#gimis thot

[sunsetcurbed]

for the Spotify wrapped thing, 33!

yes i am doing all three thank u rob ily

33 is going last because it has to go under a read more.

3. road to hell by hadestown obc - well since rob is already doing a hadestown au... 🫣

62. unrequited love (& other cliches) by breakup shoes - i think this would be a major slow burn fic, all about building their friendship and alex falling harder and faster than willie and willie being demi so he's not interested in a relationship right away, yk?? but as time goes on he does find himself with feelings.

33. something to hold on to by the band camino - well. listen. we all know this one but let me add some lyrics i've written lately for it. i may also write a post soon about thoughts i've had that didn't make it into the fic, but i still want to write companion pieces so we'll see if my writing inspiration comes back any time soon

fruit snacks:

There’s a box in the closet, or maybe there’s two  It’s on the top shelf ‘cause it reminds me of you  For the pain that it causes, it’s hidden from view  Nobody knew  It’s all for you 

And I take my time shopping, I have no excuse  But the memories come knocking and ain’t it the truth  That there’s just no stopping, so I call a truce  I’ll always lose It’s no use 

I throw away my receipts because they lay me bare  That I don’t know who I am without you here  And if anybody asks, it was an accident  The baseless accusations with out precedent  It’s been months and months and I haven’t heard a word  And they all think this is some punishment I’ve earned  But just in case you come back  I’ve got your goddamn fruit snacks  For if you ever come home

And the taste of strawberry is best on your lips  I’ll admit that it’s scary, I can’t get my fix  I’ve grown so fucking wary from all the conflict  What do I pick  I’m lost in this 

I throw away my receipts because they lay me bare  That I don’t know who I am without you here  And if anybody asks, it was an accident  The faceless accusations with out precedent  There’s been hell to pay without you here with me  And it’s a game that I’m bound to lose clearly  But just in case you come back  I’ve got your goddamn fruit snacks  For if you ever come home

For if you ever come home,  I’ll be waiting by the door  It’s been some time,  Don’t know how long anymore  The lights are on,  Our song is playing  From dusk until the dawn and  If you’re missing me  Well, darling, I agree 

haven't written the last chorus yet (just those two lines change but I haven't written them yet), but i'll get around to it at some point.

and then this is just the chorus of a song that popped into my head:

say you don’t know who I am anymore  as I beg you from my knees on the floor  you told me you didn’t know how to be friends  but I don’t know how to be alone, I begged  it’s time to see all there is to be seen  to become who we’re meant to be but that’s the hardest part, honey  is to watch you grow without me 

[sixphon6s]

wat if i have a son n hes a thot ughhhhhhh lawd gimi a healfy baby das aw i ask

[michelangelinden]

Couldn't agree more love you @sunsetcurbed 😘😘

currently patiently (read: impatiently) waiting for the next part of gimis thot to be posted

[ghxstfrixzv]

Spitting TripleSix Through the Grave - Vol. II

60 min mix of Trill/Phonk/Devil Shyt tracks. Tracklist: - • Gho$tFrieza - Enter the Grave [Prod. Gho$tFrieza] - 00:00 • TorchFvce x Wxlfe - DropOutz [Prod. $uijin] - 01:15 • $uicideboy$ - I Want to Believe [Prod. Budd Dwyer] - 03:31 • Gizmo - Broke Ft. Prohibeo [Prod. White Shinobi] - 04:47 • J-Green - Wassup Mane Ft. GhosteMane [Prod. Nedarb Nagrom & J-Green] - 07:00 • Iceberg Black - On My Line [Prod. Iceberg Black] - 09:15 • Yung Death - Snakes [Prod. Hector Vaé] - 11:02 • VTB - Demons [Prod. Prohibeo] - 12:52 • RVMIRXZ - Chapter One [Prod. PackMan & RayAyy] - 14:30 • Bones - TheArtOfCremation [Prod. Vegard Veslelia] - 15:51 • Steezy Ant - Ultimate Sacrifice [Prod. MK Beatz] - 18:24 • Krucifix Klan - Gimi Sum [Prod. Evil Pimp] - 21:12 • BXXZY P - Grave [Prod. Thot Hunter] - 25:16 • Eden Ivy - SSL [Prod. Iceberg Black] - 26:26 • GhosteMane - Swan [Prod. GhosteMane] - 28:28 • Dekae - iAMMistahUndead [Prod. Smoke A Sac] - 30:31 • Eric North - Gates Ft. Syringe [Prod. Eric North] - 32:22 • $uicideboy$ x Pouya - $outh $ide $uicide [Prod. Budd Dwyer] - 34:25 • Jo$heat'n - Roswell [Prod. Jo$heat'n] - 36:35 • DJ Paul - Play Witcha Life [Prod. DJ Paul] - 37:36 • Adalwolf x Rook x BLCKK - Can't Feel My Face [Prod. BLCKK] - 40:56 • OmenXIII - Disgust [Prod. Lunar Vision] - 42:20 • Nick Travae - 2 Plates Ft. LVCID [Prod. Stretch] - 43:34 • Velial Squad - Unholy [Prod. ShawtyGlock & Yung Meep] - 45:31 • LVCID - Pasteur Shop Rage [Prod. NVNDX] - 47:24 • Drk Blade - La Maldición [Prod. strscrm] - 48:22 • GhosteMane - Crucible [Prod. Nedarb Nagrom] - 50:06 • Black Smurf - Squad Check [Prod. $uicideChri$t] - 52:20 • HorrorLust - ReaverCorpse [Prod. HorrorLust] - 54:21 • Gho$tFrieza - Never Leave the Grave [Prod. Gho$tFrieza] - 57:17 Download: https://www.mediafire.com/?no0nsao3vj25513

