry. I’d hate it if she’d feel forced to check up on me and see the disgusting state, I was in. The members called, each of them trying to reach out in their own way. Some of them almost angry with worry that I didn’t pick up and some of them pleading, promising not never ever annoy me for the rest of our lives. I bit my lip when I heard Jongho’s voice in the message he’d left for me, begging me to call him back. The 8th of October passed, and I threw my phone across the room when a notification of ATEEZ new comeback dropped into my mailbox, shattering the screen into a thousand pieces. The day after, mid-afternoon and a knock on the door woke me up. I turned around, groaning but the person didn’t go away and another knock was heard. I rolled out of bed with much restrain, weak from lack of energy and proper sustenance. Unlocked the door, my vision blurry and Seonghwa caught me as I almost fainted in his arms from the effort of holding myself up. “Noona? You’re almost just skin and bones” He exclaimed with a voice that was several octaves too high, dripping of worry as he held me up with one hand and closed the door behind him with the other. “I… haven’t eaten well” I admitted, shameful as he placed me down on the sofa. “Well you’re not the only one” Seonghwa said and averted his eyes, resting them on the healing wounds on my wrists, “It’s worse than I thought” He said to himself and I followed his gaze before I realized and quickly covered my arms with the sleeves of my shirt. “It’s not that bad” I tried to argue but he only gave me a look that spoke of how much he didn’t believe me at all. “Let’s get you into a shower, I’ll order food in the meanwhile” He said with a stern voice and I was just about to protest but he only gave me another look and I decided that it wasn’t worth it. If Hongjoong was the dad of the group, steering everyone with a firm but gentle fist, toward the future - Seonghwa was the mom, always making sure that everyone felt loved, always there when someone needed to talk, stubborn but with a heart of gold. I took off the same clothes I’d been wearing for a week and stepped into the shower, properly washed myself for the first time in two weeks, scrubbing my skin until it was rosy red and almost felt like a new person when I exited thirty minutes later, the food already on my dinner table and it was as if my body had been reborn because my stomach growled happily as the smell hit me and I sat down next to Seonghwa, a warm smile on his lips as he distributed the food and handled me some chopsticks. I dug in, choked slightly and almost retched from the unfamiliar feeling of hot food in my empty stomach and had to breathe before I took another bite, restraining myself from chewing to fast. “How… how is he?” I asked, silently after my bowl was empty, fearing the answer as I leaned back to let the food sink to the bottom of my stomach. “Do you want the truth?” He asked, averting his eyes and I hummed a ‘yes’ before I could stop myself, “It’s not good. He’s fainted twice so far, luckily not on stage but once on practice and once at home. He doesn’t eat, doesn’t sleep, not much at least, just enough to be able to get up in the morning. Keeps muttering that’s it’s all his fault, that he’s the one who should be punished” He chewed the food slowly and looked up at me from underneath his long, dark fringe, I rubbed my face, feeling my heart breaking from the truth, “I need to see him, I… miss him so much it hurts” I said, and swallowed. Inhaled sharply and started to mindlessly scratch at my healing wounds as flashes of Hongjoong showed up in my mind, like a movie that went faster and faster until I snapped out of it when Seonghwa placed a hand on mine to stop my movements, my nails already bloody since I scratched up the healing skin again. “I know, that’s why I’ve come here. I’ve been planning for a week, making sure that staff is occupied with stuff elsewhere. Today, in a few hours, take a taxi to our dorm. I’ll send one for you. I’ll keep the members out of the house, we could play a game of catch the photographer or something” He gave me a small smile and I laughed at propose, for the first time in over a week. .. I was nervous as I jumped into the taxi, the ten minute ride was longer than I’d ever experienced before and I paid the man before I got out, straightened the simple clothes I wore and Yeosang and San opened the door for me, as if they’d been waiting for me just inside since my keys to their apartment was taken away when I lost my job. Giving me a large hug each before they went to the take-out place across the street, Seonghwa and Mingi waved at me in the window and I nodded at them with a smile on my lips. I went up the stairs and didn’t have to knock before Wooyoung opened the door, a happy shriek left his lips as he hugged me, Yunho joined him and Jongho showed up behind them, a small smile on his lips and I felt a tinge of guilt that I never answered his calls when he’d only cared for me. “I’m sorry” I said, but he but he shook his head, “According to Seonghwa-hyung, you almost fainted in his arms when he came to visit” He sighed and closed his strong arms around me, his smile faltered slightly when he felt how much thinner I’d gotten, “You’ve