#genuinely if anyone decides to be weird in my inbox

[libraryofolive]

good luck babe is about comphet (a lesbian experience) ur weird as fuck for making it about bisexuals bruh lesbians rly cant have shit can we😭

okay I wasn't gonna answer this but I want to clear this up:

I know good luck babe is about comp het. I explain that within the smaus. I am not attempting to make the song about bisexuals. I just thought it was funny that a man, whose partner is also attracted to women, may become concerned if they find said partner seemingly relating to the comp het aspect of the song, and worry that their partner is experiencing comp het, which the bisexual reader explains is not the case.

I am not trying to take the song away from lesbians, nor make it about being bi, because I know what the song is about. I'm sorry if it seems that way, or if my description of the smau implies that it is.

This may just be me, but the way this is phrased implies that you didn't take the time to look over or consider the actual content before coming to my inbox and hating, because if you did, you would have seen that i explain that the song is about comp het, which the reader is not experiencing. I understand if it's not for you, but equally, if you don't like, just don't read.

I am sorry if my latest smau has genuinely hurt anyone, and I am currently deciding on removing it, but I wanted to address this as soon as I could.

[thewomanwhobloggedlikeaman]

Every time I think my workplace can't possibly make a more unhinged HR decision than the last one, they somehow manage to prove me wrong!!!

Let me weave you a tale...

Workplace: We are struggling financially so we are putting a freeze on raises & bonuses

Me: Ok... [has my annual review, discusses a possible pay increase amount with my wonderful boss since raises will be paid out retroactively once the freeze is lifted. WonderfulBoss and I both acknowledge that the whole situation is a bit of a crapshoot due to the freeze and because this is her first review cycle since starting at the company]

Workplace: We are lifting the freeze! Stay tuned for more information on [very specific date]

[Very specific date passes]

Me: Uh...hey HR! Do you have that info?

HR: Ugh FINE. Here is a specific schedule of when raises will be paid out

Me: Hey WonderfulBoss! Now that they've shared the schedule for paying out raises, do you know when we'll find out how much of an increase we're getting?

WonderfulBoss: Probably the month before your raise is due to be paid

Me: Got it! [internally: 🙃☹️ since my group is not getting our raises paid out for several months]

[several months go by with no info from HR]

WonderfulBoss after I ask for updates during our quarterly check-in: They are running a little bit behind with the schedule, they just finished with [group before mine]

Me: Cool! [internally losing it since I still don't know the amount of my raise]

CEO during all-staff meeting: Here's an update on the payment schedule. [my group] will be getting paid out next month.

Me: Cool!

Me the next day: [Checking the employee portal where all my insurance/tax/direct deposit info is just in case they've updated my salary because I'M GENUINELY CLIMBING THE WALLS AT THIS POINT and see that my salary has been bumped up a wee smidge, but way less than the amount my boss and I talked about] Huh....weird given that they just said my group wouldn't be addressed until next month.... well I get paid in a couple days so we'll see what happens I guess?

Me the day after that: [Gets direct deposit notification] OOH let's see whether my paycheck is the same or if they've given me my raise & backpay early, at a way lower amount than I asked for.

[Direct deposit is for the adjusted amount that I saw in the portal but with no backpay????]

End scene!

Literally WHAT ARE THEY DOING? I have never in my life negotiated for a raise and then not been told face to face in a meeting what the final amount would be. But apparently HR's clown behavior knows no bounds so who knows????

I feel like one of a couple scenarios might be going on:

A) Someone screwed up when making updates for this month in payroll and it's a complete mistake from top to bottom.

B) Without letting anyone know, they decided to adjust the salaries of some folks in my group a month early, but are still planning to pay out the backpay as scheduled.

C) Also without letting anyone know, they decided to randomly give everyone in the company cost of living adjustments as part of/in addition to any merit-based increases.

I'm guessing it's A and that I will see a mea culpa email in my inbox on Monday morning. But who knows!!!

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

there is this Weird thing on social media of people being absolutely obsessed with phrasing re: trans issues, even when the person whos phrasing they dont like is pro-trans or trans themselves. and honestly as a trans person myself, id rather take a kind older cis person who still uses transvestite or transsexual but fully supports trans people than some random on the internet who spams hate messages because you didnt word something perfectly

a lot of the terms used today came after my time and I don’t really like using them because if I use them wrong or just clumsily I get babyqueers in my inbox calling me problematic.

I am glad language has evolved to the point it has so more people can accurately describe themselves if they choose, but at the end of the day it’s more important to me that a person is uplifting of the trans community than if they use the words right. Biased of me to think that way? Perhaps. But I do think this comes back to my opinions on the toxicity of infighting in the queer community. I don’t care if a lesbian would rather call herself a bulldyke, I do care if she is harming other lesbians in some way. Maybe when we get to a point trans people aren’t murdered on the street for existing we can start yelling at other trans people and acting like saying amab makes them a transmisogynist. We aren’t there yet. I genuinely do not care about this discourse at all because there is so much genuine transmisogyny from both TERFs and far right freaks that I cannot be assed to humor this really.

