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aminiatureworld · 3 years ago

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In My Dreams V

Characters: Zhongli, fm!reader

Word Count: 3,492

Warnings: None

Premise: The past is many things. Something to admire, something to learn from, something to hold dear. And yet how unreliable it can be, especially in the hands of ghosts.

In which the reader dreams of the past.

Author’s Note: This one is probably the one that deviates most from the original prompt. Still I enjoyed writing it a lot, and I hope you enjoy reading it.

This is the end! Thank you for reading and for your patience and I hope you enjoyed!

Zhongli

There was a young man standing in front of you. Standing in sharp contrast to the darkened landscape around him he naturally drew your eye. You stood facing him, making no effort to approach him. You weren’t even sure you’d be able to if you tried.

The morning sunlight burst forth suddenly from behind you eyelids. Blinking heavily you let out a groan, turning over and smashing your face into the nearest pillow, willing yourself to go back to sleep. A familiar chuckle sounded next to you as a kiss was planted on your cheek.

“You cannot evade the day forever my love. There is much to be done.”

“Five more minutes…”

“If I let you sleep five more minutes then it will surely turn into at least an hour. Besides, did you not tell me once that five minutes was hardly any sleep time at all?”

“Maybe.” You grumbled.

Sitting up you shielded your eyes with your hand. Though you appreciated the heavy curtains that kept the light out in the morning, you had to admit the adjustment every day could be difficult. Especially when your dreams had been so muted. What had you been dreaming of again? Random thoughts flower in and out of your head. Sometimes about a dark landscape. And maybe a person? You supposed it didn’t really matter.

Gathering your clothes you strapped your adventuring belt across your waist. Frowning at the weight of one of the bags you reached your hand into the satchel. Your fingers found rough stone, and when pulling the offending object out you found yourself face to face with a sort of mineral you’d never seen before.

“Hey, Zhongli?”

“Yes my love?”

“Tell me, have you ever seen this before?”

As you held the crystal out to Zhongli you could swear a flicker of darkness shadowed his eyes. Walking over to take the mineral out of your hand he turned it over gently, an expression of stony focus coating his features.

The crystal seemed to glow slightly. Reddish in hue it seemed to have been shot through with gold, if that was possible of a rock. The rusted red color was opaque, and the features of Zhongli’s hands faded into shadow underneath the mineral. Yet still it seemed almost delicate, the golden glow giving it a sense of fragility that undermined its general heaviness.

“This mineral, it is very strange. It reminds me of something I saw once, long ago, but the makeup is different. I cannot even be sure it is not a combination of various minerals. How very strange.”

“Do you think there’s something wrong?” You asked, surprised by the quiet intensity in Zhongli’s words.

“I doubt it very much. Thankfully I doubt that a single odd crystal could shake the foundations of Liyue. Still, it is very strange.” He rolled it over one more time before looking back into your eyes, stare deadly serious. “Do you mind if I keep this for a little while? I promise I shall return it, only there is one thing I wish to enquire after.”

“Of course you can! What’s mine is yours and besides, I don’t have any particular attachment to it. I found it on the ground somewhere.”

“Thank you my love.”

Zhongli leaned over to give you a soft kiss. You sighed happily, glad to be immersed in his proximity. Still a piece of you wondered at the look on his face, and the smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes.

The day passed quietly, with no interesting rock discoveries or sudden natural disasters in sight. You’d almost forgotten about the whole rock deal in fact, too busy with the sudden uptick in geovishaps on the plains of Liyue to think about much else. By the time you arrived home that evening your thoughts were filled with nothing other than some rest and time with the one you loved most.

“I’m home!” You announced loudly, taking your shoes off and hanging your pack in its usual spot.

“Welcome back my love.”

“Did you have a good day?” You called out, walking through the hall into the living room. Zhongli was sitting in his usual chair, back facing away from you. Walking over you leaned forward, kissing his cheek before going to face him.

The expression of quiet worry on Zhongli’s face quickly pulled you out of your reverie. Sitting down on his lap you pushed the hair out of his eyes, examining him for any fatigue.

“Is something wrong? Did Hu Tao give you a hard time?”

“Work was fine my love, do not worry. It is only the gemstone you gave to me, it… it is very strange.”

“Strange how?” You asked, a chill running down your spine.

“Only that it is quite unique, so unique in fact that I have never seen a mineral or crystal formation like it. As I said there was once a mineral similar in nature, but the means to that mineral was long ago destroyed, and the formation was different.”

“Was the other mineral dangerous?”

“Not intrinsically. Nor can I sense any intrinsic danger from this mineral. Still, I think you ought to keep it hidden for some time. Citizens would surely be curious, and until I can be sure that this symbolizes no threat to Liyue I would not speak of it.”

“Did you notify the Qixing?”

“I informed Ningguang about it today. I trust that she will come to a decision in regards to any monitoring by the Qixing. Still, there are a few things I wish to observe.” Glancing up at your face Zhongli softened a bit, smiling slightly. “Do not worry my love, I am sure there is nothing to fear.”

“I’m sure you’re right.” You replied. But the sense of mundane bliss that had coated you was now shattered, and you found threads of anxiety tugging at your brain, threatening to consume your thoughts and lead you down the path of worrying.

The young man was back that night, once more faraway and unapproachable. This time however his hand was stretched out, palm up, as if waiting for something.

“What do you want?” You called out. There was no reply.

Suddenly the side of your nightdress grew heavy. Reaching into your pocket you pulled out the gemstone, shining faintly in the dark.

“This? What is it?”

The young man smiled, eyes glinting.

“That is the truth?”

You blinked, eyes useless in the dark that still enveloped the world. What time was it? You lay on your back, listening to the soft sighs of your partner, the noise mixing with the soft sound of birds chirping; soon it would be daytime. You sighed, staring up at the ceiling. You’d been dreaming about something, what was it? It was somehow familiar, as if you’d dreamt it before, though surely it wasn’t a normal recurring dream, as you couldn’t seem to remember it. Still, it had made you uneasy, though you weren’t sure why.

Rolling over to face your partner you closed your eyes. No use thinking about it now. What you couldn’t remember you couldn’t remember. Besides, all you wanted to do was sleep.

The morning came far too soon, and with it the knowledge of a busy day that stretched out before you. Blinking away your fatigue you kissed Zhongli an absentminded goodbye before dragging yourself out the door. Collecting your commissions with equal sluggishness you ignored the stares from other Guild members, the quiet concern of Katheryne as she asked if you had slept alright.

Thankfully the day was gorgeous and the workload relatively light. Leaning against a rock, letting the grass of the Liyue plains tickle your hand you stared up at the blue sky. Absentmindedly you wondered again about the dream. What had it been about? Closing your eyes you tried to call it back. The lazy afternoon sun shined down upon you. Soon you found your thoughts melding together and before you knew it you slipped off into sleep.

There was a young man standing in front of you, eyes stony, smile superficial. You glanced around, confused by the black landscape in which you found yourself. This must be a dream. And yet it seemed so familiar that you were sure you’d dreamt this before.

“What do you want?” You called out. Something flickered in your memory. The gemstone, and the fact this young man had reached out for it.

“The truth.” The young man’s smile grew wider, somehow distorted and foreboding.

“What do you mean by the truth?”

“The truth that they wish to hide. The truth that only they can speak.”

“Who do you mean by that?” You felt panic rising as the dream weighed heavy on you. “What do you mean?”

But the young man said nothing. He merely smiled. Suddenly the black seemed to shatter like glass, falling onto your head and drowning you in pitch.

You lurched forward, breath harsh in your lungs. Standing up you glanced around wildly. That dream, what had that dream been? Searching your pockets you stopped, realizing that Zhongli had never given the crystal back. The memory of your dream, combined with the knowledge that the subject must’ve been the same as the one the previous night, left you stunned. More than shock however you felt panic, pure panic at what you’d just experienced. What did that young man mean? What did he want?

You picked up your equipment, not bothering to organize anything. Making your way down the slopes, the nearest waypoint over the crest of a rocky hill, you could think of only one thing. Zhongli, you had to tell Zhongli. Only he could tell you the answers, only he could stop this panic from consuming you. Looking up at the still blue sky you found yourself releasing a prayer into the wind. Please let everything be alright, please let nothing come crashing down.

The Wangsheng Funeral Parlor was a surprisingly comfortable space, decorated to match the appearance of a tea room rather than a place where the dead were prepared for their final departure. Normally you appreciated this strangely homey atmosphere, so eagerly and carefully cultivated by Hu Tao. Today, however, you felt only urgency. Making your way down the familiar corridors you yanked the door to Zhongli’s office open, praying that he would be inside.

The sight of your love at work was always compelling. Though seriousness and concentration marked his features, the quiet passion for history and tradition could also be seen, softening his gaze and turning what might have been an unapproachable figure into one of surprising comfort. Glancing up at the sound of the door Zhongli smiled softly; a smile that quickly morphed into a frown as he took in your agitated state.

“My love, what is wrong?”

Zhongli stood up, making his way over to you. Dropping your equipment on the floor you launched yourself into his arms. Breathing in his comforting presence you felt your heartrate slow slightly, the shaking you hadn’t even been aware of subsiding.

“Are you alright?” Zhongli’s voice was soft and full of worry.

“I, I don’t know,” you took in a shaky breath, relaxing as Zhongli wrapped his arms around your waist, “I fell asleep while on a break and I dreamt something very, strange.”

Recounting the dream you watched as Zhongli’s eyes darkened. When you were done he pulled you into a tight hug. Carding his fingers through your hair you felt his arms tighten around you, a silent affirmation of his worry.

“I don’t know what to do,” you murmured into his shoulder, “I know it’s just a dream, but it seems so real, so frightening.”

“It will be alright my love. I promise, nothing ill will come to you, or to the people of Liyue.”

“I wonder what he meant,” you shivered slightly, “I wonder who he meant by ‘they’.”

You weren’t sure if you’d truly felt Zhongli freeze for a moment, so focused were you on the emotions that roiled inside your heart.

The young man seemed angrier than he had previously. Glaring at you from across the darkened landscape he shook his head in what seemed to be disgust.

“You didn’t confront him about it.”

“Confront who?” You asked, defensiveness mixing with the panic welling up once more inside of you.

“The hypocrite. The one who claims to love humans while crushing them under his heel.”

“I don’t know who you’re talking about.”

“You do! You’re simply a traitor. You betrayed me, you betrayed the rest of our family. You’ve cursed yourself.”