walked through hell. There is nothing to apologize for” I gave them a small smile and they all smiled back, motioned for the connecting kitchen and living room before leaving as well. The dorm went quiet and I swallowed, taking off my shoes and jacket before I entered the living room and came face to face with the person, I’d been missing so indescribably much these last weeks. He took a shaky inhale when he saw me, standing next to the table, take-away boxes from the same place across the street was laid out and I swallowed hard. He scratched his neck, embarrassed that he didn’t have anything else to offer in a time like this, wearing a simple light grey dress shirt tucked into black jeans, those translucent glasses of his and that new haircut that I’d barely gotten used to. “Hi” He said, voice deep and nervous and my heart flipped hard as tears already threatened to fall. “Hi” I answered, and he shuddered slightly at my voice, swallowed hard and bit his lower lip, “I…” He started but I couldn’t wait, couldn’t just stand there and watch him so I took three quick steps forward and his breath hitched when I placed my arms around him, feeling tears fall, as I inhaled sharply, my heart flipped like crazy in my chest as his smell surrounded me. “Don’t talk” I whispered out, my voice breaking, and he sighed before closing his arms around me as well, flushing our bodies close. Tears from his eyes quickly wet my shoulder as he held me, breathing in my scent with shaky breaths. He was thinner than before too, from skipping meals like I’d done and I swallowed hard we separated slightly, him still holding onto me in a death grip. He looked at me, those wonderful brown eyes of his were slightly duller than normal, probably from the pain he’d been feeling for the past almost two weeks and I gasped almost breathlessly when he placed his hand on my cheek, rubbing it softly with his thumb and I leaned into it, feeling my heart sync up with his as we breathed the same air. “I’ve wanted to see you as soon as I could but hyung told me that I had to be cautious, that we had to wait for the company to calm down and think that we’d gone separate ways before we could meet again. I hated him for saying so, hated him because I knew that he was right” Hongjoong said and I reached up to dry the tears from his cheeks and his eyelids fluttered shut at my touch as he leaned into it, taking a shaky breath and smiled as my fingers went up to his hair, still not used to the shortness of it. “Hearing you say it like that, avoiding each other was probably for the best” I said but Hongjoong shook his head, “It’s been agonizing. I haven’t felt like myself at all. But I’ve had my members to cheer me up, at least trying to do so. I can’t imagine how you must’ve felt…” He trailed off, closed his hands around my smaller body with a deep sigh and I shook my head, “Let’s not talk about the past. We’re here together and I want to enjoy the time we have” “About that…” He took a deep breath, like he was collecting his courage before speaking up again, “I want you back with me” He said with a confident smile, and I tilted my head, confused at his words, “I want to hire you” A wrinkle showed up between my brows as he swallowed deep, wet his lips and tried to explain himself, “I fired the person the company picked out for me within three days. Missing you too much to have another person dress me” He pouted and my heart skipped at his words, “I demanded a meeting with the same person who fired you and asked if I could hire someone myself and he said yes, the main requirement would be that the person was professional and could pick up where the previous stylist had left of, freelancer or owned by another staffing agency. I guess that he never had a thought that I would be so bold and ask you” He gave me a bright smile and I put two and two together, “But they will never allow you to hire me?” I asked with a sad smile and he shrugged and pursed his lips, “Firstly, they won’t know. I’m not required to tell them who you are, neither are the members. You could literally be anyone and secondly, they won’t have much of a choice. If everything works well and goes smooth, they have literally nothing to complain about. Millions upon millions of won has gone into making ATEEZ, and our contract still run for six more years. They can’t break it and they can’t break me. I refuse to watch you walk away one more time. You’re here to stay with me now” He sighed, and I chewed on the inside of my cheek. “But what if they find out and punish you?” I asked with worry, still remembering the big words he’d been threatened with. “They can’t. You’re not owned by the company, so they have no right to look into who puts the clothes on my body. You won’t be able to come with me on tours and you won’t have an office and we’ll have to be careful, even more careful than before. But they won’t have anything to base any allegations on. I won’t date you. Not officially at least. As far as they’re concerned, I will be having meetings with my stylist” I wet my lips, watching his grin and understanding that he really had thought about everything. Maybe, just maybe, this plan could work. “Ok” I said with a nod and he chuckled, “Really?” “Yeah, of course. You