#girlcrush saga

[wildweirdly]

I haven't really mentioned it since it happened but my crush and I are officially boyfriend and girlfriend now so that's exciting! I really didn't think it was gonna happen tbh, especially with how guarded she is in regards to romance.

[fancyisunwell]

How can you possibly be such a nerd, like skulls n guns n shit and still not be "emo" Like the whole ost is so cool but also alot of heavy metal.. (iirc) Maybe this makes him a metalhead..? OOOH!!!

Meanwhile me:

[blorbingqls]

GMMTV 2024 Part 1 Stray Thoughts

idk if anyone is interested to know my thoughts but still shouting into the void of Tumblr. There are, of course, some series that I am excited for and some I don't think made the cut for me.

series I hope to watch

WADEE GOODDAY - I AM SO EXCITED BECAUSE OF THE TRAILER, THE ACTORS AND THE PLOT - its boxing, its fwb/bwb, its adult; boxer and a doctor????? who thought??? - also i couldn't differentiate great and thor for a moment in the trailer damn

my golden blood - damn this gives me so much "twilight saga but better" vampire vibes and i am all here for it - JOSS IN HIS SECOND BL SERIES - and WITH GAWIN - yes pro max

on sale - i have always loved taynew as a pairing and now they are doing a series about being ghostbusters, being family and what as the whole plot - I AM HERE FOR THE MADNESS (it ain't a QL but still always love chaos)

we are - so many BL pairings - i want equal screen time for all of them - i want ensemble cast behaviour - yes its university BL but please just want it

pluto - i love a fresh take plot for a GL, and with FILMNAMTAN???? (namtan is my girlcrush pls) - this is gonna be so interesting

series which i am doubtful of (because i don't want them to fuck up)

my love mix-up! - geminifourth in a BL of one of my favourite japanese BLs?! i am...scared. I know they can do it but i don't know. also, the other lead who plays Atom's best friend, very similar to the original actor.

ossan's love thailand - i have not watched the original so i don't know what to expect - however as earthmix is there - there is some hope but i wanna get a pilot trailer for this

high school frenemy - um, great cast, the uniform gives very homeschool vibes but i don't know: will this be platonic boy's love or bromance?

the trainee and ploy's yearbook - they both have great potential - the trainee one could become a good office BL and ploy's yearbook gives a good school vibe but idk how will they play out with the plot- side note, ploy's yearbook gives very "good old days" vibe ig

only boo - it has potential but idk what will happen as its a new pair in a similar BL storyline? idk what will happen

others

series like kidnap, summer night, enigma 2, my precious are sort of out of my radar cause i have no expectations from them. i am okay with the trailers but i don't have many thoughts on them tbh.

final thoughts

i am eagerly waiting for 23.5 and other series of 2023 that have not been released yet. i am also waiting for gmmtv part 2 for my main pairs; is it too cowardly to ask for another GL in the line up even though two are on the spectrum to be made??? i also want more adult story lines - i am tired of university BLs for the moment pls. i am interested for what turns up.

[paleode-ology]

quick someone send me a witty and intellectual meme suitable for a science summer camp counselor for me to send to my girlcrush coworker

[uncomicmas]

Reseña de Ghostbusters El Legado ya en cines por @Cineblancica Trama Una familia en apuros economicos recibe la herencia de un abuelo ausente, una granja en una zona rural en Alabama-EE.UU, los hermanos adolescentes Trevor y Phoebe, empiezan a adaptarse a este nuevo lugar pero empiezan a descubrir que ocurren cosas extrañas y que la casa posee artefactos de los...CAZAFANTASMAS. La película es una secuela y deja muy claro que en más de 30 años no habían aparecido espectros o fantasmas, así que el reboot de 2016 lo borraron. La historia llena de nostalgia pero totalmente revitalizada muestra una nueva generación de cazadores de espectros quienes se enfrentan a otro complot misterioso que se remonta al primer edificio que Egon, Ray, Peter y Winston se enfrentaron en 1984. Reviven el funcionamiento de todos los artefactos y equipos de los cazafantasmas, usando los audios originales, eso les puede causar escalofríos de emoción. Es perfecta para disfrutar en familia con un guion sólido, una trama perfectamente hilada con las películas originales apoyada por un elenco de nuevas estrellas que se roban cada una de sus escenas, buenos momentos de miedo y sobresalto (jumpscare) y mucha comedia.Incluye muchos cameos y guiños a los fanáticos, pero al mismo tiempo atrapa a las nuevas generaciones. Resumen Los Cazafantasmas regresan por todo lo alto con una nueva historia que abre las puertas a que nuevas generaciones aprecien esta saga de culto y sin duda abre las puertas a futuras secuelas. ATENTOS...hay dos escenas post-créditos para los fanáticos y que nos muestra lo que viene Calificación 5 de 5 Sinopsis Al mudarse a una granja los adolescentes Trevor y Phoebe consiguen el ECTO-1 y equipo de cazafantasmas abandonados, entonces empiezan a descubrir la relación de su abuelo con este legendario equipo. Fuente de imagen @cineblancica #ghostbusters #katemckinnon #snl #whoyougonnacall #comedian #girlcrush #fangirling #ghostbustersafterlife #ghostbustersellegado https://www.instagram.com/p/CWhM_LEldkX/?utm_medium=tumblr

[nikosilva7]

Cast from "EVERWOF: fate the saga" 💜🎶🎤💕 #everwof #everglow #kpop #jpop #music #netflix #oc #wof #girlcrush #cute #kawaii #sofiacarson #lilireinhart #susancoffey #rusiangirl #koreangirls #lanacondor #phoebetonkin https://www.instagram.com/p/B795kU_BP4a/?igshid=w8q66t9r291n

[wildweirdly]

Anyway there's this girl I met off Grindr and spent some time with and I think I'm developing feelings for her

[wildweirdly]

Last night my girlfriend got super excited about explaining how horse betting works to me, which was interesting to learn about but not really something I would do (*insert rant about my distaste for racing horses*) Unfortunately for me it also involves a lot of math and I'm not a mathematically skilled individual so it took the better part of an hour for me to grasp it.