“I haven’t betrayed anyone!” You heard the pitch of your voice rising. “I don’t know what you’re talking about!”

“You could’ve made us so happy. You could’ve continued our legacy. Instead your cursed us, instead you cursed yourself. You’re just like them, you’re just like the people who killed us!”

You jolted awake, gasping as you threw the coverlet off you, the heat oppressive and sticky against your sweat drenched skin. Sitting up you forced air into your lungs, breathing in and out, trying to match your rhythm with Zhongli’s, who slept quietly next to you. Gazing down at him you turned the words of your dream back over in your head. “You’re simply a traitor… You’ve cursed yourself.” The words were vague, but you felt a cold sensation creep over you, the unspoken sound of pieces fitting into place and fear clouding your mind.

The next day you could barely drag yourself out of bed, having spent the rest of the night sitting on the floor as thoughts raced through your head. Though you were sure Zhongli had asked you about your current state you couldn’t truly remember any conversation, and the trip to the Guild seemed longer than usual as you found yourself making wrong turns and bumping into various walls.

The commissions of the day certainly didn’t help. Ordered to chase a few Fatui members out of Liyue, or at least stop them from attacking every adventurer in the City, you felt your stomach dropped as you realized the location was that of where you’d found the fateful stone. Climbing over mountain ridges and dodging the occasional hilichurls camp you felt your limbs dragging underneath you. Though there couldn’t have been more than a few meters between you and the Fatui members it felt as if there were actually miles.

The situation only got worse when you finally scaled the last crest, pulling yourself up before two Hydro Legionnaires and an Anemo Vanguard. Summoning your claymore you felt as if your weapon had gotten heavier, and your steps were awkward and unsure as you charged the all too prepared Fatui members.

You swings sliced through the air as if it were made of gel, your steps stumbling and unsure. The Skirmishers dodged your strikes easily, laughing openly and jeering at you to make another dive towards them. You ignored their taunts, trying to focus on your breathing, on keeping your steps uniform and controlled. Still you knew that you were in over your head. You didn’t know what was going to happen, regretted that you hadn’t asked for help or simply requested a day off. Now however you were stuck, locked into a battle you knew you were going to lose.

Eventually the Anemo seemed to tired of your exhausted movements. Running up towards you, you felt your lungs burn as air rammed straight into your chest. Teetering on the edge of the mountain you felt yourself fall backwards. Seeing the sky above you, you let yourself scream. How could you have been so careless? How could you have failed so quickly? Closing your eyes you wished that you might faint. Whatever was at the bottom of this fall, it wasn’t going to be pretty.

However just as soon as your eyes closed you felt your fall broken. Snapping your eyes open you were met with the sight of Zhongli, face stony, eyes glowing preternaturally. Floating down softly he deposited you on a grass ridge of the mountain. Saying nothing he seemed to float upward into the air, aiming right towards where the Fatui were gathered. Sighing you closed your eyes once more, stilling the emotions that swirled inside you, the knowledge that you may have just escaped serious injury or worse. Slumping forward you felt tears at the edges of your eyes. You were tired. You were oh so tired.

“Are you hurt?” Zhongli’s voice was soothing, even in its urgency.

“I’m fine,” you opened your eyes to gaze up at your partner who crouched before you, “I’m just shaken.”

“I should have paid more attention to your physical state this morning,” Zhongli frowned, his smooth features contrasting the emotions that roiled in his eyes, “if I had not been here you may have died.”

“But you were here. Why?”

“This place, it was once a very important place of trade. I returned here to see if there were any lingering traces of that trade, those contracts. It is where I saw the ore that is mimicked in the mineral you found.”

“I see.” You paused, unsure if you wanted your next words released into the world. “Zhongli?”

“Yes my love?”

“The tyrant that boy in my dream mentioned, is that you?”

Zhongli was silent for some time, his deepening frown the only indication he had heard you. Finally he sighed. Sitting down next to you he gazed out onto the landscape, surveying it as he must’ve done all those years as Rex Lapis.

“The place that I mentioned, the origin of the ore from which yours takes its likeness, was a kingdom unlike the Seven which now dominate Teyvat. It was created only by humans, untouched by the hands of a god or higher being. It dabble in alchemy, created stones that could not be found anywhere else. And then, long ago, it was razed to the ground.”

“By who?”

“By the seven archons.” Zhongli’s features were still, his eyes giving away no tangible emotion, no sense of loss or satisfaction or hate.

“I see.”

“The people of the land scattered. Yet some would not forget the destruction of their kingdom. They banded together, creating the Abyss. They hold the old artifacts of their city dear, the prospect of revenge even more so. Their hatred of the Seven runs deep.”

“And the young man who is in my dreams is part of the Abyss?”

“It appears to be that way. Yet there is something about your descriptions, about the stone. The Abyss has never before been able to manipulate people’s dreams. There is something about that young man that is foreign even to them.”

“Yet he must believe in the Abyss very deeply.” You remarked.

“Indeed.”

Zhongli said nothing more, simply continuing to look out over the mountain. You wondered if he held any regrets for the place he destroyed, if he wondered what might come to pass should Liyue be subject to such a thing. Yet you couldn’t find it in you to chastise him. Somehow you knew, the wounds that he already carried would be little helped by your words.

“Thank you for telling me.” You leaned over to lay your hand over your partner. Finally breaking his stare Zhongli gazed at you, face still as ever, eyes tinged with an ancient melancholy.

“I hope I have not betrayed you, or the contract of our trust.”

“How could it be a betrayal if I never asked or knew about it?” You leaned over to press a soft kiss on Zhongli’s forehead. “I’m only glad you told me now.”

The ex-archon’s frame seemed to relax a little. Leaning over he cupped your cheek, brushing his lips softly against yours.

“Thank you,” he murmured.

“Thank you for telling me.”

“What will you do now?”

“I’m not sure. Hope that whoever he was, that young man has given up on me I guess.”

“I hope you do not feel as if you have betrayed someone.”

“How can I feel betrayal for someone that I don’t know or don’t remember?” You shook your head. “I don’t know what that person is looking for, or what he expects of me. I do know you however, and what I do know is that if loving you has made me a traitor of something, so be it.”

Zhongli’s smile was one that reached his eyes, enveloping you in a silent warmth. As the two of you leaned against one another, gazing out upon the landscape shadowed in the afternoon sun, you let yourself finally relax. Questions still sifted through your head, but you let them fall through your consciousness, like sand through your fingers. You didn’t know whether Zhongli felt regret for what he did, whether or not he felt justified in the destruction he participated in. What you did know however was that you loved him.

And for now that was enough.

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readingsbylibramc · 4 years ago

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birth chart reading for @keemias

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a bowl shape. all of your planets are focused in half of the chart. this usually makes the owner of the chart feel uncompleted, as if a part of their life is missing. in your case, it would be something regarding your identity, your mind. you may look for this missing part of yourself in your partner, or maybe in your friends, or even in stuff like work, passions, spirituality etc. this may cause you to be too dependant of others, or maybe you become obsessed and overindulge in what makes you feel complete.

your dominant planets are mercury, pluto and the sun. you're an intelligent, mature and deep person, but you also know how to have fun. you know what you want, and you're very bubbly with people you feel comfortable with. you may be more logical than intuitive, or in the best case you're able to balance both these energies.

your dominant sign is virgo. with virgo as your dominant sign, I assume that you're very astute and practical. you have great problem-solving skills, and you have the ability to stay collected even under stressful situations. you're quite logical, but you also a warm, generous heart. you love helping others, as long as they don't try to take advantage of your kindness.

your dominant element is air. in your life, you adore seeking for knowledge of any kind. you may be interested in studying different subjects, from those you study at school like science, maths, literature etc. to more unconventional ones, such as astrology, psychology, criminology and so on. you enjoy interacting with people; even if you’re not that sociable, you’ll still be interested in their point of view and their ideals, as you see it as a way to expand your own mind. you’re also interested in vintage, and you may have a retro aesthetic or just like history in general.

🌍 ascendant in scorpio, 20° / 3rd decan ruled by pluto and the moon

your scorpio rising makes you quite pessimistic; you see the world as a place full of dangers and malice, hence it’s hard for you to trust people. this may be translated through fear; you’re either scared of other people, and hence you look more vulnerable, or maybe you’re the one who prefers to look intimidating to avoid problems. I don’t think you look unapproachable, though. there are other placements in your chart that say the opposite, so I imagine you project an image of yourself that makes you look quite naive. you can sense others’ emotions very well, so they have no secrets for you. you can perceive any single emotion in people just by looking into their eyes. while this is good, as you understand who’s best for you and you’re aware of the dangers you may face, scorpio risings tend to take advantage of this and be a little manipulative. this awareness of the world makes you look mysterious and secretive, as if you always know something more than others (and you probably do). pluto is also the planet of transformation, and you might experience a lot of rebirths throughout your life, both physically and emotionally. you might lose/have lost a big amount of weight, for example, which makes you look like a different person. or maybe, you like dying your hair of a different colour, giving you a different vibe. you wish you could be softer and show your inner emotions more easily, as scorpio is a water sign. the thing is, since it’s a fixed sign, it’s hard for you to be flexible and adapt to changes. when they happen, they’re usually out of your control as they’re literally life-changing. physically, I see you having a square or long face with high cheekbones and a pointy chin. overall, your bones are very prominent and you’re naturally skinny. your eyes are extremely magnetic, and they could also be almost-shaped. you might have either very pale skin, or just an olive skintone. sometimes, even a mix of both. your hair, eyebrows and lashes are very thick and dark too. you could also have full lips, or at least a quite defined cupid's bow.

scorpio ascendant conjunct scorpio venus: you have the planet of beauty (venus) conjunct your appearance (ascendant). you're surely very attractive! even if you're not a conventional beauty, there's still a certain charm that can't get overlooked. you're very feminine and polite, especially with strangers. you care about the impression you make on others, even though you shouldn't worry that much, as it's generally good. you're probably very sociable, it doesn't matter whether you're introverted or not. you still have amazing social skills, and you also have a very charming voice. you literally draw people to you, I imagine it's not hard for you to make new friends and engage in conversations randomly. you also care a lot about the way you look, hence you probably have a skincare/workout routine, and you're fond of shopping and selfcare in general. you want to always look at your best; that's caused by the fact that you're secretly kind of insecure about your looks. you may have the tendency to think that the compliments you receive aren't honest, and people are just trying to be nice to you. another downside to this placement is that you may attract people's jealousy. even though this could be a self-esteem boost for someone, it may be hard for one to handle, in your case especially in relationships, maybe with your friends.

scorpio ascendant square leo jupiter: you probably learn a lot from people around you. you're most likely surrounded by wise, spiritual and possibly foreign individuals in your life. they help you to grow up, both spiritually and mentally. this placement also softens your rough scorpio image, making you look more outgoing and approachable. you're also very open-minded, and you rarely have prejudices. the downside to this placement is that you may depend too much on your friends or lovers, especially when it comes to your beliefs. you're easy to influence, and you may change your mind often if others disagree with you. you could possibly have high expectations from others, creating a false idea of those who surround you. at least, you're aware of your abilities and you have the potential to make the most out of them, but you're modest about it. you don't come off as bossy, as other jupiter - asc aspects would.