won’t lose me again” I giggled, and he picked me up in his arms, spun me around and I yelped with surprise, a yelp that quickly got silenced as he placed me back down and finally, finally pressed his lips on mine. I choked on a gasp as he placed right hand on my neck, gripped my hair there and held me tighter, desperate to get closer as he flushed his body against mine. The familiar curve of his cupids bow against my upper lips made me groan softly and he responded with a humm, resonated from deep within his chest. His left hand sneaked around my waist and he arched my back slightly, hungry for more as he tasted my lips, a whiny moan escaping his and I was breathless when we separated for air, pressing our foreheads together and my heart sang happily with his, happiness bubbling in my bloodstream like fizzy champagne. He sighed and took a step back, voice hoarse when he spoke, “Oh, and one more thing. I’d plan it better, more romantically and not in the dorm with take-away slowly cooling on our living room table, but I never ever want to be away from you for more than a day again. These past weeks have been the most horrible ones in my entire life. Babe,” He let me go and went to the window behind him, pulled the curtain aside and grabbed a small box from its hiding place, bit his lower lip and my heart hammered hard in my chest as he went down on one knee, the diamond on the engagement ring inside the box sparkled and my breath hitched in my throat as he inhaled deeply, “You’re the love of my life. The one I want to spend every last breathing minute with. Will you do me the honour and marry me?” I swallowed hard, nodding, choking slightly as tears ran down my cheeks again and I fell to my knees in front of him, grabbing the collar of his shirt and press our lips together again with a sob. He wavered slightly from my attack and smiled into the kiss, cupped my face to deepen it, “So, it’s a yes?” He asked and I laughed, and dried my tears as we parted, skin flustered and breath hitching, both of our hearts beating hard, “Yes darling, of course it’s a yes” I said, and he chuckled, before placing the ring on my finger, pecked my lips again and I held him, my whole body screaming with an overflowing joy I never wanted to lose ever again. “I love you so much” He whispered into the nape of my neck, before placing a kiss there and I shivered as he met my eyes again. “I love you too” I whispered and closed my eyes as he leaned down again, kissing me like the whole world was ending, my body buzzing as warmth spread in my chest when he flushed us close again, desperate and hungry for more this time. A smile on his lips when I moaned softly as his hands went lower to cup my ass, and he gently thrusted his lips forward, rubbing his growing cock against my thigh. He led me into his bedroom without a word and I followed, arousal beating between my legs already and my heart hammering with excitement in my chest. He closed the door after us, just in case, before he pushed me towards his bed with a careful hand and I laid down as he followed on all fours, towering over my body and settled comfortably between my open legs before he pressed our lips together again. My tongue meeting his halfway as he licked his way into my mouth. It was wet and sloppy and my body was on fire within seconds as his hands roamed my body, undressed me in a hurry, the need to feel skin against skin triumphed over any sort of soft foreplay and I groaned when I felt him naked on top of me, his heated body pulsating with need and a craving that made me lose my breath. One hand held himself upright as he met my eyes and the other guided his leaking cock inside me as soon as I nodded to make sure that I was ok and he faltered slightly against me as he bottomed out, so deep into me as he could get and I clawed his back with my fingertips, the stretch of him so amazing that my back arched and I clenched around him without being able to stop myself. He buried his face in the nape of my neck, pressed slow kisses there until I snapped my hips, urging him to move and when he did, he leaned back, raised my lower half into his lap and took his sweet time. Watching as I writhed underneath him, his head tilted to the side and tongue between his teeth, breath in hard fast pants and eyes hooded, wonder and admiration in the deep darkness of them, hands gripping around my hips as he moved my body to meet his thrusts. Eyes flicked between my face to the way his cock disappear into my heat, for once not trying to hold back as he moaned loudly when my fingers reached between us to rub my clit, and I clenched around him as pleasure exploded like ripples in my body. I came before him, fell backwards into the dark abyss as he whispered how much he loved me, how good I felt around him and forced my eyes open as he bottomed out, coming inside me with a loud groan, filling me up as he fell down on my body, his cock twitched happily as I moved around him, thrusting my hips to milk him dry and he frowned when the overstimulation begun to hurt, heaved himself off me and landed next to me, placed a kiss on my shoulder and laced our hands together with a happy smile. My ring pressed between our fingers. A promise that he’d never let me go.