[sunsetcurbed]

HIHI KAY! 11 and 74 for the spotify wrapped game?

-lev

HI LEV ILY

11. sports by beach bunny - honestly?? this gives more juke vibes than willex. i think it would be super interesting to see the push and pull between a relationship and music for julie and luke and what sacrifices they have to make for one another and what they're NOT willing to sacrifice. obviously with a happy ending.

74. hurts like hell by wrabel, sadie jean - i knew going into this i was going to get gimis thot playlist songs but i did not anticipate how hard coming up with a plot that wasn't gimis thot would be. however, i am thinking about this in terms of gimis thot and am now thinking about perhaps doing a companion to it with this song. just think: alex meeting his date and hitting it off with him, thinking this is finally a chance to move on from willie. he's trying so hard to be with him, but he can't help but notice all the things that are different. still, alex and willie are kind of toxic to their dates in this 'verse so alex doesn't even give a shit that he's measuring this guy up against willie. who's fault is it that this dude ISN'T living up to alex's expectations? not alex's, that's for sure. but they form a friendship and go on a few dates and alex is like "this is fine, this is cool, see, i can move on from willie" but when he closes his eyes he still wishes it were willie. anyways, let's see if my writing juice will come back anytime soon

[sunsetcurbed]

One word. Ma. (for the "what scene sticks in your head" game)

😌

[sunsetcurbed]

12 for the spotify wrapped?

HIIIIII THANK YOUUUU!!

12. something to hold on to - the band camino

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

for those who don't know what gimis thot is (aka "give me something to hold on to"), it's a willex fic that spans 12 years. there are two timelines being told alternate/paralleled to one another: "before" and "after"

"before" the break up

and "after" the break up

it all ends with a happily ever after

it's the piece of work that i'm most proud of, and i am so, so, so fond of it. there is angst but there is fluff as well, and of course the happy ending. if you're willing to read the angst, please, please read this fic because it is my baby.

[sunsetcurbed]

Ooo yes, 14 for the Spotify Wrapped fics?

AHHHHHH THANK U

also ironically i am actually writing a gimis thot fic for this song: tattoos by renee rapp!!

the idea of the fic is a lot like gimis thot, where it's broken into separate timelines. there's a before the break up, during the break up, and when they're back together!! it's titled "(missing) holding your hand when we're half asleep" and revolves around the entire idea of "something to hold on to" :)

[sunsetcurbed]

wip game! I have to ask about “fellas is it gay” but please know my brain went !!!!!!!! bc gimis thot 💕💕😭😭

OKAY SO

rob just asked about this one but i'm going to drop another snippet anyways :)

“They—I think I’ve liked you from the start,” he admits. 

“Me too,” Willie nods. 

“Yeah, but, I—I wouldn’t admit it, because the guys were always pressing me about you and calling you my boyfriend before you were, and it… I wasn’t ready for it. Not like I am now.” Alex brings one hand up to caress Willie’s face. He leans in and kisses him gently, and when he pulls away, Willie nods for him to continue. “I’m… I’m worried if we tell them they’ll keep doing that, but make it more extreme.” 

“What do you mean?” Willie frowns. “We’re already dating, Alex.” 

Alex feels his face go red. “Like, comments about coming out and marriage and kids and—stuff that. We’re not at that point. And I… I love you and I want to head there with you but it scares me to think about all of that right now because, I. I still don’t know when I’m going to come out, and I know I’ll feel—“ 

“Alex,” Willie says. He presses up on his toes and leans in to kiss Alex. “I think I understand.” 

“You do.” 

“Yeah,” Willie nods. “I get it, just…” 

Alex blinks, takes a step back. “Just what?” 

Willie laughs and pulls him back in, pulls him even closer than they’d been standing a moment ago. He lifts his arms and wraps them around Alex’s neck and offers him a smile. “You love me?” 

