#give it up for taylor being my special interest and sn being my favorite album and dear john being my second favorite song of all time

[onthevirgooftears]

taylor just sang dear john live and i wasn't there

[navyblushrose]

An Appreciation Post

This time i wanna share about some public figures i admire to.

Honestly i’m a person who easily impressed, but it never stays long. When i watch a film or drama, and i’m impressed by the actor/actress, i would search their profile on google and stop by their social media. Usually that feeling of interest will diminish by the end of the film and as time goes by. 

So far, i’m a fan of 2 person. 

First, Taylor Swift.

I was a Swifty when i was in junior high school. I remembered that it was probably influenced by my 7th grade classmates (hi, Irta and Shafa haha). I turned to love her music, the lyrics are beautifully written, sometimes relatable. Maybe because TS wrote them based on experience in her life. Every awarding event that needs voting, i voted her through the website or twitter hashtags. Once there was an event held by Walls Cornett* ice cream, where we could redeem codes inside the ice cream packs with TS merchandises. With the limited money i had as a student, i managed to get 2 drawstring bags and i’m proud of it hahaha. 

There was a time too when my friend (hi Irta) and i joined a competition for TS birthday project. We made a short stop motion video and won a t-shirt that said “13 SWIFT”. I duplicated the t-shirt in a convection just so we both could have it lol. 

If you ask my favorite era among her albums... i think i can't decide one. I will choose Speak Now, RED, and 1989 as my favorites. Tbh i don’t really keeping a track on her since i entered my senior year in high school, but i love to see her giving us a surprise by releasing folklore album at this time of pandemic!

Now, let's go to the second person.

It seems like the pandemic changed our life in many different ways. For some of us, it means we go back to fangirl world or watch some drama again after a long hiatus. For me, i would never imagine that pandemic could make me adore an actor this much —Kim Dongwook.

The first time i saw him was in Along With The Gods :  The Two Worlds (2017). The first thing i recognized special from him was his voice. Really, he has that deep voice i rarely heard from any actor. No wonder he got the news anchor role in Find Me in Your Memory. I was impressed by his voice and acting in AWTG as a haunting spirit lol. I searched his profile, but didn't follow his works afterwards.

And then suddenly in the early 2020, i got a news that he has a role in a melodrama, Find Me in Your Memory. I was curious to see his performance in a romance genre, and many people said that the chemistry is great, but i decided to watch it after the drama ended so i could do marathon. 

Turned out.. His role as anchor-nim here really impressed me!!

I love this drama so much from the chemistry, side characters, cinematography, dialogues, soundtracks, until the behind the scenes. They gave the best fan service, from the real Yeo Hajin’s IG account that managed by Moon Gayoung herself, until the IG live they had during the drama on going. I lost count on how many times i recommend this drama (click here if you wanna read my review), promoting it like i get paid :(

Since then, i follow his news, watch the other projects of him (i really like The Guest too!), search his interviews including the old ones  (eventhough i don't understand Korean haha), made a second twitter account just for spamming and finding friends who i can fangirl with (haha), save his pictures and drama clips to a specific folder in my gallery, joined his fancafe which is full of hangul (thanks to google translate!), and furthermost.... learn hangul, so i can a bit more understand the info they shared lol.

The things i look up from him—besides his charming smile and voice— are that he is a talented, down-to-earth, hardworking, and family-man actor. I'm judging from his answers in some interviews and award speech. He started from the bottom, his debut in 2004 with some minor roles and college student’s film. Then he grows and more people recognize him. He can act, sing, dance. And his personality... seems like he is someone who didn’t talk much when we just know him, but he is taking care of people around him. He sometimes throw jokes and that’s cute. He always mentions his family, his little sister, and how he never regret of his previous works (because some of them maybe shameful or bad).

I don't regret anything because that's my choice. It's okay if the result is not good enough as long as i have done my best. Of course, there's a shameful work too. But it means i've grown up enough so that i could tell that was a shameful work. Wouldn't i have to acknowledge my past so that i could acknowledge my future too?

— Kim Dongwook's Vogue Magazine March Edition interview (translated by @kimdwook on twitter)

And the only thing i don't like from him is... he doesn't have any social media :(

It's kinda sad that once i have an idol, he has no social media and rarely appear even on variety show. He is that kind of public figure who we can only see from his projects. But i'm a bit understand when i read his reason why he has no SNS this day is because he doesn't want to keep revealing himself and feel pressured by people's expectation toward him. Come to think of it, it's understandable, it's better to take care of ourself first. So, here i am digging and digging his old interviews and films :')

Unconsciously, i did many things that are unlike me since i decided to be his fan. 

I won't regret it because one of the reason i can survive in this chaotic year is him. I'm not being cheesy, but if you ever admire someone or have an idol, you will understand. He gives a positive vibes and a motivation to learn something new, to have new friends, to work hard. And that just by getting his news is enough to lighten up my day.