[rkjisoo]

star bright 2017 casting;          ⎯⎯ interview ! 

idol training never held much appeal to her.

living with lisa and rose for the past year has made it perfectly clear to her that the rigorous schedule and the never ending strive for improvement in areas she couldn’t care about are aspects of being an idol that she does not want to meddle with. although despite these facts, here she is -- dressed in the plainest clothes that took her thirty minutes to conjure from her wardrobe, hair pulled back in a sleek ponytail despite the cold weather biting her skin, and sitting somewhere inside the park hyatt hotel waiting for her name to be called.

it’s not as though she would bullshit her way through this audition. kim jisoo is a woman of honesty and she would let them know right then and there that she’s not here to be an idol. that she never dreamed of becoming an idol. it’s more or less just one step closer to signing with a company that can lead her back to acting on television. of landing dramas that will help her achieve her ultimate goal.

as they say; when an opportunity presents itself, why not take it? she’s got nothing to lose.

as her name is called, she enters the room. the feeling is much like how it was when she went in for the samsung photoshoot. modelling and being an idol are two few things that are both inherently different from what she wants to be but she’s here anyway. she likes to believe that there’s only a fine line that separates all three aspects of the entertainment world and she’s here to walk it. in heels.

“good afternoon, everyone. i’m kim jisoo and i’m twenty-one years old. born in seoul, south korea but raised in chicago, illinois.” interviews are a no-brainer to her and there’s a charming smile on her face that wouldn’t have existed otherwise. “i am currently a third year acting major at korea national university of arts, an avid church choir singer, and an overall actress. i also won the samsung c and t modelling competition a few months back.” was her overall introduction.

now for the questions.

why do you want to be an idol?

“in all honesty, i don’t want to be an idol.” she starts with a dignified tone and posture. this is an important part of her interview, the one that will lay out the rest of the questions for her. “i personally believe that i am not cut out for the dancing practices and everything that is supposed to come with being an idol. i’m focused on my acting and exploring all creative outlets that will let me get better at what i do is the most important abstract thing in my life right now. i know that ultimately, you’re all looking for idols here and i’m playing the game of chance that i’ll be spared a second glance after this interview. this is the closest thing that will get me to achieving my goal of getting back on television acting but i’m willing to play all the cards that i have. at the end of the day, i believe that not every company offers something that is limited to honing idols. i’m positive that there’s a spot out there somewhere for me”

which skill are you best at? what do you think you still need to improve on?