I’m sure I’ll have another call out post made, “watch out for owlvid! not only do they dare to HATE Purina Proplan Dog Food but they also used the term amab in a way I don’t like which obviously means they hate trans women and want them all dead!” or some such, but I really don’t care. I know what I stand for, and I think most people who follow me have figured that out as well. If everyone decides it best to shun me for my usage of amab then that’s their choice. I don’t track my follower count. If my wording makes anyone here uncomfortable they are free to leave.

Or be obnoxious in my inbox I suppose. I don’t actually mind that either.

[sugarskies]

if you wanted to make just like. a rules list of all the stuff Ushas thinks they shouldn't do i would die for you

hiii so sorry this has been sitting in my inbox for a few weeks i got inspired and started writing and then life got kinda wack and long story short i am finding it harder to write than i expected but i don't want to leave u hanging any longer so do u mind if i just. throw this work in progress at u. thank u for ur patience and enthusiasm 🫶

(also if anyone reading this has an idea for deca rules they want to share please do. i am going insane thinking about all the ways the rules would change over time)

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The members of the Deca are and shall remain as follows: Ushas, Magnus, Koschei, Theta Sigma, Millennia, Drax, Jelpax, Rallon, Mortimus, and Vansell. No new members shall be admitted and no current members shall leave of their own accord.

The Deca’s meetings will occur on the first morning of each week. Attendance is mandatory for all members.

No inter-Deca relationships. If one occurs, the participants must not allow their inevitable drama to interfere with the greater Deca friendship.

No one shall touch Ushas’s experiments without explicitly written consent.

The Deca must always protect each other, no matter the crime.

No guests are allowed at the Deca’s weekly meetings.

The Deca will not have a leader. If ever it is decided there should be one, a vote will be taken.

The Deca is prohibited from engaging with Epsilon Ensilden. If any member of the Deca encounters a situation involving him, they should run the other way.

All members must strive for academic excellence.

If any one member is struggling with a subject, another must tutor them.

No foul language during Deca meetings. That means you, Magnus.

Absolutely no food or drinks allowed in Borusa’s classroom.

Respect your fellow members and Borusa. THIS IS SERIOUS. HE WILL BAN US FROM HIS CLASSROOM. AT THE VERY LEAST PRETEND.

Mortimus cannot act as any other member’s therapist or analyze them unsolicited.

Borusa must never be informed of the true nature of the Deca’s meetings.

Do not touch Jelpax’s hair.

Follow Academy rules and do not get into trouble. This is clearly impossible. This rule will be changed as follows: do not drag the uninvolved down with you.

The Deca’s meeting time is precious and will not be wasted on boring and/or irrelevant conversation nor arguments.

All technological issues will be routed to Drax. If he is unavailable (suspended, expelled, etc.), Millennia may be substituted.

Never question Vansell’s secrets without exceptionally good reason. (He gets very weird about them.)

The Deca’s group chat is for genuine, Deca-related conversation only.

The Deca’s group chat will only be used during Academy hours. Do not message it in the middle of the night.

No slapping people because “they deserve it.” <- MILLENNIA

Each member of the Deca must remain in their chosen seats. To switch seats, they must request permission from the group.

Be respectful of everyone’s opinions and do not feel obligated to weigh in on everything. Theta Sigma’s passionate rants are the exception. Always tell him he is wrong.

Koschei may not use psychic abilities in Deca spaces.

Meeting minutes must be recorded during every meeting. If Ushas is unavailable for any reason, someone else must be appointed to take them.

Do not use Rallon as a scapegoat. Seriously. Stop doing it.

The Deca’s rules must be reviewed at least once per semester. All members will have the opportunity to propose and discuss changes.

Have fun—but not too much fun. This is an academic society above all else.

[tiredtief]

oh good u opened inbox just in time so i can ask. why do u continue to support grimes despite every thing bad she did while also being shitty to lady gaga fans for nothing

that was fast lmfao

Is this what the 'you harass people' shit was about? Me 'being shitty' to LG fans? Cuz I really don't recall attacking any specific LG fan, all I've done is post my irritation at the general belief that she is some infallibly kind/unproblematic kween when she has demonstrably appropriated Armenian imagery, culture, and art for a frankly mid music video (bad) and then refused to speak up about the literal Armenian war/genocide that occurred not long after that mv dropped (worse) - and yes, I know the argument will be she might not have known, but it is common knowledge that she is friends with Elton John who posted multiple pro-Armenian things in that timeframe, and plenty of people called her out on it directly anyway, so I refuse to believe she was/is completely unaware.

An important distinction here is that I am not advocating for anyone else to drop LG if they do not want to, I am simply refuting the 'uwu unproblematic goddess' takes and bringing up my specific reason for dumping her music and refusing to support her further. People have stopped supporting artists for less, so I see no issue with me not liking/supporting her for this incredibly personal reason as a literal Armenian myself.

