#glorioushope

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

...making amends

[yeahitshann]

Encourage God's people to endure persecution patiently and remain firm to the end, obeying his commands and trusting in Jesus

Rev.4:12

[iamrubyjanerabaca]

...belonging

...significance

...worth

[jenibeaaan]

Join us this coming Saturday (2:30 pm), as we celebrate our 5th Anniversary. Speaker: Ptr. Rafy Panlilio (National Primary 12) ❤️ #Power #YouthRevolution #Anniversary #GloriousHope #RafyPanlilio

[thebeachbumladyblog]

I have tried to make amends with my second ex boyfriend here in ElNido but he was already in a relationship. I have informed Kevin where I am, he did responded but was not interested in seeing me once more. In His grace, I do not even have the appetite to even go back to my other ex. After all the financial and sexual advances, I do not want to go through them again. I prayed to God for leading, for a sign. I guess this time the answer is no. Maybe to wait. I accept, this time I have to take it on my own. But one thing that excites me is allowing God to be God not only in my family and career, in my finances but with my love life as well. This time I will ask God to keep my heart until such time, if there will come a time, someone will awaken love once again. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at Lio Beach) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3Jz6CKJKcE/?igshid=k90cwv7y4808

[thebeachbumladyblog]

So I went back to my quiet time. At long last after those busy months and weeks. I picked up from where I left with my one year Bible reading plan. I may not be in the companion of the man I have loved even for the shortest time. But I have the Words of my Maker, my Designer, the One Who knows my sitting down and my rising up. The One Who understands my thoughts from afar. Everything will past away but His Words remain. False idols will not deliver my expectations. If relationships are my idol, I won’t even be fully satisfied and filled. If boyfriend and a husband is my idol, I won’t have the true joy from the love the way I ever wanted. Why? Because only God can love an imperfect person like you and me. Only God with all His unconditional love can ever pursue a deceitful heart like ours. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at Lio Beach) https://www.instagram.com/p/B26qlZbpP8r/?igshid=11t067tjqhq8r

[thebeachbumladyblog]

Today I went back to my yoga prayer and bible reading. One point that caught me are the words from a person named Achan, “I WANTED THEM SO MUCH THAT I TOOK THEM”. These words resonate to me more than anything. It is when I read between those lines of “The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing.” When I was about to take my bath and dress up for office, I said my silent prayers. “Lord, what is it that You want me to hear from You today?” It is clear, Kevin and I will never be the same again. I don’t need a reason, I don’t need a closure but I do know I have to keep moving on. God knows how I wanted to fulfill all my promises to Kevin. Bring him the stuff he needs for mountaineering. The rottweiler puppy that we ever wanted together. For me I did my part, as far as I am concerned. I have no one to communicate to but Kevin. That’s my own rule. So if he is not responding to me directly, I am not obligated, I am free from my oath. I have done my part. I am not giving up, I am giving Kevin his own freedom. Just as I have to embrace my own freedom too. Separate ways... different directions... lives apart... https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at Conrad Hotel, Hong Kong) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4QVmjqpKwz/?igshid=15sk0iwg09enj

[thebeachbumladyblog]

Then I am reminded of Pastor Peter’s sermon, do not be equally yoked with an unbeliever. Singles, (yes... hands up Pastor that’s me...) do not settle for an unbeliever, do not settle and compromise. Why? Because it is for your protection. I dream of getting my own dog at the beach, then I go back to Manila. By the time I return to the beach my dog and my own man will both longingly wait for my return. This is the longing, but it may be superficial. I may be just scratching the surface. My deep need, my deep longing is intimacy with the Lord. I can no longer run, I can no longer hide. I have to nurture the way I was designed by my Maker. I can no longer deny my true identity in Christ. I can’t stay this way, I have to grow and mature, I have to choose, I need to be wise and careful in my decisions now. I can no longer compromise. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at Conrad Hotel, Hong Kong) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4QUJrcpRE5/?igshid=1w0r2b0z3un6a

[thebeachbumladyblog]

What will you do if something is broken? Pastor Peter added. In this world, if something is broken, people will throw it away, it will be discarded. But with God it is entirely different. Who else will be able to fix someone or something other than the Maker Himself. How do we fix something for example, we bring them to the manufacturer that owns the master design. We do not bring a broken Volkswagen car to Mercedes Benz don’t we? Like the illustration of Kintsugi, where the Master Artist pick up the broken pieces of ceramic wares and put it back together with gold filling to make a masterpiece. Or the marble block in the hands of a Master Sculptor to become a great piece of art like the statue of David. Or the rock that has to be broken to bits and pieces just to extract the diamond and other precious stones and metals from within. Being broken is painful but necessary, Pastor Peter continued. If not getting the relationship I ever wanted is God’s way to break me, so be it. My life is in the hands of my Maker. Just as Pastor Bong Saquing told us this one Sunday. Don’t be just broken to anyone or anything. Broken pieces of ceramics are just trampled upon, but in the hands of Kintsugi Master Artist they are extraordinary. Just as the marbles and other rocks are stepped on and disregarded, unnoticed and neglected. But in the hands of a Jeweler and Master Sculptor, they are chiseled, hammered, cut to bits and pieces just to reveal the Master’s design. I may be just one of those women for Kevin, he broke my heart but I can choose not to remain. I now choose to be broken before God, He is My Master Crafter. He is My Master Maker. He alone can fix me, pick up the pieces again and make me whole. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at Hong Kong) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4QMwmvJKWj/?igshid=2oq0f7nqh429

[thebeachbumladyblog]

