#gdamnit

[sillyravenpassingby]

Juuuust tiny reminder of how close Miles was to reaching Gwen's hand

[peachybuni]

Im so fucking obsessed with the idea of someone constantly controlling my ability to get high its not even funny

[tokillamockingbird427]

"And now is the time to think quickly, which has never really been his forte. Right under driving, the #1 thing Keegan sucks at. The two go hand in hand really."

Keegan rlly is the funniest person to write because he has to encounter the most serious situations but is also entirely unserious about them. At least Hesh can lock in when he needs to.

The situation at hand is "Hesh really hates bears and is gonna kill himself about it" which I'd say is homophobic if Hesh weren't gay +into bears and also if I weren't referring the animal.

[minniiaa]

NO NOT THE GUY WHO FIXED MY AIR CONDITIONING TEXTING ME AND ASKING ME ON A DATE FUCKKKKK WHAT DO I DO IF IT BREAKS AGAIN KILL ME

[ronispadez]

I really wanna go to a Palestinian event tonight but my parents don't wanna drive me to it cuz they're centrists on the situation. Asking my siblings if they're free to take me 😭

[hueynomure]

My brain: you aint expecting to get Ao3 notes for just writing scenes in your little doc, right?

Me: *glancing around awkwardly* ...n-no?

[carewyncromwell]

[HPHM] Fallen-Jedi!Ben Copper Moodboard

because the image wouldn’t get out of my head -- love you, @drinkyoursoupbitch! 💙

“You’re asking me to be rational. I know that is something I cannot do.”

~Anakin Skywalker

[impala-dreamer]

If any of you ever suddenly find yourselves in a horror movie, do me a favor and turn a lamp on. I 👏 Cant 👏 See 👏 Shit 👏

[foragecore]

what this actually means is that most people are really bad at flirting

[dragonjesterwrites]

OOOHHGHGHDDEEWWW

[catherinerandom-blog]

GUYS!

GUYS!

Hang on a second, hold up. I NEED you to take a second and think about Ashes final moments in season one, just-

So the Prime Defenders are totally struggling in this major fight against this clearly super tough bad guy, and like, everyone is injured and-

So, sososo, Ashe pulls out this super ominous move, and everyone's a little concerned, but it's SO BADASS

Like he explains his attack, rolls to hit and for damage and we hear the holy words

"So how do you wanna do this?"

And, andandand, then Ashe says something really super epically badass. I don't remember the exact words but it's something along the lines of "for my friends? I would watch the world burn" *italics for emphasis, gdamnit ITALICS FOR EMPHASIS* (AND LIKE HE KINDA DID? S2 ANYONE? THE WORLD BURNING BECAUSE ASHE LOVES HIS FRIENDS??????)

and then, when it starts to take over, he puts on his headphones, (prolly listening to the COOLEST jams) and AIR DRUMS AS IT HAPPENS!!!!

[neengareadynaaready]

I hate this. I’m trying to find a new movie to watch but I just don’t FEEL it. I’m still too hungover from Leo. Shit. It’s all I can think of these days. And I find myself humming to My Life Is in This Town. Gdamnit why is it so difficult to move on??? 😭😭😭

[pruning-the-minds-garden]

Having a chuckle

So, I spent a while picking my name (Meru) that I just updated to. It is of course just my scene name so no it is not my street name and no I'm not telling you my street name don't ask FFS... but even so, I took some time to think about it. Yes, Meru is a character, I hope not a caricature but also not a fully realized representation of who I am as a person. They are parts of me emphasized more than others, parts de-emphasized, and therefore to a certain degree transformed. Based on, shaped by, but not beholden to, my life history and life choices and so on. So, in choosing my name I wanted to choose one that represented that, one that was appropriately expressive but also accessible for people and all that.

Also, I have seen many-a-meme about the ways transfeminine people and transmasculine people and nonbinary people (the third of which is my gender identity as of now) name themselves when they choose such. Things like "transfemme folk choose mythical and fae names like Artemis or Mab; transmasc people choose utterly simple and plain names Brad or Steve; nonbinary people choose object names like Rock or Cloud" and similar. I kinda hate stereotypes so yeah there is a part of me that wanted to rebel from that.

... and of course, Meru is the name of a fucking mountain. A really big rock. An object. A mythical object with a deep connection to my spiritual beliefs, and that is somewhat otherworldly... but still a fucking rock. Gdamnit, lol. I love the name so I'm not changing but I am going to have a chuckle about that.

[cowplant-pizza]

it’s 5:22am and i’ve been in bed since 11pm with my adhd turned obnoxiously up to 12/10 my brain will not stfu and i’m picking my piggies up in less than 6 hrs??!?!? LET ME SLEEP BRAIN GDAMNIT

[carewyncromwell]

#4 and #6 of affectionate things between Carion, please?