[wildweirdly]

My girlfriend has naturally low T levels and I have naturally high ones so as it stands I have higher T levels than her without being on hrt and I think that's neat

[wildweirdly]

My girlfriend is one of those who are hyper concerned about the ingredients in things and we were talking about vegan food and she said "Ew, a vegan hotdog?? That's so full of stuff, I could never eat something like that!!" meanwhile she eats regular hotdogs like GIRL do you know what's in those or are you just willfully ignorant?

[wildweirdly]

Messy work doodle of the gf meowified

[wildweirdly]

[wildweirdly]

A story about taking the bus (long)

Emma lives a couple cities over in a somewhat secluded area, about a 45 minute drive from me. There's a bus that goes there for just $3 and that's where I am now, doing some writing and listening to music while I travel. This will be the second time I've taken it, with this past Sunday being the first.

The trip itself takes about an hour but the seats on this bus are upgraded like a coach so they're a bit more stylish and several magnitudes more comfortable than the regular buses. This one is also air conditioned which is especially welcome since I'm wearing my anxiety vest again. These days I've been on edge and attempting to rely less on weed so I've been wearing it to help curb the physical symptoms.

Emma told me the reason this bus is nicer than the rest is because students use it to get to the college near her. I don't know if that's true or not but I believe it. She'll be going there starting the end of this month to take a couple classes and finnish her degree. This time around she's aiming for a job as a therapist, using her prior medical accreditation as a springboard.

Since we met she's often brought up the subject of school and how she thinks I should go back because I'm "very smart". She doesn't have the same struggles as me so she doesn't seem to understand that there are a few certain barriers I'd have to breach to make something like that possible. On top of that she makes $21-$50 an hour so money isn't an issue for her. I guess that's the difference between working in a grocery store like I do and working in a hospital like she does. Fortunately I haven't had to deal with any customers dying or bleeding or anything so I'd say I'm the luckier one of the two of us.

Last time I visited her, Emma was running on 3 hours of sleep which kicked her anxiety into overdrive. She's one of the types that's afraid of medication so she's not taking anything for it which I could never do myself (I struggle badly even with my meds!) Since then she's managed to sleep properly but her mind has been in Panic Mode and doesn't seem to want to ease out of it. I know I can't fix things but I'm hoping my presence today might help calm her a little. At the very least I know I can be a good cuddle partner, and sometimes that makes all the difference.

This will be the third time I've spent the night with her, and every time it happens is always so interesting to me. When we first started seeing each other she spoke about taking things slow and cautious and how she wanted to start off as "friends with benefits". Similarly she said she didn't know if she would classify what we were doing as "dating", and that she needed to know me better before we got physical. We ended up getting physical that same day, and two days later I was asleep in her bed.

Emma and I are both trans, but I'm the first trans man she's ever been with. Up to this point she's mainly ever been with cis guys, and some of the marks it's left on her are telling. She told me about being grabbed unprompted and was curious why I asked before putting my hands on her. In a way it made her nervous I wasn't interested so I had to explain that until I become more familiar with her boundaries I'm not going to like, randomly grab her ass while we're talking or anything like that. On top of this she's used to men pulling the ol "cum and go" and she said she hadn't had anyone who wanted more out of her than just sex in a long time. She's also not used to men showering before seeing her which I can't even begin to imagine putting up with. Maybe I've just been lucky with the people I've been with, I dunno! I would absolutely hit the breaks if someone smelled bad like that, yanno? Like it's one thing to be a little sweaty or whatever but it's an entirely different story if someone had an active smell. Just really not something I could handle!

Overall I think whatever we have going on is going to bring positive change for both of us. So far it's afforded me travel, much needed company, and physical affection. We've been to a concert, out to dinner, and we're traveling to the Thousand Islands area tomorrow for a hike and picnic (weather permitting). She's also mentioned needed affection and attention so we both are able to fill that void quite nicely. I hope to end up in an Official Relationship with her eventually but for now it's good to know she enjoys my lace in her life

[wildweirdly]

Long, under the cut, ect.

The contrast between the way my crushes interact with me is stark.

On one hand you have "Emma" (girl crush) who's been talking to me every day since we last saw each other and has been actively planning on meeting again next week

Then you have "Text" (enby crush) who I haven't seen in at least a month and hasn't talked to me again since I poured my heart out yesterday.

And in my heart I know I just have to be patient and I'll hear from them again but it's a fight not to take the silence personally (despite knowing better).

It just sucks to have to sit with the quiet like this, yanno? Makes me feel like shit...I've worked so hard on trying to be better than this but it feels like I haven't gotten anywhere

[wildweirdly]

I ended up telling my crushes how I was feeling about everything last night. One actually talked to me about things and the other hasn't responded at all yet. I'd like to assume that they're busy or they don't know how to respond but it's hard not to assume they're just gonna leave me on read as per usual.

I don't like talking about them on here because I don't think they'd be thrilled to know I'm speaking about them at all, even if it was in a positive manner, but I feel like I need to get the whole situation off my chest so I can breathe again

[wildweirdly]

Found out today that my favorite band is gonna be in town in a couple weeks and I'm trying to convince my crush that she should go with me