“i’m best with my acting skills. i’m fairly sure no one remembers anymore but i was once a child actress in the country until our family left for the united states when i was seven years old. after that, i’ve participated in countless school productions starting when i was in middle school up until now in university. despite this, i still want to improve. i love acting, therefore there’s this constant need to develop and to grow in this area even if i already have a whole life of experience under my back. other than this, i believe that i need to improve with my singing. i enjoy singing especially since i love doing musicals but i need to have a stronger voice for it. i’m sure that this is where training with an idol company would come in.”

who are your biggest influences?

there’s a smile on her features as she answers this. the talk on influences is obviously something that she enjoys. “my biggest influences are of course various actresses spanning different generations. i’m a massive audrey hepburn fan -- i love her elegance and her advocacies and i wished that i was able to see more of her. my acting is high influenced by veterans like meryl streep because her versatility is something that i greatly admire and something that i strive to possess. i’m also inspired by the fact that she’s been nominated for the most number of oscars more than any other actor and to achieve that is one of my greatest dreams in life. it is certainly a dream that keeps me well on my toes and propels me to do better everyday. in terms of musical acting, i’m influenced by icons such as julie andrews, audra mcdonald, and lea salonga. their contribution to this community is unparalleled, especially for people of color like audra and lea. it makes me believe that as a person of color myself, i can achieve great heights in the broadway community like them. they are the people who made me believe that i can do it too if i make my talent work along with great effort.”

“in terms of korean influences on the other hand, i’m influenced by fin.k.l and yoon mi rae. i think that their music is the sort that will live on forever and if it happens that i’ll go down this path, i’d love to be as iconic as they are. they are definitely one of a kind.”

what’s your family like?

“my family is small and intimate. i’m an only child and despite their busy work schedules, my parents and i have formed a very close relationship. my father is a no-nonsense man. he’s a criminal lawyer and this has given him the ability to see through things easily. he’s serious most of the time but when it comes to me and my mother, he’s compliant and attentive. my mother on the other hand is very extroverted. she loves talking, gossiping, and getting to know people in terms of what they do and how they are in life. i love her dearly but we tend to bicker with each other a lot. i’d call it conflict of interest. she likes to remind me everyday that i’ll never get a husband because of my career mindedness which is just well and fine by me, if you ask.” she laughs a little.

if you weren’t trying to be an actress, what would you be doing right now?

“i would be where i currently am -- in university. i give a lot of importance with my education and i enjoy learning and going to school. if i was not trying to break into the entertainment world, i’d pursue another degree after my acting one. i’d most likely go into philosophy because that’s a world i would love to discover. perhaps i’d also go into law school after it. to simply put, i would not limit myself when it comes to my education if i wasn’t trying to be an actress at the same time.”

with a final nod of their head, the person behind the camera asking her questions gestured for the device to be turned off. facing her, they smiled. “that is all the questions we have prepared, thank you for your time.” then came the details of what to expect after it. jisoo valiantly nods her head through all of it, taking in all the information that she has to. once she steps out of the room, she immediately walks towards jennie -- who she’s so incredibly proud of for coming out here today. being with her made the process of it all a lot more easier and she can’t help but think fondly on all the life-changing memories they’ve embarked on together. they both know what they’re coming out here for and she’s looking forward to what is about to come. although with their determination and grit, she likes to believe that a good one is about to come off of this.

[sallyfmp]

Working in Lockdown

Since the recent outbreak of Coronavirus, I have had to continue this project at home. Unfortunately, that's meant that I haven't been able to make my chosen design full scale, or do a photoshoot as planned. However, I have adapted as best I can, by adding practical examples of elements that I would have used in my sketchbook.

Throughout lockdown, I have been documenting my tasks each day using my action plan. This has helped me to set clear goals and keep track of what tasks need to be completed. Also, I have worked on days I would have been in college, as well as on days off to complete my FMP.