My general policy for art and music at this point is that it is basically impossible for you to find a creative who doesn't exhibit some problematic behavior or attitudes especially within music, and that there can be a case made to separate art from artist. I love Peter Gabriel and Pink Floyd and they did AI shit for music videos. I love Mr.Kitty and he was a literal pedophile (and I actually did stop listening to his music after this came out, until it was confirmed all royalties would be diverted away from him to someone else, in which case I felt it would be acceptable to continue listening). Notch (Minecraft creator) is a huge anti-Semite (and is also no longer benefiting from royalties). Billie Eilish has espoused radfem rhetoric. Stephenie Meyer (Twilight author) horribly represented a group of Native Americans and never apologized for it nor paid them a dime of the millions that the movies/books made. Literally very week a classic emo/alt band member is outed for being a pervert. If you drop every solitary creator for being a shithead you'll have no art left in your life, unfortunately - it is a much better use of your time to acknowledge the problems with these creators (or drop those who are particularly egregious to you/using their funding towards bigoted causes*) than to hide your head in the sand and say 'uhhh ackshually Miku made it' each time.

Yes, Grimes has said some weird and questionable shit (though imho I think they are just genuinely stupid/entitled and/or misspeak what they really mean in an attempt to sound smart or because they just feel the need to talk - but that's speculation) - however, I am not a fan of Grimes because of c./Claire Boucher, I am a fan of Grimes because the collective concept of 'Grimes music' slaps and is also special to me. I don't believe there's a problem with saying 'I like their music but I think they're an absolute moron'.

*And before someone attempts to bring up the argument of JK Terfling, Grimes is in no way donating their royalties and revenue to bigoted causes (that we know of, obviously) - in fact they've vocally supported trans rights and Vivian (Elon's trans daughter) multiple times. The reason people insist on not supporting JKR in monetary ways is because doing so is directly funding anti-trans movements. If Grimes decides to start funding bigoted causes, then yes, I will rescind my support, but if the worst they have is stupid tweets and dumbass interview quotes (two things they have been notorious for for years now and have always amounted to absolutely nothing of substance) then I don't see an issue.

If you want to waste your time going after fans who are blindly supporting a bigot who actually donates to problematic causes, then consider bothering the people on this site that continue to fawn over FNAF, when the creator of that franchise is a known extreme Republican who has been proven to have donated large sums towards Donald Trump. But no one is ready for that conversation - some of you aren't even ready to take your Hogwarts houses out of your bios.

[ryunnies]

ok so i posted that answer prematurely and deleted but the anon isn’t back in my inbox… so. below is the ss of the anon and my response:

i apologize that this has taken me a week to get to, but as i mentioned in my other post regarding this anon, i wanted to take my time with it. it’s been a busy week for me and i’ve been going back and forth on how i wanted to respond.

felix in himself has feminine features and i did not exaggerate that other than have elliot’s nickname be ellie and have she/they pronouns. when creating the backstory of my muse, felix was the fc i had in mind. that is my process when i create muses. ellie loved to dance and bake and be social and make their friends smile/happy. she wore baggy/comfy clothing and only had an interest in makeup when she got into a relationship. ellie was in a polyamorous relationship, yes with 2 other male fcs, but none of them identified as cismale/men. there was genuine chemistry between them and, to me, it did not matter what their fcs were. i can’t speak for the other 2 muns but i tried my best to have ellie be as inclusive as possible, to not talk badly about people, to strive to do better every day but my mindset in that shifted when i saw how people treated ellie and their partners. so she didn’t try so hard with people and decided to focus on herself and their budding family. and to my knowledge, we were never “called out” for being cliquey or odd. i was also grieving the loss of a very close family member so some days i wasn’t able to get to dms or keep up in a way that ellie would and that caused some tension between ic friendships. the admins reached out to me once for a situation between another mun who’s muse would ignore and subtweet ellie and would be rude if she did decide to interact and decided to block me out of the blue. this was apparently over an ooc issue from my previous muse in that rp THAT I HAD NO IDEA ABOUT. i thought it was strange that the admins were allowing someone to keep my muse blocked and blur the lines between ic and ooc, but knowing what i know now about the admins, i can’t say im surprised. but at the time i let it go. the only reason i left was because i was planning on leaving anyway (i’ve talked about it to a handful of muns from muses that ellie was close too because, like some, i wasn’t fully ready to let go yet) because the stress it caused me was. not. worth. it. did i jump to that decision faster than i would have because one of my ship partners left? yes. but i tried it for a few days and was just not feeling it so i posted my unfollow.

i tried very very hard with ellie to be mindful and not talk poorly about others and to avoid putting my thoughts and feelings into her because i knew i was going through a tough time and i wanted ellie to be a positive outsource. ellie was a much needed distraction and i do not regret how i played her. yes there are some instances or interactions i’m not proud of (ie with the eli mun). i went back and forth between wanting to switch fcs to a female one because i knew people would be weird about me playing a male fc with feminine pronouns, but it just did not fit my backstory for them.