🌞 sun in libra, 11° / 2nd decan ruled by venus and uranus

this is the most intelligent and creative libra decan. you are very intuitive, you understand others’ real feelings very easily. you’re very polite and mannered, you have this innate elegance about you that could make people jealous. you may even come off as snob. even though your scorpio rising may make you look intimidating or even shady, once people get to know you you’re actually very reliable and trust-worthy, as you are a person of strong morals. you may unconsciously manipulate people, but you don’t do it with malice. in fact, you’re probably not even aware of it most of the times. you’re reserved, and you don’t like being the centre of attention, despite craving compliments. nonetheless, you still like getting to know new people; you’re the type to know everyone, but you may struggle to find actual best friends, as your bonds with people are quite undeveloped and superficial. you have a nice sense of humor, and you may rely on sarcasm a lot. you’re also the type that doesn’t like to accept their mistakes. probably, when you were a child you used to scream 'it’s not my fault!’ in every occasion. in life, you strive for equality and fairness. for example, you don’t want to give less than someone else, you would feel guilty about it. at the same time, you don’t want to be the one that gives more either; you’re afraid that people could take advantage of you. therefore, balance is what you find the most pleasant.

🌙 moon in virgo, 16° / 2nd decan ruled by mercury and saturn

this is the truest virgo decan. you want to have everything under control, you can't bear not being organized. you most probably write down your appointments and stuff on an agenda, or perhaps even in the notes app of your phone. you're extremely precise, you want everything to be perfect. mixed with your libra sun, you probably care a lot about your appearance; you most likely have a skincare routine, workout... just anything that makes you feel healthy. you love taking care of yourself, especially of your hygiene. you also put a lot of effort in your outfits, you fear not being at your best state. you're a perfectionist, after all. this also project in your home environment; you may clean your house thoroughly, it's most likely all neat. in addition, this mania of yours of being perfect makes you have high standards; in fact, you need people in your life that try as much as you do. you despise lazy people. you probably have a reputation for always being calm and elegant, as you try to avoid conflicts as much as possible. you're very smart and insightful, and you strive for perfection; you want to prove your power to yourself, as it helps you boosting your self-esteem. in fact, it depends a lot on your achievements; if you don't meet your expectations, you start going through a hard time of insecurity and struggles. you love communicating, but you may struggle to find the right words, especially with your mercury squaring saturn. your eyes talk for you, though. you're also very introspective, and you're fond of art and creativity in general. you're very critical, both of yourself and of others. you don't do it with malice, though, but as I've already mentioned you want to frequent people that try to be at their best all the time, just like you after all.

🗣 mercury in virgo, 28° / 3rd decan ruled by mercury and venus

you have a very logical, pragmatic mind. ironically, this creates a great balance with your libra sun, as you have both logical and creative skills. you try to be as well-spoken as possible, especially with strangers, but when people get on your nerves you can’t help but kill them with your words. before expressing your opinion on a certain matter, you like making sure that your thought actually has proof to be supported. you’re very analytical, and hence you also overthink a lot. especially when it comes to people you care, you start overthinking so much about little things like late replies to messages that you create a variety of hollywood-worthy scenarios in your head. you also pay lots of attention to details, and you can’t tolerate typos and grammar mistakes. you always try to speak and write in the most correct and polite way as possible. you may have an elegant, yet neat handwriting. your voice probably sounds very calm and collected, yet you don’t have any problems speaking at a louder tone, especially with your mercury being conjunct your mars.

virgo mercury conjunct virgo mars: this placement makes you slightly more aggressive with your words. in fact, it makes you look more assertive and almost bossy. you could often attack people with words when you get angry, and you can get quite provocative too. while you are quick-minded and it's hard for you to be tricked, you have a very sharp tongue that could hurt others. other people may not understand your sense of humor for example, and they could get offended. you love debates and expressing your opinions, as you take a lot of pride in your thoughts. yet, may also take things very personally, you get defensive extremely easily, and that makes it hard to have a healthy discussion with you as you're very fiery. you could often get into arguments.

virgo mercury square gemini saturn: this placement gives you limitations and lessons regarding the way you think and talk. it may be that you’re too shy to approach others and to say what you think, so you just don’t try. otherwise, if you actually take action and try to overcome this problem, you could get into troubles. that’s probably caused by the fact that you don’t really pay attention to your words. you’re quite straight-forward, and due to your scorpio ascendant you always seem as if you’re up for a fight. you may be particularly pessimistic, or maybe you lack confidence in social interactions due to these problems, which could be possibly caused by your parents, or perhaps interfer in your relationship with your family. in fact, you may argue quite often, and misunderstandings are also common. this is something that gets naturally better with time, but in order for it to happen you need to take action. you may for example start speaking more in school, perhaps you could apply for class president. anything that allows you to challenge your mind and voice, in order to make you gain experiences and become a master at it. many celebrities, once they mastered this hard aspect, got loads of success. you can do that too, you just need to work on it.

❤️ venus in scorpio, 14° / 2nd decan ruled by pluto and neptune

this placement is extremely intense; you have very high standards when it comes to love. you're a passionate, loyal lover, but at the same time you also want and need a lover that is willing to go as far as you go with your feelings. you may often test your partner to see if they're worthy of your love, for example. you have this sort of self-destructive behaviour that makes people stressed, just because you have extreme trust issues and you feel the need to control everyone, especially if 'everyone' is your lover. you find yourself being more attracted to 'darker' types; that is, you may be into bad boys / girls, someone with an edgy / grunge aesthetic. I've noticed that many scorpio venus individuals have a thing for people wearing leather jackets, for example. you're probably into the idea of that passionate, even kinky love, despite being quite afraid of opening up to others. you despise too much intimacy, especially since you may often attract and / or fall for self-centered players that don't care about the intensity and purity of your feelings. as I've already mentioned above, you may have a few trust issues that lead you into being extremely jealous and / or possessive. you could even get quite stalker-ish at times, but in the best way possible of course. that isn't because you want to take over your partner's life, but you need to feel secure and understand whether you're dedicating your time and your heart to the right person or you're just wasting yourself. a betrayal would hurt you deeply, as you'd literally die for the one you love.

scorpio venus square leo jupiter: you come off as a very positive, happy-go-lucky person. you're extremely friendly, and this makes you be good at social relationships. you may have lots of friends, or at least you have the potential to make many if you open up and talk to other people. yet, while this energy gives you positive vibes, some people may take advantage of that, as you could easily be mistaken for naive. people can try to dominate you unconsciously (sometimes even on purpose) not only in relationships but even in friendships. aside from that, I don't think this placement causes you many problems. you may have the tendency to procrastinate and not work. you could be quite lazy and get easily distracted, as you're constantly with your head in the clouds. yet, thanks to your virgo energy, you still manage to find some motivation to do your work.

☄️ mars in virgo, 22° / 3rd decan ruled by mercury and venus

your life revolves around being productive. you don't like to waste your time, you always try to learn and gain something useful from everything you do. that's caused by the fact that you're motivated to be perfect in what you like; this, combined with your competitive nature, may often cause you to burn out. in fact, the downside to this placement is that you may overwork yourself too much. this is bad, even though you may actually not feel this effect that much, as virgo is literally your dominant sign. you're used to work hard, and you may actually enjoy it, it's a way to stimulate yourself both physically and mentally. on the other hand, you're an hard-worker, you're most likely capable of achieving any goals you have, as you have both motivation and precision.

virgo mars square sagittarius pluto: with this placement, I assume that when you were younger you were some sort of victim. you could have been bullied, for example, you used to be insecure about the way you looked and were. you could have felt different from others, and they took advantage of that to make you feel even more insecure. or maybe, it was a parent, or every authoritative figure in your life, that restricted you from following your own ideals. because of that, now you constantly feel the need to prove yourself. you probably tend to accumulate a lot of anger all together, which you need to let all out or you could explode. you could find comfort in physical ways to relieve stress, like punching bags, slamming doors, etc. or perhaps, when you're angry you just get overwhelmed by all of your emotions. you may cry, scream, even throw up in certain cases. on the other hand, you are extremely magnetic and attractive to others, you naturally draw people towards you. you're also extremely passionate in whatever you do, you put your whole heart in doing things you love. you're very hard-working and determined to achieve your goals. with this aspect, you're probably more dedicated than the common virgo dominant.

virgo mars square gemini saturn: this is another placement that indicates that something or someone is trying to restrict you, they're trying to prevent you from following your dreams and taking your own choices for your life. that someone is most likely an individual that has a lot on impact on you, it's someone very authoritative. or perhaps, it may even be a bully or abuser of any sort. as a result, you either rebel and get extremely angry, or you hide all of your disappointment inside of you. but soon or after, all of your intense feelings are going to eat you alive if you keep going like this, it's a very unhealthy behaviour. you could find it extra hard to achieve your goals, as when you try you always come across some hardships. what matters the most, is that you try to be more positive, you could even try manifesting more patience or serenity. you can't hold onto anger so much, or it will just fill you with negativity that could damage you. let it all go, focus on your goals and try to understand how to be more patient. in fact, you may often feel like you need to do everything as soon as possible, when it's not like that. you can allow yourself to be more calm and live life as it comes, it will make you feel much better with yourself and you'll also get more mature, which is crucial to learn your saturnian lessons and increase your self-confidence.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in scorpio. you fulfill your ego when you deal with intense situations that satify your needs. that is, you find strenght in getting out of your comfort-zone. even though you may be afraid of it. you’re an enigma: you know everything about others, but others know nothing about you. it’s your way to protect yourself from eventual enemies, as you’re prone to have a few of them throughout your life. pluto is also here; your scorpio energy is enhanced even more in this way, and since it's opposite mars you may usually come off as aggressive or too impulsive. you indeed come off as someone very fiery, and you may be when you get angry, but deep down your libra energy just wants calm and peace. physically, you may also have stronger features: you could have a strong jawline, a wide forehead, a distinctive nose and thinner lips.