[huemanpress]

                                               WUZZ GUD YALL!

My name is Aaron Hamlet and I’m a fourth year Mechanical Engineer.

This past summer I decided to learn some Photography and Photoshop tips and tricks (mainly through linda and youtube), so excuse the amateur material. For the most part I’m self-taught and continue to push my learning by making flyers, gifs, edit photos, the whole hooplah as I continue my time at GT. Hence why I’m apart of THE BEST COMMITTEE OF AASU, the publications committee.

So ill start off the student spotlight by my 3 favorite photos I’ve taken over the summer as well as my 3 favorite art pieces that I’ve created. The title of the photo is bolded and the reason/inspiration is the subtext.

Day 1

This is the first time I took my camera out and forced myself to take photos everyday for a week. This picture is really dark, but if you can turn your brightness all the way up, then you’ll see the finer details in this photo. like the “Start strong, Armstrong” on the back of his shirt, the line of light posts leading into the sunset, and the general vibe. This is one of my most amateur photos that I didn’t really appreciate until later.

Essence

I was going through an emotional time(very light in hindsight) and my Clevelynn ( the model) came to visit me at tech. She also was going through a much heavier emotional/mental stress and we found comfort with each other as we reminisced about our high school days. My goal for this shoot was to get a photo that represented us looking towards the future.

RAF

This day was beautiful and I wanted to take photos. I called my friend and we drove around for 20 minutes before we stumbled upon piedmont park. This is my most recent planned photoshoot that was not a responsibility. Almost every photo of this shoot was usable(very rare occurance for me up until then).

ART SECTION (~time it took to complete)

Pretty Girls Love Trap Music (~15 hours)

After watching Rick and Morty, I became obssessed again with Deloreons. Thus I created this art piece. Around Half way into drawing this, 2 Chainz released his album Pretty Girls Love Trap Music(PGLTM) at the Atlanta Traphouse. So I recolored and themed the car to fit PGLTM Traphouse(also revealed on the album release date) and finished the art about a day or two after the album released. Also, since the Atlanta Traphouse became a tourist location, I figured the car that everybody took a picture on and around would break. The day after the car was totaled and taken off the lot of the tourist location, I shared this art on instagram.

note: The thumbs up logo on the hood of the car is the same thumbs up logo on the PGLTM Album cover.

Minnies (~3 Hours)

I made this for a friend that really loved the minions. I finished it right before the Despicable Me 3 movie released in theaters.

LEVEL 1 (~2 hrs) 

This is one of my most recent on-a-whim art pieces that I did. i call it level 1 because its the only digital drawing that I’ve done with 1 layer of color.--no shadows, gloss, highlight, etc. Everything is flat and that was my aim. My vision for the whole Levels project, was to have Air Jordans shoe models 1-12 hanging along the same powerline, each rendition, increasing in detail; level 2(Air Jordan 2) would have 2 layers of color, level 3(AJ3) 3 layers of color, etc.

THATS IT YALL. shameless plug

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my snapchats are lit : air.ron

Extra photo/art that I’m working on now that are probably never gonna see daylight so I post them here :)

I took this photo at Atlantic station and edited that text box into it

One of the most slept on events I’ve attended, so i decided to make a flyer for it.

A gif I made for fun, AASU inspired

[attina-the-responsible]

Attina Monroe Triton - Character Sheet

all these couples are kissing / and i can't stand the heat / i lost my shoes and left the party / i wander in the street

i put my feet into the fountain / the statues' all asleep / no use wishing on the water / it grants you no relief...