at this point i know it’s not going to matter what i say to some of you because your mind has already been made up about me, and that’s fine. but for anyone who’s not that, for anyone who genuinely wants closure, i promise you my dms are open. i will listen to you as long as you give me that same respect. we all make mistakes, we all act out in ways we don’t mean to, and we all interpret things differently. i will not be apologizing over anon because that feels disingenuous and i am not a damn famous influencer

[whatiwillsay]

Harris/Waltz lost me at allowing children to decide gender altering surgery without their parents, signing bills adding pedophilia to the definition of sexual orientation, and abortion for healthy women and babies up to birth.

the only thing in that brain worm invested weirdo nonsense you just vomited into my inbox that has any kernel of truth to it is that in mn abortion is between a woman and her healthcare provider and the state doesn’t get to step in and make decisions about a woman’s body. in practice no healthy women get late term abortions but leaving it legal is necessary because any ban, even with exceptions carved out, in practice stops everyone needing it from getting them. see the texas lawsuits. all those women’s lives were in danger and they still couldn’t access care because the doctors were scared of going to jail. abortion has to be legal at all times.

but late term abortions are not a thing and anyone who believes they are is stupid:

there is no law that makes pedophilia a sexual orientation in fact the law you’re referring to removed language from the law linking pedophilia to sexual orientation.

the only way a minor can have surgery without parental or a guardians consent is if there is an extreme emergency like they’re dying of a heart attack or something. in fact in minnesota you can’t even get hormone therapy until you’re 18 unless you have parental consent.

https://www.plannedparenthood.org/planned-parenthood-north-central-states/campaigns/gender-affirming-care#:~:text=Can%20I%20still%20receive%20hormone,a%20health%20center%20in%20Minnesota

i can’t believe people like you who can’t take 5 seconds to fact check all this weird alt right conspiracy nonsense are allowed to vote like genuinely it’s so fucked up that dumdums like you have a say in the direction of our country.

are you embarrassed to be this stupid? does it feel bad? or is this a dunning-kruger situation where you don’t even know how braindead you are?

anyway now that i’ve debunked all your stupid right wing delusions i’m sure you’ll be voting for harris/walz now right?

[celestialprincesslulu]

{{ Where do I start? I'm going to talk out my thoughts under a read more.

First of all, I suppose I have to say that I hate Tumblr's new lay out and how things look. I think it looks overly complicated and busy. It feels weird to be on it; maybe that's because I'm just logging on but it just looks.. genuinely bad.

Secondly, I want to say I'm sorry. I know that means nothing when I still tend to disappear and not talk to. In specific, I know I was removed (a while ago now) from a group of friends. I never reached out to them when I originally realized it because what do I say at that point? I suck at communicating and being active. I suck at being a good friend and I never feel like I have anything interesting to say ever. I usually sit in voice chats silent with friends and lurk even.

I noticed getting on too that at least one of the people from that group blocked me; I'm sorry that I burned you. I don't expect you to reach out or unblock me or even read this. I'm sorry that I was spotty. I'm bad at communication and keeping myself driven even if I adored writing with you. I assume the rest have new accounts in which I might also be blocked on those and I'm sorry to them too. I won't be that person who harasses you on discord begging you to forgive me when I don't deserve it. I hope the best for you and thank you for letting me be apart of your group while you did. I didn't deserve the kindness that you all showed and I really do hope that you guys find all the happiness and then some.

I won't drop names or say who it was in specific because I don't wish for anyone to talk to them about it. Their choices were 100% in the right to make and I'm not going to be a creep who anonymously blows up their inboxes or blows up their discords causing more issues for them. I want them happy.

Thirdly, I don't know if I'm going to return or I might call it here. I started watching Fairy Tail again and enjoying it... but my partners have either moved on from me (meaning removing me completely which is valid) or they're simply not active themselves. I have a lot of drafts but all of them but one or two are deactivated, inactive, or have moved on as I stated so maybe that's just a sign that I was never meant for this.

Fourth, my mental state's still not been the best. Delaware move went fine since I never updated from that. My PC is set up, we have a desk, and etc but the pressure of not having a job for the upcoming moments in my life have been enough to put me in worse for wear. I had intended on being more active once I had everything set up and got job stuff in order but that.. still hasn't happened. I'm still carless, jobless, and broke.

Fifth and finally.. thank you to everyone who has shown patience for however long they had it and never met me with anger. Whatever I choose to decide, I don't regret joining Tumblr RP or meeting the people I've met regardless of how it ended. Writing with everyone has been a blessing and honor; meeting everyone was a gift. Any memories OOC or with our characters were some of the best. Writing with all the people I have had always challenged me to do my best and come up with something worth while to match up with you all.

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

(sent through here in case you don’t answer notes. replies? idk, i’m new to tumblr. feel free to disregard if you do reply to those.)