your 2nd house is in sagittarius. you tend to overindulge in 2nd house matters, hence you may spend too much money, you could overeat, or even overestimate your own skills. you could have an exaggerated vision of yourself; maybe, you’re too confident, or perhaps it’s the opposite. that is, you underestimate your worth way too much. since you spend so much, you may find yourself lacking money from time to time, therefore be careful to how you spend them. in addition, chiron is also here: your deepest insecurity is your appearance, your self-confidence. it may be that when you were younger, you used to struggle a lot with your appearance. you could have been bullied, or perhaps you could have suffered from an eating disorder. luckily, this placement can get better. in fact, you can gain wisdom from this wound of yours; you can heal others who have self-worth issues once you start loving yourself. you may also have troubles with money, it could be that you may be too dependant from them, or you struggle to save or even earn them. you may even come from a poor family. the ruler of the 2nd house is in the 9th house: you may earn money through foreign languages, you could be particularly skilled at them. you may also earn money abroad or thanks to foreigners or perhaps even thanks to teaching.

your 3rd house is in capricorn. you enjoy listing and talking about your duties and goals. you’re the type to write down your tasks in your agenda, e.g. tidying up your room, feeding your plants etc. the problem with this placement is that you may struggle to take action, and procrastinate. or maybe, you could do the opposite and overwork yourself. no inbetween. also, when you were a child you probably started speaking later than other kids, or you speak so fast that you end up stuttering. uranus and neptune are also placed in this house: you could have 'unexpected' siblings, meaning that probably your mother didn't expect to have one of her children. also, you may have a very dreamy and melodic voice, even though it could sometimes be hard for others to understand you since it's also quite nasal. the ruler of the 3rd house is in the 8th house: your job may involve communication, you'll most probably interact with other people in your future career. or maybe, you might write stuff, hence you could be a writer, a journalist, etc. possibly, you would do well as a therapist too. you could also be quite spiritual and intuitive, and you may be able to speak to ghosts, read tarots, birth charts, etc.

your 4th house is in aquarius. when you were young, you probably didn’t feel at ease with yourself. you might have been the outcast, that one kid that stood out in the daycare. you probably didn’t have many friends either, and it could have been painful for you. even though you enjoyed playing, drawing and watching your favorite cartoons alone, you're very sociable, and you've probably always felt the need to be surrounded by others. you find emotional comfort and security in your home, in your parents and in just family in general. you used to be very attracted to arts when you were a kid, and you kept this love with you while growing up. maybe, you were the type of child to lie to your parents. with the ruler of the 4th house in the 3rd, you probably feel comfortable and secure in your home enviroment, especially with your siblings. you may actually feel more attached to them than to your parents. also, your parents could be very successful academically speaking, and you may still live in your birth city / country, or you may return there when you get older.

your 5th house is in pisces. you have a variety of talents and creativity, but that may possibly be covered from you at first. you’d do very well at stuff that involves art and drawing. in love, you’re attracted to artsy people; if they’re into art, singing, dancing etc. they’re your ideal of soulmate. you may be very fond of children, and you wish to have at least one in the future. you find joy and comfort in your hobbies, so it's extremely important for you to nurture your artistic needs and talents. actually, your creative talents are actually the key for you to achieve the best success and joy. you may have lots of children too, and they'll bring happiness to your life. the ruler of the 5th house is in the 3rd house: your hobbies include communication of any sort. you could write poetry, books... possibly, you could be interested in foreign languages and you may also communicate in more indirect ways, hence through photography, dancing, videos... especially since your 3rd house is ruled by neptune, the planet of images.

your 6th house is in aries. you work hard to be the number #1 in what you care about, especially if your goals involve school, work, health etc. your days are usually quite busy, and you may tend to overwork yourself. combined with your virgo stellium, this placement usually makes it hard for you to be healthy, both physically and emotionally, and you may have the tendency to overwork yourself. you could even have bad luck at work. in addition, since the 6th house also rules health, you may also suffer from some sort of disease, your health status may not be the best. you could also be a bit clumsy and hurt yourself easily, you may find yourself having a lot of bruises and / or scratches all over your body. with the ruler of the 6th being in the 10th house, you'll most likely pursue a career where you'll have to work daily, like a sort of routine. you may become a teacher or professor for example, or you may even work in the healing field; you could be a nurse, a doctor, a therapist...

your 7th house is in taurus. in a marriage you seek security, both emotional and financial. you want a loyal partner that would never do anything to hurt you, and that has a wealthy job as well. intimacy and trust also matter a lot for you in a long-term relationship. you may attract very conventionally beautiful partners, and they'll most likely be homebodies. that is, you don't attract very sociable people, or at least you don't hang out with people that attend clubs, parties, etc. frequently. possibly, you may often attract jealous, possessive people too, so beware of that. the ruler of the 7th house, venus, is in the 12th house: you may often have karmic encounters. that is, you may befriend or even date people that were a part of your past lives, they're your soulmates. your dreams may often involve other people, and you could even dream of your future spouse. you may also attract people that have some sort of addiction, like an addiction to drugs, alcohol, or even more ordinary things like internet, sleeping, etc.

your 8th house is in gemini. you may frequently find yourself thinking and studying occult/taboo topics, such as paranormal events, thrillers, tarots, astrology etc. you’re interested in finding out the truth, not only among your peers but in the whole world. you have a desire that all the malice that is hiding behind the government etc. gets exposed, even though you may be so interested in them that you could get used to it and end up overlooking them. you may also be very secretive, you tend to keep your thoughts and ideas private, especially due to saturn's presence in this house. in fact, you may actually be afraid of darker topics and embrace them. for example, you could have little or no sex drive at all. this is something that gets naturally better with time as you make more experiences and grow mature. you may also be particularly sensitive to or even tame physical pain. last but not least, this placement also indicates that you may have a painful, even violent death. the ruler of the 8th house is in the 10th house: your future career will most likely involve secrets and private matters, and hence you may work as a therapist, as a counselor, you could even handle others' money or become a detective. you may also be involved in more logical, scientific jobs like a scientist, a mathematician, etc.

your 9th house is in cancer. someone close, important and intimate with you may teach you the biggest lessons in your life. you could also live abroad with your family, or become a teacher in a daycare/primary school. jupiter here indicates that you have a knack for philosophy, and you may be interested in foreign culture, music, fashion etc. actually, those matters are the key to achieve success in your life, as you're most likely skilled at foreign languages, teaching or even writing. with the ruler of the 9th house being in the 10th house, this placement confirms what I've already mentioned above: you may pursue a career abroad, or you may have to travel to work. or perhaps, you may even work with foreign people and hence you could have to speak foreign languages. you may also work as a teacher / professor, or even as a writer, poet or philosopher.

your 10th house is in leo, with also mars, the moon and mercury sitting there. you want to be recognized and stand out. you may want to be a celebrity, or at least you want to be the one people look up to in your work place, you like being praised. luckily, your future career will most likely allow you to be the leader you want to be! in fact, this 10th house mars combined with your whole virgo stellium gives you amazing leadership skills. you're very responsible, you don't need others to guide you, and if you work hard you can achieve pretty much anything you want. you probably don't see work as a burden, it's pretty much the opposite. working is literally your energy tank. the moon and mercury sitting there are other placements that indicate that your future job will involve communication of some sort. you could become a writer, a translator, a therapist... also, as I've already mentioned above, you may have to speak foreign languages for your career. with the ruler of the 10th house being in the 11th house, your future career may actually be a long-term dream or goal of yours. for example, let's suppose you've always wanted to be a writer when you were younger; this placement indicates that you can actually become one if you work on it. you may also work with your friends, or find your friends at your job place. you could also get popular or even famous for your career.

your 11th house is in virgo, with also your sun placed there. this placement, together with your heavy scorpio influence, makes you very picky with friends. you may frequent and feel happy with different people, but you only call friends a few of them. you also have friends with similiar ideals and approach to yours, hence it’s easy for you to get along as you see eye to eye. your sun in this house makes you crave human contact. even if not directly, since I assume that you're quite introverted, you still like hearing about others' opinions on different matters, but you may prefer interacting with others through internet for example. or perhaps, you may actually hear about others' points of view through books, blogs, etc. you're also very fond of your friends, and you may often be very liked by them. you could be the loyal, caring friend in your group. the ruler of the 11th house is in the 10th house: this placement pretty much confirms what I've said above, that is you may pursue a career that involves your long-term dreams. you could meet your friends at your job place too, and they could also boost your reputation and popularity. you may often befriend known people.

your 12th house is in libra, with also venus sitting in this house. you find beauty in neptunian topics, such as astrology, spirituality, dreams, art etc. you may actually be quite skilled at things that involve beauty and aesthetics. you may also be afraid of being judged, especially for your interests and/or physical appearance. you could often idealize the idea of love and partners; that is, you could daydream of marrying the perfect, royal spouse that would always be by your side. yet, you could often find yourself daydreaming so much that you actually see people as what they're not. that is, they turn out to be different from what you thought. the ruler of the 12th house is in the 12th house: you may have some escape tendencies to detach from reality; maybe, you use retail therapy as a coping mechanism. you could also oversleep, pray or maybe meditate to stop thinking about your worries for a while. you usually have very peaceful, romantic dreams, and your past life was quite pacific too. in fact, you don’t seem to have many karmic lessons to learn.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love, you attract taurus, libra, pisces, aries placement and / or traits. your future spouse is probably going to have prominent libra/venus/7th house placements, as well as some pisces/neptune/12th house dominance too. they will be extremely soft and kind-hearted, maybe a little clingy, but true sweethearts. they may be very fair and balanced too, even though they could be a bit flaky sometimes. they may also be one of your soulmates, and hence you could have this 'I've already seen you before' vibe to you when you meet them. your children are probably going to have prominent pisces placements, or at least they’ll have pisces/water traits: they’ll be spiritual, calm, artistic and sleepy, yet they may also develop a rebel/emo attitude during their teenage years.

👼🏻 family life

your mother is probably a very caring person that knows how to stand up for herself when she has to, but she may struggle to do that. in fact, she looks very emotionally detached, and she could also be quite moody and unpredictable. she also has very strong beliefs that you inherited from her. your father is a bit softer and more romantic, he knows how to have fun and used to play a lot with you when you were a child. he may be very intelligent and smart, and he could also be the dominant figure in your family. if you have siblings, they probably have prominent capricorn/pisces/aquarius placements in their chart. you may sometimes fight with them, but you still have a very deep bond with each other. in the worst case, your mother might have had a miscarriage, or maybe they were stillborn.