Alex’s heart stutters in his chest. He stares down at Willie, wondering how Willie could have possibly gotten that out of his speech. Not that it’s not true, because it is, but Alex didn’t want Willie to know, not yet. It’s too soon, isn’t it? “How did you…?” 

Willie pulls Alex down and kisses him again. “You should plan your words a bit more carefully, babe,” Willie hums. “You just told me you loved me.” 

“What?” Alex asks, thinking back on his words. He rewinds the conversation, but he can’t get to where he said that he loves Willie—can’t think of where he said that he’s—oh. Yes he can. “Oh my god,” Alex breathes. “I—“ 

“I love you too,” Willie grins. 

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WIP Game

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it. 

HIIIIII I was tagged by @michelangelinden for this so :) here we go :) i’m only including fics that i 100% want to finish 

(missing) holding your hand when we’re half asleep 

and it’s harder than you think (telling dreams from one another) 

do you remember happy together? (i do. don’t you?) 

don’t you think i love you too much 

fellas is it gay 

fix me up, my darling 

guess who’s back, back again? gimis thot. tell a friend. 

he’s told us not to blow it (’cause he knows it’s all worth while) 

i wanna be the very best (like no one ever was) 

into the jungle 

spider-willie 

there must be some kind of way out of here (said the joker to the thief) 

these things take forever (i especially am slow) 

you love me (but you don’t know it yet) 

tagging @willexxmercer @willexmagic @hufflebibin and everyone else who wants to do this :) 

[sunsetcurbed]

Hello! 💭 🌝 and 👨‍👧‍👧 for the fanfic ask game pls

- @michelangelindraws

hi!! thank you!!

What is a headcanon you have about your own work?

UHHHH I have so many. You can find a lot of them in the notes of my fics, typically!! I guess one that I haven't shared and, while I've thought about writing this as a oneshot, I don't know if I'll ever get around to it. But the reason Alex finally pulled the trigger in breaking up with Willie in gimis thot. I think there were a lot of things that built up to that, but I think there was one moment in particular that made Alex go "this can't go on like this, we can't go on like this, I can't go on like this." And that's when they're on the phone one night when Alex has effectively moved back in with the band and Willie sounds so happy about the paper that he's writing. He realizes in that moment that Willie isn't going to choose Alex (and down the road Alex is happy about that, is proud of Willie for that, no matter how much it hurts). He feels it out by bringing up grad school again and Willie goes quiet, because he thinks it's a trap, and in a way it is. Alex needs confirmation. And Willie tells him that he's been working on the application, and about the letters of recommendation his professors are writing, and about the assistantships he's applying for, and Alex doesn't feel angry like he has whenever they've talked about this for the past six months, he just feels resigned. And as Willie speaks, he accepts that this is what Willie wants. Willie sounds happier and more excited than Alex has heard him sound in weeks, months. And Alex is bitter. He's so, so fucking bitter. But he also wants this for Willie, so he just—his strings get cut. He's not going to fight this anymore. It's done. He's lost. Willie has an idea of this—we even see this in chapter 9 during his research spiral in March 2021. But ultimately—and please excuse the wording—there's nothing to hold on to. That doesn't come until much later down the road.

Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

I think Carlos, honestly. My zine piece was about Julie and Carlos, but it was only 1k and I didn't get to explore his character much. He's a bit unhinged and I appreciate that wholly. I'd love to mess around in his head. I just don't know if I'll ever get the opportunity.

Do you tell people in real life that you write fic?

Some people, yes!! My best friend from high school knows that I write fic—she's actually read my Fremione fic. I was dating someone for a while and told them I wrote fic—I'm still not sure why I did, but I hope I feel comfortable enough with any future partners to do the same. My family knows I write fic. My parents don't know anything about it, but my brother knows some details, like what shows I write for, certain plots, AUs, etc.

[sunsetcurbed]

So I was listening to The Band Camino’s new album and every time I hear Help Me Get Over You I think about gmsthot. Actually a couple other songs on that album too but that one especially makes me think of those precious boys.

You also mentioned being bummed that not as many people read it but I wanted to tell you that it really resonated with me. I met my best friend when we were 14 and been half in love with her for almost as long. We danced around things a lot and our paths took us pretty far from each other after high school. There was a point where I had to choose between moving close to her again and finally giving us a real try and going to my dream grad program and I chose school. Sometimes I still think about if it was the right choice. Reading gmsthot made me pretty emotional especially since I really related to Willie and his situation. I really appreciate you writing and sharing it.