Are you willing to engage in a convo/elaborate on disliking Taehyung? I can see that you already have somewhere, but I’m new here so I can’t find that. All that I have gleaned is that his actions have bothered you somehow? To be honest, I would like to critique one of your posts by saying that I think you saying “I don’t have the energy for him, I’m trying to be nice” is, like, harmful? Rude? Maybe a bit weird? Yes, I am Taehyung-biased, but I would still be saying this if you said that to Jimin or Minho or, idk, Harry Styles. I just think it’s an unnecessarily mean and even threatening thing to say to someone without being a bit more upfront about your reasoning. I think it would be helpful to link those old posts you made, though I get that that’s not possible for every ask. Anyway, I guess I’ve become the Taehyung-likers in your inbox (or whatever this thing is called) that you don’t have energy for lol, but I genuinely would like to know your reasoning. Thanks for all the other posts, too, your queer Bangtan analyses are very cool and awesome.

Hey @raspberrytaegi

I saw you sent this same message in the comments. I decided to answer here because it's easier to write. This was during my break, so now I finally decided to actually answer your questions.

In a way, I understand where you're coming from, specifically because it appears that you only recently opened up your blog and you somehow stumbled on to mine and you happened to see me dismissing something that was Tae-related. Now, there was a context to that. Some of it is obvious from my blog, other stuff was more personal in a way. This is not me justifying myself because as you will see in what I will explain down the line, I don't think it's necessary for me to do so.

Me saying I don't have the energy for him was right before I went on a break and put the blog on hold. My initial plan was to wait until right before Christmas, but I just had had enough of anything BTS and the 90 percent of asks that were piling up in my inbox. If I came across as rude in that ask, I was just the same in the other ones I responded during those days because I simply didn't have the patience anymore for nonsense. So, there was that.

For anyone who has been following me for a while, they sort of know what my stance is in regards to Tae and I've never been shy about it. I can't link all my posts about him because it would take too much work and time that I do not have. I also wish my tagging system would be more consistent, but if you are interested, you can check the "tae", "taehyung" "V" tags on my blog and you could probably find some more. And what you will find is that indeed, I'm not a fan of him. But I also don't subscribe to this idiotic mentality of what this fandom would call anti, hater or whatever else label is out there. Which means, I don't have a hate boner for him. I may be biased and that influences the way I perceive him, but I'm also not going to drag him for the sake of it. I had anons saying his friendship with the Wooga squad is fake and just for the show they made which was something that I did not agree. I sort of live posted during the Grammy awards last year and 80 percent of my posts was me enjoying Tae doing his thing. His first trip to Paris was on my radar as well and in a good way. I also talked about the "dating scandal" back in September and how the fans are being shitty towards the entire thing (in way more words anyway. If that is of interest to you, I tagged it under the ship name).

At the same time, I'm not a fan of his behavior. I think he can be shady some times and this is something that would get me stoned on twitter. He can come across as rude and spoiled and that's something that personally doesn't work for me. I also don't expect everyone to agree. Some things that I don't like might be the same reason why others are his fans. They like how Tae is more serious and quiet, I see it as unwilligness to be professional (in some group video messages and even Run BTS episodes. Everyone can have a difficult day and not be in the mood at all, but it's a job where they play games. That's it. And it's not a one time occurence. If it was that case, I probably wouldn't have noticed).

I don't understand his tendency to lie. Especially when there's intention (or it comes across as that). This is a behavior that is seen by his fans as Tae just being himself, he's cool like that. Fine. But not to me. He posts a fake tattoo just because, he says he's having a collab for a Christmas song but that didn't happen and it came out of the blue, and so on.

I don't hate the guy, I just don't vibe with him at all and he's the type of person that I can't be a fan of. That's it. It's not a crime. And I'm also not going to judge you for coming to my inbox and wanting to understand why I think that way because you're Tae biased. I get it. I also don't get some of the opinions written about Jimin and Jungkook so I understand your position.

I also don't mind the passive agressiveness in your ask about me not having the energy for a Tae-biased fan. I "judge" my anons mostly on how they choose to express themselves and the willingness to understand different point of views, not based on who they stan. If someone is at least mostly reasonable (which you were), we can have a conversation.

Lastly, I saw that you liked some of my other posts, thank you! Seeing that you didn't immediately sent me a hate post and being able to see beyond an dismissive answer to an ask I answered played a big part in me being open now in having this conversation.

[renelinks]

ノ DO NOT INTERACT! ﹙please dni if...﹚ ๋࣭⭑

you're racist, homophobic, ableist, a terf, a pedophile, anti-mask, prolifer, [basic dni criteria; anything that's not morally respected], if you SUPPORT anyone that fits in the basic dni criteria.

if you headcanon certain characters don't/wouldn't date a POC/black person.

you participated in a character hate night.

you support/write/consume dark content [r*pe, cnc, and all of that typa stuff!

you write things about weird age gaps or weird pairings (like 18 & 47 or teacher x student)

you support groomers like c*lleen ballinger or j*mes charles, or you support y*gami y*to.

you like to age up minor characters for sexual content. (unless there’s a CANON timeskip, then yeah sure but just make sure to specify it’s the timeskip version of the character.)

for ages, i don't care how old you are to follow me because i am relatively a sfw blog, but to be mutuals with me you have to be 15+

→ please be aware that even though i'm a minor, i will make sexual jokes and innuendos from time to time, because it's my humor and just because i want to. if you don't like that, feel free to exit off my page.