📊 career

honestly, your chart indicates that you could do well at a variety of jobs thanks to your virgo stellium! you may find yourself being interested in teaching and learning, you would make an amazing teacher or even professor in university. you could also become a successful writer, as your mercury sharing the same sign as your moon shows that you're able to fully convey your emotions and feelings in your speech in a clear and correct way thanks to your virgo dominance. you may also do well as a therapist or even as a nurse or doctor, you seem like the type of person that is good at impacting others with your words. with your virgo energy, you can probably help others thanks to your skills.

👚 fashion sense, style analysis

you may have lots of dark, edgy clothes in your wardrobe, from leather to animal prints. you could possibly also fancy velvet in your clothes. your style is mostly quite classy and expensive/expensive-looking (you probably love formal and elegant clothes), but still with a touch of boldness to it. as for the colors, I assume you also enjoy wearing darker shades, from dark blue, purple, burgundy… to just directly black. you could possibly be fond of total-black fits too.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, the focus was on yourself. maybe, you had troubles with self-esteem and identity in general. you had to work hard and finally understand who you were to fulfill your past life purpose. hence, this lifetime your focus will be on the bonds you create with others. even though at first you might feel almost scared to the idea of marriage, especially having mars in the 7th house, this lifetime you're here to develop this matter. after all, you may despise love for your troubled past. with your north node in the 7th house, you're naturally lucky in love. there's nothing to be afraid of, you only need to take small steps and open your heart to someone, putting your worries and insecurities aside.

🤔 major transits analysis / october 10th

transit venus is going to be conjunct your natal moon very soon. you could be feeling very affectionate lately, you may be craving a relationship and peace in your day-to-day life. with transit mercury in your 12th house, you may also feel a bit tired and / or stressed, you probably prefer spending time by yourself daydreaming instead of going out and socializing lately. also, the north node is about to enter your 8th house; you may come across unexpected or sudden issues regarding financial matters, but that will help you understand how to deal with and earn more money. it could be painful and stressful at first, but it'll just make you improve.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

your secret skills revolve around finances and just security in general. with a positive attitude, you may attract material luck: money, clothes, houses… everything that you desire. since you’re a logical person, I assume the most efficient way for you to manifest through the LOA is writing! take a notebook and just write down positive affirmations, such as 'I have the car of my dreams’ etc. you may also write them on post-its and glue them around your house, so that you can accelerate the progress. you can also try to idealize your wish before trying to manifest it. for example, if you want a new sweatshirt, try to imagine yourself wearing it. you could also go into a shop and actually try that sweatshirt it on; being in contact with it will boost the law of attraction even more.

this is the end! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated :)

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ladyshandioftheendless · 5 years ago

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~Springtime Heat~

Since this fucking quarantine isn’t ending anytime soon this is a perfect opportunity to write some new things~ As well as other things that have been on the back burner~ I would like to give a huge thanks to @misslivvie for contributing a wonderfully steamy scene that helped me come up with the idea for this story~

~Shandi

(FINALLY GETTING THIS FUCKING THING OUT AFTER IT’S BEEN IN MY DRAFTS FOR LIKE TWO MONTHS. I HOPE YOU ENJOY <3)

Vinneketh couldn’t understand what was happening. He’d never seen his Beloved so..agitated before. It seemed like anything set him off. He’d stay angry for hours making him completely unapproachable. Of course he’d still try to keep his temper in check with Ayesha which Vinneketh was grateful for. Any time anything made him angry he’d leave the room so their daughter wouldn’t witness her Baba’s fiery rages. One evening Vinneketh finally decided to ask the question that had been plaguing his mind since it all began.

“Beloved..what is happening to you?”

When Demon just grunted in reply he rolled his eyes. “That is not an answer. I cannot help you if you do not talk to me.”

"It's nothing you should concern yourself with."

"What kind of answer is that? I am your husband! Of course I am concerned!"

"It will pass in time."

"So your daughter and I are just supposed to deal with these violent outbursts? How wonderful."

Demon huffed and pulled the covers over his head. "Goodnight, Treasure." Vinneketh just shook his head as he turned off the light. So much for communication. "Yes..goodnight.."

The next morning Vinneketh was frightened awake by a sudden blast of heat. He bolted upright with wide eyes. “DEMON?!” He wished he was dreaming. In a fit of anger his husband had set the curtains on fire! Demon growled in frustration as he attempted to smother the flames. With a heavy sigh, Vinneketh picked up the pitcher of water on his bedside table and doused the flames..and his husband as well. When Demon glared at him he rolled his eyes. “The fire is out, but I doubt that did anything to cool you off.” With his eyes flashing red, Demon let out a loud roar before stomping off. That’s it. Vinneketh was completely done with this! If his husband wasn’t going to give him answers he was going to find someone who would! He dressed himself, and briefly checked in on Ayesha before leaving.

~*~

“May I speak to you for a moment?”

StarChild looked up from tending his garden with a smile. “Of course, Vinneketh~ Oh..you look troubled. Is there something wrong?”

“Possibly. It is..about Demon. He has been acting so strangely! I must admit..he is starting to frighten me. You..have been friends with him for a long time, yes? Do you have any idea why this is happening? He will not talk to me! Please..if you know anything..” StarChild raised an eyebrow. “Hm..I see. Has he had a..short temper lately? Been setting fire to things? Being emotionally distant?”

“Yes! All of those things! Have you seen him this way before?”

“Every spring.”

“What could possibly cause..that every year? He was born of flames! It could not possibly be the spring heat..especially since this is nothing compared to spring in Sphynxia..”

StarChild chuckled. “Ohhh it’s the heat alright..but not the kind you’re thinking of~” Vinneketh blinked. "W-what do you mean..?"

"Come with me. I think it's time I educated you on some of the..intricacies of our dear Demon~" Vinneketh frowned. “I do not understand. If it has something to do with his..biology..why would he not share it with me..?” StarChild shook his head. “It’s nothing against you. If it were any other circumstance I’m sure he would. But for Demon..this time is very..complicated.”

“Can you..elaborate..?”

“Well..you see..you..understand that..for many animal species..their mating drives are at their peak during the spring. It..just so happens to be the same for Demons as well. Only they’re more..how shall I say..bestial..” Vinneketh’s cheeks reddened. “Oh I..I see.. Then the frustration is coming from..the need to..’mate’..?”

“That’s right~”

“But..he and I are already mated. I still do not understand why we--”

“That’s..where the complicated part comes in. When a fully mature Demon such as he has the need to mate they become..extremely aggressive. They have less control over their restraint on their transformations. They’re..savage beasts. He’s convinced only another Demon could survive..mating in such a way. He doesn’t want to hurt you..or break your mind.” Vinneketh’s brow furrowed. “I remember him telling me this. But he has to understand. He is not with another Demon. He is with me. And he should mate with me.”

“I agree of course. But you’ll have to be very persuasive to convince him.”

“I think I can manage that~”

“Ohhhh yes I can already see the wheels turning~ Good luck then, my friend~”

“And I thank you for your honesty~”

~*~

Ayesha pouted as her Aiutu handed her over to Fox. “But Aiutu! I wanna help Baba feel better too!” Vinneketh chuckled. “Now don’t you worry, little jewel..you will have your chance. I promise you~ My help just..takes a different form. And..needs to be done in private. You go and have a nice slumber party with uncle Fox and when you return tomorrow you can help Baba all you like~” Ayesha smiled and hugged Fox's neck. "I like slumber parties~! Can we have sweets and play lots of games, uncle Fox~?" Fox laughed. "You bet we can~ I've got a lot of fun things planned for us to do~ You won't be bored for one second~"

"Yay~! Aiutu..will you say goodbye to Baba for me?"

"Of course I will, darling~"

Fox sighed. "Please take care, Vinneketh..and be safe."

"I thank you for your concern, my friend~ I will be alright~"

After waving goodbye, he closed the door and went to work.

~*~

Later that evening Demon stomped down the hallways back to his chambers, muttering curses under his breath. StarChild thought it best that he excuse himself from the meeting they were attending. So he had threatened to set a Council member on fire. So what? He’d had enough of that fool and his pointless prattle. Truthfully he’d had enough of people in general. He just wanted to get out of his damned armor and go to bed. Not that sleep ever helped to quell the raging fire in his blood. Maybe his husband had a spell for that. Once he opened the door however, he was overwhelmed by the soothing scent of jasmine. In the dim light he could see that the room was lined with rows of scented candles. On the carpet was a trail of rose petals leading into the next room. He snorted. “Treasure? Where are you?”

“Follow the path, Beloved~”

Demon grunted softly. He was torn between not being in the mood for games and..being incredibly fucking horny. But the jasmine smelled so nice. He stood there taking deep breaths, allowing the scent to calm his agitated nerves. As always his Treasure knew exactly what he needed. Now a little calmer, he slowly followed the trail of petals leading to their bedroom. He pushed open the slightly ajar door and froze on the spot, staring intently at what was displayed before him. "T-Treasure..?"

"Welcome back, Beloved~ Come and join me~"

Demon couldn't shake the air of familiarity. The candles illuminating the room. Vinneketh sitting on the bed. Waiting for him. His beautiful green eyes filled with desire. And what he was wearing.. "I..I remember that robe. You wore it the first night we spent together.." Vinneketh giggled. "I am pleased you noticed~ I made a few..modifications but I am certain they are familiar as well~" Demon nodded. "The sash. The brooch. My first gifts to you.."

"To honor you, my darling. To show how important you are to me." He moved to the edge of the bed and beckoned his husband closer. "Please..allow me to fulfill your needs. That is what you married me for is it not? Because I complete you? I can no longer stand by and watch you lose yourself to your baser instincts. You must take me." Demon frowned. "I figured you would find out on your own eventually but it doesn't matter. You cannot possibly understand what you are asking me to do to you."

"I will no longer allow you to use such a feeble excuse! Did you not feel you could trust me? Your husband? The man who has devoted his life to you?"