4) holding hands!! (Carion)

The very first time Orion ever held Carewyn's hand was after the dramatic Quidditch Cup Final between Slytherin and Ravenclaw. Carewyn had initiated it to offer comfort -- it was a platonic gesture, and nothing more. And yet, at the time, it had filled Orion with strange emotions, both because he was so unused to physical affection and because he'd just seen with his own eyes that Carewyn shared his Patronus. When he returned the gesture and tried to hold her hand, she fortunately didn't pull away -- and Orion found himself holding her hand for almost fifteen whole minutes afterward.

Whatever their Patronus forms might hint, he didn't think he could say definitely that he loved Carewyn. But he did really...really like holding her hand.

It made it so that when they met up again after the War, Orion felt more comfortable with taking Carewyn's hand or shoulder, even just platonically. She'd already broached that sea with him, so it was likely she wouldn't mind it too much, Orion reasoned. Even if by that time, he already knew he'd fallen in love, he could keep things platonic between them. He wouldn't pressure her to see things as he did.

And romantic or not...he did really like holding her hand. He liked feeling like he could comfort her -- help her find balance...when it felt like all she ever did was care about others and neglect herself.

When Orion and Carewyn finally did make their feelings known to each other in December, other methods of expressing affection were broached. Carewyn held Orion's wrist for the first time. She touched his face for the first time. She kissed him...and he, his heart racing, kissed her back. And each one of those things were things Orion enjoyed just as much as holding her hand did. He liked the connection it forged between them -- the open, warm, dedicated bond that now connected them, body and soul. It prompted him to experiment more -- trailing a hand through her hair; resting his head on her shoulder; kissing her on the cheek, forehead, nose, and neck.

And yet out of all of them, the gesture Orion still enjoyed most was holding her hand. With it being romantic, he could hold it differently than before -- run his thumb along the base of hers; enlace their fingers...even hold her hand in both of his, placing kisses to the back of it. Anything to bring that soft, relieved smile back to her face when tension had creased her brow.

Orion wanted to give Carewyn peace. More than anything in the world, he wanted this person who seemed to always have to play the hero, ready to fight for others, to be able to lay down her armor, take that breath she seemed to always be holding, and just be. To be happy -- be content...be herself, at his side, smiling and free. For nothing more was truly needed, in Orion's eyes.

And a simple handhold could communicate all of that, and more.

"You've been holding my hand for a long while now."

"You've been holding a heavy weight for far longer. ...I realize you must shoulder the burden of duty when you are at work...but please, do not strain yourself, trying to play Atlas. The whole world is not yours alone to fix...and you needn't carry the weight of it by yourself."

"...Orion..."

"Yes, my Abraxan?"

"...Thank you."

(6 under the cut!)

6) when they're so patient and understanding with you (Carion)

referencing Roxanni Kim @mira-shard 💙

Orion had always been a free spirit. It was one of the things that had made it difficult for him to make friends as a young child, and even at school, it made it so that the vast majority of the student population just didn't get him. Once he'd become Slytherin Quidditch Captain, people just kind of saw the mystery of him as part of why he was so cool, and that attitude persisted once he was an adult and become the toned Star Chaser of the Montrose Magpies...but that still didn't mean he wasn't a bit eccentric, nor that it was always easy to figure out what he was saying.

One of the few people who became very fluent in "Orionisms," however, was Carewyn. She was probably the one who clued into his way of thinking the fastest of anyone else he'd ever met, in part thanks to her Legilimency potential, but also due to her intense empathy and their oddly similar thought processes, despite the differences in their personalities.

Perhaps it was for this reason that whenever Orion would get too stuck in his own head when trying to express himself, Carewyn would almost always be the one to translate.

"Orion thinks if you like Roxy that much, you should tell her how you feel," Carewyn told her ward patiently.

Erik didn't just roll his eyes: he practically threw them up toward the ceiling, with how impatient and flabbergasted his face looked as he whirled on Orion.

"For fuck's sake -- " he muttered irritably, slapping his hand over his forehead and eyes, before he blared out, " -- how in the bloody hell does that relate to an ashwinder?!"

"My metaphor may or may not have gotten away from me," Orion said serenely. "But it seems to have eluded you completely. Thank you, my Abraxan -- you are a most wonderful compass, on this sea of self-discovery."

Carewyn leaned in to brush his uneven hair out of his face so she could kiss his jawline. "Glad I could help, Captain."

Affectionate Prompts!

[the-dreamer-is-awake]

Things I did today because I feel proud of them gdamnit

-went outside and walked in the sunshine

-put bin out

-handled some admin stuff at the municipal office

-got new toothbrush

-more walkies

-brought bin back in

-lunch

-threw out glass bottles

-applied for a research project that I will probably get rejected for, but I wanted to try and it was good practise collecting all those documents. And writing up the motivation letter.

-more admin, tax payments etc. (bye bye money)

-booked a holiday

-updated calendar

-put away groceries

-cleaned up the dinner table

-made myself a salad for dinner

-dishes

-prepared clothes, breakfast, bag for tomorrow

-just need to shower now, and I'm all set to once again suffer from insomnia and need coffee to get by tomorrow.