→ i curse heavily, so if you're just generally uncomfortable with that, don't interact & don't come in my damn inbox about it bc i genuinely will not give a fuck. also i say the n-word cause i can since i'm black!

if you follow any of these and still decide to follow / interact with my posts, you're gonna get blocked! trust me, i look through my notifications very often and you won't realize when i do. so be careful.

[rawkinks]

Possessive for someone online is not a good thing or something to be proud of

lacking reading skills huh? . i would looooove to make myself clear because i feel people are putting me down to this stupid level.

one; i don’t care who flirts with who. i say shit purely for shits and giggles until someone decides to piss me off by coming into my inbox saying weird shit that i cannot play off. i genuinely don’t care. i flirt with my anons all the time, he can do the same, that’s his choice. i never told or pressured anyone into doing anything. i promise you.

two; what goes on behind the scenes is not your business. never once and never will be. things are left private. what you see in the public eye is not all the same. i’ve been called endless names over a joke!! i can’t even count the amount of asks i’ve received just from last night telling me to do awful things to myself.

three; everything is consensual. i would like to put it out there because again, i’m being accused of something i’m not doing. everything is consensual. thank you.

turning off anons for the day ‘cause i’m way past my limit now and you’re all on my cock & balls. please leave the both of us alone. if you’re so angry, there’s a block button. i’m so tired.

[pearlcages]

There is no such thing as a short hair Callie girl. Other than the cute sorta bob in season 7, that’s as short as it ever got for Callie. She’s a hair girl, got a beautiful thick head of hair. If you can’t separate character from the actor than say that.

huh

so i’d like to start this by saying that i have very little interest in changing your mind here, because if i was invested in that i simply wouldn’t have written chapter 11 the way i did. but i will take this as a general jumping off point to string together some ideas i've had floating around for a minute

i fundamentally do not understand the discomfort people have in this fandom with callie's hair changing. the vehemence of the response and the fact that it is pre-prepared indicate to me that it's about more than characterization. you'd already decided before i wrote chapter 11 that it could never be done well, done genuinely, done with an understanding of callie as a character

callie who did in fact get a huge haircut on a whim in season 7, just like you said. because she was entering a new era of her life and needed to leave the old one behind. as a character, callie is dynamic and changeable, she has a history of taking aesthetic risks because she needs visual markers for internal change. it's not unprecedented, it's not even a reach. we have actual canon basis for this kind of decision

beyond that, it's weird to thing to argue that queer women's gender expression doesn't... evolve? as we age? that a woman who didn't realize she was interested in women until her 30s couldn't possibly grow to a place where she pursues visible queerness? that at a certain age, our identity and how we express it is set in stone?

callie has never been static or unchangeable as a character, she's always been interested in reflecting these changes aesthetically, and she's quite literally made the decision to make a radical change like this before. these things are all true

your attachment to callie's femininity is fine. it's great, actually! i have no problem with other people's interpretation of a character or other peoples aesthetic preferences. but your personal attachment to callie's femininity is not, in fact, going to be the deciding factor in my work

but what i really don't get is why what i do in my fic is so threatening to literally anyone. because the reaction is consistently passionate whenever this subject comes up, and there has to be something there. something about the idea of callie with short hair really bothers people, and it's not simply that you think it's ooc. again, you decided it was ooc before you read the chapter. nothing i could've possibly written would have not pinged as ooc for you. no depth of complexity would've been enough, no grand understanding of her as a character. so there is something there beyond characterization that specifically gets under people's skin

because i'm not in your inbox telling you that you absolutely have to cut callie's hair. i'm not threatened by other people's choices in how they characterize her. i don't specifically seek them out and insult them when they do something i wouldn't— and let's not pretend you aren't insulting me here

so, perhaps, we should just all take a moment to think about why things make us angry and really get to the bottom of that. or, maybe, we should just come off anon

[mamamittens]

Update!

Well, this week has been fuck all for production hasn't it lol? Literally passed out for about 16 hours yesterday and am tempted to do it again.

Sorry about that, by the way, it's been an exhausting and stressful week at work prepping for inventory (which was today) basically by myself and with two major storms having blown into my area (one just winding down for me with currently over 80,000 power outages and winds reaching up to 90 miles an hour, yikes) that had tornado threats so I had to watch like a hawk in case we needed to take shelter quickly.

Okay, I say need but it's mostly for my anxiety but I still spent most of this afternoon sick and nauseous from either the steak I had for dinner or stress. Probably both idk, my body is a bit weird sometimes.