"Of course I trust you! But I will not endanger your life..your very soul..to relieve this pain. I willingly choose to suffer if it means you will be safe from me." Vinneketh shook his head. "That is all very fine and well..and of course I cannot fault you for thinking of my safety, but you are also taking the choice away from me and I cannot permit that. Do you not remember my words on that..wonderful night in my bathtub~?" Demon purred as gentle fingers massaged the back of his neck. "I don't remember the words..I only remember the pleasure~"

"Then allow me to refresh your memory~ It is true that I am not Demon but I am unlike anyone you have ever known. I do not fear you unleashing your power. I am not at risk of losing my mind. I know how to protect myself. As long as you are married to me, it is my duty to be your confidant. Your partner. Your lover~” Vinneketh smiled and wrapped his arms around his husband’s neck. “And what you need right now..is a lover~”

“I can’t deny this..” Demon growled softly, burying his face into his husband’s neck to inhale his scent. A provocative scent that immediately ignited his blood once more. “Mmm..are you going to mark me, Beloved~?”

“I plan to do sooo much more than that, my Treasure~”

Looking up, Vinneketh found himself face to face with long, sharp fangs and burning red eyes. He shivered. “Ohh yes..there is the Beast that I remember from that night~ My body..is yours to do as you please~” Demon pressed him against the wall and pinned his wrists above his head. A feral grin sent his heart racing before heated lips were smashed against his. That wickedly long tongue soon invaded his mouth, and he moaned into the kiss and ground against his husband’s thigh. A hand held his head in place while Demon hungrily attacked his neck. Vinneketh shut his eyes and groaned, then bucked when Demon’s mouth latched onto his pulse point. Demon hummed against his neck, the vibrations sending tingles shooting through him. “Hmm, is that your lotus oil I smell? Have you..already prepared yourself for me? What a lovely surprise~” Vinneketh smiled a bit. “Only for you, Beloved~” Demon smirked against his neck. “Mmmm...you spoil me, Treasure~”

Vinneketh’s head spun as Demon broke away and grabbed his chin so that piercing red eyes met green. “I’m gonna fuck you~” he snarled. “So hard you forget your own name. And I’ll make you scream and beg for it. And when you cum, it’s going to be my name that you scream, for the whole world to hear~” Vinneketh’s knees nearly buckled as he shivered. His husband’s voice was so feral..laden with desire. Desire for only him. He gasped softly as he nodded. “Y-yes..” Without another word and a smirk still on his lips, Demon swooped down to devour his mouth again, letting go of his wrists. He threw his arms around Demon’s neck and pressed his body closer. Then Demon suddenly broke away, and without warning shredded his robes with his claws, making him squeak in surprise. The shredded cloth fell away, and Demon then lifted him up by his thighs and pulled him away from the wall to throw him onto the bed.

Vinneketh managed a laugh and propped himself up on his elbows to watch Demon strip off his armor. His eyes trailed over his husband’s body as more skin was revealed. His heart pounded. His breaths quicker and harsher. Then Demon removed his codpiece, and when his eyes traveled even lower his cheeks flushed and a whimper escaped his mouth. Demon turned his head and grinned when he saw him. It was a wide, predatory grin that had his fangs bared and Vinneketh’s heart racing even faster. He crawled onto the bed until he was looming over his prey, then crushed their lips together again. Vinneketh moaned lustily and couldn’t help hooking a leg around his husband’s waist and grinding against him. Demon smiled against his lips and ground back, chucking when Vinneketh gasped. Demon broke away and grinned, showing off his fangs once more. Vinneketh’s current state was delicious. Flushed face. Swollen lips. Heaving chest. Slightly spread legs. He chuckled. “Already offering yourself to me~? How wonderful~ But first...” He dragged a hand down his husband’s torso, and goosebumps formed as his claws ever so slightly scraped against the skin, stopping at his abdomen. “Who does this pretty Treasure belong to~?”

Oh Gods... Vinneketh swallowed. “Y-You?”

“I want to hear you say it~” Demon commanded. He pressed his claws deeper, enough for Vinneketh to gasp at the very slight pain.“I-I’m y-your pretty Treasure..”

“Good boy~” Slowly spreading his husband’s legs further apart, Demon smirked appreciatively. “Such a lovely view~” Vinneketh wriggled a bit and whined. Why doesn’t he just get on with it already?! Large hands grabbed his thighs and held them in place, and he froze. Then Demon flashed him a fanged, predatory grin, and dove between his legs. Vinneketh closed his eyes and tipped his head back, a moan of pleasure falling from his mouth. His hands settled in Demon’s hair, his fingers twisting through the strands. Demon’s tongue was moving so expertly, and no matter how many times they had done this it still sent Vinneketh into a frenzy. His mouth formed an “O” shape. “O-Ohhh Gods... Demon~!!”

“Such a lovely golden Treasure..” Demon purred, stroking his thigh, and his rich, silky voice with a growling edge to it made him shudder. “My lovely golden Treasure~” Vinneketh just nodded his head, his mind spinning too much to give a reply. “You like it, don’t you, Treasure~?” Demon purred silkily. “Does it feel good~?” He nodded again and managed to gasp out, “Uh—Uh huh...”

“You like it when I fuck you, don’t you~? When I fuck you so hard you see stars, and you lose your mind with pleasure and scream my name as you erupt~”

“U-Uh huh... Y-Yes…!!” Vinneketh moaned. It was all true; he did like it. He loved it. He shakily bent his knees and propped himself up on his elbows. He heard Demon growl quietly, then there was a sudden hand slapping his ass. It made him jump and yelp. “Ah!—ohhhhh~” It soon degraded into a loud moan. “All the way up.” Demon ordered, tugging at Vinneketh’s hair and making him groan in pleasure. “Don’t you want it~?”

“Y-Yes...” Vinneketh arched his back and moaned when Demon began to slowly move his hips again. “Yes, I want it!” He felt Demon’s smirk against the skin of his back. “Good Treasure..and what do you want~?”

“I-I...” To Vinneketh’s despair, his lack of response made Demon freeze all movement again. “Demon..” he whimpered. Demon’s fingers dug into his scalp and pulled his head back. “I want to hear you say it.” Vinneketh shuddered. “I... I w-want you to fuck me..” Demon’s hips began to move again, incredibly slowly. “Good Treasure~” he purred, his voice smooth as silk. He licked Vinneketh’s earlobe, making him gasp. “Say it louder~”

“I w-want you to fuck me!” A slight tug on his hair. “Fuck me!”

“Louder!”

“Fuck me!!”

“LOUDER!!” Demon suddenly slammed his hips.

Vinneketh let out a shocked cry. “FUCK ME!” he screamed. “PLEASE, DEMON, FUCK ME!” His shouts were marred by sobs now. “PLEASE!! PLEASE FUCK ME!!”

“Very very good, Treasure~” The hand in his hair moved down to grab hold of his hips. Demon then thrust into him with a brutal force. Brutal..and absolutely perfect. He cried out happily, and his noises soon devolved into shamelessly loud moans. He felt Demon’s form leaning over him, felt his searing red eyes burning into his skin, could hear his deep growling as he fucked him.

Vinneketh’s eyes rolled back in his head as Demon kept fucking him mercilessly, pounding almost punishingly into him. Then Demon suddenly grabbed his cock and squeezed, wrangling a high-pitched gasp from his throat. He began to stroke fast and rough, and everything it made Vinneketh feel made his arms shake and his head fall down as he practically screamed in pleasure. Demon chuckled into his ear, sounding cruelly amused. “You love this, don’t you~? You love it rough~ My whore..my precious little Treasure~” Vinneketh moaned louder. “Yes... Yes, I love it~!! O—Ohhhh Gooods... fuuuuck~!!” Demon growled and grabbed hold of his hair again, pulling his head back up. “Mine..” he growled into his ear. “You are mine~”

Vinneketh only nodded languidly. “Yours..”

“Say it again~”

“Y-Yours~! I am yours~!!”

Demon growled in satisfaction and let go of his husband’s hair, grabbing hold of his hip again to keep up that fast, rough, incredible pace, while still stroking him with his other hand. Vinneketh’s moans and cries reached a fever pitch. Finally it became too much. Vinneketh threw back his head and screamed out his husband’s name as he came hard. Demon kept fucking him through his orgasm, until with a roar he came undone as well.

When he finally pulled out of his husband, the dancer collapsed onto the mattress, jaw slack and moaning softly. Every nerve was humming, alive with euphoria. Demon was doing something, moving behind him, but he didn’t want to move to see what it was. And his eyes felt so heavy...

“Treasure?”

Vinneketh forced his eyes open and looked up. Demon looked back down at him, and he smiled tiredly when he saw that the red was gone from his eyes. “Beloved..” he managed. Demon’s fingers massaged his scalp, and his still-humming body thrummed in pleasure at the contact. “Are you all right?”

“Mmm...” Vinneketh kept smiling. His husband always asked that whenever they did this, just to be sure his inner beast hadn’t severely hurt him. “B’loved... I am much better than all right...” He settled back into the pillows, moaning in contentment. Everything felt so wonderful... his body felt like it was humming... Demon... A gentle hand was stroking his hair. Lips were pressing a kiss to his head. “You should rest, Treasure.”

“Mmm... I should..” he mumbled dazedly.

Demon smiled, holding his husband close as they both drifted off to sleep. With his mating drive sated he finally felt normal again, and it was all thanks to his beautiful Treasure. He pressed a kiss to Vinneketh’s temple. “Thank you, my love. I give you my word..I will never be so foolish again.”

“I certainly hope not. I will be..very cross with you if you deny me such ecstasy again~”

“Perish the thought~”

~END~

#Shandi's drabbles #Shandi's KISSteriaverse #YEP MORE DEMONANKH #TO THE SURPRISE OF NOBODY #this is nooooot safe for woooork~

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Brandon Fractured: Anxiety

Brandon Fractured: Anxiety Anxiety is a torrent of fear that seeps through the mind, it cuts a groove into a void which all other thoughts are lost. In my previous posting about the Brandon Fractured Project, I talked about how I decided to break down the project by scanning the original image, printing it, and reworking it with pencil, ink, colored pencil and ink pencils to represent various issues I struggle with. I felt that some of these issues made me feel fractured. They are apart of me, yet they somehow also felt outside of me. They needed their own space; their own acknowledgment. One of these issues is anxiety, not just general anxiety but also social anxiety too. Typically anxiety for me means dealing with insomnia, irritability, excessive worrying, unwanted thoughts, compulsive behavior, an inability to let things go, and this doesn’t even include the physical.