Archetype — The Caregiver Birthday — June 22, 1991 Zodiac Sign — Cancer MBTI — ENFJ Enneagram — 2, the Helper Temperament — Melancholic Hogwarts House — Hufflepuff (burned) Moral Alignment — Neutral Good Primary Vice — Envy/Lust Primary Virtue — Charity Element — Water   

Overview:

Mother — Athena Triton (nee Oceana) (deceased) Father — Jeffery Triton Mother’s Occupation — Homemaker Father’s Occupation — CEO of Triton Industries (they fund coral reef preservation and ocean clean up) Family Finances — Wealthy (from shipwrecked goods) Birth Order — Oldest Brothers —  None Sisters — Andrina (Anna Kendrick FC, Birthday: February 7, 1992), Adella (Tara Lynn FC, Birthday: March 14, 1993), Arista (Lily James FC, Birthday: March 22, 1994), Aquata (Brianne Hildebrand FC, Birthday: September 20, 1995), Alana (Grace Phipps FC, Birthday: September 23, 1997), Ariel (Sophia Lillis FC, Birthday: December 4, 2002) Other Close Family — Melody (cousin, Lily Collins FC, September 2, 1994), see family tree here. Best Friend — Nala Calame Other Friends — I’m sure she has them. Her sisters. Enemies — Guys that have broken her heart or fucked w her sisters. Pets — None. Home Life During Childhood — Happy, though, had to keep being a mermaid a secret and that was rough. Town or City Name(s) — The Ocean, Boscombe Reef. Swynlake, England. What Did His or Her Bedroom Look Like — Shared with Andrina. Was constantly picking up after her. Had bright colors--yellows and oranges and reds. Any Sports or Clubs — Band/Orchestra. (Harpist/keyboard.) Favorite Toy or Game — She totally has a little blanket that she’s had ever since she was a baby and it’s all ragged but she lowkey keeps it in her purse. Schooling — Swynlake Secondary. Favorite Subject — Biology! Popular or Loner — Popular Important Experiences or Events — First time a guy broke her heart (16? Same year mom died.) Health Problems — OCD Culture — Mermaid culture. Religion and beliefs — Uhhh?? They believe in the ocean???

Physical Appearance:

Face Claim —  Sarah Drew Complexion — Pale Hair Colour — Red Eye Colour — Green Height — 5’4 Build — Petite Tattoos — a whale tail on her finger. Piercings — ear piercings Common Hairstyle — lots of various styles, attina loves to mess with her hair Clothing Style — brightly colored, trendy Mannerisms — talks with her hands, laughs awkwardly a lot Usual Expression —

Health:

Overall (do they get sick easily)? — Not really. Physical Ailments — None. Neurological Conditions — Anxiety, Depression, OCD. Allergies —  Seasonal Grooming Habits — Attina does it all--face masks, pedicures, bubble baths. She loves it all! Sleeping Habits — A pretty good sleeper, but a light sleeper. Eating Habits — Can skip meals when stressed. Probably eats more sweets than she should. Exercise Habits —  Does yoga sometimes. Emotional Stability — 5 out of 10. Tina has a lot of anxiety and her OCD can make her really hard to function sometimes, she is quick to panic and quick to anger and quick to tears. Sociability — So. Friendly. Too friendly. Body Temperature — Runs a little cold to the touch, but isn’t actually cold Addictions — none Drug Use — recreational Alcohol Use — all the time.

Your Character’s Character:

Bad Habits — she’s ocd so there is a plethora to choose from Good Habits — always diligent lmao she locks doors like 15 times Best Characteristic — so caring, so sweet Worst Characteristic — sooooo nosy and lowkey desperate Worst Memory — learning that her mother had died Best Memory — each time her sisters were born. Also her first kiss (even if the guy was a dick) Proud of — her degree and her sisters Embarrassed by — pfft everything?? She gets so easily flustered, mostly bc she overshares Driving Style — Doesn’t drive. Strong Points — fiercely loyal and fiercely kind Temperament — bubbly but self-deprecating Attitude — optimist but also a pessimist about her own life Weakness — uhhh so many things? Her desperateness for love she could be easily used if someone tells her they love her Fears — unlovable; something happening to her sisters Phobias — well--OCD is kind of a phobia of disorder Secrets — she’s a mermaid, lol. Also, she got a job at the great barrier reef she turned down Regrets — turning down the job offer (but not really, she’d do it again) Feels Vulnerable When — she likes someone; when her sisters tease her about being overbearing Pet Peeves — when her sisters DONT LISTEN TO HER; messy people (aka all her sisters) Conflicts — wants to live her own life but feels a duty to her fam Motivation — her fam Short Term Goals and Hopes — keep everyone safe Long Term Goals and Hopes — get married. Have a family. (have a job she likes) **disclaimer: she’s given up on all of these Sexuality — Straight Exercise Routine  — she goes when andrina drags her, otherwise she swims and walks a lot. Day or Night Person — Day. Introvert or Extrovert — Extrovert. Optimist or Pessimist — Optimist.

