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Eating uncertainties in the afternoon with a stuffy nose and a terrified heart.

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A lot of things are not working too well the past weeks. It started with a rift with my best-friend, increasing delayed requisitions, and a failed well-thought of presentation with IT IN leaders today. I only write things here whenever I feel down or whatever. I’m starting to feel that I am unlucky the past weeks — what do I do to change the narrative then?

Am I too full of pride? Am I too self-reliant? Am I fighting for things the wrong things? Am I too full of myself? I want to see where are my improvement areas at but who would show them to me?

With all these chaotic things happening around me, will I be allowed to be angry or frustrated even for a while? Ugh, life lately is hard. I just wish it gets in tune soon.

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"Life is series of thousands of little miracles. Notice them."   —quotemadness.com

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How can I stop thinking about these overwhelming insecurities? How can I stop wondering what’s best about them that I lack? I don’t want to live my life with all these could have beens.

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Saw this illustration from an FB page a couple of days back. I feel like I want to move way past this painful situation but it’s really hard to force my feet to move.

If you’re going to ask me how painful this season is, it’s like having a hard time to breathe. My chest hurts so bad and I feel like bleeding every time I see how you’ve been so good to everyone else but me.

Lord, help me move. Make me move. ☹️

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Thank you to the thousand things you do for me! 💛

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I know I was ready, my mouth just can’t utter the right words.

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“I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.”

— Unknown

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“I am who I am. Your approval is not needed.”

— Unknown

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“She doesn’t want to hear that she is flawless. She wants to hear that she is loved regardless of her flaws.”

— charmingwinds

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“Stay away from people that make you feel like you’re hard to love.”

— Unknown

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““The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.” - Socrates”

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