Social anxiety has me constantly worrying about what I am going to cook, wear or how I will be seen at a social event weeks before it happens. Even months and years after the event, I can still be obsessing over being judged. To this day I still spend hours laying in bed obsessing about my wedding. Was it good enough? Was I a good host? Do David’s friends like me? What could I have done differently? And so on. This is just one example. When I am in a social situation, and it is happening to me, it’s this feeling that all eyes are on me, every laugh in the room is about me. I know it's not rational and the thoughts aren’t wanted but they just keep coming. I think that’s why people often think I seem unapproachable or not easily likable. My fear of being embarrassed, humiliated, or that people will notice my flaws, my anxiousness is tiresome and think my internal struggle shows. It’s hard to maintain a friendly smile. It’s funny though, that I have a degree in public speaking and education, that I can get up in front of group and lecture about a topic I know well without a thought for a job or something I am dedicated too, yet in social situations I deal with this. I guess I don’t have performance anxiety. The general anxiety comes in with obsessive thoughts such as thinking my house is going to burn down, needing me to continue to check the stove and fireplace are off every time I leave the house then obsessing about did I check. Constant self-doubt on every action and decision I make during an episode to the point of feeling stupid and incapable. Another aspect to this anxiety issue is intrusive thoughts, random ideas flash across my mind that only a deranged person would think of, They are disturbing anxious thoughts of a violent nature that even I shock myself, I am ashamed of them. I would never act on these thoughts but wonder how could I even think them. I feel I have no control. I have since learned that all these are normal aspects of anxiety disorder, even the intrusive thoughts. These thoughts are common among people dealing with anxiety and social anxiety. It is normal for someone to be afraid to pick up a kitchen knife in case they go nuts. Or to get anxious at times behind the wheel of a car for fear of swerving uncontrollably into oncoming traffic. Or that they hate to stand on a balcony in case they suddenly decide to jump of it. The thoughts are fueled by a cocktail of anxiety, exhaustion and an overactive imagination. Many people suffer from them, but they would never admit it. These thoughts do come with a feeling of deep shame for even having them in the first place. It is important to dealing with this type of anxiety to unmask the shame and admit this is my normal for what I am dealing with. Thoughts are just thoughts and cannot harm me, it’s a process to learn to find the right way to manage the issue. Back to the project, as I completed the art portrait I realized that it felt unfinished. Undressed. It didn’t give a true sense of the what anxiety was for me. I decided to write a short poem, I suppose you could call it that, to go with it (Which you can read below). I tried several different ways of how to add it to the art piece itself, yet no matter how I tried none of the ideas seemed organic. This is important to me.as I want people to see that these feelings being represented are fundamental to the piece and to my experience. Currently as you can see from the image I have added below I have the writing overlaid on the image. I don’t feel this works and I have since altered the writing I did on this overlay. I have another Idea sketched out that I think will be more effective in its conveyance of my message, so as this project progresses I will see what becomes the final representation. Anxiety It’s like an infection, or a parasite in my skin. It weaves itself into my connective tissues. Traveling through me. There’s no escape now. It moves through my veins, my neurons, into my thoughts. STOP! Stop telling yourself you look weird. No one is laughing at you. They’re not talking about you. They’re not judging you. Stop looking over. Maybe I should have worn something different. Maybe my hair is wrong. Maybe I look fat. Unfriendly. Just SMILE! Why do my clothes suddenly feel so tight? It’s all flooding in! I��m losing my mind! It’s a black hole of self-loathing doubt. I’m pulled in. I’m adrift in a abyss of relentless angst!

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'Dungeons & Dragons' isn't just for the 'Stranger Things' kids — it's for you, too

This is a story about a dwarf barbarian with a beard to die for. Literally, he’s killed people over it. His name is Thorbjork and he is my Dungeons and Dragons character who almost never existed.

For those of you unfamiliar with the game Dungeons and Dragons, (D&D for short) allow me to elucidate. It is what is called a tabletop role-playing game. Basically you and your friends sit around telling a story where you each play as a character, except for the almighty Dungeon Master, who acts as the narrator of the story, describing the people you meet and the places you go. You tell the Dungeon Master (DM) what you want to do, and then use dice throws to determine whether those actions are successful.

If you think this sounds a bit intense, don't worry — so did I. I'd been curious about playing for ages, but it wasn't until last year that I plucked up the nerve to actually do it. So what changed? How did I penetrate this upper echelon of geekdom?

Well, I did, I survived, and I'm here to tell you that you should try it too. Because once you've gotten past the stereotyped image D&D has garnered, there's a whole world of fun to be had.

The D&Dnaissance

Dungeons and Dragons was long resigned to the attic (or more likely the cellar) of too-nerdy-even-for-most-nerds. At worst D&D has been considered actual witchcraft (people really believed it may turn kids into satanists) and at best it has evoked images of players like the Comic Book Shop Guy — a snobby unapproachable nerd.

But Dungeons and Dragons is on the rise once again thanks to pop culture.

Shows like Stranger Things re-introduced the mainstream to Dungeons and Dragons in the form of adorkable children who apply their D&D knowledge to take down inter-dimensional horrors.

But for me, Stranger Things wasn't my portal into the D&D world. That honour goes to Dan Harmon.

Born of my love for Rick and Morty (of which Harmon is co-creator) I started watching Harmonquest. In it Harmon and his celebrity improv buddies are taken on a partially animated (and often deeply troubling) comedy adventure by game master Spencer Crittenden.

For those of you who are yet to experience the glory that is Harmonquest, I strongly recommend you go watch it immediately if not sooner.

Getting over my 'D&D' hang-ups

A few things had held me back from trying D&D in the past. First, when I was 16 I discovered from my then-boyfriend that he and a few of our friends were playing D&D and I was keen to join in. Unfortunately we broke up before I got a chance to join their game.

More generally though I was nervous about my mental maths. I knew that some rudimentary adding and multiplying would be involved, and I was very self-conscious about my mathematical abilities, especially with people there to witness me struggling to do simple sums in my head. Conscious of the perceived flightiness of the "gamer girl" — an image of a girl who pretends to be into gaming just to get the attention of guys, and which I now realise is sexist nonsense — I was anxious about getting in over my head and disappointing any fellow D&Ders.

These fears seem so silly now, but at the time they loomed large enough for me to write off D&D as simply too much for me. Watching Harmonquest remedied that fear — I thought look at these people, they're having so much fun, why shouldn't I?

HarmonQuest Tip: Never start a bit with Dwarf Ghosts. https://t.co/9HpWkT93Yy pic.twitter.com/XrwhuSdHWA

— HarmonQuest (@HarmonQuest) May 19, 2017

About a year ago I returned to university for my final year following a year abroad. It was a tricky transition, but luckily I still had a solid base of friends to help me through it. Then a few of them mentioned that they'd been playing D&D the previous year. Opportunity knocked.

Two of my more experienced mates set up a game for myself and two other novices who had been invited into the fold.

But before we could start, we had to make our characters.

Character creation

Under the guidance of my friends I started to craft the character I would inhabit within the game world. Slowly, like a lump of clay being moulded into a passable ash-tray, Thorbjork emerged.

Thorbjork is a dwarf barbarian. Standing proud at four feet tall, he wields a mighty battleaxe and is immensely strong for his size, especially when flies into a barbarian rage. Sadly he is rather lacking in social skills, as he is chronically uncharismatic. His crowning glory however is his beard — a flowing waterfall of silky blonde hair that is the envy of all who gaze upon it.

BEHOLD!

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I Facebooked my brother later that night to tell him about my creation. "You should get a beard," he said. Haha, what a funny notion! An actual beard, fancy that. And look, it's only £10 on Amazon, how funny would it be if I bought it, just for a joke. Oh man what a funny and ridiculous notion...

The beard arrived the next day, and by some fluke it matched my hair colour perfectly. I slipped the strap over my head and looked in the mirror. "Good lord," I thought to myself "I look awesome."

This is the selfie I sent out the night I first donned the beard.

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Time for gameplay

Now it was time for Thorbjork to sally forth along with two other D&D virgins. Our more experienced friends had to give us some coaching, and it took us a little while to get the hang of the rules, but soon we were slaying orcs and giant spiders like nobody's business. And of course, we always made sure to bring plenty of snacks for the journey.

Thorbjork turned out not to be your typical fantasy hero; he had a tendency for violent outbursts, an obsession with collecting axes, and his go-to defence mechanism whenever he felt socially awkward was to do lunges.

If this all sounds dumb, it's because it is. The point of our D&D sessions wasn't to slay monsters or be heroes, it was to have a good time. I am supremely happy that I got over my hang-ups and just threw myself into the game. Apart from it just being fun, D&D afforded me a useful valve for my frustration and worries at a particularly stressful time. I could put reality on hold for a few hours and just have fun with my friends (not to mention Thorbjork the Uncharismatic).

Thorbjork contemplating his next move.

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The beauty of the game is that it revolves around something we humans seem to naturally love doing — storytelling. Stories give us a playground, a laboratory in which to play with life and narrative.

Now you try it

I would encourage anyone even remotely curious about D&D to go out and give it a go. Don't be daunted by the rules, or the dice, or the fear of some faceless nerd laughing cruelly at your ignorance. Everything you need to get started is here, and there's no end to online communities and boards that can help advise you in your questing. If there's a bunch of you even better, you can muddle your way through it until you become true D&D masters. Don't worry about getting it wrong, there aren't any D&D police that'll come and bust down your door. Not yet anyway.

If elves and goblins aren't your kind of thing then never fear, there are also similar games like Savage Worlds that give you different settings, like the Wild West or Pirates. Here's a fun webcomic that explains how one group created their own story.

The moral of the story is, don't let self-doubt get in the way of what could be a really fun experience. Also my beard is the best, all hail the beard in its voluminous glory.

Thorbjork forever.

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➜ Grimnoir has been accepted!

Welcome to Dahlthir, Devon! Your application for Grimnoir has been approved. You’ll have 5 days to turn in your blog to the masterlist. If you need more time, you can send us a message!

The character portion of the application can be found under the cut. His family turning away from him was heartbreaking! And all those he had known before! It’s great he was able to train his powers and devote them to a good cause, though the execution may be rather brutal. I’m yelling tHough I’m so glad for his relationship with Ivory and how he has someone that doesn’t see him as a monster. I’m so glad. He keeps Ivory’s picture in his pocket and calls it a good luck charm. I’m crying. My heart.

P.S i lov how he feeds stray animals just this pretty scary guy feeding strays. what a good.

Character Name: Grimnoir (goes by either Grim or Noir)

Faceclaim/Series: Kurokichi Kagenui from Shirokuro Kitan

Housing: Tavern, but prefers to not be in his room most of the time. Generally a wanderer.