Folks that have been around while may know that I don't tend to write anything if there's severe weather in my area, so anyone new can now know that too lol

Plans for the future? Well, I want to knock out those requests and address the asks that have been gathering dust in my inbox (whoops). I'm still deciding if I want to introduce Koala (and start waving that Fisher death flag lol) or keep walking through those big milestones--ah I still need to introduce the toxin thing whoops--maybe saving a few for emotional flashbacks? It is about a 2 year jump so there's quite a lot that could happen in that timespan.

It's a little hard to say cause idk how interested y'all are in the other, less exciting baby firsts compared to walking and talking. And while I enjoy writing in these little moments and mostly get my serotonin thataway from fic ideas to keep me going and interested, I don't intend to bore you all.

Oh! I will start cross posting on AO3 soon just to avoid the tedious process of uploading the entire thing(when I finish) chapter by chapter cause that shit sucked ngl so look forward to that I suppose~

Bear in mind that I have about 3 hours of free time on weekdays so some things genuinely take me a while if I want to do other things like catch up on fics or YouTube... Or Tears of the Kingdom lmao

Hopefully, I'll see y'all soon with more content!

And sorry for the delay, this hasn't been my intention but when is it ever?

[pendraegon]

people really do just send you anything 😭

they really do 😭

[northern-passage]

hi, i don’t mean this to be rude at all just genuinely wondering how you’re going to approach nsfw content with your nonbinary characters? i’m just curious since you’ve never revealed agab (which i totally respect that) and i’ve done the same with my own nb ROs.

i assume this is about nsfw art? i've done snippets for Clementine before, and i've always kept it vague for them (and same with Noel, since xe was gender-selectable at the time)

this is something i've thought about a lot and have talked to various people about since i've started tnp; i've always been pretty adamant about not discussing agab on the blog, and that's not going to change with this. i have a no nsfw policy almost entirely because of the way the IF community interacts with & talks about trans and nb characters, and while it has improved slightly in the last year, it's still not something i'm going to entertain. to be frank, i find people asking for agab/discussing agab in this context (anonymously on tumblr dot com), even about fictional characters, to be really weird and rude.

i don't really think it adds anything to announce a character's agab in that way, and personally for the stories i write i always want it to be something that comes up in-game between the player and the character, because it gives the character some agency and (this is entirely a personal opinion) as someone who is nb myself it makes me feel that, as an author, i am conveying to readers that this is not information you are Entitled to, not in real life and not even in fiction. you have to get to know this character, and even then, they are not required to share this very private thing with you. obviously i do understand the appeal in announcing if your characters are trans, and i understand it makes it easier for people who are looking for trans inclusive games to find them that way - this is just my personal opinion about it, and why i don't specify that kind of thing in my character descriptions or intro posts.

at this point, though, with the plans i have for the game and the sexual content i want to include, it's obvious that it's not exactly realistic of me to keep it vague. it's going to eventually come up in game, in the intimate scenes i have planned for everyone. i didn't expect that i would ever even be writing those kinds of scenes, which is also part of why i set that boundary about my nb characters to begin with (this game wasnt even 18+ at the start). but i've got more comfortable with that now, and it's something i'm actually looking forward to.

i've debated a lot about this, especially after i released the siren's call demo and posted art of Rome on that blog and immediately had people in my inbox misgendering them and calling them a man - it really frustrated me in particular that just giving the slightest bit of facial hair made people act like that... they aren't perfectly androgynous, and suddenly people felt comfortable disregarding their identity and straight up misgendering them.

however, i don't think the answer to that is to just remove all sex characteristics from my nb characters... that's silly and isn't actually addressing the problem (i'd argue it's making it worse) plus there's already a prevalent misconception when it comes to nb people and How they are expected to look and dress, with most people assuming certain things that directly harm the more vulnerable members of our community. nb people can look any way they want, and they're still nb. it's ridiculous to expect androgyny, and it's ridiculous to expect nb people to be "vague." but i also think it's ridiculous to expect Anyone to disclose personal, private information about themself, no matter how they present... and with Clementine and Noel being fictional characters, they can't really "decide" what they want for themselves.

sorry this has turned into a bit of a tangent, but basically my thoughts on all of this now is... it's Complicated. lmfao. i know a lot of people especially liked how i've handled Clementine up to this point, and i understand if people are disappointed with this potential change. i've also had a lot of people that have really liked my snippets and depictions of Merry - whereas with Clem i was always vague, i've been far more explicit with Merry.

i think, particularly with Merry, she has shared with the player that she is trans & potentially has already had an intimate encounter with the hunter. Lea, too, is very close with the hunter and they are both intimately familiar with each other, whether they like it or not. obviously we know Clem and Noel are trans as well, but the difference is that they have not disclosed certain things with the hunter like Lea and Merry have, if that makes sense. this is also why i preferred to keep things vague with those two specifically - again, i like giving that bit of agency to the characters, and we have a long way to go in-game before Clem or Noel are close enough to the hunter to want to share that information.

for the record i do think it's weird to treat it like some Big Deal that *gasp* Clem and Noel have genitalia! it's not something that needs an announcement. but i hope this at least explains my thinking & why i've done things the way i have up to this point, and why i've changed my mind slightly.

my plan now, with the nsfw art aspect, is that i may post an occasional tasteful nude of some of my characters on patreon. and that's it. it's not going to change how i do anything else, and this doesn't change anything about either Noel or Clem.