YESSSSS help me get over you is one of my faves on the album. also song about you is definitely alex in gimis thot. but yes there are so many songs on the album that could relate back to gimis thot i was listening and just screaming (90% because tbc, 10% gimis thot).

this is what i sent to my friend after i first listened to help me get over you though: "okay uh i know i did angst with gimis thot but angst on top of that angst?? bc you've listened to the album right?? SO help me get over you jUST CAN YOU IMAGINE alex talked about how he almost texted willie so many times. so he goes searching for reasons. he'll occasionally make a comment like "have you guys heard from willie" and the band will say yeah and he'll try and convince himself it's him, that willie can't stand him, that willie saying he couldn't be friends was a cover up because he didn't want to be. after the initial shock of khaled he starts convincing himself that willie IS happier with khaled and convinces himself that willie knew khaled before they broke up and wanted to date him and that's part of why they didn't work because willie wasn't trying hard enough because he had already met someone else. in the back of his mind he knows it's ridiculous but how else is he supposed to move on" ((also GOD DON'T GET ME STARTED ON THE SECOND VERSE))

anyways yes i'm just so emotional about tbc and gimis thot.

Also, oh my god. I'm so sorry. That's like- stories like that are why I wanted to tell the story. Because these things happen. And they hurt, and they suck, but in the end with that minimal information provided, I personally think you made the right choice. Someone can't be your entire life, you can't give up opportunities like grad school and your dream career because you love them. And, well. Call me a sucker, but I believe in hope too. And maybe once school is over you might have a chance with her. You can't bank your life on it and wait for it and expect it, but you don't have to completely write it out of your life (unless she's in a committed relationship, in which case you have to be realistic). I just. Life is hard, and shitty, and messy, but sometimes things are good anyways. And I promise that even if you don't get her, you're going to end up with someone amazing, and in the end, when you're in your career and kicking ass at your job, I hope you look back and I hope you made the right choice.

[sunsetcurbed]

gimis thot and 2, 11, 12!

hiiiiiii thank u. 💕

2. What scene did you first put down?

This may be boring but the first chapter is the first chapter I wrote! I wrote the break up first, and then I wrote the getting together. After the first chapter (which granted wasn't completely finished until much later, but it was mostly done) I jumped around everywhere.

11. What do you like best about this fic?

It's... human. It's a fic, yeah, but... in a way, it's not fiction. It's real. It's an honest look at love and loss and grief and hope. It's something that people don't talk about enough, either because they're scared to or because they don't want to think about it, but love doesn't always work in our favor. Sometimes, love sucks. And sometimes, compromise isn't an option. And sometimes, compromise is the most important thing. And sometimes, we have to put our lives above those we love because you can love someone but they can't be your entire life. And sometimes, we can find a way to make it work anyways.

12. What do you like least about this fic?

This... kind of feels like a cop out, but I'm kind of bummed that it's not reaching people. This is the fic that I think I'm most proud of, that I put the most work into, the story that I most want to tell. And. People won't read it because it's got the "break up" tag attached to it.

Beyond that, I think what I like least about this fic is that it's over. It really is/was my baby. I just. I can't really think of anything I don't like about it because I crafted it so carefully. I guess maybe just that it was me writing it, that I think someone else could have written it better, but. That's just insecurity. There's nothing backing that up.

[sunsetcurbed]

no thoughts just recovery by broods absolutely being a gimis thot!willex song

(and honestly? all of your glory by broods also works for them)

WHO GAVE YOU THE R I G H T

i think i did when i published gimis thot but also

WHO GAVE YOU THE R I G H T

I MEAN YOU'RE NOT WRONG ON EITHER ACCOUNT

BUT I WAS UNPREPARED

[sunsetcurbed]

🏅 and 🌝 <3333 sent a bonus heaping of love sdfgh

atlasssss ily

What is something you recently felt proud of in regard to your writing (finished a fic, actually planned for once, etc).

Uhhhh. I don't even know. Like I said I've been having major imposter syndrome. I guess most recently it'd be gimis thot. I adore that fic, it means so much to me. I'm so proud of myself for writing it, for finishing it, for pushing myself to write it, for doing everything that I wasn't comfortable with. That was the very first fic I ever planned (I HAD to, y'all saw the time lines), the non-linear time line was something that I'd never done before and never thought I would do, pushing myself to a point where I wrote angst, telling a story that just-- was so completely human. That's something that I strive for in my writing, is to be honest and realistic and I truly feel gimis thot was so honest and so realistic.

Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

I've written for her, but not much but-- Flynn. I just. Can't get her voice down. She's such an interesting character and I'd love to explore her but I would also want to do her justice.

[sunsetcurbed]

i would just like to take a moment to personally thank you bc now every time i listen to a song about wanting to get back together with your ex, instead of thinking abt my ex, i just automatically think about gimis thot. you have done the lord’s work

this is my favorite ask i've ever gotten

also i'm glad to hear that!!