Age: 36

Appearance: A man of unknown origin, all Grimnoir can truly say for himself is that he’s human. Standing at exactly six feet, his dark skin coupled with his lean body can deceive someone into thinking he is not a threat. The closer one gets to him, the more intimidating he gets—even with only one dark eye, the gaze from it could kill. With unevenly cut dark hair surrounding his long face, the deadpan look he generally gives makes him quite the unapproachable guy. Despite his stature, he carries a large scythe at all times, handling it with precision and ease.

The clothes he wears almost matches his name: a white scarf alongside a dark suit and cape. If asked about his monochrome appearance directly, he’d say that it’s purposeful, but does not go into any detail beyond that.

Are they a part of the Adventurer’s Guild?: No. Prefers to go solo.

Warnings: Alcoholism, abuse, death

Personality:

A very standoffish man, Grimnoir usually keeps to himself and only opens his mouth when confronted or when he feels his words are relevant. This doesn’t always mean that he thinks before he speaks—he’s been known to escalate situations far beyond their usual threshold with his stubborn attitude. He may alienate most people that he encounters, but he prefers to leave it that way for his own personal comfort. Only one man has been able to get close to him in spite of his attitude, so it’s possible for him to create personal relationships.

Grimnoir is used to being alone, and usually he’ll brush off whoever he talks to. He’s very goal-orientated, preferring to go into a situation, fix it the best he can, and come out of it (relatively) unscathed. The various scars on his face, hands and body attest to this. One could say he’s as rough as his appearance—Grimoir often fails to properly care for himself, but when pushed, he’ll claim it’s just a habit.

Positives:

Very good at focusing on the objective—this is especially helpful with quests that he happens to take on.

Wants the best for people around him. Even if he seems intimidating, he’s generally on the “good” side of things. Although it seems like his actions are primarily selfish, they’re what he feels are best for the people around him.

Even if he isn’t close to a person, if they’re within his moral compass, he keeps them safe regardless.

Experienced at what he does. He’s been fighting monsters for the better part of his life, which explains why he’s so powerful. Also performs well under pressure.

Although not a parent, he seems to speak better to kids than people around his age. Having experienced a rough past, he tries to be a source of support for those who had it rough like he did.

Negatives:

Not cooperative, Grimnoir prefers to work solo. If he’s forced into a team situation, he will not perform as well as he usually does, if only because he’s not used to it.

He’s not a very social man. He keeps the few friends he has very close, but ends up depending on them more than he should.

Quite impatient. Although more lenient with kids and teenagers, he has little patience for anyone over the age of 18.

Although strong, he charges into situations head-first without thinking. Grimnoir usually ends up injured as a result, and to make matters worse, he barely cares for his wounds, insisting they’ll heal in time.

An addict: while also addicted to his line of work, he similarly is just as addicted to alcohol and cigarettes. Penniless, he finds himself working more than he should to give himself food and supply his unhealthy habits.

Background:

Born in a small town to a large family under a different name, Grimnoir tended to blend in with his brothers and sisters. Although his powers were not obvious until he was around ten years old, he swears even before then he was able to (accidentally) stop time during fits of frustration. Trying to explain these strange occurrences to his parents or siblings were met with jeering comments, causing him to keep his discovery to himself. However, once it was clear that he was appearing and disappearing at random, his family and the townsfolk began to realize that something “wasn’t right” with him.

Pushed by his family into confessing how much control and knowledge he had of his powers, they deemed him to be an abomination, a creature sent from Satan himself to infiltrate their home. Feeling the tensions rise, he fled town one night, knowing he would be forced out of his home at some point in the near future. Although the transition from having some sort of support to having nothing was rough, he grew accustomed to it quicker than expected. It was during this time that Grimnoir decided to go by his now given name, wanting to shed any association with his previous life.

As he grew older, Grimnoir began to have a better handle of his powers. With no guidance, he had to figure out the extent of his powers on his own, using them to escape uncertain situations and do something as mundane as watching a funny event happen multiple times. Seeing as he’s no stranger to misfortune and the cruelties of the world, he grew to have pity on various townsfolk he’s come across, overhearing their worries and tall tales of criminals who ravage small towns at random.

Hearing these stories for years on end made him frustrated—it seemed as if nobody was willing to do anything about the increased crime rate, and those that did were after material goods rather than the sake of righting wrongs. At the age of fifteen, he decided he was proficient enough to try his hand at being a vigilante. His first few attempts worked out abysmally—the criminals he was after usually escaped or incapacitated him in some manner, frustratingly enough. Only when he realized he could use his powers coupled with his direct fighting technique did he make a life-changing discovery: if he stopped time when those he was up against least expected it, he had an advantage that could lead to their capture.

As time went on and as he grew older, word of his acts of justice spread around various villages. Feared by some, intimidated by many, and fawned upon by most, he was a person that no one knew anything about beyond vague stories and messy anecdotes. Only one person that has encountered Grimnoir has gotten close to him on a personal level: Ivory Baines, a person he met long before he began his vigilantism. They were both schoolchildren, actually.

Despite Grimnoir’s brief stint at academics being a failure, he still felt a connection to Ivory, one that he tried (and failed) to shake off completely. Finding himself staying in that particular town for longer than anticipated, frustration gradually grew into understanding, and he realized he didn’t necessarily want to leave this special person behind. Feeling uncomfortable staying in one place but not wanting to abandon Ivory, he promised to write often, an act that still continues to this day regardless of where he’s staying. It became a habit right away, and getting letters from Ivory made Grimnoir feel… Something unfamiliar.

Without meaning to, Grimnoir felt himself gravitate back to Ivory’s hometown multiple times over the course of about ten years. The way the other treated him made him feel whole in a way no one else had, respecting him, talked to him like he was a human being rather than a monster, and even giving him a place to stay (and refusing to accept payment in spite of his insistence). Even with his addiction to alcohol and cigarettes beginning to emerge well into his 20s, Ivory was patient with him—instead of turning away, he gave him various other coping mechanisms. While his addictions may not have completely vanished, they aren’t as out of control as they used to be.

Their romantic relationship fell into place—the love for each other was mutual, and for once in his life, Grimnoir felt like the universe was kind to him for a change. Although it took years for him to admit to himself that he wanted to be with the other, he was welcomed into Ivory’s life with open arms. They married years later, and to this day Grimnoir believes this is the most important moment in his life by far. Ivory—who is working as a teacher these days—accepted his vigilante ways, only advising him to keep him touch and keep himself safe. This is a tradition he continues to do even now, mostly because it’s difficult for him to function without the other at this point in time.

Aside from Ivory, Grimnoir has no other significant relationships. While he attempted to keep in touch with a handful of people, he drifted so often that they either forgot about him or resented him for his apparent flakiness. While being known throughout the land as a vigilante who fights for justice, many who speak of him don’t completely know what he looks like, nor does he make it apparent who he is when speaking to people. Only those that have directly seen him in action know the extent of him and his abilities (which many assume to be super speed, which he does not discount). Due to his name change, even relatives outside of his immediate family are unable to track him down, a fact that he is content with.

In the present, he works as a bounty hunter, tracking down wanted criminals with expertise and ease. With years of experience behind him, it’s no wonder that he’s good at what he does. He is a lot more brutal than he used to be—if he deems a person to be out of line, Grimnoir will end their life without thought. He gets the reward all the same, and occasionally praise for doing what no one else had the gall to do. Some say the scent of death follows him around, and coupled with his scythe, he has been called the “Grim Ranger.”

Although married, he often works away from his main home, having various other places he crashes at in-between missions (including the tavern). Ultimately, he ends up going back to Ivory from time to time and staying for a week or two at a time before heading out again.

Dahlthir is one of Grimnoir’s temporary stops. He knows he can stop and recharge there temporarily, and now is no different. Seeing the beginnings of a festival, he decides to stay at the tavern for a couple of more days, thinking there’s no harm to overstaying his welcome just this once.

Level: 4

General Powers/Abilities/Unusual Traits Description: A skilled fighter, Grimnoir is no stranger to the the battlefield. His time manipulation is used primarily during a fight, but he has been known to use it in his every day life in order to mess with people. His weapons are handled with ease, and due to his brutal nature, he tends to leave lasting wounds on those he intends to kill.

His primary weapons are his scythe and his crossbow (with varying arrows that have been taken off of bodies he looted). His favorite are steel arrows, if only because they do more damage, so he mostly has those on-hand.

Specific Powers/Abilities/Traits of Note:

Time Manipulator

A trait that he was born with through unknown means, Grimnoir is able to use time to his advantage. Part of what makes him a feared opponent is an ability that only he can truly see—while time may be stopped for him, whoever he is fighting will only see him appear and disappear suddenly in a matter of seconds.

When stopping time, it’s only for forty-five seconds at the most. While the time passes normally for him, it will only seem like a split-second to anyone he’s up against.

Although keeping this aspect of his powers to himself, Grimnoir can reset time as his will, but only up to thirty seconds at the most. Any more than that will give him a massive headache and nosebleeds, which he assumes would kill him if he went back too far.

Weapon Proficiency

Only applies to a few weapons (i.e. scythes and crossbows)

No matter how heavy a scythe is, he handles it with ease—however, he usually sticks with his signature scythe, which has a curved handle and a relatively large blade.

In the case of his crossbow, he’s proficient enough to usually get the shot he wants, and keep a steady aim even in times of extreme duress.

Aim Dodging

Can dodge long-range weapons that are thrown at him, and is skilled at getting himself out of tight spots. This is partially due to his time manipulation, as he’s gotten better at seeing the aim of where weapons may land.

Does not apply to close combat—he cannot dodge as well, only block.

Heavy Hitter

With his powers giving him the appearance of possessing super speed as well, Grimnoir takes advantage of this momentary confusion and attacks his opponent in a hard, brutal fashion. This varies between slicing them and hitting them with the brunt of his scythe.

Extra:

Grimnoir is married to a man named Ivory, who as of right now doesn’t live in the area. He goes back home when he can, and carries along a picture of him in his pocket—he calls it his good luck charm.

An insomniac. He doesn’t tend to sleep very much, and spends his nights either hunting or sitting on rooftops, watching silently.

Likes animals of all kinds, primarily cats and dogs. He doesn’t own one because he can’t afford to, but he feeds scraps to the strays he sees when he can.

Can play the violin decently. He carries one around with him amidst his essentials.

#dahl acceptance

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