[cassandraclare]

Various q’s, necromancy, Thomas and shadows

herondaisies said: is it possible that james will help thomas and alastair’s relationship develop? james has shown signs that he might be the first one to (forgive) alastair, and i love the possibility of james helping his (hopefully) future brother in law ☺️

James is in an odd place because he’s stuck between Cordelia, who would of course like him to be helpful to Alastair, and his friends, who are furious at Alastair. Also you are assuming James knows Alastair likes Thomas, which I can only say that as of the beginning of the book, he definitely doesn’t. Maybe he finds out. :) I’d like to think he’d be helpful if so, but he’d have to believe that Thomas wanted him to be.

wendysx said: Hi Cassie, I would like to know if we will get more chapters about Jesse, I love him with all my heart and I would love to see more of him.

And you will!

fairstalrs said: why do matthew and cordelia take a road trip?

Because Matthew is the only one with a car. :) (And they’re seeking a magical item.)

cjfritos said: Will James's power be explained more? I find it very confusing as the turning to shadow is a side effect of seeing the other world (which is his power) yet he can turn to shadow without seeing the other world. And he supposedly cant control it but has done it many times. Also could we get a Jordelia snippet soon 🙏

Well, actually that’s a bit backwards — seeing the other world is a side effect of turning to shadow rather than the other way around. And indeed, while he has willed himself into shadow in the past — and practiced controlling the power with Jem — that doesn’t mean he can always control it. I would also note that Chain of Iron makes clear James doesn’t just have one specific “shadow” power; he has a connection to Belial that plays out in a bunch of strange magic ways, most of which are not necessarily a beneficial or controllable power but just weird stuff that happens to him because of his connection to Belial. It plays out with Lucie, too: she can see Jesse while nobody else, even James, can, because of her connection to Belial  (a connection James shares, but which doesn’t play out the same way with him) which is separate from but connected to her general command-the-dead power.

As for Jordelia,  I am genuinely running out of non-spoilery stuff! Not all snippets, even if they’re just a sentence or two, are created equal. You can ruin a whole book just by sharing a sentence, if the sentence is key to the plot. So I racked my brain a bit and decided this might work ;-) 

Cordelia hesitated. James’s hands were firm and gentle on hers; she knew he would always be this way, gentle and determined, kind and thoughtful. Her heart beat hard and treacherous inside her chest. He had not been gentle in the Whispering Room. Not gentle with his hands on her body and his lips on hers. That had been the James she wanted, her one glimpse at the James she could not have.

Only two more weeks!

mrswillherondale: Hi Cassie, I just finished my reread of Chain of Gold and the whole necromancy issue with Lucie/Grace/Jesse made me wonder: Will anyone be upset at Lucie and Grace for trying to raise Jesse instead of someone else, like Grace’s parents, or Lucie’s grandparents, or Barbara Lightwood? Will Thomas be angry?

*blink* No. Wow, no. I mean, mostly people will be upset at Lucie and Grace for trying necromancy at all. Second, the only reason they are trying it on Jesse is because he is not literally dead. He has both a consciousness that continues to exist, and a body he could return to. It is a matter of joining up that consciousness and the body, which both still exist in our world, rather than trying to bring back someone whose consciousness has long ago been extinguished, and whose body has been burned to ash. So what they’re doing is not what Ty (with terrible results) tried to do in Queen of Air and Darkness, and anyone who knows them and is reasonable (and Thomas is reasonable to a fault — even Will is reasonable!) would understand that.

Thirdly, necromancy isn’t just a bad idea because it’s bad for the necromancer. It’s a bad idea because it’s potentially really bad for the person they’re trying to raise. There is every chance that necromancy can go horribly wrong. If they were to try it on Barbara, she could be brought back as a zombie, someone possessed by a demon, or in terrible screaming permanent agony. With Jesse, they have an opportunity to do what they’re doing with someone who is aware of the risks and can consent to it. Thomas (and/or Will, or Grace’s relatives) would absolutely be furious with Lucie, and by extension Grace, if they did try to bring back Barbara/Will’s parents with their rinky-dink necromantic attempts. Not the other way around.

rhosyncymreig said: Hi! Can you share with us something about Thomastair? (Non-spoilery of course)

I haven’t shared a ton about Thomastair because anything about them is spoilery. We left them not speaking to each other, so even indicating that they have had a conversation is potentially spoilery. All I can really do — especially so close to the book release — is say that yes, they do talk FRAUGHTLY, and share this particular piece of Cassandra Jean art, a scene from COI of Thomas walking away from Alastair’s house in Cornwall Gardens.

ETA: My inbox isn’t open at the moment because DEADLINES, but I will open it up this week — keep an eye on Twitter — and again after COI comes out, for questions!