#genuinely i think if my mom died I would... google what pills you can kys with? | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

natjennie · 8 months ago

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my dad was just like "what happens when your mom and I are both gone and there's no one to do the laundry and clean up the trash and do the cat litter, how are you gonna buy a car and get a job and live somewhere" blah blah blah and like I don't know!!!! and it crushes me every day!!!! the idea that I'm unable to do all the little tasks that come with being an adult myself!!! I don't fucking know what I'm supposed to do about it!!! it haunts me! I think about it every minute of my life, the fact that I'm a failure by every adult human standard!!!! and I have no fucking idea what I'd do if I had to survive on my own!!!! it's fucking scary!!!!!!!!! so maybe you could like. look into things to help and try to help me figure out alternatives that work for me instead of getting passive aggressive that I can't just do things like normal and then reminding me of the fact that I'm incapable of basic tasks!!!! in the most upsetting way possible!!!!!!!

#like he thinks i dont realize that? he thinks im being lazy and taking advantage of the fact that i still live with them #and just mooching off of them #instead of the fact that i am physically and mentally unable to care for myself and find it difficult to cope with every minute of every da #but who gives a shit about me because my sister is the one with the diagnoses so she's the only one that can actually get help.#genuinely i think if my mom died I would... google what pills you can kys with?#like that's my plan b #i dont know what he wants from me #im trying as hard as i possible can and it's not very hard and im sorry.#but i dont know what else im supposed to do

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