Back to #1 #solotravel #1 midlife top #20 #blogger thanks 🙏🏽 @wattpad https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful #palawan #filipinatraveler #filipinablogger (at San Vicente, Palawan, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4Aa2dCJDNZ/?igshid=50o8tgay3b2l

[thebeachbumladyblog]

It breaks my heart to hear my new found acquaintance in Palawan to say those words that no one will take him seriously for a relationship. It was like hearing me and Rahab say who would take us for a serious relationship? What is there for us, used, damaged, broken, beyond repair... God’s thoughts are higher than our thoughts, God’s plan is higher than our plans, God sees us beyond our doubts, our fears, our self inflicted harm, beyond our wounds, beyond our pain and struggles. Rahab stepped in to the unknown, yet she believed the God of the Israelites whom she knew so little about. I am as well stepping into the unknown, leaving my immoral and wrong relationships behind, not just with men, married men, men half my age. But with my romance with position, power and possessions. That insatiable hunger and longing for more and more. I too, like Rahab, will trust the God of the Bible I knew so little... but knowing in my heart the God of Israel who delivered them out of bondage, out of slavery. I too will no longer be a slave to my own appetite for food, money and things what money can buy. I am no longer a slave to fear, fear of being alone, fear of not being wanted, liked or taken cared for. I too like Rahab, can take it from here, in to the newness of life, a recovered life. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at San Vicente, Palawan, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/B380FnqpAJs/?igshid=1jc6oihbrjkjx

[thebeachbumladyblog]

Today I read the story of Rahab, maybe she too have sleepless nights of asking what is her purpose here on earth. I too may have experienced what she did in the shower room to scrub as hard as we could every after immoral and illicit casual sex we had with a man whom we are not married to. Rahab did it for money or for fame or fortune or maybe also for love and affection. I did it for my own self will to love and be loved. Yet God had a plan, all Rahab and I have to do is cooperate with this God’s plan. It is easy to expect that the coming King and Messiah should come from the lineage of kings and queens, of monarchs and blue bloods, royalties or from great warriors and rulers. But no, Jesus came from lineage of a prostitute named Rahab to the generation Boaz. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at San Vicente, Palawan, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/B38zeGAJWXK/?igshid=1devwev7g8130

[thebeachbumladyblog]

What will you do if someone you love doesn’t choose to love you back? I booked another trip to the Palawan Islands. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at Telesfora Beach Cottage) https://www.instagram.com/p/B360aR-p_xR/?igshid=1bf829e74yil9

[thebeachbumladyblog]

I am too beautiful to waste my life in pain, agony and loss of someone who never and will never loved me back. That came out of no where. This thought got me out of the bed this morning. All of us have our own promise land - I have to keep the faith that God have something good and exciting in store for me. Loss is a loss, I have lost Kevin, but God has something for me too. I may have to wait. I may have to sacrifice. But I know I have to obey. That I have to take care, but more than that, be extra careful with my thought life and thought process. There may be a script that has been passed down from generations past, sin, rage, un forgiveness, idolatry, immorality, adultery, addiction and all sorts of emotional and mental baggages. But God is writing a new script of my life right now. This new script that I can pass on to the next generations to come. I have grown tired and weary writing my own story. This time I will allow God to write the script, His script, not mine. For anywhere I go, I can see God’s hand. I know in my heart that He is with me no matter where I go. Whatever I choose, He is there for me waiting, waiting for me to come home. One example is when I surrendered all my effort to search and look for Kevin, if all else fails (as it always have been) I will resort to online shopping and other means of spending. Just to fill the void, that emptiness. But when I got tired of being tired, of chasing the wrong person for all the wrong reason. I saw God’s favor, slowly I was able to pay my debts and get back my belongings - one by one. Will I give up now? Next month will be my bonus pay. I will be able to be free from several monthly debts, and yes I can go back to Palawan Islands - this time worry free. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful https://www.instagram.com/p/B36zRjcJeOU/?igshid=1h62s7jxeh56d

[thebeachbumladyblog]

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[thebeachbumladyblog]

Out of my emptiness I asked God to fill the void when Kevin left me without a clue, without goodbye, without closure. Kevin left me hanging with more questions than answers. But I cannot run away from problems of my own Jerusalem, my own household, any longer. Being the first born is both a blessing and a responsibility. Being the first born means I have to step up as the spiritual leader of the family. I am the high priest of my own household, just as the Lord Jesus Christ is the High Priest and The Head of the Church, of one body of Christ. All along, I thought, Christianity is knowing and accepting Christ as Lord and Saviour. Doing the quiet time and prayer journal. But this time I have to grow as part of the body of Christ. Now I have to grow along with the group of sisters God has entrusted me to be part with. So in my journey to recovery, I haven't arrived, I am just starting - I have kept my discipleship group, I have followed my mentor and I have to keep my communications open with my two life coaches at Glorious Hope program along with the other ladies under their care. So my next step is to bring my own youngest sister to the same path to recovery. That we are never alone, just as God laid down his terms in the book of Deuteronomy to life of recovery and victory from past persistent failures. For it doesn't matter how many times we stumble and fall, what matters is how we get up and pick up the pieces again. https://thebeachbumlady.blog https://my.w.tt/15lZX947BZ #thebeachbumlady #wattpad #wordpress #blog #blogger #personalblog #travelblog #foodblogger #solotravel #islandgirl #solofemaletraveler #journey #celebraterecovery #glorioushope #ministry #book #iphonephotography #photography #travelphoto #love #instagood #tbt #happy #beautiful (at Lio Estate Resorts) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3ukPujpFSo/?igshid=1dnybchx2wgzg