Likes and Styles:

Music — she likes lots of pop; megan trainor lana del ray katy perry. Basic bitches. Also movie soundtracks Books — anything romantic. Literally. Anything. She reads those 10 cent novels you buy at the grocery store that literally no one reads Magazines — vogue def. Probably whatever the british equivalent of People is (the Sun??) Foods — she’s a pescatarian. She lovesss fresh fish. But also fruits and veggies. Lovesss smoothies. Drinks — Smoothies. Also drinks lots of water or she’ll start looking like she’s dying Animals — starfish are her fave but she loves all sea critters. Especially coral reef dwellers bc she’s actually spoken with them Sports — uhhh does marching band count? Social Issues — magicks rights/a kinda skewed feminism/she’s p socially aware Favorite Saying — a boat is safe at shore, but that’s not what it was built for. Color — orange! Like her tail! Clothing — she dresses kinda like vintage but cute Jewelry — she wears like pearl earrings every day as a staple and different necklaces. Her mother’s stuff on special occasions. Games — uhh?? None rly. Tho im sure she’d loves those like shoot ‘em up games idk Halo? skyrim? Websites — tumblr def. Facebook def. Insta DEF TV Shows — god she loves trash reality. Movies — likes gore. Likes romance. Loves when ppl die. Greatest Want — to keep her family safe Greatest Need — to take charge of her destiny

Where and How Does Your Character Live Now:

Home — She lives in Castle Suites, in a three bedroom apartment with her sister Andrina. (The third bedroom has two sets of bunkbeds and probably a futon in it so hypothetically all the sisters could stay the night.) Household furnishings — Pretty modern and always, always organized and clean. Her house always looks like it is getting ready for a photoshoot, though she has to get on Andrina for putting things away. Favorite Possession — Anything that was her mother’s, or that her mother gave her. Most Cherished Possession — A handwritten letter from her mother that Athena gave her the day her tail “popped” Married Before — Nope. Significant Other Before — Jason Madison (only serious boyfriend, they dated for nine months when she was 15-16). Children — Nope. Relationship with Family — She’s very close to all her sisters and keeps in touch with the cousins (on land) the best that she can. She’s the Perfect Daughter. Car — N/a. Career — Clerk at Whosits and Whatsits Dream Career — She wants to preserve the coral reefs in the world. Dream Life — Travel the world, but then, settle down and have a family. (Preferably have a partner during her worldly travels) Love Life — She dates around. She says “non-existent” Hobbies — Trashy reality television. Hanging out with her sisters. Knitting (bc she’s an old lady.) Watching documentaries. Hanging out in nature. Guilty Pleasure — Chocolate. Attina is always trying the newest diet craze, but when she sad chocolate is her go to. Sports or Clubs — She was in the chess club as a secondary student. She was also the favorite for student body president but she didn’t run during her upper sixth years. Talents or Skills — Attina is a talented piano player, harpist, and singer, though she hasn’t practiced any of these in quite a while. Intelligence Level — Attina is very bright, but she definitely dumbs herself down for boys. Smh. Finances — Her family is rich, but she makes a pretty meager salary at the shoppe.